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praetoravila · 11 days ago
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💬💬💬
from the new all over agin chapter:
"If you say so." He said. Olive nodded, and he looked at her out of the corner of his eye. They sat in silence for a moment. Finally, he spoke. "I really want you to be happy Olive." "Me too." Olive said, her voice breaking on the last word. Logan dropped her hand, wrapping his arms around her, pressing his nose into her hair. He breathed in her mango scented shampoo, and let her crumble into his arms.
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partiallypearl · 11 days ago
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💬💬 i wanna know what youre proudest of <3
apparently i have a ton of old abandoned pjo fics, so here's an excerpt from one i abandoned forever ago:
The thing about being a demigod, is that it takes everything out of you. Emotionally, physically, even mentally, you are left drained. You’re a plaything for the Gods to use, and when they get bored, you are cast off to the side and forgotten about unless you are strong enough to become a legend, to become a myth.  The path to that is even harder and even more painful in the end. Myths fade away, and legends, as much it’s fought against, die off. It’s how the world works. Or at least it’s how my world has always worked. 
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disxcoartz · 1 month ago
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HOW DID U FIND ME...
I SAW YUO ON MY RECOMMENDED BLOGS 2 FOLLOW LMAAOO
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nickssidewitch · 3 months ago
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First, y’all think Chris is some actual player who plays with girls’ emotions and doesn’t know what consent is.
Then, y’all think Nick is a wannabe gay misogynistic Regina George.
Now, y’all think Matt is some cold, manipulative, sadistic guy who’s intentionally rude to his brothers for his own pleasure or for the cameras.
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Do y’all actually like these boys??
Or do y’all only like the idea of the boys that you envision in your delusional imaginations, and because they’re not fulfilling your wildest parasocial fantasies, y’all start to create rumors of them being people worse than who they really are?
I definitely think it’s the latter.
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mtsodie · 2 years ago
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made them into gifs
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no-passaran · 25 days ago
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what are your favourite catalan movies?
I'm going to be very mainstream here but I loved Casa en flames (A House On Fire) so much. I think it's the best movie I've seen this year 2024 (not best Catalan movie, I meant best movie of any nationality). Btw, this movie is now available on Netflix with English subtitles! It's a comedy-drama about a family that meets in their holiday home before selling it and all the problems and secrets are brought up, revealing the character's insecurities. It's very well written and shows again how Emma Vilarasau is such an amazing actress.
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Another movie I absolutely adored was El mestre que va prometre el mar (The Teacher Who Promised the Sea). I doubted on including this one as Catalan movie or not because it's a Catalan production with a Catalan actor as main character representing a real Catalan man, but the movie is mostly in Spanish since most of the events take part in Spain and not in Catalonia, but I think it still counts. Either way, it's a beautiful movie and definitely my favourite movie of 2023. It's explained from the view of a woman who wants to find out what happened to her grandfather's family and ends up visiting a mass grave being dug up in central Spain (context note: the state of Spain is the 2nd country in the world —after Cambodia— with a highest number of disappeared people because of all the people in mass graves during the civil war and the early years of the dictatorship, thousands of families are still looking for their relatives). It leads her to uncover the real story of Antoni Benaiges, a teacher from Catalonia who was sent to teach in the landlocked Spanish countryside in the early 1930s (pre-Civil War). It's a very heartwarming antifascist story about what a teacher can be, about children's freedom, and a reminder of the importance of historical memory. I really recommend everyone to watch it. (The movie can be streamed in Movistar+ and rented in many other international platforms.)
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Other Catalan movies that I liked a lot are La Vampira de Barcelona and Salvador.
La Vampira de Barcelona (The Barcelona Vampiress) (2020) is a thriller with drama and some horror based on the real story of a woman who lived in Raval (poor quarter in Barcelona) who was accused of being a serial killer kidnapping children to use their blood in the early 1900s. I really liked this movie because I think we've all heard the legend but here the filmmakers went for a more historically-accurate version of what happened and how she was used, with a strong social critique, so it was a very interesting take on the story. It talks about very heavy topics though including children kidnapped to be forced to prostitution. (It looks like in some countries it's on Prime Video but I don't know what subtitles or dubbing it has been.)
