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god its actually SO funny that solid snakes two boyfriends are 1. canonically a massive masochist and 2. a squirrelly little crybaby who pisses himself & is terrified of him at first. and no one in the fandom seems to think this has any bearing on what snake is into in the bedroom because snake is also a nice polite boy who knows how to mind his manners
#like to be clear. i do not agree. fandom reached this consensus without my input#theres a pattern here man.#think it probably says something about what hes into.#mgs#not ragging on otacon here its hot that hes like that and solid is right to be into jt#???? someone reblogging this to say 'oh yeah snake definitely bottoms' thats like. not the polar opposite of what i was saying but you+#definitely were not picking up what i was putting down#im saying he got off on the sadomasochism with fox and hal being pathetic is a turnon#he could bottom too who cares but hes absolutely domming and then feeling guilty as hell about it. due to his complexes
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I know how it sounds at first, but I really gotta feel bad for the boys that sacrificed edwin; I mean even the term “sacrificed edwin” paints them in a more sinister light than they really deserve– considering that wasn’t really, actually their intention.
they were bullies, they were homophobic (and/or were self loathing gay boys themselves taking it out on edwin, or were equally likely peer pressured into acting a certain way), they planned something stupid and mean to do to an innocent, anxious boy with the goal of scaring the shit out of him, all because he was effeminate and an easy target. but they didn’t know or expect any of the ritual stuff to be real. they were all laughing and joking during the ritual because it was just that to them– a joke. a cruel joke, but a joke.
teenagers can be mean and stupid and they usually regret it as adults and grow out of it / grow from it. they were stifled the chance to grow out of it, at least while alive. none of those boys deserved to be instakilled and sent to hell; they’re really not that much less deserving than edwin himself. they were all just kids, after all.
#random thought but. yeah……#I mean think about if crystal happened to be killed somehow pre-demonic intervention#she would’ve been deemed deserving of hell by the standards we’ve seen. no doubt about it. if the dragon guys were pulled to hell then yeah.#she would be as well. simply put- she was a bully#she was also a teenager. not a fully developed person. a very damaged and neglected teenager at that#it’s kinda like the criminal justice system right. it’s like. hey you really think sending them to be tormented is the most humane and#efficient way to heal these kids of what makes them act out and allow them to grow and improve?#Crystal’s such a good case to look at because she’s. well. to compare to The Good Place which you can probably already tell I’ve watched 800#times and adore with all my heart. she’s kinda the michael of the group#no one knows it at first but she’s actually kind of a terror to people most of the time. but she’s put in a situation where she#suddenly has a support system- people who care about her and want the best for her- she’s given a purpose and realizes how much better it is#to use her powers to help rather than hurt (well. sometimes helping can involve hurting but you get it)#and by the time she’s regained her memories and has a place in the agency it’s much easier to reflect on her life and be like huh!#this system kinda fucking sucks!#not that edwin wasn’t an example unto himself but he was a ‘clerical error’ not a ‘rightfully’ condemned person#with his situation someone could argue that the problem isn’t with the system being wack as a whole- it should just be maintained better so#these ‘errors’ don’t happen and all the good kids go to their afterlives and the Bad Evil Kids go to hell.#yes yes I know they’re not in hell forever (hopefully) but uhh Simon was still there for over a century and for fucking What?#gay self-loathing and catholic guilt? his intentions were clearly not Truly Evil and more than anything he seems to have been punished using#how much he hated himself for being gay and how guilty he felt for it all. like shit aren’t those feelings enough of a punishment? if he had#lived through that ritual and edwin hadn’t– do you think he would’ve been Okay? I think it would’ve crushed him. chronically#man. anyway#this was an especially long ramble huh#rambling#edwin#edwin payne#dead boy detectives
