#[that just happens when I'm in a certain state even tho that's when I need Rui the most selfship mutuals u get it pls help me out]

[fewsystemsinonebody]

someone still crying as tears go down even tho they don't feel anything anymore after switching with the one who felt sad if that counts

us having a dissociative attack even tho it started for another person (not an emotion but still a continuation of some sort)

used to have an alter who was screaming and crying for us in head space when we needed emotional regulation

Pink wanted to call our doctor because we feel ashamed to do so and still couldn't because we all felt the huge "I don't wanna" and that made him unable to despite the fact he didn't feel afraid

feeling other alter's feelings in "the back of our head" knowing those aren't truly ours but still notocing them which makes us feel weird/uneasy/disturbed/annoyed in general, sometimes we're startled by sudden flood of emotion from another part and we might even mistake it for ours even if it's an intrusive thought but only for a very short time

us making a certain face or say specific words (even in head space) and it creates a fake feeling that reminds our body of smth similar so other alters are untrusting/confused of their intentions/meaning until explained - more an influence of observing the surroundings and medias + memories, actually wonder if someone makes a face like on a gif... do you feel like that gif? because we sometimes do even if it meant smth else to us entirely XD

attack because of something we don't remember but body does

seeing someone in hs and body mimicking their movements without being in co-front

panic attack after trigger even tho we understand we're not in danger as we misunderstood the situation - happened only once

just being blurry? especially when tired and I dunno who's me so obviously no idea which emotions are mine

not being sure who is fronting and for a moment having emotions of an alter by borrowing it due to being mistaken to your own identity - can't explain it well but we sometimes can switch and not notice that then still think certain alter is on the front thinking I love someone when I don't then realising that I don't because... I'm somebody else but for a moment if we don't think much about it we don't care if we truly feel it as we "remember" we're supposed to lol

having non fitting traits/triggers/trauma that split immediately after trigger (leftovers of those alters who are gone - their traits can fall on alters and don't fit which causes splits later)

wanting to do things for others - I "feel" you would like it, I'm sorry you went through that so I'm so empathetic I can feel your pain that even I can be angry for you, I'm "crushing" on someone majority of us are interested in but not as an individual (just happy for others) etc

I'm still nervous/stressed/anxious/afraid even tho we switched and I need some time adjusting/calming down

bad emotions overwhelming the "healthier/happier" part of the system as we share the same body/mind - not anxious in head space but anxious outside for example even if they don't have their own reason at the time or have at least less reasons to

someone's anger affecting entire system, especially alters who are prone to anger even if they don't really have their own reason to be mad at this very moment but they're like set on fire (possibly anger holders)

depressed/suicidal state of the system even if I want to live as an individual even resulting in alter fronting to kms for others without his own will to do so or hearing intrusive thoughts

fragments not having their own emotions if any at all "feeling" those for others in a weird way like they're ordered to (were tought)

intrusive thoughts attacking us like a disease taking control of our thinking or actions for a moment - we're not being ourselves during those moments (usually during very stressful time, being super exhausted/sleepy or very angry)

hope I understood the assignment, if that's not helpful then I'm really deeply sorry!

hello sysblr. please help me out!

can you all tell be about your experiences with emotional influence and emotions 'bleeding through' from another part/alter?

i had an experience recently that is making me think again.

[starfilledsky2810]

damn I yap a lot

tldr; im alive, sadly im still on hiatus, other stuff is fine now I just have new [physical] problems, you'll know when I'm fully back (give it another couple months) and comfortable, I'm in a [technically well-over] 3-month long ongoing depressive episode [not tryna do trauma olympics or make anyone feel bad btw it's all chill]

so sorry if I've left you hanging [with art or smth], I'll get to it in time, I promise [I may have unwillingly forgotten, likely not but there's a chance]

Hey, I'm alive, I have been for the.. almost 6 months I've been gone. Holy shit, I didn't even realise that it's been that long. I figured I should at least say something in case anyone is worried or wondering even though everything isn't solved yet, so, here. [under the read more so it's not flooding or anything]

Also, I figure I should apologise for venting on main and just leaving it up - this is all going to stay up because I need to keep it somewhere to aid with my memory issues - but, still, must've been a little weird

Absolutely not a good time to say all this [for me bc I haven't thought this message through] but I'm kinda half-back, just on hiatus from socials due to declining physical health. Really badly declining, I need help honestly

Originally, as you know, I was gone because I had a really bad fall out with my mother, but things pertaining to that have been solved now [except me not feeling 100% safe and trusting to my mother, that will never change. She's tried hard, I just wish I could find her reliable emotionally as well]. It's just that, since then, basically, all these physical problems that I don't understand have been royally fucking me up and messing with my mental too. It's messed with everything I love. I don't know what to do anymore.

Oh wait, where I was actually going with this, so

OK nvm I forgot but you'll see me around bc I've been talking to certain people trying to pretend like nothing's happened and I've made the kinda-silly decision to not fully come off hiatus or talk to other certain people before I'm okay again.

[liesinmyeyes]

HEY ITS ME AGAIN, that one baby pagan witch who was asking for advice like 3 days ago!

sorry to bother everyone again and yall were really sweet with your advice last time (seriously i appreciate it so much, i feel very welcomed❤️) but i have like one or two more major concerns that are holding me back from pursuing anything further w my craft

so far, i've taken a very casual, laid back approach to worshipping deities. I don't really have the ability to make altars or to give them physical offerings often (the broom closet is tightly locked) , so i mostly just pray before bed after cleansing my hands. And these aren't ornate, pre-planned formal prayers, either. I just kinda silently pray and yap to them about the things that happened to me that day (usually related to the deity, like for example if i wore a cute outfit and people gave me compliments abt it, i'd tell that to Aphrodite) and if have nothing to tell them, i just mutter out a short "Hermes, you make me feel inspired while travelling" or "Hestia, you fill me with warmth at the thought of you". Yes, i pray to like five of them, in a row, usually ending with a slightly more formal prayer to Nyx and Hypnos about a calm night of sleep (though if I want to pray to Aphrodite and Athena in the same night I try and move the prayers dedicated to them as far apart as possible). My point is, I just kinda pray to any and all of them, whenever I feel like it. Is this an incorrect, far too casual and disrespectful approach?

tying into that first point, i often see stuff like deity work pop up on my dash, with neopagans talking about all of these "rules of talking to deities", or "needing to wait for signs from deities", or "them only wanting a relationship with certain people" or "needing to choose a deity /let a deity choose you" and so on and so forth, and that makes me feel bad about being so casual with the Gods. Like I'm just barging in with my stupid disrespectful prayers without "waiting for a sign" or "letting them choose me". It's probs just my anxiety getting in the way of me again, but whenever I see those types of posts, I feel like the Gods are mad at me? I often backpedal and apologise profusely in my prayers, often coming off as overly anxious and apologetic. I've even made offerings as apologies to like every deity under the sun in fear of offending them with my casual approach (some apologies were valid tho bc I did kind of disrespect Aphrodite's authority one time, still super sorry about that), which only happened because I saw posts of other pagans worshipping differently and saying "don't ever worship them this way" or "this is the right way to worship". I'm in a constant state of fear of offending the Gods because I really want them on my side, since they bring me so much happiness and calm, but because of this fear, they ironically also bring me lots of anxiety and doubts and fear. I try and follow the majority of the Delphic maxims, but I end up beating myself up super hard about failing to control my attitude when angry for example and apologising profusely to Apollo. It feels less like a religion of freedom and more like a religion of guilt, which I don't think it should be? It's just kind of hard not having concrete unified rules to abide by. I guess what I'm looking for is advice on how to rid myself of those doubts and not let other pagan's opinions sway me so much.