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Salvador (2006) is a biopic showing the events that led the 25-year-old Catalan anarchist Salvador Puig Antich to be sentenced to death in 1974. It's been years since I watched it now, but I remember when I saw it as a teenager it impacted me greatly even though I already knew the story. (The whole movie is on YouTube but without English subtitles, for streaming platforms it's on Filmin but it looks like it doesn't have English subtitles either, but there are downloadable subtitles online.)
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junkissed · 8 months ago
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for 1k.. mtl likely to completely melt when u go into subspace and say "thank you" after your orgasm? 💤
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member — svt ot13 x gn reader  genre — mtl, fluff (18+) word count — 1.3k (each member has a paragraph) warnings — subspace (reader), just aftercare but there’s allusions to having sex (not explicitly described), implied that svt are dom/reader is a sub, all are gn except shua's uses “good girl” as a nickname notes — requested by @junhuisms for my 🐈 1k event — this has been in my inbox forever i'm sorry nhdnsjs. honestly i feel like all of them would melt but in slightly different ways so i did a little blurb for each. i hope you enjoy! <3
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1 - seungcheol
this man is the biggest simp on the entire planet and he would be so so good at taking care of you. i think it’s about 50/50 the amount of time he spends as a hard dom and a soft dom, but regardless of what activities you get up to he is the best at making sure you always feel good. he would melt the hardest on the nights he’s been a little meaner and a little rougher, because how can you be so sexy and so adorable at the same time, especially after you just came four times from his mouth alone? it boosts his ego so much not only that you trust him with all of yourself, but that you love him enough to say thank you afterwards? his day is made. his week is made. his whole year is made.
2 - seungkwan
he is absolutely obsessed with you. his reactions are always big whenever he's around you because he's so in love with you; you could be doing the most mundane thing in the world and he'd react like you just saved a burning building full of orphans and solved world hunger. he’ll melt over literally anything you do, but especially when you get that dopey smile on your face after you cum because your pleasure is his pleasure so your reactions only make him melt even more. he gets so caught up in how cute you are, he’d probably end up falling asleep with you tucked in his arms and forget to clean up.
3 - joshua
he thinks you’re just so adorable. most of the time he enjoys a little pushback when he’s fucking you; being a brat tamer is what gets him off, so he’s always making you beg him to let you cum. but he can never tease you for very long, especially on the times when you decide to be well behaved, so of course he has to reward you for being such a good girl for him. he lives on giving and receiving praise so he’d be thanking you too for letting him take care of you like this.
4 - mingyu
he completely melts. literally reduced to a puddle on the floor or the bed. he would get the biggest puppy eyes and be so pouty because he’s so whipped and he believes you shouldn’t ever have to do any work. he’s the one who needs to be thanking you, actually, because he's so honored that someone as beautiful and perfect as you decided to choose him of all people. he will give you anything and everything you could ever need because he doesn't want you to have a single care in the world, especially when you're being so sweet clinging to his arms. he may not be perfect but he's going to try his damn hardest to make sure he truly earns your thankfulness.
5 - jun
he’d start smiling and giggling, and he wouldn’t stop until you came back out of subspace. he would also get super clingy and hold you close to his chest and stroke your hair and grin uncontrollably. he’d give you the sweetest “you’re welcome” you’ve ever heard and just keep praising you for being so darn cute. he is the snuggliest boy and his aftercare would be the softest and best part of the whole experience.
6 - hoshi
everything about him is intense, especially when you’re in subspace. he fucks you hard and loves you even harder, so when you thank him after your orgasm it would make him so happy and he’d love you even more than before (if that’s even possible). he thinks your reactions are the cutest thing in the world and once you come out of that headspace he’d be begging for another round just so he can see you like that again.
7 - jeonghan
he’d mostly be cocky and proud of himself for making you feel so good, but deep down he'd be so giddy about your reaction. he doesn’t always explicitly say it or show it, but you’re so precious to him and all he really wants is for you to be satisfied and happy. he would absolutely tease you later about thanking him, but inside he’d be blushing and hoping it’s something that’ll become a habit of yours. he’s a fiend for praise and would want to get you there all the time.
