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inkandpen22 · 3 years ago

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Permanent Chaos (4/?)

Pairing: MGK x Female!Reader

Word Count: 4k

Warnings: mild swearing, mentions of underage drinking

Part Summary: Sam hosts a party and Y/N makes a not-so-great acquaintance of a certain rock star.

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Sam’s house is filled with people. I know the majority of the partiers, the rest I can recognize from whatever field of entertainment they’re in. The music is blasting over the speakers and the voices fill the remaining space.

I search around for him. I manage to find him in the family room on the couch. He’s chatting with a group of people, including Penelope. I make my way over, shuffling between bodies. When I appear out from within the crowd, Sam gleams.

“You made it!”

“I did!” I giggle.

We hug and he introduces me to the girl beside him. “Y/N, this is Cara.”

As if I don't know who Cara Delevigne is, I may be busy but I don't live on Mars. I smile at her kindly. “Nice to meet you!”

“You too! I’m a huge fan of your work on TSL!” She gushes, giving my hand a gentle squeeze.

The Seasons of Life is often shortened to TSL, just a side note.

Cara’s accent is so pretty! She’s already a model then she has to have a British accent as if she wasn’t perfect enough!

“Aw, thank you so much!”

Sam slips by me. “I’m going to go get us a drink!”

"Oh wait, Sam!"

“I know what to do!” He shouts back without stopping. I should know better. With how much time we spend together, he would know my order.

“That kid,” I sigh to Penelope and Cara.

The two giggle and we go on to talk about this and that. Fun enough, Cara leaves for Paris tomorrow for a fashion show. Must be exciting to travel so often and to wear the most amazing clothes. She’s quite funny. Her personality is so vibrant and warm. I can see us being good friends.

A loud voice echoes through the house and the three of us look toward the archway to see who it’s coming from. Bodies block the view so I turn my attention back to the girls. Penelope and I discuss the photoshoot in two days and Cara talks about her experiences with Vanity Fair.

“Hey, Cara!” A voice greets behind me.

I don't turn around, but I can feel their energy hovering over me. They shuffle to stand right beside me. I glance up, but can't recognize them.

Cara stands up to hug them. “Good to see you! How are you?” She keeps him in an embrace.

“Great, great!” The guy, who’s back is to me for some reason seems familiar. I can’t quite put my finger on it.

“You know Sam?” She questions as they part.

“Not really, I came with a few friends.”

I look over at Penelope for a hint as to who it could be. She shrugs and watches the two interact.

“Speaking of, have you seen him? I should say hi.” The man asks.

“He went to the kitchen to get a drink for him and Y/N.”

The man turns around and he peers down at me on the couch. I should’ve guessed it… MGK. The hair and a million tattoos should've been a dead giveaway. That bright blonde mess of a hairstyle.

“Colson, this is Y/N Voss,” Cara introduces us.

He glances down at me with a smile. “We’ve met actually,” he claims.

My head tilts, I can’t recall when we've met properly.

“Today after I performed on James’s show,” he describes, towering over me.

“Oh! Awesome!” Cara sits back down next to me.

All I can do is stare at Colson in confusion. “If you count glancing at one another from across the room once as meeting,” I reply a bit snarky.

He gives me a toothy grin and eases down onto the cushion ottoman right across from me. “It was more than one glance,” he argues.

“You would know, you’re the one that never looked away," I fire back.

Cara and Penelope exchange a glance, snicker, then leave the scene together. They offer their goodbye before giggling away. They're smart.

Colson seems to have not noticed or at least doesn’t care. He moves to take Cara's spot on the cushion next to me. “You would’ve had to been looking to have noticed that I never looked away.”

My head rolls back, with a mocking laugh. “Well aren’t you a genius!”

He rests his arm on the back of the couch behind me. “I like to think so.”

“One vodka tonic.” Sam interrupts, holding out my drink.

I take it bitterly. "Thanks."

“Sam huh?” Colson stands up and the two shake hands. “I’m Colson, nice to officially meet you, man!”

Sam treats him like an old friend which annoys the heck out of me. Colson so far has only shown his arrogance to me. “You too! Great seeing you today at the show. Your performance was amazing.”

“Thanks, your interview was hilarious!” Colson fakes charming better than some actors.

“You watched?” Sam asks.

“Yeah, I stuck around just off-camera. You two are great!”

Watching these two talk each other up is a bromance waiting to happen.

Sam gestures to me with his glass. “Y/N here is the real comedian. There’s never a dull moment with her."

“I'm sure.” Colson peers down at me with a bright smile. "We’ve only just met and she’s already sparked a debate with me.”

I narrow my eyes at Colson, what’s he trying to start?

Sam settles down on the ottoman where Colson was. “What about?” He is all for the conversation and is jumping headfirst into the tiff between us.

Colson smiles but I see the mischief in his eyes.

“It wasn’t a debate” I rise to my feet in front of the boys. “If you would excuse.” I step away from the couch a little irked.

“Oh come on now Baby, I’m only joking,” Colson calls not bothered.

“Oh no,” Sam laughs behind me. “Best not call her that or any pet names for that matter. She hates them!”

I don’t even acknowledge them on my walk out of the room. Cocky, annoying, ugh! It’s been maybe five minutes and he’s already managed to irritate me. Maybe all the things they write in the tabloids about him are true. A spoiled, arrogant, womanizing jerk. A piece of the worst parts of the industry. I'm going to go find the girls and stay far away from Colson Baker.

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On the set of the Vanity Fair shoot, the atmosphere is lively and carefree. The theme is an 80’s vintage style and since it’s coming back the magazine is mixing old with the new. Sam and I are in an old-fashioned record store and it’s wicked! The walls are teal and remind me of an old Taco Bell. There are rows and rows of just vinyl records. My hair is teased in an 80’s rock band kind of hairstyle. 80s music has been playing on set all morning to set the mood. I'm living for it!

A lady approaches me with a huge light wash denim jacket.

“No way! I get to wear this!” I gush.

She helps me put it on and I’m dying from how awesome this shoot is.

I immediately go to Sam's trailer. “Sam! I’m rocking the denim on denim look!” I show off my high-waisted light wash denim shorts with a black bulky leather belt around my waist.

He laughs. “I appreciate the denim on denim but I have to say my favorite part is the old Bon Jovi T.”

The photographer, Adam, comes up with this brilliant idea for me to stand on the crates of records. Where the two rows in the middle of the store meet, there’s enough room for me to stand. Once I’m up there and I can find the balance in these red heels, they have Sam join me.

“Sam, grab her leg and look up at her as though you’re keeping an eye on her,” Adam instructs.

The camera flashes and between snaps, I change my facial features.

“Good! Good! Let’s get some shots from the counter!”

Sam helps me down from the crates and I hop down. We get a shot of me laying across the counter with a red sucker in my hand and Sam hovering over me. This shoot is incredibly fun and I can’t wait to see the finished product.

Sam and I change outfits and Adam asks if he can get a video for the website and YouTube channel. Of course, we said yes. It’ll be a montage of an interview of us individually and then of us just messing around throughout the store with 80’s music playing in the background. Adam has me sit on an 80’s style floral couch they set up in front of a backdrop in the back room. The whole setup is very comfortable and intimate. Only us, a few lights and a camera with the radio playing. Sam is in makeup and dress for the part of the video of us being candid.

“You can sit however you like!” Adam instructs, meaning I’m sitting too formal with my posture straight and legs crossed. “Act like we’re just hanging out or something.”

I adjust myself and crisscross my legs, slouching a bit.

“Much better!” he compliments, staring down at the camera. He hits up on a stool and positions his camera on the stand. “What’s it like to be on the cover of Vanity Fair?”

“The whole experience is unreal! I remember having a subscription to Teen Vogue growing up. My friends and I loved them!”

“Would you describe your style as modern or classic?”

“Classic for sure!” I gush.

Adam snickers. “What’s your favorite decade for fashion?”

I laugh and gesture down at my outfit. “The 80’s.”

“Does anyone from the 80’s inspire your style in particular?”

I tap the tips of my fingers together and hum. “That’s a toughy! I guess I would have to say Demi Moore for the hair. Specifically, her haircut from About Last Night… that’s where I got the style for my hair actually. Another big one would be Cindy Crawford, such a fashion icon!” I could talk about fashion all day and the icons idolize.

“Heels or sneakers?”

“Depends on the occasion. Sneakers for everyday things, I could never live without my trusty Converse. Yet, I would wear heels if I’m dressing it up a bit.”

"Are you more of a girly-girl or tomboy?”

“People who know me well would say I’m a girly-girl but I also don’t mind downplaying it from time to time. I’ve gotten better lately at relaxing and no being so “on” all the time.”

“Hair up or down?”

“Half up, half down,” I wiggle my eyebrows playfully looking into the camera.

Adam chuckles behind the camera. He changes topics. “You’re from South Carolina originally...”

My heart sinks a little at the mention of home, but I hide behind a smile. “That I am.”

“You haven’t been back in almost a year, do you miss it?”

I play with the ends of my hair, examining my lap. Avoiding the camera lens. I look at anywhere but there. “If I were to miss anything about South Carolina, it would be the gorgeous landscape and southern food."

“You have three siblings, correct?” Adam asks next.

“I do, an older brother and sister, then a younger brother.” I list.

“What do they think about the show and your career?”

I nod. “They support me but the distance is hard. As you said, we haven’t all been together in almost a year.”

“Do you have any plans to go visit home soon?”

I sigh, “sadly no, my work keeps me quite busy.”

The interview goes on and we discuss how my style has evolved since I was a teen starting out in the business. I’ll admit, the topics about home and family sucked. Work and personal life are two separate jobs, my worlds can’t collide. I never bring South Carolina into it.

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After the shoot, I received a call from Cara when we were finishing up the photoshoot. Last night, Cara, Penelope, and I had a blast! I completely forgot about the whole tiff with Colson once I reached them in the kitchen. Since then, we’ve been three peas in a pod. While we were talking on the phone, she invited Sam and me to dinner at The Ivy.

“A small gathering of friends,” she told me and asked for us to be there by seven.

Jump ahead to now and Sam is parallel parking the car. I hop out and wait on the sidewalk for Sam to walk around. Our hands' interlock and the paparazzi take notice of us when people on the sidewalk pull out their phones.

“Y/N! SAM! SAM! OVER HERE!”

“HOW’S FILMING GOING?”

“It’s good to be back on set!” I cover my eyes with my clutch.

“YOUR INTERVIEW WITH JAMES CORDEN WAS GREAT!”

“SOCIAL BLEW UP AFTER THE INTERVIEW!”

Sam asks for the guys to make a path so we can get through without issues. He releases my hand and presses his palm to my lower back protectively.

“WE’VE ALREADY SEEN Cara AND PENELOPE GO IN!”

“A FEW PEOPLE ACTUALLY!”

“ARE YOU ALL MEETING UP?”

“Maybe, maybe not!” I look into one of the video cameras and wink.

The guy behind it gets a hoot out of my expression.

Sam and I reach the restaurant and the men let us go in unbothered.

“WE’LL LEAVE YOU ALONE TO YOUR DINNER!”

“Thanks guys, see you later!” I wave to them and their cameras shoot rapidly.

The noise dies down when we go back further into the restaurant. Sam spots Cara in the back and guides me back there. Tables are lined up in a long row and the majority of the seats are filled.

Cara, cool as a cucumber pulls me into a hug. “Hey Y/N! So glad you two could come!” She sits Sam and me across from each other near the middle. She insisted that I sit by her so we could chat. We get to talking about the Vanity Fair shoot today then she’s pulled away when another guest arrives.

The waitress comes up behind me and requests my drink order.

“I’ll have a sweet tea please.”

“We only serve unsweetened.”

I hate it when they say that. “That’s fine, thank you!” Sam eyes me and I pout about having no sweet tea.

“You realize there’s sugar right here.” He slides me the packets of sugar.

“Yes but it’s not the same. There’s sweet tea at every restaurant where I’m from and I come here boom! Sweet tea is nonexistent!”

"What’s the drink that’s carbonated?” He’s asking to be annoying because the west coast and the midwest disagree on the name.

“Pop!” I glare at him.

“That’s right! Pop! Sounds like you’re saying pot every time.” He laughs at his own joke, finding himself humorous.

“It’s soda by the way," he corrects.

“Uh uh,” I refuse to change my ways, “it’s pop.”

The empty chair next to me slides back and when I glance up to see who’s doing it, an instant headache hits my brain.

Sam greets Colson warmly with a handshake. I shoot Sam another glare. He’s acting neutral but that shouldn’t be a choice in this case. He was my friend first!

Colson removes black Ray-Bans from his face and positions them on top of his head.

“Hello Y/N.” Colson sends me one of his charming grins so many teen girls swoon over.

“Hi,” I reply, not attempting to hide my disinterest. I curve my body away from him and towards Cara, legitly giving him the cold shoulder.

The dinner goes on without a hitch surprisingly, considering the circumstances. Penelope leans down over the back of my chair to say our goodbyes.

I turn around in my chair to face her. “See ya tomorrow.”

“See ya,” she rubs her hand up and down my arm.

She and I exchange kisses on the cheek. “Love you!” We say in unison as we part.

“Later Sam!” She wiggles her fingers at him in a wave.

Sam and I stick around a while longer since Cara and I have gotten into a deep conversation about our shared love for vintage things. A conversation about our collections of records alone went on for twenty minutes. I hadn't noticed that it was just four of us now. Sam and Colson have been talking most of the dinner.

A pair of hands rest on my shoulders and steal my attention away from Cara. “Y/N, you ready to go?” Sam asks.

“We’ll head out too!” Cara announces with her sights directed behind me.

I look over my shoulder and Colson is standing beside Sam. The four of us walking out together… how convenient.

I grab my clutch, sticking close to Sam to dodge Colson.

The four of us walk toward the front of the restaurant and right when we reach the steps leading outside, Cara announces that she forgot her purse.

“I’ll be right back!” She urges us to go on without her.

The cameras waited for us as I assumed they would. They’re capturing every minute of us waiting for Cara.

I place my hand on Sam’s shoulder, “would you go help her?”

“You sure?” His eyes flicker between me and Colson.

“I’ll be fine,” I assure him and he promises he’ll only be a second.

“Go to the car so you aren’t bothered,” he refers to the paparazzi.

“I’ll walk her,” Colson offers.

Sam gives him the go-ahead as he goes off to help in the search for the purse.

I’m left with the one guy I was avoiding. I grip the keys in my hand and walk down the brick steps to the sidewalk. I hear Colson behind me and stop to address him. “I can walk myself to the car.”

He raises his arms mocking a surrender. “I don’t doubt your ability to walk, just helping out.”

“I don’t need your help,” I scoff, starting to walk again.

“I never said you did,” Colson sassily replies.

*Click* *Click* *Click*

A man runs around me to get a photo of me straight on.

“Y/N! Y/N! WALKING IN WITH SAM AND LEAVING WITH MGK, ANY EXPLANATION?”

I pause for a moment, making eye contact with the man behind the camera. Is he honestly trying to start drama? What lies are he going to sell? I’m only going to the car because Sam requested. The only reason Colson is even near me is that he’s so freaking persistent.

I push back the aggravation and force my lips into a kind smile. I can’t have a single moment of weakness. I can’t give in to my emotions like others. “Sam is helping Cara with something inside. Colson was kind enough to walk me to the car.”

“HOW LONG HAVE YOU GUYS KNOWN EACH OTHER?”

I purposefully answer quickly so Colson doesn’t even have the chance to think of a response. “Not long, we met the other day backstage at The Late Late Show. We have a lot of the same friends and had no idea!” I peek over at Colson and he gives me a knowing look. I dismiss it and go on with my charade. I will not let this jerk mess with my career.

“ANY CHANCE OF HAVING COLSON GUEST STAR ON THE SHOW?”

“That would be great!” I lie my butt off, “having more friends on set would be fun!”

“COLSON, HOW’S YOUR NEW ALBUM COMING ALONG?!”

“We’re in the recording stage right now. Should be released sometime this summer," he answers.

“FOLLOWING UP WITH A TOUR?”

“Of course!” he chuckles.

I unlock the car and move around the guys to reach the door.

“WE’LL LET YOU GUYS GO ON. ENJOY THE REST OF YOUR NIGHT!” One of them departs.

“Thank you! You too!” I wave goodbye.

Some stick behind to get a few last pictures but for the most part, they all disburse. The ones remaining, however, keep their distance.

I yank on the handle of the door and Colson holds it for me. As if he's a gentleman. I begin to climb in, prepared to yank it shut in his face.

“Friends huh?” Colson chuckles.

I turn around abruptly and check around the general area of the sidewalk for any cameras. Seems the remainder of the guys have left. I shut the door and Colson removes his hand in a rush.

“No, not friends! I only said that to please the public," I huff.

“Ouch!” he acts offended, placing his hand on his heart. “I did find it interesting that you claimed we met backstage the other day so I was right!” He chuckles, believing he caught me.

“No, no, no, no!" I shut that thought down quickly. "The only reason I made that up was that it’s not good for my image if I admit I was at a party. People tend to assume that heavy drinking and drugs occur at parties. I can’t be associate with that scene!”

“Oh, so it’s alright to lie?” He crosses his arms and snickers, glancing down the street toward the restaurant.

I roll my eyes, of course, he doesn’t understand, why would he? “You don’t get it” I scoff, dismissing him. I turn and reach for the car handle again.

“So what if you were at a party? People drink, if some have a problem with that, that’s their problem. Oh! I forgot! You're America's Sweetheart! The perfect angel princess with a spotless record,” he mocks.

I slam the car door shut, having hit my limit. I keep my voice hush. “It’s not that simple! I'm not like you! I can't be caught partying! If the country, the world, sees the truth then my image is ruined! I've been doing this since I was a teenager! I worked way too hard for far too long to lose everything over a stupid mistake!”

Colson’s face falters from his usual carefree expression to one of seriousness.

“Found it! Let’s go!” Sam announces loudly to the whole block.

I toss him the keys and glance back to Colson who stands there in a stillness I have yet to see from me. His stare makes me want to hide. I feel as though I’m under a microscope being studied.

“Toodaloo Y/N! ‘Till next time my pals!” Cara strolls down the sidewalk.

It’s evident she’s had a couple of drinks. She sways further down the sidewalk and comes to a stop once she notices Colson isn’t following.

“Later Cara!” Sam shouts over the top of the car behind me.

Colson and I stare at each other I’m guessing for different reasons. He appears lost in thought and I’m desperately trying to figure out why. If I look away, I fear he’ll break to pieces or something.

Cara pauses. “Colson? You coming?”

He holds out for a moment but finally breaks eye contact with me. "Yeah."

When I’m no longer staring into those black works of art I regain my ability to move. I hurry into the car and Sam says his goodbyes again over the top of the car. I buckle my seatbelt when he climbs in. Watching strangers walk up and down the sidewalk, I’m perfectly aware of Sam starring me down.

He pulls onto the street. “Are we gonna talk about it or are we doing silence?”

I reach over and turn up the radio.

“Of course you make your own option.” Sam watches me, waiting for some sort of explanation.

We come in at the end of a song and the next one is oh too recognizable. The classic rock sound that is a part of all of Colson’s music plays through the car speakers. His vocals enter the soundwave and I groan loudly over the music before turning off the radio.

"No music then!" I snap.

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artificialqueens · 4 years ago

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The Parent Trap, Chapter 9 (Biadore) - Henny

A/N: Thank you for the comments, Hennies! Y’all are making me feel like Ariel in the beginning of Little Mermaid 2 :> I missed all of you too! Sorry if there was a problem with the formatting of the previous chapter; completely my fault!