[nekropsii]

I know the kids in general aren't your thing but what are your thoughts on june egbert as a whole?

I've seen opinions on her existence be pretty varied (tho I guess more recent years its a widely accepted fanon and uh some ppl treat her as canon when.. she's... not lmao..) so I'm curious on your opinion if you have one!

(I personally don't subscribe to the headcanon but otherwise I don't have any strong feelings about it ppl can do whatever they want forever lmao)

I've been vocal about this previously, but in my opinion, all J. Egbert is good J. Egbert. June, John, Transfem, Transmasc, Transneu, Nonbinary, Genderfluid, Multigender, whatever the fuck, I don't care, have fun. Whatever gender people subscribe to the character isn't my business, and I have zero way of telling what it means to people unless they're being super blatant about it, which... Doesn't actually happen often?

I have no way of telling if people subscribe to transfem!June wholesale because that gives them comfort, or transmasc!John because that gives them comfort, or genderfluid!Egbert because that gives them comfort, or even just... Cis Trans Ally John, because that gives them comfort. These are all things I've seen before. I just choose to assume good faith, as is healthier, and respect whatever OP is tagging. If they're tagging art as June, it doesn't matter if she looks the same as she does in canon, or if she's pre-transition, that's June to them, so I'll tag it as June myself. If they're tagging art as John, I tag it as John. I have no way of knowing what their idea of the sex of this character is, and I'd find it weird to "correct" them, when they could very easily just be drawing a headcanon they've had for years and found major comfort and gender euphoria in. I don't know their life.

I think the way people have been using June's confirmation- not canonization to HS^2/HS:BC, she hasn't appeared yet- as a way to be transphobic in any direction is vile. I think if you use June as a way to be transmisogynistic, you're an asshole and a transphobe. If you use June as a way to be bigoted against trans men, you're an asshole and a transphobe. If you're finding a way to use it to be bigoted against nonbinary or multigender people, you're an asshole and a transphobe. I would sure fucking hope this isn't a controversial statement. There's no good reason to be a bigot. A disagreement over gender headcanons is an especially pathetic reason to reduce yourself to transphobia. Come the fuck on now.

More Discussion Under the Cut:

Miscellaneous thoughts include... 1.) She is not canon to Homestuck proper. This is because every piece of Homestuck media outside of literal Homestuck (2009) itself has been very open about the fact that they are not canon to Homestuck (2009). Homestuck (2009) is canon to Homestuck (2009), and nothing else is. HS:BC is canon to itself. HS^2 is canon to itself. The Homestuck Epilogues is canon to itself. Pesterquest is canon to itself. Hiveswap is canon to itself. They are not canon to Homestuck, though. These aren't condemnations of these pieces of media, nor is it a reduction of the meaning of this form of the character to people, it just needs to be stated that they're not canon to Homestuck. This is by design, and is also a well advertised fact about them. 2.) She was not "always intended", or "always canon". I see a lot of people say that June was being intentionally alluded to since 2009, and... That's just... Really blatantly not the case? Extremely magical thinking happening there. I think if June was supposed to happen in Homestuck, and was allegedly intentionally alluded to in Homestuck constantly... She would have happened in Homestuck? There's nothing wrong with an author getting asked to make a certain gender headcanon canon and then, you know, canonizing it because they think it's cool, nor is there anything wrong with an author realizing that an interesting arc for a specific character would be a gender transition in sequel material. It doesn't have to always be a "This was all planned from the start" situation. As someone who is a writer... That's genuinely just not really how writing works, and it really isn't where Hussie's politics were at during the time. Hell, I know a lot of genders, pronouns, sexualities, races, ethnicities, religions, and disability statuses were changed throughout me working on my own writing projects. They weren't all "Planned from the Start", and there's nothing wrong with that. 3.) June fans, I am so sorry. You all deserve so much more than these years of J.K. Rowling-tier """canonization""". This was said to be something that was totally going to happen... On Twitter... Through a magical Toblerone wish... Several years ago. And nothing has really come of it since. Not even a hint!! That sucks so much. 4.) Not to be blunt, but some people are really misogynistic about her. Transitioning doesn't completely change your personality. It doesn't fix all of your problems and flaws. Growing into femininity doesn't magically make you a ditzy bimbo girly girl whose only personality traits are Cute, Stupid, and Female. That's just fucking weird, dog. The way some people treat her status as a woman reads very... Caliborn-esque...

[iamnmbr3]

Thoughts on Tomarry/Harrymort? I saw many people said that are some hints of them in the books, is that true?

I think it's an interesting ship. I've read some fic for it tho I'm not as active in the tomarrymort fandom as some so other blogs could probably give you better meta on canon evidence. Given that in canon both characters spend the majority of their interactions trying to kill each other on sight, you need some sort of AU for it to work. So there's less "evidence" in canon.

It's more that there are a lot of things that make the ship interesting - namely the way Harry and Tom have similar upbringings and backgrounds, share certain personality traits in common (as diary!Riddle himself points out in book 2) have a very intense relationship in canon in which they play pivotal roles in each other's lives, and also are canonically literal soulmates. That said there are certainly some things in canon that can be read as a basis for the ship (beyond the general context of the characters).

Harry canonically finds Riddle extremely attractive - something he notes multiple times throughout the books. He also really likes Tom Riddle when he meets him in book 2 and is very resistant to believing that he's an enemy. Riddle basically has to straight up announce 'I'm Voldemort and I want you to die" before Harry gives up on them being friends and fighting the basilisk together. Harry also is the only person to ever offer Voldemort mercy or compassion - when in their final duel he makes a last ditch effort to get him to repair the damage to his soul and to warn him of what state he'll be left in in the afterlife - even though he expects this offer to fail; again this sort of stuff adds interesting complexity to their interactions.

As an adult, Voldemort can also be read as being kind of obsessed with Harry (though I've read very persuasive meta that argues the opposite as well). These readings often focus on things like the fact that instead of running the country he's just taken over or going on a general murderous rampage or anything like that Riddle spends all of book 7 looking for a better wand so that he can have a duel with Harry and beat him. Like that is the main thing he wants to do. He doesn't want to capture him and slit his throat or feed him Nagini.

He specifically wants to to duel him, which could be read as a sort of obsession. He also seems to enjoy torturing Harry a lot more than other people. Like yes he's certainly very willing to torture and kill people in general if they cross him or...you know...happen to be in the room when he's having a bad day. But he seems to really take inordinate delight in toying with Harry and in hurting in a way he doesn't with other people, which can be read though the lens of Harry representing a failure and unique threat, but can also be read through a Harrymort lens.

For me I think it's more about the potential for interesting stuff given the fact that they are both deadly enemies and also deeply connected to the point of literally sharing a soul. I think a lot of interesting things can be done with that - whether canon divergence with things like Voldemort discovering Harry is his Horcrux and therefore not wanting to kill him, or time travel etc.