8 - seokmin
he has hearts and stars in his eyes for you on a normal day, so it’d only increase when you’re in subspace. he’d get all blushy and embarrassed and tell you not to worry about it because it’s his job to make you feel good, so there’s no need to thank him. he’d wrap you up in blankets if you’re too cold and he’d put a cool washcloth on your forehead if you’re too hot and he’d coo over you with the purest little smile on his face.
9 - minghao
he gets so soft and he would be so gentle with you. even if he'd been a hard dom earlier, he'll flip on a dime as soon as he notices you in subspace. the responsible dom in him comes out and he tries not to dwell on how cute you look because instead he's busy making sure you’re feeling comfortable and safe and loved, bringing you water and helping you calm down. he’d melt at your reaction, but in more of a protective way because he’s not gonna let anything happen to his baby. 
10 - wonwoo
he wouldn’t not be into it exactly, but he wouldn’t have as much of a big reaction as the other members. he’d mostly be proud of himself for being able to satisfy you so well, and he’d be ready to give you whatever else you asked for or what you needed. he knows what his job is and he does it well. he smiles when he thinks you're not looking or when you aren't paying attention and the sight of you makes him feel warm inside.
11 - woozi
he wouldn't melt so much as he would just be fond of you. he’d smile at you, let you rest on his lap and play with your hair until you come back to him. he's usually quiet, not making a lot of noise unless you ask him to, but when you tell him “thank you” he'll hum and blush a little to let you know he's listening and that he appreciates you.
12 - chan
he would love it when you go into your subspace, but at the same time i think he would get a little panicky. it’s a lot of responsibility to take care of you when you’re so vulnerable, and he would be so focused on that that he’d forget to think about his own feelings. he would still adore you and how cute you are, but it would be more at the back of his mind.
13 - vernon
quite honestly i don't think he'd even notice when you're in subspace. looking back later he might realize you were suddenly acting a little calmer and a little clingier, but he wouldn't treat you any differently than he normally does. he loves you and thinks you're cute all the time, why would he be any different now? he's just happy to be along for the ride, but he won't deny it feels good to be thanked, even if he thinks he hasn't really done much.
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praetoravila · 11 days ago
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from the newest chapter of all over again:
"I know." She looked down at her hands, at the sage green nail polish that coated her fingers. "I know. I just. I don't know how to tell them no, without y'know... disappointing them." "Sounds to me like they disappointed you first." Mr Simon said. It was true, Olive knew that. Didn't mean it didn't hurt hearing it. "If you can find a way out of it, then find a way. If not? I say you make the best of the cards you've been dealt. You're a smart girl, toots. Smarter than you think. Your past doesn't have to define your future."
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partiallypearl · 11 days ago
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💬💬💬💬💬💬💬 please 🥺
hi jaque! here's an excerpt from an old percy jackson teen wolf au i wrote literally almost a decade ago that i just refound:
also tagging: @spidersverse and @1ooo-w0rds
Suddenly, without warning, he was pushed to the ground, rough paws ripping through his sweatshirt and digging into his skin. “Get off me!” Frank screamed, but the creature did not move off him, instead, it ripped his sweatshirt open more and sunk its sharp teeth into the skin right above his hip. A sharp pain shot up Frank’s side, and his eyes began to water immediately. The pain was worse than burning himself, or even the pain he had felt when he broke his arm back in the 8th grade. “Holy shit!” Frank cursed under his breath, as the creature stood up, it’s ears perking up as it gave him a look before running off.  “Ow,” Frank mumbled, as he attempted to staunch the wound, which had begun to bleed profusely. Groaning, he managed to pull himself off of the ground, using a low hanging branch to stabilize himself. Cursing under his breath, he stood up and began to slowly walk. “I’m never letting Leo drag me into the woods again,” Frank grumbled to himself, his hand still placed protectively over his side, as he pushed tree branches out of the way, with his other hand.
