#[man. man. she ripped him apart. she got in there so quick and just tore through his defenses. silence silence silence. that sussur dagger

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selina killing gortash is extraordinarily cathartic for her because she finally got to fucking kill her dad.

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     Minho was already forming a plan in his mind. He knew what they had talked about trying but he still wanted to talk through it. That was his main plan when he got home. 

    Y/n was busy getting dinner started when he got home. The dancer set his bag down and slipped his shoes off before joining her in the kitchen. Wrapping his arms around her and kissing her neck.

     “Hi kitten,” Minho greeted as he laid his head on her shoulder 

     “Hi handsome,” Y/n replied, setting her knife down to turn and kiss him, “how was work?”

     “Good, busy as always. Didn’t miss me too much today?” 

     “You never ask me that,” Y/n pointed out

     “It’s not every day you ask me to dress like a serial killer and fuck you.”

     “Thought you wanted me to forget?”

     “You can forget after we talk about boundaries,” Minho told her 

     Minho ordered the mask right after they finished talking about boundaries. He was lucky he was home instead of her when the package arrived. Now he just had to set it in motion. Y/n was out grabbing things for the apartment and would be back soon. He texted her a simple word— one they talked about for them to get consent before starting. 

     Minho smiled as she sent the same word back. He did the little prep he needed in the bedroom, then grabbed the mask and hid as she pulled up. 

     Y/n finished bringing her bags into the apartment. Putting away the groceries she had bought before heading to her bedroom. Dropping onto her bed and turning on the TV to find something to watch. Falling into a quick trance of her show. Only pulled out of it when she heard a weird noise. 

     She looked down the hall through the open door but figured it could just be the building. It was on the older side so it wasn’t uncommon to hear a weird noise occasionally. She shrugged it off and turned back to her show. 

     Another noise came again a couple of minutes later. She peeked again before getting up and shutting the bedroom door, just trying to ignore it. 

     She returned to the bed, hearing the door slowly open behind her. She whipped her head around just to get pinned to her bed and a hand grabbed her neck. She grabbed the wrists of the intruder to get the hand off her neck but it did nothing. 

     Her hands were pinned above her head and she was face to face with a white elongated mask. The eyes and mouth were completely dark. Y/n’s eyes widened in fear, as she tried pulling her legs together and to her chest. Just to find his body blocking her attempt.

     “Trying to get me closer?” He teased, pressing his bulge against her.

     Y/n shook her head, trying to get out of his grip.

     “It’s not nice to lie.” His free hand moved to unbutton her pants.

     Y/n thrashed under his hold to the best of her ability but any attempts were useless. Soon he was pulling the fabric off her legs and eyeing her panties.

     “Cute,” he chuckled before he tore the fabric off, “soaking wet too,” he stated as his thumb ran over her clit. Y/n bit her tongue, trying not to let any noises out. The hand on her neck moved up and grabbed her jaw, thumb pressing against her lips trying to get in. 

     “Open your mouth,” He growled. 

     Y/n shook her head and the masked man sighed. His thumb stopped working her clit and all but ripped the fabric off her body. He pushed her shirt up over her chest as she tried to push it down. 

     He grabbed her hands and pinned them against her as he leaned over her. Bulge pressed against her wet core. “I’d start behaving if I were you or this is going to get worse. Got it?” 

     Y/n felt the tears starting and sniffled, nodding her head. His hand gently tapped her cheek a few times, “Open.”

     Y/n opened her mouth and his thumb slipped inside. Pressing down on her tongue as she wrapped her lips around the digit. “What a whore,” he chuckled. 

     His hips gently rolled into hers, Y/n moaning in protest. “A needy whore apparently,” he added

     Y/n shook her head as he let go of her hands. Immediately, she tried pushing away from him. With a heavy sigh, he pulled his thumb from her mouth and pinned her wrists above her head with one hand. He reached behind his back and pulled some rope out from behind him, setting it next to her on the bed. Y/n squirmed away from him as he pulled her against him. 

     She fought against him as he pulled her top and bra off her before he reached down and undid his pants. “Let me go!” Y/n cried as she tried moving back

     “Just don’t know how to shut up, do you?” He asked as he pushed the tip of his dick into her.

     Quickly sheathing himself inside her. The stretch silenced her protest, jaw hanging open as a moan left her throat. He used the opportunity to fold her legs towards her chest. He moved her arms behind her knees and tied her in place. “There we go. Nice and open,” He commented, harshly slapping the back of her thigh. 

     He didn’t waste a second thrusting into her. Picking a quick pace; Y/n dug her head into the mattress under her. Wrists turning in the ropes, not caring if it left a rope burn later. 

     “Gonna see how much this little hole can take,” he hummed, thumb returning to her clit. Rubbing circles into the bud as she involuntarily clamped down on him

     Y/n shook her head but the masked man didn't notice. Continuing to fuck into her, only looking up to see her body react to his touch. The hard thrusts made her skin jiggle with each one. 

     “Pull out please,” Y/n whined 

     “But you're taking me so well,” he laughed

     Y/n kept twisting her wrist in an attempt to get out of her binds but faltered as he hit her G-spot

     “There it is.”

     The masked man adjusted himself to abuse the spot. Hearing all her protests die and get replaced with more moans. His thumb moved faster on her sensitive clit, feeling her pulse around him from the stimulation. Soon she was squeezing around him as warmth covered his cock.

     The man pulled his thumb away from her clit and bullied himself into her tight cunt as she rode her orgasm out. Her pulsing walls helped him get closer and closer till he was shooting his hot seed deep into her womb. Y/n squirmed under him as he buried himself deep inside her.

     “Nononono,” Y/n whined

     “Don’t worry, bunny, I’ll make sure it sticks.”

     He pulled his softening cock out of her and watched his cum slowly drip out of her. Collecting the leaking cum on his fingers and pushing it back into her. Thrusting the two digits in and out of her as his thumb came back to her clit. Y/n tensed around his fingers as a moan left her.

     “What happened to all that fighting back?” He asked, playing with the rope around her wrists with his free hand. 

     He could feel her walls clench around his fingers. Abusing her sensitive cunt till she was coming on his fingers this time. High-pitched moans left her mouth as he pulled his fingers out of her. He untied her arms and let her arms fall limp and turned her onto her stomach. Tying her wrists together before turning her back onto her back but turning her around; head hanging off the edge of the bed, face to face with his half-hard dick. 

     Y/n opened her mouth on instinct; the masked man smiled as he guided his cock into her mouth. Feeling her throat contract as she swallowed him.

    “That’s a good whore,” He chuckled, using her throat as he desired, “You just wanted someone to fuck you dumb, didn’t you?”

     There was a hum from her throat that made him shudder as he thrusted in and out of her mouth. His balls hit her nose every time he buried himself in her. He leaned forward and spread her thighs apart, being met with a little resistance.

     “Obviously not dumb enough,” He grumbled as brought his hand down on the inside of her thighs. Y/n tried closing her legs with each hit on the skin. Landing a final hit on her clit before his fingers were stuffing her again. Moaning as his fingers curled up into her walls. 

     Y/n whined around his dick before he pulled out of her throat. Y/n coughed as she caught her breath, lifting her head to stop the blood rushing to her head. The intruder spun her around again, pinning her legs onto the bed as he pushed back into her sensitive cunt.

     Y/n whined at the sensation but couldn’t get the words out to plead with him. She couldn’t use any limb to push him away, just lay there and let him use her. Her whines turned into moans as his cock bullied her. Leaning over her more, pushing her legs into a mating press, and picking up his pace. Slamming into her as he watched more tears roll down her cheeks.

     He pulled out for a moment and flipped her onto her stomach again, tucking her knees under her before pushing back into her. Hands gripping her ass as his hips slammed into her from behind. All her whines were muffled by the sheets as he landed a hard spank on her as before he grabbed her hips. She could feel his dick twitching inside her as he used her like a fleshlight.

     “Gonna leave you full of me,” he groaned as he grabbed her hips, fucking her back onto him.

     Y/n clenched around him as he grabbed the back of her head and pulled up to his chest. His hand gripped her throat as the cool plastic of the mask pressed against her face. Her jaw fell open as he felt deeper inside her after being pulled to his chest. She could feel him abusing her cervix. His other hand moved back between her legs, rubbing figure eights on her clit.

     “No… more, please,” Y/n cried, legs starting to shake 

     “Not done till- fuck- I fill up that womb.”

     “‘S too much.”

     Y/n squeezed him as another orgasm blindsided her. Wanting to fall limp on the bed if it weren’t for the hands keeping her up. He grunted in her ear as he slammed into her one more time. Hot cum filling her again. Y/n clenched around him, milking him before letting her go and letting her fall onto the bed. 

     Minho sighed and took off the costume mask. Tossing it to the end of the bed and untied his girlfriend’s wrists. “Kitten,” he gently called, moving her hair to kiss the back of her neck

     Y/n turned her head and he placed another kiss on her cheek, “Feel okay?”

     “Fuzzy,” Y/n managed to reply

     “I’m gonna pull out, okay?” Minho waited for her little nod before he slowly pulled his hips back. Y/n whined as his dick popped out of her before he slowly turned her over. 

     “Can you put your arms around me kitten?”

     “Tired,” Y/n grumbled 

     “I know sweetie. We gotta get cleaned up though. We can cuddle after, okay?”

     “Okay,” Y/n agreed, wrapping her arms around his neck. 

     Minho grabbed her thighs and picked her up. Bring her into the bathroom and set her on the toilet. Turning on the shower and letting the water warm up.

     “I’m gonna get you some clothes kitten. I’ll be right back,” Minho kissed her forehead and went to their room and grabbed them both some lounge clothes. Coming back in the bathroom a moment later

     He stripped himself of his clothes and helped his girlfriend up and into the shower. Keeping her in front and washing her body before himself.

     “I’m hungry Min,” Y/n complained after he had gotten them both dressed.

     “I’ll make you something to eat,” Minho helped her into the living room and sat her on the couch, throwing a blanket over her legs and turning on her favorite show while he stepped into the kitchen to make her something to eat

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[doriansbutt]

oki I want micro story 17: empty for Fen pls 👀

hmm sorry this took a while and that I wrote it rly quick at work lol

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Fenlin has always felt an emptiness within him. Maybe it was knowing his father left just before he turned two. Couldn’t even stick around for his birthday. The way his mother spoke so bitterly about him….

Maybe it was watching his mother marry and settle down, having twins just the next year. Maybe it was growing up half-human in the Dalish clan he was training to be Keeper of one day. It could have been seeing his mother be reminded of the shitty man who left her as he grew up and his features filled out more, growing tall with that blond hair…

Maybe it was dying. Maybe it was running away at 14 and fucking that up so badly that he died. Maybe being dead leaves a hole in your heart that can’t be filled.

Perhaps it was being a spirit attached to his younger sister who was now training to fill the role he left open, forced to see how life goes on without him.

And maybe it was seeing how it didn’t. Seeing how much his death affected his mother…seeing his sisters grow up so fast without their big brother around…seeing his other mother struggle with her wife’s grieving process.

Seeing his mother try to fill that fresh hole ripped into her chest with another son. And seeing how that son tore her apart too.

It was being the son she lost…and the one she never got to lose. He watched his mother be haunted by him for 7 years, through his younger sister’s eyes.

Maybe it was suddenly being a spirit attached to his younger sister one second, and being pulled away into his own body, being rebuilt from bones by his younger half-brother who made him a spirit guide in the first place…suddenly alive again, suddenly 14 again though his mind was older….

Fenlin has always had an emptiness in him, and he’s not sure if it’s from being dead or being alive

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"Circle around. Don't let them slip by." Voices whispered, filling the air.

Dog barked at the noise, Natalia grabbed hold of him, keeping him close to her as they tried to find the unknown sounds.

"Keep them together."

"You die now."

Walkers loomed towards them through the rain and fog.

"Go. Now." Michonne ordered, quietly.

A woman with a bandage around her head picked up the mask, whilst Aaron and Daryl lifted Jesus's body, to take back with them to be buried.

Natalia attacked the walkers that got too close to them.

"Go. I'll cover you." Michonne told her, as the others left.

An walker with a knife went to sneak up on Michonne, but Natalia got there quicker, stabbing the female walker in the head.

They both peered down on the "walker." Before meeting each others eye, nodding.

"Come on! Let's go!" Daryl called for them, he then locked the gates of the cemetery behind them.

"So you managed to climb over the gate, huh?" Natalia spoke to Michonne, as they walked, the sun was up, it was the next morning.

"See you managed to find your way back home."

"As you can see, it was a short stay."

"I saw them, the kids, hear Evie's gonna become Enid's second."

"I didn't know that."

"She's a good kid, they all are." Michonne spoke. "The baby, is that..."

"Yep. Archie, Archie Carl, he's ours." Natalia answered.

"Oh, so you guys were busy, in the woods." Michonne smirked at the woman.

"Who are these guys?" She pointed at the two women ahead.

"Yumiko and Magna." Michonne interrupted their muttering to each other.

"Ah, part of the group that my niece brought back."

"You the famous Aunt Nat who would've fought for our stay?" Magna looked over her shoulder at the woman.

"Who the hell would even think about doing this?" Yumiko rambled, passing the mask thing to Magna.

"I suspect some vessel filled with a chunky salsa of abnormal impulses and metastasized rage." Eugene gave his input, as Michonne and Natalia helped him walk.

"It's full on bat-shit." Magna shook her head.

"You think there's more?" Aaron asked.

"Yeah." Daryl nodded, looking around.

"So, what do we do?" Yumiko asked.

"Right now, keep moving." Michonne told her.

Once they got to the horses, they were able to put Jesus across it, to get him back with them.

Daryl looked back at the two women, who were riding the other horse.

"Judith vouched for 'em, so do I." Michonne spoke.

"All right." He grunted.

"It's gonna mean a lot to them." She continued. "Bringin' him back. Burying him."

"Sorry I couldn't do that for you." Daryl apologised, even though Natalia had been pushing onto him that that wasn't his place, and he didn't need to, he never listened.

"I'm sorry I couldn't do it for all of us." Michonne said. "Thank you, both of you. For trying to find him. And... for after."

"What matters now, is that we're together, now, that you were there." Natalia told her.

"Thanks for saving my ass back there." Michonne smiled.

"Just paying back the favour, 'Sides, I wouldn't let my best friend go like that." Natalia returned the smile, holding hands for a brief moment.

Dogs barking started again.

"We got some tails." Magna said.

"The living kind or original recipe?" Eugene asked.

"Let's find out." Daryl decided. "Good Dog."

They had got to a bridge.

Walkers were making their way towards them.

Daryl had shot at their legs, working out which was a walker and which was pretend, he found out as the man let out cries, the walkers quick to take him down for them as they tore the man apart.

A few turned away as others continued forward, then one man brandished his knife, running for Michonne, who sliced off his arm, stabbing him in the chest.

Natalia went for the girl who attempted to walk away, knowing she wouldn't get out of this, she dropped to her knees, hands up in the air.

"Nat! Wait" Daryl stopped her from killing the girl, ripping the mask off, revealing what looked to be a teenager with long dark hair.

"Please..." She sobbed. "Please don't kill me. Please."

Natalia dragged her knife back with her boot, slowly crouching down to pick it up without taking her eyes off the girl.

"How many?" Michonne asked, catching the mask Daryl tossed her.

"Please... you killed them all. It's just me now." The girl cried.

Natalia held her own knife to the girls throat.

"I don't believe you." Michonne spoke for her.

"There ain't no time. We'll take her with us." Daryl spoke, spotting the herd closing in on them.

"Get up, slow." Natalia breathed, grabbing the bit of rope that was handed to her, tying the girls hands together behind her back.

"Hey, you try anything, you won't have to pretend." Michonne threatened.

"Let's go. Come on." Daryl encouraged, taking the girl from his wife's grasp.

They soon made their way back to the Hilltop, the girl had a white bandana around her face, blocking her view as she sat on top of the horse.

The people of Hilltop gathered to welcome their leader back.

Tara and Enid left the house, with the twins following behind the young woman, Archie was on Tara's hip. 

Daryl, Yumiko and Magna helped get Jesus down, as Michonne and Natalia yanked the girl off the horse, dragging her towards the cells.

"This who did it?" Tammy- Rose asked, once the people of Hilltop had realised Jesus's fate, their relief and happiness quickly vanishing

"No. One of her people." Michonne answered.

"You locking her up?" She continued to pester with questions.

"We're getting answers." Tara told her.

"And then what? Tara, Jesus trusted you, so we're all lookin' to you now. But people are gonna want justice for this. And when that time comes, we're gonna look to you for that, too." 

"I know." She promised, following the pair, Daryl had also caught up with them.

"Evie?" Natalia gasped, spotting her daughter in one of the cells, Henry was in the other.

Daryl opened the door, pulling her out.

"Get inside." He told the other girl, pushing her in.

"Daryl?" Henry called.

"Evie, what the hell are you doing here? What are the both of you doing here?" Natalia looked at Henry through the bars as she assessed her daughter.

"Drunk and disorderly, you can either bunk her up with Henry, or call her sentence." Tara told her.

"What's going on?" Henry continued to look for answers.

"Jesus is dead." Daryl spoke, glaring at Evie, she was supposed to be babysitting, and now she's being sentenced for drunk and disorderly, with Henry of all people.

Tara and Michonne dealt with the other girl as Daryl unlocked Henry's door, pushing Evie inside.

"Both of you shut up, we'll talk about this later." He growled, as they turned to watch the interrogation.

"How many more of you are there?" Michonne pressed, when she kept bullshitting.

"They're all dead." She cried. "My family's dead. Please just stop."

"Not until you start answering our questions."

"Your name. Start with your name." Tara said.

"I told you, I don't have one." She answered. "None of us do. None of us did. That's not how it worked."

"How did it work?"

"Why do you wear their skins?" Daryl asked. "Answer!" He demanded, when she was quiet.

"They were good people." She sobbed harder. "We were good. It's what we did to live. That's-- That's all we wanted to do. Live."

"Bullshit." Natalia scoffed.

"Oh, you're saying you had to do this?" Tara asked.

"You wouldn't understand." She shook her head.

"Then make us understand. What the hell were you doing?" Michonne tried again.

"We, we were just trying to see if they were good people, too. But then you attacked us, and now they're dead."

"We attacked you?" Natalia took a step forward. "Sweetheart, we were tryna find our friend, and you and your "good people" ambushed us." 

"They're dead. They're all dead. And I don't have anything." She cried for herself, but no one was buying it.

Michonne clamped a hand on the back of her chair, stopping her from rocking backwards.

"What did your people know about us?" She asked. "Do they know about this place?"

"I don't know."

"Huh?"

"I don't know. I don't know anything. They didn't tell me anything. Please stop asking me. Just leave me alone, please. Please just leave me alone."

They sighed in defeat, leaving the cell's.

"I don't trust a word coming out of her mouth." Michonne started.

"She's a good actor, I'll give her that." Natalia sighed.

"We'll get it out of her." Daryl promised.

"We try again in the morning." Tara decided.

"You'll have to do it without me." Michonne told them. "Taking my people back first thing. Can't risk them not knowing about this back home."

"Okay." Tara nodded. "Thanks, for being here and for helping. That group you brought in, I'm gonna let them know that they can stay. I guess that's my call now. That's what he would've done."

"Thanks, Tara."

She nodded, heading off to go deal with her duties, and to probably go check on her girlfriend.

"Keeping her here is a risk." Michonne told the pair who were still there. "You both know that."

"Yeah, I know."

"Her people, you reckon they'll come for her, I mean, she looks Evie's age, think she's got a parent, someone looking after her?" Natalia asked.

"That's what I'm worried about." Michonne admitted.

"I'll get her to talk." Daryl nodded.

"If she doesn't... You know what you have to do."

"We'll get her to talk." Natalia stepped in. "I'm gonna go check on the kids, you find out what the hell Evie and Henry did last night." Natalia told Daryl, hugging Michonne.

"On it."

"Hey, come meet, Archie, officially." She smiled at her friend, pulling her away.

Rosita had been watching the twins and baby, whilst Siddiq fixed Eugene's knee.

"Mommy!" Daisy called, spotting her as her and Michonne walked into the infirmary.

"Mommy!" Bambi repeated as they both swarmed to hug her.

"Hey, hey guys, hanging out with Aunt Ro and Eugene and Siddiq?"

"Mommy, Siddiq popped Eugene's knee in and it went phew and it cracked and it was so gross!" Daisy smiled excitedly.

"Glad I could be of service of entertainment to your younglings after saving my life, today." Eugene nodded at her.

"Oh, wow, so having fun, then?" Natalia laughed, taking the baby that was handed to her. "Thanks, Rosita, Thanks Eugene."

"'Course, anything for these lil guys." She patted the twins heads. "And that bundle of cuteness."

"Hey, Bam, Daisy, I want you to meet another one of Mommy's friends, this is Aunt Michonne."

"Hi." They waved at her.

"Hey, guys, I used to know you when you were this big." She smiled at Archie.

"Oh, yeah, I remember that." Daisy lied.