[waywardstation]

alright here we go...

I've brought together the basic outline of my idea... and since I said I share it here I am!

I really hope you like it and it is something interesting for you! I had a lot of fun fleshing out these ideas so it's alright.

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Like it is established in your thoughts Warden Ingo is like an empty husk of who he used to be, torn away from his old life, his memories and from Emmet. I've added to this idea that there is a link between certain humans and Reshiram + Zekrom at all times. Aside the fact these humans have a high tendency of leaning into truth/ideals there isn't much else but it gives the dragons some kind of balance and ties to the people of Unova. Kyurem being "just" the husk has no such tie to the people, though it longs for one.

Ingos ties to Zekrom has been severed when he arrived in Hisui and as there already is a human tie in this time on top of being a shadow of his former self it has become a once in a lifetime moment for Kyurem to have a human tie as well.

Kyurem feels Ingo's presence all the way in Hisui and eventually seizes the opportunity to form a human tie with him. But things go horribly wrong and Ingo ends up being in a half frozen state. Never feeling truly warm; the few things his heart remembers from his old life keeping his core just warm enough.

With ice leaking out of him and an incident where he almost hurts (or does hurt) someone(not sure who), he steps down as a Warden and Instructor at the Dojo and decides to hide in one of the many ice caves in the Icelands, so he can no longer be a danger to the people. After all safety of others comes first, no matter what.

Enter Akari who just refuses to leave Ingo to his own misery and is determined to help him out of this no matter how. And no matter what it takes.

(I've also thought of the idea that since Ingo's tie with Zekrom has been severed it affects present Unova as well. With Zekrom being restless + causing random thunderstorms all over Unova. I can see N seeking out the Pokemon trying to find out what's wrong. Not sure though how much Emmet will be involved, I can see him being affected by the severed tie as well as Reshiram, not sure how at this moment though... Especially since Emmet isn't even aware of his tie... just that something is horribly wrong beside that Ingo is missing.)

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and there you have it.

Its really just a rough outline, I think it will get better over time and sound less "rough"...

also excuse any mistakes. There are times I feel the face english isn't my native tongue come through and this might be one...

Hope you like it! Take all the time you need to reply! I am a bit nervous but I'm sure I'll be fine!

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OHHHH OH THIS IS SO COOL I LOVE THIS CONCEPT!! Kyurem wanting a connection with someone but it can’t in its empty state, augh… ;n;

MAN. I could certainly see how this tie would be severed especially if Ingo was placed into a different timeline when this happened (a timeline where he already exists and is fine in the present/hasn’t been sent back yet?). Putting something into a timeline separate from the Zekrom he’s connecting to, and into a timeline where a “him” already exists and is connected to that timeline’s zekrom would leave him without a connection at all. (WHEW THATS CONFUSING but I see your vision and ITS VERY VERY GOOD)

Especially if Ingo doesn’t know exactly what’s going on with this persistent cold and this feeling of connection, I could see why he’d want to separate himself from a situation. Even if it wasn’t a terribly bad incident, don’t give things a chance to do something worse, especially if you don’t understand what you’re dealing with.

I AM GLAD TO HEAR AT LEAST AKARI IS THERE TO HELP WHEN HE TRIES TO WITHDRAW. They will figure out what’s going on together!!!

I love the thought of Zekrom becoming restless. A tie was severed!! I doubt either of them have ever dealt with a situation like that and even know what a severed tie feels like. And the thought of N trying to figure things out and talk to the dragons as well… SO GOOD.

WHAT A GOOD OUTLINE, FRIEND!! I’m so glad you shared it, I enjoy this concept a lot and would love to hear additions you make to it as time goes on!! Thank you for sharing!!

[sapphire-weapon]

Hey so... Capcom hates unions, right? If this is the case... I'm kinda wondering if Stephanie even works with them any more.

See, the past couple of years she's been posting stuff on her Instagram stories about strikes and picketing. Not even just with the recent video game VA ones. The SAG-AFTRA stuff. IIRC she even stopped promoting Death Island stuff for a little while there. This is all good, don't get me wrong... all the AI bullshit needs to stop and I'm ecstatic she's being vocal about it.

As far as I've seen, other RE VAs haven't been posting anything about any of that. I could be wrong about this however.

But this could explain why she's been a little more bold with her statements about stuff lately. And when people asked if Claire was going to be in RE9 she said something like, "Oh they're making that?" Like, she maybe legitimately didn't know they were.

Isn't this the reason why they stopped using the last VA for Claire too? Or am I wrong?

Plus, even if she was replaced, we wouldn't know until the next game or movie comes out or is close to coming out since this seems to be the pattern recently.

Again, I'm probably looking too much into this but I just saw someone else talking about Capcom and unions and IDK... got me thinking.

so... this is something that's been lost to time in a game of telephone. it's something i've even been guilty of perpetuating and only just now realized that i fucked up by perpetuating it when i looked it up to refresh myself on what happened.

alyson court came out in 2017 and said that she would not be returning as claire for RE2make and said that capcom had decided to go with non-union actors instead. paul mercier then also came out and backed up her statement -- that he would not be returning as leon. alyson then made a follow-up video stating that this was NOT related to the recent voice actors strike. it was simply about contracting. basically, capcom shopped around until they found actors they liked that were willing to work at a price that capcom was willing to pay. alyson said that it was extremely disappointing that capcom wasn't willing to pay actors a working wage.

but despite alyson's clarifications, the damage had already been done. what was intended as "i was union-protected to ask for a certain amount of money, and capcom wasn't willing to pay it" morphed into "CAPCOM WILL NO LONGER WORK WITH UNION ACTORS."

but that's patently untrue.

because they kept on matt mercer for both vendetta and DI despite him having always been in the union.

capcom also pays top dollar for union actors in devil may cry. reuben langdon (dante), dan southworth (vergil), and johnny young bosch (nero) are all union actors.

hirabayashi has come out and told us that RE2make was built on a very tight budget due to capcom's lack of faith in the project, so it makes sense that they decided to cut costs where they could -- including when it came to voice acting.

so, really, capcom is willing to work with union actors... but only when they see the cost benefit for doing so.

if steph is no longer voicing claire, it won't be because she's in a union. it'll be because capcom doesn't feel she's worth the money anymore.

but her lack of knowledge of RE9 has nothing to do with her still being in capcom's good graces. as far as we know from leaks, claire isn't in RE9. and if claire isn't in RE9, why the fuck would steph know about its existence? game companies don't contact every single main cast actor in a series and update them every single time a new project is underway. only people who are working on the project know about it.

so, unfortunately, the likeliest explanation remains: stephanie panisello is just an asshole.

good question, tho. good ask.

[murahel]

Sonic X people, please hear me out on that headcanon (even tho it's been like, 15 years since I watched the show entirely).

Tl;dr: Eggman ended up on Mobius to escape the ARK genocide. ⬇️

So I recently felt the urge to check if Eggman in Sonic X was the only human of Mobius, and as to why and how and when the hell did he leave Earth for Mobius to become a tyrannical maniac and stumbled upon this deep and detailed explanation on the wikis-

WHAT DO YOU MEAN UNKNOWN CIRCUMSTANCES

Anyway. I obviously felt the need to skim through Gerald's and Maria's pages to check for any mention of Eggman, but no. Since Maria and Eggman are stated as cousins, it means that Gerald had AT LEAST a wife and two children who are never mentionned nor explained (I remember a line like "she was my grandfather's granddaughter" and not "she was my sister", I hope if Eggman had a hidden murdered big sister, he would at least MENTION it in the ARK.. arc).

