#[[ I'd say I'm sorry but I'd be lying xD ]]

[wombywoo]

It occurred to me the other day that during Quinn's super turbo trauma story, his neck probably wasn't slashed but choked. And now I have more questions, because somehow I can't stop thinking about your characters. So:

Did Quinn end up having a vision during that event? (Does he get them during every near-death event, or is it more rare than that?)

How the hell did he cope being with Marc? 'Cause I'm about 90% sure that guy would have got off on choking him.

When the taskforce was created, was Quinn still in his relapse where he thought he needed his visions? Did Liz find out? How does he feel about her trying to get him to have more visions? D=

Does Vincent find out Liz is using Quinn like that, and how does he feel about it? (Does Danny find out??)

In fact, how does Vincent feel about the fact an evil vampire caused a mass dragon killing spree and this was Quinn's first vision? I get the feeling that, while Quinn tries to shrug off these coincidences, Vincent is a little more concerned. XD

Also, in your art of Quinn with Marc, the wall says 196 people will die in an ungodly tragedy. Was that the dragon killing spree or another event we have yet to hear of?

Oops. 🙈 Sorry for so many questions! I just want to know all the things. And I can't help but love all your lore drops. <3

Ok!! OK!!!!! You are feeding me so well with these tasty questions auughhh thank you for finding interest in my dumb ramblings !!!!!

There are answers under the cut (warning for some heavy topics, discussion of injuries, domestic abuse, self harm, spoilers for a story that doesn't even exist, etc)

So.

Quinn's throat was slashed. It was cut with a knife, kind of a shaky first slice, but it got deeper and went all the way across; enough force to puncture his trachea, though it didn't sever the vocal cords; he was lying on his back and couldn't move, and honestly..he didn't really feel it at the time. It was all just a very numb, surreal feeling. I won't go into suuuper specifics, but thankfully some pressure was applied to the wound right away, he was resuscitated with cpr, and he was still able to breathe despite some complications to his airway, long enough for him to receive medical treatment.

But he did black out. And he might have seen things.

It's the only vision he's had that he can't remember...

~*waves hands all vague and mysterious like~*oohooohoo

Ok! Visions! So, for the most part, Quinn needs to be medically dead, albeit temporarily, for him to have a vision. Usually, his heart has to stop for one to happen, and he's just lying there, unmoving. Like..dead, dead. This should be a rare event, but uh...he's had more than a dozen visions, I'd say....

The thing is--he always comes back. Even in the worst scenarios (ie. not breathing for more than 5 minutes) he somehow always miraculously revives with minimal repercussions (sure, there's probable brain/heart damage, but it should be way waaay worse) So, he's kind of chalked up this vague 'immortality' thing as a byproduct of the visions...more mystery...

With Marc--yeah. That was just a bad situation all around. A lot of Marc and Quinn's physical relationship revolved around their dangerous power dynamic, so um. yeah. choking was one of the things they messed around with. Quinn actually requested it at the time, out of this twisted self-harm kink he'd developed. (he's, regrettably, the worst at coping with his trauma, so uhhh he feels like he needs to push himself to that same sensation of near death just feel anything at all and uhhh it's not good, you should not do this at home kids, but he feels like strangulation is the closest he can come to feeling alive just for a brief second and yeah he's fucked up he's not good I know..)

It was consensual stuff at first, but after one of their..sessions...Marc pushed it too far, he wouldn't let go and uh. Quinn suffocated and passed out. Marc did manage to revive him, but he...died for a second there. And he had a vision--one of the first dragon attacks in France that would later lead to its occupation by [insert evil vampire terrorist group]. Marc was actually comforting him after, he was just...rubbing him and telling him he was sorry and it was ok, so in the midst of a mental and physical breakdown, Quinn divulged what he saw. And Marc took him seriously, which was also rare. And they talked about it, and...it seemed ok for once.

It was only after that he realized how Marc wanted specific details, stuff he could use to harvest information and push numbers and invest in whatever type of bullshit could make a profit out of tragedy. They carried on with their relationship, but when it came to testing their limits in the bedroom....Marc took it too far again. And Quinn had another vision--a vampire massacre in [specific french location] and 196 people died, and he was crying as he told him how he saw it all from the perspective of a child. Marc seemed eager. He asked him even more questions. But...it was fine. He was still rubbing him, being calm. And Quinn had agreed to the choking. He wanted this. It was actually helping other people if he was able to use this information somehow.

But it happened again. And again. More times... Until eventually Quinn realized he had no say in the matter anymore.

The sad thing was that he convinced himself it was out of love; Marc was very passionate, this was just his way of showing him he loved him....

It became too much...after a while....

ANyway!

So, now we're in the present when Quinn joins the task force with Vincent~

At this point in time, he's gotten help with his mental state so he no longer feels the desperate urge to harm himself and induce his visions (for the most part), and is relatively stable (sure!)

Miss Major Liz is aware of his visions, to a degree. She had mistakenly thought Quinn developed a narcotic problem when she was his CO at some point (yes, he used drugs a few times to induce visions (it was about 50/50 successful)) Most of her awareness had come from Danny, who divulged his part in Quinn's #BFF-bonding-moment4lyfe (ie, forcing his friend to assist in drowning himself. twice) So she does have knowledge of some of the...wackiness.

At this point in our tale, she hasn't done anything about it. Yet. It's a testament to how off the books she works that she hasn't forced Quinn into a psych eval that will surely bench him for the next foreseeable uuhh forever. So she's keeping that on lock.

I do think that [at some point in this potential story of mine] she will consider using Quinn's 'talents' to their benefit. She's a hard lady, not afraid to trade dirty hands for even dirtier handshakes, so there will probably be a time when she wants to take advantage of potential knowledge that can influence her agenda....

Vincent...will not take this lightly.

Honestly, this whole scenario is rife with delicious drama, so I will simmer it on low and ponder it for future conflict in the [insert novel series teehee] to come

Vincent has a lot of feelings about Quinn !!!! and his visions !!! and the evil vampire agenda !!!! Too many feelings!! But all he wants is for his boy to understand that his safety and wellbeing and life are the most important things to him, and none of that is worth trading for a small glimpse at a future that will happen anyway. Quinn...disagrees. This is also teeming with potential drama, you see...

I have a LOT more of this type of speculation, but for now, I will leave you with this dump of lore and trauma for you to sink your teeth into~

Thanks for the saucy and delicious questions <3

[destinygoldenstar]

🌟Can Gays Coexist In Peace?🌟 - Total Drama Viewer Reacts to Disventure Camp Season 3 Episode 2 “Gone Buck Wild!”

I WAS VERY EXCITED TO SHOW YOU GUYS THIS.

So, I kinda maybe DITCHED THE SCREENSHOT EDITS...

Instead, for this season, you're getting complete digital art from me as headings.

I'll put these on their own in separate posts later.

SO I HOPE YOU ENJOY A GABELLIE HEADING.

Don't worry, you're not gonna see art of the same character over and over again. It's just 'who did I find interesting the previous episode?' 'what do I feel like?' Ya know?

I think these girlies are here to stay. So I gave them some spotlight.

...I know my art isn't great :(

Alright today we're going into the game itself! We got Red Yellow And Blue!

...oh wait, sorry, we got yellow, blue, and PINK.

OF ALL COLORS, YOU PICK PINK.

I like pink, but also, that's a color that screams 'disaster' when you put it in this setting.

I have literally no reason to make fun of Pink Team yet, but here we are. XD

Thank you all for the support btw. And your warnings that this season is terrible. Appreciate it.

I mean hey, if it's bad, I want it to be the fun type of bad. That's all I ask.

What did you say? "YUL ReGRETT this?"

I already regret it just from hearing that pun... /s

Alright, so... I'm doing it anyway. It's on me if I'm tortured.

I can't get over that the very first second of this intro is lady whats-her-name killing Oliver by shoving him off a plane.

Ooh does Lake's suitcase have a flower on it?

Don't say I'm not watching the intro every time.

XD

First minute, and we already have the child getting hurt.

WHOOPS.

"My bad! Never used one of these doo-hickeys in my life."

Yeah she didn't mean to do that.

She wouldn't willingly hurt a child, even if it's Fiore.

"Oh god, we're on the same team."

"WHO IN TARNATION DECIDED ON PINK?!"

Yeah I wonder how that's gonna go, since, ya know, Fiore's the main source of Ashley's downfall last time. And Ashley has a good motive for the money.

"I wasn't lying, I'd never used a parachute before, but I definitely chose to land on Fiore."

OKAY NEVERMIND SHE DID MEAN TO DO THAT.

WHAT THE HELL ASHLEY?

"Far as I'm concerned, even though I'd never wish pain to a little girl, she deserved worse than a kick to the head."

I mean... is it bad that I kind of get that logic??

Like, it's shitty cause it's a kid, but this is Fiore we're talking about. She WANTS to be treated as grown up by everyone.