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disxcoartz · 2 days ago
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I wasn't a fan of smokeydonuts until I saw ur art .... you opened my eyes bro thank yoy
THE DISEASE SPREADS FURTHER!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bur also thank u this means a lot…… they’re my favourite pairing ever and I’m glad my art of them is able to make others happy as well as myself :)
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gutterfuuck · 4 months ago
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⋆˚࿔ bathroom bitch — ! 𝜗𝜚˚⋆
so… mark x reader x rex… hear me out guys… (this is just a short drabble hehe…)
cw: mdni, smut, college au, bully!reader n bully!rex, mark is a loser… nerdy baby… subby… semi public sex(?) (in a bathroom/changing room type of deal), dubcon, reader and rex are fwp type situation, forced bi, f/m/m 3sum, usual sparkie content stuffs, lmk if i missed anything 2 tag!
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you loved to pick on him, loved to shove him in the lockers and push his books out of his hands and insult his interests… you loved to torment and degrade him and you especially loved it when your partner in crime, rex, would join in too.
“you’re doing this, you can write for three, right mark?” in relation to the project you were supposed to be doing
“c’mon, grayson. you don’t wanna be late for the lecture, right?” when you and rex held him up in the hallway on his way to his lecture because he wouldn’t hand over any spare money he might’ve had in his wallet.
it was a nightmare, he couldn’t escape either of you, couldn’t escape your taunts or teases, even while walking through the halls, even while he was trying to shower.
that was why he was in this predicament in the first place, standing as still as a statue as he peered around the corner from the changing room showers, watching as rex crashed his hips into yours… you had both thought that you were the only ones in there and neither of you could find your dorm keys so you decided to burn some time by indulging in each other,
“fuck, mommy,” rex groaned as he bucked his hips up into yours, splitting you open on his dick, his hair falling over his face as you had snapped the band earlier, when you were making out with him sloppily, “tight lil’ cunt’s weeping for me, look,” he cooed as you spasmed under him, your back against the coldness of the bench as rex held your hips in his hands, pistoning his cock in and out of your sloppy wet hole. you let out a soft whine, hands grabbing at his shoulders
mark couldn’t help the way his cock twitched from his place behind the wall, silently cursing himself for being stuck in such a situation, his two bullies fucking less than ten feet away from him… he quietly wrapped a towel around his waist, listening to the slapping sounds of thigh against thigh, quietly trying to make his way out of the shower, slowly, slowly…
bonk, bonkbonkbonk-
an empty bottle of shampoo rang. mark had accidentally moved his elbow and knocked it onto the floor, making his presence known
rex whipped his head around but his hips didn’t stop, fucking you against the bench as your pussy deliciously swallowed him up and clenched around his aching cock,
“if you don’t come out ‘n’ show yourself soon i’ll take my dick out of this little bitch-“ he pauses to gently slap your face with his palm and then stroke your cheek with his knuckles to which you smiled, leaning into his touch, “and beat your ass black and blue.” he finished and you tilted your head, but you had heard the bottle dropping too and it wasn’t like your college’s changing room was haunted.
mark feared making a sound, keeping his lips pursed as he glanced around at the showers as if a secret tunnel would open up and help him out, hoping that you and rex would just leave it,
rex continued to snap his hips into yours, his cock deliciously stretching you out, his pubes tickling your clit as he ground into you for every thrust, trying to coax an orgasm out of you. neither of you cared about being found or caught, you both had no shame it seemed.
“o-oh, rex…! r-rex, i’m gonna..-!”
you moaned as you wrapped your legs around his waist, fingernails clawing at his back as he continued to thrust into you like you were a toy,
“yeah baby, cum on it… cum on my cock, yeah? gonna give the lil’ pervert a show?”
he spoke as you groaned at his words, referring to the way mark was just around the corner, watching you both. he was painfully hard, straining against his towel as he sweated, drawing closer and closer to his identity being found out and he had no escape routes.
your eyes rolled up into your skull as rex bought you to an almost earth shattering orgasm, your legs twitching as you held onto him as tight as you could manage, a loud whine leaving your lips as you bit your lip, muffling some of your sounds
rex wasn’t far behind, his fat cockhead bullying your poor cervix as he keeps a steady pace, plap, plap, plap, plap…
“gonna fill this p-pretty pussy an’ go see who’s tryna hide from us, princess.”
rex stuttered as he breathlessly managed to get his words out, muffling his sounds in the crook of your neck, huffing against it as your cunt continued to throb around him from your last orgasm. mark wanted to evaporate, he wanted nothing more than for the floor to open up and swallow him whole.
rex let out a strangled groan as he spilled himself inside of you, hips stuttering with a whine of, “mm, that’s fucking good mommy…” as he pulled out of you, letting his softening cock slip out from your messy hole.