OH, and if you’re confused with the timeline, I’ll simplify it for you:

RPDR Season 6 (filming) ended around Mid-July of 2013 (assuming it takes about a year or so before it is released). January 2014; Roy and Danny started dating. 6 months after that, June 2014, a month after Bianca wins, they get married. A year later, the couple gets baby fever, so they start looking for the perfect surrogate and egg donor. This is where I deflect a bit from the prologue, it takes them until May 2016 to conceive.

TLDR; the fic takes place July 2026, and RPDR is currently airing S19 with THE AS:BoTW filming the very same year . If I had said anything contrary to those stated above, disregard it. This is the new timeline I’m going to follow going forward.

All the love, Hennies!

XOXO, Henny

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

“Well, would you be interested in joining the first All-Stars: Battle of the Winners in place of Bianca?”

The way Adore gaped at her phone was almost comedic, mouth opening and closing like a fish. In some way, she’s almost flattered at the fact that Ru called personally instead of a producer. It’s almost very considerate, since the man knew what had gone between Danny and Roy.

“Well, last time I checked, you didn’t crown me, Mama…” Adore adds a teasing tone to her voice, and tries to ignore the nerves that seemed to resurface at the idea of returning back to the competition. It’s been many years since Season 6, and Adore has genuinely forgotten how it feels to be on a platform like that again. Focusing on her music as both Adore and Danny has shifted the focus of her career as a drag queen and performer; and with many seasons passed, she knew her charm has run dry with Drag Race fans.

Ru laughs, the iconic shrill making Adore spiral back into the werkroom. “I didn’t, didn’t I?” He laughs again, and Adore can only imagine him wiping a fake tear. “But, I am planning to release the footage of you and Bianca winning to prove that my decision to invite you has some bearing, at the least.”

Adore inwardly groans again, remembering the night of the finale wherein they filmed the ending of her and Bianca winning together. She feels the ghost of Bianca’s hands squeezing her own as they waved and the sparkly confetti rains and glitters of lights from cameras blinded their eyes; applause and cheers roaring in their ears.

“What will the other queens say? The winners, I mean. It’s not like they’ll consider me a winner, especially the newer queens.” Ever the anxious person that she is, she finds a brush to fiddle with to lessen her anxiety.

“My competition, my rules. Whatever I say goes, Baby. They can say whatever they want, but if they’re smart enough, they’ll pipe up. And, besides…” Ru trails off excitedly, like they were sharing a secret. “Since this is only a Netflix special, I’m only doing the first decade season winners. I’m sure they’ll be nicer to you than recent ones.“

“All of them said yes?”

“All, but one, you already know…”

“Yeah, yeah…”

“So, what do you say?”

“I- I don’t know, Ru. I’ll think about it…”

“Of course, let the producers know soon, alright? Filming starts October! Toodles!”

The call ends, and it takes everything in Adore’s willpower not to throw it to the wall. She looks at her phone’s lock screen and sees the beaming face of Portia, and she manages to calm down. She stands up, grabs a pre-rolled joint in her makeup kit, and heads out of the building after shouting to the manager to inform him about her whereabouts. She normally didn’t do this anymore; smoking, hard liquor, and even hooking up with trades that come her way. Portia had completely turned her life around, and so did Roy and Nerissa. “Fuck,” Tears fill her eyes again at the thought of her daughter who she no longer knew, she sniffles as she takes a long drag of her joint and breathing out harshly.

A tall figure looms over her, and with a tap on her shoulder, she nearly doubled over in fear. “What the fuckkk…” She groans, clutching her heart.

“Oh, sorry… Didn’t mean to scare you.” Adore looks up to meet the steel eyes of a blonde stud with a smug smile on his face.

“Shit, I know you…” Adore murmurs in thought, before she remembers “You’re Brooke, right?”

“Brooke Lynn Hytes, yeah.” He flashes her a beautiful, gorgeous smile, pearly whites and all. “…But right now, uhh,” He looks down to his jeans and plain gray shirt, “You can call me, Brock.”

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

“Okay, give me another one.” Portia looks at her cards, one five of hearts and the other six of spades. It was really late and they just finished washing the dishes of the entire camp after dinner. Not tired from their post-cry-emotional nap earlier, they had decided to play a game of Blackjack. Nerissa deals her another card, and picks one for herself. Portia peaks at the new card, and sees her nine of spades. She joins the cards together, and places them down in triumph.

“20, let’s see yours, Haylock.”

Nerissa drops her cards, a jack of diamonds, two of clubs, and nine of clubs. “Blackjack, bitchh…” She taunts, laughing at Portia’s dismayed face.

“That’s not fucking fair…” Portia drawls, “That’s your 9th time winning, I think you’re cheating…”

“Oh, please. You just play your cards wrong, and sometimes, I’m just really lucky…” Nerissa beams as she watches Portia fix the cards and put it back in their case, murmuring “I don’t want to play anymore.”

“It’s getting pretty late, too. I think we should go to bed.” Nerissa yawns as she grabs her blanket and tries to settle herself in. Portia agrees before standing up to lock their door; to make sure the windows are tightly shut; and to turn off the light. The moon shines at its brightest, a cool silver light shimmers through their window.

“I know it’s late, but I’m not even remotely sleepy.” Portia comments despite the yawn the escapes her.

“Same here,” Nerissa says with droopy eyes.

“Tell me, what’s Bianca like? No… noo…What’s dad like?” Portia asks, adjusting herself so she faces her sister. The mere idea of having a sister and having Roy Haylock AKA Bianca Del Rio, THE Bianca Del Rio is possibly 50% her dad makes her more giddy than anything in the world.

“Dad is probably the most workaholic person you’ll ever meet. He’ll make time for you, yes. But, you can tell that 75% of his mind is just…” Nerissa sighs, “exhausted, if not thinking about work… He really tries though, he hasn’t missed any of my ballet recitals yet nor any PTAs. He’s as active as a busy parent can be.”

“That’s good, I guess…” A hum of agreement, another yawn.

“And not to mention, the free dresses.” She giggles, “How ‘bout our other dad?” Nerissa turns to lie on her back, thinking about her dad who she hasn’t updated in awhile, even though she promised to do so everyday. A sudden urge to hug her dad courses through her body, and subtle pout forms at her lips at the thought of Roy. She missed her dad, she’s still upset about the whole not-telling-her-she-was-a-twin-thing, but she missed him nonetheless.

“He’s pretty chill. I can do anything I want,”

“Wow.”

“Yeah, my dad’s pretty cool. We have the kind of relationship where I can tell him things and… he can tell me things. He’s my best friend, so we just have fun most of the time.” Portia says with mere awe. “But, it wasn’t always like that. There was a time though where he was pretty down in the dumps; he didn’t really have the best mental health back then and his coping mechanism–”

“Hey, this seems kinda personal. You don’t have to tell me this, okay? Only if you’re comfortable doing so.” Nerissa says, her arm crossing its way to pat Portia’s tummy to stop her thought.

“No, no… You’re my sister, and I trust you enough.”

“Okay, if you’re sure… So you were saying?

“Yeah, so, he didn’t have the best coping mechanism. Alcohol is tricky when it gets out of hand. I didn’t mind at first, because I didn’t think it was that bad. I didn’t notice the signs because I was so young. It was only one incident, really, when I understood the gravity of it all. Around June, he nearly drank himself to death. I don’t know why he drank severely that night, but I just found him passed out on his own–” Portia chokes as tears start up with the memory of seeing her dad then. “I was only four then, Riz. I didn’t know what death was, but the minute I saw him– It just rationalized so quickly in my head. I called 911 as fast as I could. I didn’t know what I was saying half the time ‘cuz I was just crying.”

Nerissa places a comforting hand on Portia’s arm as the girl tries to fight the sniffles. When Portia manages to barely win against the tears, she continues, “When we were in the hospital, I was with my Grandma and there was another man, I– I don’t know who, from what I can remember– we didn’t know if my dad was gonna make it.”

“I’m sorry to hear that, Porsche.”

“No, no… It’s fine. Just sucks to remember it. But, he managed to pull through, obviously. He hasn’t drank alcohol in years. So, I’m really proud of him, especially in his line of work, it must be so hard.”

“Yeah, as his 50%-chance daughter and for what it’s worth, I’m proud of him, too. “

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When Courtney heard the rumors going around backstage that night, she had about ten shots of tequila before coming to the conclusion that she wouldn’t tell Roy. But, funny how alcohol works out.

“Yanxxxxx” Courtney drawls out on her phone that she’s struggling to hold up to her ear. But the effort was there. She has absolutely no idea where she is as she presses her warm cheek to the cold faux leather seat of a couch.

“Bitch, did you really just– What?” Roy rolls his eyes as he looks at his phone that hosts Courtney’s current call and the said-blonde on his couch, drooling and staring off into space.

“I gotta–” hiccup “tell you a ssssecret.” Courtney angles her phone to her mouth, so she’s directly speaking to the phone’s microphone. Roy walks over to the drunk girl, grabs her phone and throws it in her purse. He ends the call on his phone before slipping to the kitchen, grabbing a towel and soaking it with cold water. He gives it a good squeeze to remove the excess water before going back to Courtney and placing the towel on her forehead.

“You’re so lucky Riz isn’t here or I would’ve left your drunk ass in the club.” He mutters in annoyance, even though everyone knew he wouldn’t really do that. He could never let anything happen to any of his loved ones, and god knows Riz has seen Courtney or Shane pissed drunk since she was a toddler.

“No,” Courtney says abruptly, hand swatting away Roy’s hand. “Nooooo…” She continues to drawl. “The secret is Ado…” She leans in close, way too close. Roy gets a harsh flashback and hastily pushes Courtney away. With the push, Courtney plops on her back and passes out entirely. Roy sighs, both in frustration and exhaustion. He wouldn’t bother removing Courtney’s makeup, but he did give her the courtesy of removing her wig and cap, as well as unlacing her corset. It all feels familiar to him, taking care of someone and helping them de-drag, except of course, back then he had to strip Bianca off himself and help Danny remove his clothes which then would lead to…

Roy shakes his mind, trying to get rid of the idea before it escalated. He leaves the guest bedroom and makes his way to the kitchen for a glass of wine. He’s just going to pretend he doesn’t know that Courtney was about to say something about Adore as he starts up a design for Rupaul on the granite kitchen counter.

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“I can’t believe Biadore was ACTUALLY a thing.”

“How can you not? The tension was so obvious, especially during that one part where Adore said she didn’t want to work with Bianca? The sexual tension was just–” Nerissa fans herself before she receives a slight smack and push on her shoulder.

“Dude, you’re so fucking weird. I don’t wanna think about my dad’s sex life OR YOURS!!”

“I’m just telling the truth! The stare was intense.” Nerissa breaks into a fit of giggles at Portia’s face of slight disgust at the idea. “And speaking of, did your dad date anyone again?” Nerissa asks.

“Never anyone serious enough to introduce to me, no. He’d go on dates, sometimes Adore would go on dates. But, yeah. He never really seemed interested in dating anymore, so he put all his attention to me or his and Adore’s music.”

“Do you call Adore “mom”?”

“No, that’s weird!” Portia snorts, “My dad is, well, my dad. He has his own quirks and personality. And, Adore, to me, is just a whole different person. I can’t explain it. Like, I know he’s Adore Delano through and through. But, my mind just sees Adore like a whole different person.” Portia rolls again to her back, so she’s facing the ceiling like her sister. “How about your dad? Did he date anyone?”

“You know what’s weird? I don’t think he ever did, not even dating or flirting with anyone else. He’s always been so closed off to anyone who showed any particular interest.” Nerissa twiddles with her thumb, before scrunching her nose in distaste. “I mean, in some way, I get it. He’s scared to love again. Uncle Shane always said so. I wish I knew why though.”

Portia hums, thoughtfully. Another pregnant pause looms over their conversation. It has gone on for so long that for a moment Nerissa thought Portia was asleep, until…

“I AM SUCH A FUCKING GENIUS!”

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#rpdr fanfiction #biadore #bianca del rio #adore delano #courtney act #parent trap au #parenting au #canon compliant #the parent trap #henny #tw mentions of alcoholism

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agl03 · 4 years ago

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Promo Breakdown 7.04: Out of the Past

Well.....bravo writers did not see that one coming. Kudos on the whole Sousa knew about Hydra and died because of it twist. And oh my goodness the theories running through my head right now. The changes it makes to those in play.

And yes I have MANY concerns about the whole Coulson shorting out thing and the whole eye thing. MANY. That is the kind of thing to bite us in the rear during the poop hits the fan portion of the season.

Okay onto the breakdown full Promo can be seen HERE.

First off if this whole episode is gonna be in black and white, Squeee!!!! Love the whole old Detective Novel thing they’ve got going! It also has HUGE Twilight Zone vibes I mean look at the Pre Show for the Tower of Terror in Disney World!

First can we appreciate that Jemma pulled a Hermione and brought some of her textbooks along for the time travel ride.

Okay writers, THAT was not how I ever pictured the end of Sousa so thanks for that awful thing I have to know now. And yes I totally let out a scream that he knew of the infiltration all those years ago.

However, my question is what are the Chronicoms up too here and who will they be after. They want Hydra to die so are they now the ones ensuring history changes and would be working to keep Sousa alive. Or is there another thread they’ll be after splitting the team between protecting the thread and Sousa’s assassin (I won’t be shocked if Sousa’s killer isn’t one we know from Shield lore either). Or are they just licking their wounds waiting for the Tide to open since their Space Weapon Mission failed and letting the Predictor (cough she’s an Oracle cough) monitor the timeline.

He was going to expose Hydra.

Again writers...NOT COOL. But I’m also already seeing that this is going to be something they can easily bait and switch. With the tech they have they can easily make it look like he’s dead with some sort of double and keep the real one safe and sound.

Tower of Terror anyone? Sorry, I’m really missing Disney right now and this SCREAMS that ride.

It’s just as hard to let a bad guy live as it is to let a good man die for the same reasons of preserving the Timeline.

So Mack has gone from ripples not waves to hey lets blow it up! And as Coulson rightly says we don’t know what impact allowing Sousa to live will have. If they leave Sousa there no way he stands by and lets Hydra eat out Shield and even if he stops just one of them the butterfly effect hits full force.

I do believe that Mack’s plan to preserve history will be to fake Sousa’s death and then Sousa tags along with them and can make a new life when they get home.

Interesting to have Jemma and Enoch, when he’s back, weigh in on something like this.

Mission fake Sousa’s death is a go. Also check off cool shot of team leaving the plane. May must be back on the Zephyr with Jemma, possibly looking into why she freaked out during the fight. Perhaps an opportunity for a “we had time” breadcrumb as well. Mack, Coulson, and Daisy with Sousa heading for that iconic hotel to meet with some big name yet to be revealed.

Mr. Fedora there just took out maybe Coulson? Or whomever Sousa was talking too leaving Daisy stunned, Mack is coming in. She might reveal her powers to Sousa and that will be a whole conversation in its own right.

Coulson filling Sousa in on all the not so fun stuff that happened, you died a hero, Hydra rose and nearly took us out in Season 1, good times.

Oh Yay, another new team up. I do like that Deke is getting out with the others and his chemistry with Mack is wonderful. Him with Elena will be very interesting. Deke again taking after Bobo bringing along a bag, this time with a briefcase.

Clearly following up on another lead, perhaps Sousa’s contact didn’t show kind of thing.

Well poop, Facey snatcher is back in action.

Calling that be either Hydra or the evil face stealing Chronicom.....or both. I have a horrible feeling its only a matter of time before the Chronicoms throw it all out the window and team up with Hydra to get rid of Shield once and for all.

And Deke again taking after Bobo and getting knocked out. Before he gets hit in the head he’s got his hand in fist so it looks like he’s about to run to Elena’s aid before he gets knocked out.

Hopefully the baddies just leave them be and don’t take them hostage IE them for whatever Shield has got, kind of thing but its wait and see. Also the Face stealy thing better be LONG GONE at this point. I am in no mood for an episode of not knowing who is who and who we can trust down the line.

Also Nana is not going to be happy if her Grandson comes back hurt.

Super excited for the different vibe of this episode. We know from the Season Promo that they do indeed let Sousa live and he’s along for the time travel party. I’m mulling how this will change some theories but it does definitely open a lot of doors story wise and how things can end. As I said above unless he get’s Tahiti’d and they have a good chunk of the time monolith they can’t take him back once he leaves, he’ll know and have seen too much...and would be being sent back to die.

He becomes like Deke a man out of time....yet also a man living on borrowed time who was supposed to die. That kind of set up also sets up him as one who could make a massive sacrifice down the line (you are gonna make my kids cry writers) or someone who could take over if Mack is indeed the one who falls.

#aos spoilers #promo breakdown #out of the past

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sassyduckqueen · 4 years ago

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Miraculous: Rise of Anatis 21

I really liked how this one turned out and we have an adorable moment between Lady Noir and Anatis. As a heads up peeps, Puppeteer 2 and Silencer will be happening a lot sooner than the rest of season 3 but as you know, I don't really give a crap about chronological order. I believe most of the episodes can be viewed in any order, expect for a few that are have some kind of chronological order. Anyway, hope you enjoy this chapter!!

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Chapter Twenty One: Prime Queen

"Tonight on our first edition on Face to Face, you'll have the opportunity of the lifetime! The chance to talk live with Anatis and Lady Noir, along with me. Nadja Chamack," The news reporter smiled on the TV as Tikki watched it, eating a cookie. Luka was in the shower and she had been watching some cartoon when this advert came on. Luka had told her about the interview but she wasn't sure if she agreed with it. "We'll be revealing some sizzling hot information about your favorite superheroes! Don't be bemused, it's just the news!"

"Sizzling-hot revelations?!" Tikki gasped, flying up as Luka walked in. He looked over at her as he dried his hair. She flew over to him as he grabbed a cookie. "Luka! You're supposed to be a superhero not a star! You're meant to be mysterious and elusive to protect yourself from Hawkmoth!"

"Hm?" He looked up as he ate his cookie. She looked at him with a worried expression. "I know that Tikki,"

"Are you sure this interview is a good idea?!"

"Don't worry," He smiled, holding out his hand. She floated down and landed on his palm. "I only agreed to it because it's an opportunity to reassure Paris about Hawkmoth and so they know me and Lady Noir will do everything we can to keep them safe,"

"Just be careful tonight ok?" She muttered.

"I will be," He smiled before rolling his eyes to the side. "But no promises regarding Lady Noir,"

Tikki gasped in horror as if she had forgotten that he wasn't the only hero to get interviewed tonight. Luka smiled a little as she froze in place, having a mini crisis. Probably realizing that Plagg would not as worried as she was and would more then likely encourage discord given his status as the god of destruction. Or least, Luka had concluded that, since he hadn't actually met the cat god.

"Don't worry, Tikki. I'll make sure she's on her best behavior," He laughed before his alarm went off. He grabbed his phone and switched it off. "Speaking of which, it's show time,"

"Already?" She asked.

"Yup," He replied, swiping his earring. "Tikki! Spots on!!"

A few seconds later, Anatis dived out of the porthole of the Liberty and swung across the city towards the TV Studio. He landed on the rooftops and ran as fast as he could before diving off and throwing his yoyo. It wrapped around one of the flag poles, using it to propel himself through the air before throwing his yoyo again. This time catching it onto a chimney. He landed on the roof and saw the TV Station in sight. He dived off the building. Throwing his yoyo, he wrapped it around one of the billboards before pulling himself up to the roof. He landed on the roof and pulled back his yoyo before clipping it back onto his belt. He walked over to the fire door and opened it before heading down into the building. He ran down the stairs before heading to the studio. He frowned to himself as he saw Lady Noir wasn't here yet. He walked over to Nadja, who looked up when she saw him.

"Ah, Anatis," Nadja smiled. "It's good to see you. Thank you for agreeing to this,"

"No worries, Nadja," He smiled before looking to the empty sofa. "She's not here yet?"