So that's what she gets.

Plus she's a bit of a psychopath who would murder people for money, so yeah.

I act like Grett and Riya are any better...

I like Fiore too, so you know.

"Think this is where we split."

No. Don't split.

We need to talk about this.

"On the jet, you mentioned we would get a chance to talk."

Yes. Thank you.

"Seeing as we aren't on the same team this time... this could be our last chance. You think we can talk now?"

I know. This is a rather tragic circumstance.

You finally see each other again, and then you can't hang out?

I mean, they can visit camps, right? They never said you couldn't do that. They can still catch up.

"Oh um-sorry-I um... need to get to my team as soon as possible."

Tom.

Tom what's going on?

I mean... I think I get it.

After what happened last time, you might be freaking out...

...but come on. Do you want to sort things out or not?

Goddammit Tom.

"Let him go, Jake. He's clearly not interested in patching things up."

Yeah, that might be it too.

Though, it is in character for Tom to not want to talk about hard stuff.

He probably already moved on.

He has a new job. He has a new life now.

It just didn't work out. And now you suddenly see them again? It's gonna be like that.

"I don't want to assume things like last time. I want to hear it from him."

"His silence speaks volumes."

"After everything we've been through... is this really it?"

Surely not.

I wouldn't be able to take it.

We're two episodes in. You got time.

It's a lot of PTSD. People with that don't want triggers.

Idk I'm really trying here. I think they're gonna explain it at some point.

"It might be time to move on."

Awwwww 😥

He's not gonna be able to connect with anyone here.

Hunter has two girlfriends. James has a boyfriend.

He's alone.

And it's hard to move on from something like that too. It just really sucks cause she might be right.

AWWWW GABBY'S HAIR IN A PONYTAIL!!!❤️

"I hope there aren't too many from our season..."

UUUUUUUHHHH ABOUT THAT...

Yeah...

"After how you treated me on the jet over here? You're lucky I even acknowledged you."

YOU SLANDERED EVERYONE PUBLICALLY.

"If you guys continue to bicker, it'll be the death of both of you!"

YUS QEEEN 👑

GABBY PUTTING HER FOOT DOWN.

"NO FIGHTING AT THE DINNER TABLE!"

"I'm glad I have Gabby and Tess, but having to deal with Sheriff Himbo's grudge-"

DID YOU JUST CALL HIM SHERIFF HIMBO?! 😂

That doesn't have a right to be funny.

"I know there's no point in apologizing since you won't believe me, but I want to play differently this time."

I'll believe it when I see it. How about that?

"We can work together. As long as it's on my terms of course."

"But after all I've done?! I protected you this whole game! I helped you win the zombie apocalypse challenge, saved your life in the cave, covered up your plans so no one would suspect you're a PSYCHOPATH, and you STILL eliminate me?!"

"Hey! Words hurt you know!"

I thought you knew that 'Demon Child' is accurate.

You yourself said that.

"Dang, why did we have to get the little girl on our team?"

DAMN, NO ONE IS HAPPY WITH HER.

I mean look at it this way.

You have an easy first boot on your team.

"The problem is that last time, we lost almost every challenge because of you."

Uh... let me think about that...

*Does the math*

Actually, that is only not true one time. Episode 4.

Episode 5 in a half cause that was a collab between her and Alec's failure to cook.

So 1 1/2 out of 4 that's false.

Yeah, she has a point.

"I'm screwed."

YA THINK?

"Never told you this, but as a young lad, I was in the scouts. Really made a man out of me."

Look at Connor being useful!

"Grett, the human hemorrhoid."

Hemorrhoid?

OH.

MIRIAM, WATCH IT.

"Wow granny, you look just like this old woman I got accused of pushing down an escalator."

Oh yeah, Yul is here.

I almost didn't notice him till he opened his mouth.

"Also, if you call my girlfriend a hemorrhoid again, you'll be rolling down this hill."

I'd like to see you try.

Props for defending your girl I guess...?

Grett does not look happy about it though.

"To put it nicely, this team is a hot mess."

No it's not.

You have two queens who know how to play. Miriam's a good brains. You're a good brains.

The only reason it's a hot mess is because there's this one pesky stain here.

Get rid of him and you will see the light.

"What if we cover the tent in leaves?"

Does that work?

Does that actually work?

"Mind if I tag along?"

"I do mind actually."

Girl, what is your problem?

Just because he's dense and absent minded doesn't mean he doesn't want to help you.

You are literally beefing with your boyfriend because he can't remember every single detail of your words straight away.

"Alright, I know I look like a jerk for not remembering her game, but listen, Ally remembers a lot of video games. Remembering every game she talks to me about would be harder than advanced calculous."

Yeah. EXACTLY.

Why is she so mad about this? She should know he's like this.

Like... just tell him again?? Is that hard???

You act like he's ignoring you on purpose.

Jake and Allyson are gonna be besties.

"OMG MY LOVER IGNORES ME TOO!!!!"

"Is it even worth making a fire? The rain's just gonna come put it out."

Yeah why would you waste flint like that?

"I'd like to think about potentially forming an alliance."

Didn't they already say no?

NO MEANS NO.

"Hunter and Ally are a couple and James seems to be close to them."

Oh, that's true...

You can probably sway Allyson though.

And if Hunter is cool with it, boom. Four Person Alliance. Fiore and James are the minority.

"That's a risk I can take."

Yeah, I get that.

Jake's just like "I just came here to get some alone time with Tom AND NOW I CAN'T GET IT 😠-"

"I wanna discuss it privately with Jake now."

Oh?

*whispering* "Hey Jake, I think this girl is desperate."

"Relax, I just wanted her to go away. Her darn voice was starting to hurt my ears."

"I AM IN HEARING RANGE!!!!"

Awwww, Yul's suffering, how sweet 😄

Though I act like I'm better. I was out in the COLD at work most of the day. My skin was RED and I had FOUR LAYERS ON.

"What was my manager thinking sending me out here in a crop top?"

OH RELAX YOUR CROP TOP HAS FIRE ON THAT. THAT WILL WARM YOU UP RIGHT AWAY.

"And at least we still look good together."

If SHIT if your standard of good. Then sure.

God I still can't believe this is real...

"You all should have prepared better. I brought my alpaca fur coat, which not only is warm, but makes me look fabulous."

LOOK AT RIYA SHOWING OFF HER QUEEN STATUS.

GIRL IS FLEXING.

"For my next showing, I shall get everybody fur coats! We shall bond as a team making fur coats out of the fluffiest animals we can find!"

NO RIYA GABBY WILL SMACK YOU INTO NEXT TUESDAY!

"Riya's coat slays."

OH NO CONNOR DON'T TELL HER TO SLAY! SHE'LL DO IT!

"You know, now that you mentioned slaying, I WAS thinking about it..."

"I'm really worried about what this game is doing to Riya. When we're alone, she can be really sweet."

Yeah...

Though her being sweet off camera is kind of a shock, actually.

"But as soon as the cameras are on, she becomes someone else entirely."

Yeah because her reputation is based solely around being that someone else. Because the real her is the her that gets no success and no attention.

AWWWW LOOK AT THE BLUE TEAM BONDING OVER RAIN, THIS IS-

This is actually so nice. It is so nice to just relax for a bit and see characters bond.

This is so sweet. I like this. ❤️

I really miss stuff like this in Total Drama. Over the seasons, they kinda got rid of this stuff in favor of action.

This is taking its time. I appreciate it.

"When it rained, I was hiding in the camp, looking for something to help me with the Jensen problem."

And that was AFTER you were eliminated. Which was MERGE.

Damn. The Season 1 cast got lucky.

"What were you doing that night, Ellie?"

"Nothing..."

"I was just... you know... ruining a relationship... the usual."

And do not tell me "Ellie breaking them up was a good thing, actually!"

They were sorting things out on their own just fine until she butted in and fed lies!

And now look at the state of both of them not being able to get over it cause it hurt them THAT MUCH.

Don't tell me they deserved that!

If they were gonna break up, they would have done it on their own. Enough said.

"OH, OH REALLY, OH, so you don't recall stabbing me in the back and making me look like a moron on national television?!"

EXACTLY. THANK YOU.

"Well, it worked."

*spits a laugh*

Okay, that was good.

"BUT-BUT ELLIE COULDN'T HAVE DONE ANYTHING ELSE-"

Here. I will educate you.

"I didn't break it up to start an argument!"

"GODDAMMIT I'M GONNA HAVE TO RESORT TO BREAKING BRIDGES WITH A SLEDGEHAMMER!"

You better hope to GOD Gabby doesn't get a sledgehammer!

YOU BETTER HOPE TO GOD!

"You know it's bad when I have to be the voice of reason."

I... yeah. That is very concerning.

Still. Gabby slays.👑

Oh my god they're all in uniform.

I say that like they weren't in Season 1 too.

The PINK is just making me not take that team seriously. I'm sorry.