(Yes, they could be clones or life experiences of sorts. Or adopted- maybe, in Maria's case. But then what would be the point of me coming up with this whole headcanon, hm?)

Now about numbers. Eggman's age in the wikis is 59. Maria's is 12 when the ARK was, hm, shut down. If we stand by the "it's been 50 years" nice rounded timelapse between the ARK's downfall and Sonic & Co.'s present, Eggman would have been 9yo when G.U.N. raided the ARK.

Now I don't think the guy was running around on Earth freely for an unknown amount of time after- all of Gerald's family was killed- everybody on the ARK was murdered and somehow went to Mobius one day.

Also since Gerald worked on Chaos energy and Chaos Emeralds, which are NATIVE to Mobius' dimension (in the show at least if I remember, idk about the games), it means there was already knowledge of Mobius' dimension in Gerald's time. Since Gerald was already damn old I mean, of a certain age when the ARK was raided, I'll round up the knowledge of Mobius' dimension to 50 years. So by Sonic & Co.'s present, it would have been a century since the discovery of their dimension by Gerald. Anyway, I digress.

What I'm coming up to, is that Eggman could have been born on the ARK just like Maria (yes the wiki states born on Earth but it also states UNKNOWN CIRCUMSTANCES and Eggman doesn't seem very fond or nostalgic of life on Earth ergo he didn't grow up on it so stfu-). The whole Robotnik family could have been living on the ARK, maybe a bit apart from Gerald and Maria because of her illness/Gerald's researches on the top secret Project Shadow to cure her, yes even Maria's own PARENTS and Gerald's wife in this case (if anime's curse of dead parents hasn't reclaimed them all already).

What I mean is that Eggman could have been on the ARK when it was raided by G.U.N. and fled to Mobius' dimension to avoid genocide being murdered. Since G.U.N. shot 12yo Maria, I wouldn't put it past them to shoot 9yo Eggman.

So, what happened? The Robotnik family is on the ARK when G.U.N. raids it and tries to escape to Mobius through a portal, but only manages to get 9yo Eggman through it before the parents and grandmother are killed. The portal is either destroyed by dying Robotnik family members to protect Eggman, or by the G.U.N. agents themselves. Since escape to Mobius isn't possible anymore, Gerald, Maria and Shadow run through the ARK to escape pods towards Earth and the show's events unfold undisturbed from there.

Since Eggman doesn't recognise Shadow 50 years later and doesn't seem to really know the details of Project Shadow, I guess the Robotnik family didn't open the portal with the help of Shadow and his Chaos Control.

(Maybe they were late, dodging G.U.N. agents everywhere, maybe they got to the portal just after it was destroyed, only to find the corpses of the other Robotnik family members, of Maria's parents and uncles and aunts and grandmother and couldn't dwell on the loss because the place was full of G.U.N. agents with fuming barrels who came running after them, yes the agents we see in the show-)

I guess Eggman either forgot it all because of trauma or really wasn't very close to his grandfather and Maria. Or he would have been, but didn't know about Project Shadow because it was top secret or because he was too young (but Maria knew because the project was to save her life). Also maybe his family didn't tragically die trying to escape to Mobius, maybe he just warped himself in another dimension by accident while tinkering in his parents' lab or something, and the Robotnik family just died offscreen but that's less emotional.

Anyway, it's been 15 years since I bingewatched that show with high attention, so maybe I missed a thing or two. Also the fact Eggman never calls Maria his cousin?? I watched it in french maybe it's not the same in other dubs but it's just strange.

Does anynone know an actual explanation? Like, in the "canon" of Sonic X, because I've gathered that it's not the same in the games, I think? Or if this headcanon has already been explained somewhere else, I would love to read a better parsed explanation.

Anyway, that's all folks.

[justajsworkshop]

honest share with you all (i dunno. low-key vent?).

look, i know i'm not talking about all this from the place of "my ideal," but idk. i want to write this for me and for you because it feels nice to get it off my chest, and also i just want you to know that finding certain things more challenging than others doesn't mean you suck at manifesting.

there is zero point to all of this. it's just a long ass stream of consciousness. you do not have to read it or read it all the way to the end. like, spare yourself. lmaooooo.

the two areas i've found the most challenging in my journey are my cat's health and money. i am a very powerful manifestor. sometimes, manifesting felt easier before discovering the law, ngl. because i wasn't trying to intellectualize it; it was just happening.

but since discovering the law, my health has been freakishly easy to improve since i've been able to curb how i talk to myself about my body. interactions with desired people also come pretty naturally to me, too. tho, i don't really want that much from other people. so, i think that's part of it. i rarely dwell in desire with my personal relationships.

before the law, i manifested a new standing desk just by obsessing over what kind i wanted... browsing amazon for waaaay too long every day until one day, i walked outside and saw one on the sidewalk that fit all my desires. (ppl leave furniture for others to take around here all the time.)

^ and this is why i say you don't need to feel it real or anything. if you keep putting something within your awareness, it will materialize. i didn't even consider a certain desk "mine." i just keep obsessing over what kind to get.

other times, i'd just think "huh, this would be nice." and it would come into fruition without any further effort on my part. like i got a new shower head literally delivered and installed without needing to pay for anything or ask anyone just because i wanted a detachable one. a short bit later, the gas company knocked on my door, and i had a new shower head. plus, the water pressure/heat dramatically improved. it was all something i'd thought would be nice but put no conscious effort into "making happen."

i can and have manifested massive windfalls of money, amazing job opportunities, and great financial outcomes; i've done it before many times. but tbh, consistency with this? being able to trust in it? it hasn't always been easy for me, and this is one gap the law has helped me fill. i used to give a lot of power to the method or my feeling state or whether to think about it or not think about it, etc.

recently, i've been feeling immense relief being able to experience my finances as i desire them to be in imagination. it's been nice. i am SO abundant! so, when appearances show me something different, i just go back to my imaginal experience and be who i want to be. or maybe i'll just remind myself that it's all ok, that i'm ok, that it'll all be ok. or i'll ask myself "what if the money has always been there?" and i chuckle and smile because i know it has been.

i gently remind my anxiety we're no longer in egypt: we've been freed. my linear mind wants to sound off that the house in on fire rn, ngl. but i find so much peace in remembering that i'm not what i experience with my physical body. reality isn't what these physical eyes see or what these physical ear hear. i'm the awareness through which all experiences i can ever desire to experience pass through, so i feed my awareness with wonderful experiences.

i worry about my cat a lot because, yknow, he's my lil guy. he's my whole world. and i've been able to manifest good health for him in certain areas; it's just this one that's been more challenging for me.

idk, it's like this chew toy my anxiety will not let go of, and i'm like, bruh, why are you holding onto this? we don't enjoy it!! (using "we" language here because i tend to take an internal family systems approach to how i experience myself, observing different parts of me while knowing it's all me.)