"No, not yet," Nadja explained before gesturing towards tea trolley as he took a seat. "Would you like some of the food before we go live, Anatis? Also do you want any make up done? Our team is the best-"

"Make up wise I'm good but I'll have some of those snacks," He smiled back before taking a small handful and eating a few as they started to go through the last checks. His yoyo vibrated as he took a drink of water. He placed down the bottle and opened it before typing back then he looked at Nadja. "She's on route,"

"Oh good," She smiled as the crew did their last checks. The door's literally burst open as Lady Noir came in. She ran over before jumping over the camera and landing next to Anatis, who was completely unfazed by her actions before she took a seat and grabbed the water bottle he was holding out to her. She unscrewed it and downed it before gasping for breathe.

"Thanks, Annie. I needed that," She grinned as he smiled gently at her. "Oh! Snacks!"

She grabbed a small handful as well and ate them as an intern removed the tea trolley before taking more gulp of her water. The camera men did their final check as Nadja held her earpiece as she listened to instruction.

"And we're going live in... 3... 2..." The direction gave the signal as Nadja turned to the camera and put on her best smile.

"Good evening. I'm Nadja Chumack and this is Face-to-Face," She stated into the camera. Anatis watched as she looked nervous before she lifted her hand and pointed to them. "For our first edition, I welcome the beloved guardians of Paris. Anatis and Lady Noir. Hello!"

One of the cameras panned onto them as they waved. Lady Noir had a nervous smile but she looked more confidence then Anatis, who wasn't quite sure what to do with himself.

"Thanks so much for accepting this exclusive live interview," Nadja smiled, gesturing around them before looking back at them.

"Thank you, Nadja... um... for having us," Anatis smiled as Lady Noir nodded.

"We're honored to be here," She smiled as Anatis played with his hands. "Hey Annie, why don't you say hi to your fans?"

"I have fans?" He asked, a little confused. Lady Noir giggled and gently nudged his arm.

"Of course, you do,"

"I'm sure thousands have tuned in tonight," Nadja smiled.

"Yeah, who wouldn't want to see their favorite bug," Lady Noir grinned before winking playfully. "Though everyone knows I'm the favorite. Right, Bugaboo?"

"I'd say so but I am kind of bias on the situation, kitten," Anatis smiled, making her giggle softly as Nadja looked at her wrist.

"Aha, ha, ha," Nadja faked laughed, making Anatis raise an eyebrow. "It's obvious the two of your are very close, right?"

"Of course, me and Anatis are best friends," Lady Noir laughed, leaning her arm against him as Nadja nodded.

"Right," She replied before looking back at her tablet then back at the superheroes. "People know you but we don't really know you. We see you saving Paris but don't know anything else about you. We know nothing of your passions or what you dislike. There are some rumors such as Anatis been scared of cats but other then that we don't know. Care to share any details?"

"Well, I'm not afraid of cats for one thing," Anatis replied, smiling before turning back to been serious. "But with all due respect, we can't tell you anything regarding our personal lives. It could compromise our identities. Even something that may seem trivial to others could reveal who we are under the mask,"

"I understand," Nadja nodded before glancing at her wrist again. She looked up and smiled. "How about we answer some questions from your biggest fans?"

"Yep, let's do it," Lady Noir smiled as Anatis nodded. Nadja switched an icon on her tablet, which opened a video chat box on the big screen. To their horror, it was none other than Chloe.

"Hello, caller. State your name and your question," Nadja stated as Chloe threw away her nail file.

"Really, Nadja?" She questioned, making the woman and heroes frown. "Who else would be the first caller but me?! I'm only the most prestigious fan of Anatis and Lady Noir!"

"Oh, yes. Of course," Nadja muttered before smiling. "Hello there Chloe Bourgeois, daughter of the Mayor of Paris,"

"Don't forget that Daddy is the manager of the Grand Paris Hotel, only the best luxury hotel in all of Paris!!" She declared, making both Anatis and Lady Noir sigh a little.

"Uh...thanks for reminding us. So what is your question, Chloe?"

"Oh, I don't have a question. I just wanted to say hi!!" She grinned, waving. "Since... as you know... we are such very good friends, Lady Noir, Anatis and I,"

Anatis waved back a little but quickly dropped his hand when he saw Lady Noir's expression. He frowned a little as he looked over at Nadja, who pulled a face as she looked at her wrist then smiled.

"Thank you, Chloe Bourgeois. Next caller," She stated, causing Chloe to start shouting that she wasn't finished before Nadja brought up the next call.

"Hi there, Anatis and Lady Noir!!" Alya grinned as she held up her phone. Anatis rose an eyebrow as Lady Noir froze in her seat. "I'm Alya and I'm wondering if you'll grant me an interview for the Ladyblog... you know since I get more views then Nadja,"

"Um... well... uh!" Lady Noir gasped, causing Anatis to smile a little before he turned to the call.

"Sure, Alya," He stated, making her gasp. "I'm sure we can arrange something,"

"That totally rocks!! Thank you!! Thank you!!" She gasped as Manon appeared on screen, declaring herself on TV. Both Nadja and Lady Noir gasped.

"Manon? But where's Marinette?"

"Oh, she's just getting us some snacks," Alya covered, causing Lady Noir to mentally breathe and for Nadja to look relieved. However, her facial expression changed to one of worry as she looked down as if listening to what someone had said to her. She swiped down on her tablet, ending the phone call before turning back to Anatis and Lady Noir.

"Uh... Anatis... Lady Noir..." She mumbled as she clapped her hands together. Her eyes flicker to the side as if she's trying to work out what to say before she looks back at them. "Um... so a lot of fans think of you as a couple of superheroes..."

Anatis felt the hairs stand up on his neck. He didn't like how nervous Nadja looked.

"But also and I quote as a couple," She stated, suddenly getting her confidence back.

"What?!" Lady Noir gasped as Anatis just stared in shock. When he agreed to do the interview, this was not what he had in mind. Nadja narrowed her eyes and looked ready to pounce. Her eyes were on the prize so to speak and the prize was their love lives.

"Can you confirm that you two are dating here tonight?" She asked, causing Lady Noir to stare at the sheer cheek of her question. Anatis cleared his throat as he looked around nervously.

"I'm sorry, Nadja but we are not here to answer such personal questions," He replied in a stern manner as Lady Noir nodded in agreement. Hopefully, that will put the idea out of her head. Nadja frowned a little at his answer. "Look, we really appreciate the invite to this interview and all but we only agreed to it so we can reassure Paris,"

"Exactly!" Lady Noir gasped, finally finding her voice. "We're here to assure all Parisians that they're safe and that it's only a matter of time before we defeat Hawkmoth. That's all,"

Once again, Nadja looked worried before she nodded her head.

"Ah, fine," She muttered, though Anatis had a feeling she wasn't talking to them. She faced the screen before swiping on her tablet. A picture of Lady Noir kissing Anatis appeared and instantly, Lady Noir sank down into her chair with a light blush on her cheeks but she also looked extremely embarrassed. While he didn't remember it, Lady Noir had told him why she had kissed him. "How do you explain this picture then?"

"Simple. That was the day that the akuma Dark Cupid made an appearance. As you can see, my lips in that picture are black," Anatis stated, crossing his arms. "Lady Noir saved me from him and that's all that is to it,"

"What about this one?" Nadja asked, changing the photo to one that looked like Anatis was hugging Lady Noir.

"That was the same day. I got hit one of Dark Cupid's arrows," He shrugged but Nadja smirked.

"You mean you sacrificed yourself to protect Lady Noir?" She asked. "That sounds like love to me,"

"No, it's called been a decent person and protecting my partner," He argued back, causing Nadja to smirk even more before she showed more pictures of the two of them. The next one showed him actually hugging Lady Noir. That had been taken after the defeat of Animan. She had jumped into his mouth and Anatis had been worried that he had lost her for real. The photo changed to showing them to flying through the air. Lady Noir was holding onto him as they did. The next photo showed her leaning over him. It had been taken when she had pushed him out of the way of an akuma's attack and the last one showed the two of them sat on a rooftop together. She was leaning her head on his shoulder as they just sat watching for akumas. Of course, it looked like they were a couple watching the sunset.

"It's so obvious that you're both in love," Nadja smiled. Anatis went to argue but Lady Noir shook her head.

"These are just a bunch of photos taken out of context. Me and Anatis are best friends and partners, not lovers,"

"Lady Noir is right. All we're doing is our job. That photo where we're sat on that building. We're looking out for akumas and trouble. The one that showed us hugging. That was taken after the defeat of Animan, which was a very trying akuma. In case, you have forgotten... to defeat him, I jumped into his jaws so of course, Lady Noir hugged me afterwards. She was worried," Anatis added before pinching his nose and shaking his head. "We save Paris together every day but that doesn't make us a couple,"

"You two practically are a couple," Nadja countered.

"No, we're not," Anatis replied back, standing up.

"Why won't you tell the truth?" Nadja gasped, looking at them.

"It is the truth, Nadja," Lady Noir added in, standing next to Anatis, who had his arms crossed and an annoyed look on his face.

"Come on... the audience awaits your answer," She sang a little but that seemed to be the final straw for Anatis.

"Uh! Do I have to spell it out for you?!" He yelled, clearly annoyed. "We. Are. Not. Dating!!"

"Come on. Everyone thinks that you two are a great couple," Nadja stated, ignoring his comment. "You don't have to be shy and lie about it,"

Nadja must of realized her mistake because she gulped a little as soon as she saw their expressions. Lady Noir's was one of disappointment and disgust but she had nothing on Anatis. To say, he was annoyed was an understatement. His hands were clenched in fists and he was visibly shaking as he stared daggers at Nadja. Lady Noir noticed and placed her hand on his arm, causing him to snap out of it. He took a deep breathe then turned back to Nadja with a cold stare.

"We are done. This interview is over," He replied, turning on his heel and walking towards the exit with Lady Noir. Nadja stood shocked for a little bit before shaking her head.

"Hey! Wait you two!!" She gasped, reaching out for them. "The show isn't over yet and your fans will be disappointed!!"

"If they're our true fans, they'll understand," Lady Noir hissed, making Nadja frown before her and Anatis when to leave. However, he stopped for a second and turned to face Nadja.

"For the record, Ms Chumack, I'm not a liar and I'm disappointed that you'd go so far as to suggest that I am," He stated then the heroes exited the studio, leaving Nadja alone.

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"Are you ok?" Lady Noir asked as they jumped through Paris. Anatis landed on a rooftop before sitting down, causing Lady Noir to sit next to her.

"I'm fine. I'm just annoyed that she was willing to do anything to make her show a success," He muttered, throwing up his yoyo and catching it. Lady Noir nodded, understanding his frustration. "Are you ok?"

"Hm? Oh yeah I'm fine," She grinned, knocking his arm with hers. "So people think we're dating?"

"Urg... please don't remind me," He gasped, rolling his eyes before realizing how that must seem to Lady Noir. "I mean.... uh..."

"Oh, you wound me!" She gasped, dramatically throwing herself against him as she placed her arm across her forehead before giggling and sitting up again. "Don't sweat it, Annie. I'm just not your type,"

"That's not the case..." He coughed, going a little red but before they continue the conversation, the big billboard screen suddenly changed to a weird looking woman with red hair and blue skin. She seemed to be wearing a shield over her face and her eyes were completely blue with a hint of pink. Her outfit was pixelated and seemed to have a pattern across it that glowed blue. It reminded Anatis of a mother board of a computer. Her hands faded into bright pink as did her shoes. Anatis instantly jumped up and frowned as they looked at the woman.

"Welcome everyone to a new show, hosted by me! Prime Queen!!" She declared before laughing. "Don't be bemused! It's just the news!"

"Nadja?!" Lady Noir gasped, looking at Anatis who frowned deeply. Prime Queen laughed evilly before looking back at the camera.

"Tonight, Anatis and Lady Noir disappointed all their loyal fans by refusing to admit their love for each other!!" She gasped, dramatically before jumping back and gesturing to a new screen. It suddenly turned on and showed Chloe in her bedroom. She gasped and stepped back in fear as Prime Queen faced her, holding some cables in her hands. "I've prepared some trials to see how they're willing to go to keep the truth hidden from us,"

The two heroes frowned as the screen briefly turned right then Prime Queen reappeared on the screen, holding a tied up Chloe next to her.

"Let's welcome our very first guest, Chloe Bourgeois!" She declared, gesturing to the audience before placing her hand on her hip. "Who's apparently a personal friend of our two superheroes,"

"I certainly am," Chloe replied, making Lady Noir sigh as Anatis watched.

"Just proves you can't believe what you see on TV," She stated, crossing her arms before flicking her eyes back to the screen.

"Well then, dear Chloe... let's find out if you really can count on them as true friends," Prime Queen stated before snapping her fingers. The screen turned white again before she appeared again. This time, Chloe wasn't with her. "Welcome to the subway of suspense!"

Horror filled Anatis' mind as he realized that Prime Queen was driving the subway train and it was more than likely that Chloe was trapped on it. As annoying as Chloe could be, they had to save her.

"If it reaches 70 miles per hour," She states as she points to the corner of the screen. A speed gauge appeared there, showing the train's current speed which was only increasing. "You can say goodbye to your precious little friend!"

Both Anatis and Lady Noir stared in horror as they watched the scene play out. It didn't take a genius to work out that Prime Queen intended to kill Chloe to get her ratings. She smirked as she looked down at her wrist. On the screen, they could see the rating gauge was in the yellow zone.

"Well, well. Look here," She smirked evilly as she pointed to her wrist, showing the bars moving up into the yellow. "The ratings are rising! More and more of you want to know if our superhero friends will get here on time! The suspense is... killing her!!"

She laughed evilly at her joke before turning back to the screen.

"Anatis! Lady Noir!!" She called out before smiling wickedly. "Are you willing to travel through the screen to save your darling Chloe?"

The screen finally showed Chloe, who was still tied up and trying to get some off her jacket. She faced the camera and pouted, clearly not happy.

"Lady Noir!! Anatis!! I beg you!! Save my jacket!!" She gasped before falling over as the train's speed increased. The two heroes looked at each other before Lady Noir took out her baton and extended it towards the screen. It went straight through, proving that they could go through it. She recalled it and frowned deeply.

"Ready to go through, Kitten?" Anatis asked, making her frown.

"It could be a trap," She pointed out. "I'd rather find my own way,"

"Agreed but there's a lot of subway trains in Paris and we have no way of knowing which one she's on..." Anatis frowned before sighing. "I think if we want to save her, we have no choice but to go through the screen,"

"Well, I guess we're about to be the stars of this show," She stated, spinning her baton. "I hope you don't get stage fright,"

"I was born to be in the limelight, kitten," Anatis grinned as the two of them stepped back far enough to allow to break into a run. Anatis looked toward Lady Noir, who nodded back at him before they both broke into a run before diving off the building and into the screen. Anatis grabbed onto the seating, catching himself as Lady Noir rolled and jumped up. She took out her baton as he took out his yoyo, spinning it but Chloe was frowning at them. They lowered the weapons.

"Finally! What took you so long?!" She shouted. "Hurry up and get me out of this underground nightmare!!!"

The train jolted, causing her to fall back down, revealing Prime Queen standing behind her on the other side of the carriage. Anatis frowned as she walked towards the other billboard, laughing before she stopped and blocked the door way.

"You're about to be the stars of the highest rated show in all of TV history!" She declared, holding up her arm. The gaude was moving higher as the seconds ticked on.

"The akuma must be in that watch," Lady Noir pointed out, causing Anatis to nod.

"I'll deal with her while you get that door open. We need to stop this train," He ordered, getting a nod of her. He flicked out his yoyo and span it as the two of them charged over to Prime Queen. Anatis throw his yoyo at her as Lady Noir raced to the door. Prime Queen jumped out of the way of the yoyo, causing Anatis to shatter part of the window before he threw his yoyo at her again. She slipped back into a screen, causing him to break it as she watched from the others. Lady Noir tried the door and frowned as she looked back at Anatis.

"We're trapped," She declared, causing him to look around in his luck vision but nothing lit up.

"The rules of my show are simple!" Prime Queen declared. "Admit live on TV that you're dating and are in love and I'll stop the train!!"

"As I already pointed out, I'm not a liar and I'm not about to start now!" Anatis growled back, making Lady Noir frown a little.

"I want my scoop!!" She growled, making him glare at the screen even more.

"Lady Noir, use your cataclysm!!"

"What if we need it later?" She asked, making him frown. "Like for an emergency?"

"Now is an emergency!" He gasped but she pulled him closer to her so she could whisper in his ear.

"Annie, we have to lure her to us first or we'll never catch her akuma," Lady Noir whispered, causing him to sigh. He knew she was right. "So let's just play a lot with her. At least, it will buy us sometime,"

"Meaning what?" He asked, looking at her. She winked at him then turned to the screen.

"Ok, Prime Queen... you win," She gasped, grabbing Anatis' hand. "Anatis and I are dating, like you said... we are in love..."

The train started to slow down, shaking the carriage and causing Anatis and Lady Noir to fall forward. His back hit the side of the train as she hit his chest. Her face turned bright red as she literally felt his muscles under her hands that were resting on his chest. She had tried to catch herself, which resulted in her placing her hands on him. He rose an eyebrow as she unintentionally purred.

"Did you just purr?" He asked, slightly amused.

"What?! No!!" She gasped, blushing madly as she pulled away from him.

"Our two heroic lovebirds are saving their fan's life by admitting their true feelings!!" Prime Queen declared, holding her hands together like she was happy. Her expression was one of joy and reminded Anatis of a fangirl. The screen then switched to a picture of their hands with several arrows pointing to them. "Our viewers are going crazy!!"

Anatis and Lady Noir frowned a little as they watched.

"But the ratings haven't maxed out yet!!" Prime Queen declared. "You must do better,"

"Why don't you come and join us then?" Anatis invited as Lady Noir grinned.

"Yeah, you're the host and star of the show after all," She added in, leaning her arm on his shoulder. "That way you'll have your ratings,"

Prime Queen went quiet for a second before tapping her chin. She looked back at them and grinned evilly.

"My show, my rules, Lady Noir!!" She declared, making both of them to frown. "To prove that your feelings are genuine, you'll have to remove your mask, which means you must give me your miraculous then you can treat our viewers with a sweet kiss!!"

"No way!" Anatis growled, stepping forward. "We're not surrendering our miraculous and we are not kissing!! Even if we are in love, that's not right!! We're not some celebrities to be gossiped over!!"

Prime Queen frowned and the screen turned black, causing Lady Noir to let out a sigh.

"Oh, thank god you're thinking on the same lines as me," She muttered before walking over to the screen. "I'd hate to have my first, real kiss projected on screen... it was bad enough that she showed the one from when I saved you from Dark Cupid,"

"Wouldn't that be your first kiss?" He asked, examining the screens.

"Oh, no. That was a peck," She grinned. "And it was to save you so it doesn't count. When people say first kiss, they mean a snog and trust me, that's what she wants us to do. Once we surrender our miraculous that is,"

"Wow... so you've never actually kissed another person?" He asked, looking at her. She blushed and looked away shyly.

"Well... no..." She gasped, looking back at him. "Have you?"

"Um... well.... no actually..." He muttered, going red and looking shy. "um... moving on... think the show is over yet?"

"No... I have a feeling that it's just beginning but if we can't get to her, we'll never catch her akuma," Lady Noir stated as the screen turned back on.

"My dear viewers! You're in for the reveal of a lifetime!!" She declared, throwing her arms out. The cameras panned out, revealing she was now the egyptian area of the Louvre museum. She opened the coffin next to her, revealing Alya tied up inside. Lady Noir gasped in fear.

"Lady Noir!! Anatis!! Help me, please!!" Alya gasped as she struggled before Prime Queen slammed the coffin shut before covering her mouth with her hand as she pretended to be surprised.

"Oh wait! Isn't this the girl who started the famous Ladyblog?!" She gasped, rubbing the lid of the coffin. "The first one to film the heroes of Paris?!"