"PINK IS THE MOST INTIMIDATING COLOR!"

They're reminding me of Barbies.

Well, two Barbies, a Chelsea, and three Kens.

"Uh James? What are you doing helping the other team?"

That's his boyfriend.

I mean, of course JAKE is the one who says this.

"I DON'T TRUST THAT GUY! HE'S TRYING TO SABOTAGE HIS OWN TEAM!!"

"...I mean, I don't blame you for not trusting me. But learn to chill."

"I'LL CHILL WHEN YOU'RE DEALT WITH! IT'S NOT LIKE YOU HAVE A HAPPY LOVING RELATIONSHIP WHILE MINE WENT HORRIBLY WRONG AND WAS PUBLICALLY HUMILIATED AND GHOSTED FOR BEING ME AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA-"

"...well shit."

"They only let us film a new season here in exchange for repairing the environment."

So you set it on fire.

Sure.

God this is bad timing.

Oh my god XD

"How would you rate your Survivor experience?"

*Everyone goes in the red one*

"Fair enough."

"The yellow containers have eight mildly harmful animals."

What do you mean by mildly?

Mild as in a rabbit? Or mild as in a bear?

"And the red one contains four very dangerous critters."

WHO APPROVED OF THAT?!?!

WELP, SOMEONE'S GETTING MAULED.

Is a bever really that dangerous?

So... all the red is 40. All the yellow is also 40.

Just go for all the yellows. And the other two teams will split the reds, and boom, you win.

WHY WOULD YOU PUT THE CHILD AS YOUR DEFENSE?

BOO, PINK TEAM SUCKS.

Okay. AIDEN as defense.

WHYYYY?!?!?!?

WHAT IS YOUR LOGIC?!

Riya looks like she's just here to slay, honestly.

"I can attack and look good doing it. For my next showing, I am going to show you my secret football skills! They will fall before me as they tackle each other to the ground!"

NO RIYA FOOTBALL IS A DANGEROUS SPORT!

"Let's get the red container!"

GO FOR THE YELLOW. YA DUMBASSES.

XD

Okay that's just funny. Idk why.

Don't just leave the goat there- oh my god.

And this is just the second episode XD

Okay first off, GET OFF ITS ASS. IT DON'T LIKE THAT.

Second, leash it from behind and let it run. It'll chase you through the door.

But mostly, DON'T TOUCH THE ANIMAL'S ASS!!!

DAMN SHE JUST ONE SHOT HER!

👑

Why is Gabby slaying so much this episode?

"Hey! Gabby punched me!"

That was a SMACK.

And also, THAT'S THE GAME!!!

I DUNNO WHAT TO TELL YA.

DON'T. TOUCH. THE ANIMALS. ASS!!

Please don't fuck a wolf.

It looks like all three of them are trying to fuck a wolf.

Oh look at the Yellow Team working well together!

"Don't think I've forgiven you."

Well, you just saved her from Hunter's bullying, so...

She's not even on your team, secondly.

"No one on my team likes me!"

"Can you blame them?"

Not really.

THANK YOU!

I WAS VERY CONCERNED WHAT YOU WERE DOING TO THAT WOLF EARLIER.

ALSO THANK YOU FOR LISTENING TO ME!

Heyo. Tom. You're uh... you're kinda...

Oh my brain just got dirty. THANKS WOLF.

OH MY GOD LOOK AT RIYA BEING SMART!

GO OFF QUEEN! 👑

"For my next showing, I shall tame the wolf! And teach it human civilization! The better to eat you with, dear!"

NO RIYA THAT FAIRY TALE IS A VORE FIC!

"Change of plans! Go for the green containers!"

GO FOR THE YELLOW!

"Do you mean the crate or the team?"

*face palm*

NOPE.

OH GOD DON'T DO IT LIKE THAT!!!

Aw, Yul is suffering. That's nice. :)

GET HIM GOOSE!

She's just vibing XD

This challenge was made for Gabby.

Aw, Jake :(

Tom moved on. Hate to say it.

"Man, I have no friends."

"Seems like Tom's already replaced you."

OH GOD DON'T ADD SALT TO THE WOUND.

"He's been smiling more than usual around Aiden."

Yeah. Tom making friends. That's... pretty unlike him.

"But I was his sunshine..."

"I wouldn't be surprised if they talked before this."

Uh, Aiden was in Brazil, so uh... how would that be possible?

Jake's gonna be like "You really think I buy into that crap? Come on. You just want to hurt me."

"Which leaves Team Magenta with a messily twelve points."

Oh wow.

Okay. Noted.

PINK TEAM SUCKS 😂

I THINK WE FOUND OUR TEAM VICTORY.

"Hey James, can I ask you something?"

Is he actually gonna tell someone what happened?

That's shocking coming from Jake. But proud of him.

"Have you noticed how quickly Tom and Aiden became friends?"

Huh. He's CALM about it too?

Damn. Jake's development is actually consistent.

"Yeah, so, I haven't seen or heard from Tom in two years, and him quickly making friends like that doesn't seem like him. And I have trust issues, so I don't want to assume the worst out of it or believe Alec. Can you help me out man? Thanks. Appreciate it."

I gotta admit, I expected Jake to be pissed and not talk to anyone about this.

"No. I'm not on their team."

DUH.

"I think you should talk to Aiden."

Good idea. WOW. 👍

Talk to Aiden. Find out the truth. You find out Alec is full of crap. You clear the air!

Jake is actually taking this really well and doing the right thing!

"What are you implying, Jake?!"

Wh-?

Why are you mad at him?

He said FRIENDS. He didn't say cheating.

CHILL.

"Well, it just seems very unusual to me."

As Jake WOULD assume. He hasn't seen Tom since last season.

He just wants a full picture and understand what's happening. Which is justified.

"Respectfully, you don't know Aiden. Be careful what you're suggesting."

I'm pretty sure he was talking about Tom's side of it.

JAMES. CHILL.

"Woah, no need to be that hostile."

YEAH. HE ASKED CALMLY AND OPEN MINDED.

WHY ARE YOU UPSET?!

Come on. If Jake BELIEVED Aiden was cheating on James with Tom, WHY WOULD HE CONFRONT THIS TO JAMES SO CALMLY AND SUGGEST TALKING OUT IT IN THE FIRST PLACE?

He's coming here cause he doesn't want to believe it and wants solid proof and help to assure him that it's a lie.

And James is getting all fired up for no good reason.

"You are making stuff up about my boyfriend!"

ALL HE SAID WAS THAT HE WAS FRIENDS WITH TOM.

WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!

James, you're killing me right now!

You did in Season 2 as well, but still.

"I didn't make anything up! Others have noticed too! Are you blind?!"

And now you're firing up Jake.

James, ya fucked up.

"Listen boy toy. Clearly you have trust issues. My boyfriend is not cheating on me."

So why are you yelling at him instead of helping clear the air?

YOU'RE MAKING IT WORSE.

JAMES JUST STOP.

"Are you calling me a liar?!"

"A lie would have to be smart. You're delusional."

Bruh.

James, you fucked up.

And now I remember why I don't like James XD

I'm surprised Jake was handling that well though. He actually learned something from Season 1. He didn't explode until James snapped at him.

I'm proud of my boy.

But now I think he is gonna be bitter about the friendship because Tom won't talk to him, so it just further proves that he doesn't care about Jake anymore in his mind.

Clearly Jake has no friends, so that hurts even more.

"Well, anyone I ask for help is being a dick to me, so you know what? SCREW PEOPLE. SCREW EVERYONE HERE. YOU ALL SUCK."

"The casting team really dropped the ball inviting Jake back. I mean, have they seen what he posts? Crying about never finding true love? Hashtag Thirsty."

Okay that's just mean XD

"This is the fortieth day since the incident... I have never been the same... I'M OUT OF ICE CREAM!! AND HE HAS NO SERVICE WHERE HE LIVES!!!😭"

🎵"ALL ALOOOOOONNNEEE, PRETENDING HE'S BESIDE MEEEEEE..."🎵

Yeah, so Jake has NOT BEEN DOING WELL since Season 1.

I don't blame him one bit.

And I don't blame him for assuming the worst either.

And James is still a piece of shit.

"Ever since Jake blew up on James-"

James blew up on Jake. Were you not eavesdropping?

"Fiore is the weakest member of the team. If we want to win challenges, she should be the one to go."

Which is fair logic, actually.

She is kinda useless without her strategic power that no one is falling for anymore.

"Jake was on my side on voting Fiore, but since the argument, he's been begging me to change our vote to James."

Do I blame him?

Honestly? Do I blame him?

I was coming into this thinking "Yeah Jake is gonna be an asshole. I'll support him, but NOT because I'm on his side."

...well shit. I'm on his side.

"This is the perfect chance to get revenge on Fiore. For Will, Lill, and even Nick who I don't care about but I'll stick him in there too."

WAS THAT SURVIVOR REFERENCE?!??!?!

