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hayleybaaby · 7 months ago

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Bringing back surveys!

Y’all remember back in the day, when MySpace bulletins were where we poured our hearts out in survey questions?!? It was totally fun lol I used to do this on my last Tumblr account. I can’t access it anymore, so I’m starting over here 🩷

Tired of those surveys made by high school kids? ‘Have you ever kissed someone? Missed someone? Drank alcohol?’ Here are 40 questions for Grown Ups:

1.What bill do you hate paying the most? it’s a tie between the light bill & land/vehicle taxes smh 🙄

2.Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner? honestly y’all it’s been so long I literally do not know 😅😂 hubby & I’ve never been out without children lol y’all gotta think my oldest two existed when I met him, so it was never an alone moment 🙂‍↔️

3. What do you really want to be? I always wanted to be a psychologist, but that’s too many years in school & now I’ve got too many kids lol so it’ll have to be a nurse probably.. I’m really leaning towards Lactation Consultant 🤱🏼

4. How many colleges did you attend? just one, online.

5. Why did you choose the shirt you have on? it’s actually a romper from Temu lol it’s all about comfort as well as accessibility… for a breastfeeding 2.5 year old 🤱🏼

6. Thoughts on gas prices? I don’t have to worry about getting gas cus my husband & I currently share a vehicle 😂😩 it definitely isn’t convenient when all he does is work 12–15hr shifts & only has off on the weekends.. or I can drive him one hour one way (leaving my house, at the latest, by 4am.. with 4 children).

7. First thought when the alarm goes off in the morning? since it’s still summer break for my oldest 2 kiddos, the only alarm I am currently having to hear is Monday — Friday to get up with my husband & make his breakfast n lunch for the day. It’s quite relaxing to know that I then don’t have to rush up two cranky kids at 6am to get them to their school bus (with our van that’s only meant to be on our road as it’s got some issues — now the worst part is that the battery is constantly dying, leaving me unable to get them to the bus stop on time). ⏰ my life is pretty simple tho I just wake up thankful for my husband who provides for us, my blessing of kids, & the fact that we’re never hungry or sick. But I’m not gonna lie, my mental health is a big factor when I wake up. A lot of times I have to forcibly remind myself of those amazing things in my life or I won’t want to move from the bed. Period. Having severe depression, severe anxiety, ADHD, OCD, PTSD, etc isn’t something fun to live with… like I’m forever battling my own brain 24/7.

8. Last thought you have before you go to bed? are my children really happy? Am I doing my best? Then of course I think about my husband & his life as well. Is this what he wanted?!? 4 kids (2 bonus kids for him although he’s never considered them his stepkids) & a wife who solely depend on him whilst he pulls nasty trashcans in the hot sun for up to 15hrs a day with barely any peace at all…

9. Do you miss being a kid? I took being a kid for granted. BiG TiME. I dealt with my mental health issues since I was very young, so I never got to truly enjoy my childhood. The freedom, the peace, the happiness, the absolute zero fkin cares in the world! I wasn’t depended on for anything lol & I had NO BILLS 💸 I literally thought that I knew what sadness n stress was bahaha NOPE 🙂‍↔️ now that I’m an adult, I do wish that I would’ve cherished my childhood & parents more. They weren’t perfect, but they loved me & only wanted what they thought was best for me. I was their main focus besides my sister. They kept the fridge full, lights/internet/Dish network/mortage/any other bills paid, worked, my Mama always cooked, & I had plenty of nice belongings. My Dad kept me with some of the latest technology (although he’s always been anti-Apple & it’s all I’ve ever loved lmao) & my mama always took me to the mall or good stores to buy us nice clothing! 🫶🏻 I was very blessed as a child. 🩷

10. What errand/chore do you despise the most? the worst chore would definitely be the dishes 😂 I don’t get to run many errands cus I mean Rome is constantly working with the vehicle lol. But I hate dishes. Maaan. Not having a dishwasher is some BS 🖕🏻

11. Up early or sleep in? tbh sleeping in is always my favorite 😩💜😅 but I’m forever up early now due to my husband’s job. He’s gone for usually like 15–16hrs; that’s usually plus the 1hr trip to & from. But oftentimes he will work a 15hr shift & be gone even LONGER. His days begin so fkin early & end insanely, miserably late…

12. Found love ? yesss, in a few places. Specifically my beautiful children & hardworking, handsome husband 🥹 we’ve been together for 5 years on April 26th, 2019 & married for 3 as of March 23rd, 2021 💍👩🏼‍🤝‍👨🏾

13. Favorite lunch meat? i love either deli sliced turkey or ham haha & I enjoy some buffalo chicken, too… I used to have a fave brand, but they don’t always have it anymore so I can’t ever get it smfh it’s Sara Lee but now all they ever have is Prima Della or whatever UUUUGGGGHHH.

14. What do you get at Walmart every time? without fail, always fruits 🍎 🍌 🍉 🍓 & so much more lol like diapers, wipes, etc. but my kiddos will go through a large like $5 container of strawberries IN ONE SITTING. 🪑 it’s bs haha they eat an entire bag of oranges in one day as well as an entire thing of bananas. The grapes?!? Those don’t last 24hrs either. I hide the green & red apples in the back, but when they run outta immediate fruit, they go for these n they’re gone within 24hrs as well 🙂‍↔️

15. Beach or lake? the beach 🏖️🌞🌊 it’s getting closer for our beach trip.. leaving on my birthday on Friday! ♋️ July 12th 🥳 but we also enjoy the lake trips we have with MawMaw (my mother). 🏊🏽‍♀️

16. Is marriage outdated? Most definitely not. 💍 if it isn’t your thing then okay, but I love being my husband’s wife🖤 it’s such a beautiful feeling. March 23rd, 2021–Forever ♾️

17. What famous person would you like to have dinner with? Marilyn Monroe. 🤍 Y’all never said if they’re alive or not lol.

18. Ever crashed your vehicle? yessss 🥺 the most traumatizing experience of my entire adulthood (other than my ex trying to take my life & abusing me, but I meant like I guess technically something that was in MY so-called control). it was my Mazda. I only had a GPS to rely on. It was back in April 2019, a few weeks before I met/began dating my husband. Either way, I was otw to get my iPhone fixed at the only local Apple Store.. my phone had broken the day before. literally over an hour away from where I was living at the time (with my parents in Prospect, VA). I’d just drove over the Chesterfield line when I ran off the road, & instead of past the white line to your right there wasn’t more pavement BUT GRAVEL. Idfk why they do this cus tbh it caused my wreck 😞 I was going probably 60–65mph (basically the speed limit cus I never speed with my kids). Instead of wrecking into a tree head on into the woods directly to my right, I overcorrected & flipped my car 5 TIMES into the median that separated both ways of traffic. I’m blessed cus it could’ve kept going & landed on the opposite side of traffic ☹️ my oldest 2 were my only children at the time. Miranda was 4 years old while Leonardo was only 2ish. I was told by the police & first responders that if I hadn’t properly strapped my kids into their seats, they wouldn’t have made it 💔💔💔 Same for me wearing my seatbelt. They told me that my lil car did her job protecting us & that if it’d had been a Honda, it would’ve balled ALLLL up (I used to drive a Honda before my Mazda, so that was a scary image). I couldn’t imagine man I smacked my head each time we flipped.. if my babies hadn’t been strapped in, omg.. they wouldn’t be alive. & all I could think at the moment in the accident was trying to get back there to my babies cus at this point I’d lost complete control of my vehicle & knew that there wasn’t anything else I could possibly do – when we finally stopped flipping, it was like.. slow mo. I couldn’t. I wouldn’t look in the backseat. I just had to get them out. My driver’s side was crushed in as well as my entire front windshield. My back windshield was completely blown out as well as most of the windows. I. Was. Petrified. I kicked out my passenger’s side door. The silence was deafening. Neither of them screamed. But after the door was ripped opened, I was met with 4 wild eyes. They were definitely terrified of course. My oldest claimed that she blacked out (that’s obviously not how she said it, but that’s what had to have happened cus when I asked her what she remembered she couldn’t tell me at all). My two year old began crying because obviously I’m in a state of real panic & terror. & he’d just been in a tragic accident. I instantly ripped them both outta their car seats. Other people on the road pulled over to help/comfort/figure out what happened. I couldn’t even fkin call 911 because my phone was broken, hence why I was even in the vehicle otw to where I was. I met one of my closest friends at the time (she lives & works in that area; I believe that she’d just gotten off from work at her teaching job). She sat with me after the police & EMS left. I was beyond grateful. We waited for my mother to pick me & the kids up. We couldn’t go anywhere cus after an accident, those car seats are basically useless. My mom & I were currently not on great terms cus we’d been arguing BADLY for several months. But I’ll never forget the fear in her voice & the relief when she finally got to us. Over an hour away, as I stated. I also believe that she was at work at the time it occurred, which was even farther from where I was located cus she worked the opposite way from where we lived. But either way, it was scary & I wish that we’d never had to experience it. Although my oldest two don’t remember, I do. It’s forever in my heart. Still makes me cry to this day! 🥺😪🤧 I posted some images from the wreck in this thread.