but anyway—i know i'm entirely the source of my suffering here, jfc. it almost... makes me laugh rn as i write it tho?? the sheer absurdity of the mind to insist, insist, insist on this one experience that it KNOWS it doesn't like. like, my dude, there's an infinite feast available. why do you keep eating this terrible food??? pls, i beg of you. it's so silly? i finally just booked a vet appointment for him, the one i probably should have done months ago, and now it's a game of being like "alright, money. do your thing. jump in my bank account."

it's so fucking dumb because i'm literally masterful at manifesting money, and yet i pretend i can't for some stupid psyche/ego reason. doesn't matter either way because i still imagine myself as i'd like to be even if the physical mind is being a right wanker. lmfao. but when i immerse myself in imagination, i don't see how i couldn't be my desired self because there i am!

thank god thoughts alone don't manifest because i've thought some HORRIBLE SHIT in the past few days, but guess who's still here, kicking around, and doing just fine? me (and my cat).

i no longer desire to shift. i experience my DR all the time imaginally. you can't tell me i haven't shifted because i've done it dozens of times now, and i love it. i started affirming i'm not tapping into the void state/point consciousness during meditation, and it's allowed me to enjoy evening meditation again. i can just be instead of trying for anything. thank goodness.

so, i dunno. i'm sorry you read this, but i did warn you it was pointless lololol. this is just a random update on stuff i've been up to but in a less polished version than you usually get.

i hope you're doing well. i imagine you well. may life surprise you with many wonderful gifts today. <3

[mugeesworld]

Rules / Master Lists! ♥︎

Not in the best mental state currently. I want to start writing again soon but it doesn't fit into my schedule sadly. With Summer coming up I might have time tho! Thank you for looking at my page! Feel free to still leave requests tho! I'll come back to them🫶- May 18 23

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[orecana]

Such a beautiful doll

Nishimura riki x male reader

Hello everyone, Orecana here!

I wanted to write this story while it's still in my head so that I don't forget the next day(it happens all the time.)

I hope you enjoy this story

WARNING: this story contains horror elements including creepy dolls and creepy humans and scary laughter.

(if you don't like boy's love, then please get the hell out of this story!)

It was really late at night when niki had just finished his night classes and decided to go home for the day.

Unfortunately, his basketball mates decided that he should join them in attempting to summon the spirit that haunted their school.

There was an urban legend in the school.

It says that there was a boy who used to study in this school, he loved attending arts and crafts class and made many achievements.

One of them was to make many pretty dolls to donate to the poor children.

Unfortunately, a bunch of jealous students decided to pile all of his creations to burn it all up.

The boy did not take it well and begins to violently fight the students.

He was not able to do anything tho because he was outnumbered. They bullied him relentlessly.

The next day at school, the teachers found the boy dead in front of the school gates, bloodied with his hair covering his eyes with his mouth stitched.

The doctors finds out that the boy has done this to himself, and one of his eyes was replaced with a button.

After that though, all the people who bullied him was soon found in the same state as he did one at a time.

The legend says that whoever goes into the arts and crafts room will see a doll waiting for them. It needs to be repaired though, so you must fix it within 3 hours and place it in the location it wishes to be in. Succeed and the doll will bless you with sth. Fail to do so, you will be a doll yourself.

Niki and the group go into the arts and crafts room as the group jokes about this being a prank.

They search around but doesn't see a doll at all and some of the boys loudly wail about this being a joke. Unknowingly, niki smirks as he look at a small cupboard on his right. Confused as to why niki was smirking, the rest of the group look there as well and they stared wide eyed.

There it was. The doll that they needed to "repair". Although it was weird, it's not broken down tho. It had neck length hair and blue teal eyes and wears the girl's school uniform with a stitched smile as it tilted its head while looking at them blinking left and right as if it's scanning them.

(sth like this)

The group feels scared as the doll speaks, despite having its mouth stitched

"hello everyone, I'm so glad you have come to play our game tonight. Although this time i have to break the tradition because the master request this for you all. We didn't expect this much people after all.

As the doll speaks, some boys of the group tried to leave because they were scared but they haven't even gotten close to the door when blood was spilled.

Their heads were blown off as their corpses collapses. The others scream in fright as their heads continue being blown off one by one.

This continued until only 6 people were left, covered in blood head to toes as the corpses of their team surrounded them.

Niki looks in disgust that his school uniform was dirties but also cannot shake the fact that this doll was capable of killing them on the spot.

It is really scary.

"as I was saying before I was rudely interrupted, you each will carry a doll that you must fix with the equipment you find around the school. Each doll needs a certain tool to fix them and they are all hidden around the school. Some places hold hints as to where your respective tools are, so watch for them. If you are done repairing your doll then it will tell you to place them somewhere. Do exactly that and you will win! You have 3 hours. Let the game commence!"

Niki and the others immediately runs outside the room. Niki looks left and right from room to room, in order to find what he needs to fix the doll he was given. Fortunately, he found one of the items needed in the girl's bathroom. A box of thread.

Silently giving himself a victorious yes, he pockets it and decides to explore the sports hall.

He was about to give up really. He had searched almost everywhere, the pool, the gym, and the locker rooms but he couldn't find anything.

To make matters worse, the girl doll in the art room seems to catch on that he was getting closer to winning so it deployed a deadly doll to be on the lookout for niki and his groups. If it catches anyone of them, they're a goner.

He hears the doll approaching so he hid in a locker and holds his breath. The doll laughs maniacally as it walks taunting niki and his group mates to come out, he knows where they are anyways. Thankfully for niki, it walks past the locker he was in and he subconsciously lets out a sigh of relief.

He carefully steps out, making sure that locker doesn't make any noise. He decides to check the last room, the abandoned laundry.

The school used to have a laundry in the sports hall but since it had always malfunctioned, they decided to close it off. Niki goes down there and immediately knows that whatever he is looking for is there. One of the laundromat was turned on and he goes to turn it off.

He opens the lid and checks inside to find what he needed. A golden needle to sew the doll. Despite having all the necessity, niki knows that he needs one more item. As fate would have had it, a doll emerges from one of the laundromat with a giant pair of scissors.

Niki runs the moment he sees barely escaping the scissors that threatens to cut off his entire body into pieces. He looks back behind him to see the doll chasing after him, scissors in hand.

Then he notices something, attached to its vest seems to be a small gemstone. Knowing that this must be what he needed, he decided to find a way to get it without having to deal with the doll's scissors.

Luckily for him, one of his stupid group mate accidentally come across the doll as he screams in fear before getting killed brutally by the doll. Niki takes this chance to run and grabs the gemstone form its vest before sprinting off.

The doll stood there in shock that the human was able to get the gemstone from its vest. It drops the scissors as it lays there smiling through its stitched mouth.

"the master will definitely like him"

Niki runs back into the main building as he tries to find a table to get to work. Eventually, he finds one as he begins sewing the doll back to its proper shape. By inserting the red gemstone into its bowtie, the doll blinks and looks at niki.

"I would like to be at the garden."

Niki nods and caresses it as he walks towards the garden.

"thank you for rebuilding us, human. Although it seems that we are very cruel, we are actually just lost souls trying to find peace."

"The master would put our soul into these dolls and lets us live a happy life until we reach a happy ending."

"I thank you again human. For setting me free."

Niki smiles when they finally reach the garden as the wind blows.

"I will go now, human. But I will give you my blessings. Those who have done harm to you will not get away with it."