"No, you don't." Bambi scowled at her. "Mommy, Daisy's telling fibbers, again."

"Hey, guys, why don't you go find Uncle Aaron, ask him to show you the animals." Natalia told them.

"Okay!"

"My kids, everybody, you gotta love them." Natalia commented, when the girls ran out the door. "Anyway, this is my favourite child, because he can't walk or talk yet."

"Awe, come here, Archie." Michonne let out a sigh, taking the baby, who apparently loved cuddles with everybody, something they discovered very quickly, after getting to The Hilltop.

After Daryl and Natalia left to go rescue Eugene, Tara had begun passing the baby around as though it were a meet and greet back in the day.

"I didn't even know you guys would ever have another kid." Rosita folded her arms across her chest.

"We didn't think we would either, it was an accident, y'know what I mean. But I'm grateful, because of you." She kissed Archie's cheek.

"I think after the third kid, you gotta stop using the accident excuse." Rosita chuckled.

"It was, I swear." She put her hands up. "Y'know, I thought he was a girl the whole time, until I gave birth, the lil sneak."

"How did you and Daryl manage that, that's really dangerous, Nat." Michonne told her.

"Oh, Daryl wasn't there, just me, I was in a cabin, so it was fine, and Evie left to go find him and the twins, but it was fine, we're both alive, and I've dealt with worse, it was a piece of cake."

"Have yet to work out if you are terrifying or truly an amazement." Siddiq shook his head.

"I prefer being acknowledged as both." She shrugged.

"Neither of 'em will talk." Daryl told her, catching up, after putting the two teens back in their joint cell.

They were watching Aaron show the twins the horses, Natalia hugged Archie to her.

"Really?" She asked.

"Yup, won't give me names, where they got it from, but they're real sorry, think Henry's more sorry than Eve, she was more pissed at him."

"Good to know, we really gonna leave her in there?"

"Rules of the Hilltop, she wanted to come here and get lit first chance she got, that's her problem."

"Yeah, you're right, I just, I can't believe she would do something like that, y'know? We didn't raise her like that, hell, I think the last time I had alcohol, was the day before I met her."

"You mean, when we had spaghetti instead of going to that party, an' you got hammered."

"In my defence, it was my birthday." She ignored Daryl's furrowed brows at her confession, changing the topic, quickly. "What are we gonna do about that girl? The other one."

"I'll talk to her, find out what she knows." Daryl shrugged, taking Archie out of her arms. "And if that fails, thinking maybe you could. You're the best judge of character we got."

"I don't want to trust her, I don't want to figure her out and find out why she's walking around with walker faces on, unless it's something that's gonna harm us or our people."

"But you do want to." He finished her train of thought. "She's a kid, and something's nagging at you, I know."

"I think you know me a bit too well." She folded her arms across her chest. "It kinda bugs me actually, If I'm being honest." 

Jesus's funeral was held the next day, it was a tough conversation to have with the twins, especially considering they would have to explain that the man they met with the funny name, just the day before, had come back dead, and what a funeral even was.

But for two five year olds, they had managed to stay very respectful, listening carefully and being quiet throughout the whole sermon, even though Daryl and Natalia were mourning their friend, they were both very proud of the twins, they just hoped this was the last funeral they would be attending.

After, Daryl had left to go deal with the girl in the cell, to get some answers.

After setting Archie down for a nap, and giving the girls an activity, she found Daryl sat outside the cell window.

She took a seat beside him, hearing three voices talking.

"I'm Henry, she's Evie."

"Henry, my dad's seriously going to kill you if you don't shut up." Evie's voice hissed.

"Evie relax, he's not here. No reason to be rude to her." Henry told her.

"I'm Lydia." The girl ignored her worry.

"My parents, they don't wanna hurt you, they're good people too, but, your people gave us a reason to feel threatened, just be honest with my dad, and it'll turn out better for you." Evie told her. "If not, then it's only self defence."

Daryl and Natalia silently low-fived, that was their girl.

They had sat out there most of the day, listening to the three teens talk, how Lydia opened up, told them her story.

When Natalia returned from checking on the kids, Daryl would quietly fill her in on anything important, but only when he felt he had to.

"I remember that look in his eye. Still see it. How cold it is. Was." Lydia corrected herself, telling them about her father. "Why am I even telling you two this?"

"Beats the quiet. Beats being alone."

"Alone, seriously?" Evie scoffed.

"I've never been alone." Lydia continued. "My people travelled in groups with the dead. I miss the sounds... the smell..."

"Not gonna lie, walking around in dead people's skins is pretty messed up."

"I've been covered in guts of the dead, and I would still prefer that over wearing their faces." Evie kicked something as she sighed.

"Thinking this place isn't gonna fall like every other place... that's messed up."

"It's not, because it won't, these people worked hard for this, they didn't take any easy routes out." The blonde got defensive, She had also dealt with shit during the war, things she couldn't forget.

"Evie, chill out." Henry told her.

"Your dad's an asshole like mine." Lydia spoke up. "All you did was sneak out. Is it even that hard? Are there a lot of guards posted here?"

"We're not dumb enough to fall for that." Evie raised a brow. "And my dad's not an asshole. You're just a stranger, he's an actual good person."

"Your dad doesn't even wanna be here, he's only doing it for your mom and my mom." Henry told her. "That's why he had you living in the woods for years, with your sisters and brother."

"That's not why." She scowled at him again.

"I thought you said both your moms died." Lydia stood up, looking at the pair as they sat on opposite sides of the small bed.

"Second mom, I mean." Henry corrected. "They're both tough. Not somebody you want to mess with."

"I used to call mine my back up." Evie scoffed, "She's been my mom longer than my real mom was, same with my dad, I barely remember them, my first dad, he used to have a crush on my mom, and so did my second dad, guess he got it in favour that the first died in her arms." She laughed.

"Hey, what happened to your dad?" Henry asked Lydia.

"My dad was a stupid man. My mom, though, she kept me alive. Kept me safe. She's a lot like your mom's. You don't mess with her, either."

They had no choice but to interfere when Henry started talking about the Kingdom, even when Evie kept telling him to shut up.

"Hey. What's going on?" Henry asked.

"You been pardoned." Natalia told him, unlocking the door of the cell door. "Both of you. Let's go."

"Mom." Evie started.

"Let's go." She pushed both of them forward.

Daryl was waiting for him at the top, grabbing hold of the boy and yanking him forward.

"What the hell's wrong with you?" He circled the boy. "Huh? Telling her about the Kingdom? What if there's more of her people out there? You got family at the Kingdom."

"I'm sorry. Okay? I didn't think that it would..."

"I told you!" Evie yelled.

"Wait. You were listening?" He caught on.

"Yeah, of course we were, me and Nat, few of the others, we've been switching off, seeing what she'd say to you."

"You were using us."

"Yeah and it was workin', too." Daryl stared coldly at him.

"She's a good person who got messed up out there. And she's right about you. You know that? You're an asshole."

"Henry, shut up." Evie pushed him back. "You were being stupid, what for some girl that you just met? What happened to Enid?"

"Oh, yeah, that's why you were sucking faces with Gage. I told you we should've stopped drinking, but no Evie never wants to listen." He pointed at her, who's face had got completely red, as she backed down. "You want answers, get 'em yourself." He looked back to the girls parents, before walking away.

"Evie? Who's Gage?" Natalia demanded.

"No one, just.. leave it alone." She scampered as well, before her parents could interrogate her too.

Daryl was even more angry, when he went down to talk to Lydia.

Natalia decided to spend the remainder of the day with Archie, taking him in, appreciating him, soaking up how little he still was, and when the girls were done with their chores, they joined in, she gave the teenagers their space, knowing they needed it.

At night time, Archie was kicking up a fuss, whilst the twins were trying to sleep, Natalia guessed he was missing his dad, considering he'd barely seen him for the past couple of days.

She left the trailer, the one her and Daryl had got married in when they escaped all those years ago, to get some fresh air, trying to soothe her sons cry's.

"It's alright, shh, lovey, it's okay." She tried, bouncing him as she went in search for her husband.

When she had found him, he pulled her to a stop, covering her mouth as he pointed ahead, three people were scampering around, whispering, Evie, Henry and Lydia, until Lydia demanded to go back to the cell.

"If my dad catches us, we're all gonna be in so much trouble." Evie complained, as they rushed past, not even catching the two adults.

"He's not gonna catch us, we're putting Lydia back, so it's fine, right Lydia?"

She didn't give a response.

Natalia was the one to give the girl her breakfast, finding the two other teens right where she expected.

She had moved silently in order to not wake them. She noticed how Henry and Lydia were holding hands, and Evie curled up by herself, away from Lydia's cell.

"Ahem." She cleared her throat.

"Mom." Evie gasped.

"Mrs Dixon, this was my idea, she didn't wanna be alone, so we were just keeping her company." Henry sat up.

"Go." She nodded her head. "Go help your father with the kids"

"Will do, sorry mom." Evie kissed her cheek as she scrambled past, Henry followed.

"My ear hurts. Everything hurts." Lydia told her. "Does Daryl still have those pills?"

"You should know something, my husbands the soft one, after what you tried with him, I'm not falling for your bullshit." Natalia sighed, setting down the tray of food, grabbing a seat to sit down in.

"My mom's not coming for me." Lydia said. "None of them are. If someone dies or gets taken or whatever, they move on. Like they never existed. That's how it's always been. They don't come into contact with big groups unless they don't have a choice. That's why I-- I was trying to find out everything I could about you. 'Cause then when I escaped. I'd have something to give them. A reason for them to take me back."

"Your mom needs a reason to take you back?" Natalia asked, tilting her head.

She looked down.

"Think our moms would've got on pretty well." Natalia commented. "Except, my mom was clean, very clean, she wouldn't of been walking around with masks of dead people. She would've washed her hands with me if she could. She never hit me, never often, only when I deserved it, to make me better, she hated it too, because she loved me, and it hurt her more to cause me pain, but, she was mostly the type of parent that liked to pretend her kid didn't exist, unless it was something she could shove in other people's faces, prove to them that even as a single mother, she was better than them."

"What about your dad?" She asked.

"My dad was my best friend, and I was his, until he died, when I was four, allergies of all things, sometimes, I used to wonder if my mom did it, if she killed my dad just to get rid of him, but she loved my dad more than she liked me."

"Did she make it?"

"I don't know, she went on a cruise, with my step-dad, right before shit hit the fan, she's most likely dead, or she could still be on that boat, just sailing around the world, avoiding all this shit." Natalia finished talking about herself, opening herself up had done the job, she could see it on Lydia's face. "Where are our people, and don't bother lying to me, I can tell."

"If my mom found them... I can't think of a reason she'd keep them alive. Sorry." She sighed.

Natalia caved, tugging out the bottle of pills Daryl had handed her when she left, moving to drop them in the girls hand, then grabbed a spoon full of water, handing it to her.

The girl graciously accepted it, throwing the pills back.

"See what happens when you co-operate, you earn things." Natalia took the spoon back. "She got a camp somewhere?"

"Near the guard bridge. Maybe a mile east. But we don't-- They don't stay in one place for long."

"What you told my daughter, and Henry, about your family, were you telling the truth?"

"I thought all of it was." She answered honestly. "I needed it to be. But I had it all mixed up. It was a lie, but... the lie wasn't mine."

"Your mom told you it all, like she was the good guy, right? Until you believed it."

"Deep down I knew, I knew what she was. I knew what she did." Lydia agreed, sadly. "My dad was my best friend, too. But then, he was against the wall, scared. And my mom was there. Had that cold look in her eye. Then she-- She got her knife. And then she-."

"I know." Natalia sighed gently, soothingly. "It's okay. I know what you mean, that's alright."

"I'm sorry I couldn't help you." She apologised. "I'm sorry I wasted your time."

"You've done more than enough, Lydia, don't worry about it. Eat your food. Evie is a talented doctor, get her to check you over, considering you seem to know her quite well, on your midnight strolls."

She then left the cells.

"So this whole time. Lydia's mom made her think it was her fault her dad died?" Henry badgered her, as soon as she left the cells. "Why would a mom do that to a kid?"

"Sometimes, people end up with kids when they shouldn't, just how it goes."

"So what happens now?" Henry asked. "Can she stay here with us?"

"It's not up to me, come on, get Lydia some fresh clothes, I'm gonna report back to Daryl and Tara, see what we can do about scoping out that camp. Maybe after you can point out to me who this Gage person is."

"He's an asshole." Henry gave his opinion as he walked the other way. "I told Evie she could do better."

Next

[a-drop-of-nightshade]

L never liked when he was on his own, it made him curl into himself as his mind slipped into dark places, most often when Izzy came back he’d be curled up grasping his pillow hiding his face trembling and clawing at it trying not to claw at himself instead, he hated when she found him in that state but she was like a little light in his life that just made him soon forget and he was quick to bury his pain and suffering, he was just relieved to have her with him. Today was no exception, but this time it wasn’t Izzy who came in, it was a strange man he didn’t know and for a moment e got scared that he was a cultist before he froze then looked confused, “contacted…? Wait are you from Constellation?” He asked confused. Yet the more the man spoke the more lost he became, what did he mean?

Well he found out soon enough as the hand was shoved into his chest, his eyes widened in shock before it was ripped out and he let out a scream because of it, it felt like something was being torn out of him from every corner of his being, it felt like it had teeth tearing at him trying to cling on as the man tore out the strange mass. L was trembling and had curled up on his side choking as his body was wracked with pain that made him start crying uncontrollably, he barely even heard Cinder as he choked on a cry his vision going in and out as he started blacking in and out and feeling so violently sick he couldn’t even move before he threw up right there on the bed as Cinder left.

For the whole week L was a mess, sobbing, crying out, he even went delirious for a good portion as he got swallowed in a fever, none of the pain meds seemed to be working and he couldn’t sleep, he was screaming some days and he was only lucky enough to rest when he passed out from the pain. He felt like he was being burnt alive, like he was being melted and torn open, he felt like he was being pulled apart and cut up all at once and yet after the week of sheer fucking hell he somehow began to improve; but he didn’t just improve from the pains, no he just completely began to improve utterly, to the point his mystery ailment wasn’t anywhere near as aggressive as it had been at all. Finally able to talk he had very slowly explained what had happened to the best of his ability, but he had no idea what that man did as all that was left was a weird mark on his chest where the man had shoved his hand into his chest and where the writhing mass of worms had desperately trying to cling.

@this-is-how-villains-are-made / @a-drop-of-nightshade

Little Izzy stood there in her hospital gown with a frown on her face. She was sickly and bruised to all hell but just seemed stubborn. Tugging at her gown she whined before looking up at the person before her. "The fuck is this? I wished fer balloons." The service had taken on her wish as the doctors said she didn't have more than three months left to live without getting a RIG. And without her parents to fight for it they wouldn't give her one.

[julibeeline]

HEATHER. [TOMMYINNIT]

“watch as he stands with her holding your hand, put your arm 'round her shoulder, now im getting colder..”

I still remember third of December,

Me in your sweater

You said it looked better on me than it did you.

“are you sure youre not cold? its freezing.” you ask. you clutched tightly onto his sweater as he shrugged. “im fine y/n. you look cute.” he smiles, staring at your figure. 

Only if you knew how much I liked you,

no matter how cold it was, the warm feeling in your cheeks didnt go away. you tore your eyes from his and looked down at your shoes. “you okay?” he asks.  im madly in love with you.

But I watch your eyes as she walks by,

sat in a cozy coffee shop, tommy’s words got quiet. when you trailed his eyes over your shoulder, you saw her. laughing with her friends with the prettiest smile youve ever seen. the prettiest smile tommy has ever seen.

What a sight for sore eyes,

Brighter than the blue sky

“hold on for a second y/n, im gonna go do something real quick.” he gets up from his seat and walks towards hers. you forcefully rip your head away from the scene. “excuse me, youre really pretty — could i have your number?” you overhear.

She's got you mesmerized, while I die.

you take off his sweater and swallow down the tears. the sick feeling in the back of your throat makes itself known. you leave the sweater behind on the table and walk out. the cold breeze hits your face once again as you shiver in the missing warmth.

Why would you ever kiss me?

I'm not even half as pretty

his lips crashed into yours. he gently holds your cheek pressing in deeper. “asshole.” you whisper to yourself walking down the streets. you finally let the tears slip.

You gave her your sweater, it's just polyester

But you like her better

Wish I were Heather.

the next time you see him, hes with her. the falling snow clouds parts of your vision as you barely make out his figure. shes wearing his sweater. your sweater.

Watch as he stands with her, holding your hand

Put your arm 'round her shoulder, now I'm getting colder.

the light turns green. you stand still frozen as they get closer to you. his arm is tightly wrapped around her shoulder to protect her from the traffic. “tom, im not a baby, i can cross the road by myself.” you smile. “i know love, but just in case.”

But how could I hate her? She's such an angel

But then again, kinda wish she were dead as she walks by,

“shes like the sweetest person ever, and-” he gushes through the phone. you reach to mute your mic as you break down into ragged breaths. you let out trembling sobs into your damp sleeves but he goes on without notice. “shes so amazing. and one time she- y/n? are you there?” you leave the call. 

What a sight for sore eyes,

Brighter than the blue sky,

She's got you mesmerized while I die.

6 missed calls and 18 unread messages. you toss your phone away from you.

Why would you ever kiss me?

I'm not even half as pretty

“will, do you know why y/n’s been avoiding me? like all of a sudden-” tommy spits out in a rush. “no clue man, sorry.” wilbur cuts him off. “are you sure? im worried, will. ever since i started dating-”

You gave her your sweater, it's just polyester

But you like her better.

you go through every sappy note he’s given you, ripping them apart. ‘you looked really pretty today.’ ‘are you free tomorrow?’ ‘wilbur thinks we’re perfect for each other.’ you stop reading when a small ‘ding!’ is heard. your phone lights up with a text. 

Wilbur :)

it’ll get better, i promise.

I wish I were Heather.

[darkficsyouneveraskedfor]

I.R.L.📷2

Warnings: noncon sexual acts and rape, voyeurism/exhibitionism, slight stalking, masturbation, naughty talk.

This is dark!(camboy!)Andy Barber. Your media consumption is your own responsibility. Warnings have been given. DO NOT PROCEED if these matters upset you.

Summary: Your guilty pleasures becomes and all too real terror.

Note: Okay, here’s the second and last part of this short little piece. Thanks for reading and the excitement. I’m sorry if I’m a bit blegh rn.

Thank you so much for your patience! And support!!

As always, if you are so inclined, please like, reblog, and comment. <3

Andy stared at the chat. He waited and waited but the green dot didn’t pop up. Maybe she was freaked out after meeting him. Or maybe she was over him. Her name hadn’t blipped up in any of his sessions in the last week and he even invited her to an impromptu private show after he got back from the café. He hoped her seeing him might nudge her but it only seemed to scare the fuck out of her.

He recalled how she nearly fell on her face running away from him. That wasn’t the reaction he was expecting. No preening or smiles, just terror and a quick escape. He didn’t understand. He was a good looking guy and she was obviously lonely. Hell, she was cute too. He was hardly disappointed.

He waited another fifteen minutes, distracting himself with the colour matching game on his phone but her status remained inactive. He scrolled through his bookmarks and clicked on her insta profile. She had commented on some DIY tutorials in the last hour but hadn’t posted. She only ever added pictures of flowers anyway; her last photo of herself was from a year ago. It was her and some guy but he could guess they were no longer together.

He was starting to get upset. She was ignoring him. He wasn’t stupid but what had he done? Their sessions were going well up until this week and he actually looked forward to them. He felt that same thrill he had when he first started his hustle.

He slammed his laptop shut and dropped his phone face down. Fuck it, he had better stuff to do.

He crossed the room and grabbed one of the boxes still stacked against the wall. He hauled it over to the empty bookshelf and flipped it open. He unpacked the books one at a time and the heavy bookend shaped like half a globe. He didn’t know why he brought all these things, he didn’t use them. He wasn’t a lawyer anymore.

He leaned against the side of the sofa and crossed his arms. He boxed up his whole life, or what was left of it, and drove halfway across the country. She couldn’t even give him a hello or her name. She could hardly look at him and she wouldn’t answer his goddamn messages.

He pushed himself straight and stormed over to his laptop. He ripped it open and clicked on the chat. Still, nothing. The invitation was scheduled for less than an hour. Well, if she wasn’t going to open it, he’d have to get it to her another way. He was done waiting on her and he was done playing with her through a screen.

He wanted the real thing and he knew she wanted it too.

📷

You were still slightly addled from your encounter at the café. After you got home and unpacked your groceries, you didn’t find your coffee again until it went cold. You dumped it and replaced it with a glass of wine. You bought the bottle a month ago, expecting to unwind and that time finally came.

You sat with the healthy dose of alcohol, almost to the brim as it darkened the full belly of the glass. You wore only a baggy Winnie the Pooh tee and panties as you lounged and flipped on the tv. 

You rarely used the front room anymore, ever since your boyfriend moved out you spent most of your time in the bedroom, exhausted and lonely. It was easier to just linger there between responsibilities.