20. Strangest place you’ve brushed your teeth? idk, at a campground I guess?!? lol like outside of our tent? 🏕️

21. Somewhere you’ve never been but want to go? there’s quite a few places! I’d love to travel. I want to visit Italy (both of my grandmothers are Italian) & Egypt. I’ve always been fascinated with the pyramids, the beautiful people & culture. Then of course I’d love to take my kids to both Disney World & Disney Land 😀 I’d also LOVE to visit Mexico, as my oldest 2 children are 50% Mexican 🇲🇽 But idk I doubt it’ll ever be more than a fantasy cus my toxic, volatile, extremely abusive ex was deported there after he attempted to kill me (& some other really fking traumatizing things happened, in front of my then newly 3 year old & almost 1 month old). I try my best to educate my babies on their heritage, but I’m the white patent who isn’t super educated other than what she learned in Spanish class in 10th & 12th grade plus the college course I took. I do my own researching of course & I’ve got many Mexican mama friends online, but it’s definitely NOT the same.

22. At this point in your life would you want to start a new career or relationship? I wouldn’t mind a career in a few years. I’ve got too many small children to care for right now. I’m truly more than likely going to pursue a career in nursing! It’s never too late 😃 especially as a recovering addict, I can assist with a lot of that stuff as well. But my true dream would to become a lactation consultant 🤱🏼 as a Mommy who’s been nursing for now about 10 years almost straight (I took off maybe a year because I’d weaned my firstborn son {my 2nd child} a little after 2 years old then fell pregnant with my 3rd child a few months later). Other than that, I’ve forever been producing breast milk 🥛 it’s something I’m insanely educated on & very passionate about 🤍🩷💛

23. How old are you? I’ll be 30 on July 12th! ♋️ 🎂 🎉 🎈 🥳 🎁

24. Do you have a go to person? it’s always my husband & then if not him, my mother. two of my biggest supporters 💜🖤 I also get a lot of love & support from my babies, especially my oldest. She’s always trying to comfort Mama 🥹

25. Are you where you want to be in life? I’m honestly content with my life but could be happier if I was able to help my husband provide for our family. But I’m super happy to be a Mommy. I’m a young Mama, started having kids at 19… I never imagined that for myself tho. My dreams & plans were to attend college & become a psychologist! 👩🏼‍⚕️

26. Growing up what were your favorite cartoons? rugrats, rocket power, hey arnold, pinky & the brain, ahhh monsters, courage the cowardly dog (a top fave), catdog, sssooo much more lol

27. What about you do you think has changed since you were a young kid? Obviously my looks lol & maybe the way I see life now. I have much more to live for now as well 😊

28. Looking back at high school were they the best years of your life? F no lmao I was kinda like the weirdo loner kid who didn’t like nor trust anyone 🤣 I’d been hurt too many times & bullied ALL throughout my entire school education. I began fighting back tho in 8th grade 🤷🏼‍♀️ maybe a lil younger when two boys were picking on me during a test & I’d turned around, snatched one of the loser’s tests & threw it in the trash 🙃 the teacher literally smiled lol. Smh. But either way, I’d gotten into too many fights/trouble (I legit stayed in ISS & OSS plus detentions) my 9th grade year n Prince Edward threatened to expel me – they then “agreed” to suspending me the first 10 days of the 10th grade school year. My mama wasn’t having that 😭🫠 she pulled me from public school & enrolled me in our local dreaded, racist ass private school y’all lemme tell ya 😩😤 I couldn’t stand that place. I’d legit eat lunch in the bathroom. It was depressing. I didn’t really make friends either. I didn’t try to tbh. I begged to return to public school, & my mom made me promise that I’d stay outta trouble or she’d send me right back cus all she wanted was what was best for me! I did my best mostly throughout my 11th grade year. During my senior year, I kept skipping classes to go to work at my daycare job looool 😝 they literally tried to fail me cus I didn’t attend my last 2 blocks of the day (an English class that was combined into 2 blocks due to it being advanced English). I was very capable – I scored a perfect score on my SAT in writing. ✍️ But I wanted to go to work, & I was always depressed at schools. People try to always say (since we’re now all adults), “Hayley, you were so mean in school!” Naw, y’all bullied tf outta me, causing me severe anxiety & severe depression, which made me misunderstood 🫥 it’s cool tho I’m glad to have graduated cus I mean, I did well in school. I even received an academic jacket for having a certain GPA level in school 🏫 I wish that I’d participated more now that I’m an adult. Screw the jerks. I missed out on both proms as well as refusing to play sports with my schoolmates, & I was a lover of softball 🥎 once I aged outta youth league ball, I played one year for the private school (it was about favoritism & who your parents knew, so I NEVER got played). I’ll never forget when my school ball coach stumbled upon one of my youth league ball games & saw how much the team literally relied on me. My fave base was 2nd base & then I loved to pitch, but they literally put me EVERYWHERE! If they knew that the girl was a hard hitter, I’d be placed in the outfield to ground the ball or catch a popup 🤷🏼‍♀️😁 But I literally played every single base y’all one inning I’m on 1st base then next I’m pitching (I did a lot of pitching btw) then I’m on 3rd base & then next I’m in the outfield 🫠😂😅 I would get legit mad af cus I only wanted to play 2nd base 😒 But it was AMAZING. I loved my last year playing softball for PEFYA!

29. Are there times you still feel like a kid? honestly..? Maybe. I mean. I don’t work. I don’t physically provide for my family. I literally have to rely on my husband’s income. It’s just.. stressful. When my youngest ones are old enough to go to school, I’m going to start working again. I haven’t worked since 2013, exactly 1 month before my oldest was born 👶🏽 it’ll be.. different 😵‍💫👀 but it’s worth it in the end.

30. Did you have a pager or one of those old flip phones? I definitely wasn’t old enough for a pager lol 📟 But I had one of those cute lil badass pink flipphones that stayed charged up for DAYS! I received it for my 12th birthday 🥳 I’ll never forget how I was gifted it.. my dad took my sister n I up the road to check the mail more than likely, & otw back to the house, a phone starts to ring. My dad’s all grinning & excited. He finally hands it to me & tells me that it’s MY phone 📞 I was so hype lol back then those things were THE SHIIII 🔥 I remember when I went over on my texting limit & got in soooo much trouble when I was in 8th grade 😭

31. Was there a hangout spot when you were a teenager? y’all. I’m from Farmville. Our “chill spot” in the early 2010’s was Walmart or the bowling alley 🤷🏼‍♀️🫠 & remember ya gotta be 21 to get in the bar to drink. So, a lot of us chilled at Walmart & would literally walk around it lmfao 🤣💀🤧 you’d think we’d have chilled at the park or maybe even tried to hang on the local university campus (Longwood), but nope. Walmart it was 🤪

32. Were you the type of kid you’d want your children to hang out with? absolutely! I’m loyal AF & always have been 💕 to the point where I’ll genuinely make mistakes trying to defend or help you & instead possibly make the situation worse 😬🥴 I ride for my people.. I don’t have many close people in my life. It’s literally my husband, my 4 kids, & I speak to my parents. I have relatives I keep up with, but I mean, my CIRCLE is my family 🫶🏻 I also always stood up for my friends NO MATTER WHAT. I’d go to war behind them! I hope that my babies have amazing friends whom they are able to remain lifelong friends with. I never was able to have that..

33. Was there a teacher or authority figure that stood out to you? most of them were total assholes 😅😆 but I did have two favorites. My 11th grade history teacher n my government/psychology teacher for 11th n 12th grade I believe.

34. Do you tell stories that start with when I was your age? I definitely do this with my kiddos 😂😂😂 I cannot get over the fact that I’ll be 30 on Friday! It’s unbelievable at times 😱🤯🤬

35. Are you religious? let’s get real right quick. I wasn’t raised in a super religious household. My dad will tell ya he’s a logical man & simply cannot find comfort in stuff like that, which was strange to hear recently from my Dad… cus growing up I always knew that he wasn’t a religious man or anything but didn’t know he thought the EXACT SAME WAY that I do! It’s interesting to hear. My mother says that she does believe in a God, that someone or something is definitely up there & there’s something after this. I truly wish that I could believe that 😞☹️ my life would be so much more positive. Instead, I live in constant fear of death cus I believe once you’re lying in the ground, that’s all. Ain’t nothing after this 😢 i want to spend every waking moment with my loved ones. I have to enjoy the time that we have 😪 I don’t want to think this way, but I’m a very logical person & so it’s hard to believe anything else. My husband was raised Christian but converted to Islam when he was a very young adult ☪️ I love that about him tbh it’s such a beautiful religion in itself. But idk I just don’t have the capacity to truly believe in that stuff.. why are there SO MANY RELIGIONS?!? Which one is real?