HEYO!!!! I KNOW THAT LINE!!!!!!

VERY CLEVER DISVENTURE CAMP!!!! VERY CLEVER!!!!!

I understand losing Fiore.

But also, I kinda want James to go.

'JAMES'

Nice. Very nice.

'JAKE'

Yeah yeah yeah, fuck you James.

'JAMES'

XD

Fiore's handwriting.

I can't memorize everyone's handwriting. But Fiore's is just so obvious.

'FIORE'

Oh wait, is Fiore going...?

I mean it makes sense.

'FIORE'

OH MY GOD SHE'S GOING.

Welp, bye kid!

OH.

OH MY GOD. ASHLEY?!

ASHLEY LOCKING IN JAKE AS AN ALLY?!?!

That's... actually very smart of her.

Because the two are voting against each other, and if Fiore goes, that tension makes Ashley an outcast and the next to go because Allyson and Hunter are sided with James-

So the best move is to get James out.

By doing that, she locks in Jake as an ally, and evens the numbers with Allyson and Hunter, because they won't work with Fiore!

Wow!

Well played! 👏

THAT WAS A SMART MOVE!👏

I LIKE THAT!

"I can't believe you guys sided with that spoiled brat!"

Look who's talking.

"SPOILED?! I HAVE NOTHING BUT A SURROGATE GRANDMA!"

"From last years champion to first boot."

I know, right? That's crazy!

HOW THE MIGHTY HAVE FALLEN.

"Good luck having a paranoid nutcase on the team."

He's not wrong.

I'm not gonna defend Jake and say he's perfect. Cause no.

He's the problem person on this team.

"I'm sorry James... but Jake is the only person on the team I've formed a small bond with in this short time, and I don't plan on burning it now..."

That's crazy.

I thought it would be Jake and Allyson.

Jake and Ashley was NOT on my bingo card.

"I can't help but feel bad."

Aww.😥

He's remorseful about it.

"Am I right to suspect something between Tom and Aiden? I don't have that answer right now, but in case it's true... tonight was payback. Now Aiden will feel what it's like to have the person you love taken away."

DAMN.

OKAY. DAMN.

I mean, he's acting out of impulsiveness, right? HOLY SHIT MAN.

I mean, PERSONALLY, I think you did Aiden a favor.

But that is SO MESSED UP.

What did I say?

JAKE IS AN ASSHOLE.

I FREAKING CALLED THIS.

WHAT DID I SAY?

WHAT DID I SAY WOULD HAPPEN?!?!

HE TRUSTS NO ONE.

YAY JAKE IS AN ASSHOLE!!🥳

...that intention was still fucked up and I won't defend it.

But congrats on starting your asshole journey!👏

I...

Okay that really picked up at the end there!

There's some stupidity happening, but when is there not? That shit's been going on the past two seasons.

I did not expect James to be the first boot but you know what? I'm happy about it!

Dude dug his grave!

I'm looking back at that scene real quick and YEAH. Jake was being very calm and kindly asking James to help him out and talk to Aiden about the friendship with Tom. He said nothing about cheating.

And then James just EXPLODES on him FOR NO GOOD REASON.

Like, SHIT, NO WONDER JAKE VOTED YOU OFF. YOU GIVE QUITE A NUMBER OF RED FLAGS.

The top comment I just saw XD

Except he DIDN'T?

Hear me out.

If Jake ACTUALLY instantly believed that, we wouldn't have talked to James at all. He wouldn't have come to James to ask for clarity on what's happening.

Who else could he talk to? Tom won't do it.

It's because he DOESN'T trust it that this whole argument happened.

Or at least, he doesn't WANT to trust it.

BUT GODDAMMIT, JAMES GAVE HIM NO CHOICE NOW.

It's not that he believes Alec, it's that he has a terrible social life since his season and he's hurt by it, and no one is helping him figure it out.

I am all for Jake's Asshole Arc!

That past two episodes was a good build up and starting point to it. It makes sense for him!

YES! BE A DICK! HATE YOUR TEAM! HATE EVERYONE! RUIN YOUR LIFE AND RUIN YOUR CHANCES AT THIS GAME!

You're doing amazing, sweetie! He's gonna fuck up everything.

Aiden is going to LOATHE YOU.

He deserves to be loathed by him though.

OH THIS IS GONNA BE FUN :)

[disasterbuck]

Hi :D

kudos to you for actually choosing an emoji for each wip xD

13. 😭😭 34. 💦💦 21. 💋💋

thank you haha, I'm actually really proud of the emojis I chose! 🥰

also I'm sorry but I have got absolutely no motivation for the last two atm so I wrote extra on the first one instead, hope that's okay!

😭😭 - fwb misunderstanding

"Buck." Eddie propped himself up on an elbow so he could look at Buck more squarely. "What on earth about this–" he gestured at himself, "–made you think I'd be ready for more?"

Buck felt his confidence begin to crack and forced himself to put some more distance between the two of them. Eddie was looking at him with confusion in his eyes, like he couldn't understand why Buck would ever think he'd want to be in a relationship with him.

He supposed it was his fault. It was always his fault for assuming that people who slept with him wanted anything more than his body.

He'd just really thought that Eddie was different.

"Sorry," he muttered, looking away.

"It's okay," Eddie said with a sigh and another quiet chuckle as he lay back down beside him. "Just… please. No more."

Buck squeezed his eyes shut and tried not to let the words cut him, but he was already bleeding. If he had known Eddie only wanted sex, no strings attached, he never would have agreed in the first place. He didn't do that anymore – didn't Eddie know that?

He felt used, reduced to nothing more than a body, and the fact that it was Eddie who had done this to him made it all a thousand times worse. Eddie was his best friend, someone he trusted implicitly and wanted desperately to make a life with.

But Eddie didn't want him.

Sitting up, Buck swung his legs over the side of the bed and leaned down to collect his discarded clothes from the floor. Then he stood, pulling them on and telling himself not to cry until he was in his car. He knew from experience that the worst thing he could do right now was cry.

"Buck?" Eddie asked from the bed. Buck ignored him, doing up his belt. "Where are you going?"

"Home," Buck said curtly, tugging his shirt straight and then scooping up his jacket.

"What… right now?"

Eyes stinging, Buck walked to the door and grabbed the handle.

"Buck!" Eddie snapped, and he faltered.

Closing his eyes, his shoulders sagged in defeat. He didn't want to have this conversation. Please, don't make me have this conversation.

"Will you please tell me what's going on?" Eddie asked gently.

Unable to resist, Buck slowly turned around. His teeth were clenched as he fought against the tears which wanted to spill, and he could tell his face was red from all the emotions swirling through him. He was angry at himself for getting so worked up when Eddie was still just lying there with nothing but a curious frown on his face.

Rubbing harshly at his jaw, he said, "I can't do this."

"What?" Eddie asked, his frown deepening. "Why not?"

The complete lack of understanding on Eddie's face made him want to scream. Hands clenching into fists, he managed to say, "Because you don't want more."

Remarkably, Eddie still didn't appear to understand.

"So you're just gonna leave?" Eddie asked.

"Why exactly would I stay?"

-

Make Me Write ✨

check out more snippets I've written for the 'make me write' game

[colourfulshadows]

Thinking about The Drop™ again. Long and weird post, sorry, with a thought experiment more than a real theory I guess. Wrote this at 3 am when I couldn't sleep xD

I'm not going to argue that Lestat's abuse toward Louis (and Claudia, but focusing on Louis in this) is OOC in general. In fact, I think it fits his character, his impulsiveness and works with the themes of "being a monster" and his abandonment issues triggering that behaviour (I'm not excusing his behaviour, just trying to explain it).

But

The Drop?

(CW for SA)

I know I know that Lestat even acknowledged it himself during the trial (well, the lestat from louis's retelling) and I'm not saying that Louis is lying that Lestat did abuse him to that extent. But the drop feels OOC for me. Sometimes I wonder if it's all a metaphor for another similar horrid thing Lestat might have done instead. Because there's this thing with him not possessing the cloud gift at that point in the books.

I have that thought that maybe... What if Lestat SA'd Louis? And Louis didn't feel safe to tell Daniel that after hearing how Daniel spoke about Claudia in that context? Who knows the books, knows that Lestat canonically SA'd someone. It would recontextualise a lot. The flying in S1E1 during lovemaking? A metaphor for part of the sex, maybe even subspace. Louis letting his rage/revenge at Lestat out through violent hate sex with *stabbing* of all things? Louis looks almost dissociated during sex in the "distracting Lestat so Claudia can plot" phase but not during kisses etc. Then there's the way Louis doms Armand later.

What if actual flying = something very intimate in the show (yes well I don't think it's far fetched to think Santiago would be an exhibitionist then). Armand having to fly up to fetch books for Louis. Armand's aerobic evening in the back of the theatre. Armand flying up the stairs before revealing his past to Louis. Armand descending from the bookcases in "no pain" after rashid left, but showing Daniel is all right (could be wrong with the order of events in that scene though).