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honestly I totally understand now how men grow up to be total trashbags
#my brother is going to fit right in lmao#he didn't do two important chores i told him to do today and instead of apologizing for it or even saying that#okay I'll do it tomorrow he's getting irritated by me he's like why are you whining what's done is done let's end this topic#reminded me right of the shitty guys i met on bumble lol#he has the audacity to say that do you like creating problems for yourself and taking stress now that dad isn't here like just#enjoy the freedom and im like um excuse me?? it might be freedom for you but it's not for me because im doing all the housework#and he was just like yeah yeah and rolled his eyes#i give up on him honestly go and continue the cycle be even worse of a man than our dad and his dad and the whole bloodline#die and rot in hell see if i care#guys get so good at this so early on calling women emotional and crazy when literally they're the reason#and being the most ungrateful disgusting ppl on the planet like he really thinks clothes are being magically washed and trash is#being taken out magically and groceries appear in the fridge magically and dinner is made magically#freeloading piece of shit#i hope a thousand women leave him and maybe then he'll finally realise what a yucky man he is#till then im not going to care anymore im not going to raise my parents third child that they're too tired and negligent to raise#my sister is definitely not denying herself any enjoyment she doesn't even feel guilty for how he is so why should i
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doodles from last night
#my art#guilty gear#anji mito#robo ky#...venoms here but i dont feel like tagging him#08#09#'whys venom an old man fucker' somethings wrong with me#also i see the vision that theres no way in hell anji is as young as he looks
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Listen man, I vibe with everyone, canon and OCs. You show up at my doorstep I open the door. I rp with everyone equally.
#petals fall like rain / ooc#the only thing i have in my rules that some might take offense to#is that i dont typically like the whole long lost sibling cousin etc plot without talking first#and i think thats justified tbh like as. a canon i wanna hash stuff out like that prior#but like ive never turned away an oc#if anything I've been on the ghosting/receiving end of being ignored by ocs and fellow canons before#and i typically do not approach first bc of this#but like you will never see me not interact with any one who approaches me#I'm equal opportunity i just want interactions man#but you will also never see me beg for interaction i figure if people are interested they will come#and maybe this makes me look bad ig bc i dont pester oc writers i do follow#but like i also dont wanna bother anyone or be annoying#idk man i feel i guess guilty????#but like yes oc canon you are all equal come to me#hell i even love oc x canon ships like i am down to clown in any capacity#but its very rare for me to reach out first#plus most of the people i do write with are slow repliers or maybe ocs they dont use often or whatever#but like idk i feel really guilty rn but yes idk who you are or who or what you write#if you come i will write with you#thats the tldr here
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Is Aziraphale stupid? Yes. Is he also incredibly smart? Yes. Is he also heavily indoctrinated in heaven’s belief system? Yes. Like I understand why everyone’s mad at him, I really do. I also hurt about it. But like. Idk. Imagine being 6000 years into a way of life you were born into and told was the right way to live. Imagine slowly having the flaws in its veneer shown to you. Imagine having hope for the place that continually excluded you and made you feel little. Imagine wanting to change the fucked up system you were born into. Imagine being given the chance to make real change- someone at the top of the system seeing you, seeing the way you are, and saying that that system needed you and the changes you wanted to make. And yes, your friend, your… something, your everything, wants to run away with you, somewhere outside of the reach of the fucked up system, but you know, god, you know the system will keep hurting people. People like you. People like the person you care about. It will keep passing judgements on them long after you escape. Even if you did manage to escape, you would never escape the weight of those still trapped in the system, trapped in the hell you were trapped in. Could you live with that?