"No! Alya!!" Lady Noir gasped, worry clear in her eyes.

"Next trial! Your miraculous or your biggest fan will soon be mummified!!" She laughed as the screen next to Anatis turned white. He looked at Lady Noir, who was clearly scared for Alya.

"Let's go and save Alya," He stated, taking her hand and giving her a reassuring smile before the two of them dived through it. Only the two of them fell into a freezer, causing them to shiver. "Not the Louvre..."

"She double crossed us!!" Lady Noir growled, yanking at the door before she helped up her hand. Anatis grabbed her wrist, making her look at him.

"We'll never get to the Louvre in time so don't use it just yet," He stated, making her frown as she rubbed her arms. "We'll find a way to save her..."

"Aww, don't make promises you can't keep, Anatis," Prime Queen laughed. "The time has come to push those ratings sky high!!! Let's try this again!! Remove your miraculous and reveal your true selves!!"

Lady Noir growled a little as Prime Queen held up her arm with the watch.

"The whole world is watching you," She declared before lifting the coffin and spinning it before placing it upright. Anatis frowned as he watched. "There's no use looking for a way... unless you want to see your biggest fan in deep water..."

She clicked her fingers and a small screen showing the Seine appeared on their TV. She spun the coffin again before pushing it back onto the floor, near a screen before smirking and placing her foot on the edge of the coffin. The two heroes gasped as she slowly pushed it through the screen that led to the Seine.

"Hurry up, you two!!" She sang as she pushed the coffin farther. "Don't want to keep your audience waiting,"

"You're right," Anatis replied, throwing up his yoyo. "Lucky charm!!!"

A tape roll appeared out of thin air and fell down. He frowned as he caught it.

"A tape roll? Your lucky charms get weirder every time you summon one,"

"Blame Tikki," He muttered as he looked around. His luck vision lit up most of the draws and the TV itself. Smirking to himself, he started to look in the draws for something, opening all the ones that were highlighted. Lady Noir blinked as she watched him. She shivered a little as she hugged herself, trying to keep warm.

"Please hurry," She gasped, looking back at the screen. Prime Queen was slowly moving Alya farther in the screen. "She's about to drop Alya in the Seine,"

"One minute," He declared, searching more.

"That's too long!!" She gasped, tears in her eyes. "You promised..."

"And I'm gonna keep it," He replied, searching them.

"I'd listen to the cat if I were you, Anatis," Prime Queen declared as she pushed the coffin more. Anatis ignored her and opened a draw with apples before rushing over to another one. He opened that then rushed over to the next draw and opened it.

"Volia," He muttered, grabbing the pizza box. He took out the pizza and handed it to Lady Noir, who looked at him questioningly as he walked back over to the tv. He placed the box over it and began to tape it to the screen, blocking Prime Queen's view. He winked at Lady Noir as he threw the tape roll, up and down in his hand before pointing to the side of the tvs. Realizing his plan, Lady Noir nodded and moved to the side of it. "Alright, Prime Queen, you win!! We'll remove our miraculous!! No more masks!! The whole world would see us without them..."

"And we're about to kiss!" Lady Noir chimed in as Anatis moved to the other side. "Such a shame you're missing it though!!"

"So unlucky!" Anatis teased before mouthing to Lady Noir. "When she comes through, break the tv,"

She nodded, ready with her baton.

"If you're lying, you'll regret it," Prime Queen declared before punching her hand through the pizza box. Anatis grabbed her arm and pulled her into the freezer, throwing her to the floor. Lady Noir used her baton to break the glass before walking over to Anatis.

"And now you're stuck with us," She declared, causing Prime Queen to attack her. She dodged her fist before Prime Queen tried to punish Anatis. He blocked her punch and pushed her back, allowing Lady Noir to grab her arm and used her body to bring her to the floor, pinning her down. Anatis stepped on the watch, breaking it and releasing the akuma. Lady Noir released the now docile Prime Queen and jumped up.

"Cataclysm!!" She shouted before placing her hand on the door, destroying it. She stepped out as Anatis followed her, along with the akuma. He captured it with his yoyo then let it go once it was purified before taking out the tape roll and throwing it up in the air, shouting the magic words. The roll burst into the ladybugs that swarmed around fixing all that prime queen had done and reverting Prime Queen back to normal. She looked around, confused as the two heroes fist-bumped each other before Anatis walked over to her.

"What happened?" She asked, looking around as he offered her his hand.

"You were akumatized," He stated, helping her to her feet before rubbing his neck. "Look, I'm sorry for having a go at you but you really shouldn't be trying to get us to confession to something that isn't true. We're heroes but even if we weren't, it's not cool to spread gossip,"

"I'm sorry, Anatis," She muttered, looking down. "I just wanted the show to be a success and then there was my boss breathing down my neck. She wanted me to do whatever it took to get the views but I ended up insulting you and Lady Noir..."

"Nadja, your show doesn't need false news to be a success and your boss shouldn't pressure you so much," He stated, placing a hand on her shoulder. "You're a good journalist and I know you can make it without sacrificing your morals. Though... I have an idea as to how you can have a successful show...."

"You do?" She gasped, surprised that he was willing to help her.

"Yeah... maybe you could work with Alya. She's got talent but could do with a mentor," He smiled as his earrings beeped. "Uh... sorry... I have to go!! Bye!!"

He ran out and left, leaving Nadja and Lady Noir waving before Lady Noir gasped her ring beeped as well, reminding her that she needed to go home and check on Alya and Manon.

~A Couple of Days Later~

"Don't be bemused! It's just the news!!" Nadja smiled as she looked the screen. She looked much happier then she previous was and her smile was genuine. Lady Noir smiled to herself as she sat on the roof where she and Anatis meet for patrol. She was watching the show through her baton. "Hi, I'm Nadja Chamack and this is Side-by-Side! Today, I'm joined by Alya Cesaire, who created the Ladyblog,"

Alya waved nervously at the screen as the camera panned over to her.

"Together we'll be looking back over Anatis and Lady Noir's greatest feats," Nadja declared as the camera went back to her. "Alya, over to you,"

"Hello Nadja! Hey fans!!" Alya grinned, waving again. "So, first of all, I've gotta the record straight... Lady Noir and Anatis are not a couple! Well... not yet at least! Sorry to break the news!"

"Is that Side-by-Side?" Anatis asked as he walked over and sat next to her. She paused the video and nodded, looking at him. "I'm glad Nadja got her primetime show,"

"And this time she didn't sacrifice her morals," Lady Noir smiled, kicking her legs out. "Sooo...I am your type huh?"

"What?!" He gasped, blushing as she laughed.

"Just before we got interrupted by Prime Queen, you basically said that I was your type," She winked, making him blush and groan.

"I was hoping you had forgotten that," He muttered, hiding his face in his hands as she laughed.

"Not a chance!" She grinned, nudging him. "D'aww... look at you... you're all embarrassed and blushy... I never had you down for been so innocent, Annie..."

"You're evil," He muttered, making her laugh more.

"Nah, you're just too easy to wind up," She winked but looking at him seriously. "But we could go out you know... I like you... you seem to like me... so..."

"We can't," He states, making her frown. "It's not because I dislike you cause I don't. Any guy would be lucky to have you but... I'm in love with someone else..."

"Oh... I understand," She mumbled, nodding. Of course, she already knew this but if she told him that, it would give away her identity as Marinette. "So are you with them?"

"Oh... um... no... I'm not..." He replied, sadly, looking down. "They're in love with someone else,"

"Oh, gosh. I'm sorry," She muttered, even those she already knew that. She also knew how hard it can be when the person you love loves another. She's been that situation twice after all. "Well, they don't know what they're missing! You're be a real catch. Handsome, creative, fun, intelligent!"

"Thanks, Kitten," He smiled a little, making her grin before she frowned. "What is it?"

"If this person wasn't around... would you consider me?" She asked, playing with her hands. Part of her was dreading his answer. She knew he would say no and mentally cursed herself for asking but she couldn't take it back now. He looked down a little before taking a deep breathe.

"I.. I don't know how to say this without it sounding insulting," He muttered, making her frown. Was the idea of dating her that bad? "You see it's not that I wouldn't want to date you, cause who wouldn't. You're amazing and honestly, if I wasn't in love with this person, I'd probably fall for you... but I'd never ask you out,"

Ok, that wasn't what she was expecting. She was expecting him to straight up say no and that he would rather die then date her. She frowned to herself, noticing that her self esteem was very low. She bit her lip as she was wondered why he would actually ask her out. He looked at her and sighed as she realized she had said that out loud. He played his hands and swallowed a little before licking his lips. He was nervous. She hadn't seen him this nervous before. He always seemed so chill and in control of his emotions. Sure, there were times when he got angry and he certain didn't do it by half but he always got his emotions under control.

"It wouldn't be fair," He answered, causing her to raise an eyebrow. "If I was to date you, I'd want to know who you are underneath the mask. Sure, I like Lady Noir but she's only part of you but I'd want to fall for the person beneath the mask. That person is the real you. Without her, you can't be Lady Noir and that's who I would want to be with but I'd want the same for me. I don't want to be loved because I'm a superhero. This isn't who I really am. It's just part of me. I'm only Anatis for a short amount of time, compared to my civilian self. When I go home after a fight, it's not Anatis who deals with the fact that I just had to fight a supervillain or that my partner took a hit for me. It's the person beneath the surface who deals with that and I'd want to be loved for them, not for some mask I put on so other people don't have to be afraid..."

"That's really deep," Lady Noir whispered, touching his hand as he looked down. For some reason, it reminded her of some that that Luka would say but the thought quickly got pushed to the back of her mind.

"But that's impossible with you..." He whispered, looking at the sky as she frowned. "We can never know who is beneath the other's mask so if I ever fell for you, I wouldn't tell you because it wouldn't be fair on either of us and that way Hawkmoth wouldn't be able to use it as a weakness. If one of us got akumatized then the other would be safe since we don't know each other's identities but it was a clever thing to do with Prime Queen... pretending we're in love..."

"It wasn't pretend for me," She muttered, making him sigh.

"I'm sorry," He muttered, feeling bad but she gently placed her hand on top of his, making him look at her. She smiled softly in a way that oddly reminded him of Marinette but the thought disappeared among the music in his mind.

"Don't be sorry. You're my friend above all else and I'm happy to have this time with you," She smiled, reassuring him. Normally, he was the one to say such things but it was a relief to hear her say it. "So this girl you love... does she know?"

"No," He muttered, looking down. She frowned at the answer before she wanted to see him happy. "I'm not sure she sees me... like she sees me physically but as long as her sunshine is there, I'll always be invisible,"

"Well... maybe you should tell her..."

"No... I don't think I could," He muttered, making her frown. "She's too precious to me. Besides, she would never love me the way I love her... what about you? You must like someone else other than me,"

"Well, there is two other boys," She smiled dreamily, making him smile. "There's both artists and very gifted at their chosen paths. Obviously, I can't tell you names or descriptions but one of them is so supportive. He always encourages me and we're very close,"

She blushed as she thought about Luka.

"I like him a lot... I like the other guy too but I can't talk to him. I always mess up my words and my clumsiness goes haywire with him but with the supportive one... it's easy. I can talk to him and I never mess up. He's so sweet and understanding as well. It's like he just gets me," She smiled. "I can gush about my passions and he never once gets bored. He likes my passion apparently. He even came with me so I didn't feel like a third wheel when I was helping a friend of mine with a girl he liked..."

"He sounds like a keeper," Anatis replied. "Why don't you tell him you like him?"

"Oh, well... um..." She muttered, rubbing the back of her neck. "Well, because I always mess up stuff like that... not that he minds when I mess up... he's even said it's cute..."

"That guy likes you a lot," Anatis pointed out, making her blush. "I bet he would say yes if you asked him,"

"Oh no! I couldn't," She gasped before looking at him. "You really think he'll say yes?"

"Yeah. You should tell him you like him at least," He stated, making her gush and blush. "You deserve to be happy,"

"So do you," She smiled before getting an idea. "How about a deal?"

"A deal?" He asked, wearily before smiling. "Let's hear it,"

"I'll tell the boy I like that I like him if you tell this girl that you like her," She suggested, holding out her hand. "Deal?"

"Ummm.... it might take a while for me to pluck up the confidence to do so..." He admitted, making her smile.

"Don't worry. I'm exactly the same," She grinned, still holding out her hand. "We have to let each other know that we confessed to our crushes as well. Even if they reject us,"

"I can't believe I'm actually going to agree to this but ok," He stated, taking her hand and shaking it. "It's a deal,"

"You won't regret it!" She grinned. "Hopefully, I won't either,"

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Next Chapter: Chapter 22

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klarolinedrabbles · 5 years ago

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What are some of the tvd to fandoms greatest hits so to speak... I was only in it for a short time and then jumped out because I couldn't stand to

Oh, well allow me to be your guide. This will be under a read more because I already know, I’m gonna write a whole essay. Shout out to my ride or die @hellsbellschime.

I don’t think any overtly crazy happened during the good!TVD years. No wait, I’m lying.

The year the spin-off got announced, I believe it was tvguide, that posted an article with like info tidbits for currently airing shows. And one of them, was that Hayley was pregnant with Klaus’ kid. I remember this shit so clearly, man. Everyone was so confused. And then they were like SURPRISE, APRIL FOOLS. Because it was in fact April 1st. So ha-ha we all had a laugh, great. Fastforward to what, late April? Episode 4x20 airs, and it’s exactly what happened???

That whole day btw, the day the backdoor pilot for TO aired was just insanity. I’ll say that about a lot of days in this answer, but that day was really just something else. Like we were delirious, that’s the only way I can explain what happened on here. It was a nightmare but also one of the funniest night’s I’ve ever spent on here. I gotta go back for old time’s sake and reblog some of the shit from that night because we all snapped. And not in the good way.

The TVD 100th. Now, we knew Joseph was coming back for that episode so they hype was real. Because up until that point, we’d gotten a huge load of nothing in regards to Klaroline. They released a trailer, a short one, that’s still in my favorites folder on youtube to this day. I rewatch it all the time because it’s iconic. And there was literally .002 seconds of Klaroline. It’s Caroline standing and then Klaus says “hello, caroline” and everyone lost their shit so much when it dropped that ‘hello caroline’ trended ww on twitter.

THE DAY THE NETWORK THAT AIRED TVD IN AUSTRALIA AIRED A PROMO WITH THE KLAROLINE KISS IN 5X11. ICONIC. I literally woke up, logged on at around 11 AM my time, and my dashboard was on fire. It was the BEST. We didn’t know wtf to do, it was amazing.

Paleyfest. Ohhhh buddy, lemme tell ya. So TVD/TO got chosen to have the CW panel’s at Paleyfest that year. Everyone was on a bit of edge because TO to that point was what, almost done with S1 and Klaroline had been given the mega cold-shoulder despite being the very thing other than the Mikaelson’s that got used to lure people in? After the pregnancy plot from hell, everyone was ready to peace tf out, but we got halted because it was a ‘ohh of course it’s gonna continue’ then they tried to nip Klaroline in the bud with 5x11 and no one was having it. So Paleyfest was where we were gonna get some ANSWERS, DAMMIT. I live on the east coast and the festival was held in the west coast so I wasn’t awake when it was happening. I remember making a post about how ‘going to sleep, and hoping when I woke up the answers were good.’. So I went to sleep, woke up a few hours later like 2-3 AM my time, and checked my blog and the first message I had was ‘don’t wake up stephanie, everything is a mess, stay asleep where everything’s fine’ I—

The gist of that was, they basically set JoMo up to be the bad-cop in shutting down Klaroline. He gave this long answer that made absolutely zero sense. The girl who asked the question about Klaroline, who was like 13 at the time, got called a bully for even asking a question at an event she paid to be at. A mess. And JP was like NO CROSSOVERS, ORGANIC, BLAH BLAH. And Paul was sitting next to her going “why can’t the show’s just intersect”, he was right and he said it.

I can’t remember if this was S1 or S2, but somebody tweeted something and Carina replied ‘when you’re found dead in your basement with klaroline written on you this is why’ or something like that, that was a ~fun~ night. And then like half an hour later she was like “I’m sorry, I’ll never tweet about Klaroline again just leave me alone” if you’ve ever seen this fandom refer to ourselves as basement dwellers, this night is why.

NARDUCCI. Can’t forget him. Talk about a man who just didn’t get it. And I don’t mean Klaroline, he just didn’t get anything, nothing in his head has ever clicked, I’m convinced. He used to pick fights on twitter repeatedly. Admitted once that he missed his flight because he was on twitter…arguing with a fan. AND ONE DAY, he decided to just—snap. Went on this hours long tirade against the Klaroline fandom, essentially calling everyone stupid because no one was appreciating the ‘art’ of the show. So when I say it lasted hours, I mean that. Now, you’d think, that he would be done, right? WELL, apparently that wasn’t enough, so the next day, he continued. I remember because I was in this gc on whatsapp, and I remember Erika sending a message to the gc going “omg, Narducci vs KCers round 2″ when I tell you I screamed. The man went on a two-day rampage against this fandom and it was insane.

S6/S2 of TVD/TO was not a fun time. I can genuinely say it was borderline a chore to come on here during that time. It wasn’t fun, every day someone was in argument with someone from production on twitter. Truly the worst year of the fandom, imo. So S7/S3 rolls around and that’s where shit went nuclear.

Hillary and I, are minding our own damn business, when someone come’s to us with information regarding the new seasons. This was post-SDCC, so it’s like the lull of September, waiting for the seasons to start in October. And we get approached with information, talkin bout how Caroline’s gonna be pregnant with Alaric’s twins in S7. When I tell you we didn’t know wtf to do. And we had to like wait on confirmation about it but then we found out it was legit and we were pissed. Literally ask us if we wanted to be in the spoiler game, the answer is no tf we did not. And she and I basically spent two days complaining. LIKE UGHHHH WE DON’T WANNA DO THIS, BUT ALSO THIS IS DISGUSTING, WE CAN’T JUST LET THEM SPRING THIS ON EVERYONE, BUT AGHH WHY US. So we chose collectively, as a duo, because das my other half yo, to blab.

That went over as best as anyone could hope for it to go. Now, flashforward yet again, this time to around late Novemeber/December. I had been sent word that something was going down. TVD/TO lost their Thursday slots and got bumped to Friday’s, so a plan was going on, and they made one. We’d heard that they were rearranging something mid-season because they were gonna make a crossover work, publicly we found out it would be Paul and JoMo that crossover back-to-back. THEN ONE NIGHT—I call it black friday bc that day was a fucking mess—, a friend of mine was friends with an SCer, I wanna say, and she was hearing word that the crossover did have Klaus and Caroline interact via phone call, but that it was very definitively an ending. Because they spoke about Camille and Stefan, etc, etc. Like a closing of the book type thing. So okay, we were like devastated, everyone on twitter was losing their shit. Everyone was pissed, and @-ing the writers all these crazy, sad things, we were a wreck. Ask Hillary about this night because she, I remember, describes it as ‘logging on and reading what everyone else had and not understanding why tf everyone was mad about it’. It was the first and last time that our roles were reversed, and bless her for it.

SO WE’RE SITTING THERE, it’s Saturday, and we kept getting more information and we were like…something isn’t right here. So we did a bit of digging, spoke to a few people and waited it out. LO AND BEHOLD, everything we’d heard about the phone call was false. There was a phone call but the CKers and SCers were so mad about what was actually said in it, that a few of em, ring leaders of the feeble minded, made up a version and passed it around their fandoms as legit till it eventually worked it’s way over to us. So we all jumped the gun on fake information, lmfskdnknsks. Rumor has it, you can still hear Hillary yelling ‘I told you so’ at me through our group chat.