Thank you

Niki smiles as he laid the doll on a chair in the garden as he watches it smiles happily at him and waves his arms, signalling goodbye. It slowly goes limp, meaning the soul has moved on.

He cries a bit as he looks at the doll and how touching whoever this urban legend is. They are a good person.

Now that he has done what was needed to be done, he was about to step out of the garden when he was impaled by garden shears.

His eyes were wide as blood pours out of his chest and mouth. he looks behind him to see one of his mates stabbing him with it.

"YOU LITTLE SHIT, YOU PLANNED THIS DIDN'T YOU? TO GET US ALL KILLED!"

Niki wanted to reply but it's only able to choke on his blood as the shears digs in deeper and deeper.

"I WILL KILL YOU, THEN THIS WHOLE THING WILL BE OVER! DIE!!!!!!!"

Niki prepares for his death as he was already impaled but it didn't come. He heard his mate choke. Niki turns to look at him to see a doll strangling him. It cracks his neck as the body falls onto the ground.

The doll turns around and pulls out the shears. Niki screams in pain. He clutches his chest while he's down on his knees as he looks up to look at the doll. It only pulls him by the hand to somewhere in the school.

It was a dark and abandoned hallway and niki recognized this place. It was the abandoned third year building. They entered a room and there he was. The dollmaster.

He turns around, his face and appearance fits perfectly to what was described in the urban legend.

"welcome to my humble domain, nishimura riki.you have just freed one of my children. Thank you so much."

He holds niki's hands as he shivers from the contact. Because the dollmaster is dead, his corpse was so cold.

"I only wanted to tell you this, you may leave the school grounds now. Though, you have intrigued me. If you ever want to see me again, feel free to visit me here again niki-kun. *Giggles*"

Riki feels his chest slowly started to heal and his head was throbbing with pain.

"goodbye, niki-kun"

Niki wakes up outside the school with the police force and ambulance surrounding him. The medical staff pulls in a lot of people into their Vans before heading off to the hospital.

'must be my group mates "

Niki parents hugged him while crying, his mother saying that he was gone for hours at school so she thought he was kidnapped or something.

He only hug his parents back as they enjoy their reunion. They pulled away as the police check and asked niki about what happened.

He lied, saying that his head hurts and his memories of the event is fuzzy. Thankfully, the police didn't push it and allowed niki and his parents to go home.

Before going with his parents, niki turned around and there he was. The dollmaster. Dressed in the school uniform holding that girl doll which was waving at him. The dollmaster smiles with those 'colored' eyes as they says

"we hope that we will see you again, niki-kun!"

Niki smiles and go home with his family, maybe he will give the dollmaster another visit. This time they will be in friendly terms and maybe.... Just maybe.... Niki can finally find someone who he can get along with even if they're already dead.

[sayakxmi]

[Magi rewatch] Episode 14: Alibaba's Answer [Part 1]

Alrite, let's get the party started. I kept telling myself I'll watch it today for the past week, and, well, then I didn't, obviously. Certainly doesn't help that I was jumping around the series a little, just because I felt like rereading certain parts, whoops.

I need you to understand that this is what stares at me whenever I go back to that player in the tab, awaiting its moment.

Her

Weird magic shit

Done with the monkeys

Bro, I still think about the fact that most of the fight was an anime-exlusive thing, god damn

,,,that first one kinda looks like it's crying over the (most likely) dead guy, I'm kind of sad.

Sadly, no cool "social anxiety metaphor" with all these eyes, I thought it was neat, but oh well.

You don't understand, he's walking so slow, it looks kind of silly, but also he's leaning forward a little like he's about to punch the bitch (not yet)

Also, there was no cool Alibaba telling people to think carefully abt the whole slave nation thing. Tho maybe it'll happen a little later?

Like, I think 23rd's reaction was really cut short in general.

Also, there's no Alibaba placing himself between Sahbmad and 23rd, god damn it, the anime is just so adamant about skipping these moments. And I find them such an interesting trait of Alibaba - he constantly places himself between the people he cares about (or feels somewhat responsible for, like Aladdin in the 2nd chapter) and danger, literally putting himself in danger in the process. It's... sweet, but also a bit concerning, obviously. Because it's not just a few times, it's an actual habit of manga!Alibaba. He might not always be able to fight, but he still wants to protect others, to the point of risking his life. You get why I say it's a bit concerning?

There will be a scene later on, not in the anime, god fucking dammit, of course it won't, but in the manga, where after getting his shit wrecked by the attackers after leaving Zagan, and also shielding Morgiana at that time, he still drags himself to shield Sharrkan after he gets cut. Like, Alibaba can't even stand, and he still makes himself a human shield. Good thing Sharrkan was still mostly fine, cuz Alibaba was about to take that stab.

I will definitely get back to it when it happens, but, anyway, the anime annoys me for skipping all of that. It happens far too often for it not to be a pretty important character trait.

Anyway, I feel like as he walks, anime!Alibaba looks more... hm, openly angry I'd say? In the manga he keeps his cool, which I think is neat. Like, in the anime he argues, in the manga he states a fact kind of thing?

But then in the moments where he's supposed to look more emotional it feels a bit flat for some reason. Might be because of the artstyle, tho.

I wanted the machete-grab, but the screen ended up looking kind of silly, he looks like he's like 5 years younger than he actually is, which is somewhere past 17. He's still 17 when he leaves Sindria and there's that age thing with Pisti, but I think he's said to be almost 18 then. I'll correct myself I'm I'm wrong, but that would mean he's 17 now (he spent 6 months in Sindria. Which was timeskipped. Of course.)

Bitchslapped as he deserved to be. Also, love how unbothered the guy in the bg looks. Eh, just your regular coup d'etat, it do be like that sometimes.

Oh, but looking closer, he might be actually thinking "god, fucking finally somebody slapped that moron".

Asdfghjkl, how hard did Alibaba hit him for him to spin around like that

Again, anime!Alibaba feels a bit more expressive, while in the manga he seems to be completely calm. Maybe even a little sad that things had gotten to this point.

Sometimes I feel like I'm a bit overly-judgemental with these expressions and shit, but, honestly, I do think it matters. You get different impressions of the characters, even if you don't realize that. Manga!Alibaba is empathetic but fair, gets overwhelmed easily, but he can keep his cool once he gets a moment to breathe and figure things out in his mind, and then he puts all of his focus in the task at hand. Anime!Alibaba feels more openly emotional, which isn't that bad, but they don't really draw him with the same form of poise Manga!Alibaba is capable of, he's more hasty, too, while in the manga he's more willing to try things like deception rather than fight right away. And while he's still empathetic, he comes off at a bit weird at times, like empathizing with Jamil in the Dungeon, while in the manga he was like, sucks to be you, anyway. All in all, I'd say that Anime!Alibaba simply comes off as more shounen-like than Manga!Alibaba.

And, as I've said numerous times, it's not just him. Sinbad is even more of a hypocrite, and frankly, the anime kind of loses the fact that he's insanely charismatic and good at social stuff in general - he also comes off as more hasty than the manga one. Manga!Sinbad knows how to play the long game, Anime!Sinbad just wants to get shit done immediately. And also tries to get people to fight, while in the manga he more lifts their spirits up, and does support their (well, mostly Alibaba's) attempts at talking it out.