Armand makes Daniel fly and crash on the ground in 1973 and afterwards Daniel has this extra haunted expression.

I'm probably overthinking everything. I don't think that's actually canon. I just like to analyse and theorise. It's crazy and far fetched and has plot holes but that tiny corner of my brain is saying "but what if it's not?"

If we were still on the internet of 2010 I'd say "thank you for reading all this, here's a cookie *gives cookie*"

[redstringraven]

for the tmnt 40th anniversary: 23 and 32!

\TwT/ !!! thank you much!

TMNT's 40th anniversary ask game!

23.) what is one of your favorite TMNT fics?

ough, i'm admittedly very, very bad at reading fanfic for a few reasons: 1) since i'm also a creator, i often have to decide if i want to use what free time i have creating or engaging with art made by others, and i often opt for the former; 2) i'm an extremely slow reader partially due to how i learned to read, because of this i'm usually pickier about where i put my reading time (if i schedule myself any); 3) i refuse to read fic if i'm not on my desktop with my firefox extension that lets me use the floaty comment box, because it brings me joy to leave lengthy, thorough comments. i love leaving the types of comments i'd like to receive, and my brain gets very cranky when i can't. all this to say, i haven't read a lot of tmnt fanfic since circling back to one of my childhood fandoms. ene i'm trying to be better about it because i very much believe in supporting community, i just... haven't quite gotten around to a rhythm that works for me yet, i guess. not for a lack of wanting, tho. however! i love In The Shelter of Each Other, by @hamstermastersamster; as well as Anger and Management, by @halogalopaghost; and I'll Be Ok!, by @joyfuladorable. just to name some! i also remember a fic from my childhood where raph was babysitting... someone's kid (might've been april's?) and he taught them that if something was an "ouch" that meant it could hurt you and you shouldn't touch it. so, the oven was an "ouch". i don't remember the title because i was, like, fourteen, but i remember that specific detail and loved it very much. shout out to that author. i've also got a few fics i'm reading/trying to keep up with that are still in progress, but i've barely scratched the surface on them because... again. i am slow. lD;; but i am also trying. bless those who're patient with me. i'm so, so sorry.

32.) what was the first thing you've made for TMNT?

i might have stuff from my high school years lying around here somewhere, but you'll have to pay me to post it. i wish i could say i was kidding, but college shot my relationship with my art in the foot. <xD i have a folder of stuff before 2018 that's referred to as "the otherworld" for a reason. we do not venture into that fog... silent hill... but! i'll share some of the first sketches i did in my circle-back. please tolerate the shit phone-photo quality; my phone is obsolete to the point several of my apps will literally no longer open due to incompatibility with the OS. i'll also share the first round of sketches i actually published, so you can see the private sketchbook testings verses me being like "i need to make myself put something out there, here it is".

here's the link to the above published post! really is wild how after i started drawing them more regularly, my own style quickly dug its little fangs in and never looked back. xD;;

[proto-jenna]

Been seeing a lot of Rayman headcanon posts, so I thought I'd share mine. This is about his world, and a few characters within it.

First off, every game is essentially a new universe. When the current god entity of the universe dreams, those dreams manifest into reality. Each dream is different from the last, but often similar. Similar enough that Rayman returns every time, but not necessarily everyone or everything else. Each time the universe changes, some things go missing, some things are added, and a lot of things change. None of the characters know this, and they go from game to game, universe to universe, blissfully unaware that anything changed.

For example, Rayman knows Betilla in R1. But in R2 Polokus dreams that Betilla is now Ly, and as far as Rayman remembers, she was always Ly. R3 rolls around, and Rayman has no recollection of either of them because they don't exist in that universe (I don't count Ly's statue easter egg, unless we're trying to make sense of Razorbeard's easter egg too). In Origins, suddenly Betilla's back and it's like she was there the whole time, now she's the one who created Rayman. Ly becomes a forgotten dream, someone nobody was sure ever existed.

Similarly, Polokus and the Bubble Dreamer are different iterations of the same god-entity whose dreams define the world. In R1 and RRR, the god-entity's dream didn't give itself a physical form, and instead is the world itself... or the heart of the world. I also think the god-entity intentionally avoided having a physical form to avoid the wrath of the rabbids.

In R3, the god-entity takes a low-profile physical form that no one would suspect: Mawpaws! Think about it, they can fly to seemingly anywhere, they're big and majestic, sparse and mysterious, and they're always magically there to pick you up if you fall (except for the final boss, which has the ONLY death pit in the entire game). I don't have any evidence for this one, I'm just Mawpaw-kin so I had to include this somewhere in here XD

On a related note, there is a canon connection between Rayman's world and our world, thanks to RRR2. I think Polokus and the Bubble Dreamer are also direct connections to our world, in that they are representations of the dev team; the irl people who literally dream up Rayman's world and make it a reality.

I also think the Magician(s) in Origins/Legends is another iteration of the Magician from R1. Initially I thought he might be another version of Mr Dark, but both the final and scrapped plot don't really support that. I think the Ales Mansay version of the Magician is just a teensie now. Why? Because the Bubble Dreamer dreamed it, and as far as anyone remembers, he was always a teensie. And also probably for the same reason that all playable characters besides Rayman and Globox are teensie re-skins in Origins; because the dev team focused their time and money on making levels, environment art, and fluid controls rather than fleshing out the world and its inhabitants... er, I mean because the Bubble Dreamer only had so much mental energy to dream, and spent it all on the world itself so all friendlies are teensies now.

I think a lot of friend characters don't show up after their debut game because they're never dreamt of again in the constantly changing universe. I think the Bubble Dreamer is always dreaming new things, so inevitably some dreams end up forgotten. In the same way that devs were probably encouraged to come up with new whimsical worlds and creatures to inhabit them with each new game, rather than bringing every minor character back over and over. All of this to say that Uglette and the Globox kids were forgotten dreams, since she was cut from the final game.

Which means, in Origins/Legends, Globox and Rayman are lovers. Sorry, I don't make the rules. They share the same conception of life in polite society, their taste in music, dance, and the arts in general. A friendship grew to legend, and a legend grew to myth. Nothing could keep these two apart. No one gets THAT close to someone without exploring each other's bodies, come on.

[error-dream-was-found]

I think I only asked Elm this, but I found it in my notes, so I thought I'd share. :3

C!Loud Duo but in Manhunt. :)

How I imagine how this could work, especially with how much they hate each other, is they're stuck in c!Dream's body together.

Which not only forces them together completely but also makes it so the Hunters, which will be the main 5 for sure, don't have any reason to think about giving c!Dream any mercy. They think he's just lying.

To win and get c!Loud Duo apart, they have to kill the Ender Dragon.

So, XD will fuse the two together, make sure to keep the 5 in a circle around c!Dream until he bolts off, and then it's like a normal Manhunt. :)

This also includes that they can hear each other at all times and have the compass.

Just some food for thought. :)

Hi, sorry for taking so long to answer.

This is such an interesting idea and ngl it looks like a lot of fun. By lot of fun I mean my two favorite characters having the worst time possible lol

I feel like this can go many different ways depending on what time period are we talking? I mean like is this taking place during dsmp? If it is, is it early on, in the middle, post prison? Is it fully separated from dsmp? Because y'know this affects the dynamics a lot. Not just between c!Dream and c"Q but also among the hunters.

Like if this is separate thing, then we have 5 quite functional hunters, which is great. Buuut if it's the smp, god forbid past prison arc (I mean you said loud duo really hate each other so this gotta be at least around butcher army or so? Not the times early on when Dream and Q were on okay terms) then we have a nacroleptic guy who is either sleeping or would rather be sleeping, an aspiring alcoholic and a cat who are also brainwashed cult members, a totally not obsessed warden and c!Sapnap whom I struggle to find a good description for. In conclusion we have like 2 functional hunters and one of them is very weird about it and the other is also very weird about it but in a way that borders with sexual tension.

But what I really love about this idea of yours is c!Dream and c!Quackity because god this is good. Forget everything c!Q ever did during his visits, this is the real torture. As you mentioned, they hate each other. And I'm like the worst person for this because I suck at character understanding and all buuut I feel like they would have a super hard time cooperating.

Because like correct me if I'm wrong but isn't c!Quackity kinda- kinda poor with this whole surivival thing? I could be wrong but yeah ... At least compared to c!Dream, c!Quackity is severly lacking in the parkur/speedrun department I'd say. Therefore it would be better to let c!Dream take a lead right? Esp. if we considered manhunts cannon pre-DSMP.

But bad at character understanding as I am, I know for sure that c!Q would not sit back and let c!Dream get them to the end. He'd want to be in charge, to feel in control. Even if that's a good way to get em killed. Which rises the question of whether they can fight over the control of the body or no because if yes then they are in for some complications. I mean, c!Dream'd obviously not want c!Q in control.