Your dainty sips turned to greedy slurps as you turned on an episode of Project Runway and lost yourself in the competition and drama of it all. Your ex hated that show and you hadn’t watched it in years. It was time to get caught up with what would forever be your unfulfilled dream of being a designer.

By the runway, your glass was empty and the television had a soft glare as you were slightly buzzed by the high potency. The dark blend had a percentage in the double digits and you were feeling it, delightfully so. As the designers came up for their feedback from judges, more so a roast, you leaned back and wiggled your hips as you stretched. You yawned and closed your eyes as you listened to a designer give cutting critique of a hem.

You peeked under your lashes as the camera panned in on the fraying stitches. Well, it looked alright from far away. You bent your arm under your head as you turned onto your side and your eyes closed again as you pondered another glass of wine. That might give you a decent night’s sleep.

You inhaled and sat up, intent on another indulgence but you stopped short as you blinked in shock. You hadn’t drank that much. You couldn’t be hallucinating. You pressed yourself to the back of the couch and shook your head as you gaped at the figure stood just beside the tv, eyes calmly watching you.

“What…” you gulped.

“Shhhh,” the man, the one you watched all those nights on your laptop, brought his finger to his lips as he hushed you, “it’s okay, honey.”

“I--” your heart leapt into your throat and you stood as you swiped up your glass, “get out. How did--”

“I sent you an invitation. Several this week. You haven’t answered--”

You hit the glass off the table so it cracked and left a jagged edge. You jabbed it out at him from the other side of the coffee table, your hand shaking as the shock turned to a jolt of adrenaline.

“Go! Get out!” you snapped, too terrified to think on how he found you or if your meeting that day was truly a coincidence. It didn’t seem like it, “you’re crazy, get out of my--”

He marched around the table as you backed up and swung the glass at him. He caught your wrist and twisted it as he wrenched you close to him and pointed the sharp edge at your throat. The scent of him filled your lungs and mingled with the taste of wine as the glass pressed to your skin.

“I don’t want to hurt you,” he warned, “so don’t make me.”

“Please--”

He said your name, calmly, as you drowned in his oceanic eyes. You quivered in his grasp and tensed as you tried to lean away from him, “Andy,” he offered, “that’s my real name.”

“Please, I don’t know what you want--”

“You know exactly what I want,” he hissed as he pulled away the glass and tossed it to shatter against the wall, “the same thing I always wanted… that you want.”

You took a deep breath and he clapped his hand over your mouth and tutted. His brows wrinkled in irritation and your drunken fingers bounced futilely off his shoulder. He turned you and sat you down on the couch and knelt with you, shushing you again as he settled on his knees on the floor.

“Honey, aren’t you tired of this? Of being apart? Of just… watching?” his eyes strayed from yours and he smiled as he eyed the yellow bear on your shirt, “that’s cute.”

You shook your head and murmured against his hand. His lashes flicked up and his jaw squared. His lips thinned as he considered you.

“Thing is, honey, I’d love to talk but you gotta promise not to scream,” he said, “and I mean that because I don’t want to gag you… not yet, anyway.”

Your eyes rounded and you nodded fervently as your breath puffed under his palm. He narrowed his eyes and shifted his hand slightly, moving it just an inch at a time as he watched you. You sniffled as he let his grip fall to your knee.

“Why? How…” you stuttered, “it was a mistake. Just a show--”

“You were always there,” he said as his other hand came up to your other knee and he ran his hands up and down your legs, “it didn’t sound like a mistake.” He pushed his fingers along the top of your thighs, “you enjoyed it.”

“It wasn’t… like that, just…”

He squeezed your thighs painfully and you winced. His fingers crawled up under the hem of your tee to the elastic of your panties and he hooked them beneath the fabric. You grasped his wrists in shock at his sudden movement and he looked you in the face.

“Say whatever you want, make your excuses,” he snarled, “you said you wanted me, you said it a dozen times, and I know you do.”

He tore down the cotton and you flailed out and caught yourself against the back of the couch. He rolled your panties down and untangled them from your ankles as you tried to close your legs. He kept your panties around his wrist as he stopped your knees from meeting and moved between them.

“Honey, now, I think we’ve had enough build up--”

“Hel--” you screamed and he grabbed your chin and snapped your mouth shut so that you bit your tongue.

He growled and shook your panties down over his hand. He brought up the twisted fabric and shoved it into your mouth. You tried to turn away from his grip as he stuffed the panties in with two fingers as deep as they would go and you almost gagged.

“It’s too bad,” he said, “I wanted to try that mouth… next time.”

You batted at his arms and chest and his hand shot to your throat. You stilled as he choked you, just enough for lungs to burn. He kept his hand on your neck until you sat back and he let it trail down the front of your shirt. He groped you through the fabric, rolling his thumb around your nipples as they hardened.

“I know you can be good, honey,” he hummed, “you’re just… nervous. I know what it’s like, trying to get over someone else. Trying to move on from a life you built-- a break-up, right? That lanky guy on your Insta--”

You gave a terrified flutter of your lashes and he smiled, a tight-lipped sympathetic gesture.

“Look, we’re two lonely people,” he kneaded your chest as he spoke and leaned in, “so, it only makes sense, and I promise, honey, the shows are over. It’s all for you now.”

You trembled as he dropped his hands and pulled up your shirt. He tickled your stomach with his knuckles and framed your tits with his hands as he admired them. You squirmed as he flicked them with his thumbs and leaned into you. He took one in his mouth and suckled. You whimpered as you felt a pluck in your core.

He parted with a pop and licked his lips, “I never… it was always hard to think of what you’d look like but I couldn’t picture anyone so perfect.”

Your nails dug into the couch cushions as you tried not to flinch. The glimmer of delight turned to disgust as you watched this stranger fondle you and he sealed his lips around your other nipple. You bit down on the cotton and moaned. You were so pathetic. It was your stupid moments of lonely desperation that brought you to this, that brought him to you.

His large hands spread along your sides and he pressed his fingertips into you sharply as he toyed with your nipples. He grazed his teeth along each bud and pulled back to look at you again. You grasped his shoulders as you begged him with your eyes and shook your head.

“I… always wanted to do this in the bedroom,” he said, “that’s where you usually are, huh? Touching yourself for me all alone in the dark--”

You hung your head in defeat and he pulled you forward on the cushion. He lifted you onto your feet and spun you around in the space between him and the couch. He put one hand on your hip and the other on the back of your neck and walked you around the sofa. He paced slowly behind you as he urged you down the hall and paused to peer through your bedroom door.

“Here we are,” he said as he angled you through the door. You reached up as your jaw ached around the wad of fabric and he caught your hand and yanked it down, “I didn’t say you could do that.”

You dropped your arm and he let you go. He pressed his body to your back as he nudged you closer to the bed and stopped you right before it. He bunched your shirt in his hands and tugged it up until you raised your arms. He swiped it over your head and let it crumple beside your feet.

“Go on, sit nice and pretty for me,” he tapped your ass lightly.

Naked, you shivered as you stepped away from him and got onto the bed. You turned as you bent your legs over the edge and lowered your chin. You hugged yourself as he stood watching you with his hands on his belt.

“Don’t you worry, it’s still a show,” he said as his hands slid over to his buckle. 

He winked and ran his fingers up the front of his jacket and pulled it off. He draped it over the folding stool by your bookshelf and bent each leg to tug off his shoes. His socks followed shortly after and he squared his shoulders before he scooped his shirt up and off. He returned to his buckle and tilted his head at you.

“Look at me, honey,” he said as you stared at the pile of clothing, “we both know you love to watch.”

You raised your eyes to him and clamped your hands around your shoulders, arms crossed over your chest. He grinned and unbuckled his belt, his zipper gliding down smoothly beneath his fingers.

“You got me hard as fuck,” he said, “I didn’t like that earlier, you know? The way you ran from me.”

You just sat and tried to swallow the hopeless acceptance. He pushed down his pants and stepped out of them, his arousal bulging against his boxers. Your fingernails cut into your skin as you curled your fingers.

“You’ve been so good to me, honey,” he continued as he rolled down his boxers, “you know, I only want to return the favour. I came all this way just to get close so that--” he paused as his dick sprang up before him and he kicked away his underwear, “I can take care of you now.”

He gripped himself and stroked his length with a hum. His stomach tensed and the lines of his muscles deepened as he groaned and played with himself as he would before the camera. You were mortified as you watched him helplessly and he got closer and closer.

“Now you get the live show, honey,” he reached out and took your hand, closing it around his dick as he guided it up and down.

He moaned and hung his head back as he used both your hands on his shaft. He shuddered and leaned into your grasp. You listened to his pants as they grew quicker and quicker and he stopped you abruptly. You looked down at the glistening pre-cum as it leaked from his tip and he trailed his thumb through it as he let you go.

You flinched as he moved towards you suddenly and grabbed your hips. He lifted you and dropped you onto your back. He took your ankles and placed them against his shoulders as he stretched your legs up his torso. His cock slid along your cunt and hovered over your folds.

“Fuck, I can’t wait any longer,” he bit his lips and looked between your legs as he let go of one leg and reached down to guide himself between your lips, “oh, honey, your so sexy.”

He pushed apart your cunt with two fingers and slid in between his knuckles. He gasped as you stretched around him and you pushed your head back and whined around the fabric in your mouth. You whimpered as he drew back just a little and pushed in deeper. He rocked his hips, getting further each time as your walls strained around him.

He tilted you against him so that he reached his limit and slid his thumb along your bud. He swirled around your clit as he carried a slow motion, gliding in and out of you as you slicked around him. The tingle of his touch crept like tendrils beneath your flesh and made you clench around his dick.

He groaned and sped up, just a little as he played with you, pressing more firmly on your clit until your hand shot down over his. You didn’t move him away, only gripped his wrist as he toyed with you, fucking you deliberately as the sensation melded into a maelstrom. The twisting spring inside of you compressed and released suddenly in a ripple of sheer delight.

You groaned and bent your legs against him, raising your pelvis higher so he dipped even deeper. Your eyes rolled back and you ripped the panties from your mouth in your ecstatic trance. You balled them in your hand and writhed on his dick. 

He grasped your hips and dragged your ass over the edge of the bed and rammed into you. You cried out and he did it again. It was as if he lost all control as his pelvis slapped against you loudly and his voice rumbled through the room. You gulped and gasped as he pressed the heel of his hand to your clit and rubbed harder, his fingers stabbing sharply against your flesh.

His other hand snaked up to pinch your nipple and cup your tit. He braced you as he bent over you and fucked you furiously. He stepped up onto the edge of the bed frame as he curled your body beneath his and brought both his hands up beside your head as he held himself over you.

He plunged down into you over and over and he huffed as he watched the joining of your bodies. He growled and pulled out of you suddenly, bending your legs up as you were contorted further. He grabbed your hand again and trapped it around his dick, moving it quickly as he muttered.

He came in thick ropes onto your chest and down the folds of your stomach as you were in almost a C beneath him, his knees around your thighs. You shook and lifted his chin as he snarled and kept your hand moving, still cumming over you. He tore your grasp from him as he grew over sensitive and hung his head as he quivered.

“Shit,” he swore as he backed off of you and stood, leaning on the bed to steady himself. Your legs fell over the edge and his cum cooled across your skin, “you look good like that, honey.”

He stepped closer and pushed his fingers through the mess. You shivered and stopped his hand as you slowly returned to reality. You lifted yourself on one elbow and batted your lashes in confusion.

“How did you even find me?” you uttered.

“Doesn’t matter how,” he grabbed your wrist and pulled you to sit up gruffly, “only that I did.”

[atlas-of-a-human-soul]

Broken trust

Summary: Finding out the truth about the Darkling, Y/N recounts the way they met only to realize she must say goodbye.

Warnings: angst

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Loving him felt like the most exquisite form of self destruction. She should have known sooner that he would be the source of the greatest pain she had ever known. Perhaps that's the problem, she never loathed the darkest parts of her that felt drawn to him from the first moment he had gazed upon her.

She never trusted anyone, not even her best friend until years have passed. She barely trusted herself for that matter. Trust didn't come easy for her, neither did love, but Y/N trusted Aleksander from the start, she didn't even question him and that is why it hurt so much, why it tore into her and ripped her to shreds.

She looked at him through a tear-clouded blur, her chest aching as her heart constricted inside with the iron fist of betrayal squeezing it tightly.

"How could you have lied?" She pauses, placing a hand on her chest, "To me?"

His jaw clenches, his eyes widening ever so slightly, "Would you have stayed?"

His voice is even, a calm in her raging storm and she can't help but hate him for it. While she is falling apart, he seems perfectly fine.

Her bottom lip quivers as her hands form fists, but when she speaks, she does so through gritted teeth, "When have I ever given you cause to question that?"

Aleksander steps closer, but Y/N is quick to take one back. His lips part, the way she can't even stand his presence inflicted hurt he didn't realize he was still capable of feeling.

"Do you remember when we met?" She asks, unsure why she's reminiscing now.

Walking into a Grisha tent wasn't quite a bright idea on Y/N's behalf, but sometimes you realize there are people worth risking your life for, and for Y/N, her best friend Mal was that person.

She had accepted a wager that would guarantee no one would pick on Mal, all she had to do was retrieve some grapes from a Grisha tent and this particular one seemed to be the only one unguarded.

She looked around at the dark colors inside with a frown etched in her face. She couldn't understand who'd enjoy living in such darkness. Isn't the world dark enough as it is?

Shaking her head, she looks to the table and upon the table she find the grapes that meant Mal would be safer. Wasting no time, her hand clutched the bowl and yet as she took it in her hand, a voice had startled her.

"What exactly do you think you're doing?"

Nodding, Aleksander pursed his lips. His eyes are dark, two pools of infinite darkness she had liked upon her before. She wasn't quite sure if she enjoyed his attention anymore.

"You were in my tent." He raised an eyebrow, "Uninvited.",

Gasping, Y/N turned around, her hands remaining behind her with the grapes safely hidden.

"I am sorry, I got lost." She came closer, her eyes meeting the intimidating black ones of the man much taller than her, much more powerful than she could ever be.

He raised an eyebrow, his eyes trailing her from head to toe, studying her as she realized he didn't believe her.

"I was just transferred back after a mission, I didn't realize the tents have been moved around. Mine used to be here", she managed a nervous smile, walking around him and toward the exit in hope of him letting her go.

"And yet you didn't leave once you realized it was not yours anymore", he spoke, his gaze following every step she takes. He steps in her way, blocking her from leaving. He's close, close enough for her to feel the faint smell of alcohol on his breath.

Swallowing thickly, she keeps staring at him as if he had chained her eyes to his, as if he had enchanted her. She doesn't even feel as his right arm moves around her, not until his hand plucks a single grape from the bowl, bringing it to his lips.

"Don't they feed you over in the First army?"

A faint smile forms on Aleksander's lips, just enough for the corners of his mouth to move, to capture her attention.

"You were stealing from me", he notes and she holds her breath as her heart, as treacherous as it is, jumps at the nearly lighthearted chuckle escaping him.

"And you stopped me from leaving", she adds, a sigh passing her lips.

"I should go" , Y/N blurts out, passing by the unknown Grisha as swiftly as possible. Just as she's about to reach the exit, to see the light of the day, cold, long fingers wrap around her left wrist, effectively pulling her back to face the Grisha.

A gasp escapes her once her eyes meet the dark shadows around the Grisha, more so when a light explodes around them. A warmth like she had never felt before spreads inside her, beams around her and the Grisha whose eyes are wide in shock, awestruck just as much as she is. The light encases them, her body shaking with the magnitude of their reality, yet she cannot comprehend where the light is coming from.

Breaking away from his eyes, she looks to his hand wrapped around her wrist, securely holding onto her. The glow of her skin, a thousand suns emerging from every inch of her makes her breathless. Her knees buckle and still, instead of the fall, she feels an arm around her, pulling her up and closer, much closer to the Grisha she had just met.

The shock of his arm around her dims the light, the darkness blinding her temporarily.

Only then does she hear the excited murmuring and whispers around her, only then does she look back at the Grisha holding her, keeping her from falling to her knees.

"Wh-what just happened?" She breathes out, her eyes flickering from his relentless gaze to his lips as they form a smile.

"You are a Sun summoner."

Leaning back on the table, Aleksander crosses his arms. "I had no intention on hurting you when I did. Your light must have felt it or it wouldn't have responded to me."

Scoffing, Y/N averts her gaze, "It was naïve." Locking her eyes on him once more, she adds, "And so was I."

"If I had told you, would you not think I'm evil from the start? Would you not have hated me?" Aleksander's eyebrows furrow, a single strand of hair falling to his forehead and it took everything in Y/N not to laugh. His disheveled look, if she could call it that, is still a thousand times more perfect than any other man.

"You could have trusted me." Tucking her hair behind her right ear, Y/N sighs heavily. "I trusted you. Now we will never know."

Unnerved, Aleksander comes before her in just a few strides, his hands cupping her face as she holds her breath, afraid of letting him know she still cares for him. It's an advantage she refuses to hand him.

"I don't want to lose you, Y/N. You're all I have", his voice is quiet, almost vulnerable, something she had only sensed in him once before and that was when he spoke of the burdens of his legacy. That was a lie, so was this not a lie as well?

She placed her hands over his, letting them linger momentarily before pulling them down, away from her with all her strength.

"I am not yours to lose!" She walks past him, just as she had done on that fateful day they met, and his hand catches her wrist just the same, pulling her back into his chest.

She pushes against him, trying to get away but his hold on her is stronger, unmoving like a force of nature.

"You may not be mine, but I am yours. There is no one like us in this world, Y/N", Aleksander's voice is softer, more tender than his embrace feels.

Shaking her head, Y/N croaks, "Don't make me hurt you."

"Hurt me?" His worry and pleas are replaced by arrogance, a smirk appearing on his lips. He could never imagine her to be powerful enough to harm him physically, but her leaving? That would break him.

Staying with him would undo her, Y/N knows that. She's tearing to pieces and not at the seams, it's much harder to heal when you break in an uneven patter where you can't stitch yourself up and move on. No...Aleksander Kirigan will be a gaping wound for a long time and then a nasty scar to serve as a reminded why she shouldn't trust easily, or anyone but herself.

"You once told me I would be your equal", she raised her chin defiantly, the smirk on her lips rivaling his. "You were right."

She raises her hand to his face swiftly, a light emerging from her palm in such bright intensity she could feel her skin burning with it.

It didn't last long, for her it felt like a few seconds, but his pained scream would remain in her head like an echo for a long time to come.

For Aleksander the pain was momentary, he healed rather fast. But when his vision cleared and she wasn't by his side, that pain would last a lifetime, fueling his darkness as he sets out to find her - the only light that can chase away the shadows he invited on the day the fold was created.

Y/N once believed he was worth loving, that he could be saved. Aleksander vowed to make sure she does again.

PART 2

[bad-fucking-omens]

Battle Scars (Jasper Hale x OC)

Summary: "The first time I ever saw her, my eyes swept over her like she was any other newborn in Maria’s army. There was nothing special about her. She was just like all the others — confused about this new life and violent with bloodlust." Jasper Hale had an entirely different life before he met the Cullens — one that he never talks about because it causes him too much pain to remember.

Warnings: Angst, emotional hurt

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JASPER

The first time I ever saw her, my eyes swept over her like she was any other newborn in Maria’s army. There was nothing special about her. She was just like all the others — confused about this new life and violent with bloodlust.

Maria had turned Evelyn after we conquered another territory. The girl had hid in a secret room that her father had built to protect his wife and daughter while he and his two sons took care of whatever was threatening their family. But Maria was a bigger threat than any human could ever hope to defeat, and one that any man would lower his guard for.

It didn’t take long for Maria to find the women after she had drained the men. Evelyn’s mother had tried to shield her and begged for Maria to spare her daughter. In a way, Maria granted the woman’s last wish. Though Evelyn died that night, she was reborn three days later, her eyes now bright, crimson red.

I trained her with the other newborns in order to get them ready for battle. She was a quick learner and surprisingly good at following directions. It wasn’t long before I noticed that she had a power.

I had found her trying to persuade one of the other newborns to create a distraction so she could run off. When I walked towards them, she looked at me. As soon as she broke eye contact with him, the other newborn growled and tried to attack her. She snarled as she turned to fight him. Evelyn easily got the upper hand and ripped his arms off, throwing them across the barn. Only then did she look back at me, her lip curling as anger and anxiety rolled off her in waves.

That night, I went to see Maria to tell her of Evelyn’s power. She demanded to see it for herself, so I brought her to see the new vampire. Maria told her to persuade me to turn my back on the group of newborns — something I never risked because they couldn’t be trusted not to try to attack me.

Evelyn lifted her chin at the challenge. She turned towards me and locked her eyes on mine. Her full lips pulled into a smile as a warmth spread through my body. Everything else faded away except for her. She murmured Maria’s order to me in a sweet, melodic voice. I turned around without a second thought and Evelyn followed me, making sure never to let her eyes leave mine. When my back was to the group of newborns, she looked away from me, towards Maria. I turned back around instantly, eyeing the newborns cautiously. From the corner of my eye, I could see Maria grinning widely.