36. What’s your favorite subscription to watch?

I’m obsessed with Paramount+ right now. Binging The Challenge’s last few seasons since I got super behind when I moved in with my husband over 5 years ago! I was also trying to catch up on Are You The One? I love my garbage reality love trash TV 💕💕💕 I’m also in love with Discovery+ for the True Crime as well as YouTube Premium, my general go to. For the true crime as well plus music & my sleep sounds. 🎼

37. Are you into politics?

I was very into politics, for many years. Idk, kinda gotten outta them. Everyone’s fake af & it’s terrifying. But I fkin hate Trump. He’s the TERRORIST! He’s a racist bigot who says harmful things. People will literally try to defend this man’s “running” of the country due to gas prices being so low when he was in office in 2020.. cus.. well.. I DUNNO.. the fkin COVID PANDEMIC JUST HIT!?! 🤒 nobody was leaving the damn house! It’s scary. My children are ALL biracial. Oldest 2 are half Mexican while the youngest 2 are half black. They must learn that hatred is completely WRONG. I’ll never support that sh*t. I’ll never forget when I was finally old enough to vote! It was 2012. I’d just turned 18 back in July. Booooy, was I grateful that I had just turned 18 to be able to officially vote in the presidential election! 🗳️ I voted for President Obama, of course. Proudly ☺️

38. Do you own any animals?

Yes, we have a pitbull named Jax & then a so-called Frenchie named Prissy, but the older she’s gotten the more… bully she’s looking 😩😭 I don’t even like thinking about it! Spent all that money to more than likely have gotten straight up ROBBED 💔 we also have outside cats named Ren featuring her baby kittens, Princess, Kiko, Libby, & I can’t recall the other one’s name rn 🐈 I’m not a big fan of animals lately tbh they’re very messy & it’s difficult with 4 children. I’m doing my best, but wooooo 😮‍💨 I miss my ferret. She was amazing in every way & super easy to care for ☹️ I miss my girl.

39. Do you have any children?

Yes! 4 beautiful babies 🫶🏻 Miranda Analena (10 years old), Leonardo Eduardo (7 years old), Zarriah Devonne Lynn (4 years old), & Khaza De’Onte (2.5 years old). 👧🏽🧒🏽👧🏽🧑🏽‍🦱

40. What’s your favorite meal to cook?

I like to make chicken Alfredo or surf n turf 😋 🤤 also tacos n burritos or chicken quesadillas 🌯 the kids would prefer burgers, chicken sandwiches, chicken nuggets, pizza, & fries over a good ass meal tho lmao smfh 😅

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brilium · 1 year ago

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➳❥│K I N K T O B E R 2 0 2 3 ♡

Yooooo, this is the first time ever that I participate on this since I started writing, I’m so exciteddd! ♡ I really want to complete it but if I don’t I’ll make sure to post them later:)

My main fandoms rn are Jujutsu Kaisen and Attack on Titan, I thought about adding Chainsawman but I need to re-read it all the manga for accuracy 😩

♡ D I S C L A I M E R ‼️‼️

⤷This is obviously about to contain mature content, minors do not interact or you'll be blocked:) This goes also for ageless blogs so put it on your blog pls.

⤷If you don't like this kind of stuff, just ignore it and keep scrolling or block me ♡

⤷SatoSugu and Eren are my soft pookies, so there might be more of them in the list, sorry. I need to write about them a lot to live 😩

♡ M A S T E R L I ST ♡

❥DAY 1. Filming! with Suguru Geto

╰┈➤Summary. Starting to sell content online is giving you a good source of money and, maybe, meeting with one of your mutuals might bring a good content for your account.

❥DAY 2. Voyeurism! with Mikasa Ackerman

╰┈➤Summary. Your organized roommate hates your messy ways to live but, a little mistake with the closet door might lead her to break those walls on her.

❥DAY 3. Camgirl! with Eren Jaeger

╰┈➤Summary. Eren got you a tulip necklace on your birthday, one that you never take off, not even during your livestreams on a secret site at night. And Eren could recognize that necklace anywhere.

❥DAY 4. Car Sex! with Toji Fushiguro

╰┈➤ Ok, I'll be honest, I wrote it but I didn't liked it JKDDJKH. So I'll post it when I've finished the list lol

❥DAY 5. Clothes on! with Jean Kristein

╰┈➤Summary. You're a pain in the ass for Jean, and for you? He's a nuisance before meeting up with Eren for a hook up. Fortunately, the two best students of Dr. Smith are smart (or horny) enough to find a middle point where they can do more than fighting.

❥DAY 6. Cheating! with Satoru Gojo

╰┈➤Summary.Your boyfriend, hated by all your friends, turns you down again on a dinner that you planned for weeks and Satoru shows up at a bar to wash away all your worries like he always does.

❥DAY 7. Size Kink! with Reiner Braun

╰┈➤Summary. Attending to the gym is tiring. And in the morning shift? Worse. But the fat crush on your coach makes it lighter for you. One day, you decide to take the risk to finally make a move with him.

❥DAY 8. Phone Sex! with Eren Jaeger

╰┈➤Summary. A boundarie of not having sex with your hot ex-fuckboy boyfriend for a whole month is eating you from the inside and you decide that it's time to tempt him with a good night selfie.

❥DAY 9. Aphrodisiac! with Nanami Kento

╰┈➤Summary. Nanami has been dealing with a lot of stress at the office lately, and you decided to buy him a naturalist tea that it supposed to help with the stress relief. It seems to help with stress in a very particular way...

❥DAY 10. Deep Throat! with Toji Fushiguro

╰┈➤Summary. Megumi got in a fight for the third time in the month, and his father had to attend with Megumi's teacher to talk about his behavior. Toji finds her hot and annoying. Maybe there's one way to fix his annoyance by hearing her yell.

❥DAY 11. Thigh Riding! with Erwin Smith

❥DAY 12. Caught Sex! with Suguru Geto

╰┈➤Summary. One of Suguru's co-workers keeps trying to flirt with him even though she knows that he's dating you and you sneak out on the changing rooms to show her how to strike back properly.

❥DAY 13. Toys! with Armin Arlet

❥DAY 14. Witch! Reader (Medieval AU) with Eren Jaeger

╰┈➤Summary. You’ve been calmly living in the heart of the forest since people started to believe in stupid rumors of witches. When you cross paths with a hurt man hunting, you give him a hand and turns your small wooden house into a hotter place.

❥DAY 15. Morning Sex! with Porco Galliard

╰┈➤Summary. Marcel brought his not anymore little brother to the beach vacation, you thirsty in the morning might lead you to let your morning desires lead you.

❥DAY 16. Public Sex! with Satoru Gojo

╰┈➤Summary. Satoru Gojo has an arranged marriage since before his birth, and today is the day to impress each other’s family before the wedding preparations start but you both don’t seem so excited for it so you find the way to go with it through the thin paper walls.

❥DAY 17. Breeding Kink! with Nanami Kento

❥DAY 18. Shower Sex! with Levi Ackerman

❥DAY 19. Roleplay! with Suguru Geto

❥DAY 20. Girls Night! with Shoko Ieri and Utahime Iori

❥DAY 21. Succubus! with Armin Arlert

╰┈➤Summary. Eren is being a headache talking about having weird dreams and sleep paralysis, Armin always ignores his blabbering, but when he wakes up in the middle of the night with a weight on his lap, he starts to questionate himself.

❥DAY 22. Hate Sex! with Sukuna’s True Form

❥DAY 23. Costumes! with Eren Jaeger

❥DAY 24. Gloryhole! with Toji Fushiguro

❥DAY 25. Make Up Sex! with Satoru Gojo

❥DAY 26. Face Sitting! with Porco Galliard

❥DAY 27. Overstimulation! with Satoru Gojo and Suguru Geto

❥DAY 28. Office Sex! with Nanami Kento

❥DAY 29. Somnophilia! with Jean Kristein

❥DAY 30. Gangbang! with Eren Jaeger, Jean Kristen and Connie Springer

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weabooweedwitch · 2 years ago

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Yo Ive barely touched my feed so I missed all this shit that went down but I just want you to know that I am 100% behind you; I've been in a very similar situation with family and what you said is a brutal truth but truth nonetheless. TikTok teens can choke

What um, is so incredibly painful, is that we rented a car and went to see my sister after being in correspondence with her. I trusted my mom when she said she had talked to my sister after getting out of the hospital, I thought it was so soon, and we went there and. She hadn't understood we were moving her. She for some reason thought we were just renting a car to bring her for a visit for like two days and then taking her back?