In a way it could be almost funny, 5 disfunctional hunters vs 1 and a half of manhunter lol. In either case it's an interesting idea and I love it and I'm rambling so thank you for asking hope I didn't get too carried away here

[autumn-foxfire]

Oooh, are these the episodes where Shinichi almost gets caught by Gin in the locker? I think they are! I'm excited, that moment has such great HC potential!

Shinichi the moment he gets a hint of the BO: All care for his cover goes out the window and he gets reckless.

I'd say it's interesting that in a situation where the BO are involved, he isn't worried that Ran has accompanied them, when he won't even tell her his secret due to fearing the BO killing her, but I guess Gosho didn't think about that. No, wait, as I was writing this, Shinichi thought about it but he's quickly put any worries to the back of his head.

You know, Shinichi, if Kogoro and Ran were aware of your situation, they would be able to help you get the disk so much easier. Ran could use Shinichi's name to get it for him, saying the man might be related to a case he's investigating so he needs to check it. Just spitballing some ideas here for you, Shinichi.

How... how does Kogoro in these moments not realise that he is not the one solving the crimes T-T I know he's dumb and prideful at times but come on, he is smart enough to be a detective.

Shinichi using the victims dying message as a way to get the file he needs without raising suspicious, he's resourceful at least. And then once again Ran, in a very weird position in this series, is the one who hinders Shinichi.

Okay, I say it a lot but it's because I mean it, I love when we get to see Shinichi be rash and reckless, I love his flaws. He had to mentally talk himself down because he's got what he wants and now he just needs to leave but he can't do so without wrapping up what he had started even though he wants nothing more than to get away and follow the scent he's found. It's in these moments we see him be a teenage boy who just wants to return to his normal life so badly.

Then stop waiting, Ran. Stop waiting for a man you don't know will return and finally live your life. And when Shinichi comes back into it eventually, then you decide what you want to do.

And stop lying to yourself, Shinichi. You have changed, you aren't the boy she remembers, not anymore. You can't go through what you have without changing. The way you lie to her is the biggest proof that you have.

"Your always crying." She is, because Gosho doesn't know how to write her beyond crying love interest whose life revolves around a man and we hate it. Ran deserves better and I'll say it until I am blue in the face. It might seem like I complain about her writing more often than most but that's because hers is probably one of the worst in this series.

Shinichi, you shouldn't be running with such an important disk in your hand.

Shinichi's lack of interest in girls is so amusing. He's very gay, gay, homosexual, gay.

Oh, this episode introduces the soccer belt. You will become one of Shinichi's most feared weapons.

Agasa is much more fearful than Shinichi is XD

The dreaded coin locker. I can't wait!

My dog is trying to liveblog as well T-T

It's Shinichi's luck that he gets picked up by jewel thieves though. He must hate his life sometimes.

Shinichi: Can I go one moment without being involved in a crime?!

Life: No <3

Yamamura should not be a police officer. He's bragging about how he misused his gun...

Shinichi to the criminals: I'm sorry, I have bigger fish to fry than you two.

Imagine being shaded like that by a boy who looks like he's in grade school. I'd never live it down.

Shinichi really did not think this through. He's down two of his main weapons and he's going to confront criminals that have bested him multiple times.

Gin has got such a cool voice...

Gin helping his partner, how kind of him.

0219. A number that Shinichi is sure to never forget.

I LOVE THIS MOMENT SO MUCH. It's such a small one but it's such a good one to explore Shinichi developing trauma from almost being caught and killed. I did a small drabble on tumblr which involved him developing claustrophobia due to this, associating the small and suffocating spaces with almost being killed.

It's so great too because Shinichi resents Conan, he hates how his body has been altered and he can no longer live his previous life, and yet it's due to Conan that he is able to investigate the BO as well as he can, it's saved his life more than once.

Annnnd he's hiding the truth from Haibara T-T I know he said he would protect her but protection is not leaving them in ignorance. In fact, especially for Haibara, it puts them more in danger.

[evelhak]

Feeling daring today - Haizaki for the character and ship bingo ;)

Your takes are much more interesting, so there may not be anything illuminating here but I tried. xD

*Non-sarcastically normal. Haizaki is a pretty neutral character when I think about him by myself, I just don't have that special connection to him.

*However I love him when you talk about him and I'm sure I would love him more if I just had an incentive to write about him. But I don't feel anything like that because you're already giving him justice. My brain doesn't really work unless I feel like I have something substantial to contribute, which I don't.

*Haizaki definitely still gets a lot of unjustified hate, because he was framed as a villain and people then interpreted his every action as coming from the worst place imaginable, while other characters' actions get understanding just because they can see those characters' sides but can't see Haizaki's since he wasn't written in a sympathetic way. On one hand, that's fair to me, if your fic needs a villain it makes sense to pick a character whose motivations were not discussed deeply, so you can turn him into as much of a villain as you want, because you have no need to think about that particular character so deeply. However, the rate at which this happens to Haizaki perfectly exemplifies how the same dynamic happens in real life, especially at schools. He has the outward characteristics of the person who is always the easiest to blame. Not that there isn't stuff to blame him for, it's just that when he gets blamed for more than his share, it becomes a vicious cycle. Not to say it would affect his likability to me even if he never grew less violent or got his shit together, because my like and dislike for fictional characters is not based on morality or whether or not I would like that character in real life. 😂 I didn't pay that much attention to him solely because I just overlooked his story as pretty been there done that. Any character depth he has is implied at best, because he's a side character. I would much rather see an actual depiction of the dynamics that get projected onto him. And you are doing that, so, I'm not complaining.

*I do think Haizaki is pretty silly, he's so macho but he's also kind of wishy-washy about it. Like, one minute he can be thundering on like any of the other macho characters but then his line for changing his mind and going like "you know what, not worth it, actually" is much lower. And somehow he gets depicted as pathetic for that, even though it may actually just be common sense and self-preservation.

*Honestly I need to remind myself that Haizaki exists, sometimes. I'm sorry. He just wasn't that compelling to me initially. I didn't demonise him (I'd like to think that I don't demonise anyone) I just wasn't interested enough. I knew there were reasons he acts the way he does but I didn't make actual effort to find out. You've done some good to me, reminding me that my perception is more limited than I would like, because I tend to pride myself for considering everyone's viewpoints. (Not 100% possible, but I try.)

*Well you said it, Haizadick is not an inaccurate term, no matter what way you look at it.

I didn't ship anyone with Haizaki because I didn't think about his life much before talking to you, so...

*Congrats, your Haizaki and his relationships are now basically canon to me. : D

*I just put that second tier text there because I imagine it's where the relationships that last a bit longer would go, and I think Haizaki just has many short relationships before maybe ending up with his end game.

*I mean I assume he has had fun short relationships with many girls.

*And probably many one-night stands.

*I literally just got it in my head that maybe he experimented with a guy once, while I was making this. He seems like a curious type even though I'm kind of assuming he's straight.

*Yeah, I theoretically get why these are ships but no I don't really get it, I would be lying if I said I truly deeply understood it.

I know my shipping tiers are a mix of "I actually root for it" and "I just sort of think it would happen" but that's what you get from me. : D

[1unpaid-intern]

Ok so I'm kinda new to tumblr, but I just can't get this fanfic idea out of my head. So since I'll probably never write this/ lose motivation half way through, I might as well share it.

Soooo I've come across a really good ghost/calamity xie lian AU fic (Dark Sword, White Flower by Luna04 on ao3 if anyone's interested) and I've come up with my own take on that premise, because it's just so intriguing.

(English is not my first language, so sorry for any mistakes)

Also spoilers for tgcf (obviously)!

Almost all fics I've read make it so Xie Lian dies in the coffin Lang Qianqiu put him in, but even though that'd be pretty cruel (and would therefore make sense in universe xD) I just don't buy it. Jun Wu specifically wanted to make life as painfull as possible for him both psycologically and physically. Xie Lian getting stabed through the heart for decades would be a dream come true, so he definetly wouldn't let him die. Because if you ask me, he definetly knew. As white no-face he was stalking XL constantly and you're telling me he just stopped after his second banishment? XL was still suffering, since his luck got sealed away, so you bet that he's been watching him day after day while eating popcorn and going like: serves you right little sh*t (because we all know he's petty like that).

Instead I'd have XL die trying to stop the human face disease from raining down on Yong'an. In the original Wu Ming sacrifices himself, but what if no-face stops him by scattering his soul. XL then makes the ultimate sacrifice and even though all those resentfull spirits should kill him no matter what, in order to make it a little bit more poetic let's say that right before he gets hit, XL ascends for the second time since he regained his morals and tries to make up for it. (In the process he also breaks his shakle. And I know that you're supposed to also be imortal as a god, but Shi Wudu got killed by having his head ripped off and I just have this head canon that XL would be fine after that because JW just won't let him die.)