#yapping#good omens#if you’re a us citizen you may or may not relate#like do I want to get the hell out of dodge? yes#but also would I/will I feel immensely guilty about having the ability to leave when I could help? yes#idk man like.#i just keep seeing these absolutely unhinged posts about aziraphale#and I understand its fiction but have some compassion#this guy literally just wants to make the world a better place
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me: this is going to be my nice, fun, lighthearted fandom where I just write lots of low-pressure goofy shit, I really need that right now me: me: me: me: trips and lands 1100 words into a fic about Laura, "Worst!"Logan, and the seven million psychological complexes that Laura's original Logan by all logic would have left her with
#deadpool and wolverine#I loved logan the movie and I loved logan the character in it#but I rewatched for this purpose and jesus christ that man did not do well by her#he might've if he'd had time. but he didn't.#and I greatly enjoyed deadpool and wolverine but it took a goddamn steamroller to her in the interests of its logan's character development#and I Just Think it's much more interesting if we let her have an incredibly complicated relationship with both of them#and if we take an actual look at the fact that 'worst'!logan opens up to her faster in ten minutes than her logan does in two hundred miles#because if we take that as a deliberate point of divergence between logans - it makes sense#he tells us in the same scene that his life is defined by losing people before he ever admitted he cared about them#and that the second is a profound and intrinsic part of the regret#so let's get into that!#let's bounce that off a laura who remembers that the man who saved her life also tried time and again to leave her behind#that he told her to her face she ruined his life#that she accused him of not caring about her and he didn't say a damn word#that he came to save her life and died doing it but he was suicidal when he did it and she damn well knew it#she is not! going! to have simple or straightforward emotions about this man!#she has every reason to be furious and guilty and to grieve not only his death but also everything he never chose to be to her#and everything he might never have chosen to be even if he lived#every reason to feel rejected and abandoned by his life and by his death alike#every reason to wonder if he ever would have let her call him her father if he had the blood in him to argue#every reason to wonder how much she needs to do to count as 'not what they made you'#every reason to struggle to meet the half-spoken standards of a ghost#does she know how much of that was his own self-loathing? does she know he was asking her to do what he never thought he managed?#is it better or worse if she doesn't?#and hell. let's just throw in there what it says that the 'worst' version of logan is more willing to meet her in this than his better self#what exactly are we valuing when we decide that the washed-up alcoholic is the worst thing this man can be?#....so you see why the fic just. happened. since I cannot shut up about this#but by god it's being a bastard to write#much much more difficult than the ''hi wade!' [yukio waves across a kink dungeon and deals wade 2d6 psychic damage]' WIP
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this is a bit personal but it's really fucking weird how I'm just recognizing these patterns with myself where I'll feel incredibly happy, excited, full of energy, only to crash just as quickly within a few HOURS in the SAME DAY and feel fucking god awful and the cycle repeats
"surely you're overthinking it-" I wish. But while contemplating how I ended things with a certain friend who's friendship I DID enjoy after my 18th birthday, I've been keeping tabs on my behavior and it's happened WAAAAY more often looking back on it, I just finally started looking at the signs
1) 18th birthday > excited as hell, ready to write > crashed and cussed out people that didn't deserve it, ended a friendship with violent confrontations
2) sometime in june, happy as hell, ready to start afresh > crashed and blocked another friend. didn't end violently as the last one but huh
3) august, happy to make a server and everything, make new friends etc etc >> fell apart, got consumed by jealousy
4) literally the first fucking week in September was ready to start anew >> had a fight with a friend, tried to commit suicide, failed, fell into a week of depression, also nearly ended my current friendship
And now, today, I was genuinely really happy to start writing again and planning for fics. And then an hour later I'm feeling the same fucking way and just so awful and tempting to pull the same shit (I won't I'm still clearheaded but holy fuck).
And mind you these are just the times I've noticed in 2024, and rethinking it holy SHIT how did my best friend of five years tolerate those moods.
What the fuck is wrong with me. I fucking hate this. I hate this stupid insecure ugly feeling inside me. Why can't I just be happy for once and keep that happiness?? This is so unfair.