She told us she's living in a studio but what she's really doing is renting a room in an old house with shared communal areas. Her "studio apartment" is literally like the size of a fucking closet. We are talking enough room for a full bed and little furniture on each side. We got there, after telling us we were on the way, and she made us wait outside for over TWO HOURS IN 30 DEGREE WEATHER. Saying she was hungry and hungover and cuddling with her boyfriend. Sorry, she kept saying "favorite person" instead of boyfriend which strikes me as weird

And my mom finally nuts up and says "and how long have you even known him?" and she says, quote, "longer than I've known you guys" GIRL WHAT YOURE THE ONE THAT DEMANDS TO BE TEXTED EXCLUSIVELY

Just. Gosh I'm not going to keep dumping her business but it hurts, like everything she said was so spiteful and hateful and saying she could run away or kill herself if ahe came with us. I went outside and just started crying and screaming so hard my ears started popping and. Yeah I was really gross by the end of it and we're home now and. Even now I'm like.should I have endured the abuse and stayed and let her come, because she was saying she would but in such a way that made it obvious she was angry and would be miserable and treat us poorly and we eventually essentially veckme a safety issue for everyone

Idk I'm trying not to say too much but I'm also incredibly upset and still worried about her. It's hard for everyone involved and incredibly stressful and also I had previously picked up an extra shift tonight so 😩😩😩 but I guess to put a positive spin on that it gives me more money for my trip on the 27th which I really need more lthan ever at this point haha 🙃.

since she doesn't want to come I hope she can at least be happy. I still have a Christmas present to mail and I'm considering either keeping it for myself or sending it to her as like. A parting gift. "I love you and hope you do well but I don't think I can be present in your life anymore"

It's just painful for everyone involved. She makes it very hard to be helped. And I also, am really worried about my guy friend actually 🥺 I won't get into specifics because i dunno why i can never keep a fucking secret when it comes to being upset but he's actually becoming really underweight so when we're hanging out I want to try and comfort him and spoil him with yummy foods and you know, maybe I should try giving my love and support and mental energy to someone who doesn't meet it with absolute hatred and bitterness for once? And I'm also still trying to take care of myself

#horrible family drama sorry

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duckybarnes1917 · 3 years ago

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What do you say about dancing with zemo to oldies on some record he found in his old house in Socovia.

Zemo drags the reader out of the kitchen by the readers waist. While slow dancing, the power goes out and they end up on the sofa cuddling/goofing around while enjoying the snow and wind hitting the ceiling-high windows..

You can skip some parts if you want, just something along the lines of this :33

I love soft Zemo 😩🥰 I hope you enjoy love!

Warnings: none, all fluff

Note for anyone else that would like to send a request: I have decided not to be a strictly 18+ blog because I love writing fluff and angst. If you are under 18 or anon please do not request nsfw content or interact with it on my blog. You will be blocked if you do.

Stress had been your middle name all week. The storm of the century was headed your way, and your husband still wasn’t home from his mission. You had done everything to prepare: you bought firewood, you stocked the kitchen with plenty of food (and booze), you had a backup generator, you had extra blankets, and you even bought several games in case you got bored.

Helmut was supposed to have been home yesterday, perfect timing before the storm blew in. But he never showed. Snowflakes were starting to fall as the wind picked up, and you anxiously chewed your cheek, waiting for him to appear.

Hours went by, and nothing. Not a call, not a text, nothing. The snow outside your house was already several inches deep, and the sun was getting lower in the sky.

“Come on, Helmut, come on,” you muttered to yourself, checking your phone again.

You had barely moved from your spot at the front window all day. Your cat, Pebbles, rubbed against your leg, impatiently asking for his dinner.

“Hold on, dad will be home soon.” You shooed the black and white cat away and turned back to the window just in time to see his silhouette.

“Yes!” You jumped up, stuffing your feet in your boots and grabbing a jacket before you ran out into the storm to greet him.

His fur collar was popped to protect his face, his hair swept out his eyes by the arctic wind, and as you got closer, you could tell something was wrong. Helmut was shuffling through the snow with a lack of grace you had only seen on particularly drunken nights.

“Helmut, are you hurt?” You wrapped an arm around his waist to help him walk.

“Just–get inside,” he shuddered.

You helped him walk the last few feet, and he sighed when he was greeted by the warmth of your home.

“Here, let me help you.” You pulled his ice-covered coat off and bent down to untie his wet boots. “How far did you walk?”

Helmut laid his head back against the wall as you rubbed his frozen feet with your soft, warm hands. “Just a few miles–they couldn’t land any closer.”

Helmut’s voice shook as violently as his body and you hurried him to the bedroom.

“Get your clothes off; I’m going to run you a bath, okay? Are you hurt? Do I need to get the first aid kit?”

“No,” Helmut pulled off his sweater. “Wait, come here.”

You let him pull you close, and he shuddered when your warm body met him. “I missed you, Princeza.”

“I missed you too,” you kissed his collar bone before resting your cheek on his toned chest.

Helmut hummed in pleasure, hugging you closer. “Let me just take a quick shower, and then I’ll come join you, okay?”

You nodded, letting him go and heading back to the kitchen to feed Pebbles and prepare some tea. You were glad he was home safely and didn’t appear to have any injuries, but you didn’t feel any less stressed. You hated the people he worked with. How could they have let him walk so far in this storm? They didn’t care about him, and you had half a mind to tell him to quit–again.

Your stressful thinking had distracted you so much that you didn’t notice Helmut’s presence until his comforting arms wrapped around you.

“What’s on your mind, Princeza?” His thick-accented whisper sent chills down your spine as he kissed your cheek. “You look so stressed.”

“Of course I’m stressed, Helmut!” You turned around and saw the surprise in his eyes at your outburst. “How could they have dropped you off so far away?!” The roll of his eyes annoyed you further. “You could have died!”

“I’m fine,” Helmut cupped your face in his hands. “I’m fine. I’m right here with you, right where I belong.”

You sniffled, trying not to cry, but the week of surmounting stress was all crashing down on you.

“Come on, I know what will cheer you up.”

You let Helmut lead you out of the kitchen and into the large sitting room. He already had a record playing, one of his favorites from Sokovia.

“Look at this beautiful setting,” Helmut murmured, wrapping his arms around your waist from behind as you swayed to the music.

He was right; now that you weren’t worried about your husband being stuck in it, the snow was beautiful. He twirled you around and placed one hand on your waist, pulling you close to his chest.

“You’re such a sap, Helmut,” you teased.

“That’s why you love me, no?”

His smirk sent butterflies straight to your stomach; when he dipped you, they burst out of your chest in the form of giddy laughter.

Abruptly, the music stopped, and the lights went out as the wind howled louder than before.

“Oh great,” you groaned. “I got a backup generator.” You started to head to the garage, but Helmut pulled you down onto the couch.

“What do we need light for?” He whispered, his nose rubbing against yours gently.

“It’s gonna get cold,” you argued weakly.

“Hmm, well, you’re just gonna have to keep me warm then, Princeza.”

Despite yourself, you laughed, snuggling closer to him like he wanted. Typical Helmut, you spent the week stressing and worrying about this exact situation, and all he wanted to do was cuddle on the couch and watch the snow.

That’s why you loved him; he made every moment special. Every second of the day was an opportunity for him to show you how much he loved you. So, you forgot about the generator, you let go of your anger at his team, you quit worrying about staying warm, and just let yourself be in the moment.

Helmut called for Pebbles, who came running and hopped up onto the couch, settling between the two of you. “Now, what could be more perfect than this?”

You smiled up at him, brushing his hair out of his eyes. “Absolutely nothing, my love.”

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ackerfics · 4 years ago

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hellooo i love ur works sm <3 ! can you do reader decluttering her space then finding handwritten letters from her ex, erwin? i just wanted some angst today 😩

they stare at me like souvenirs — erwin smith

— erwin smith x female reader (modern au | college au)

— warnings: angst

— summary: you are starting over in a place. as you are packing your stuff away, you encounter a pile of letters that you never thought you'd open after cutting ties with the person who called you their 'one and only'.

— word count: 3.4k

— notes: ahhh thank you !! <3 this is my first time writing for erwin and i am excited tbh djwdnj i hope i capture the atmosphere of your request, anon. this is actually a very similar situation with my roommate back in senior year of high school and i can't help but miss those times when we'd buy drinks (if you know what i mean ;>>) from the convenience store so that she can vent and let loose in our room, just bc she saw the handwritten letters her partner gave her. with that little fun fact aside, happy reading !! <33

Graduating from college can be a bittersweet moment if you look deeper into it.

As much as you can finally breathe after stressing for four years, constant days of suffering from sleep deprivation and coffee palpitations; you can't also help but long for impromptu road trips, late-night Facetimes, and worrying over your grades with your best friends. They were moments that you want to rewind for the sake of experiencing them again. Your entire room shows so many trinkets that are connected to the memories that made your college years golden. As you are standing in the middle of the messy four-walled space, your eyes skim over the photographs pinned on the board positioned above your desk.