Now the "problem" that arises with this premis instead of the coffin-death is that JW absolutly knows about XLs death. If he lets the rest of heaven know that, it'd eventually reach Hua Cheng. Aaand oh booooyyyy. If he found out that his god not only died, but none of the other gods, not even the emperor himself, prevented it by helping him, the temples of those 33 gods wouldn't be the only thing on fire. Because think about it, the reason HC keeps on living is XL, but if he thinks he's gone, then the only thing that'd keep him going is revenge. HCs end goal would then be to become strong enough to even kill JW.

But I can also see this playing out differently. We know JW wants XL to follow in his foot steps and become a calamity, therefore needing to become a ghost (as he says when they're both trapped in the Kiln). So he'd definetly consider the posibility of XL becoming a ghost. Considering the guy has a sword for everything (looking at you virginity detecting sword) I could imagine that he also has one that can tell if somebody's soul is still wandering around even though they're dead. Obviously JW would want to find him and turn him into a calamity. But if he a) tells the other gods that XL is a ghost then atleast Feng Xin and Mu Qing would also be looking for him or b) only tells them that he died then somebody might get the idea to use the aforementioned sword and leading us back to a). So the most logical thing would be for JW to just lie about XL getting banished a second time (similar to how it originally went down).

While I like both scenarios, I'm kinda leaning towards the second one with JW lying, because as soon as XL ascendes for the third time he's gonna be hella confused why nobody is freaking out about him showing up in heaven, followed up by him becoming suspicious of JW.

One thing I've been thinking about a lot was what's special about XL as a ghost king, what differentiates him from the others. HC got his red robs, silver jewelry, blood rain, wraith butterflies, E-Ming and power over luck. He Xuan has his black robes, great acting skills (seriously give this man an oscar), never ending hunger, skeletton fish and power over the seas. Qi Rong (while only having the title of a calamity and not actually being a ghost king) has his green robes, green fire locks and his habit of trying to imitate the other calamities (e.g. hanging corpses & eating people). Bai Wuxiang has his simple white burial robs, the iconic half-crying half-smiling mask, a spirit calling cloth flag, Fangxin aka Zhu Xin, manipulation and the power of the human face disease. Things I've seen a lot in other fics and that I completly agree on are: XL can turn his nails into long claws (similar to Lady Dimitrescu I'd imagine), he doesn't want to be found so he shape shifts a lot and he helps out the common people, especially children and mothers (since trying to help others and making up for his past mistakes is basically all that keeps him going). While these characteristics are great, they aren't enough to make him stand out yet. One idea I'm really proud of is to make XL a puppet master. Because correct me if I'm wrong, but the only "ghost typs" we ever were introduced to were sentient weapons, possed objects, humanoid ghosts, ghost animals, water ghouls and puppet masters. And just imagine XL using threads and puppets to fight in addition to Ruoye. Like, imagine him fighting similar to Sasori from Naruto, the Spider Demons from Demon Slayer or ErrorSans from the Undertale AUs. I also think he should stick with the burial cloths he was wearing as white no-face (maybe with some blood on them to make it more creepy) but obviously adding his signitur bambu hat with some flowy long vails.

I wouldn't change to much about he whole XL posing as the Yong'an goushi backstory. I would only have it so Lang Qianqiu finds out that his goushi was actually a ghost king and XL fleeing so he isn't stuck in a coffin for decades. That way when LQQ finds out about XL being his goushi, it also serves as the big reveal.

I'm not so sure what to do with the Banyue kingdom backstory though. I would like for XL to take Ban Yue as his little adoptive daughter, but if he went back after the kingdom was destroyed, then woudn't he take care of Kemo and the other ghost soliders right there? That would lead to Little Pei never luring people in, therefore erasing the entire Banyue arc and I don't know how to feel about that. Yes, not much would change, were it to play out, but that's the first time XL meets the "earth" and wind master. Also JW led them to Banyue pass (and also to the ghost bride) in order to damage Pei Mings reputation, so he'd lose believers and therefore would be easier to beat later on and that's kinda important. Not to forget he used a puppet for that and with XL as a puppet master he'd definetly be able to get more info out of it, leading to raising his suspicions again.

Aaaaand that are all the ideas I have so far, also my fingers hurt from typing.

Maybe I'll continue this some day, since I probably won't stop obsessing over this AU any time soon. (Also if you know similar fics please let me know, I feel so starved rn)

[ssa-dado]

Hi, me again, the anon with the recent... hotch vibrator asks... I'm going to be honest, not really the moniker I'd like to have for the rest of eternity so if it's not claimed yet I'm going to be 🐾-anon

I just wanted to tell you a) hope the cold shower helps and I take it as a good sign you need one ;)

and b) the ask you anwered before is actually not from me, just to clear up some confusion. (But honestly, I read that ask and was like: shit, I don't remember sending that, did I send that? because this person spoke from my soul xD)

Anyway, just wanted to let you know since I suspect there was some confusion. And you're not a loser, I mean, if anything, we're all in the same boat, we're using tumblr in the year of the lord 2025 to thirst over men double if not three times our age soooooo as we say in Germany: Wer im Galshaus sitzt...

-🐾

AAAA sorry if it wasn’t you. I’m just so... confused AAAAA

Anyway, the shower was... cold. I'd love to say refreshing, but I would be lying (And it didn’t even work. I’m still thinking about him being a mess over a piece of silicone... oof)

(...sollte nicht mit Steinen werfen)

(hope google got that right)

Common, nochmals vielen Dank, dass du deine Gedanken mit der Klasse geteilt hast (ich hoffe, Google Translate redet keinen Blödsinn)

Ummm I love you. Thank you for matching my freak and... thank you again for reaching out!!! This made my day, my week, my year omg I can't stop thinking about it AAAAAAAAAAA

[lavenrain]

Chapter 2 - The BMW Devil

Our next story features a sisterly pair. Well, I guess not anymore. Captured by a serial rapist of all things, poor girl; they don't do on screen deaths of the woman, but every first crime I'll now assume they're dead-on arrival.

Aside from calling the kidnapping of a high school girl a waste (because she isn't old enough? xD), he decides its best to meet their client at a... host club? I'm not immediately familiar with Kabuki Cho style places but it looks like a strip/night club to me. Not surprised they know him by name!

You did go. No one to blame but yourself here, even if your introduction is less than professional.

Oh yes, the famed XYZ cocktail! Although, I feel like if we were a little more serious you could've explained the meaning and given her a little faith. This man is all theatrics. If we're going off of last time, the looking down her shirt, pulling her bra open, groping of her thigh and less than appropriate flirting will save her 190,000 yen.

Yeah so, like last time even though he knows the bar is the perfect place to find information, there's some random 3rd party crook there to prove how competent he is. Which, okay, this kind of stuff probably happens a lot because Shinjuku is the closest thing to Detroit I can think of, but dude. "Imagine if Ryo wasn't here," said everyone in the district.

So, understandably, the guy sees Ryo and is like, well well well Mr. GUN user. Are you bold enough to shoot me in front of all these people knowing the bullet we go right through me, fufu. Very valid argument that I hadn't considered. Human flesh is not dense enough to stop a large caliber bullet, but Ryo did have some fancy slow bullet last chapter. Take that petty criminal-

Lady do not fall in love with this man. Do not. I hope it hurts more than I think it does.

You know what's on his mind, Makimura. And it's as I said with a twist! He did all that to bring the killer to light. If I were the killer I'd stay as far away from that place as possible, but then again, to be a serial rapist who kidnaps in broad daylight you've lost all rational thought.

So, I assume they live in a dingy apartment because that's the norm for most hitmen... not really but you can tell who decides to use their wealth and who doesn't. I did not expect him to have multiple stories at his disposal. The woman gets to sleep there too to prevent her from being attacked? Great! Now prepare to get no sleep while this man tries to assault you at- oh, sorry.

His lady friend got to you first. His lying lady friend at that. You knew that wasn't Ryo. And that brings up an interesting point(s) because right after, he says sends her home to her own room. Why not keep her around if you're going to continuously flirt with your client anyway to make sure she knows your perviness is directed to someone to reciprocates? And, more importantly, she lives there?! Is she another client or a woman from the bar?!

First mokkori! I think more people would benefit from this kind of separation. I'm not sure if I could handle it, but if I'm looking for less than ethical means of avenging my sibling or lover or whoever, I'd also take the bad with the good. At least he's decent looking.

The guy does show up eventually, which hurray for us. Not sure how he went all the way to Ryo's room without bumping into his other tenant or tenants probably, but manga magic it is! The curtain effectively saves the woman, but the guy absolutely dumps bullets into Ryo's sleeping body, allegedly. We all know it's not him, but where is he?

Smart. No one knows what the guy is up to at night; an extra layer of mystery to beef up the appeal! Also, what do you mean wake you all up, it's still the middle of the night!