I won't lie, Anime!Morgiana comes off as a bit of a meathead at times, all too willing to just kick stuff right away, while Manga!Morgiana only restores to violence when she isn't given other options. Though the anime does give her more screentime, I'll give them that.

And Aladdin, for the most part, lacks the agency he has in the manga. He's even more of an innocent child, which makes him terrifying, when he does get himself involved with stuff. He doesn't really have a moral compass, it's just, if I like you, I'll help you, and if I don't, I won't. It makes him seem so insensitive, which very much isn't like Manga!Aladdin who, while somewhat confused at times, means well, and is quick to at least try to help, when there's trouble.

Anyway, I'll keep comparing that stuff. Back to the ep.

My beautiful daughter.

Weird magic shit, but also

Ja'far: Oh come on, what is it now?! Woman: Wow, so pretty :D Masrur: (read at 6:15)

Masrur just couldn't care less, beautiful.

Ok, fine, he looks surprised a moment later

These shiny eyelashes, lmao

And he's there

That's creepy as fuck. Awesome.

"That's the guy I'm supposed to marry?"

King?

No king.

I love her face here, lmao.

God, I just love them

No more Kingdom

w hat

Why is Notre Empire playing

REPUBLIC!

Srsly, why Notre Empire

Bro's late, but to his credit, it's for a good reason.

Technically he doesn't look happy and all, but all Alibaba'd said was "Sorry I left, but this is my answer", so it kinda doesn't work all that well :/

[waitingforeddyneddy]

So, I discovered your blog on twitter as I saw someone saying to block you and it made me curious to see what that was about and while I don’t really care about a lot of your opinions, I would like to give me 2 cents on certain topics you’ve touched previously bc you said that people can rant on your blog and it’s hard to find a place to give your honest opinion. So here goes: First of all, I wish people would stop hating on Jonny for his likes and comments. And I say that I someone who doesn’t care for that man. While I don’t buy into the theory that he and Simone hate each other, it’s pretty clear that he doesn’t have a soft spot for her like he does for Phoebe and CC, which is fine by me bc Simone also doesn’t have a soft spot for him like she does for Ncuti and Phoebe. And I absolutely don’t think she supports them only bc she’s friends with them cause I don’t think she’s that close to anyone she’s worked with and keeps her personal and professional life separate. I think she just supports people she really likes just like Jonny and that’s ok. They worked together and then went their separate ways and only engage with people they really like online. It’s mutual. Second of all, there are so many Simone fans who throw her under the bus in order to defend Jonny and it’s sad to watch. There really is no difference in the way they speak about her when defending him and how a hater would put her down if someone said something about their fave like NC or India. I remember the way some people were talking about her when they ss I guess your blog and then a fan pointed out to stop dragging Simone which lead to someone saying that they are defending Jonny from homophobia. Now nobody should tolerate homophobia, but there really was no need to say stuff like ‘they hate him bc he’s booked and she isn’t’ and ‘he’s not the one who told people to not ask questions about his job, she did’. Like hate on the person writing homophobic shit. Why are you dragging that person’s favourite celebrity like a hater would in order to get at them?! And they’re apparently fans of the person they’re dragging! I’m convinced that 97% of Simone/Jonny fans would absolutely choose him over her if they ever had to and it’s sad. I really want her to have her own fans one day. Anyways, rant over!

Hi!

I don't think Simone and JB hate each other, let me tell you the whole campaign "block that person" that started on twitter against me took place because I went against some mean girls of the fandom who thought they held the universal truth in their hands....this being that JB and Simone are besties. I don't think they are, and as you said, they're probably just collegues who worked on a project together and that's it. I do think Simone had a bad experience on that set tho.

you're absolutely correct when you say some people only disguise themselves as Simone fans because the've proven so many times that they're ready to throw Simone under the bus to defend that man when I "attack" him on my blog. If they're so pissed with me is there a reason to joke about Simone state of employment? or to say "I'm a Simone stan but I have no choice but to say this about her..." these are things that happened not more than a month ago, it was said by people who even have Simone fan pages on twitter or instagram. Fucking yikes.

Also don't worry, Simone does have her fans, when her other projects come out it's only going to get better

[feisaru]

Oooooo may I ask about 🫂 and 🎭 headcanons for Fei please?!

And if you're still up for more, than 👗 and 🧸 headcanons for Saru please and thank you! uwu///

Thank you so much for the ask! Sorry this took so long, I had to think about it

🫂: a hc about friendship

WHOA buckle up this one's a tad bit personal. Him and Saru have been in a "friendship" until they were around 20 years old. Maybe they updated the label to "BEST friends" once, but that was the peak of it (still was a huge step for Saru) (and this made me remember a really bad shitpost scenario ft. my OC). That's when Saru went "haha if it weren't for him, I would be dead by now, might as well just-" and pulled his head out of his ass (this means "stopped being a coward" for those who don't know) and really said "I love you" for the first time without beating about the bush (The reason Fei didn't feel the need to confess before Saru is a topic for another time but here's a hint: it was not because he was afraid of rejection). The thing is, by that point they had been kissing (and everything else basically) in high frequency for a few years already. Most things you'd think are a couple thing, they probably had done already. Their Something, as I like to call it bc that's how Saru started thinking about it one day as well, just had no real label beyond friends (which to Saru is already a special thing, anyway). And they didn't even really feel the need to label it. It was beyond categorization. Their special Something. I'm relatively new to this label in particular, but I guess this goes in the direction of the QPR domain (label that's v dear to me also). Yeah so turning their weird little beautiful Something into an official relationship was in and of itself just a matter of formalities. Quite literally almost nothing changed after they became official partners. But they sure do enjoy telling each other they love each other from that point on. (This makes me wanna reread the other times I've talked about this... damn)

Okay all jokes aside, the real hc was, Zanark and Fei actually get on pretty well. Fei gets on with a lot of people, sure, but Zanark is not so into being friends with everyone and he likes Fei a lot. He thinks Fei is amazing for still being the way he is, for not caving in and letting all that happened weigh him down forever although life has evidently dealt him a bad hand. But he also thinks Fei should most definitely not be shouldering all the burden by himself. I and a friend of mine agreed that it would have been nice if Fei had gotten to structure his thoughts in a more personal talk with someone before the final match. You know, unpacked a bit about Everything that was racing through his head, stated his motivations to someone, made up his mind on some stuff. More explicitly and in more depth and length than canon allowed him to. And even tho Zanark is no expert at comforting, we both thought that Zanark would have liked to check up on him. And Fei would have not had such a hard time explaining some things to him because they are from the same time etc etc. So we roleplayed something that you can imagine as a scene that happened off-screen. It was very very nice I loved that

🎭: a hc about what they lie about

Hard one. Fei doesn't lie a lot. He really sucks at that, as Saru mentioned once. He downplays things or avoids talking about certain topics altogether instead. So even if that's technically cheating, I'll tell you about that instead. He has a tendency to downplay his own feelings and needs. He wants to look after everything and everyone as much as he can and he forgets that he deserves breaks and somebody looking after him too.