Large smiles of Hange shine through. The jaded expression of Levi looking at you in some of the pictures becomes a contrast to the rest of the friend group. Mike's corny poses which remind you of your dad.

And you, wrapped in the arms of a contented Erwin, caught in the middle of a hearty laugh.

You quickly look away, taking a deep breath while rolling the sleeves of your blouse to your elbows. Final days in the University of Paradis meant moving out of residences, your chosen field far away from the place you called home for four years. Final days meant saying goodbye to so many people that made you feel special and welcomed. No matter how much you prepare yourself from crying at the thought of moving away, you still feel that something is missing. Something that's in the shape of broad backs and tight embraces, of golden locks and azure jewels, of dancing to retro tunes in the kitchen and whispers of settling down in a newly-bought house. You didn't know it was getting hard to breathe until you feel your throat clog with the hundredth sob.

Nanaba will scold you if she sees you like this.

You shake your head in an attempt of anchoring yourself to the reality that Erwin's promise of being his 'one and only' was never for you. You didn't have hair that smelled like flowers at every whiff. You didn't have a smile that's akin to a siren's song. You didn't have a voice that sounded like a foreign, enrapturing melody.

Transparent flower petals glided on your cheeks, bouquets of cyclamens and yellow carnations making space in your chest. It is only a matter of time that they will overflow, the blossoming pain already spreading through every part of your body. Your hands clenched around some of your clothes, breaths becoming ragged as you tried to regain your bearings. You hate yourself for feeling this way --- how Erwin ruined anybody for you. Nobody can make you feel so alive the way Erwin did. Nobody can enlighten the cosmos for you the way he willingly did. Nobody can compare to him. Not even the people who admitted to having feelings for you way before you started your relationship with the blonde Adonis.

You can never love anybody as the intensity of emotions you feel for Erwin.

The huge suitcase is openly sitting beside your bed, already half-full with the clothes that you choose to bring to your destination. With your closet already done tidying (Levi should feel proud), you turn your attention to your desk. A dry chuckle came out of your lips when you picked up a pile of papers from the most bottom drawer, papers that you pour your sleepless nights to. You skim over every stapled document and full-on laughed when you flip on an annotated essay. It was a miracle how you passed that class. You are convinced that Shadis was a military general before becoming a college professor. Every single paragraph you wrote in sophomore year is marked with a bright red pen. You place them in a box meant for junk and unused supplies. Seeing some of your previous papers lifts your somber mood.

Until you come across a small glass jar filled with small pieces of paper inside the topmost drawer.

You know what's inside of that jar. Even Hange and Levi knew about it, being the ones who suggested it to Erwin.

With a tentative hand, you took the jar from its home, and brush your hand over its lid as if it can take you back to when it was given to you.

In your junior year, you were typing away on your laptop, the stress brought by an elective course visible on your face. You were alone in the confines of the library booth, having excused yourself from Hange in the most gentle way possible because you need to concentrate if you wanted to pass this class. Hange whined about it but if it wasn't for Levi's hard tone, they would have tagged along with you. With a small smile, you thanked Levi, waved goodbye to Hange, and went your merry way to one of the more modern-styled libraries in your university. The only exception to this jovial mood you had was the prospect of squeezing your brain to think about coming up with an exceptional essay. So, here you were, slumped on the plush armchair you picked, the soothing tunes in your earphones contrasting with your stressed-out face.

"I finally found you," the voice you always dreamed of waking up next to whisper in your ear.

You tilted your head to give Erwin a million-dollar smile. "Hey, where were you?"

He occupied the armchair in front of you and took out his reference book, alongside his binder and highlighters. "I was with a study group. You know, the one I told you about --- for Biochemistry." He flipped his binder open, his pen twirling in his dominant hand. "You should've come with me. There was this person that I'm sure you'd love being friends with. You two share this crazed love for sappy romances. I'm thinking it's a great bonding experience if ever you two become friends."

You chuckled. "Give me their number, then. If I'm free, I'm also thinking of giving this a shot and hang out with them."

"Okay, I'll ask her."

You slightly paused. Erwin made friends with a girl. You didn't think much about it since he's friends with Nanaba and a few others so you focused on your computer again.

"I have this idea."

"Hmm?"

Erwin looked at you with the most crystalline eyes, taking your breath away. "Okay, I admit that I didn't think on it by myself but it's the thought that counts, right?"

"Did Hange and Levi help you out?"

He scratched his head with a sheepish smile. "Yeah, you got me." Then, he cleared his throat. "Here goes nothing. For every day starting tomorrow, let's write something on a piece of paper about the things we love about one another, it doesn't matter if they're nonsense or if they're random things. We put these small letters in a small jar we will be picking up in the university mall later when we eat out for dinner. We do this until the day of our anniversary next year. And when that day comes, we exchange the jars. It's up to you if you read one letter per day or if you read them all in one sitting, as long as the messages reach you, that's all that matters to me."

His words ring in your head, the small jar on your lap. You're afraid of what you might find inside. You never opened it, no matter how hard and curious you are. Levi mentioned that if you really wanted to do it, you should but you also shouldn't push yourself. You took his advice and the small jar collected dust in your desk the moment Erwin broke up with you, which was the day after he gave the jar to you. You didn't open it, thinking it will protect yourself but it's inevitable all the same.

You pick one pastel yellow paper, your small heart immediately pinches with that familiar pain you associate with everything Erwin left behind.

--- Everything about you mesmerizes me. I don't know why but the moment you were introduced to me by Hange, you're instantly the captor of my heart.

("Erwin! Levi!" Hange shouted, pulling along a stranger to the said young men.

Levi scrunched his face in distaste, the source of his headache coming closer. "Oh, God, they're here. Bye, Erwin, I have something coming up---"

"Hold it right there, Levi! Sit down." Hange pointed his previously occupied seat, their grip on the person's hand still tight, never letting go, much to the black-haired man's displeasure.

"Stop talking to me like a dog."

Hange ignored Levi and turned to Erwin, who was glancing at the person behind their friend. It was only the start of the second semester but it looked like that Hange found someone they deemed worthy as a friend. Erwin chuckled at the thought that Hange was the designated social butterfly in their little trio. Beside him, Levi was grumbling about being late in his part-time job, which was working as a waiter in his mother's restaurant. Erwin shook his head and fixed their gaze on Hange, anticipation visible in his smile.

"So, care to introduce us to your new friend, Hange?"

The brown-haired person perked up, placing their hands on the stranger's shoulders, putting her in front of them. "This is [Name]! She's so kind, you guys. I invited her to lunch with us since she's been my sitting buddy in our class with Zackley. I know it's only been a week in the second semester but," they blew a raspberry that garnered a pretty laugh from you, "who cares about that. I think I found my platonic soulmate in her. And I almost forgot to mention, she's so pretty!" They all but gushed.

Your cheeks flamed, smile directed at the two men gawking at you. "Hi, I heard so much of you two. You're Levi, right?" The said man nodded with slightly wide eyes. "Nice to meet you." Then, the most beautiful blue eyes met with your curious ones. "Hello, Erwin."

Erwin breathed a dazed laugh. "Hi.")

The next letter came on a pink piece of paper.

--- I love how you place your hand on your chest every time you find something cute. If only you see your face, I think it's the most adorable thing I've ever seen. It looks so pretty on you, that delighted and awed look you got when you do it.

At the message, you purse your lips, your breath shaking as another memory plays in your mind. It's mocking you but you still let it replay. Because God damn it, you now know why that dog was given the name Sunshine. Everything comes back to the reason why Erwin broke up with you.

(You kneeled in front of the puppy with stars in your eyes. It wagged its tail at the attention, tongue peeking through its mouth as it tilted its head to the side, curious of the new person. You cooed at the golden fur and the flopped ears, your hand already reaching out to scratch the puppy's neck. It was a last-minute decision to adopt the dog, with Erwin impulsively turning back to the pet shop without a single word. You were puzzled when you followed him, of course, but when he presented the golden retriever puppy, snug in his chest, you were beaming.

Now, you were sitting on the floor of Erwin's newly-acquired apartment, eager to make acquaintances with the puppy he named Sunshine. You figured it was the perfect name since the dog seemed to embody everything positive with its energetic yet playful nature. You were being gentle with the puppy to make it get used to your presence, with your tactic working.

"Erwin! He's in my lap now!" you gushed in joy, the puppy looking at you with calm eyes. "Aw, look at you, you're such a good boy!" The puppy barked as if he agreed with your words, making you put your hand in your chest from the cuteness. "This is too much for my heart right now. Wait till Hange sees you, Sunshine."