So all was well, I couldn’t tell everyone why not to panic, just that they didn’t need to. Until, this account popped up called tvdspoiler or something on twitter, also saying false information about the phone call. Sending everyone into a panic yet again. I remember this because I was at kmart with my mom, and the kmart by my house was in a basement so I had no cell service. I was able to send like a couple of messages, and was basically like ‘tell everyone to chill, I’ll clear it up when I get home’ did that in like a couple of hours cause then I had to leave to the midnight showing of the force awakens with my friends. So that day was chaotic, but fun. It was the first time I reached 99+ messages on my inbox, lmao.

So that all happened like a good while before we actually saw the episode. But cut to a few weeks later. I woke up at 1 AM my time to drink water, was on tumblr trying to go back to sleep. I checked my inbox and there was this bizarre message talking about ‘got some scoop’ and they were like ‘Finn dies in 3x17, Aurora gets put into some weird sleeping spell in 3x18, Camille and Davina die in 3x19, Lucien dies in 3x20′ and I quite literally laughed??? Literally who wouldn’t. Like who tf would ever believe TO had the balls to do all of that when they never killed anyone off. AND, WHO WOULD BELIEVE THAT SOMEONE WOULD JUST STOP BY, SHARE IT AND LEAVE. So I sent a screenshot to Hillary and was like ‘yo did you get this because wtf’. We often got duplicate messages. And we often got messages of people who were pissed about the two previous times we, from the klaroline fandom of all places, had legit info that wound up being true, that they were just waiting for us to fuck up. So we used to get messages of people pretending they were sharing info, and it was just antis trying to make us look stupid.

SO, Hillary says ‘just answer it because it’s obviously fake’ top ten moments before disaster. I answer it and am like oh haha, and where did that info come from. And they came back like a minute later, saying ‘I have a source’ THEN THEY ELABORATED. They mentioned that Lucien drags Freya and Vincent to Mystic Falls to do this spell with some bullet and etc. So at that point we were like fUCK because that same day we’d found out was in 3x16, which ended with Lucien and this white-oak bullet, having kidnapped Freya. And that’s when we knew, that someone showed up in the middle of the night, spoiled the whole back-half of TO S3—and then left.

The back-half of S3 was so fun??? Every week the info just kept coming true. On the wikia everyone hated me, probably the most anti messages I ever had was during that time, honestly it was great, 10/10 would recommend.

THEN, at some point in our blog history, Hillary had been getting quite a few messages about PT. And she had this fucking line in one of the messages about Phoebe’s pronunciation with her accent for the show, or lack thereof. And she said “weeches and woves will always have a place in my heart” SO THEM PHOEBE TWEETED IT. THAT EXACT LINE, and we were like was she...? So we shrugged off okay. A few days later, she tweeted “hellsbellschime enough, there’s plenty of other things to watch on tv, I hear mad men’s great.” And I—

THIS WAS ON SOME RANDOM ASS SUNDAY. Like I was lounging around, waiting for the new episode of game of thrones and then WHAM, chaos. AND AS IF THAT WASNT ENOUGH, Leah joined in too. Putting a target on my friends back...about her blog that no one was making them read. You can’t make that shit up. And Jenn actually replied to Phoebe’s tweet and got a reply back, and she was all “you’re right, I’m sorry” and then deleted the original tweet, which I still have a screenshot of btw. And then Leah showed up in Hillary’s inbox with this ridiculous three part ask about how she shouldn’t criticize women in the acting industry because of how hard it is for women in that industry which is true, but it doesn’t make you exempt from criticism??? So not sure where she meant to go with that one.

SO THERE WE HAVE IT, our fandom’s greatest hits. I’m sure I can elaborate and insert more, but I’ve been typing for a good 40 minutes.

Told ya, I wrote a whole dissertation, lmaooo.

#Stephanie talks fandom #klaroline #Anonymous

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sunnygaybitch · 4 years ago

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Ok the ask got deleted so @thelxckblog asked me:

I WANT TO KNOW MORE. How is Abed with the rest of the losers??? How does the study group respond to Abed suddenly dating Richie TrashMouth- HOW DOES TROY RESPOND??? Does Troy think Richie is hilarious and is like Abed it's so cool you have this guy as a friend and Abed is like it is cool, but he's my boyfriend. And Troy is instantly /Cool! I hate him./

Here’s my response:

I feel like all the Losers would like Abed. They recognize him as one of their own. Like that meme: “self recognition through the other.” They were losers back in the day and proudly reclaimed the title, Abed was a loser in his school days and ended up with “self esteem falling out of [his] butt.” And I think Abed would feel the same way about them. I said before that when Richie, Bill, and Abed are simply coworkers, they’re friendly with each other, but aren’t exactly friends, because Richie and Bill (and all the Losers tbh) have a hard time forming connections outside of their little group, and because Abed has a pretty aloof manner. But when he and Richie start fake dating, Richie and Bill bring him right into the friend group. He’s going to have to spend a lot of time with Richie after all, and spending a lot of time with Richie means spending a lot of time with his friends. So in this particular scenario, with Richie and Bill greasing the wheels, the other Losers have a much easier time calling Abed an actual friend. Even Eddie, who is insanely jealous because he could have totally done this fake relationship thing, what do you mean he has his own shit to deal with that shouldn’t be thrown into a potential media circus, can’t help but like Abed. Honestly I might make a separate post detailing his friendships with each and every Loser. What am I saying, of course I will, or at least - I will if I remember to jskds.

Honestly, Shirley has no idea who Richie is when Abed first starts talking about working with him. All she knows is what Abed has told her, and she’s content to leave it at that until Abed invites the Study Group to his apartment to tell them that he has a fake boyfriend now, because while I think Abed would love the fake relationship trope and would want to carry it out to the fullest, I think he’d also want to share the adventure with his friends. Maybe Abed in the early seasons would have been happy to completely fool everyone, but 2017 Abed? Who’s gone out into the world and made his way and yet still thinks of his friends all the time and is still hoping Troy will one day come back? Yeah, I think that Abed would want them in on the scheme. Anyway, Shirley doesn’t know shit about Richie Tozier, but after Abed tells them of the Plan, she looks him up and tells Abed to be careful. Because while Richie Tozier has had a hard time of it, what with staying in the closet for 40 years and never being able to be true to himself, and he seems nice enough in person, if a little loud, well - her first priority is Abed, and if this comedian drags him down in any way due to his issues or the way paparazzi sometimes follow him around, then Shirley is going to beat his pale ass to kingdom come. She tells Richie so too, and he’s a little in awe of Shirley after that slkdfhls.

Jeff is aware of who Richie is in that way that you can’t help but be aware of some celebrities simply because they seem to pop up all the time. He doesn’t really care about him though - for real doesn’t care, not that “i don’t care but really i do” thing he always does - and when Abed starts working with him, he simply thinks it’s cool that Abed works with actual famous people (though he’d never say that in so many words). When Abed tells their group that he and Richie are fake dating, he’s highly amused and vaguely concerned, because this could go wrong in several ways. Maybe Abed will get too into the scheme and start to think he’s developing feelings, or maybe this comedian guy who’s never dated a guy, much less one as admittedly charismatic as Abed, will end up falling for him for real. Or maybe they’ll both end up falling for each other, only to have it blow up in their faces later, because isn’t that just how most relationships go? But in the end, Jeff does trust that Abed can handle himself, so he just claps him on the back and discreetly (but not really that discreetly) keeps a wary eye on Richie and Abed. Just to be safe. Richie just kind of takes this in stride and resolves to poke fun at Jeff every so often because it’s Jeff. He deserves to be taken down a few pegs at all times.

Britta is very aware of who the Trashmouth is. She was definitely part of a Facebook group that was just people dunking on him for his sexist and borderline homophobic jokes, and then when he came out, was briefly one of the people who thought it was fake before joining the increasingly loud crowd who said, “Good for him for coming out, but that doesn’t mean we should excuse everything he’s said before.” After he issues a public apology and announces that he’s turning over a new leaf, she decides to follow his official account on Twitter so as to keep up to date with all the Richie “potential bi icon” Tozier news. When Abed starts working with him, she manages to stop herself from constantly asking about him, though a few questions slip through here and there. She also finds out that Richie and Abed are dating before anyone else, because the first thing Richie was ordered to do after gaining a fake boyfriend was to post a coupley pic of them with an equally coupley caption. She calls Abed right away to confirm if it’s true, but he ignores her call(s) in favor of sending her a text telling her when to come over to his apartment, because he has some big news. When Abed says that it’s simply a PR stunt, Britta is very briefly disappointed before deciding that actually, the mature, good-friend thing to do would be to wholeheartedly support Abed’s decision, which you know, it technically is. But it’s Britta. She veers into overenthusiastic territory a lot, though everyone can tell that her heart is in the right place, so they just poke their usual fun at her and don’t give her too much shit for it. Richie, ever the Trashmouth, makes it a point to see how often he can get a rise out of her, much to Jeff’s delight.

Annie, much like Jeff, knows who Richie is mostly because she’s a person with an internet connection. She was never a fan of his former comedy, and when he comes out, she internally wishes him the best of luck and moves on with her day. She congratulates Abed on working with such famous personalities, but again, it’s not that big a deal to her. It’s when the fake dating starts that she really starts to keep a keen eye on Richie. Because Richie is 40 years old. Richie probably has several midlife crises under his belt, not including the one that made him decide to come out. Richie has nearly ten years on Abed, and yes, she knows Abed can handle himself, but she’s still protective of him, because he can fake his way through most social interactions but that doesn’t mean he’s really processing them in the moment. It doesn’t mean that he’s not going to end up hurt by an older man (kind of like Jeff managed to hurt her, and ok, she has long moved past that, and maybe Abed isn’t a fresh faced eighteen year old, but Troy was right when he said Abed’s eyes were gentle and mysterious. They make her want to keep him close and make sure that the only people that come near him are the right people, and those can only be determined with a complicated vetting process). But Abed still doesn’t like being told what to do, and honestly, neither does she, so she can respect that and she can respect his choices and be nice to Richie Tozier. But she’s always watching. Richie, who is more observant than he lets on, notices, but figures that as Abed’s friend, she’s earned the right to be cautious on his behalf. He’d do the same for any of the Losers, after all.

And Troy. Troy gets his own post dkfhs.

#it x community #richie and abed fake date au

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addytheheartbreaker · 5 years ago

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"Meet Bezai the Egg"

Name: Bezai Lebedev Cawthorn

Age: 26

Height: 5'9 ft

Weight: 60 kg

Mask singer belong to: Johnny Weir

Friends with: Doll, Dog, Rabbit, Ice Cream, Leopard, Poodle, Lion, Penguin, Bee, Eagle, Alien, Skeleton, Peacock, Ladybug, Purple Peacock.

Appearance: pale white slick side hair, white with gold rings eyes, gold eye-shadow, cheek bones, small beard, white painted nails with gray crack design and a slim but athletic body (figure skating body type).

Clothing style: his fashion design clothing, coats (mainly Russian, Japanese 30's - 50's coat style), fur coats, his egg sunhat, LOTS of bling and jewelly, eccentric or formal suits (Main clothing). Dresses (to his fashion design or Johnny's fashion design), figure skating suits and Johnny's fashion clothing (for formal, party and broadcast occasions).

Fun facts about Bezai:

•the eccentric, narcissistic, flamboyant, stylish and "all eyes on me" Egg man.

•Egg is born a American, Russian and French (his father is American-Russian while his grandfather is French) and he is Japanese ancestry from his mother's side.

•Bezai can speak Russian and French when he was just a child, he taught himself to learn russian then started understanding Japanese when he was 14. He also learned Japanese too when he was 16.

•He is an ally and one of the iconic people of LGBTQ with Leon and Victoria. His sexuality is gay. He is still single.

•Egg is a anime lover since in his early teens. He is a fan of Yuri on Ice and old anime style times. Him and Johnny talk about it on different times.

•Bezai had been keeping his sexuality a secret from public and from Johnny. Johnny has suspected from his behavior after he had found out he had suffered on keeping his sexuality a secret as Johnny was the first person to convinced him to come out and supported him since and today.

•the reason why kept his sexuality a secret is because he had been bullied since childhood.

•as a child, Egg is isolated and trying to fit in to many children and at school. He is an excellent and a honoured student which envied by many students as most boys bullied him. He is also been verbally harassed by boys by calling him homophonic names which is the reason on keeping his sexuality.

•hr started skating in age 15, he is a huge fan of Johnny Weir's skating performance leading him into interesting in skating and fashion.

•he is an egg lover who always eats and cooks egg related dishes. He is an excellent cook and Bezai eats and diet on a healthy lifestyle because of his skating career.

•He is not a fan of fast food because he prefer to eat healthier food. According to Bezai, he considered fast food "a place of wasting your health".

•he owned 4 pets at his mansion and had taking cared properly either himself or his servants. He owned a white stallion, a white snow fox, a Chihuahua and a swan.

•He is a iconic figure skater from Olympic culture, a fashion designer, a model and a interviewer of the Olympian Winter along side Johnny Weir.

•Egg has retired since 2016 due to his injuries gotten worse. But he can still skating properly and begin designing clothing and interview with several Olympian skaters to socialize and teaching/encouraging skaters.

•He had an accident during his skating performance since 2015. He got injured himself both his knee and hips when he is about to do the trick. That accident horrified Johnny concerning his safety.

•He has been pressured so much due to suffered anxiety issues and intense fear of disappointment/failure.

•when he pressured too much, he will 'crack' mentally. He is lucky that he hadn't harmed himself or commit recklessness.

•Bezai's mentor, Johnny is always worried of Bezai's health and his anxiety issues. Fearing the thought of Bezai doing something harmful to himself.

•He had bodyguards and servants to protect, escort and serving him because of his insecurity and needed emergency.

•Egg lived in his own mansion in the middle of a beautiful field, his mansion is a Victorian like castle, a farm for his vegetable harvesting (because of his healthy lifestyle) and his pet horse, a huge gym and a room filled with stuffed animals.

•he is actually a stuffed animal collector, he mainly collect panda, polar bears, snow fox, swans and fluffy and furry stuffed animals.

•Bezai has a soft spot for soft furry fur and he always sleep with a huge egg like bed inside a very soft cushions, pillows and a soft furry blanket. The reason why he is likes anything soft is because he is an Egg. (If you know what I mean)

•the reason why he is sleeping with an egg like bed is because he is afraid of getting caught by dust, germs and caught himself a cold. (If you remember the clues where Egg is inside a big egg container)

•He is a huge fan of Lady Gaga. He had an autograph from his favorite celebrity and he wanted the signature to his most favorite ice skating costume. He even listened to her songs and brought all albums.

•Egg is rocking with heels! He can wear them and dance with it like a real god he is. (Bezai: of course I can rock it, I'm fabulous!)

•He can wear both dresses and suits what ever he likes. If anyone dare to insult or gave him a homophobic insult at him, his bodyguards would murder/assassinated them. He will ignore it and do what ever he wants.

•Egg has a collection of champagne, he only drink it every weekends.

•Bezai and Nicol often compete to each other teasingly as frenemies. Because of the "their chemistry don't mix well" due to Dog's Gothic puck bad boy persona/style and Egg's flamboyant, narcissistic and stylish style didn't mix so well. Bezai often to teasing Nicol by smacking his butt, teasing him into something that makes him embarrassed and bragging for his closeness to Addy while Nicol often to do scare pranks at him (not too much or too far, but didn't do often because of Addy), fake threats, always pulled his egg hat and teased him about his favorite yaoi ships.

•Egg and Ice Cream are partners together before and after the Masked Singer. Because they both food related.

•Egg is really adored to Doll. Addy admired his flamboyance and stylishness (because I have a soft spot to guys with flamboyance and sassy attitude) and all his bling. While Bezai is being impress of Addy's talent, potential on fashion designing, her elegance and Egg literally saw Doll like a model.

•Egg really wanted Doll to become his model because of her beautiful features and body type. However, Doll doesn't wanted to due to my shyness and I had been told that I look like a super model. Bezai convinced me that I am until Nicol caught that attention.

•Bezai becomes Addy's fashionista/fashion designer, her modelling teacher and a good figure to influence her. Nicol proposed him to become Addy's influential to give her better confidence and helping her picking up clothes for her.

•His room when staying at the Masked Singer season 2 mansion, his room is of course Victorian like, pure white with a hint of jewels, ice, crystals and yellow. With his egg bed, fluffy carpet floor, his stuffed animals and mannequins clothing hanging beside his desk of his several designing clothes.

•Egg work out 4 hours every Monday, Wednesday and Friday to keep his body shape in the same body type.

•he owns two weapons: fork like trident and blades heels/shoes. He knows how to use it and he can fight himself for self defense. Despite he has bodyguards to protect him because of the concerning pressure, he can managed to fight alone or competing someone who challenged him or Egg challenging him.

•Bezai's powers is ice and his fighting style are swan technique style (it is actually flight, he prefer it to be called "Grace style"), agility and balancing (a fox style "skater's style") and some kicking attacks (using his blade heels/shoes)

•Egg is actually a friend to Eagle because they known each other in New York both are interviewers, Peacock since he is a fan to Peacock's performance in Las Vegas, Penguin, Poodle, Alien and Lion together meet each other at the gala every year then Leopard, Bee and Ladybug also met at the gala but the three both commonly have a royal like clothing together.

•Bezai met one of Addy's member from her gang. Narcis the Purple Peacock. Since 4 years ago before the accisent, they first met when Bezai is skating himself at the private skating ring until he notice Narcis's skating first and showing off his skills then the Purple Peacock is offering him a special free drink and complement his professional skating skills.

•the mysterious Russian Purple Peacock even gave him a nickname "ваши милости" ("your Graces" in English).

•Narcis is the one who helped the injured Bezai carrying him out if the ice. Bezai wanted to know who is the mysterious charming man and he also remembered he is actually a Russian man.

•Addy knew it because Narcis told her that he had met the iconic Egg man. He told her not to tell him just yet.

•Egg might have a crush on the mysterious Russian Purple Peacock.

•He CAN'T go out without wearing bling. (Bezai: trust me, I won't go outside the place without wearing my jewelry)

#the masked singer human au #the masked singer #the masked au #mask au #bezai lebedev cawthorn the egg #bezai lebedev cawthorn #bezai #masked singer

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robot-unicorn-attack · 5 years ago

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☽ FLOWER, 25

“ I said that I am a fairy and they prefer to dance and fly as a butterfly but they made me talk and walk, and I hate walking and talking. ” —Sasha Pivovarova ( like something out of the RISE script for “Flower” )

Real Name: AURA PHILYRA Agency: 𝑅 𝐼 𝒮 𝐸 (Sky World) FC: Ming Xi Unicorn Name: PAGEANT PRINCESS Place of Birth: Moon City

Appearance: While Aura has not permanently altered her looks in any way, “Flower”’s image can fluctuate because of the “holo-veil” the RISE team insists she wear over her face in public, and of course, while racing. It’s essentially an undetectable face-mask that plays off of and digitally alters Aura’s features to give her an exaggerated doll face- ranging from the intentionally synthetic-looking (ex. large doll-ish eyes), complete glitter/tattooed face or even a face-scramble that confuses camera lenses to keep people from taking images of Aura without the agency’s authorisation while she’s out and about. Her naked face is hardly ever seen.

Wardrobe: Whatever fits within what the RISE image consultants call “Pixie-bot” which verges on creepy, fake-y “living doll” territory but with a fantasy element given her pretty steed is a Pegasus model. They were considering “Loli-bot” for Aura early on- because of her age they were sure she could pull it off. Aura would have stomached the aesthetic, too, just to get paid. Thankfully, however, the “Pixie-bot” idea was floated due to Pageant Princess’ particular winged model.

[She’s definitely not against the pretty clothes and costumes- it’s the personality they want to go along with it that she dislikes.]