👗: a hc about their clothing style

HHHH lotta thoughts on this one actually. But I'mma control myself. Saru is half This Guy Has No Fashion Sense, half Extra. He only knows how to dress when he really wants to. He's gender non-conforming about it. The harder you tell him he shouldn't wear this or that, the harder he wears it. Because he runs on spite. He will wear it because he can, fuck your whole life heteronormativity. He has overly specific kinds of clothes that he feels good in. He loves wearing heels because he is like the dog on the counter that likes feeling Tall.

Okay, so I don't get carried away any more, here's sth more specific: in his generally tad bit less bold first 3-5 years post-CS, he always found himself returning to oversized hoodies and pullovers. There was a rather simple black one that he wore often.

🧸: a hc about their childhood

Hah this one's hard... because these are the thoughts I really only speak about once in a blue moon, even privately with the people closer to me. Let me try and find something that won't feel so exposing (for lack of a better word) in my head.

Once again a beta hc that may change in the future: I like to think that similarly to Fei's rabbit, he once owned a monkey plush. Basically from birth on. I have not yet made up my mind about what exactly happened to it, but whichever was its fate, it wasn't good. Saru quickly grew to be not very fond of it because of who he got it from and what it stood for, to lightly put it. The plush has experienced his beginner attempts at externalizing his inner pain.

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[separatist-apologist]

Hi, I am your Ottoman Obession era Anon.

Yes, I would recommend the book. Shadows of God by Alan Mikhail. I think i pick thus book after halfway watching Rise of Empire : Ottoman in Netflix. Why you should read this book? Please allow me to share my thought

1. I am not someone from History study or Labguage study. Therefore, I want to read history book that are easy to understand and not overcomplicated. You know,most often I put down the book because I couldnt follow the story or underatand what is going on. And i am not native English speaker, and it just hard for me to read certain book. Or maybe the author tried to hard to impress reader with bombastic word that after googling the word, i am still dont see how it make sense.

But this book? Damn, i feel like a girly pop reading a diary. It doenst just blandly narrated a story but I found this book interesting because it also give us the insight of the character. If i look back, it follows Selim journey from his childhood to how he claimed the throne. I can understand what is going on in the book and not to get lost myself.

Ngl, since the historical figure mention in the book is Selim, i am now rooting for him to claimed the throne and praying for his mother wellbeing. And oh! I love Selim mother the most in the book. The author touched a lot of aspect being an ottoman prince mother and his mother contribution during Selim ruling as a gavernor in Trapzor. They are very close to each other and i found it really sweet.

2. It does not exclusively follow Seim jourbey. The author also gives us hindsight on what is happening aroubd Europe at the time. I have read history book before and they exclusively narrate the historical figure and it made me confuse when there is foreign figure appear around the main historical figure. But this book? It tell us what was happening around,guve an idea where actually this event set place and how it correlate to other event in history. It became so fun to read when I can recognize othe histrical figure. For example the borgia. I know the borgia family because of a manhwa (korean type of comic).

It so fun to read and trigger my roller coaster emotionally.

3. I found it more interesting when I learn that Selim as said in the book is not highly favoured by his father. Especially when he is sent far away from Constantinople (or istanbul atm) assigned as governor. They said that the more far away the son is sent to givern a state,the lesser the chance the son get to be a Sultan.

It really made me think, did Beron apply the same thing? Except his intention to worsen the sibling relationship? Because i think I remember in one of your fic you had this scene where eris mentioning how lucky for Elain that Lucien is exiled. Otherwise, Beron would pit her and his other daughter in law. Which to me was genius since Beron wanted his son to fight each other for the throne.

Even in the book, it mention that the father/current Sultan is not excluded from this fraticide practice. The son still can and have the right to claw their own father from the throne

I recommend this book. Why? Simple, because someone slow like me can read it and enjoy the drama in this book. I think you would too. Sorry for the rambling tho.

You're back! This is the exact kind of recommendation I'm looking for, ESPECIALLY from a non-fiction book. When I was in grad school, one of my professors discussed what made good, academic writing ESPECIALLY if you were writing for lay people. And the hallmark of it was accessibility. Even within niche topics, your writing shouldn't be so convoluted that you need to re-read sentences over and over.

You can get away with some of it in academic journals but I'd argue if I'm reading a paper on a topic I'm knowledgable and published in, and I'm asking myself "what the fuck are you trying to say?" you've done a bad job.

And books ESPECIALLY because history is, in my opinion, one of the most fascinating subjects AND should be one of the most accessible ones as well. History is like gossip, it's half rumor, half fact depending on who is telling it. It's like when your friend texts, "can I say something fucked up?" like HELL YES tell me the atrocities and salacious gossip, I beg you.

I had a world history teacher in high school who once said history was the greatest soap opera and he made it accessible in a way that I've always been obsessed. And I'm saying all this because you said it was dumbed down enough for you to understand- but consider that it was WELL written enough to keep your attention rather than being so smugly satisfied with itself that the author renders the subject matter boring.

You sound exceptionally smart to me. You're reading in two languages! Give yourself WAY more credit and remember that a LOT of academics are just puffed up blow-hards that could use a regular person telling them, actually- you're not that interesting.

[astro-can]

i would pay so much money to see your face when i tell you that i am aroace and use they/them pronouns, not to mention trigender and genderflux

posting hate towards one or a certain set of queer identities harms the entire lgbtq+ community. if you truly do believe that non-binary, trans, and pansexual identities (and more) are not valid, along with neopronouns, please consider taking off the "supporting the LGBTQ community" in your bio. you support the entire lgbtq+ community or none of it.

i hope you understand that being non-binary is not a choice, just as being gay is not a choice. the way people are raised does not change your sexuality or gender identity, and many people who are raised in a queer-supportive household do indeed turn out to be cisgender and straight, but they aren't homophobic. the people who are raised in this manner that are queer may just realize that they are queer sooner, or feel more comfortable in coming out.

in the future, i ask that you don't refer to trans women as biological men and trans men as biological women. have a good day ❤️❤️

hello! it looks like my post from earlier has angered a few people (and rightfully so. i mean, i knew i was going to get cancelled :/)

i am not posting hate against the trans community. if you identify as aroace trigender genderflux with they/them pronouns, i will respect that and use those pronouns for you. if someone says they are a trans woman with she/her pronouns, i will respect that and use those pronouns. i do not think that these are 'non-valid'. what i was stating in my post was that i simply dislike how far trans people are going these days, like getting accepted into a certain category of sports, beauty pageants, and trans women even claiming that they have periods. trans people can identify as the opposite sex they were born in, and even get surgery for their appearance, but they need to be aware of boundaries and crossing the line. trans people these days are straight up mocking biological people. now im not saying that ALL trans people are like this, just a lot that i know of.

little kids should NOT grow up with this type of confusion. they shouldn't be confused about their gender from such a young age. parents should wait until their child is old enough to understand, then explain to them that they would support them if they feel a certain way. raising little kids as non-binary should be something that should never be defended. it needs to stop. parents think that it helps the child, when in fact, it does the opposite. you'll be ruining their childhood from day one. telling your kids that you support them no matter what is the best way of making them comfortable enough to come out.

cmon guys its not that hard. in this world, anyone can identify as whatever the hell they want, but they were either born a boy or a girl (or intersex, tho there is a very small percentage of that happening). its that simple. i'm not being transphobic. if you identify as a woman, i will call you a woman. if you identify as a man, i will call you a man. just be aware of your boundaries and how far you can take this with you. i hope you have a good day 🥰