Erwin smiled at the sight of you and his dog playing with each other. Sunshine was nuzzling his head in your neck, something the blonde man also loved doing. With a slight laugh, he called out, "Sunshine, don't take away my favorite person, okay? That's my spot right there you're laying your head right now." He walked to you, sitting behind you with his chest pressed against your back. He put his head on your other shoulder and inhaled your fruity scent. It's strawberries this time. "See, stop hogging my space, Sunshine."

His deep voice resonated on your back, making you tilt your head a little to meet his eyes. "Oh, come on, let Sunshine have his fun. You always nuzzle into my neck every time you see me."

"But he looks cozy there."

"How about this, why don't I stay over tonight so that you can have all my hugs instead, hmm?"

Erwin kissed your temple with a hum. "That's perfect.")

--- You are the personification of the butterflies going alive inside my body. You caused them and molded them into the shape of you. With that, I can't get you out of my mind because every single monarch fluttering its wing against my ribs is each little thing I love about you.

("Erwin, give me your hand."

He looked up at your random request. "Okay?" He still did it.

"Place it against mine."

You hovered your hand in between you, palm facing your boyfriend. He followed your instruction.

"I'm always amazed how big your hand is, Erwin." You giggled, making Erwin's cheek flush with a beautiful shade of rose. "It makes my heart warm for some reason, thinking you can cup both of my hands in yours." You noticed that Erwin was still staring at you with a funny look on his face, almost like he was feeling so many things at once. You laughed, shyly asking because of the intensity of his stare, "Why are you looking at me like that, Erwin?"

"You're so fucking beautiful, did you know that?"

Your face became warm at the compliment. "Oh, stop it. There are so many girls around campus who are leagues better than me."

"But they're not you, though."

"... Okay, what do you want, Erwin."

"I just want to compliment my girlfriend, that's all."

"... I hate you."

"I feel the opposite, darling.")

You crumple the small paper and pick another one.

--- You paint me with so many colors all at once. These colors signify what I feel for you. Color me all you want, [Name]. I want the rest of my life to be your canvas. Make me your masterpiece.

God, why is it that when Erwin says or writes something, flowers come out instead of words? Your jaw clenches at how easily this came from him. How can he casually write this when another person is beginning to worm their way into his heart? You read the small message again and you cover your mouth with your hand, the cries you carefully disguise as sharp breaths, coming out as you expect them to. There's no memory for this one because what he made you feel when you were together, until today, is the same as his message. You let him color you the way he wanted, too, and you didn't even know there was someone else in his mind the whole time he did it.

You feel cheated.

You furiously wipe the tears on your cheeks, choosing to torture yourself once again. As each message becomes crumpled on the spot beside you, your chest hurts so much. Why are you doing this to yourself? If your friends see you right now, they might never want anything to do with you. Here you are, crying your heart out to the messages Erwin left in this little jar, clutching on them like they're your lifeline.

--- You cradle me with so much care that I smile so wide even if I feel blue.

--- You are the most beautiful girl I know, now and forever.

--- Eternity is the word I think of when you come to my mind.

--- When you wear my clothes, it develops something warm in my chest. What would it be like to see you in our future kitchen together, dressed only in my shirt as you make your special breakfast? Just the thought of that sends me to celestial heights. I love you so much.

--- What would it be like to finally wake up beside you in our shared home? I've always dreamed of that ever since you said yes to me.

--- You're so kind.

Kind enough to let everything slide. Kind enough to be friends with the person he suggested, Marie. Kind enough to advise Marie on her unrequited love with a person you didn't know at that time.

--- I love the patience that you have.

You're so patient with Erwin, waiting for him to tell you the truth that he doesn't see you as his 'one and only' anymore. You waited so hard, looking at him with your star-filled eyes but he never said anything. You knew it from another one of Marie's friends, Carly Stratmann. How Erwin became even closer with Marie and how pitiful you look, like a kicked puppy because Carly mentioned that Erwin called Marie 'Sunshine' --- you also discovered that it inspired Erwin to name his dog that.

You didn't even know if what you felt was patience or denial at that point.

--- You have the biggest heart among the people I know.

You have the biggest heart that you forgave him and told him he did nothing wrong when he talked to you for the last time.

--- I don't know why but I ache at the thought of losing you.

He did.

Hange and Levi didn't know what to do and whose side to choose.

Hange chose to stay in the middle.

--- I'm sorry.

Were the words he said to you when he poured out that he started gaining feelings for Marie months after they started going together in this study group.

And it's the last piece of paper you read from the small jar.

The world outside you starts to pour. How fitting. Everything starts to become cold, seeping through the walls of your room until the chill reaches you, creeping through part of your body. You curse Erwin in your head for making you feel this way. However, you claw your chest when you realize that Marie doesn't deserve to have swords thrown at her. She has the biggest heart --- so kind, patient, caring, beautiful, and a girl worthy of the word eternity. It hurts so much that you can't be angry at such a sweet person. Instead, you direct your anger at yourself. You start blaming yourself for not breaking ties with Erwin sooner, knowing how much Marie became his object of adoration the moment he told you how she liked the same genre of books like him.

You don't know how long you've been crying.

It lasts until your eyes give out, only staring at the barren board you pinned your pictures on.

"I knocked on your door but you didn't answer." A tentative voice comes from the entrance of your room. "I just let myself in, if you don't mind."

You turn your head to Levi --- his declaration of having a crush on you during sophomore year echoing like a migraine.

"Hey," he murmurs, making his way to you and sitting on your bed. He wraps his arm around you, placing your head on his chest. "Let it out." Levi lets you cry again, hands clutching the fabric of his top, with him not caring if his sweater becomes stained with your tears. He gently leans his head on the top of your head as your sobs make him tightly close his eyes. "I don't care if I know Erwin first, seeing you hurting ... my mind's telling me to stay by your side instead. You shouldn't feel this way. If it were me --- fuck, what am I saying? You don't need this bullshit right now." He says in your hair the next moment, "I'm always here --- remember that, brat."

Cyclamens and yellow carnations slowly become delphiniums and proteas.

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aleksa-sims · 4 years ago

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The truth!

I moved in with N. at his Mom’s house. She was happy that I was there. My Mom already called her from the airport. 🤦‍♀️ She wants to come here tomorrow and talk to Nico’s Mom. Still, I didn't want to leave Nico's Mom in the dark, so that tomorrow she will be totally shocked! She didn’t deserve to be lied to by us! She was always so sweet and nice to me. So I started to tell her about all of this...mess! 😩😕

Me: Don’t you think this is all a bit strange? I mean, I was always here, before the holidays and now again. 👉👈

Nico’s Mom: I’m not stupid, A.! I can see for myself how Nico is trying to hold on to you. He has never done that before! And of course, if you two had taken your own place right now, that would be a bit hasty. But I think it’s good that you first try here and later..., why not?

Me: Idk what my Mom said to you on the phone exactly?? But my parents, they don’t want all of this! Actually, it’s just my Dad! He can’t stand Nico, so I’m away from home.

Nico’s Mom: Wait! Slow!.. Why, can’t he stand my son?🤨 OMG!.. What did N. do?😨

Me: Actually NOTHING! There was just this brawl with my classmates and my Dad got pretty angry!....Then he noticed Nico freaking out over me and he thinks our relationship isn’t normal. 😟

Nico’s Mom: Damn! Nico is a disaster! And I thought....Ugh! He always seemed so calm and relaxed since you’ve been here...Pls don’t tell me he did something to you?

Me: No, no...for God’s sake! No, he’s just trying to help me! I was addicted to Pills and my Dad...he says I’m taking everything from N. just because I can’t manage without him.😒

Nico’s Mom: You’re a drug addict? 😧... But you’re so...pretty and ... calm and nice, I never expected that! 😦

Me: Yea, now you know, I’m or was a pill-popping....failure!🙈😞

Nico’s Mom: Omg, no!..I didn’t mean that! I’ve become so fond of you in the last few weeks! You rly mean a lot to N.! He can’t deal with it! That’s why he’s so ....Idk? Difficult?! We’ll talk to your Mom tomorrow and then I’ll explain everything to her about Nico!

Me: Don’t you hate me now? �� I mean, I’m a bad person! I’m just making trouble for N.! 😔

Nico’s Mom: Come on, you are amazing. Despite all the stress, I see how well Nico is doing with you! Before that, he was never at home and just screwed up, but...you know why!

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ngl, your last post hit me like a fuckin brick. been stressy and depressy lately and it's so easy to feel like i'm going nowhere. I didn't really plan on living past my senior year of high school and now I'm here just... existing with no plans for my future because i don't know how to plan past next week. all the people around me talk about dreams and aspirations and I just sit over here like... maybe next month I'll keep choosing to live? who knows? (don't worry, I'm going to a therapist and everything.) but financial stress sucks absolute ass. i hate it. like if i literally just had enough money that i could buy more than $25 worth of food every week maybe my life would feel a little less... bad?