Places most likely to be found: Aura is either at the RISE training track with Pageant (practising or watching someone practise), asleep (snoring) in her teeny RISE apartment (the more important, the bigger the apartment- if that tells you anything), or since she’s promoting herself as Flower, RISE has her going out to club events on Unicorn City most nights.. and management says she isn’t allowed to drink anymore given her last indelicate drinking debacle.

People mostly likely to be with: On the training track, she’s most likely to be with RISE’s training team (mostly techies who might as well be speaking a whole other language to her when they go on about Pageant’s internal mechanics), but she doesn’t really care for them. She also sees her teammates- Supernova and Sunbeam- there a lot, but.. they don’t really care for her. Otherwise, Aura’s out in the City’s nightlife with strangers and the occasional RISE babysitter dragging her around by the arm to make sure she sees and talks to everyone she should be (and avoids everyone she should be). She really can’t even make a friend that way, much less a love connection, so.. Aura’s pretty much a loner, but not by choice.

Strongest character trait: of Flower: Sweet / of Aura: Obstinate

Public Image: Aura plays The Long-Legged Bimbo to Supernova’s polished Heroine and Sunbeam’s beloved Sky-Daughter personas. [And- those really creepy “robot” ig models that are really just like cgi ? That’s the vibe- that level of weird perfection, and just as superficial and ditz-y. If you’re going to “Twilight” a racer- might as well go all the way with it.] Her “role” among her RISE companions makes her feel like a complete joke, but she’s determined to be taken seriously by making herself into a winner.

Racing Strengths: Truthfully, there aren’t many by way of skill- just determination (and many years of tears of frustration). Dressage is a forte, with a big lean on Pageant who’s perfectly suited to the required elegance.

Racing Weaknesses: All of it. Everything. Slow, but.. still coming for you.

Personality: In reality, Aura is much more strong-willed and uses biting sarcasm with abandon. “Flower”, however, is the giggly, disarming costume that Aura dons publicly. Flower is confused easily, but fun-loving and excited to be where she is at any given time. She says “Oh !” in dreamy realisation a lot and smiles prettily even when she loses. But Aura, in private, feels a bit deflated, tired- maybe a little ashamed at what she has to do in order to stay relevant in the racing industry. Lately, she’s felt awfully lonely- because no one around her really knows her- but she tries to let it be enough that darling (though dumb) “Flower” is never alone and always surrounded by fans and icons.

Biography:

The eldest of five children, Aura grew up in the overcrowded rookeries of a little-known moon- whenever she talks about where she’s from, no one ever seems to know what or where "Moon City” is. So, to avoid long-winded (and perhaps embarrassing) explanations, she generally tells anyone who asks that she’s originally from Ice World.

Aura was “scouted” by a RISE recruiter at the age of sixteen while on a trip to Unicorn City with friends to catch a race- the first she had ever seen ! Apparently, the recruiter liked her looks, but that was just about all the “talent” she had to give at the time as she had never even touched a mechanical horse, let alone ridden one- forget raced ! But, desperate to leave the slums of Moon City behind her for good, Aura quickly signed with RISE and was almost immediately thrown into the deep-end with her horse- Pageant Princess- only to embarrass herself in her first televised race by dropping in dead-last. Aura hadn’t expected to win or anything, yet it was still disappointing, and her management decided to set her aside for a few seasons- to train her, fix her image, cultivate a fan-base for her through a commercial campaign for uv beauty products, and within the last year, little promos that depict her as living in a little virtual fairy cottage on Sky World that she only leaves to dominate the track with the winged Pageant Princess and to attend various high-society Unicorn City bacchanals brimming with beautiful, glowing people. So far, it’s been a successful campaign and her fan-base is rapidly growing. RISE fully expects Aura to be ready to race in this new season- and more than just compete, but actually win. And, really, that’s all Aura wants- to win and cement herself as a serious racer among her fellows...and make the big money to share with her family back home on Moon City.

Though the inability to live as her normal self has taken a toll on Aura over the past years, she has at least been able to comfort herself with the knowledge that she is helping her family- that she is making them proud by working herself to exhaustion to become better- the best ! She means to win this season, no matter what it takes.

Relationships:

Snow - Racer crush, actual crush. A much-needed ally on the horizon. Aura knows of Snow (who doesn’t ?), and has bumped into her at glamour events from time to time. They’ve only raced together once- years ago in Aura’s very first race (when she was a baby ((16)) !)- and naturally, Snow beat Aura...thoroughly. But that was to be expected. Aura’s followed Snow closely since Snow’s return to racing and looks forward to their next head-to-head.

Sky -

Ice -

Supernova - RISE “Teammate”. Aura idolises Supernova and has for years, but she worries (and would be so mortified to know) that her hero really thinks of her as a fool who’s only good for getting sad drunk (once !) at company promotional events...where Aura may have vomited in front of her... Aura hopes that winning more races will convince Supernova that she is the real deal ! (Her ultimate dream would be to have Supernova mentor her !)

Sunbeam - RISE “Teammate”. Okay, so Aura’s a little jealous of her because she’s the pride and joy of RISE and she seems to have the respect of Supernova ! And she’s pretty and talented ( unmatched technique~ ) and allowed to have her own personality- it’s too much for Aura to stomach sometimes. She really likes to avoid Sunbeam socially if possible.

Flame -

Nyx - **danger by taemin plays** Sol and “Flower” have met before, while Flower was relevant for a second as a teenager ( - they danced at a club the night before she finished dead-last in her first race ), but it’s been a while since their paths have crossed- though Aura is well-aware of Nyx’ success. Now that Flower’s back in the game, they’re sure to see each other more and more.

Widowmaker - Aura is sensitive to ~vibes~, and she knows there’s something with Eleni. “Just look at the way she looks at me...” And, you know what, consider Aura intimidated. But even though there is some miscommunication between the two of them (most of which Aura is not aware of), Aura isn’t confused about the sort of racer Widow is- and she knows Eleni’s not to be approached lightly...but also, like- “What did I do~ to catch that death stare ?” It does bother her.

Playlist:

sit still, look pretty by daya

favriel by grimes

alone by halsey

medieval warfare by grimes

i am the best by 2ne1

heavy metal and reflective by azealia banks

nightmare by halsey

**sweet dreams (are made of this) by emily browning

nightmusic by grimes, ft. majical cloudz

**from the ‘sucker punch’ soundtrack

Headcanons:

Owns Snow/S.C. merch- if Snow ever discovers the holo keychain, Aura will literally die of embarrassment. #aurivana

Her salary is meager- but that’s because she earns almost solely for RISE at the moment with promos and brand deals. Everything she owns- the high-end couture and jewellry and even the holo-veil- aren’t really hers- they’re on loan from RISE. And whatever coin she does manage to earn goes straight to her family on Moon City, so.. she’s almost always skint.

Aura’s RISE apartment is.. like a mouse’s hole, spatially. The bed is lofted above the kitchen area, and the bathroom is the only room with a door. A glass door- but it’s still a door. But the lighting is always an ambient, calming violet-to-indigo that reminds her of home.

If she were a vine she would be the one with the child staring down the barrel of a squirt gun and he just says “shoot me”.

Aura’s RISE handlers- it’s usually a big guy named J.J. who is really just a strong-arm type (which confuses Aura- like, do they think she needs a bodyguard or are they afraid that she might run away if left unsupervised ? It’s unclear to her.)- do not let her drink at parties anymore. Not only has she nearly vomited on an industry icon (and personal idol), but she’s also broken character (a big no-no) to tell off the son of some CEO that apparently wanted to work with RISE on a future endeavour (oops).

Yeah. She’s almost been fired a couple of times, but at this point, RISE has sunk so much money into Aura that, actually, the only fiscally smart thing to do is keep her around and train her up.

*Daydreams about Marivana* #secretsecrets

#flower #racers #pageant princess #racer info #aura #written by fanfan !

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letscuttothefeeling · 5 years ago

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season three episode one

Okay everyone, Siesta Key just ended and I must say – I’m overall VERY pleased with the premiere of Season 3. Even though I know everything that’s happening in this season because I created a reddit account specifically for access to a thread dedicated to all things SK, and because they posted everything that happens on the Siesta Key Instagram, I was still shocked by one thing: how much I enjoyed the episode. Let’s cut to the feeling.

Fade in. There he is – the mystery man I’ve been dying to meet – SCOTT. That’s right, Fabienne’s husband. You may know him as Juliette’s Father. Chic French queen Fabienne and confused husband Scott congratulate Juliette on her graduation from FSU and suggest she become an attorney. Juliette has plans of her own – retail. They look elated. After making a weird sex joke to her Dad, and having visible difficulty adjusting to her new veneers, Juliette has graduated, the scene is over, and I am feeling great about the season.

If you’ve ever watched SK, you know three things for sure. 1. Juliette is a hideous crier. 2. Canvas’ Mother has a complete lack of understanding when it comes to parenting. 3. Kelsey and Juliette do NOT get along. UNTIL NOW! It’s very exciting to see their first scene as not only friends – but also roomies! Even though Kelsey’s bizarrely shaped eyebrows, over plumped fake lips and orange spray tan make me feel like she must have NO real friends, because certainly, they wouldn’t let her butcher her appearance so thoroughly, she and Juliette seem to get along swimmingly by talking mad shit about Chloe. We love to see women supporting women by talking shit about other women.

Chloe, you minx! Chloe pulls up to Alex’s mansion in a Bentley toting about ten designer bags and a serious attitude. After she explains to his mother that she’s taken it upon herself to pickuppe some “luxury” clothing items for Alex in Sarasota, Florida, even though he’s quite literally in EUROPE, she also *subtly!* drops that he’s left behind his personal credit card for her own use. Weird brag, but more importantly: cha-ching! After talking shit about Juliette to a grown woman, they switch the conversation to Madisson’s new man. Queue Malibu by Miley Cyrus. Ma-jor props to whoever created the playlist for this epi.

After a stunning underwater montage from Florida to Cali, we see aspiring model/actress Maddison walking into a dinner date. Even though Chloe’s just gabbed to Alex’s mother that Braddison is no more, I still half expect BG to pop up and hold the door open for Madi. Just kidding, I don’t, because the producers of this show spilled quite literally every twist before it aired. Wait, speaking of producers – who is Madisson on a date with? Oh, it’s “ISH”, the FORTY-SIX-YEAR-OLD, BALD, AND OVERWEIGHT FORMER PRODUCER OF SIESTA KEY. Unlike Juliette’s father, Scott, I’ve met Madisson’s Dad before, so it’s not immediately apparent to me as to why she has serious Daddy issues. I’m hoping the root of this unfolds during the season. Ish, or “baby” as Madisson calls him, (again, he’s 46, so I’m not sure “baby” is the most fitting nickname, but to each her own) decides it will be totally normal to jet back to the key and surprise the children he used to exploit the cast with the announcement of his new relationship. I can’t wait.

Okay, we’re back at a dinner date – but a much more age-appropriate one between Juliette and her new man, former bachelorette contestant, Robby. I’m not a bachelor franchise fan and unfortunately for Robby, I’m NOT a Robby fan either. He’s not hot and he’s not cool. That’s literally it. Discussing this further would be a waste. Oh, it’s worth noting that new roomies Chloe and Madisson also meetuppe during this time to discuss Madisson and Ish. (Mish, if you will. Some prefer Dadisson.) Thank you, Chloe, for reacting to the news in a very relatable way by chugging alcohol and hiding in your clothing.

Um, who is this hottie emerging from a PJ? It’s the fabulous Cara, with a new nose! Normally I love to hate her - she has that je ne sais quoi – but right now, I just love her. Removing your nose job bandages on film is the kind of 2020 realness I need in my life. Enter G BABY! We’ve missed you and your utter lack of awareness, Garrett! But the love birds aren’t exactly happily reuniting – there’s def some tension in the air. Uh oh! Cara immediately becomes annoyed that Garrett both broke her heart AND kept his lips shut about her new nose. Poll – would you rather your boyfriend intentionally squeeze your fat as fuck thighs, or neglect to comment on your surgically enhanced face? The choice is yours.

While Juliette’s graduation party is great, if Alex doesn’t throw a start-of-the-summer rager, I’m suing MTV. More specifically, I’m suing YOU, Gary. Anyways, as Juliette and de ghurls are getting ready for the party, Juliette’s asked who she likes boning more – Boring Robby or shrek Alex. She hesitates for a moment but then says Robby. I take that pregnant pause as a confirmation of what I’ve known all along – Alex is great in bed and that’s the only reason Juliette was obsessed with him. (Edit – this has been confirmed on her Instagram story.)

Cut to: Cara, G baby, and Cara’s new androgynous and likely lesbian friend, Victoria, getting drinks. I don’t know what’s more confusing – the fact that Cara claims Victoria is her best friend or the fact that Garrett continues to piss Cara off by defending Kelsey while she incessantly brings her up.

Party time! But it wouldn’t be a party without Chloe intervening in something that has nothing to do with her in an attempt to destroy Juliette’s happiness. While wearing a Kentucky derby inspired hat/headband, nonetheless! Chloe and Amanda sit down with Boring Robby the second he arrives to grill him with some genual questions about his “intentions” with Juliette. And I can’t help but immediately think of that scene in Twilight when Police Chief Charlie Swan pulls out his shotgunné to intimidate his daughter’s 108-year-old vampire soul mate. Thank you, Catherine Hardwicke/ Stephanie Meyers, for this image.

At this point, I have to question Chloe’s sexuality because I can’t think of a single other reason as to why she would be so invested in Juliette’s relaysh with Robby. Is he a “phony”, simply using Juliette for fame? Maybe! But aren’t they all kind of doing that anyway? It’s like, they’re on a reality show for God’s sake. After Boring Robby says absolutely nothing of interest, (read: BORING Robby,) something actually exciting happens. Kelsey slithers over to publicly flirt with G baby in an attempt to piss off Cara, and it totally WORKS! Nice!

The second Cara sees Kelsey and G baby talking, her eyes fill with fire and she almost burns her new nose off. It’s funny that she portrays herself as such a sophisticated, cosmopolitan gal, yet she’s so blatantly insecure about trashy Kelsey and Garrett, the braindead body of meat, talking about absolutely nothing. Stop slumming it and start dating Zaddies like Madisson!

After Garrett tells Kelsey that Cara has banned him from talking to her, Kelsey marches up to Cara, grabs her by the hand, and you just KNOW the rumors are true – World War III is HAPPENING! Kelsey and Cara immediately establish that they’re not each other’s “kind of person”, and then Kelsey tells Cara that she can’t wait for Cara’s “life to explode.” Cara fires back with the ULTIMATE diss, claiming that Kelsey doesn’t even have her GED! We find out this is, in fact, not true via Instagram, thanks to Kelsey’s iconic photo of none other than GARRETT holding her on her graduation day. Okay, high school level educated kween! Go off!

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Here’s the thing: I dislike Cara and Kelsey, both for entirely different reasons, but IMO, Kelsey won this round. Cara came off as insecure, psychotic, and just plain mean! Cara, a word of advice? Stop gallivanting around tacky Florida and return home to America’s Kingdom – New Jersey.

Pay close attention everyone - we’re almost done and you’re about to witness reality show television HISTORY. And it is a BAG. OF. WEIRD. After Boring Robby buys Juliette a trip to Greece, Madisson and her new Dad man walk in, and EVERYONE IS SHOOK. Seriously. The cast is genuinely shocked. Please note their faces when Madisson and Ish waltz into Juliette’s grad party hand in hand. Arguably the most thrown off person of all, of course, is BG. He hastily confronts his former producer, and refers to Ish’s relationship with his ex as a “bag of weird.” Honestly, Brandon, I have to agree with you. And so does literally everyone else in the world.

After Brandon huffs, puffs, and exits, everyone gets over the initial shock of Madisson’s upsettingly old “boy”friend and the episode winds down. But there’s one twist. We learn via Chloe’s texts that Alex is on his way back from Europe. Probably wearing all the luxe clothes Chloe shipped him from Siesta Key. Because who trusts European clothes, am I right? Anyways, something tells me that Boring Robby doesn’t stand a chance once Alex touches down on the Key. But we’ll have to wait until next week to find out.

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uhhhhhhokay · 6 years ago

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Shows With Good LGBT+ Rep

Now for starters, I’ll admit that I do not watch Riverdale. I tried it, didn’t like it, that’s basically it. The show does have LGBT rep (but not ace rep), I would never dismiss that, but they make sure to do the bare minimum. Based off the people I follow who are fans, scenes for the characters, more specifically Chonie (Cheryl x Toni), are either constantly deleted or they are nonexistent.

They have romantic scenes together but not nearly as many as the rest of the leading cast. This matters because one of the girl in the relationship, Cheryl, is advertised as a main, but yet she’s treated as a side character, and Toni is given even less. From what I’ve heard of the show, they dedicate an immense amount of time to the pairings of the main characters, but this focus does not seem to apply to Cheryl and her relationship with Toni. This applies to them as individual characters and as a pairing, as I’ve heard that neither character get much screen time.

I understand wanting representation and I understand wanting to support representation, but the point that I’m trying to make is that Riverdale is not the show to put your desire and need into because they will never give the proper treatment or storylines that these characters and relationships they deserve. You can still watch but just know that there are shows out there with much better rep. So I’m here today, writing this long essay that no one asked for, to inform you guys of LGBT+ rep that actually gets treated well by their writers and is given the screentime and love they deserve.

Warning: Some of these shows have been cancelled. If they do not say they’ve been cancelled, then that either means the show is still going or that it ended on it’s own terms.

Also this list does not include shows with the bury your gays trope.

Feel free to add on! This list is mainly comprised of some of my favorites. I tried to very best on the descriptions but I am a tired student with little free time.

#1: The Bold Type ~ Kat x Adena

Kat Edison, the head of the social media department of Scarlet magazine, meets Adena El-Amin, a proud Muslim lesbian photographer in episode one. The two bond and grow closer and closer, eventually causing the “out and proud hetero” Kat to question her sexuality and acknowledge her romantic feelings for Adena. Adena, as I said earlier, is a lesbian and Kat is bisexual.

#2: Black Lightning ~ Anissa x Grace

Ah, the first black lesbian superhero! The second season is currently airing on Tuesday’s at 9pm on the CW. Being the daughter of the infamous vigilante Black Lighting has it’s unexpected perks, like having superpowers! The intelligent activist Anissa Pierce discovers her powers of super strength and decides to use them for good and defend her city under the name of Thunder.

Grace Choi was in a few episodes of season one, but her relationship status as girlfriends with Anissa in the comics assures us that she will be coming back and we will see her and Anissa’s relationship develop further.

#3: Doctor Who ~ Bill x Heather

Throughout all of time and space, these two manage to come back to each other. After being split up by an alien in ‘Pilot’, Heather comes back to Bill’s rescue in the season finale, kissing her and making her immortal, leaving the both of them to travel across the universe together. Their journey has sadly come to an end in the series, but it came to a spectacular and happy one!

#4: BBC Class ~ Charlie x Matteusz

Part of the Doctor Who universe comes Class, a teenage sci-fi drama that takes place in Shoreditch. Now, first I should say that this is one of my favorite shows and you don’t need to watch Doctor Who in order to watch it. It is its own separate show.

Charlie Smith, an alien prince from the planet Rhodia, comes to earth to escape the Shadowkin, the monsters that killed his race. Him and the only other survivor of his planet, Miss Quill, come to earth and are instructed by the Doctor to hide themselves as human. Charlie attends Coal Hill Academy while Quill teaches.

Once prom comes around, Charlie asks the Polish boy, Matteusz, to be his date. The prom is hijacked by the Shadowkin and it is revealed to Matteusz that Charlie is an alien, but he doesn’t mind because it does not change the way he feels about him. The two continue to date throughout the series whilst fighting off aliens with four of their friends and Miss Quill

This show has been cancelled, but audios have been made since then to fill in the gaps between episodes and there is a chance there might be more! Also there are three books!