After we left the barn that night, Maria ordered that Evelyn would be the only one of her group to survive past her year mark. She knew that Evelyn’s ability could be very powerful, and therefore useful to her. All the newborn had to do was survive the upcoming battles.

During the next battle, I had been told to watch Evelyn closer than usual and see how well she fought. I had gotten distracted by two newborns that attacked me together when I heard Evelyn call out. The sharp cry had me rush through ripping apart my own newborns, only to see Evelyn fighting her own pair of vampires. It was clear that they were overwhelming her. Unexpected rage filled me and I quickly tore them off her, helping her tear their limbs from their bodies to toss them into the fire raging in the middle of the town. Her red eyes met mine and suddenly, my entire world shifted.

Somehow, over the course of the few weeks that she had lived in this new life, I had repressed and overlooked the bond that had formed between us. Evelyn was my mate, my true mate, the one I was destined to spend the rest of my existence with. Everything made sense now. I had been drawn to her from the moment I saw her, but I had been so focused on training newborns and looking for any potential threat or betrayal that I ignored the pull, and the love that I could feel flowing from Evelyn.

I watched her more often from then on. I had to be extremely careful. Maria had claimed me as her lover years ago, and there was no doubt in my mind that she would see a relationship between Evelyn and I as a betrayal. She would have either or both of us killed for it.

Evelyn seemed to know we had to be careful too. I could still feel her love for me every time I was near enough to her, but she never indicated that she had any feelings for me whatsoever. That was good, it meant that she was smart — smarter than the other newborns I had trained.

The first night we were ever alone together — the first night she had ever touched me — I swore my heart started beating again for the first time in decades.

Maria had ordered me to destroy the group of newborns Evelyn was created with. She was the only one to be spared. I had always hated the task. I could feel their fear and pain every time I wrenched their heads from their shoulders. The guilt clawed at me. I kept an indifferent mask on my face to not let anyone see.

I could feel her eyes on me as I left the city. I found a small river a couple miles from outside of the city and sat down beside it, watching the clear water trickle around the rocks. I caught her scent — lavender and rose and orange — a few minutes later. She didn’t say a word as she lowered herself to the ground beside me and placed her hand over mine. I turned my hand over and twined our fingers together before whispering so low that she had to lean closer to hear me, “I love you too.” Evelyn squeezed my hand gently. She seemed to know that she didn’t have to say the words for me, that I could feel her love.

We began to meet up secretly after that night. I would leave whatever new city Maria and her army had taken while the others were busy ravaging it and Evelyn would follow my scent. It was always a risk, but we never got caught. No one knew that we were in love and it needed to stay that way. We couldn’t risk anyone saying anything to Maria.

Evelyn and I didn’t even talk sometimes when we met up. Those nights were always the nights we met up after I had to dispose of other newborns. She seemed to sense the toll it took on me to take the lives of those Maria deemed useless. She would always just sit down beside me and place her hand in my waiting one. We would sit in silence together until I felt the love overcome the pain.

Other times, though, we couldn’t seem to speak enough. We whispered together for hours, telling each other about what we could remember about our lives before Maria had turned us and about the dreams and hopes we had as humans. The more I learned about Evelyn, the more I fell in love with her.

The first night she kissed me, I knew then that Heaven must be real.

We had snuck away again like we had every other night. We both had a few new bite marks to add to the growing collection on our bodies. I had been eyeing the new one on her shoulder when Evelyn leaned close to me. My eyes flicked up to meet hers as she hesitated, barely half an inch between our lips. Her desire pulsed between us fiercely and my own was just as strong. I closed the distance between us a fraction of a second later.

Her lips were as soft as the petals of a rose. Her ink-black hair was like silk sliding between my fingers. Her gentle hands wrapped themselves in my honey-colored hair, pulling me closer.

Evelyn ended up on her back underneath me. I wasn’t sure how we ever managed to pull ourselves apart. When we broke our kiss, she stroked her fingertips along my cheek, a small smile on her lips. Her look made me want to kiss her again, but we had already stayed out of the city longer than usual and I was hesitant to risk our luck.

I whispered, “I love you,” before getting up and heading back towards Maria’s army. I took over a patrol position to watch for Evelyn’s return. She passed by me with just a curt nod, the usual greeting between those in Maria’s ranks, as if the past hour hadn’t even happened. But I could feel her love, even stronger than normal this time, and I was careful to bite back the smile that threatened to form.

The years passed and soon, Evelyn had been by mine and Maria’s side for just over ten years. Our relationship was still the best-kept secret in the world. No one had any idea that Eve and I were mates. But I could tell that she was growing tired of living like this — creating and destroying newborns over and over again just to keep fighting other vampires. She believed there had to be more to this existence than fighting an endless, pointless war.

We began to plan our escape, but it was complicated and risky. I knew that if we both ran at the same time, Maria would be far more likely to come looking for us. We were much more useful to her than others without abilities. She wouldn’t stop until we were dead or back in her service. If we escaped separately, however, Maria hopefully wouldn’t be too suspicious and would be more willing to just let us go. She would likely send someone after whichever one of us disappeared, but she would be more likely to give up easily.

Our chance came one night when Maria had ordered me to destroy another round of newborns. Peter, a vampire I had befriended and who often helped me get rid of other newborns, suddenly became fiercely protective of one newborn meant to die. For weeks, he had been trying to convince me to preserve a few from this group, but I never expected his reason was because he was mated to one of them.

I hesitated as I looked at Peter shielding his mate. How could I destroy them for the love they felt, when I myself knew how strong that bond was?

“I’ll let you go, if you do me a favor,” I offered.

Peter shifted slightly, cautious trust radiating out from him. He nodded.

“Take Evelyn with you.”

Peter and Charlotte’s eyes both widened. We stared at each other before I saw the realization in their eyes as Eve appeared beside me and linked her fingers with mine. I knew she would have been listening �� she always watched me on purge days, waiting for the moment I would slip away so she could join me.

“Okay,” Peter agreed. Then he added urgently, “We must go quickly.”

I nodded and turned to face Eve. I touched her cheek softly. I could feel her love for me, her hope that we could truly escape, her anguish that we had to separate.

“This is our best chance,” I whispered to her.

“I know,” she replied quietly, squeezing my hand, “but I don’t want to leave without you. Jasper, what if I never see you again?”

I kissed her fiercely, using my ability to calm her. “You must go,” I breathed against her lips. “It’s safer this way. And I promise you, the moment I am able, I am going to come after you.”

Eve wrapped her arms around me, hugging me for the first time. It was the closest we had ever been to each other in all the years we had spent together. It was too risky to have our scents all over each other. My breath caught in my throat at the intimate gesture. I held her as close as I could, savoring the last contact I would have with her for likely a few years.

“I love you, Jasper,” she murmured.

It was the first time I had ever heard her say the words. I hoped it wouldn’t be the last.

“I love you too, Eve.” I pulled away from her reluctantly and ordered the three of them, “Go. I won’t report for a few minutes. Make your trail hard to follow. I will find you,” I added, looking at my mate.

She nodded, then turned and ran with the other two. Eve glanced back over her shoulder once, her crimson eyes meeting mine one last time.

EVE

Peter, Charlotte, and I ran for an entire day without slowing down or stopping. The sun rose and set again but we just kept moving. We even ran through a river for a while to help disguise our trail. In the back of my mind, I couldn’t help but wonder how Jasper would ever find us. I shook my head and pushed the thought away. He would find us — he would find me.

I stayed with Peter and Charlotte for a while. They were kind to me, and they were good company, but after a year, I had grown jealous. I had to witness their love for each other and it made me resentful towards them, no matter how much I tried not to be. I was angry that they were together while Jasper and I were apart. So I left them. I told them that if Jasper found them before he found me to let him know that I would be in the northern United States. Peter and Charlotte seemed to understand why I was leaving and they apologized, but I assured them that I would be alright. I just had to wait for Jasper. Once we were reunited, everything would be good again.

I traveled through the United States for the next twenty years, waiting for him. My heart ached more and more with each day that passed without any sign of him. I was losing hope every week. I never heard from or saw Peter and Charlotte again either.

Two more decades passed. I had been searching for Jasper desperately everywhere I went. I even risked sneaking back down south, to where I knew Maria’s army was still fighting. I compelled one of her older vampires to tell me about Jasper. He had escaped decades ago, only five years after I had.

If he was out here, then why hadn’t he found me yet? The thought that he might be dead made my heart shatter into tiny pieces. Just wondering if he was still alive caused me unbearable agony, but what other explanation was there for us not finding each other after so long? It had been thirty-five years since he escaped Maria’s army. Surely he would have found me by now if he was alive.

I wasn’t sure how much time had passed while I was grieving, only that it had to be years. I hid away in a remote part of the Colorado Rockies, barely able to even get myself to drink, even as the thirst shoved sharp, white-hot knives down my throat. That pain was nothing compared to knowing that my mate, my true love, my Jasper, was gone.

I was jolted out of my comatose depression when a man passed too close to my hiding spot in the mountains. I was about to attack him when I saw his face. In that moment, he looked so much like Jasper that I just froze. I slowly sank back into the trees, watching as the man made his way back to the trail he had wandered off of, none the wiser that he was almost killed by a vampire. That encounter was enough to bring me out of my hiding spot.

As a last resort, I ended up traveling the world in search of any sign that Jasper was alive, that he was still searching for me. I had a run in with the Volturi and the result of that soured my mood even further for the next decade. Aro was adamant that I joined his guard because of my persuasive power. I politely refused and the Volturi reluctantly let me go on my way.

By the time I was nearly a century old, I had lost any hope that Jasper was alive. It had been seventy years since I had last been by Jasper’s side. Now, I moved through life completely numb to everything around me. I only felt the agony of knowing that my mate was dead. I fed only when the burn in my throat became too irritating to ignore. I spent my time alone, thinking back to the memories of my stolen nights with Jasper. I replayed them over and over again in my mind so much that even if I didn’t have a perfect memory, I would surely have memorized every aspect of our conversations by now.

Every part of him was perfectly preserved in my mind. His deep, thickly accented voice. His gentle touch and soft skin. His sweet scent of honeysuckle and orange and oakwood. Sometimes, if the moment was just right, I could close my eyes and pretend as if I was living those memories again, with Jasper only inches from me. What I wouldn’t give to live in my memories of Jasper forever.

EDWARD

I was the only one in our family besides Jasper and Alice that knew about Evelyn. I only knew about her because I had seen her countless times in Jasper’s thoughts. He never spoke about her to anyone. It caused him too much pain, since he believed that she had died before he could find her. He blamed himself for her death because he hadn’t left with her that night.

That was why, when I opened the front door to find Evelyn waiting on the porch patiently, I was shocked. I was quick to hide my surprise, though, and Evelyn did not seem to suspect anything was wrong. I listened closely to her thoughts. I was surprised once again when it seemed that she had no idea that Jasper was a part of our family.

Evelyn smiled at me and greeted, “Hello. I heard that you are going to stand against the Volturi.”

Her thoughts gave away her true intentions. She had only come to help us because she didn’t like the Volturi, and she believed Jasper was dead. She thought that she had nothing left to lose if the Volturi attacked us — she was willing to die in hopes that her death would reunite her with Jasper.

“We do not intend to fight them if we can avoid it,” I replied, “but we are hoping to gather enough people to force them to listen to the truth.”

“May I ask what crime you are accused of?”

“They believe that we have created an immortal child.” Evelyn’s smile dropped and she bristled. I quickly said, “We did not. We can show you the truth, if you give us the chance.”

Evelyn hesitated, then nodded. I stepped aside and gestured for her to walk into the house. She did so slowly and I shut the door behind her. I called, “Bella?”

My wife walked into the front room, a guarded expression on her face as she held our daughter, Renesmee, in her arms. Evelyn’s eyes widened and she simply stared at my daughter for a moment in shock. When Renesmee reached her hand out to show Evelyn her story, the woman flinched back out of instinct. She relaxed a moment later and allowed Renesmee to press her small hand to her cheek.

I watched everything she showed the vampire through Evelyn’s thoughts. Jasper did not appear in Renesmee’s story, and I wasn’t sure if I was glad or disappointed that Evelyn still didn’t know the truth.

Renesmee pulled her hand away. Evelyn smiled at her gently.

“I see. . . . Amazing,” she commented, her eyes moving to look at Bella. She was shocked that Bella had survived the pregnancy. Evelyn’s red eyes flicked up to meet mine. “I will be a witness for your family and fight for you if it comes to it.”

“Thank you,” Bella and I said together.

Evelyn nodded. I said, “You are free to come and go as you want, of course, but we ask that you hunt outside of the state. Our residence here is permanent and we cannot draw attention to it.”

“Of course,” she agreed with a smile. She tilted her head very slightly and I heard the question run through her mind before she spoke, “Your eyes. . . . I’ve never seen anything like them. Why aren’t they red?”

“We survive on animals, not humans.”

“Hm,” she hummed as she contemplated my answer. I hid a wince as her thoughts immediately drifted towards Jasper as she wondered if an animal diet would have helped the guilt he felt after feeding. I almost wanted to tell her that she was right, that it did help him.

Evelyn joined the other vampires that had agreed to help us in the living room. Later in the day, Peter and Charlotte, Jasper’s friends, arrived back from a hunting trip. When they saw Evelyn seated among the other nomads, they stopped dead in their tracks, their eyes wide in surprise. Just like Jasper, they believed that she had died long ago.

Charlotte was the first to rush over and embrace the other woman. “We thought you were dead!”

Evelyn smiled her fake smile again, trying to seem happy in front of her old friends as Peter hugged her.

“We should catch up,” he said.

He took Evelyn’s hand and she let him lead her outside, far away from the house so the others wouldn’t hear their conversation. I followed them at a distance so they wouldn’t know that I was listening to them.

“You have no idea, do you?” Peter asked.

Evelyn gave him a confused look. “What do you mean?”

“Jasper.”

She flinched at the mention of his name, then mumbled dejectedly, “I know he’s dead, Peter.”

Peter grasped her arms tightly. His voice was desperate as he said, “Jasper is alive, Evelyn. This is his coven.”

Evelyn’s thoughts raced through her mind as she tried to process his words. She had been convinced that her mate was dead for over half a century.

“What?” she gasped. “He’s alive?”

“Yes.”

“Oh,” she breathed. Evelyn thought, ‘He’s alive. He’s not dead. . . . Jasper is alive!’

“But . . . you should know.” Peter hesitated. “He . . . he found a mate.”

I couldn’t help but feel sorry for Evelyn as she fell to her knees, overwhelmed by the shock and pain coursing through her. Peter kneeled down with her, sorry that his words hurt his friend.

“I’m sorry, Eve,” Peter apologized quietly. “I know how close you were to him.”

“Is he here?” Evelyn whispered, her voice shaky.

“No. Edward said Jasper and Alice, his mate, fled right after Alice saw that the Volturi were coming in one of her visions. . . . Will you stay?”

Evelyn nodded. “Yes. I want to be a witness for the child, and I will fight if it comes to that. . . . But I will leave again as soon as it’s done . . . if I’m not dead.”

“I’m truly sorry, Eve.”

The two of them stood and she smiled weakly at him. Peter didn’t notice the pain hidden in Evelyn’s eyes, but I did.

“Peter, I knew a long time ago that I had lost him. . . . I just didn’t know I had lost him in this way. I am okay.”

She turned and walked further into the forest. Peter watched her worriedly for a moment before heading back to the house. I decided to follow Evelyn.

When she decided that she was far enough away, Evelyn fell to her knees again, gasping out a dry sob and wishing that she could cry. Her thoughts were painful, but I listened to them anyway.

‘It’s like I lost him all over again. . . . This hurts worse than when I was burning. How is it fair that he’s not my mate when this feels like torture? Would the world be so cruel to make him my mate while his mate is someone else? Am I destined to live through this agony until I can find someone willing to kill me? Did he even look for me at all? Or did he meet her the same way he met me, in Maria’s army? He must not ever think about me, or Edward would have recognized me. He forgot all about me the moment he met her.’

EVE

The Cullen house began to fill with more vampires as I fell back into my usual routine of despair and numbness. I kept my distance from everyone else so my mood wouldn’t affect them. I didn’t want to subject anyone else to my misery.

I helped train the few vampires that didn’t have much fighting experience. I was useful in helping them learn to fight, thanks to the time I spent learning from Jasper when we were in Maria’s army. Then, Edward told the others about my ability and the Cullens began to hope that I could subtly persuade the Volturi to leave their family in peace. I agreed to at least try.

My power had developed significantly since I escaped Maria’s army. I no longer needed to maintain eye contact with my target, I just needed them within a certain range. There was still a limitation to my ability, though. If they had already made up their minds firmly, my persuasion would not be able to change their minds.

It was finally time for the confrontation with the Volturi ten days after I had met the Cullens. We all gathered in the clearing the day the snow stuck to the ground instead of melting. I was positioned just behind the front line, close to Peter and Charlotte. I waited anxiously while the Volturi approached and played out their charade of a trial.

I tried time and time again to influence their decisions, but Edward’s subtle shake of his head let me know that nothing was working. I whispered a near-silent apology to the couple. Edward whispered back his thanks that I tried and Bella nodded with him.

My hands twitched with anticipation when Bella warned us that the Volturi guards were trying to break through her shield. We began picking our opponents. I growled that I wanted Aro — his obsession with abilities reminded me too much of Maria.

“Just like old times,” Peter murmured to me as we all prepared for the oncoming attack. I grinned at him.

“See you on the other side,” I whispered back. Charlotte gave me an admonished look while Peter just grinned back.

“Yes!” Edward hissed, drawing my attention to him. “Aro?”

I watched, confused and cautious and on edge, as the two conversed. Edward seemed determined to get Aro to tell us exactly why they considered Renesmee a danger to our existence. It all appeared to revolve around the fact that no one knew how the young hybrid would act as she continued to grow.

Aro’s eyes narrowed as he said, “She is absolutely unique. Her future can only be guessed at.”

“Not absolutely unique,” Edward replied. “Rare, certainly, but not one of a kind. . . . Why don’t you join us, Alice?”

Alice.

Alice.

Jasper’s mate.

Pain washed through me, raw and fresh and stinging deep.

“Alice,” Aro breathed.

I could feel the buzz of the joy of the others around me, but I was rooted to the spot, my dead heart breaking in my chest.

Within half a second, Alice stood on the other side of Edward, a fair distance away from me. I barely even glimpsed her face before my eyes were locked onto Jasper, who stood by her side. I paid no attention to the conversation happening with the Volturi as I stared at him. I felt Charlotte’s hand grasp mine but my own hand was limp in hers.

I knew my memories were absolutely perfect, but seeing Jasper in person after so long was so much better. He had more bite marks than he did the last time I saw him and his eyes were golden now, but otherwise, he was exactly the same. Tall and lean yet muscular, with shoulder-length honey-blonde hair. He was still so incredibly beautiful.

But then he shifted his body to a protective position in front of Alice and I had to tear my eyes away from him. I gripped Charlotte’s hand and she squeezed my fingers in return to try to comfort me.

“Is it really over?” I heard Bella whisper.

“Yes. They’ve given up,” Edward replied.

Everyone began to celebrate. Charlotte pulled away from me to hug Peter tightly. I watched the others as they all hugged and kissed their mates. Jasper was pulled into an embrace with Alice and Esme. Pain rippled through my chest and I turned, intent on leaving before I could get hurt anymore.

JASPER

As Esme pulled me and Alice into a tight hug, a gust of wind carried a scent towards me that I hadn’t caught in nearly a century.

Lavender. Rose. Orange.

My head snapped towards where the wind was blowing from. I froze when I saw her. It had to be her. No one else smelled like her. No one else had her beautiful, long, soft-as-silk, ink-black, wavy hair, which was currently tied up exactly the way she had always put it up when she fought with me under Maria.

I ripped myself away from Alice and Esme. Everything else faded away as I ran towards her. I caught her hand in mine and she turned to face me.

She looked exactly the same as she had so long ago. She was gorgeous. Her beauty was beyond any other person I had ever seen. I took her face in my hands, my eyes locked on hers.

“You’re alive,” I whispered desperately. “I searched for you for so long. . . . I can’t believe that you’re here. You’re here.”

Confusion ran through me when Eve pulled away from my grasp and took a step back. Finally, my shock eased up enough so that I could feel her emotions. I almost fell to my knees at the pain and grief that radiated from her.

“Eve?” I asked, confused.

Wasn’t she happy to see me?

“Don’t,” Eve whispered, her voice quiet and thick with emotion. My heart broke at the pain in her voice. “Don’t make this harder for me.”

“I don’t understand.”

“I’m leaving,” she said. My own fear and pain rushed through my veins. I couldn’t lose her again. “You have a life here, with your coven, with your . . . mate. I won’t disrupt that for you.”

“You’re my mate,” I murmured, confused.

Why was she saying these things?

“Am I?” Eve spat. I flinched at her outburst of anger. She had never been angry with me before. “You stopped looking for me.”