#❀ ᭢᜴꤬archon's above#tw sui implied#tw sui ideation#fuck i hate this#i hate this sm#i just want to genuinely enjoy myself#and now i feel so guilty#i want to fix and mend all the shit i fucked up with others but obv I'm not that dumb all at once either#i hate this man#fucking fuck#i feel so lonely#which is DUMB#dumb as hell fuckkk
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i've been real busy with work and today was Especially Busy i barely got to listen to the episode before an important work thing i had going on but i will say. the lovesongs are lovesonging in my head thats the only thing ive taken from this episode (<- delusional)
#dndads spoilers#dndads#kasey rambles#let me explain my delusions here in the tags#last episode we had sparrow and nicky at each others throats with sparrow even threatening to break his own non violence pact#this episode we have taylor and normal now locked up to fight each other#sparrow doesn't want anyone to die (and definitely not any of the teens! not just his own) and nicky definitely doesn't want to lose taylor#and this ep focused so hard on the nicky betrayal that i really do think it COULDVE affected the twins too if anthony weren't a coward#specifically sparrow. ESPECIALLY sparrow. you really think the LOVEWOLF was happy about using violence to scare a friend?#and sparrow's starting to break away from his same man twice deal with lark. there is NO WAY he doesn't feel guilty as hell#coupled with the teens being in a death match. i have been thinking about#about#about sparrow volunteering himself and nicky to fight in taylor and normal's stead#as a proxy for them. yknow#and nicky agrees because he doesn't want to risk taylor's life. and because he's angry at sparrow#but he doesn't realize sparrow's acting out of a sense of misplaced guilt. that he WANTS to die for his mistakes.#anyways. im soooo so normal
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me: yeah so we haven't had a meeting about it yet, but I asked my coworkers about past interns and why they left; chances are they won't hire me full time at my internship immediately. However, the chances of having it extended are pretty good, and I like what I'm doing, and they're going to be talking about budget in July. Sure my finances are a little tight but--
my sperm donor (only slightly exaggerated): look for a new job immediately and tell them if they won't hire you full time you're leaving. and no, I don't care if you don't find something in your industry and you have to settle for a job that will make you hate being alive even more than you already do. Also I'm going to ignore how long it took you to find this internship to begin with
me:
#dylawa rambles#dylawa rants#this man gives zero fucks about actually seeing me go into what I fucking trained to do he just wants me to make him money#i am literally sick to my stomach right now thinking about job hunting again#'i want to see you successful and happy' okay why are you still charging me rent then#why are you making job hunting even more of a traumatic experience than it already is#literally said to him 'I don't trust my chances of finding a new job within two months' and his response: 'oh well go work customer service#it took me MONTHS to find just this internship and it's a miracle it's paid at all#it's in a nice office with nice people and i have my own computer and they feed me almost daily!#i'll live another six months in this hellhole if it means I get a guaranteed post-internship job like this#is it the ideal job? absolutely the hell not#the commute sucks i don't have work from home so i can't get away with doing other shit on the side#i feel limited in what the role requires of me vs what I'd like to make#but good fuck it's better than food service or retail#but nooooo he needs me to be his little rent cash cow without him feeling guilty about it#very tempted to bail even if it means I start eating through my savings a little bit#I don't know if I can go through the daily interrogations of 'did you apply? why aren't you hearing back? it's your fault' again#i have somewhere to go but I'm trying to keep it very 'last resort' territory#A) it would make my current work commute twice as long#B) it would require completely burning bridges with my old man bc I'd have to move out in secret#not just because i don't want him to know where the people who are sheltering me live#but also because if he saw that place even if he was willingly letting me move out he'd say 'absolutely not'#because I don't trust him not to do something weird. not necessarily DANGEROUS but. weird.#I want to burn all bridges someday!#but even now that I own my car it's still not the safest course of action#I'm so sick of being stuck dawg!#dylawa vents
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every day i regret doing physics
#it's literally going to be my 7th subject theres no way in hell im counting it towards my leaving#literally dont understand half of it and not arsed to put the effort in to#but i literally feeling guilty handing up my disastrous fuckin exams to our teacher#he's such a sweet man and genuinely believes in me and im so fond of him. i just Hate his subject outside of the actual class#in class its So interesting and i'll engage as much as i can#but thats where it stops#im really not a science gay i guess#anyway exam tomorrow that i am literally going to do So horrible in because i sat down to studying and starting ranting instead
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it's good that i already don't like jim as a guardian so i am not affected by wheather jim being homophobic in the previews is accurate or out of context, i do worry for little li ming though 😭
"but vi he's tryin-" no i have ZERO empathy and understanding for any bad guardian/parent. i don't care if you have trauma, i don't care if you're poor, i don't care about how difficult your like is, i don't care how much you love the kid but struggle to show it.