So sorry to dump on you like this, but I guess I'm trying to say you aren't alone and the feeling is real. We'll just have to keep making it, yeah?

okay a) I’m glad you’re still here, whoever you are, and b) don’t apologize for dumping on me. I wish I could just dump on someone, I might feel better even if they didn’t know who I was 😩

I just turned 31. I’m living with my mom and living paycheck to paycheck because not only do I have MY expenses to pay, as well as $400+ in gas every month due to driving an hour to work and an hour back home every day, I’m also paying part of my moms expenses. me moving in with her was supposed to help me start saving so I could look into buying a house, or at least renting a decent place until I can buy a house. I have yet to be able to save even a little bit. yes, I could get a mortgage loan because they supposedly have pretty good deals for teachers, but between everything I’m already paying plus a mortgage loan and house expenses? I’d be just as bad off. which sucks. I hate living here. by the time I’ve paid everything I have to pay, I’m down to less than $200 to get me through 3 weeks. I’ve literally been getting by on less than $30 by the time my next pay day comes around. I can’t even get my credit card debt down enough to be able to live off it for a little while. I’m so damn anxious and stressed about it all that I just sat in my car and cried the other day because it hit me how, at this rate, I’ll never have any of the things I want or be able to do any of the things I want to do.

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chachamare · 3 years ago

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ahh noo, kagami is actually my fave 🥺,, the way he means the literal world to me i cant even explain hhrngh (so much so im considering getting a tattoo of him SHHD😳) , but hanamiya is a very close second!! followed by aomine & kise!!

aarg!! yes!! oldcodex have such good songs 😩💙 walk & lantana i think are my fave ones they’ve done for knb

what do you think about last game? do you like how it ended compared to extra game? 👀 i love to hear peoples opinions on last game shdhd,, bc personally i rly like how it ended!! also i rly like all their new hairstyles even thou apparently lots of ppl hate them? 😭 mido’s hair looks SO much better in last game i- 🥴 but i think im the only one who thinks that hahahsh

Bruh Kagami ✋😔 what a great lad. we do love himbos in this house. the tattoo idea is really sweet! it's definitely a difficult decision, hell, if you want it then do it (just maybe not a huge tattoo all over your back of him or smthg 😂). some people get tattoos for less reasons.

ohhhh the extra game question... going into dangerous waters here, anon! so extra game is manga and last game is movie, right? so. as a takao stan, it's not surprising that i'm also a midotaka shipper and the- the thing midorima and akashi did... 💀 my dude. it's one of those things i always get a bad mood about and they didn't even let takao (or the other backup players) play! such a waste! their hairstyles 👀 i really like kise's, he looks so cute with the shorter hair. murasakibara looks like he got noodles in his face, the mangaka could've drawn it better tbh 😭 and midorimas- friend i- 💀 i wish i could say i like it but. it's not a fair comparison, i'm used to his hair from 3 seasons compared to a movie that felt lowkey forced. i like that his strict eyebrows and eyes are more visible with the new haircut, his serious face... 🤤 i don't prefer it over his previous haircut but i don't hate it. the others didn't change that much but i gotta say the animation from the anime seasons look so much better than the movie style, imo

the ending tho.... ☹️ it was so sad. like idk, it makes sense kagami wants to go to the nba (though i don't understand why he looks for america when japan has basketball teams too?? like idk the schools aren't even really "professional" right? 💀) but when i found out that he only decided that in the movie i was so mad that they gave viewers who don't read the manga such a heartbreak 😭 also big scary changes always stress me out (it's just a manga/anime but STILL 😔). he left his best friend kakdkfkf 😭

overall the movie, as i mentioned earlier, seemed a little forced tbh. they really went overboard with the whole demon eye and akashi's split personality "fusing" with him like homie i- what the fuck was going on 😳😳 it seems to me like fujimaki, the further he got into the story, neglected strategy and individual strengths and replaced it with over-the-top superhuman skills to keep it exciting which is really sad bc basketball games can be so exciting without everyone having eyes that see the future moves of all players lol. it's of course my personal opinion, i also wish he would've given jabberwock more personality (and more screentime causing trouble bc i'm always so ready for conflict 😳 give me the drama)

that was so much text i'm sorry, it's fun to discuss it and i do have opinions 😂

#ask #anon

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sparkledfirecracker · 3 years ago

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Here we go, part three. So I’m loving it all, we only got one person to keep on a short line, because we don’t know her intentions.

Let’s find out more.

Which is why when my uncle asked me to stay with them for a few days and take pictures of their quirky windmill house in the Hamptons, I jumped at the chance. It was the perfect low stress contract that I was certain I could manage even with my current state of perpetual nausea, but when the day came I started to have some regrets.

I forgot for a second that RDJ is her uncle and I was wondering who the has a windmill house in the Hamptons.

It didn’t help that I was leaving only a couple of days after Chris had returned from Los Angeles. Grayson was thrilled to have our little family reunited and was pretty disappointed when we broke the news that another separation was just a few short days away.

😔 the poor child, having to miss another parent again for a few days. Also the tug on my heartstrings. I sincerely feel her inner struggle.

“Yeah, but it’s not like real school,” Chris shrugged. “He could miss a few days and it’s not like he’d fall behind.”

That’s cute, but no. You’re trying to get him into a rhythm. You can’t just do this meatball 😂. So I’m fully team Whitney here.

He looked so much like Grayson as he sulked that it was hard not to laugh, but I as I bit back a smile, I crossed the room and stretched up to slide my arms around his neck.

🥺 he should cheer up and not be sad.

“Yeah, but I used to have him for weeks at a time and he never had any complaints.”

Even though she’s teasing him. I love how defense he’s getting

“You just wait, we’re going to have so much fun that he might not miss you at all.”

The shocked expression on my face😮. Meatball down, Whitney is hormonal and can start crying at whatever.

“I know and I’m glad you get to work and do something for yourself, but I hate being away from you,” he admitted. “I know that’s selfish because I just went to L.A. for work, but I really do hate it when we’re not together.”

This is just so cute 🥺

“You’ve gotta be kiddin’ me. Even when you’re tired and feel like you’re gonna throw up every two minutes, you’ve gone above and beyond for that kid.”

I read this in the heaviest Bostonian defensive argumentative accent I could. Hahaa, he’s not wrong.

I smiled sheepishly as I stretched up to kiss him again. His words were so heartfelt that it was hard not to find them reassuring and I was grateful to be navigating the complicated world of parenting with someone as grounded and supportive as Chris.

They are just so cute together. I love how he just assures her it’s all fine, still.

“No, Mama,” he practically whimpered as his lip quivered. “Stay. Stay for five more minutes.”

This child has me in a chokehold, I can’t. His emotions are some I feel so deeply.

“No,” Grayson scowled as his eyes filled with tears. “I don’t want pizza. I want to go with you!”

😩 stay Whitney, don’t make him break his little heart. He doesn’t even want to eat pizza. That’s not good, he’s upset. I’m an advocate for Grayson’s feels now too.

Grayson didn’t respond, but the sobs that I felt wracking his little body made it clear how he felt about that statement. I let out a sigh and moved towards a chair as I could already feel the exhaustion setting in. By the time I’d shifted him onto my knee and wiped away a few of his tears, Grayson was fighting to get sobs under control.

😔 I can’t handle Gray being upset over this.

“Why is Gray sad?” He asked as Annie followed him into the room. “Is he okay?”

Oh no Jakey is so sweet for asking if his friend is okay 🥺

“I brang some cars today!” He told Grayson, who had managed to stop his tears despite the devastated look still on his face. “There’s a blue one and a yellow one! You can use the blue one! Do you wanna see?”

Such a precious little friendship. Trying to shift Gray’s sad feels elsewhere.

“I’ll miss you too,” I assured him. “But it’s going to go by so fast and I know you’re going to have fun with Daddy.”

This is so sweet and got me all up in my feels.

“I’m fine,” I assured her. “I should have expected it. Chris just got home a few days ago from his trip to L.A. and now I’m leaving for a couple of days so it’s hard on him.”

You’ll be okay sweetheart. You’ll miss him, but you’ll be back home before you know it.

“No problem,” she shrugged as started walking to our cars. “We’ve all had mornings like that, I know how hard it can be to leave when they’re upset even when you know they’re going to be totally fine.”

It’s a phase, they’ll grow out of it. But it’s not fun at all. Separation anxiety.

Once I got back to my car, I sent a quick message to Chris to warn him about Grayson’s reaction and let him know that I was on my way before I set off.

He’ll probably be fine by the time Chris will pick him up. They’ll eat pizza and everything’s all good again.

As much as I loved Grayson, there was something to be said for car rides that weren’t filled with a million inquisitive questions from a four year old or the sound of Baby Shark on repeat. It was a refreshing break and quite relaxing, but the boys I’d left behind were in the back of my mind the whole time.