I took a step towards her and took her face in my hands again hesitantly. My heart melted when she didn’t pull away.

“Listen to me, please,” I begged. “I searched for you for forty years. Then Alice told me that you were dead. I would never have given up if I thought you were alive, Eve, I swear to you. . . . She told me Maria found you and killed you for escaping.”

“But you stayed with her,” Eve whispered miserably, venom pooling in her eyes like tears.

I looked down as my hands fell from her face. I was ashamed that I had given up so easily and that I had given in to what Alice wanted.

“I searched for you for decades. I looked for you everywhere I could. . . . Alice found me and agreed to help me look for you. Twenty years later, she had a vision that you died and said that it was too late, that you were gone,” I said, my voice breaking. “Eve, from the moment you escaped, I was in agony from being away from you. When I thought you died, I wanted to die. I begged everyone we met to kill me. They all refused, and only a year later, we found the Cullens. . . . I didn’t know what else to do but to stay. Nothing mattered to me anymore. As time passed, I wasn’t completely miserable anymore. I was nowhere near happy, not by any means, but I was surviving. So I stayed. But I never forgot about you,” I promised, looking up to meet her crimson eyes again. “I’ve thought about you every second since the moment I let you go.”

Half a second passed before Eve pulled me into her arms. I let out a breath and held her as close as I could. I buried my nose in her hair and breathed her in. I had missed her sweet scent for far too long.

“I’m so sorry I didn’t leave with you,” I mumbled against her hair, my eyes shut tightly. I held her even tighter. “Letting you go without me was the worst mistake I’ve ever made.”

“We found each other again,” Eve replied softly as she threaded her fingers through my hair.

“Stay here, with me,” I begged. I quickly added, “Or I can go with you. I don’t care. I just don’t ever want to be apart from you ever again.”

“I’ll stay.”

We broke apart just enough to look into each other’s eyes.

For one entire, perfect second, no one existed except me and Eve. I could feel her love and her desire stronger than I ever had before. I let my own love flood into her and she grinned, then pulled me into a kiss. I held her close, afraid that if I let her go, I would lose her again. I let myself forget about everything else. Nothing existed outside of her lips on mine, her hands in my hair, her body pressed against mine. She was the center of my universe.

Someone cleared their throat. We broke apart reluctantly, though I kept my arm firmly around her waist. Eve leaned into my side and slipped her arm around me.

Most of the group had left already. Peter and Charlotte were the only nomads who lingered, but just long enough for both of them to smile at the pair of us and give us an approving nod before disappearing into the trees. Only the Cullens, Nahuel, and Hulien remained now.

Confusion rolled off my family in huge waves. I expected it — I had never corrected any of them when they said Alice was my mate. Once I was told that Eve was dead, I lived mostly on autopilot until recently, when Bella’s safety demanded more of my attention. They never truly knew me or how I was before I lost Eve. I was already grieving when they met me. I didn’t care what they thought. I was so consumed with the pain of losing my mate that I let Alice tell them whatever she wanted because nothing mattered to me anymore. Only Edward knew the truth of why I was so withdrawn, why I struggled so much with this lifestyle. I owed him everything for keeping my secret from all of them.

“Jasper,” Carlisle began. I held my hand up to stop him.

“I will explain everything, I promise. But I need some time alone with Eve before I do.”

He nodded. Everyone began to walk back to the house. My eyes drifted to Alice as she passed us and rage coiled in my stomach. She had lied to me for so long. She had kept me from finding Eve. She had forced both me and Eve to go through decades of pain and grief.

“Jasper,” Eve whispered.

I almost melted. I had not heard my name from her lips in nearly a century and it made my heart throb with love for my mate. I turned to face her and my anger faded instantly. I reached up to touch her cheek.

“I love you,” I murmured.

“I love you too,” she replied softly.

We sat down in the snow beside each other. Eve rested her head on my shoulder and I leaned my head against hers. She laughed softly and the warmth of her joy flooded into me, making me smile.

“I feel as if I’ve just woken up from the most horrible nightmare,” Eve said, squeezing my hand tightly. “Is it possible that you’re actually here with me? Or have I finally lost my mind?”

“I’m here,” I promised quietly. “I will always be with you.”

I pulled her onto my lap, burying my face in the crook of her neck as my arms curled around her waist. Her fingers combed through my hair. I leaned into her affectionate touch.

“Will you tell me about what happened after I left?”

I nodded and pulled my face away from her neck. Eve rested one hand on my face and stroked my cheek as I spoke.

“I had to be careful about choosing when to leave. After you left, Maria grew more suspicious and more vigilant. I had to wait five years before another chance came. . . . I left and found Peter and Charlotte two years later.” Eve whimpered, her fingers gripping my hair tighter. I brushed my nose against her skin as I said, “They said you had left them after a year, but that you were still in the United States, so I began to search for you. . . . I looked everywhere, but I just couldn’t find you, or even anyone who had ever seen you. I started to get desperate, and depressed. I kept thinking about what you said that night, about us never seeing each other again. What if you were right?”

Eve pressed a kiss to my forehead and waited for me to continue.

“I met Alice after I had been searching for you for thirteen years. She quickly offered to help me look. I agreed, since I thought that her ability would help. She’s a seer — she has visions of the future. . . . Now that I know you are alive, I think she was lying to me. I think anytime you or I got too close to each other, she guided me away from you. And then, thirty-two years after we met, she told me she had a vision that Maria had found and killed you.”

My voice broke. Eve hugged me tightly and brushed her fingers through my hair, whispering, “I’m here, Jasper. I’m alive.”

“I was destroyed,” I mumbled. “I begged her to kill me, but she refused. She dragged me along with her to meet the Cullens, and I begged them to kill me too. No one would. . . . I have been so numb to almost everything but my grief for the past few decades since I had been told that you were dead. I only stayed because I didn’t know what else to do, or where else to go. You were the center of my world and, as far as I knew, you were gone forever. I have never been happy since that last night I saw you. . . . But I have grown to love the Cullens. They are my family.”

“Do you think they’ll like me?” she asked quietly, twisting my hair around her finger.

“They will love you.”

I kissed her. I wasn’t sure how long we sat there, just kissing each other. A year could have passed and I doubted either one of us would have noticed, or cared.

When we finally pulled away from each other, Eve told me about how she had lived after leaving Peter and Charlotte. My heart ached for her when she told me how long she believed I was dead, and how she hid away for over a decade because the misery was too much. I was so thankful that she had a run in with the Volturi that angered her enough to bring her to Forks to help my family. Who knows how much longer we would have been separated if she hadn’t?

I brushed a loose curl of her hair behind her ear. I said, “I’m here, and I’m yours forever. Nothing and no one will ever keep us apart again, I promise you.”

Eve smiled and kissed me again. When we broke apart, I just stared at her for a while. Her crimson eyes traced along my face and I saw her linger on the bite marks on my throat. She reached up to trace them gently with her fingertips.

“How many new ones?”

“Fifty-seven,” I told her. “All but one are from when I was still in Maria’s army.”

“And the other one?”

“That’s a long story,” I said with a small smile. The corner of her lips pulled up in a slight smirk as she raised an eyebrow. “One that I promise I will tell you. But it’s more Edward and Bella’s story than mine.”

She nodded. I traced one of her old bite marks on her shoulder. “Do you have any new ones?”

“No,” Eve laughed. “I’m exactly as you left me.”

I smiled. “Perfect.”

Eve rolled her eyes. She brushed my hair from my face and said, “You know, the gold suits you better than the red ever did. . . . Does it help? Feeding on animals, I mean? I know how hard it was for you when you drank from humans.”

“It does. The taste is worse, but I don’t feel their emotions, at least.”

“Good,” she whispered. She brushed her hand along my chest. “I remember how horrible you always felt after. I always felt so useless on those nights.”

My arms tightened around her waist. “You were the only thing that helped me those nights. Just being near you, feeling your love, always brought me back.”

“And after I left?”

“It got worse,” I admitted, glancing away from her eyes. “It wasn’t until I met the Cullens and started feeding on animals that I got better. But it was marginal compared to the depression I was in from thinking I lost you.”

Eve tucked her head in the crook of my neck as she hugged me. She mumbled against my skin, “I don’t know how either of us survived, but I’m so glad we did.”

I closed my eyes as I held her close. I never wanted to let her go again. I grinned against her hair when I realized I would never have to.

[officialscaramouche]

ayo feel like doing a gorou confession fic for me? pretty please with sprinkles on top (you know that fucking tiktok)

Ofc Pizzato anything for u my dear 🥰

Pairing: Gorou x gn!reader

Warnings: slight angst

Word count: 1,969

You heard a couple friendly knocks on your office door, eyes glancing to the clock to see it was a little past noon and you knew exactly who it was. “Come in,” you chime, putting down your pen and stretching upwards with a smile.

“Helloooooo!” You hear as the door swung open, Kazuha flaunting an envelope between his fingers. “Letter time!”

You sweep to your feet and give him grabby hands. “Give it to me!” He chuckles and places the thin paper into your hands. “Tell me who it is already,” you giggle as you rip it open and slide the letter out.

“No,” he sighs, rolling his eyes. “I keep my promises.”

You quirk and eyebrow before you fold open the letter. “Even if I bribe you with dango?”

Kazuha smiles. “Even if you bribe me with dango.”

You grunt and groan but it quickly stops when you unfold the letter, reading the contents.

Good afternoon, cupcake, it starts. You blush at the pet name. I hope your day is going as well as mine. I’ve just won the office lottery! I’m going to ask for more snacks in the break room. That way, everyone benefits too! Specifically though, I want more sakura mochi! The ones you made for us were delicious. Share your recipe? :3

I adore you, your secret admirer.

You squeeze the letter to your chest and squeal, your face warm from blushing and your heart pounding against your chest. “Oh, Kazuha, whoever this person is, I really wish they’d come up and confess!”

Kazuha tuts and wiggles his finger. “But then the mystery wouldn’t be there anymore.”

“Screw mystery!” You squealed, gazing down at the illegible and scratchy handwriting, the mysterious stains and fur all over the page. “I’m ready to hear these words in person.”

Just then there was a knock on your door and a quick turn of the knob, one of the top brass leaning against your door frame. “Good morning, Chatty Cathy’s,” sang a familiar voice and ear twitches.

You wave while Kazuha bows, hiding the letter behind your back. “Good morning, General Gorou.”

The tail behind his back wagged discreetly as the two men share a knowing glance. “Kazuha,” the general clears his throat. “May I speak with you?”

The samurai nods his head and gives you a little wave as he walks out the door. “Bye boys!” You sing, tucking the letter back into the envelope and putting it away.

The next day, as routine, a little past noon you heard three friendly knocks on your door. You excitedly put your pen down, closing your ledger and standing out of your chair and onto your feet. “Kazuha,” you grinned. “Come in!”

He pushed the door open with his back, lugging a big box with some plastic sticking out from the top. “I’m just a mule to you guys aren’t I?” He groaned, lifting the box up and onto your desk. “This is ridiculous.”

You stood on your tippy toes to try and peek inside the box without being obnoxious. “What is it?” You hum, getting more and more restless.

“Your letter, what else?” He kind of snapped, letting out a deep sigh and rolling his eyes. “I wish he’d confess too. That way I don’t have to carry these things.”

You pulled back the top of the box that was just out of your reach. “Here,” pushing your hands away, Kazuha tore the box apart to expose a giant basket full of goodies and flowers. “The letter.”

Kazuha snapped the taped-on letter from the plastic and handed it to you. Wasting no time at all, you rip the envelope open and unfold the letter.

Dearest [Y/N], you’ve pierced my heart like an arrow through a target and I simply cannot get you off my mind. I heard from the grapevine that you wish for my confession. …Maybe I shall do so in the near future? It’s not that I do not want to be yours, but rather that you make me quite nervous. Still, we see each other for terribly brief moments but these moments are the most precious to me. Hopefully I can muster up the courage to finally tell you how I feel. In the meantime, please accept these treats and toys imported from across the globe. My favorite are the dog-shaped biscuits.

Your shy admirer.

Looking up from the letter you find Kazuha stuffing his face with some chocolatey cookies from within a tin box labeled ‘Fontaine.’ “Are those good?” You ask, reaching in and stealing one.

“Mhm,” Kazuha hums, taking a bite out of the one in his hand. “I’ve never had Fontaine chocolate. I guess the rumors about being the best were true.”

You melt under the sweet taste and crunchy texture, thinking that if your crush’s letters had a taste, it would be like this. “This is so nice,” you sigh, eyes sparkling as they gaze upon the basket. “Do you think he’s going to confess to me?”

Kazuha stares out the windows of your office that peer into the rest of the building, watching a certain general spill water on himself and the resistance leader. He takes another bite of a cookie. “Maybe.”

You squeal in delight and spin around in joy. “My heart’s beating so fast! I hope he does it soon or I’ll explode!”

Kazuha chuckles and playfully shoves you aside. “If you explode, I’m eating all of your snacks.”

“No! They’re mine!”

Weeks— almost a month— go by with no further letters. Kazuha stopped coming by, whether at noon or otherwise. The only knocks you got were visits from Kokomi about the budget or from other soldiers carrying reports and receipts from spending. Your heart ached at the sudden lack of contact, wondering if you had done or said something wrong.

Maybe your eagerness was intimidating and this mystery man just wanted someone to flirt with without commitment. Maybe he got bored of you. Maybe he didn’t want to talk to you anymore.

Regardless, you wanted to try and spark it back up in case you’ve stepped on some toes without realizing. That night when you got home, you tossed the ingredients for sakura mochi into a bowl and got to mixing.

The office ate everything you brought before lunchtime rolled around. With such great success, you had confidence that he’d reach out to you tomorrow, if not today.

But alas you were left in silence once more, leaving your heart to crumble and ache. You were quick to recover, considering you never met the guy— let alone knew his name. But you had no time to be worrying anyway, because in a couple of days one of the squads were returning from the front lines and you needed to factor in medical costs. Apparently they took a hard hit when Sara Kujou showed up with her samurai. Kokomi was depending on you, and you didn’t want to let her down.

You spend these few days really crunching the numbers, making sure that every wounded soldier would get the basic medical necessities with some left over for any miscalculations. With every i dotted and every t crossed, you stuffed your report into a fancy envelope and handed it to Kokomi. “Thank you [Y/N] for your hard work under such a sudden timetable.” She thanked, tucking the envelope under her arm. “The team should be arriving tomorrow, so I will be submitting this for review immediately.”

You bow respectfully and offer your thanks for praise. “It’s no problem at all, Her Excellency. I was given ample time to prepare the balance sheet.” You begin to turn when you’re stopped once again by her.

“Before you go,” she smiles softly. “Would you mind helping out at the infirmary? We’re short handed right now with the sudden intake of Delusions.”

“Of course, Her Excellency. I will be there whenever you need me.”

You weren’t specialized in medics but you had helped around often enough to know the basics. And anyone could become a master at immediate medical attention after doing it so many times.

The flood of gurneys was a little disheartening to see, but you were still thankful for all that they do for the greater of the country. It must be scary being at the front lines, but everyone knew what they were signing up for.

You catch sight of Genera Gorou and Lord Kazuha chatting with Lady Kokomi before you were assigned to a batch of wounded soldiers, feeling a little bad for harboring ill feelings toward the young lord for disappearing. ‘You could’ve at least told me that you were leaving,’ you thought as you rinsed the injured area.

“I can take over from here,” the head medic stepped in, slipping on a new pair of gloves before getting a closer look at the soldier before you. With most of everyone patched up and recovering, the medic team was able to take control of the infirmary once again.

You wash your hands and check the clock. A little past noon. It’s funny how at this time you would’ve waited with bated breath for a couple of knocks. But not anymore.

You step out of the infirmary and find Kazuha and General Gorou sitting outside on the benches there. “Oh, hi boys,” you say surprised.

Kazuha grabs and shakes your hand. “Thank you for helping out our soldiers,” he says seriously.

“Oh, it’s not that big of a deal,” you mutter. “I do this all the time.”

A calloused hand pushes Kazuha’s away and shakes your hand firmer, harder. “No, [Y/N],” Gorou says with a sort of oomph behind his words. “These are my men…my family. They would be suffering if not for your help.”

You look to the side uncomfortably, a little put-off by the tension in the air. “And that’s why—!” Gorou continues, suddenly eight decibels louder. You hold eye contact with the general, his face darkening into a deep red flush, his eyes glassy and ears twitching. He squeezed your hand harder and shut his eyes. “M-My C-C-Cupcake!!! P-Please let m-me take you on a date!!!!”

Kazuha winced at the loudness of his friend, covering one of his ears but still smiling nonetheless. The people walking by stared and mumbled, but it didn’t matter as you felt your heart pound against your chest. You felt your eyes well with tears as now your face flushed red, the general cautiously opening his eyes to see your trembling lips and pathetic pout. “A-Ah! [Y/N], don’t cry!!”

You tug on his hand hard, pulling the man into your arms and squeezing him tight. You sobbed into his chest, hearing and feeling how frantic his heart was beating as well. “You idiot!” You shout into his battle-worn chest. “Don’t disappear without telling me…”

Gorou caressed the back of your head and chewed on his lip, his tail drooping with guilt but twitching with excitement for being in your arms. “Did I…scare you?” He whispered tentatively, choosing his words carefully.

You pull away and wipe your eyes, Gorou watching you closely and holding tightly onto your waist. “I thought you got tired of me…because I stopped hearing from you.” Gorou frowned and cupped your face, thumbing your cheeks gently. “I even made sakura mochi and I didn’t—”

“You made sakura mochi??!??!!! Is there any left?!?” Gorou’s jaw dropped. He let you go to turn and run to the break room, halting before running back to embrace you once more. “Heh, uh…” he chuckled nervously. “I’d actually…rather hold you like this…”

You couldn’t fight the smile that spread across your cheeks, flushing your body against his chest. “That’s okay,” you giggle. “There aren’t any left.”

You had no idea that his ears could flatten sadly like that.

[levworship]

cw: dom!reader, fem reader, mommy kink, degrading, dirty talk, oral (fem rec), slight mind break, reader is a lil manipulative. just a bit. probably had errors

summary: you find out while on another blind date with one of mina’s friends that kirishima is just the man for you. he wants to be used, and you’re more than willing to use him.

word count: approx 2.9k

“fuckin’ mina. i’m gonna beat her ass.”

this wasn’t the first time your best friend has tried to set you up with one of her friends. and honestly, knowing her, it more than likely wouldn’t be the last time, either. “but he’s so nice” she’d promise, or “she’s just a little shy,” and perhaps the most common line of “you just have to be a little patient with them”

patient my ass.

your damn patience was beginning to run thinner and thinner the longer you sat waiting at the table for your date to arrive. you’re used to mina’s friends not being the most punctual, but to not show up at all? it was almost insulting. here you were, taking the time out of your busy day to spare some of your sweet time with some rando and—

“hey there, beautiful.” your eyes quickly tore away from the spot you’d been staring at for the past few minutes during your internal rant. part of you wished you hadn’t, because you damn near stopped breathing. typically, you’d never allow a man the satisfaction of hindering you speechless, but fuck. the man before you stood tall and strong, the white fabric of his dress shirt clinging onto his muscles in the most delicious way possible. his hair was slicked up in a style that you could only describe as goofy, and his smile? it was so contagious that you couldn’t help but to toss away the piping hot insults you’d been preparing to shoot his way.

“sorry i’m late. was searching all over town to find these for ya. i know mina said they were your favorite, and well—“ pulling his arms from behind his back, the red-haired man handed you a comically large bouquet of flowers. were they your favorite? no, not at all. but you couldn’t help but to be flattered anyway. “had to look all over town for them. turns out they’re actually pretty hard to find around here. can you believe that?” he chuckled to himself as he scratched at the back of his neck. an unfittingly cute gesture for a man of his build.

you grin sweetly as you grab the bouquet from his large hands, setting them down on the table in front of you and batting your lashes. “these are very beautiful! thank you so much, ...um?”

mina always purposely hid the names of her friends away before setting you up, mostly in fears that you’ll end up googling them and find some not so pretty things, just as you had that time when she tried to set you up with katsuki bakugou. (you noted to yourself that day, stay away from him at all costs.)