if you have to take care of a kid, you do so with love and affection and care regardless or your circumstances, which jim is not the best at, which automatically makes me dislike him as a character, no greys, only black & white.
yes you make mistakes as a parent, but you can always make it up to them, and it costs literally nothing to be kind. stop projecting your problems on your children
#vi.txt#sometimes shows hit too close to home and it hurts sksksks#thank you p'aof for depicting how frustrating it is to live in households with overbearing caretakers#yes its very real yes i still hate it#i agree with every argument of jim trying his best given his life age circumstances but those aren't reasons to condone his behaviour#just because its understandable doesn't mean its okay#because all that does is set a very dangerous precedent#there are parents who have gone through hell and a lot worse and still end up being a hundred times better and kinder#jim as a gay man should be protective of li ming because of how cruel the world is#instead of showing that same cruelty in his face in the name protection#you know all these things sound good that jim's intensions are good even if the way he conveys them isn't#but how are we forgetting that there's the mental health of a very real child at stake here who is only going to see the actions#moments like these are the ones that break you destroy you#stop making excuses for bad parenting it only makes it worse for children in abusive households to not feel guilty
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On a scale from one to ten, how based of me is it that I took the GGST survey for the second time just to put a BlazBlue character that appeared in exactly one novel and then never again in one of my three "additional character I would like to see the most in the future" spots?
#ADD SEVEN TO THE GAME COWARDS#this is a maniac's wish and while i do laugh at myself for it i am also 100% serious about it. i'd love to see him in any game#or anything at all for that matter#i mean c'moooon we've done mages in fighting games already. you've put asuka in strive! what's a silly little witch man no one's ever heard#of?#just imagine... a witch guy with long flowy blonde hair and fluttery robes like asuka's who fights with water and ice magic and maybe a#sword also. now doesn't that just sound like a sight for sore eyes?#he could summon a WATER DRAGON as his cinematic super! can you fathom how cool that would look?!#if we're talking strictly in strive terms he'd probably play like a weird mix of zato asuka and ky#ky for the manner of sword usage (since we have sol nago baiken and JOHNNY as of recently)‚ zato for the feel of flowiness when it comes to#using his abilities (every move connects to the next‚ unlike with asuka who just keeps spawning geometrical bodies)#and asuka for resource management and overall aesthetic (though he could definitely be made so that you don't need an excel sheet to play#him properly arcsys please)#god i wish i had more time in my life I would absolutely learn how to mod guilty gear and mod him over asuka if i could#but if i strived to keep his original ''moveset'' (i say as if he's ever had one) blazblue would probably be the way to go since i've heard#from modders there that you could‚ hypothetically‚ mod an entire new character into the game (though it would obviously take a gargantuan#amount of work)#speaking of which‚ how in sam hell did they manage to mod sin into strive before he was even released???#logs
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When I go home after work and immediately do one chore I feel unstoppable. Yes I do lie in bed for hours after that one single task, but it's not the same. It's better.