Who doesn’t need a break from that. Yikes, but yes anything to keep them entertained on car rides.

“I know,” I groaned. “And I was enjoying my drive with the peace and quiet, but as soon as I realized how nice it was, I realized how much I prefer life with Grayson around.”

You got this momma. You’re strong and it’s only for a few days.

“Oh, yeah, not too much. We’ll only have one or two beers. He’s kind of a lightweight so I won’t give him more than that.”

Lads night 🤣. I think he won’t be able to handle even one of the beers.

“I think I’m just having a good day.” I smiled at his eagerness for my sickness to be over. “But hopefully you’re right.”

I’m feeling really bad for her, because my sister is going to bad morning type sickness. Poor Whitney!

The nausea seemed to ease up a bit at first, but then it came back with a vengeance and by the time I was pulling into my uncle’s driveway, I was fighting it back as much as I could. Not wanting to vomit all over their beautiful front lawn, I leapt from the car, slammed the door behind me and jogged up to the front door. I was filled with relief when it swung open as they must have seen me arrive, but as my stomach turned again, I squeaked out an apology, covered my mouth and ran past my rather confused aunt and uncle as I sprinted to the bathroom.

Oh babe, you should’ve emptied the stomach right then and there. Holding it in can be tough.

“Whitney, I’ve been around enough pregnant women in my life to know the signs,” he informed her. “And Susan’s been through it twice herself so I’d say she’s pretty much an expert as well.”

Lol I wanted to say, stop lying they’re not stupid 🤣

“You do look thin,” Robert admitted. “Your mother wouldn’t be too happy.”

Oh shut it tin man. Maybe you should start wrenching your guts out.

Susan’s instructions left no room for argument and Robert and I followed her down the hall. As we went, I took the time to admire the house and it really was no wonder why it was being featured in a magazine. I’d been there before, but looking at it from a more critical, photography point of view, I had plenty to work with.

I love the warm welcomed feel here. Also her mind trying to find a distraction from the nausea.

“Well, you’re the ones who have to live here,” I shrugged. “So, if the world doesn’t appreciate your beautiful and eccentric tastes then that’s their problem.”

🤣 she’s got a point there. Plus RDJ looks like the type who doesn’t give two shits about what someone thinks.

“Definitely,” Susan agreed. “Especially with another one on the way, that one on one time becomes so important.”

Aaaw yes and I think they both will do just fine trying to balance two babies.

Whitney was very missed and there were a few mopey moments - from both of them - but they were embracing the bonding time. They took Dodger for a walk, watched a movie and made pizza together to keep them busy, entertained and happy. Bedtime was a bit rough for Gray without his mama there to kiss him goodnight, but Chris decided to be flexible and let him curl up in their bed with a movie on the TV until he did eventually fall asleep.

😩 this is so sweet and the patience of Chris towards Gray.

“Good morning, buddy,” he smiled as Grayson rubbed his eyes and scrambled up onto the bench next to him. “Did I wake you up?”

These two boys are so sweet and soft. They’re such a melting sight in my brain.

Chris quickly explained what the keys were and how each one made a different sound before letting Grayson fiddle around for a few minutes, pressing whatever keys he wanted to hear the various notes. Once he seemed to understand the basic concept, Chris picked a fairly easy song - Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, so that he would recognize the tune - and walked Grayson through it step by step. It was slow going as it was Grayson’s first time, but the way his face lit up with a proud smile when he realized what they were playing and that he was actually doing it right was one of those moments as a parent that Chris wanted to freeze in his mind forever.

I LOVE THIS CORE MEMORY!!! A MEMORY FOR BOTH 🥰

“I’m actually okay so far,” I tentatively admitted as I grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge and sat down at the island in the middle of the room. “My stomach didn’t turn as soon as I got out of bed so that’s better than most days.”

Some good old rest can do wonders.

“I wasn’t!” He protested. “I was concerned. Or you could possibly stretch that to annoyed, but I was annoyed about you and Chris ignoring your feelings and creating such an unnecessary situation. I was never annoyed that you were pregnant.”

Hahahahaa, keep telling yourself the uncle Rob.

“Chris would probably have a whole football team if I’d agreed to it,” I smiled, but then a thought hit me and after a moment of hesitation, I decided to get some advice. “But I’m a little nervous to be honest, just about how Grayson’s going to handle the change.”

🤣 he would, but he has to slow his horses down.

I nodded and tried to trust in the words of my uncle who had always been one of the wisest people in my life, but I winced as more doubts came to my mind.

Stop worrying Whit, you both are great parents. Look how Gray got of the situation with you and meatball tossing him back and forth. He’s a good child, he’ll do great and amazing.

“He might get used to it,” I agreed. “But he might resent me for the rest of his life.”

Lol, he won’t, he’s a child. He’ll have to tolerate his sibling regardless.

“I forgot what an anxious mess of insecurities you two are,” he teased. “But it’ll all be fine. It’ll be different, but it’ll all work out in the end. And if you have worries like this, talk to your husband and work through it.”

Hahahha uncle Rob is right and yes it’s easy to forget they are an anxious pair.

Spending time with my uncle always seemed to help me clear my head and I was glad they’d found out about our little secret even if I wasn’t supposed to tell anyone.

It sounds so heartwarming and lovely. There’s such a tight knit warm family vibe I’m getting from this ♥️

The photoshoot that day went incredibly well. The people from the magazine were lovely to work with and by the end of the day we had several beautiful pictures for them to use. I promised to have them edited and sent over by the following weekend and it felt wonderful to be working again and flexing my creative muscles. I was, however, notably more exhausted than after a normal shoot - especially such a casual one - and almost as soon as I’d had dinner and called to say goodnight to Grayson, I went to bed.

This baby is sucking the soul right out of her. Demon baby needs to take a chill pill.

Chris and Grayson were sitting on the piano bench, playing a simple but beautiful melody. Grayson was playing the keys on one side - just a few little notes on repeat - as Chris handled the more complicated part at the other end. They clearly hadn’t noticed my arrival and I took the opportunity to sneak a quick video while they finished the song. As the final notes rang out and Chris turned to praise Grayson for how well he’d done, I finally made my presence known as I started to clap.

🥺 this is so precious, I love it.

He frantically scrambled off the bench and sprinted towards me so fast that I barely had enough time to squat down and catch him as he threw himself into my arms.

THIS CHILD IS THE BEST AND HE DESERVES AN AWARD FOR IT!!!

Chris shrugged with a smile on his face that made my heart skip a beat as Grayson nodded eagerly.

This gave me such a pure feeling and it made me all warm and fuzzy.

“You told them about the baby?”

Hear her out asshole. Because of you she’s nauseous to begin with.

“I don’t mind, but does this mean that I can finally tell Ma?”

The pleading excited look this gave me in my mind reel is so adorable, I can’t.

“It wasn’t a rule and you didn’t break it,” Chris insisted. “You can’t help that you’re sick and it’s a pretty logical assumption to make, I’m not surprised they figured it out. But we can keep it under wraps for now. I think you’re right about telling Gray first.”

✍️ find an understanding man who is willing to see multiple sides to a story/conversation.

Grayson frowned briefly at that admission, but it didn’t take long for a grin to slide onto his face as an idea clearly popped into his head.

I JUST SCREAMED AT HIS CUTENESS. THIS BUT HIM TEACHING HIS SIBLING 😩 MY HEART CAN’T HANDLE THIS.

My career had always been important to me and I was lucky that our previous situation had given me time every other week to focus on work without missing out on any time with Grayson, but now it just didn’t seem as worth it if I was going to be away from my family. My younger self would have been shocked, but as I glanced at the two boys by my side as they carefully walked me through how to play the song, I knew that my priorities had shifted and I was happy that they had.

Sweetheart still having a career with babies is okay, you need your own thing. You got this mama, you’ll be okay. Your priorities might have shifted, but be please be selfish and do things for you too ♥️

The Sweetest Devotion

Summary: Pregnancy is hard work. The fatigue, the morning sickness and the strange new aches and pains are bad enough, but the nerves about how a new baby will change your family dynamic can be just as tough. Luckily, for Chris and Whitney, the excitement and love they have for their little baby on the way far outweighs any struggles that could pop up and they’re hopeful that Grayson will feel the same as they navigate their way through the first expansion of their little family.

Chris Evans x OFC

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Part of the Once Bitten/More Hearts series

Part Two

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Part Three

Working was always something that I loved. Once I’d managed to wriggle my way into a career that I actually enjoyed, I hardly ever turned down a job because I simply liked doing it and I knew how lucky I was to have the opportunities that I did. I’d missed it throughout the pandemic and - while Grayson was still my main priority - I was hoping to squeeze in a few little photoshoots before I got too far along in my pregnancy.

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