“ah- eijirou kirishima!” he filled in for you and held a hand out for you to shake. your eyebrows shot up in realization, leaning forward a bit on the table to shake his hand. you don’t miss the way his eyes shamelessly drift down to your cleavage when you do so. the sight made you laugh.

now you saw why he seemed so familiar at first glance. you’d heard mina talk to you about him on numerous occasions. big, handsome, and dumb. that’s how you’ve always perceived him from listening to her stories and descriptions. and if there was one thing you actually enjoyed about a man, it was how simple they could be. perfect for a woman with your desires.

you open your mouth to return his introduction, but he’s already cutting you off with perhaps a little too much eagerness. “and you’re y/n? did i say that right?” he quirks an eyebrow. “uh- i may have asked mina about you already. a lot.” he flashed you a sheepish smile.

talking to him felt like being a kid in a loaded candy shop. he’d be in the palm of your hand in no time.

the rest of dinner went on moderately better than your previous experiences with these stupid dates. kirishima was a bit of a talker, but you didn’t mind listening if it meant you got to watch the way those puppy dog eyes lit up a little more every time he’d begin telling you a story from his hero work (turns out you were just really behind on the latest hero news), only to quickly become side tracked by one details of his story and trail his way to another mini rant.

finally, you figure you’ve had enough of him rambling. it was time to cut to the point. “does it get lonely?” you asked him suddenly, trying your best to hold in a smile at the way he looked at you confusedly. “i mean- not really? i’m a hero so i’m with people all of the time-“ “that’s not what i meant, red.” hearing you refer to him by his hero name sent visible chills down his spine. just the effect you were wishing to have on him. something about your change in tone knocked him from a highly energetic and charismatic sweetheart, to a blushing and stuttering mess who suddenly couldn’t sit still in his seat. and from just one question, too?

he was almost too good to be true.

“no? i-i mean, yes but... i dunno. i’m busy a lot, a-and i don’t really have time for... yaknow.” “what kind of women do you like? in bed, i mean.” you managed to knock his brain around for a second time as he fumbled around his head for an answer.

“i-i guess it depends?” “hm? what do y’mean?” the way he continued to respond to your nasty questions had you licking your lips. you wanted him. badly. in the most selfish ways possible.

“depends on what the chick is into. i mean- they usually like when i’m on top. but..” you don’t respond this time. instead you look at him expectantly and wait for him to continue his previous statement. something about seeing such a grown man grow so embarrassed that quickly does something to you.

“i guess i wouldn’t mind... having someone take control for once?”

everything from that point felt like a blurred flash. you quickly abandoned the bouquet and called for the bill (which he so generously covered for the two of you) and were stumbling out of the door in no time, speedily walking all the way to your humble apartment. the door had just swung open when you were already shoving him inside.

kirishima spent nearly the entirety of the walk psyching himself up for this. did you know he wanted to experiment with this? had mina told you? how would mina even know? did he even really want this? because by the way he was struggling to catch his breath and connect dots in his mind, maybe he’d gotten too far ahead of himself.

but it was too late for that now. you’d already shoved him all the way down the hall, into your bedroom, and onto your bed before he knew it. you were fierce and impatient. and honestly? he found it quite intriguing.

“red...” you drew him back from falling into his thoughts once again, dragging your knuckles across the rough skin of his cheek. “i said, are you sure you want this?” and he swears he’s never nodded faster in his life, already grabbing onto your waist and hoisting you onto his lap. “yes! yes, i’m sure. please y/n?” and with that, a thread in you snapped.

you pushed him roughly until his head rested comfortably against the pillows, muttering a quick ‘stay’ as you began to fumble with his belt. you’d barely even touched him, yet he still lied staring at you with those same big adoring eyes. he was just too cute for his own good.

it made you want to wreck him.

you practically ripped away his pants and boxers before gently palming at his cock. you had expected him to be big, but not this big. he was long and thick, your hand barely managing to wrap completely around it. wordlessly you crouched down and pressed a gentle peck to his swollen tip, the precum that’d gathered there now sticking deliciously to your lips.

kirishima was getting so restless above you that you could’ve mistaken him for a virgin, hands fisting at your sheets with countless pleas tumbling from his lips. “so impatient, cutie. dont you want to be taken care of?” “i do! i do!” it seemed as if he was completely unashamed of how desperate he must’ve looked right now.

but rather than provide the sweet sweet release you knew he was craving, you tsked and backed away from his cock. much to his disappointment. “you know something, red? i didn’t take you for the selfish type. want me to make you feel good when you haven’t even touched me yet? and i thought you were a gentleman...”

kirishima thrashed below you, fingers digging hard into your hips. “i’m a gentleman! i’ll be a gentleman! i promise!” his lip wobbled cutely. you almost felt bad for having to deny such a pretty face.

almost.

he observed closely as you leaned back on your knees, sliding down the straps of your dress and tugging until your lacy bra was revealed to him. you were going to be the fucking death of him. you couldn’t help but giggle a bit at the way he eyed your chest. “i’ll tell you what.” you said as you reached out and pressed a finger under his chin, forcing him to meet your intense eyes.

“be a good boy for me and maybe, maybe, i’ll let you touch. deal?” and kirishima nodded giddily. truly an obedient little thing, he was.

you gave him a large smile that didn’t quite reach your eyes before patting him on the cheek, moving up to straddle his face and... shit. you weren’t wearing any panties under your dress. the smell of your arousal right in front of his face nearly made him overload, wanting nothing more but to bury his face between your legs until you’re heaving and begging for a break. but he had to be good for you. wanted you to rake your fingers through his hair and call him your good boy while he plays with your pretty tits.

“well? dont you want a tas—” you gasp when his mouth is suddenly on you, every sense of restraint abandoned as his tongue slid across and pressed against your poor clit. it was messy, no real technique behind his frantic movements, but he still had your eyes crossing and your thighs squeezing the sides of his head as ear muffs, his fingers squeezing and prodding at the flesh to keep himself grounded.

the sounds that came from your cunt and his mouth were embarrassingly lewd, the sound of his slurping making your entire body go hot. you were so close to losing your composure and letting him have you the way he wants, but you couldn’t pass up an opportunity like this. not when you’ve been craving this for this long.

“kiri..” you couldnt tell if you were whispering or yelling at this point, brain all scrambled from the amount of pleasure you were receiving. you nearly doubled over from the vibrations of the small ‘hmm’ of acknowledgment he gave you. your fingers tangle themselves in his stiff red locks, holding his face still to allow you to grind yourself on his mouth just the way you wanted.

your breath hitched in your throat each time his nose bumped against your clit, his tongue buried deep in your hole as he was desperate to taste all of your juices. you could already feel your orgasm creeping up on you..

“oh, shit! just like that. good- fuck! such a good boy” the praise sends him into a frenzy, now using the pad of his thumb to rub viciously at your clit as his tongue fucked into you so nicely.

“‘m cumming, cumming, oh my god!” you’re hunched over now, eyes screwed shut when your orgasm suddenly rips through you. kirishima’s tongue continued its assault on your spasming pussy, the overstimulation becoming almost unbearable. you tried everything to get him off of you to make it stop. tugging his hair, lifting yourself up- but nothing seemed to be able to separate him from you until you literally shouted his name.

he released you in an instant and allowed you to back away to fully take in his form. everything about the sight was downright sinful. your juices covered the entire lower half of his face, and his hair remained matted with sweat against his forehead. and most delicious of all? he still looked hungry. you nearly said ‘fuck it’ and climbed back on top of him again...

but he needed to be punished.

and it seemed that he knew this too, because the moment your eyes met he was already begging for mercy. “‘m sorry! p-“ “i thought you promised you’d be a good boy? yaknow, i’m not exactly a big fan of liars, red. how could i let you have me when you can’t even follow simple instructions?” he’s silent at this point, eyes glued to the ground with an unreadable emotion splayed across his face.

you huffed as you climbed off of the bed, standing on wobbly legs with your back turned to him. you shook your head as you quickly slid your dress back into place. you originally planned on leaving it at this and sending him home, and perhaps you’d consider giving him a second shot if he begged you pretty enough. but kiri had other plans.

he wasn’t quite sure what came over him, but when he realized that you were planning on leaving him like that he couldn’t help but to jump up, gripping onto your waist once again. “kiri! what are you doing?” “please.” he whimpered into your ear, hard chest pressing into your back and his painfully hard cock rutting against your ass.

you probably would’ve collapsed right there if it weren’t for his tight grasp. “please don’t leave! ‘m so hard for you. want you so fucking bad. i’ll do anything, just- please let me cum. mommy.” the word rolled off of his tongue so sweetly, so heavenly, you couldn’t stop yourself from shoving him back onto the bed and tearing off his shirt.

you licked your lips when he was left completely bare to you finally, hand already working at pumping his cock. “suck a dirty boy. men like you are scum, you know that? getting so upset that you didn’t get your way after being so disobedient? i should tie you up and edge you for the rest of the night just for that” he began to mindlessly shake his head, muttering quiet a ‘no, no..’

“however,” you began to drag your fingernail across his chest, playing with the hairs that rested there, “think i’m gonna let it slide this time. well, only if you thank me properly..”

“thank you mommy!” the way there wasn’t even an ounce of hesitation or shame in his voice had you clenching around nothing. denying him any longer was beginning to be just as much torture to yourself as it was to him. biting down on your lip, you grabbed his cock and started pressing the tip to your entrance.

you began to feel as though you’ve managed to completely break him, watching as he continued to sputter out ‘thank you’s even as you struggled to take his cock in your dripping cunt. the stretch was nearly unbearable at first, but you were never one to back down from a challenge.

you weren’t going to stop until you knew you’ve completely broken him down into a blubbering mess for you. until you were the only thing he could think of. until you had him quivering and begging just for you. the thought of making him into your slave had you bouncing on his dick with energetic vigor.

kirishima was a sight to behold, too. eyes crossed and occasionally fluttering shut, panting like a dog as every bit of his stamina oozed out of him and he had to hold himself back from cumming too quickly.

at one point you caught his eyes glued on to the way your covered tits bounced while you rode him, still clad in your tight dress. you smirked devilishly before reaching behind your back and unclasping your bra, tugging it down with the dress once again and toying with your puffy nipples for his viewing pleasure.

that seemed to be the final straw for kiri, as he was now bucking up into you like a horny mutt. “gonna cum so hard, mommy. please let me cum in you. g’nna fill you up so good. wanna make you a mommy. i want it- i want it- i want it...” with all of his babbling you weren’t quite sure if he was aware of what he was saying right now, but the lewd words still had you spiraling closer and closer.

“cum in me, baby. be a good boy for mommy and give her your babies, okay?” you told him as you gripped his face in your hands.

and like the obedient little thing he is,, he did exactly that.

thirsts and requests for haikyuu and bnha are open.

[strawwritesfic]

Loki Laufeyson x Female!Midgardian!Reader: A Bird in the Hand

Summary: …is surely not worth its asking price.

Rating/Warnings/Tags: All (some foul language; not Thor Ragnarok compliant)

Fic Trade Prompt: “Please, I don’t want to lose you, too.” 

A Bird in the Hand

Once upon a time in a realm known as Midgard, there lived a girl. This girl, of course, was you, and you lived as many young women at the time did during that Age of Miracles. None of these miracles ever happened to you. There were no fish oil transformations on your horizon, nor were there any divine calls to adventure. Just like all New Yorkers, you grew use to your daily commute being interrupted by superheroes, to calling insurance companies to argue over their decision to not pay for alien invasion damage to your apartment, and even to carrying an umbrella around with you even on the driest of days in case certain Asgardians decided to visit. Life went on. You had stopped looking for a real miracle years ago.

As well you should have, because there was nothing miraculous about your wedding day. Outside, a seemingly endless mass of dark gray clouds let loose bucket after bucket of rain. Thunder rolled across the sky; lightning flashed–and that, really, was all you could see through the window you had stationed yourself in front of to sulk. If you hadn’t known any better, you’d have blamed the city’s resident thunder god for the disastrous timing of this storm front. As it was, all you could blame was your string of bad luck.

Speaking of bad luck, the door to your parlor snapped open and in stepped the dripping figure of your best friend. Aliyah paused only long enough to adjust her sodden pink hijab before plopping soggily onto an overstuffed loveseat.

“Well, the gazebo is flooded,” she announced, “the food is soaked through, and the caterer won’t bring more to replace it. Your flower arrangements are in pieces, and the band already ran off. I don’t think there’s anything left of your wedding ceremony.”

You did not bother to leave the window, though you did turn just far enough to throw her a sour look. “Do you have any good news to impart?” you asked.

Aliyah grinned. “Your maid of honor hasn’t walked out yet. At least there will be one person here to witness this fiasco.”

“Gonna need a groom for anything to be witnessed.”

Most close friends would offer sympathy when their friend’s fiancé of a year and a half decided to just not show up for the actual wedding. Most acquaintances would feel bad enough when the carefully planned event got rained out. Not your Aliyah. She simply let out a sharp breath and leaned her head back against the couch cushion.

“Can’t say I didn’t warn you,” she said.

You glared at her, which of course she didn’t see, having shut her eyes to listen to the water tumble from the roof to the street outside.

“Thank you. So much,” you said.

“What?” she asked, forcing her eyes open again. “I told you Jared wasn’t good enough for you. Besides, you should keep all the gifts even if he doesn’t stop by. I saw, like, nine blenders in that pile. You’re better off this way, if you ask me.”

“You’re just saying that because you want a free blender,” you said.

“I wouldn’t say no. But, really, you should count your lucky stars. Free stuff and free of your jackass boyfriend. What better start to a weekend?”

“I’d rather be married to my jackass boyfriend.”

Aliyah’s disdain for Jared was nothing new or surprising. He’d fallen from grace in her eyes when he’d got jealous over your fondness for an injured pigeon you’d rescued only a few months after you started dating Jared. Even releasing the bird hadn’t entirely put an end to his complaints about how you spent your free time. On the other hand, you knew one thing that neither Aliyah nor Jared did: Jared’s jealousy wasn’t entirely misplaced.

But that was years ago. This was now. And that bird had always been bad news.

“Are you going to cry about it?” Aliyah asked, peering over at your perch by the parlor’s bay window. “Because, if not, I’d hate to have dragged Habib all the way to America for nothing.”

At the mention of her long-distance boyfriend, you motioned for Aliyah to go on. You preferred to do your moping alone, and Aliyah knew it. She stood and crossed the room to give you a quick hug before she left without another word. Probably you did owe your maid of honor at a least a blender for all the trouble she’d been through on your behalf.

Sighing, you lifted one hand, dug your fingers into your hair, and tore out what was holding it in its elaborate design. Who cared what you looked like now? Even if stupid Jared had shown up, the storm would have ruined your appearance before you made it down the aisle. Now Aliyah had free rein to spend the rest of her afternoon cuddling with Habib, and you had no one else to bother looking pretty for.

Outside your empty room, you could hear the indistinct muttering of your remaining guests. Family, mostly, who had already given up trying to convince you to let them in. What the rest of them were waiting for before they left, you couldn’t guess. Perhaps for you to come out and make an official announcement: The wedding has been called off. Party’s over. You don’t have to go home, but you can’t stay here. And thanks for all the blenders.

The shame of your situation suddenly threatened to crash down upon you. It would have, if you had remained sitting where you were. Instead, you got up, white dress rustling as you stalked across the room. A quiet shriek of rage was stifled only by your gloved hand pressed to your colored lips. Of all the pathetic, idiotic, insane things you had done in your life! Now you didn’t even have the courage to face your friends and family with the truth.

“Tap. Tap. Tap.”

Hail began to hit the glass behind you, soft and hesitant. Since you had no plans to leave the building any time soon, you ignored this weather development.

Jared hadn’t even called to say he’d changed his mind. You should have known when he hadn’t come home after his stag party the night before. He was probably laughing it up over your stupidity with some blonde bikini babe by the beach that you were supposed to go to for your honeymoon. The thought caused you to kick out angrily at the coffee table, and you heard a quiet rip issue from your skirt in response when it caught on a corner.

You swore.

”Tap. Tap. Tap.”

Now that you thought about it, the sound wasn’t regular enough to be hail. It wasn’t very hesitant anymore either. Still, you ignored the noise as you yanked off your veil, your gloves, and your garter. You were mentally preparing to rip them all to shreds with your fingernails when you heard it again:

“Tap. Tap. Tap.”

That time you did not suppress your shriek. As it faded into the overstuffed furniture surrounding you, you marched over to the window and shoved it open. The wind whistled through the empty space, sending anything in the room not tied down into the air and splattering your face with water. If ever there was a time to reasonably expect an Asgardian thunder god to step inside, it was then. No one was there, though, save for a single bedraggled pigeon.

“Oh, hello,” you said when it hopped onto the sill, and automatically you held out your cupped hands toward it.

The poor thing shivered once, then stepped onto your warm palms. Only when it looked up into your face did you see that it had bright green, very un-pigeon-ish eyes.

Before you could stuff the bird back outside, it lifted itself into the air to half-flutter, half-fly over to the loveseat Aliyah had been sitting on. A flash of light that had nothing to do with the lightning outside filled the room. When you had blinked and cleared your vision enough that you could see again, the pigeon was gone, and in its place reclined a tall, dark-haired, beautiful man, dressed to the nines in Asgardian fashion.

“Hello, darling,” said Loki Laufeyson. “Don’t you look ravishing?”

You were too shocked to contradict him. No mention of your torn dress, mussed hair, or smeared makeup escaped your lips. Instead, you said the only thing you could in that sort of situation: “What are you doing here?”

“Why, I’m here to offer you my congratulations, of course,” he answered, examining one perfectly manicured nail. “Or should it be my condolences?”

“Really?” Your tone dripped with enough sarcasm that it could be heard over the protesting window as you forced it shut. “You disappear for two years, never write, never visit, and then you just happen to pop by to celebrate my wedding to another man?”

“What kind of secret lover would I be if I did not?”

“We are not secret lovers.”

“Well, no, we haven’t been for quite some time. I see no reason why that should stop us from picking up right where we left off, however.”

“We were never secret lovers.”

“Really?” he said, mocking the tone of your earlier question. “That’s not what it seemed like to me. Of course, I had the brain of a pigeon most of the time, but at night when your beau had to work and leave you so very alone–”

“You can’t just show up out of the blue and expect me to want you again,” you interrupted. “And on my wedding day to boot.”

To his credit, Loki looked genuinely confused by your behavior–like he’d expected you to jump straight into his arms, marriage or no. Obviously, they did things differently in Asgard. You were not Asgardian.

“Fine,” he said. “If that’s the way you want it. I was only trying to thank you for helping me, you know.”

“All I did was take in a pigeon that got injured when Thor threw a bunch of peanuts at a flock. It didn’t really deserve that sort of thanking.”

“Ah, but you enjoyed it anyway.” That wasn’t the point. He knew it wasn’t the point just as well as you did, because once he made it, he got fluidly up to his feet to and walked over to stand in front of you. “If you are that disinclined to see me, I suppose I had better get going. If you ever grow tired of being lonely again–oh, that’s right. You don’t know how to contact me.”

You opened your mouth to remind Loki that you didn’t want to contact him, but then something about Loki’s words rang strange.

“Alone?” you echoed.

“Yes, alone. Or do you expect your Prince Charming to come riding up on a horse of white any second now? Better late than never?”

Without thinking, without warning, you slapped him straight across the face.

“Ow!” he snapped, pressing one of his hands to the mark on his face. “What was that for?”

“What did you do?” You lifted your hand for another blow. “What did you do to Jared?”

“Me? Do something to Jared? What should I have to do with that ponderous ass?”

“Did you kill him, Loki?” you asked, voice quavering. Loki could do it. Easily. He was a god, and Jared just…well, just a ponderous ass.

Loki let out a single bark of laughter. “Oh, please. I just got out of Asgardian prison. As if I’d risk going back over the murder of a petty moral such as he.”

That brought you up short. Frowning, you deigned to look at him again. “Prison?”

“Yes, prison. Did you think my absence was due to taking a pleasure cruise?”

“I thought you’d escaped prison when I found you the first time.”

“But you sent me back to Asgard when I started causing trouble,“ he reminded you. "Odin does not forget his son’s crimes easily, nor is he inclined to forgive them. Luckily my brother is far easier to manipulate.”

He had not, you noticed, made any real move to leave. Loki still stood in front of you, looking down as the pink handprint faded from his cheek.

“So…you didn’t kill my fiancé?” you asked uncertainly.

He shook his head. “If he isn’t here, it is because he is a dunce, not because I tricked him in any way.”

“Oh.” All the problems of your appearance seemed at once apparent and embarrassing. To think that this man would see you in such a state, and only because he’d wanted to see you after his release from jail. “Why did you really come, then? Since you knew he wasn’t here. To gloat?”

“The thought did occur to me,” Loki confessed. “I am not often in the position of being the more desirable choice. But,” here his voice turned oddly sincere, “I actually came to ask you to come with me.”

Your mouth fell open. Some of Loki’s usual acerbic amusement returned as he watched you flounder; you could see the faint outlines of his familiar smirk at the corners of his mouth. Finally, you managed a short, “go with you where?”

He shrugged, and started to twist the curtain in between his long, pale fingers. “I don’t know, really.”

“You want me to go somewhere with you without anywhere in mind?”

“I thought we’d figure it out as we went along,” he said. “Travel the galaxies. I cannot return to Asgard and Midgard, of course, is out of the question so long as I do not rule it.”

“You want me to follow you into outerspace?”

Only his silence could tip you off that Loki was actually nervous. He clearly had no idea how you would respond to his suggestion–which was by falling into a nearby chair to gape at him.

“You want me to leave my family?” you asked.

“They live far away and hardly talk to you.”

“And my job?”

“That you’ve never liked. We’re both aware.”

“And my best friend?”

“She spends most of her time visiting mosques in India with her boyfriend,” Loki said with a dismissive flick of his hand. “Besides, there’s no rule to say we can’t come back to visit her every so often. I have no objection. She seems a sensible enough woman.”