#5: In The Flesh ~ Kieren x Simon

The dead have come back to life! Kieren and Simon are both PDS sufferers, meaning they have partially deceased syndrome, meaning that they died and were brought back to life. Series 1 is centered on Kieren Walker, a 18 year old boy who died back in 2009, who is adjusting to his new zombie life and dealing with the people who want him back in the ground.

In series 2, Simon is introduced as a part of an PDS activist who is fighting for equal treatment for PDS sufferers while trying to find the first risen to bring on the second rising. Connected by a mutual friend, Simon and Kieren are introduced to each other, and the two strike up a relationship which develops into something romantic.

#6: Faking It ~ Multiple Characters

In an attempt to gain popularity, Karma and Amy fake being lesbians, but after a kiss at the school’s prep rally, Amy realizes that she isn’t as straight as she thought she was. In fact, she is head over heels in love with her childhood best friend, Karma. She confides in the out and proud Shane about her feelings for Karma and asks for advice on how to get a girlfriend. This show, while not always perfect, is incredibly diverse. Amy is bisexual, Shane is gay, Lauren is intersex, and in season 3, Shane forms a crush on the new student, Noah, and after their first kiss Noah comes out as trans to Shane.

The show was unfortunately cancelled after three seasons, leaving much of the story still left unsaid, but the show still has an enjoyable and satisfying ending, even if it wasn’t the ending the creator wanted. The creator’s ideal ending, had he been given the chance to write it, was that Karma would eventually realize that she herself is bisexual too.

#7: Hit The Floor ~Multiple Characters

Jude x Zero

Junior sports agent Jude Kinkade brings basketball sports star Zero to LA on the promise to be a star. One night in a limo before Zero flies to an away game, Jude, to his surprise, kisses Zero. When Zero comes back, the two begin a friends with benefits relationship that develops into something deeper, and the two fall in love.

Lionel x Eve

Lionel’s sexuality has never been explicitly stated in the show. She had sex with many men and the majority of viewers assumed she was straight. That was until the cunning Eve came in. The two decide after a brief meeting to go and get drinks together which ends up with them having sex. Later, Lionel admits to Jude, that she has slept with many women before Eve. Their relationship is complicated and it’s much different from the other relationships on the show.

Jude x Noah

Due to the show’s unexpected renewal and switch from VH1 to BET, not all actors returned. Adam Senn (Zero) did not want to return, but never fear, because the show’s creator wasn’t about to let the beautiful Jude Kinkade go to waste!

A year after his break up with Zero, Jude’s best friend Lionel takes him out for drinks in the hopes to find him a hunk and get him laid. Later that night, Jude and Noah meet, hook up, and move on with their lives. Until the next day when Jude sees Noah at the Devils arena and finds out that the two will be working together.

Hit The Floor has not been renewed or cancelled.

#8: Wynonna Earp ~ Multiple Characters

Waverly x Nicole

i’m sure many of you have heard of these two, but incase you haven’t, let me introduce you to Waverly and Nicole! Waverly, the younger sister to the Earp heir, and Nicole, a sheriff at the Purgatory police department, strike up a romantic relationship after Waverly ends things with her shitty boyfriend Champ. These two are so cute and are head over heels in love with each other.

Jeremy x Robin

Jeremy is introduced in season 2 and Robin is introduced in season 3. After discovering a murder tree, Robin goes to the police station in search of help. Directed to Jeremy, Robin explains everything he saw, then the two go on a date to investigate the murder tree, and after that the two become boyfriends.

Warning: The show, while amazing with LGBT characters, does not treat their POC characters well.

#11: Brooklyn Nine-Nine ~ Holt and Rosa

Raymond Holt is captain of the 99th precinct. He is married to his longtime partner Kevin, who often guest stars on the show, and the two of them are truly iconic. Holt has fought hard for gay rights in the police department since joined the force. As a out gay black man, Holt had to fight and work hard to get to his position as captain.

Rosa Diaz is bisexual and she is played by a bisexual actress. Rosa is a secretive, hard, ruthless, and a soft bean of a character. She is one of the key characters to the Nine-Nine. She has yet to have a steady girlfriend but here’s to hoping that she will have one next season!

#10: BBC Cuffs ~ Multiple Characters

Jake x Simon

Don’t sleep with the enemy. New PC Officer, Jake Vickers, joins the police force and meets the well known and disliked solicitor, Simon Reddington. Despite the fact that they are on opposing sides that hate each other, the two begin dating. They try to keep their professional life out of their relationship to avoid conflict. But alas, that’s where the sweet angst comes in.

Donna x Alison

The time these two start dating it unclear, but when the show begins it is said that they’ve been together for a few years. They’ve been living happily together for quite some time. Donna is part of the main cast as a police officer and is given a lot of screen time in action. Alison is a side character who makes a few appearances throughout the show but her interactions with Donna are sweet, beautiful, and realistic.

This show has been cancelled.

#11: Shadowhunters ~ Magnus x Alec

Ghaad, these two are the best. A gay shadowhunter and a bisexual warlock fall in love. Malec has good communication. Magnus and Alec have their own storyline and a storyline with each other, making them both equally important and have intimate/emotional scenes. The show also makes sure to tackle harmful bisexual stereotypes. (Thanks to @spicychipsdemon for helping me write this one.)

This show has been cancelled but it’s being given a special to wrap up the story.

#12: Superstore ~ Mateo x Jeff

An employee and district manager meet at the Cloud 9 store during a strike. Mateo is a out gay man and so is Jeff, the thing is that his cannot date the employees at the store so the two of them keep their relationship private from the other coworkers, because they would not be able to keep it a secret from Jeff’s boss. These two are actually really cute and they’re hilarious and underrated to be quite honest.

#15: Orphan Black ~ Multiple Characters

Besides the white girl dreads, these two are nice. They are the sci-fi couple that beat the shit out of the bury your gays trope. A clone and a woman who is assigned to look after that clone, uncoincidentally meet. What starts as an assignment is developed into something much deeper, leading Delphine to realize she’s bisexual. These two are happily living their life making crazy science with each other.

There are more LGBT characters in the show. There is a trans clone but unfortunately he is only in one episode. One of the main clones, Sarah is revealed to be bisexual in s4 and her foster brother Felix, a series regular, is gay.

#16: Picnic at Hanging Rock ~ Multiple Characters

Three schoolgirls and their governesses mysteriously disappear on Valentines Day in 1900 at the infamous Hanging Rock. This show, while slow in some areas, transformed the 1967 book written by Joan Lindsay. What was initially about the disappearance of three girls and the attempt to find them was changed into a six part series about the repression of sexuality and expression of young girls. Miranda, Irma, and Marion, are the three young women that go missing, and they are all lesbians. There are two more characters in the story: Mike and Albert. They had a close relationship in the book but the tv show made their relationship canonically romantic.

The show does suffer in the sense that hetero couples that barely existed in the book get more screen time and make out sessions than they should. I included this show because character wise it’s so drastic from it’s original content and it ends up putting wayyyy more focus on the girls than the book did. It turned a simple plot into a meaningful story about gender roles and sexuality and three girls trying to break free of them and two boys falling in love and running away together. Not a perfect show, but damn if it didn’t do some things right. Still recommend.

This show is a miniseries. Unlike other series, it ends where the book ends.

#17: One Day At A Time ~ Elena x Syd

If you haven’t watched these two then I don’t know wtf you’re doing. This show is precious and they are precious and god just watch it already honestly. Elena is a lesbian and Syd is a non-binary lesbian. Once a criminal breaks loose and the two have to cancel their plans to go to comic con, the two are trapped in their home with the rest of their family. As the evening builds up, Elena finally gets the courage to kiss Syd.

#18: Crashing ~ Sam x Fred

This show and this relationship is f*cking wild and it’s amazing. The show surrounds a group of people who are guardians to an abandoned hospital and they live in it. Sam meets Fred on his birthday when the two are paired up for a scavenger hunt. They relationship is odd at first with Sam constantly flirting with Fred and blatantly ignoring his feelings for him. These feelings rise to the surface and force Sam to confront them when Fred gets a rich bf who wants them to move in together.

This show has been cancelled. The show does not end with a cliffhanger. The show does end with Sam finally leaning in a kissing Fred.

#19: Charmed (2018) ~ Mel x Niko

Now this show is only one episode in so who knows where this show and relationship will go but it’s off to a good start with having the Mel and Nico relationship as the only romantic relationship in the show so far. I did not pay attention to the advertising of this show but as far as I know the show kept this relationship under wraps as a happy surprise for it’s premiere. The pilot has it’s flaws but it is cute, and to me personally, it works for me better than the original. These two have been dating for a while. Nico is a detective while Mel is just finding out months after her mothers death that she is a witch. A lot is going on. The pilot was interesting enough to get me to continue. The sisters are amazing and I hope the writers keep this relationship up front. This show not only has a lesbian relationship as it’s main love story right now but the three sisters are all women of color.

This show and the actresses have been facing a lot of racist backlash so any support to ensure a future seasons be amazing!

#20: The Halcyon ~ Toby x Adil

(Ayyyeeee I got to use my own gif go follow at @tlmedits please)

Honestly f*ck BBC for cancelling so many good shows with LGBT characters. The Halcyon is a tv show that takes place during the 1940′s. Now, unlike many other periodic shows, this one is diverse, including poc and gay characters in the cast and giving them good storylines. The Halycon hotel is own by the Hamilton family, and Toby is the youngest son. Adil is a bartender in the hotel lobby. One night, while Toby is hiding from a woman his mother had set him up with, he runs into Adil who then kisses him. The two the next day begin a relationship.

As I mentioned before, this show was cancelled.

#The Bold Type #Black Lightning #Doctor Who #BBC Class #In The Flesh #Faking It #Hit The Floor #Wynonna Earp #BBC Cuffs #Superstore #Orphan Black #Picnic at Hanging Rock #One Day At A Time #Crashing #Charmed

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jakesuit0 · 2 years ago

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The Silent King Review

Finn and Jake do arguably their greatest deed yet, overthrowing a tyrannical king. I love how the episode nonchalantly starts at the end of his defeat. Have Finn and Jake overthrown other rulers offscreen? Xergiok the Goblin King seems to be driven solely by his power and control fetish. Specifically slapping. Specifically hams. Unfortunately it’s not consensual.

I should point out that Jeremy Shada says his favorite Finn line during the first battle with Xergiok, “wands are for wimps!”. It’s also interesting that Finn and Jake give Xergiok two black eyes. Unintentional foreshadowing for his blindness in “The Great Bird Man”?

I always wanted a “Finn rules the Candy Kingdom for a day episode”. It sounds like an obvious but interesting story. “The Silent King” is the closest we get to that plot. The goblins want Finn to be their new king. Finn reluctantly agrees. The goblins believe a king to be necessary at carrying out even menial tasks. Contradictingly, they don’t want the king to actually do anything.

Gummy the Royal Goblin Chief of Staff reads Finn The Book of Royal Rules. Apparently, the king is not all powerful. The goblins won’t even let Finn brush his own teeth. Finn’s refusal to follow these insane rules makes the goblins fearful that Finn is another rulebreaker like Xergiok who will slap them. Instead of giving in, Finn should have brushed his own teeth and then showed the goblins he would not abuse them.

Some of these rules are so nonsensical that I’m puzzled why they were even included to begin with. Gummy chews Finn’s food for him and I am SO glad that he didn’t eat it. That would have been so gross. Good for Jake for not eating it either. I totally could have seen that sicko doing it!

Finn sings an unmemorable song to get across his frustrations. Then, Xergiok returns with an army of earclopses. What a creative monster design! Unfortunately, the king is prohibited from fighting. That rule actually makes more sense taken literally. You need a king to be alive so they can make decisions and lead the kingdom.

Finn lays out his plan clearly. “If I defeat Xergiok as king, I can prove to the goblins that an active king can be a good king. But I can’t let them know ‘till its aaalll over.” Jesse Moynihan disliked this line but had to put it in due to network interference. According to him, the rest of the crew weren’t a fan either. It’s a very unnatural, exposition-heavy line. It’s unnecessary, we don’t need Finn’s actions and feelings spelled out like this. You can read Jesse’s full comments here: http://jessemoynihan.com/?p=2361

Finn puts a fake cardboard Finn on his throne. God, Gummy is dumb! To stay hidden, he forms the Jake suit with Jake! The Jake suit was an idea from season one that finally found a place here. It’s an awesome, iconic design. Finn and Jake defeat the earclopses by cleverly using loud noises. Finn does end up doing something weird with eating and swallows Xergiok’s wand. His wand looks sharp and painful.

Despite it being Finn and Jake who defeated Xergiok, the goblins still give credit to the (fake) Finn. Finn and Jake decide to just leave without revealing the truth. This is smart. If they want a king that does nothing, a cardboard box is perfect. The goblins have proved that they don’t actually need a king to function. Perhaps they just need the idea of a king.

The goblins clearly have PTSD from suffering under Xergiok’s rule. Gummy winces at Finn’s friendly rub. I take this as an analogy for someone who was abused by a partner getting into a new relationship. Even if their partner is great, they can still be triggered by certain well-intentioned actions. The goblins are constantly on edge that Finn is going to start spanking them.

I also see a political analogy about presidential power. America has had to suffer through presidents that have no problem using and abusing all the power they can to cause harm to the underprivileged (George W Bush, Donald Trump, etc). Yes I am comparing Xergiok to Trump! Some people are so traumatized from a president taking action for evil, that they are skeptical of a president using power for good (executive orders, public pressure, dirty parliamentary maneuvers, etc). The Book of Royal Rules just gives out more excuses for inaction (like the filibuster, the parliamentarian, adherence to decorum). It gives cover for a president (Barack Obama, Joe Biden) to do nothing, even if they could use their power for good. The goblins didn’t even want Finn to help a lady who was being robbed. The system and political advisors (ie Gummy) are constantly pressuring these figures to not act. Like Finn, they give in. Finn did the right thing in the end by finally fighting back. If you don’t use your power for good, terrible figures like Xergiok will try to return to power. You can’t stand by and let them happen.

Grade: B+

#adventure time #the silent king #finn and jake #finn the human #jake the dog

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smashingatsonicspeed · 6 years ago

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FINAL BASE GAME DIRECT THOUGHTS

Well, we just had our last base game direct earlier this month for Super Smash Bros. Ultimate. It certainly was a doozy, and for most probably not nearly as hype as the August direct nor of course the Smash section at E3. But we still got some cool stuff. And I’m going to give my thoughts on much of what we got.

KEN MASTERS, RYU’S ECHO FIGHTER

Ken has practically been confirmed since September with the birth of the box theory. Regardless on what the fate was of many of the rumors/leaks it just looked like Ken was really the only true lock for the game. He looks neat, I won’t use him more then Ryu personally if I had to choose between the two to play as, But I get why he’s here, he’s pretty much the original echo fighter when it comes to fighting games. Sakurai even points this out later. Perfectly ok with Ken’s inclusion, but it is admittedly hard to get excited over someone you’ve practically known was already in the game since September. He does seem to at least to be the most different out of all the Echo fighters.

INCINEROAR, OUR FINAL BASE GAME UNIQUE CHARACTER

The other character nearly as expected as Ken though not quite as long. And not exactly as hinted since in terms of the unique fighter on the Box theory there’s no pattern hinting at who it could be. It could technically have been anyone. The character also got people to doubt it’s appearance after the “Grinch leak”, some people even saying Incineroar may have been Leaker bait sent by Nintendo. But nope, Incineroar was the real deal. And he looks fun! A pro wrestler type character I feel will endear him to fans who aren’t as into Pokemon anymore but can enjoy his personality in Smash. It’s also awesome to finally have a feline character in Smash.

BOX THEORY WAS CORRECT, GRINCH LEAK FOOLED A LOT OF PEOPLE

With Ken and Incineroar in we do need to mention how that it is confirmed in fact that Box theory was correct. The pattern was suspiciously there for Ken, and the Gen 7 Pokemon had not been known yet and while the Grinch leak may have put some doubt. It’s hard to see why the Pokemon Company would miss the chance to add a character. But yes, let’s just say everyone who had their hopes high after believing the Grinch leak just got their hopes crushed when the stuff being speculated about the box theory from September to early October came true. Heck, even though I was one who lowered expectations because of the Box theory, I admit at the very least the Grinch Leak fooled me in believing that some of the characters would become playable. I never believed the leak fully since my brain felt it was illogical for 7 characters to be announced with nearly only a month to go. But stuff like insider talk and that mysterious plant item shown at Wendy’s Tailgate had me thinking that at least say… Isaac made it or something. Props on a well done fake by the leaker, it’s not easy to make a leak that would cause the debates of the century in Smash discussions happen. Of course I do got to stop short of thanking the leaker because if it weren’t for the Grinch leak there were actually people who were bringing their expectations low and might of not taken this direct as bad as a result. There would of still been a meltdown sure, but the meltdown would of simmered over weeks of box discussion. it was only made worse with the Grinch leak.

SPIRITS

Spirits is kind of interesting. It’s kind of another sort of event mode kind of thing with images of characters that you’re able to level up like in gacha games (Just without needing to pay money like the ones on Mobile phones)

ONLINE MODE

I often only use online to play with friends. But some of the changes to Online are neat. Preferred rules letting you more likely find someone who likes the same sort of competition you do. But might not exactly be perfect. Feels like the friend lobbies will be most preferable for many.

ASSIST TROPHIES

And here comes the final painful deconfirmations. Even the first one came to a shock to many since it happened to be Shadow the Hedgehog. Who of course was seen ever since Richter’s inclusion as a lock as a new echo fighter. And then there was Isaac, who looked like he was doing so well in the Ballot back in the polling days since he was missing completely from Smash 4. But he’s back… once again as an Assist Trophy. Spring Man who was thought to be certain for DLC is just an assist as well. (Rex might have been deconfirmed as well with that Mii costume during the DLC section)

But it wasn’t all sad deconfirmations. There was also fun new additions that probably are just happy to be there. You have a Fatal Frame protagonist, the Black Knight from Fire Emblem (Can’t wait to get screenshots of him and Sonic just for the Sonic and the Black Knight jokes), a Thwomp, Dr. Wily, Guile, and Akira. All awesome additions to the assist trophy line-up.

DLC CONFIRMED

As expected, DLC will be happening. The question is if this Fighter pass will be the only season of it or not. Also interesting to note that each fighter+stage pack is the same price as Ryu, Cloud, and Bayonetta. Possibly meaning that all DLC characters in the pass will be 3rd parties. Might not be the case completely but until we get a Nintendo owned character from the pass itself I’ll speculate that.

Though uh… I gotta talk about the one Nintendo character they’re offering as a free bonus until the end of January…

PIRANHA PLANT IS THE FIRST DLC CHARACTER

This was basically the point the Smash Speculator has either been broken or completely left my brain. Because under no circumstances of any speculation question about characters getting into Smash does the Plant meet any standards. For the first time ever, this truly is a joke/WTF character given to us by Sakurai. Even the earlier characters that were seen as joke or WTF characters had reasons to say they deserved to be there. But this plant isn’t even the most iconic enemy. It’s very much like Sakurai chose a character that goes against all preconceptions of Smash inclusion. I can’t even be mad, I’m too broken to be mad. I was just confused and laughing when it happened. I just hope the rest of the DLC doesn’t fall-in-line with this. That this is just the one troll move Sakurai pulls on us and doesn’t try again.

One things for sure though, I will never complain about Dark Pit again after this.

