#{ mans feels guilty as hell }

[cleromancy]

god its actually SO funny that solid snakes two boyfriends are 1. canonically a massive masochist and 2. a squirrelly little crybaby who pisses himself & is terrified of him at first. and no one in the fandom seems to think this has any bearing on what snake is into in the bedroom because snake is also a nice polite boy who knows how to mind his manners

[edwinisms]

I know how it sounds at first, but I really gotta feel bad for the boys that sacrificed edwin; I mean even the term “sacrificed edwin” paints them in a more sinister light than they really deserve– considering that wasn’t really, actually their intention.

they were bullies, they were homophobic (and/or were self loathing gay boys themselves taking it out on edwin, or were equally likely peer pressured into acting a certain way), they planned something stupid and mean to do to an innocent, anxious boy with the goal of scaring the shit out of him, all because he was effeminate and an easy target. but they didn’t know or expect any of the ritual stuff to be real. they were all laughing and joking during the ritual because it was just that to them– a joke. a cruel joke, but a joke.

teenagers can be mean and stupid and they usually regret it as adults and grow out of it / grow from it. they were stifled the chance to grow out of it, at least while alive. none of those boys deserved to be instakilled and sent to hell; they’re really not that much less deserving than edwin himself. they were all just kids, after all.

[reunioninn]

doodles from last night

[noblereason]

Listen man, I vibe with everyone, canon and OCs. You show up at my doorstep I open the door. I rp with everyone equally.

[pickle-wiggler]

Is Aziraphale stupid? Yes. Is he also incredibly smart? Yes. Is he also heavily indoctrinated in heaven’s belief system? Yes. Like I understand why everyone’s mad at him, I really do. I also hurt about it. But like. Idk. Imagine being 6000 years into a way of life you were born into and told was the right way to live. Imagine slowly having the flaws in its veneer shown to you. Imagine having hope for the place that continually excluded you and made you feel little. Imagine wanting to change the fucked up system you were born into. Imagine being given the chance to make real change- someone at the top of the system seeing you, seeing the way you are, and saying that that system needed you and the changes you wanted to make. And yes, your friend, your… something, your everything, wants to run away with you, somewhere outside of the reach of the fucked up system, but you know, god, you know the system will keep hurting people. People like you. People like the person you care about. It will keep passing judgements on them long after you escape. Even if you did manage to escape, you would never escape the weight of those still trapped in the system, trapped in the hell you were trapped in. Could you live with that?

[lotusarchon]

this is a bit personal but it's really fucking weird how I'm just recognizing these patterns with myself where I'll feel incredibly happy, excited, full of energy, only to crash just as quickly within a few HOURS in the SAME DAY and feel fucking god awful and the cycle repeats

"surely you're overthinking it-" I wish. But while contemplating how I ended things with a certain friend who's friendship I DID enjoy after my 18th birthday, I've been keeping tabs on my behavior and it's happened WAAAAY more often looking back on it, I just finally started looking at the signs

1) 18th birthday > excited as hell, ready to write > crashed and cussed out people that didn't deserve it, ended a friendship with violent confrontations

2) sometime in june, happy as hell, ready to start afresh > crashed and blocked another friend. didn't end violently as the last one but huh

3) august, happy to make a server and everything, make new friends etc etc >> fell apart, got consumed by jealousy

4) literally the first fucking week in September was ready to start anew >> had a fight with a friend, tried to commit suicide, failed, fell into a week of depression, also nearly ended my current friendship

And now, today, I was genuinely really happy to start writing again and planning for fics. And then an hour later I'm feeling the same fucking way and just so awful and tempting to pull the same shit (I won't I'm still clearheaded but holy fuck).

And mind you these are just the times I've noticed in 2024, and rethinking it holy SHIT how did my best friend of five years tolerate those moods.

What the fuck is wrong with me. I fucking hate this. I hate this stupid insecure ugly feeling inside me. Why can't I just be happy for once and keep that happiness?? This is so unfair.

[kaseyskat]

i've been real busy with work and today was Especially Busy i barely got to listen to the episode before an important work thing i had going on but i will say. the lovesongs are lovesonging in my head thats the only thing ive taken from this episode (<- delusional)

[dylawas-reblogs]

me: yeah so we haven't had a meeting about it yet, but I asked my coworkers about past interns and why they left; chances are they won't hire me full time at my internship immediately. However, the chances of having it extended are pretty good, and I like what I'm doing, and they're going to be talking about budget in July. Sure my finances are a little tight but--

my sperm donor (only slightly exaggerated): look for a new job immediately and tell them if they won't hire you full time you're leaving. and no, I don't care if you don't find something in your industry and you have to settle for a job that will make you hate being alive even more than you already do. Also I'm going to ignore how long it took you to find this internship to begin with

me:

[eowylesbian]

every day i regret doing physics

[lyknest]

it's good that i already don't like jim as a guardian so i am not affected by wheather jim being homophobic in the previews is accurate or out of context, i do worry for little li ming though 😭

"but vi he's tryin-" no i have ZERO empathy and understanding for any bad guardian/parent. i don't care if you have trauma, i don't care if you're poor, i don't care about how difficult your like is, i don't care how much you love the kid but struggle to show it.

if you have to take care of a kid, you do so with love and affection and care regardless or your circumstances, which jim is not the best at, which automatically makes me dislike him as a character, no greys, only black & white.

yes you make mistakes as a parent, but you can always make it up to them, and it costs literally nothing to be kind. stop projecting your problems on your children

[fionnaskyborn]

On a scale from one to ten, how based of me is it that I took the GGST survey for the second time just to put a BlazBlue character that appeared in exactly one novel and then never again in one of my three "additional character I would like to see the most in the future" spots?

[tenrose]

When I go home after work and immediately do one chore I feel unstoppable. Yes I do lie in bed for hours after that one single task, but it's not the same. It's better.

[tardis--dreams]

What is it that makes period pain so debilitating. In terms of pain i would probably rate the pepper grinder falling from the top shelf right on my foot the same as the pain rn, but i only ever get knocked out from this particular pain

[spinchs-field]

i'm sorry i'm literally a chaser for catholic men i don't know what happened.

[queenshammer]

How the fuck do I tell my sister I killed one of her fish. It used to be my job to kill fish on purpose and I did it on accident??? Like some kinda casual???

[vi-ii]

the universe doesnt give a shit about balance