“get the fuck out here, now.”
rex barked as he kept his focus on the shower wall, “or d’you want me to drag you out and pummel you, huh?” he yelled again, stepping up to head towards the shower.
you could hardly believe your eyes as rex eventually dragged mark out by his hair, making him grunt as rex pulled him out from behind the shower wall. you grinned as you sat up, pussy leaning rex’s seed all over the bench, observing mark’s flushed face.
rex looks at you, his hand cemented in mark’s hair as he smiles a sly smile. mark can only stand there in rex’s grip, embarrassed and afraid of having his lights knocked out by his two bullies…
“what’re we gonna do with him, babe?” rex asks you, tugging at mark’s hair as mark stifles a sound of pain, the sudden grip on his sensitive scalp making him feel as if rex would tear his hair out any minute now, “what d’you think we should do with him…?” he grins and you have the perfect plan
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mark is on his knees as red stands in front of him. you’re crouching down next to mark, trying to hold back a giggle as he stares at you pathetically, almost as if he was asking you to save him from rex, from his incoming actions…
“see his cock?” you ask as you take your friend’s hardening dick into your hand, giving it a few pumps as it springs back to life again, “‘t’s got my cunt all over it… it was just in there,” you tease, your other hand travelling to the back of mark’s head as you move his head towards rex’s dick, his lips almost touching the tip
mark feels so weak, so vulnerable as he stared up at you and rex from his position on the floor. he can’t argue, can’t fight… he just has to sit there and take it and it doesn’t exactly bother him… he doesn’t exactly hate it. he’s already pussydrunk and he hadn’t even come face to face with your cunt yet, only your scent and rex’s mixing together on his dick. you push mark’s head further and his lips are flush against rex’s leaking tip. mark looks worried, eyes widening as he feels rex smear pre all over his face.
rex finds his hand in mark’s hair, pulling him closer to his tip, his other hand tapping at his cheek to signal to him to open his mouth. mark glances over at you, you seemed like the nicer and more reasonable one in all of this, though all you did was pinch his chin between your thumb and finger, pulling his mouth open more,
“now taste my pussy on his dick… lick it clean, thaaats it…” you spoke as mark stuck his tongue out, licking your drying slick from rex’s cock, closing his eyes so he couldn’t see the way rex sneered down at him while he took his tip into his mouth,
“little fuckin’ nerd, watching us fuck… didn’t take you for the type to be a peeping tom,” rex spoke with a chuckle, pushing his head down onto his entire dick as mark gagged around the length with the unexpected intrusion, rex hissing as he forced himself all the way down until mark’s nose was pressed up against his pubes
mark let out a heavy breath as he choked as rex’s cock pulled out of his mouth, covered in his saliva. he clung onto rex’s thighs, looking up at you to see if you held any sympathy for him as rex continued his rough throat training, making mark gag and force tears out of his eyes,
“how does that taste, hm? how’s your bully’s pussy taste on thick bully cock, hm?” you asked as you placed a hand on top of rex’s, the same hand that held the back of mark’s head and you both moved your hand in time, a steady pace as you pushed his head up and down on your best friend’s cock, watching as mark struggled and trembled, ‘ghck, ghck, ghck, ghck—‘s coming from him as his glasses went wonky on his face, tears streamed down his cheeks and drool gathered at the corner of his lips, his chin wet and sloppy as it slapped against rex’s balls, collecting his saliva along the shaft…
this was too erotic, way too erotic…
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this was so short sorry hehe… just an idea i had to get out there, i thought about it last night but was very far too sleepy to write!! i will be getting to requests and asks soon!