WORLD OF LIGHT

And while it’s certainly not quite as robust as we’ve been told it’s mainly an overworld and more fights. But we have our closest thing to Subspace in a long while. That intro cutscene we got might very well end up being the only real cutscene (Though I wouldn’t put it past there at least being a final cutscene at the end after beating the final boss) but was still great to see. And man it was like they Thanos snapped nearly the entire Smash roster except for Kirby. Perhaps my favorite part is Sonic slowed down to try to save Pikachu before both were blasted. My current main since Brawl, and my former #1 Main in 64 and Melee are a canon Smash friendship! ^^

But anyway, yeah it looks plenty interesting. I wonder if this will be the “streamlined” way of unlocking characters that Sakurai mentioned? Which speaking of which I was kind of surprised that wasn’t really mentioned in terms of unlocking characters which is weird since you’d think that is important in a game where you start with only the original 8 and work your way to unlock the rest. There are still kind of some unanswered questions despite this being the final direct. But I guess that will have to be saved for news publishers to talk about as we get closer to release and the NDAs start disappearing. And then of course the launch of the game itself

FINAL THOUGHTS

Overall, while again the character reveals weren’t as hype as before. I am still very much excited for the game and in fact already have the game pre-loaded ready for me to play on the very first second once midnight strikes on December 7th. We still have 6 more characters to look forward to play as or at least find out about next year as well. So character speculation isn’t quite over yet. But it will be pretty tight with only 5 spots barring a 2nd season being announced at some point. But right now, the game itself is important. And it’s nearly just a month away! Can’t wait ^^

#Super Smash Bros.#Super Smash Bros. Utimate #Street Fighter #Ken #Ken Masters #Pokemon #Incineroar

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A fumbled finale ends an almost classic season

As a character study of Andrew Cunanan, The Assassination of Gianni Versace has been a resounding success, but the other themes and stories attempted by the show feel incomplete as Alone brings season two to a close. I’ve been say for a few weeks now that American Crime Story has to address the failed manhunt for Andrew in the same detailed a nuanced way that it has approached the story of Andrew and his victims, except Versace. As much as I’ve loved the show, from A Random Killing onward it’s been exceeding my expectations each week, there has been that seed of doubt, a feeling of dread that the show had left itself with too much to do by having the manhunt be the main focus of the final episode.

It’s true that the mixture of luck, media mistakes, and law enforcement screw-ups have featured in more episodes than just the first and last, but they never felt as vital to the story as the investigation into Andrew’s motives, and the refreshing focus on the lives and connections between Andrew and his victims. Alone feels like a microcosm of this season’s greatest strengths and its greatest weaknesses.

Everything to do with Andrew is solid gold as usual. Darren Criss’ name is already on that Best Actor Emmy, especially considering that most of his screen-time in Alone takes the form of a one man show. The major challenge of this episode is to try and fill in the blanks between Andrew murdering Versace and his eventual suicide. Maureen Orth’s book Vulgar Favours tries to recreate the timeline through possible eye-witness accounts leading to Andrew eventually hiding in the houseboat but it’s still nothing more than vague speculation, supplemented by the media storm caused by Versace’s murder. Tom Robbin Smith, while being given a definitive end-point with Andrew’s suicide, has to fill in the blanks from point A to point B.

This is an extremely difficult task since only Andrew knows what happen during this span of time, and he took that information to his grave. This is where the realm of fiction comes in to pick up the slack. Obviously, some will have a problem with Smith’s direction here, especially since he uses narrative devices that to make the story a story. This lack of information means that this is no longer the Andrew Cunanan created through a mixture o0f fact and fiction, this is the fictional Andrew, and considering how well Andrew created his own narratives again and again, it’s really quite ironic that his story ends in this fashion.

So, here we have Andrew on the run. At first he is living off the thrill of getting away with murder yet again. His dream of being somebody is fully realised, with his infamy acting as a dark parallel to Versace’s fame. Versace was an instantly recognisable cultural icon, who was, like most high-profile celebrities, approached by fans (and fake Donatella’s) everywhere he went. Andrew is now just as recognisable, his past anonymity no lost because he has killed a celebrity. At first, with celebratory champagne in tow, he is intoxicated by this brand of fame. He is finally a someone, even if it means that he has no means of escape from Miami.

This feeling starts to sour almost immediately, as he binge-watches news coverage of his own manhunt as he is all but imprisoned in the houseboat. With his spree effectively over, the direness of his situation hits home. There is no way out, pummelled by footage of David and Jeff, with David’s father arguing his son’s innocence. It’s almost like Andrew is watching his growing psychosis on the small, and then larger screen. From appeals from his friends, and his father’s predictable betrayal, Andrew learns the hardest lesson of the fame he has been craving: that everyone wants a piece of him. Despondent and alone, with the police now crashing through the door, Andrew goes for the only option that makes sense to him by committing suicide.

Andrew’s last days are clearly the best part of Alone, it’s everywhere else that it stumbles. One of the most interesting parts of Vulgar Favours was the sheer number of Andrew’s friends and loved ones that came forward to make a quick buck. Modesto is clearly the worst of the lot, and he really was in talks to sell the film rights to Andrew’s story, but this is an avenue of the whole sorry mess that was begging to be explored further. While Judith Light makes a welcome return as Mrs Miglin share with both Donatella and Andrew’s mother’s status as the women left behind, American Crime Story never fully realised the potential of these characters.

As someone who can vividly recall Ricky Martin’s height of fame in the 90s I’m shocked at how angry I am about his character being so wasted. Antonio, despite the potential story possibilities of being Gianni’s proud boyfriend, the series squanders it while trying to land some shock value with his fictionalised suicide attempt. For the last time, I have to criticise the lack of Gianni Versace in this show. Literally the titular character, Versace was very rarely a character in his own right. Most of the time, and in Alone especially, he has been used as a parallel for other characters, but Andrew especially. His last act in the show is to symbolise the gap between himself and Andrew in life and in death. Versace gets a beautiful mausoleum to rest, and Andrew a mere paupers grave.

6/10 – The Assassination of Gianni Versace may not be in the same league as OJ, but overall it was filled with tremendous performances, topical if not fully realised issues, and one of the fully realised portrayals of a serial killer from series MVP Darren Criss.

Season Score: 8/10

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Mistake

“Had I known how much I’d be struggling right now, I wouldn’t have done it. Doing this was just one huge mistake.”

I thought I had it all. I know how cliché that sounds, but I truly did. I was thriving at work as one of the stars of a TV show entering its 15th season—Forgotten Ones; I’d also been a part of one of the biggest movie franchises of the 21st century—the Voyagers trilogy. My co-stars Andrew and Eric are more like brothers to me than anything. I was content in my personal life. Sure, I was single, but I had amazing friends, and I was closer than close with my family, despite the fact that I only got to see them a few times a year. I was happy, and I put some need to conform to archaic societal norms ahead of that happiness. Everyone I knew had kids, and I was tired of being “Aunt Naomi.”

I wanted to be “Mom.”

I wanted it more than anything. I wanted to get to experience those firsts: the first word; the first time they sit-up, crawl, walk; the first time they get their haircut; cutting and losing those teeth. Everything I’d experienced second-hand through the eyes of the parents around me, I wanted for myself. I was even looking forward to the 3 AM feedings and not getting a decent night’s sleep for the foreseeable future, the times when I’d try everything to figure out why they’re crying but would never be able to find the one thing that’ll soothe them, and always having some kind of spit-up on my clothes because all of that would mean that I was finally a mom.

In September of 2016, three months after my 30th birthday, Andrew and his wife welcomed their second child, and I decided I was going to try In Vitro Fertilization. At the time, the longest relationship I’d had in four years was a one-night stand turned occasional late-night companion, so a natural conception was out. I wasn’t a fan of choosing a stranger from some national database to make up half of my child’s genetics, so I had to bite the bullet and ask someone I knew. Really, though, the only one I’d felt comfortable asking was my best friend Matt. I was closer to him than anyone, and given that he was—in the iconic words of Janice Ian—“almost too gay to function,” there was no chance of any kind of romantic feelings making an already complicated situation that much more.

Matt and I had met 9 years previous on the set of the first Voyagers film. He and I were in the same place in our lives—feeling stuck in our day-to-day lives and ready to quit acting—when we were cast, and so we hit it off immediately. We were there for each other through every high and low life threw at us, like the time our co-star and my then-boyfriend Derek cheated on me in the middle of shooting the second movie, and I was then stuck playing his loving girlfriend for the next year-and-a-half. Matt was the one to encourage me to take on new challenges, and I would do the same for him. He let me write and direct some inconsequential skit he was obligated to do for some website because he knew how interested yet apprehensive I was in entering those fields. A year later, I made my writing and directorial debut on Forgotten Ones.

To say Matt was wholly on-board with a baby, though, is a gross overstatement. He’d just broken up with his fiancée of two years when I sprung the idea on him. I’d meant to do it in a more meaningful way and approach the topic gently, but one too many Jägerbombs during one of his visits to Vancouver in early December led to a very loud and very slurred “D’ya wanna have a baby?” He ended the conversation with a very firm “Hell no!” followed directly by another shot. I didn’t bring up the idea again until I visited him in Pasadena the next month.

“Matt, I need to talk to you.” The words fell from my mouth in a jumbled frenzy after what was supposed to be a calming deep breath.

“Oh, God. That doesn’t sound good,” he joked, jumping over the back of the couch to sit next to me. “What’s up?” I kept my gaze on the glass of wine on the coffee table in front of me and continued to fidget with my hands—cracking my knuckles, checking my nails, anything that got rid of even the slightest bit of the anxiety I felt.

“I want to have a baby, and, well, I’m not exactly swimming in romantic partners at the moment, but I don’t want it to be with some stranger and I just—would you want to have a baby with me?” I finally looked over at him as I cut myself off and got the question out. He was silent for what felt like forever, which only prompted me to continue my nervous rambling. “You wouldn’t have to be involved—if you don’t want to, that is. You could totally just be, like, Uncle Matt, or whatever. A-and it’d be through In Vitro, so you and I wouldn’t be doing it the old-fashioned way, and—”

“Okay,” he interrupted me. “I’ll do it.”

We had our first appointment to have the Intrauterine Insemination done four months after that conversation, in April of 2017. And the second two months after when the first didn’t take. And the third two months after that when that one didn’t take. Finally, in early September, those two blue lines appeared on each of the ten pregnancy tests I took. Just to be absolutely sure, I made an appointment at the doctors for the next day. The pregnancy was confirmed two days later, and I was over the moon. The more and more we tried, the more Matt came around to the idea, but I don’t think he ever seemed willing to take on responsibilities further than being “Uncle Matt,” which was fine by me. He told me not long after he agreed that he’d done so mainly because of how much he knew I wanted to have a baby, but he’d never had any inclination to have children himself. He was always one who didn’t want to be tied down to anything, which is why his engagement had been so shocking to me. I had never really expected him to want to be that baby’s father, and the fact that he was even willing to help me in this was more than I could ask.

Early on in the process, we decided that we’d keep it a secret from anyone who didn’t absolutely need to know. I didn’t want some second-rate gossip column telling the world before I wanted it known. In order to give them enough time to adequately rework anything they needed to, the first people I told were the stunt coordinators, wardrobe department and the writers on Forgotten Ones. My character, Carter, had already had a child five seasons back, and so everyone decided to work with the pregnancy rather than around it and end the season with the birth of Carter’s second child. My family was the next to know.

Christmas Eve in Bantam, Connecticut. I was already at the tail-end of my first trimester and eager to finally spill the beans. My family had always celebrated together on Christmas Eve, and so this was my one chance to tell everyone at once. I kept the focus of the announcement on my mom, though. It was her first grandchild after all.

As tradition dictated, my family always opened gifts from youngest to oldest. My uncle acted as the guardian of the gifts, passing them out when the time came for each person to open theirs. I’d pulled him aside before dinner to ask him to “overlook” a gift for my mom, and act as though he’d just seen it after my grandfather had opened his final gift. He followed the plan perfectly. Everyone was getting ready to leave the basement and go back upstairs for dessert when he found the final gift.

“Oh, Michelle. There’s one more for you.” He grabbed the box adorned with red-and-white-striped wrapping paper and handed it to my mom.

“Huh. There’s no name,” she commented as she looked over the box. For the last month, I’d been incessantly telling her that she, my brothers and I should all get brand-new stockings to hang on her mantle this year. And so, when she opened the box to find a note resting on top of some tissue paper reading “Make sure to leave a space for me on your mantle next year,” she rolled her eyes and looked over at me.

“Naomi, I told you I like the stockings we have just f—” She pulled back the tissue paper to find a “My First Christmas” stocking with the first sonogram sticking out of the top and another card reading “Merry Christmas, Grandma! I’ll see you in May!” She jumped out of her seat and, as everyone huddled around the box she’d let fall to the ground, ran over to hug me. With the same shaking hands and tear-filled eyes she was sporting, I returned the embrace.

Two months later, we found out we were having a boy. Charles Alexander Collins. Around the same time, I’d finally let everyone on set know about the pregnancy. The scripts with the reveal of Carter’s pregnancy were about to come out, I was starting to show, and I couldn’t let Andrew and Eric find out through deduction instead of through me. The three of us, along with their spouses, were opening a wine bar in Virginia, Andrew and Eric’s home state. We all flew down for the weekend to check on the progress, and so the boys could spend time with their families. I arrived to the bar half an hour before we had planned to meet in order to set up. I’d ordered a fake label off of a store online that read “Babyfeet. Sweet Spring Baby. Connecticut. May 2018” and put it over one of the bottles we were supposed to be sampling that day, placing that towards the end of the line. Everyone began to arrive soon after I’d let Ali, our bartender, in on the plan and ensured my stock of red and white grape juice were set. We all sat at the table, and Ali brought over the first wine. After a lengthy discussion of the notes and bodies of the drinks we’d sampled—of which I faked my way through almost as badly as April on Parks and Rec had—Ali brought over five new glasses, four filled with the white “Babyfeet” wine and one with white grape juice. We sampled, and Eric asked Ali to bring the bottle over. I had to take another sip of my “wine” to cover my face as she did and they looked over the bottle. Andrew’s wife Jennifer was the first to catch the meaning and, with a squeal of excitement, jump out of her chair and hug me. Everyone else was quick to follow, a congratulatory chorus echoing in the space. As I’d assumed would be the case, we didn’t get much done after that.

I had my first real confrontation with people who had a more negative opinion towards my decision when I posted a picture of the bump online that same weekend. I’d included a brief explanation of why I’d chosen IVF, and left it at that. Of course, there were the many excited fans posting positive comments and posts, but there were those ones telling me I was wrong for doing it this way, that I was “going to Hell and the baby would be damned.” So many people telling me they’d lost respect for me because I couldn’t wait and do things the proper way. I’d love to say I took those comments in stride, that I ignored them and focused instead on moments like when Colton, who played my son Noah, started excitedly making plans for everything he was going to do with his “new best friend” Charlie, but they got to me. I worried that Charlie wouldn’t get the same love from our fans as Andrew and Eric’s children got, that instead he’d be ridiculed for my choices. I was afraid for the future, how everyone I wasn’t close with would treat him when they found out he was different. I wanted to believe I’d be enough for him, but was that just false hope? It’s not like his world wouldn’t be filled with strong male and female figures, but did he need a dad to really make it? Was I just being selfish, and was that selfishness going to ruin his life? Even worse than the comments, gossip magazines began running stories, using me as the poster girl of “alternative pregnancy.” It was like I wasn’t a person anymore, just some idea people could lash out at. It’s not as though I hadn’t received my fair share of hate comments in the past, but all of this was different. No longer were they shaming me because I cut my hair shorter than they thought or dyed it the wrong color, things that were so inconsequential in the long-run. They were criticizing me going after what I wanted, condemning me during what was supposed to be the happiest time in my life because the way I went about it didn’t fit their cookie cutter world.

We wrapped shooting in early April, the last scene filmed being the birth scene. Given the current plot of the show and our setting in a post-apocalyptic world, Carter had a vastly different experience than I was about to have a month after. Instead of a nice hospital room with doctors and nurses galore, this scene involved laying on a dingy table in a dimly lit room with her friends to help. Still, when they placed the all-too realistic doll on my chest, it just made me all the more eager to get to do this for real and finally meet Charlie.

May 2, 2018. Three days before the projected due date. I’d woken up early in the morning to sharp pains in my abdomen. I made myself busy until my water finally broke and my contractions had gotten to that “every 5-7 minute” point at 9:23 AM, 5 hours after I’d woken up. Go time. I was out of the house and in an Uber on the way to the hospital in 7 minutes flat, a new record. I made it to the hospital in just under 20 minutes, headed straight to the Labor and Delivery area and was admitted to the triage room. The nurses decided the labor was progressed enough to admit me, and the next thirteen hours turned into an ice-chip fueled waiting game. I was alone in Vancouver, everyone having already gone home now that the season was over. Matt was in Louisiana filming his next movie, and my mom was supposed to fly in on the 4th. At around 11 o’clock that night, I finally began to feel like I needed to push. I called a nurse who, in turn, found the doctor, and it was time to go.

For the first few minutes, everything was going well. Then, I started feeling light-headed and more tired than I’d been all day. I chalked it up to the pain and continued to follow the doctor’s orders. Moments later, the machines I was hooked up to began beeping rapidly. The nurses and doctor began working faster to get Charlie out. Once he’d made his arrival, they quickly took him to the table against the wall. He wasn’t crying like he was supposed to. He was silent.

“What’s going on? Is he alright?” No one answered. I listened to the doctor’s rushed commands as they worked on Charlie, every word he uttered hanging in the still air of the room.

He wasn’t breathing.

It wasn’t working.

They lost him.

It was determined that the drop in my blood pressure during the delivery led to Perinatal Asphyxia. Charlie couldn’t get enough oxygen; he went into cardiac arrest and died on the table before I’d ever even gotten the chance to see more than a glimpse of him.

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“I can’t do this. I need to stop.” I stood from my chair, handing the baby to Andrew as the director yelled “Cut,” and walked off the set. It had been three months since Charlie, but the wound was still fresh. I’d erased all the social media apps on my phone, unable to let myself use the sites as distraction when I was flooded with notifications from people expressing their sympathy once the news broke. I appreciated the sentiment, but I couldn’t keep seeing that every day. I spent our hiatus back in Connecticut with my family and Matt—who’d remained my rock through this—and only made the decision to come back to work because I thought it would distract me. But playing a doting mother of a newborn when my reality was so far from that pulled me right back into those initial moments after I had Charlie. I couldn’t take it. The director called to break for lunch, and I sprinted back to my trailer, tears welling in my eyes.

I was in my trailer alone for a few minutes before there was a light knock on the door. I wiped my eyes but remained in my spot on the couch.

“It’s open,” I called out, my voice small. Our Prop Master, Cathy, opened the door and walked up the steps.

“Hey, hon. Do you want to talk?” She came over and sat at the other end of the couch.

“I just…I just feel so hopeless now,” I started, skipping any kind of formality. “Charlie was my everything for so long, and now I’m stuck with this huge emptiness. I don’t know what to do. I want so badly to go out there and keep going. Carter, this show, all I’ve known for 15 years is this. I don’t want to give it up but…I don’t think I’m strong enough to do this.” Cathy put her hand on my arm sympathetically.

“Here.” She reached into her pocket to retrieve a card and handed it to me. “This is a support group for women going through what you did. A few years ago, my friend went through this, and she says she wouldn’t have been able to get through it the way she did without going and sharing with the group.”

“Thank you, Cathy,” I said, looking up from the card. “But—”

“Just think about it.” She smiled warmly and, like some fairy godmother here to point me in the right direction, gave me a tight hug and left.

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“And, uh, that’s what brought me here. I have to admit, I almost didn’t come. I just had those nasty comments going through my head along with the thought that some paparazzi would catch me coming out of here, and I’d be ridiculed for not being able to handle this. But I know I can’t. And I can’t keep going like this, either. I mean, I was so happy before this. I can’t help but think that had I known how much I’d be struggling right now, I wouldn’t have done it. I would have just found a way to be happy being “Aunt Naomi;” I wouldn’t have forced this. I don’t care how happy I was through the pregnancy, It feels meaningless now; everything does. I just feel like doing this, trying to have a baby like this…

it was just one big mistake.”

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