#misc#the chore in question was doing a laundry machine#im always late on my laundry cause 80% of the time im too drained to do it the week#but little victory#i mean i will have to unload it later but let's not think about that ok#i have so many appointments lately that i have to honour#physio therapist vet etc.#so i don't really have time#and I'm tired as hell#but ironically i feel a bit better mentally#started to 'deep' clean my apartment#now it's gonna take about three years because i clean and order one thing every ten days#and it's a mess#but it's better than nothing#my therapist said to do it slowly so it's ok#also the purpose is to invite someone to come over one day#so it helps me to clean#i always feel so guilty about the cleaning... like i know i am a filth...#but then i listen to news about how the cleaning is done so much more by women in a relationship than men#and i think 'you know what I always feel like shit cause im a woman i wouldn't even care if i was a man'#but then I'm pissed to be like these men™#(you know the ones...)#so it makes me want to get my apartment in shape skkzkzzkzkzkz#only very very slowly
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i'm sorry i'm literally a chaser for catholic men i don't know what happened.
#spinch speaks!#daydreaming about innocently asking a catholic man to recite his prayers while i silently get off to it#poking and prodding and getting him to open up more about his relationship with his religion. getting all flustered when he brings up -#how he feels guilty sometimes for the things he thinks about#telling him there's nothing wrong with thinking about it. hell there's nothing wrong with doing it either. we can test it together if he wa#okay i'll stop im sorry
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Big strong man Toji thinks he can’t do it after 2 months of fucking you. Every. Single. Day. You must be some undercover assassin trying to kill him by milking his cum and soul with your insatiable horniness and god-tier pussy.
Either way, he’s sure he’s going to die by your hands sooner or later. So, he’s decided to cut ties with you—saving the label ‘guilty of homicide’ off your record…just after this last fuck. It’s tragic, really. He’s finally found a pretty girl who can handle him, but he can’t handle her.
As sad as it sounds, he just had to do it.
The air is so hot that he could almost hear the sizzling of the molecules against his sweat-glazed skin from the back of his head. The sharp pain from how deep your nails sank into his flesh was the lone anchor that held him conscious. Everything was a blur and the only thing he could focus on was the aching tingle in his cockhead as his hips bucked from his nearing 5th orgasm.
Toji could somewhat feel your weight on and off his numb thighs, and your soft tongue came to lick the drool that leaked from the edge of his scared lips. God, you’re actually driving him crazy. “Baby, m’gonna die. Yer’ pussy milkin’ me to death.”
“Haa—mmn! T-This dick mine,” you whimpered out through your pants, slamming your ass down his flexed thighs and garnering two loud groans from the both of you. Fuck. That was hot. Your head lowered to suck and teeth at an unmarked spot on his neck, the way your tongue slowly slither up to his ears making his teeth sink into his lip to suppress another moan.
“Baby t-there’s nothing more—” it was clear you didn’t care to process his words when you sank deeper down his length, each thrust earning a loud sloppy squelch from your tightening pussy.
“Wanna feel good. W-want more, Toji!”
“Aah—shit!” He’s going to crash out if your tight little cunt stays sloppy and tight around him. The threat of another orgasm making his nerves go crazy and his cock goes painful from all the tingles. Toji doesn’t know what would happen to him if he were to cum in your warm cunny again—it’s going to drive him feral in the least.
“Cum w’me, Toji,” you were edging him nearer and nearer to the pit of engulfing pleasure, your sweet words and pretty voice ringing in his mind and god, he swore he could feel his good ol’ brain melting into slimy puddles. “F-Feel good with me, please—mmhp!”
“I’ll give you everything—haa. M’all yours, baby,” his tongue lolls out of his sloppy mouth and your pink muscles met in a messy wet dance. Everything is sticky and wet and hazy but it’s the closest thing to heaven Toji would ever reach. Hell is the place after death for him, and he’d come into terms that your addictive little nympho cunny is his lovely paradise on Earth <3
#found this in my drafts so last post before I leave 😂#jjk x reader#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#toji fushiguro#jujutsu kaisen x reader#toji x reader#jjk smut#toji smut#jjk toji#toji x you#jujutsu kaisen toji#jujutsu kaisen smut
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