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2-dsimp · 2 months ago
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What would Nokka do if he had a streamer wife and just for fun 🤭 she does like a rating anime man with my husband stream how would Nokka react ???
(Also thank youu soo much for all your amazing work can't wait for more💗)
“Wanna rate something? You can rate this dick that’s gonna get you right. If you keep rating another goddamned man. I don’t give a shit if they’re fictional! I’m the only ten out ten in this house!”
Let me ask you this how do YOU guys think he’d react since I’m noticing a trend of yall just wanting to piss him off. Knowing damn well he’d have you in a bedazzled wheelchair with everybody in the neighborhood. Giving y’all the side eye seeing you get handicapped/put on bed rest for a couple of weeks. 😭
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nickssidewitch · 15 days ago
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There is a screenshot of the Sturniolos’ voting records being spread around and I just wanna add my two-cents because y’all are WEIRDOS.
While voting records are public records and anyone can look them up (in certain states), going that far in any circumstance is weird, especially since there’s information on those sites (addresses, phone numbers, emails, etc.) that can easily be leaked if you use a website that is not official. You are putting those people, and even yourself (since people can track your IP address and sell that info), at risk.
The person who screenshotted that information is a dumbass because “Party: Unenrolled” does NOT mean you didn’t vote, it just means that you’re not committed with that party (which is specific to Massachusetts). Here’s what I found on formal websites (specifically related to Massachusetts’ legal definition) that discusses “unenrolled status”.
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I understand that you wanna call out the boys’ for their lack of acknowledgment on the election and on their political status, but please don’t put them and yourselves at risk, especially when you lack the knowledge of what certain terms mean 😭
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hwaslayer · 25 days ago
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pinterest just grabbed me by the damn throat—
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lesbianusahana · 28 days ago
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If you want my Honest Opinion, while I agree with the sentiment you should get out of your comfort zone and interact and befriend people outside of your friend circle because That’s How Communities Work, if you find yourself getting earnestly distressed over the prospect of people not interacting with your content, that’s a sign you should probably take a step back for your sake. Being in the selfship community shouldn’t be a chore to you, and it especially shouldn’t be actively making your mental and/or emotional state worse
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no-passaran · 3 months ago
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you mentioned that it was beaten into your grandparents' generation to not speak catalan, but to speak spanish. did people in catalonia often not speak spanish before franco? what was the political situation of the language like before?
also, do catalan people prefer when spanish is called castellano? i know in romance linguistics it's often called that because spain has other languages, but i think catalan people often don't consider themselves spanish if i've understood it correctly
Yes, many people did not speak Spanish before Franco. For example, my grandma was born and raised in Barcelona right before the war (she was born in 1932) and she did not know any Spanish when she was a kid. She told me that one of the things she remembers the most of her childhood is how terrified she was that someone would find that out. She used to go with other kids of the street to sew with a elderly woman while their parents were at work (babysitting in working class neighbourhoods basically) and after Franco won the war this woman (who didn't speak Spanish either) told them in a made-up Spanish (adding an -o at the end of Catalan words and making them "sound Spanish" mixed with the very little Spanish she knew) that now it was very important that they all spoke Spanish when someone could hear because otherwise they could go to jail. So my grandma spent about a year when she did not say a single word on the street or outside of her family and close family friends. When she went to the market, she only pointed at things and nodded yes or no with her head or said the numbers by raising her fingers. She was very scared that she would be jailed with murderers and rapists. Even though I don't think children would be jailed for this (but it's not strange she believed it, because she had relatives who were in jail and were tortured, and the first years of dictatorship there was so much torture, executions and depravity that you ended up believing anything could happen), even if children wouldn't be jailed, they could still have gotten punished. She was still a kid, so at that age you learn quickly, so she could learn Spanish soon enough (or at least enough Spanish to pass well, because to be fair I've heard her speak Spanish now and every so often she still makes noticeable mistakes, even after decades of being married to my grandpa who is Spanish and speaking Spanish at home).