“And you want me to leave them all,” you went on as though you couldn’t hear him, “for you, a man I haven’t seen in years because he was in prison.”

Once more, Loki said nothing. His green eyes peered into yours with unreadable depths, just as they had the unfortunate day you had returned home after to work to find your injured pigeon friend gone and a strange man eating all of the meat out of your fridge in its place. You could remember, too, the feel of that man’s skin against yours, the heat of his lips on your neck, the sound of his low voice in your ear–and Jared complaining, always complaining, about how much time you spent with that damn bird.

You buried your face in your hands. “I can’t do it, Loki. I can’t.”

You waited to hear him leave again, to hear the glass move and the rush of the storm and the flutter of wings. None came. All that did was one soft word:

“Please.”

“Huh?”

When you looked up, Loki was right above you. His hands gripped the chair arms at your sides with enough force to make them whiter than ever–but his eyes were not on yours anymore.

“Please,” he said, “I don’t want to lose you, too.”

Another move without thinking or warning: You gently touched his other cheek.

Loki’s eyes closed for a half second before he moved one hand to hold your wrist there. “I have already lost my father, my mother, my home. My own brother has thrust me unceremoniously from both realms I sought to rule. And then to hear that I would lose you, too, to an oaf like that Jared.”

No one could say that Loki losing all of this wasn’t entirely his fault. He had decided to lead an alien invasion into Earth, to try murdering several members of his mentioned family, and to seduce young Earth women under the guise of hurt animals. But part of Loki’s charm was that he never failed to make one doubt that he could be better, maybe, if you only let him try.

“I’m sorry,” you said sincerely. A sincere apology didn’t mean your mind was changed, however, and this, also, Loki knew.

“Do you want me to beg?” he asked. “I am no longer a stranger to begging.”

With that, Loki slid to the wooden floor before you. Stranger or no, it was positive it wasn’t a position he relished being in, what with how stiff his hands were around yours when he made to hold them. He swallowed, took a deep breath, and began:

“I know I am asking a lot. But I, too, have lost a family, a job, and my closest friends. I would not ask you to come with me if I did not intend on paying you pack ten times in kind. If you will allow me to take you with me, I know I can make you happier than you would be here. Together we will find some place to call our own, and you shall be my queen. So please,” he said, “please let me keep one last thing that I love. Don’t make me leave you behind, too.”

It wasn’t the prettiest speech you had ever heard come out of his mouth, but it was probably the most honest. You gave him a tiny smile as you squeezed his hands in return. “A queen, huh?”

Loki smirked. “Or a comfortable, quiet living, depending on what we find, and how thorough Thor is in seeking me out. At least we could be comfortable and quiet for a little while.”

“Can’t imagine that’s going to last long with you around.”

“With you around to look after me, though…”

That got you to laugh. “Oh, yes, I’m sure I’d do a wonderful job making sure you didn’t get into any trouble. I did such a good job before.”

Some of the color returned to Loki’s features. He was starting to hope. Against your better judgement, so were you. A couple of things, however, remained to bother you:

“What if you came here and Jared and I were married?” you asked.

“Then I would have had to resort to kidnapping.”

“And how did you even know I was getting married today to begin with?”

He smiled his Cheshire smile, and that was when you knew you were truly lost. “You really ought to stop talking to the birds on your fire escape. You never know which one would be willing to pass information off in exchange for a couple of peanuts.”

“Oh, and you stalk me. What part of this deal doesn’t sound good?”

“None of it, I should hope.” Standing, Loki kept one hand firmly around one of yours. “We should go, you realize. Unless you want to say your goodbyes?”

You thought of your parents blustering about how you dared to invite both of them to your wedding. You thought of the forlorn apartment you shared with a man that had never really loved you for you. You thought of Aliyah and her instance that Jared would never be good enough for you. You thought of the awkward explanation that would be expected as soon you set foot outside that door–and you grinned.

“Not a chance.”

“Then I believe,” he said, and abruptly pulled you into his arms in an obvious parody of carrying a bride before pushing the window open with his boot, “we have a few errands to go on before we get on our way.”

“Like what?”

“Unless you plan to live the rest of our lives with nothing but multiple blenders,” he began, but was not able to finish over your sudden laughter and the return of the torrent outside.

You latched your hands behind his neck as he dove back into the rain. There were stars somewhere above those clouds, and you would be visiting them soon enough–them and endless other realms. Maybe eloping with a man that could turn into a pigeon wasn’t the best miracle there ever was on Midgard, but it pulled off the most important trick of them all: Against all odds, you lived happily ever after.

[jodibodie]

I Have Some Feelings

To start let me just emphasize how much I love and adore this show and always will. This was my covid show. Both of my kids loved “Lucifer” and always said I should watch so at the start of covid I binged it and when I say binged, I mean all 4 seasons in a few days and have rewatched so many times I’ve lost count. I think it is timeless, engrossing, original and all around amazing. The writing and the cast were all excellent. The writing was smart and consistently strong and that is so rare.  Funny, sad, poignant, it hit all the notes with very few plot holes or missteps. There is not one episode in the entire series that was not engaging. Even if I didn’t like an episode, it was still well done. What a rarity.

The cast is scary good. Completely underrated. Just all phenomenally talented.  I don’t remember the last time a cast was this strong.  From the core group to both reoccurring and guest stars, the cast was just fantastic.  

Tom Ellis, no words.  The man deserves to choose whatever he wants to do acting wise. He should have people breaking down his door. He can truly do it all and do it all well. He took a character that if portrayed by a lesser actor could have come off as a complete asshole and made him one of the most sympathetic and loveable characters in recent history. Ellis made a crime solving devil, a promiscuous man-child that occasionally breaks into song and the evidence room into a beloved character that has become an icon.  

Lauren German, WOW.  She is just so damn good. She can break your heart one second and have you laughing the next. She makes Chloe real, and people don’t realize how hard that is. Chloe is smart, kind, tough and gorgeous but she’s also an insecure dork.  She’s us and German just brings it.  

DB Woodside I’ve loved since “Buffy”.  He is a phenomenal actor and who knew he could bring the laughs so well? His expressions were classic. Clueless angel indeed. Amenadiel could have been very one-dimensional but because of Woodside’s talent he became fully fleshed out and full bodied.  

I have no doubt Lesley-Ann Brandt has a huge career in front of her.  She took a character that very well could have been hated, a demon and made her into one of the most human characters on the show. Kudos to her for taking a tough role and making it her own.  

Kevin Alejandro is another actor I’ve loved for a long time.  He also took a character who if we’re going to be honest here did so many unlikeable things that he should have been truly despised but because of Kevin’s portrayal he was beloved. Great actor and a terrific director.

Rachael Harris IMO is the downlow MVP.  She was literally the rock and again, with a lesser actress the role could have been a throwaway. The normal human, the sounding board but Harris imbued her with so much more.  Her spit takes, sarcasm and her obvious compassion was what made Dr. Linda an unforgettable character. Once again just perfect casting.  

Aimee Garcia was a great addition. She made Ella a fan fav and put so much heart, joy and sincerity into Ella never once did you doubt that she would prevail no matter what was thrown at her.  Garcia was just fantastic, and I want her skin care regime.  

Scarlett Estevez pulled off the one thing I thought almost impossible.  She took the role of a young child and made it so I didn’t want to cringe. She portrayed Trixie so beautifully from day one that she was a true pleasure to watch.  Even though Trixie was super precocious Estevez never made her obnoxious. I loved Trixie and I have never said that about any child character in an adult show.  She was wonderful and has an amazing career in front of her.

That said, I’ve got some feelings now that I’ve seen the finale and have had some time to digest it all.  I love that Chloe and Lucifer had eternity and I agree that they had to be separated for Chloe’s lifetime. Didn’t like it but it’s the logical path. She’s human, he’s not. The ageing thing alone necessitated them not being together long term on earth and that’s just to start the list. They had to had to be apart for the short term to get their eternity but the duality of Lucifer's ending and Amenadiel's didn't sit right. Amenadiel as God got to have it all. His calling, his family etc. while Lucifer had to give up everything.  I also don’t buy the “If he came up from hell, he could never leave them again” defense.  I call bullshit.  Amenadiel managed, plus, missing out on the day to day is a huge sacrifice and by Lucifer missing out on the day-to-day Rory could still have had the hatred she needed to drive the story.  Popping in for birthdays, graduations, weddings, etc., the big stuff does not a father make.  Not being there for skinned knees, first heartbreaks, and all the little things a daughter needs her dad for can build up tons of resentment.  Boom, absentee father, just like his dad was. That provides all the millennial angel angst you could ask for. I have a daughter; it doesn’t take much.

The Trixie issue was huge for me. Can Chloe see her in Heaven? Will she be able to travel to Heaven and visit Trixie, Penelope, Dan, her father?  Chloe hesitated leaving Heaven in 5x16 because she couldn’t bear saying good-bye to her dad again. It seems as if Chloe sacrificed everything for Rory including Trixie. I want to preface this by saying. I liked Rory and loved the actress. I didn’t however like how it was as if she were their only child.  When Lucifer spoke of family Trixie was not mentioned. Their family day, the same thing. She didn’t need to be there, I get that the explanation regarding Rory would have been way too much to get into but just a mention of her, how awesome it would have been to share this day with her would have worked. It seemed as if Lucifer went from, “I would do anything to protect that little Urchin” to “Trixie who”. Trixie was a character that we watched grow up and she meant something to us. I hate to say this, but the writers did Trixie and the viewers dirty in this regard.

This show was built around a few premises.  Free will, honesty, redemption, sacrifice and family, both blood and made. The ending completely negated almost all of these.  Chloe and their entire family were made into the one thing Lucifer abhorred the most which are liars. Their daughter was brought up surrounded by lies. What did they tell Trixie?  The poor kid just lost her dad, and she was pissed at Lucifer when he went back to hell the first time. Did she grow up hating him because as far as she knew Lucifer left her mom again without saying good-bye and this time it was even worse because Chloe was pregnant.  I get that the actress who plays Trixie had limited availability but seriously. A quick good-bye.

“Hey Urchin, you won’t understand why for a long time, but I have to leave. You know I never lie so I can’t explain why but know that I love you and your mom and one day I hope you can forgive me.”  

A 30 second scene would have worked.

As all the characters learned throughout the series, omission of the truth is just a form of lying and there are always repercussions i.e., Chloe and Father Kinley, Dan shooting Lucifer, Maze finding out about Lilith and even Ella not being told. As far as free will, both Chloe and Lucifer had their free will taken from them in the end. By Rory forcing them to abide by her wishes, their free will was forfeited. It was a huge manipulation on Rory’s part and considering how much Lucifer hated manipulations it just didn’t sit right.

Parents making huge sacrifices I get. Chloe and Lucifer sacrificed everything for their child. Unfortunately for me this sacrifice, the way it was written seemed contrived to pull out maximum and IMO unjustified angst. I love angst.  Hell, this is my favorite show.  I thrive on the angst. But as I wrote earlier, all the anger, angst and hatred towards Lucifer could have been achieved without having Lucifer completely out of the picture. I have two kids and my husband, and I have made huge life altering sacrifices for them as many parents do but being there for the day-to-day little things was what made the difference in their lives and cemented the close relationships we have with them.

“Yeah, dad you were great. Showing up for the fun stuff, always swooping in for the big finish to play the hero then ditching us when things got tough. When Grandma was dying where were you?  Nice that you showed up for the funeral but the six months leading up to it…we needed you and once again you weren’t there. When T got sick, when Jen broke my heart, blah, blah, blah…”

Even the whole Chloe dying scenario. They could have written it that rage Rory traveled minutes before Lucifer got there. Have him pop in right after Rory comes back. There were so many ways to achieve the end game they wanted other than the way they went. It seemed contrived and as if they took the easy way out to get where they needed to go. The Rory rage that was the catalyst for her traveling back in time and Lucifer finding his calling could still have been accomplished without the whole Lucifer disappearing storyline.

Now that I’ve finished my diatribe there’s a couple of additional things I would like to say.  Lucifer is and always will be one of my favorite shows of all time. There are not enough words to describe the comfort and enjoyment this show has brought me. Thank you, thank you, thank you to the producers, cast and crew. You truly created something special.

To the fandom. Please do not let a polarizing conclusion rip apart the fandom. The only other fandom I was a part of tore itself apart so badly that the FBI got involved.  Hence why I waited for 15 years to dip my toe in again. Everyone invested in this show has the right to their feelings.  Debate is fine, baiting and bullying are not. The Lucifer fandom like the show is very special. Without the fandom we wouldn’t have gotten any conclusion so don’t let opposing viewpoints tarnish what has been a magical journey.  

[lrissa]

SPOILERS FOR NON MANGA READERS

trouble

summary: you never feared of levi getting hurt, until he did

warning: descriptions of violence, gore, angst

Cold, wet rain soaked through your jacket. The never ending crying from the sky leaving it’s wrath on the grassy ground below. Riding alongside Hange but with Floch’s crew you were out looking for Levi and that monkey bastard. Clinks from the horse’s hooves against the stone engraved bridge filled the silence.

Raising a hand you wiped the fresh drops of rain off your cheek and scanned the surroundings. It was odd of Levi to not return, assuming the worst you swallowed the pit in your stomach and pursued forwards.

From a distance, an echo from a bomb crossed your ears. Your head whipped to the explosion with widened eyes, although, you couldn’t see any damage from your position.

“What was that...?” Floch asks

“Maybe lighting?” Responds a cadet

Taking the reigns of your horse you turned to the sound, “That was a thunder spear.” You corrected and gazed at Hange, you could tell she was thinking of a possible explanation.

“If we head to the sound we can find something.” A cadet proposed, its horse walking beside yours and Hange’s. Hange tore their gaze from the explosion and looked between the two of you before nodding their head in agreement.

You were quick to respond and smacked the reigns, the horse beginning it’s gallop to the sound.

Before long Hange rode up beside your horse in sync, pulling their hood down a bit before sparing you a look. “Y/N, there is a possibility it could be Levi—“

Shaking your head you cut them off, “I know, I know... That’s why we need to get there.” You replied in a hushed tone, lowering your head away from them. Your care and concern for Levi never went unnoticed by Hange.

“Of course, we’ll get there.” They nodded and gave you a small grin, you returned the gesture with a tiny smile.

Not before long, the group of cadets came across a cart and two mutilated horses. The horses appeared to have suffered a sad fate. Wood planks and sharp stakes were sunk into their skin with blood and dirt coating their fur. Surrounding the site were other pieces of the broken cart and parts of legs and arms littered with pools of blood.

“Wh— What... happened here!?” Floch asked aloud

Ahead there was a titan laying on its stomach, steam oozing from its body into the air. You gripped the reigns and pulled back, halting the horse from advancing.

“Be careful! Titan ahead!”

“There’s body parts everywhere!”

That made your blood run cold, where was Levi? Was he okay? Was that his leg?

“Commander Hange! L/N! You need to stay still!” Ordered a cadet

Eyes surveying the land by the river you came across a green coat with the survey corps emblem, orders went to the wind and you smacked the reigns. Galloping over before jumping off, nearly slipping from the wet grass. “Man Down!”

You slid to your knees beside the body, bringing it to your lap for support. Gently, you placed a hand behind its head and tilted it forwards. The haircut was strikingly familiar to Levi’s, fear clutched your chest as you shakily revealed the identity.

“...Levi..?”

He had small pieces of wood stuck in his cheeks and temple. Blood and soot stained his face and streamed down his pale face. There was an obvious cut reaching from his forehead to his chin, dirt was deep into the wound, likely to be infected soon. He was in such horrible condition, your fingers shook as they rubbed across his rain-soaked cheek to collect filth.

Your other hand went to find a pulse, biting down onto your lip to stop the cry trembling on your lips. Thankfully, there was a faint pulse.

Tenderly you brought him to your chest, clutching onto him with shaky arms. Grief and relief flourished inside your chest, strangling your heart causing a constant sinking feeling.

“Levi... don’t leave me yet.” You muttered into his hair, placing a soft kiss on top of his head. Tears stung behind your eyes, desperately wanting to fall.

Soon the rest came from behind, Hange crouched down beside you and set a hand on your shoulder, rubbing it to calm you down.

“I don’t know what happened here, but... we got lucky. Our biggest threat covered in his own blood.”

Your eyes tightly shut and tightened your hold on the faint man clutched to your chest.

“I’ll send a shot through his head.” A cadet spoke, hoisting a shotgun up and cocking it.

Hange clenched their jaw and shook their head, “He’s Dead.”

“I saw something similar in a training accident. His organs are in even worse shape than how he looks. He died immediately.”

Floch stared down at the three, shifting the gun in his grip as if it was a warning.

“I know how to take a pulse. Let me see him.” He commanded

You held onto Levi tighter, no movement from your end. Floch sighed and began to walk forwards to rip him away from you.

“Floch! Somethings strange about that titan!” A cadet yelled

You looked up and at the titan, steam was being sucked into it at an alarming speed. The sky above seemed to clear as it continued to steal the steam from the air.

“Is it disappearing?! Did it die?” Floch wondered aloud

“No...” Whispered Hange “They don’t normally suck steam into themselves when they disappear.”

A laying figure began to stand, its skin was pale and almost perfect. There were no scars, cuts, or blemishes anywhere to be seen.

You saw the hint of blonde hair and let out a soft gasp, of course Zeke is alive, and completely naked.

Your eyes widened in fear and Hange looked back at you, tilting her head to the river. You nodded subtly and tightened your grip on Levi.

Hange jumped in and you shortly after with Levi. Cold water met your skin like a hard painful slap to the face. You heard loud shouts from afar but they were distant now. Floating to the surface you let out a deep breath, gasping for air and instantly looking to Levi.

A hand grabbed your arm and you gasped, head snapping to the owner.

“Hange..” You choked out, water still lingering in your lungs. They gave you a weak grin and helped you heave Levi out before grabbing your hand and lifting you from the water.

“Come on, they’re close. Find something to cover his face.” You nodded and looped your arms under Levi’s arms. Using your strength to hoist him up and into the forest, for being short he was considerably heavy.

Setting him on the ground gently your eyes glazed over his face. You felt tears re-emerge, ignoring them you took out the wood pieces stuck in his face. Planting a hand to his cheek you rubbed your thumb softly, a tear rolling down your cheek.

“I know you’re there, Levi.” Leaning down you planted a tender kiss to his forehead, slowly pulling away and undoing the coat around his neck. Instead wrapping it around his head and tying a knot to secure it.

You heard a gunshot and shot up, stumbling to the edge of the forest were Hange was. They held a rifle, lining it up at the advancing person and shooting. Hange lowered the gun and wiped something from their cheek.

“Hange,” You walked to them and planted a hand on their shoulder, giving it a squeeze of reassurance to lighten their mood. “Levi will be fine, he’s not one to die so easily.” You spoke softly, attempting to calm them and yourself.

Hange nodded, “And surely not by the monkey.”

Walking back to Levi you stood on either side of him. “Levi.. There’s no one pursuing us now.” Hange sighed.

The two of you trudge, carrying Levi between the two of you until you found an abandoned camp. Levi was laying on a white sheet as Hange worked on disinfecting and stitching the deep wound across his face. You sat on the other end of the bed, your knees brought close to your chest for comfort.

Hange was speaking but you reached out and looked under the thin sheet to find Levi’s hand, grabbing it with gentleness and holding it.

Hours passed and you were still sat beside Levi, clutching his hand while Hange was ahead assembling a broken cart.

Then suddenly, you were sitting in sand. Your eyes shot open and around you was nothing but small sand hills and behind you a bright blue almost resembling a lighting strike that stretched to the sky and broke apart like veins.

And you were back to normal just as fast, blinking you hadn’t noticed the weight lifted from your hand and Hange yelling something.

“The beast.... that piece of shit.. where is he?”

“Levi!” You spoke loudly, he lightly cringed at your vocalness, whispering a soft apology before grabbing his shoulder and easing him back down onto the sheets. “Don’t get up.”

“Zeke left to the Shiganshina district with the Yeagerists, half a day has passed.... What happened?” Hange questions

“I screwed up. I wasn’t able to... figure out that he was ready to die.. I let him, get away again.” Levi explained before shutting his eyes and resting his head on the pillow, bringing his injured hand up that was missing his pointer and middle fingers.

“I know you want revenge, but for now...” You started

“If we keep running and hiding what will that get us?” Levi retorts

Hange and you remain silent as he sighs.

“Hange, I know you’re not able to stay out of the action” Levi comments as he peels his eyes open again.

“Yeah, that’s right. I cant.”

She gets up at that and returns to the cart, grabbing the hammer and nailing in a new screw.

It was silent between you and Levi, his eyes shifted to the sky then to you. Mindlessly noting the drowsiness glazing your eyes and circles under your eyes.

“Y/N, you worry about me too much.” Levi comments. Your head turns to him in surprise, “What do you mean?” Levi sighs “It doesn’t take an idiot to notice you haven’t slept.” “Oh.”