My parents (born in the 1960s), too, have told me that some of their classmates made mistakes and used Catalan words instead of the correct Spanish sentence. At that point, pretty much everyone in urban areas like ours already spoke Spanish well enough, but most people didn't use it often outside of school (unless they were Spanish immigrants or their children), so they made mistakes. And then the teacher beat them. It was the law that the punishment for speaking Catalan (and for many other things) in schools was corporal punishment. My mum was never beaten and was always at the top of the class and well-behaved, but even to this day she is still quite traumatized for what she saw. The only time I have seen her cry very desperately almost like an anxiety attack was when my grandma was talking about their teacher, because she remembers how he used to throw disobeying children to the floor and kick them, even when the kids were crying he'd still continue kicking them.
My parents have still met quite a few elderly people who didn't speak Spanish, only Catalan or Aranese (there was an Aranese man who used to come to my town for commerce, but it's no problem because Aranese and Catalan are mutually understandable, so they could have conversations where he spoke Aranese and the others spoke Catalan and it was fine, they just thought it was kind of funny). But I (and I dare to say almost everyone from my generation, except people who know someone with a strong mental disability and maybe some people from very rural areas) have not met anyone who speaks only Catalan and doesn't speak Spanish (excluding people from the Catalan-speaking areas that aren't under Spanish control, of course; because I have some friends from Northern Catalonia and there the bilingualism is Catalan+French, or even only French at this point for many young people).
You asked what the political situation of the Catalan language was before the fascists' victory in the Civil War. The situation was of course much better than during Francoism, for example we had the right to use Catalan in public, in schools (public schools taught in Catalan and even taught how to write Catalan), there were films dubbed to Catalan, Catalan radio, Catalan books, etc. and the huge amount of people in Catalonia spoke only Catalan in their everyday lives. However, there was still a strong political and social discrimination according to which Catalan was associated with the working classes and Spanish was seen as more classy (this was the case since the 1600s and intensified much more after 1714), but thanks to the Renaixença movement* Catalan had regained prestige to be used in literature and formal settings, even of the upper class, though conservative upper class (specially monarchists and fascists) still preferred Spanish. But we had done a lot of great steps in the right direction, and things were going very well. Better than ever before since Spain's invasion in 1714.
*the Renaixença was an artistic —and most important literary— movement of the 1800s that's basically our version of Romanticism but with a strong component of political and social fight for the rights of Catalan language and people.
I do not have any preference on whether Spanish should be called Spanish (español) or Castillian (castellano). In Spain, it's almost always called Castillian, so when I speak in Spanish I say castellano just because that's what I'm used to. But it's the same. It feels more correct to say Castillian because it's the language of Castilla, like you say "English" because it's the language of England (instead of saying "British"). But Spain is just Castilla and the lands it invaded, so when anyone says Spanish (language, culture, government, whatever) it means the Castillian one, and Spain has worked hard to make it clear that it does not include any of the occupied nations in its concept of country. So I always understand Spanish as referring exclusively to Castillian things (understanding Castilla to include all the Kingdom of Castilla, not only the modern-day administrative regions of Castilla. So, for example, including Andalucía and Extremadura).
I do not consider myself Spanish and I find it offensive when people try to say "Catalan is also Spanish because it's a language from Spain", it feels like saying that Catalan is nothing of itself, only belonging to Spain. It's forgetting that part of Catalonia has never been Spain (Northern Catalonia) and that Catalan is also the language of Andorra (an independent nation) and l'Alguer (a city in Sardinia inhabited by the descendants of Medieval Catalan settlers who moved there centuries before Catalonia was occupied by Spain). Their language is not "a Spanish language" and never has been, and either way I refuse to be reduced to that. Our language goes back centuries (with changes over time, of course, but it hasn't changed as much as English, we can read Late Medieval Catalan just fine), it has developed as independently as any other Romance language, with its own traditions and literature (the 1st vernacular literature in Romance languages btw!), so we are of ourselves, not "of Spain". I don't want our existence to be reduced to a possession of Spain. We should be described in our own terms.
So yeah, in Spanish saying both castellano and español are fine (some Spanish-speaking countries use one more or the other more), and in English I think it's better to just say Spanish, because that's the word that's used in English. But I don't really mind tbh.
I hope that answers your questions :)
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