You look away from him, shaking your head. “I wanted to be there when you woke.”

Levi tore his gaze from you and let his eyelids close. You let out a breath of air and leaned over Levi, giving him a delicate kiss on his bandaged forehead before standing.

“Get some rest Levi.”

“Come back.”

You halted in your exit and began to retrace your steps back to him, towering above him as he looked up at you expectantly.

“Lay down.” He ordered and you stared back at him, hesitantly you lowered yourself to the ground and crouched there for a moment. You were testing his boundaries, unsure if he’d yell at you to scoot away from him.

He was beginning to become impatient, grabbing your wrist and tugging you closer to him. You were shoulder to shoulder with him, releasing your wrist he let his eyes shut once again. An intense feeling bloomed in your chest, blush creeping up to your features.

“It’s cold out here and four eyes didn’t give me very comfortable sheets.”

“I see, goodnight Levi.”

lol i haven’t wrote in forever i’m sorry this was bad

also new theme sort of

[aficwhore]

Truth Is

Chapter 1: A Night Many Months Ago

Frankie "Catfish" Morales x F!reader

Summary: When reuniting for the mission in Colombia, Frankie and the reader (nicknamed "Chipmunk"), bicker due to their rocky past. After some angry exchanges, a few truths come out, changing both of their perspectives. Will the relationship be mended? Or once this is over, will they go back to the way things were before?

Word Count: 3K

Warnings: explicit language, blood, violence, guns/weapons, lots of angst and emotions, infidelity, talk of sex and sexual encounters, drinking, mentions of drugs, talk of death, and talk of mental health(PTSD, depression).

A/N: This was inspired by the song "Truth Is" by Sabrina Claudio. I want to make this a series (my first series ever), but it's still being decided, so please let me know if you want this to be continued! And I am still taking requests and prompts! Thanks Lovelies <3

"Cmon, please Chip, we can't do this without you." Santiago begged, his hands clasped together in front of him to show his desperation as he stood before me in my small apartment kitchen. I sighed, glancing around our surroundings. He had come to ask about joining one last escapade, one last job and we'd all be set for the rest of our lives.

Finally breaking the silence and meeting his weary gaze, "Who all have you rounded up? If Will or Benny said no, there's no way I'm doing it without them." I took another deep breath, turning to continue the dishes I had been doing when Pope showed up.

Santi's face began to light up, his stance growing slightly as he grinned, "Great! They both wanted in, so did Tom." Seeming relieved he leaned against the counter next to the sink and crossed his arms.

"And F-Fish?" I hesitated, pausing the scrubbing on the porcelain dish in my hand. It felt like the air in my lungs no longer existed. My heart began to pound it's way up my throat and into my ears.

His head dipped down, feeling the concern laced in my voice. Clearing his voice, he quietly explained "Haven't asked him yet, he was last on my list."

I silently placed the last dish onto the rack near the sink and wiped my wet hands on my jeans, looking down and watching the wet marks gradually making themselves known. No longer forcing myself to make eye contact, I nodded at the ground.

"Look, querida, if you two just talked I'm sure it would work out." He pushed himself off the counter and stepped towards me, reaching a hand out and gently rubbing my shoulder to console me. "But don't let this change your mind, we really do need you."

"When are you going to mention it to him?" I breathed out, wanting to keep any and all emotions at bay. His hand on my arm squeezed, as if he was trying to give me some courage.

"Tonight, at Benny's fight, I thought his spirits would be up enough to persuade him." He chuckled lightly, knowing his plan was to take a little bit of advantage of Frankie's mood.

I laughed softly, "Definitely sounds like a Santi move if you ask me."

He smirked and shook his head "I know, shame on me." As he dropped his hand back to his side he quirked, "You should come tonight, we can go out for drinks after the fight, relax a little before we leave tomorrow."

It took me a second to register what he said, but when I did I burst out "wait what?! Tomorrow? Santi, why didn't you tell me that? You forgot the biggest detail!"

He cowered down slightly, rubbing the back of his neck "Because I knew you'd yell at me, it was worth a shot putting off the anger a little longer." He smiled coyly.

Rolling my eyes I couldn't help but forgive his dumb smile. "Well it starts soon, why don't I get my things real quick and we can head to the arena together?"

His smile widened, "Of course!" I grabbed my purse and keys, making sure to turn off the lights and lock the door behind me. As we made our way down the elevator and out to his car, Santi told me a few details about the missions and the plan. But once we got into his rinky dink ford truck, I turned to him.

"About Frankie, I'm sure one of the boys told you, but just in case; his license was revoked." Santi's face contorted with confusion.

"What? How? Did he crash or hurt somebody?" He questioned quickly.

After taking a breath of courage I spoke, "No Pope. He-He was caught with coke."

Santi stayed quiet, turning the engine on. "I don't get it" A sad expression plastered on his face.

With a furrow in my brow I spoke again, "What don't you get? He was doing drugs, hardcore ones at that". I began to ramble more, "For what reason, I'm not sure, maybe the PTSD and depression. Maybe he felt he had no one to go to-"

"Stop. I know." He cut me off while finally shifting the gear into drive and moving up forward. "You can't blame anyone for this. All we can do is move on and help him. He's our friend, okay? But I know he's still the same Fish, just a little turned around."

"I know, okay. I can't help it. From what the boys told me, he seems to be a lot better." I added, stirring in my seat. "Anyways, it's been awhile since all of us have been back together. It's exciting."

Santi snickered, "But didn't you all hang out while I've been out of the U.S.?"

Seeing that we're close to the arena's parking garage I explained, "I mean, yea, but only me, Ironhead, Benny and Fish. I haven't talked to Redfly in months, we all had a fallout with him. Especially me."

"Tom didn't say anything when I talked to him, Do you wanna fill me in?" He asked with a quirked eyebrow.

Huffing, I turn to face him, telling him the events of that night.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The four of us, the Millers, Frankie and I sat on my couch, watching TV and talking, when we hear a bang at the door. I got up to open it and find Tom slumped on the doorway. He looked rough and smelled like he had been drinking the past several days. "Woah, Tom, you're really drunk, and you drove here?"

He snapped, beginning to yell, "Who are you to judge me? Huh? My wife left me, this is how I cope." He angrily pushed his way past me and tumbled into the living room. He was greeted with the boys standing around him with concerned faces.

"What the hell were you thinking? You know how dangerous that is? You know you could've called and we would've been there for you!" I raised my voice back, causing Tom to swing around to face me.

He laughed darkly, "Oh shut up 'Miss Perfect,' just like you did for Fish? When he was nose deep in coke? Or are you too self obsessed? Or do you just have favorites!"

"Hey man, that's not cool." Will interrupted and tried to get a handle on Tom. Frankie lowered his head in embarrassment. Will reached forward and placed a hand on his back, but things escalated more.

"Oh okay, yea protect the whore, we all know she's there for you guys more than just talking. I wouldn't doubt it if you all fucked her too. But me? Nah, you leave me out of everything." Tom howled, yanking away from Will and slurring his words and no longer making sense.

Anger becoming more prominent, I spoke, "Seriously?! Whore?! How is it my fault that you push us away and don't let us help? We include you in everything, but you have your head so far stuck up your ass you never show up!" I've come face to face with him, my hot breath and voice blowing into his face above me. "And another thing, I'm not a whore, you asshole, I'm with Frankie!"

He leaned closer to me, his breath reeking of alcohol, "Just him? Does he know where you're at everyday Monday and Wednesday at 1?! I doubt it!"

Frankie speaks up, "What? What is he talking about?" A devilish smirk makes its way to Tom's face.

"Nothing, I swear it's nothing." I try to explain, making eye contact with my partially hurt lover.

"Tell him, tell him you've been seeing a 'Dr. Philips.' Go on, do it." He rubs it in.

Looking behind Tom, I saw Frankie looking like his world had just shattered. "You've been seeing someone?!"

Panicking, I speak, "Yes, but it's not what you think, I promise!"

"Then what is it?" Tom adds, stumbling back a foot and crossing his arms contently at the damage he just caused.

Benny spoke up, knowing the truth about who I was "seeing." "You need to leave man, you have no right to say shit like that. You don't know the real situation"

Tom burst, yelling "I want her to admit it! I want her to admit that she isn't the perfect bitch she makes herself out to be!"

"Fuck you! Get the hell out of my house!" I scream, tears slightly welling in my eyes. "Frankie-" I turn to him, but to find him grabbing his things. "Baby please, let me explain."

"Explain what? You've been cheating on me?" his voice is loud, and cracks slightly.

A tear breaks its way down my cheek, "I haven't, Frankie, please believe me." I grab his hand, trying to stall his movements, but he pulls away.

"You just admitted it!" He frowns and yanks his hand away and heads for the door.

"That's right Fishie boy! Leave her, she's no good anyway!" Tom squawks as Benny grabs a hold of him and shoves him to the door, Will right behind to help.

"You bastard!" I lunged forward and swung my hand, landing right on the side of his face with a loud crack. Frankie spun around, startled at my actions.

The action only fueled Tom's anger because he ripped away from Benny's grip and grabbed me. I didn't back down and started to shove him and swing my arms, hitting him in the face and chest as he fought back.

But just as quickly as the fight started, it ended. Frankie tore me off of Tom, pinning me to his chest and stopping my brutal hits. Will and Benny wrested Tom into submission and dragged him out of the front door as he yelled slurs at me, and dumped him outside with a battered face.

While the brothers were dealing with a drunk Redfly, Frankie scolded and verbally fought with me.

"Just tell me! Who is Dr. Philips!" He questioned, slightly shaking me by the shoulders.

With many emotions running through my head, I couldn't process what was going on. "I-I can't, Frankie, I can't even admit it to myself." Tears streaming down my face I brought my hands up to the sides of his face. "But you have to believe me, por favor (please)."

Francisco looked like he was fighting an emotional battle in his mind. He finally spoke, "Either you tell me, or I leave, I can't do this, not if you keep things from me."

Feeling my heart break, I whispered "Please, mi amor (my love), don't make me. I'm not strong enough." My eyes now running like an open faucet and my hands tightly pressed to his cheeks.

He blinks away tears, reaching his hands up to grab mine and pull them away from his face, "Then I have to go." He drops my hands and turns to leave.

"Por favor no me dejes! (Please don't leave me)" I call after him, watching as he heads out of the door and into the night, leaving me alone. I drop to the floor, tears blurring my vision and all that can be heard are my sobs.

After what feels like hours, Will and Benny return, picking me up off the floor and taking me to my bed. They lay me down, attempting to help my emotional breakdown. They pick up whatever mess that was left after the event of that night.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~end flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"And after that night, Tom was no longer invited anywhere with us. Frankie distanced himself and refused to talk to me. But Will and Benny did their best to be there for me in any way they could. They did the same for Frankie. But as for Tom, they casted him out, because he changed, badly." I finished covering the story of that night, fighting the tears that threatened to spill. "And the Dr. Philips I was seeing, was my therapist. I didn't want anyone to know I wasn't okay mentally. I was embarrassed and part of me didn't want to admit I needed help. The lives we chose aren't easy."

Santi parked, and seemed shocked, "I'm sorry love, I knew you split with Fish, but didn't know any details or about Tom." He reached over and patted my thigh sympathetically. "I really am sorry that you went through all of that because Tom was an asshole. You really don't have to do this-"

"No I want to, I'm in a better place, so is everyone else." I smiled shyly, wanting to lift the spirits. "So what do you say? Let's go wrangle up our boys and get rich?"

Pope smiled brightly, "Hell yes!" We both got out of the car, and headed to the back of the arena and knocked, hoping Will was there to open it like he told Santi he would. Much to our luck, the door swung open to reveal a tall, smiling, blonde Miller brother.

"Brother!" Santi chuckled as he pulled the eldest Miller into a hug, clapping each other on the back. They pulled away as Pope headed inside to find the others.

"Hey pretty girl, long time no see." Will joked, hugging me tightly.

I scoffed, "Will, you were just at my house last night." We both laughed and he led me into a rank smelling locker room, which I assumed was for Benny to get ready. As we rounded the corner, I saw Benny and Tom chatting on one of the benches between the lockers.

"Chipmunk!" Benny roared as he ran over, picked me up and spun me around. "I missed you! I'm so glad you could make it!" He sat me back down and stepped back to sit on the bench again.

"Of course, I wouldn't miss you getting your ass beat for the world!" I giggled as I winked at him, showing the younger of us a bit of love.

He shook his head with a grin. As my eyes left him, they met with the eyes of Tom. He seemed to have a look of regret, trying to give me a sad smile.

I walked over to him, reaching my hand in a fist forward, lightly tapping his shoulder, "Hey fly, how you been?"

A small wave of relief washed over him as he responded "I'm good Chip, how are you? And look I'm really sorry, I wasn't in a good place and I regret-"

"Its okay Tom, really, it is. I'm just glad you're better. It's water under the bridge." I sit next to him and pat his back, showing that all, or at least most, is forgiven.

He nods slowly, "Thank you, it means a lot that you're here."

"Oh cmon you have to admit it, you couldn't do it without me, the best there is." I pretend to act over confident and burst into laughter. And Tom joins in.

As Tom and I begin to catch up, talking about what we've missed these past several months, I overhear a conversation.

"Hermano (brother)! How are you?" Santi greets Frankie, I assume, he was the last of us, who wasn't already here. When I realize that it is him, my heart begins to race. My skin starts to burn and get hot, my palms becoming sweaty.

"Pope! Benny! Ironhead! What is this, a reunion?" Frankie's voice echoes as they come closer. As the three round the corner, "All we need is Redfly and Chip-" Frankie stops as we become revealed to him. Tom gets up immediately and struts over to give Fish a hug. Frankie's face lights up with glee and hugs him back. When they step away from each other, I wearily stand up and all he does is give an awkward smile and nods in my direction.

Benny attempts to whisper to Santi, "Ouch, that's cold." And Santi jabs him in the stomach with his elbow, causing him to double over and make a "hmf" sound.

Being slightly hurt, I break the uneasy tension by opening an invitation, "Alright well I'm gonna go get a beer and find us some good seats, it's close to showtime!" Faking a smile I continue, "Who's coming?"

"Me, I can't be in here with this doofus anymore." Will chuckle as he ruffles Ben's hair and follows right behind me.

When we make it to the concession stand and order beers, Will taps my arm, "How are you feeling?"

With a sigh, "Honestly I expected that, but it hurt more when it actually happened. But what can I say." I grab out drinks from the concession worker and thank her and turn on my heels to find a seat. "I love him, and if that means waiting to mend things, it worth it, even if it means waiting forever."

Will offers a sympathetic grin. "It'll work, just watch. Oh! Over there! Perfect seats!" He points as his attention was caught by an opening near the rink. He pursues it as I follow behind.

While we sit, we joke around, waiting for the rest of the gang to come sit and watch Benny get thrown around. Finally the last three show up and sit with us, Tom sat on Will's right side, me on his other side, Santi on my left, but when Frankie walks up, he bends down and whispers to Santi, causing him to scoot further away from me and leaving room for Frankie to slot himself between us. Which took me by surprise. Once he was seated, he glanced over to me and gave me a genuine smile.

We don't say a word as the lights begin to dim and the announcer's voice breaks through the speaks, introducing our dear Benny and his opponent.

Our small group starts to cheer and scream Benny's name, to show him support. As he enters the rink, he searches for us, and when he finds us, he smiles big.

In the midst of all the commotion, Frankie leans over and whispers to me, "I missed you, cariño (sweetheart)."

My face whips around to meet a very close Fish, who is smiling. "I missed you too." I give a small smile and lean to my side to shoulder bump him, as he places a hand on my knee.

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Could you write a hc or drabble Eren saying to his s/o that he's going to Marley and she's tryin to convince him to stay, they end up spending the night together, but when she wakes up he's already gone? I mean, break my heart. That's it

Homebound (Eren x fem!scout!reader) Drabble

Warning: AOT spoilers, possible Season 4 spoilers if you squint  a little bit. Angst, slight suggestive themes, breeding if you tilt your head a little bit *cough cough*.

Author’s Note - So….in honor of all of the love and new friendships I’ve gained, I’ve decided to attempt ripping hearts out with our baby Eren. Thank you so much for the idea and the time given to me to whip this up! I didn’t think that the reader would ever think they could make Eren stay, but I think he’d do everything in his power to make sure they stay and that they’re safe. Hope you enjoy!

Song(s) of influence: Stay Down - Brent Faiyaz

Eren had a habit of  coming in once the soft firelight of your space had been lit and only stayed until the flame was no more than smoke wafting up the open sky. It wasn’t anything new, you were both so young and it was important to establish those boundaries of time within your relationship. The both of you were busy in the Scout Regiment, separating your relationship from your respected jobs out of respect for not only your higher ups, but…

He was always reckless when it came to you being in immediate danger.

You knew the heat of his titan’s hand all too well, it had saved you on many occasions that you were grateful for. You knew that roar of rage almost like the uplift of a symphony of voices  when you were ever targeted on the field of battle, and the distant memory of an immediate breeze in him lifting you into his vision, even briefly to make sure you were alright.

Eren was so sure of your capabilities, and he never would create a damsel in distress out of his lover, but you were too precious of a piece of humanity to be lost. He just couldn’t bear the thought of losing you, and he was being reckless standing right outside of your tent.

It was one thing to come so early in the morning, the sun hadn’t risen yet and everyone was probably going to start stirring soon. The past few months after Historia had been crowned queen were steady with common visits, so why now?  You quietly moved aside to let Eren  in, and allowed what seemed to be a flustered savior of humanity to stop his treck back and forth in front of  your makeshift quarters without sparing you so much a glance in his utterings to himself. The poor man looked absolutely exhausted and skinny with worry about the slightest of things after the coronation, and the journey to the body of saltwater made it no better for him. The journey there was full of titans that came across the Scout’s path, and all of them were cut down by their blades while they continued to push on. The entire way there consisted of Eren’s silence and his exhaustion when faced with the titans. With each one they came across, his eyes got just a little colder.

But when they faced you? He almost moved to tears, and it most definitely was the reason why he couldn't look at you.

“Eren,” You had enough of his muttering, and moved across your temporary space to cup his cheeks in between your hands. “You do know the Captain is going to kill you if he catches you up like this?”

He didn’t really look like he cared too much. Instead, Eren took the time to drink you up. The color of your eyes. The feeling of your warmth on his cheeks, your hair that he’s had his hands tangled in time and time again-

“You can’t come across the sea with me.”

You were almost taken aback. Immediately your hands retreated back to your sides and you took the time to size Eren up, squaring your shoulders and preparing for the argument that you just knew was approaching. “No, I think I will as per my orders from Capitan Levi.”

His eyes almost immediately narrowed, and it was obvious that your quick rejection snapped him out of whatever had been bothering him for so long. “______, I don’t have the time to argue with you. Can you just listen to me for once? Finish the mission here and go home.”

“I don’t need to go home Eren. You’re talking about insubordination, and I’m not leaving my squad to go across those waters and into that alone. What’s gotten into you?”

“You.” The volume of his voice definitely stirred other soldiers, and before your hand could flatten itself on his mouth, he caught your wrist and continued on. “You’re so hard headed. If you could just listen to me one time. Just once, let me go off knowing that you’re going to be safe.” Eren’s grip tightened only briefly before he let go, and moved forward to press his forehead against yours. “I can’t lose you. If you stay here, I won’t have to. I promise you.”

Was this the breaking point? At some point, you were sure he’d probably hit his head on something or he was worrying more than he should have. You couldn’t help but to wrap your arms around him to the best of your ability in the awkward space, pulling him down and into your sleeping mat to comfort the man you loved.

You knew you loved him, and he knew he loved you. But duty came before love. He couldn’t just make you turn around from all of this progress that was made and expect you to just go home. You dedicated your heart to the people behind those walls, and there was nothing Eren could do about that.

At least, that’s what you thought.

His lips were on yours the second he could visibly see that your mind had been made up, hands making quick work of picking away and your under clothes for the night, and for some reason? You felt weak to those eyes that were briefly filled with emotion, and the  touch that  oozed with longing. Eren’s feelings were always shown physically, whenever he could, and you felt it in the way he pressed his weight on top of you, as if he was leaving an imprint on you with the heat made between your bodies.

You should have known he had a plan, every thrust was full of purpose that you hadn’t felt before. He made it a point to fill you up again, and again until the sun rose and the two of you tore apart once life rose in the camp to continue the journey forward.

Stolen moments like this after arguing were common, but his tears in the last moments of stillness told you so much more than just whose breathless declarations of love that went up and into the night.

It told you that you would be staying by the time the waves of nausea overtook you weeks into conquering the ships of Marley. His will was in the words of your Capitan’s, making it clear that you’d be staying on the island behind the safety of the walls.

On the last night you two were together, Eren didn’t bother to tell  you that he’d be coming home, or that he’d even stay alive. His lips were either planted on your forehead, hands gripping your being close to him until a ship had separated the two of you, and the cart only added to the distance in your return to Wall Sina.

It was just an inkling, but by the time they had set out...

You just knew. You’d never see Eren Yeager again.