He was under the bed. I have to wonder what he was thinking the whole time between her silently asking for him to join her after all and the cockiness of the killer. Dude was probably giggling his ass off. And I guess he has a point if he's hiding then he has no way to look at the killer's face... that certainly didn't have the potential to backfire.

I do admire a sense of justice! He'll make those bastards pay for the death of those 5 girls, while giving the sister peace of mind. Warms my heart.

Love me some "you mess with the wrong motherfucker" shenanigans.

And

you

definitely

did

Ouch.

I love him. No matter the weapon he's an excellent marksman, his explanations are fun to reach and his method, at least here, is noble. Shooting a guy with arrows that if he removes them will permanently damage his vital organs and deep tissue, all to do even a small fraction of the trauma he's undoubtedly made the other 5 (almost 6) girls go through in their last moments. Saeba Ryo , you angel.

Kaboom! Good riddance.

Uhuh....

Overall review

The case story was more put together, the art style is still breath taking and the everyone's reasonings are sound. I came out of here with a lot of questions that are probably too specific to be answered but that's what headcanons are for!

I've already warmed up to his character here, so anything past this point will hopefully be a bonus. So far Ryo is painfully dramatic, but the kind where I can't fault him because plot reasons say all of his antics are for the good of the client. We also got to see more of his versatility as a professional sweeper too!

Until next time!

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[temporary-gentleman]

Hi! For the ask game; can you do 7, 8, and 21 for Micolash? (Also, love your art and The Cruellest of All fic, I slept at like 6 am reading it the other day XD)

Hi, thank you for asking!! :D (and also what THANK YOU I adore your art as well 😳 and sorry that the silly fic kept you awake at impossible hours LMAO)

7. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like?

So many things, actually!

I think I just love it when writers and artists see past the "madman" side of him we see in canon and are willing to portray him as an actual human being with emotions, issues etc. He is a pretty awful guy if we judge him based on the game alone, but having varied interpretations about his reasons, background etc. is really one thing I like about this fandom!

8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?

When I dislike something I generally don't engage with it, so it's difficult to say I despise it... I haven't come across anything I hate anyway since I avoid content I know I won't like.

21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?

Oof this one's tough, too many favorite things... I'd say describing his little mannerisms is one of them. Friends have told me I'm good at this and it's really enjoyable to add little quirks and details to his overall personality.

What I don't like: he takes too much space in my brain so I don't have room for other characters. 😩 (I'm lying I like it)

[walkingstackofbooks]

DS9 4x22 To The Death thoughts (I’m re-watching, so beware spoilers for future episodes!) [20 Aug ‘23]

I really like the frequency of references to off-screen Breen - it helps make them feel like a real part of the universe even without having been seen much.

"Every night I'd tuck in my son Ahjess, and two hours later he'd crawl into bed with me." Love me a random Dax fact

"What makes you such an expert on children?" "First in my class in pediatric medicine." You dolt, Julian XD Honestly, I'm surprised this has never come up before though!

"Just because Worf lives on the Defiant full time doesn't give him proprietary rights in the mess hall." Worf v Julian let's gooo

Aw, Julian moved, I wanted to see what Worf would do XD

Quark being all worried about Rom! Bless ♥

I adore the way Julian gets straight to work in an emergency -- and his "that includes you" to Kira <3

"Omet'iklan, control your men. These people saved our lives." Is this the first time we've met Weyoun? (It is.) It's so characteristic of him to care most about his own life.

"Your psychographic profile is required reading" - love that for Sisko, honestly. He's so good at thwarting them that he's A Known Threat

"What would you say if I offered to make you absolute ruler of the Federation?" Weyoun, surely if you read his psychographic profile, you'd know power doesn't interest him?

Ah, there we go! "I'd say your psychographic profile of me isn't as good as you think." Classic Sisko deadpan, we stan 😂

Weyoun Vs Sisko is fantastic

"There's a lot of things about this mission that bother me, but lying to the Jem'Hadar is not on top of my list." You say it, Miles!

I always kind of liked the Jem'Hadar, they're only messed up because they've been made to be, and they stick so unwaveringly to what they think is good.

"I'm holding you personally responsible for the actions of your men." "That's as it should be." Ace, loving this!

"As far as I'm concerned, on this mission, I'm the First." Oh, I ADORE Sisko. (And I'm so glad the writers didn't go down the route of calling them Alpha etc. I can see that having easily happened...) [they do later, don't they XD]

Worf is STILL so bad at ignoring people questioning his will to fight/his Klingon honour???? You don't need to prove a thing, but you really need to get a handle on this weakness, dude!

Somehow I genuinely didn't realise this was a practice until the lights went on! Great stuff

"You fool. My men and I, we know all about the gateway." Again, honestly great respect for the Jem'Hadar. Maybe because the Vorta are so awful 😅

Weyoun's sulky huff!

"I would have guessed at least fifteen." Aw, he looks so pleased at being thought of as that old!

"How old are you?" Hehe. I can only imagine his awe when she tells him...

"I stopped counting at 300." "You don't look it." Amazing.

"What is the point of doing battle if you cannot enjoy the fruits of victory?" "You mean sleep?" "No, I mean spending looking nights singing songs of your deeds." I do like his point

"And good women." Jadzia's definitely flirting. And also *knows* how good the women are with that knowing look.

Omet'iklan must hate the way Weyoun acts so dismissive and bored of the ketracel white ritual.

Okay I can appreciate Worf acting in response to Miles being touched... but also he needs to back the fuck up.

"So if I order you to leave me alone you will?" Odo is already So Done with Weyoun. And I am Here For It.

"Are you ready to go home?" "No, but I am ready to end this conversation." Odo yes XD

Odo being so uncomfortable about the Vorta/Jem'Hadar view of him will always be a thing I enjoy watching. Sorry, Odo.

Miles recording so many messages for Keiko and Molly - I don't think we get to see him like this so often and it's lovely. Not quite sure of the words in looking for, willingly vulnerable, maybe?

"You record these too?" "Doesn't everyone." My heart my heart my heart! I so want to know who everyone writes theirs to.

"I didn't know that was public knowledge." "You told Commander Dax." Honestly, Sisko, surely you know by now telling Dax something means telling everyone XD

"I already want you to know if somehow he does carry out his threat, he will not live to boast about it." "That's... very reassuring, Mr Worf." Sisko very much doing a 'what the hell do I say to that?!'face XD

"I am Chef Miles Edward O'Brien. I'm very much alive and I intend it to stay that way." I love him. That was a great mimic.

"Don't worry, you'll make honoured elder yet." JADZIA! Oh I really love this little moment!

The gate graphics are so TOS portal in City On The Edge Of Forever / All Our Yesterdays and I love it

"If you have to ask, you'll never understand." I like the Sisko-ness of it, but I also don't like writing off the Jem'Hadar as incapable of growth and learning.

*Shoots Weyoun* oh, fantastic!

"I think there's been enough killing for one day." Yes, I DO LIKE the Jem'Hadar

Love it when our guys win the Jem'Hadar's respect, despite still being viewed as enemies.

[psychelis-new]

Hi, Lys! I had a very strange but cute dream a few days ago. So, I was alive in my dream, but I was in the afterlife. It was a hospital I was in and it contained all the souls who passed. My dad was there (he passed 2 years ago 😔) and he and I were talking. He said he was married to the woman thst murdered him xD (she did irl). He showed me pictures of their vacation together. After that, a nurse comes in and asks me if there's anyone I'd like to see who also passed away. I thought for a bit and listed my pets (they passed irl too). Then it hit me, I wanted to see the celebrity who I loved the most (he also passed a few years ago irl). After I told the nurse, a second passes and there he was... my favorite celebrity. He looked so happy to see me. I was so happy and was hiding behind my dad lol. My fav celebrity (we'll call him J), said he would love to take a photo of me in this form. Meaning that I was a living person visiting those who passed on. God, I was so happy. We talked a little bit (barely lol) and I woke up. What do you think this means? Especially the marriage between my dad and his murderer? Thank you!!!

Hello my dear First of all, I'm very sorry about your loss. My deepest condolences. Second: "He said he was married to the woman thst murdered him xD (she did irl)." like... you mean she also murdered him or they were married irl?!

Anyway... I think this dream wanted to kinda comfort you but also show you that you may be feeling a bit disconnected from reality atm or that you're wishing to escape reality as it may be tough (ofc especially after what you've been through); you may feel lonely, sad or even neglected.. or you're neglecting something in your life (an emotion in particular). You may still need to process your loss, to grieve it properly (maybe all of them: your father's departure may have triggered your other losses): and it's normal, such events do require lot of time, work and patience to heal, and two years may not be enough to do it all especially if you're alone in the process and don't know what to do. And even more if there's a history of unhealed losses in your life. You're in need of someone or something to comfort you and care about you, show you love (as a nurse), and that's also why you met your deceased pets and fav celebrity: so that they could give you support and make you feel better. You're probably still stuck in the past and cannot leave it yet (for obvious reasons, I'd say). But you are being guided to heal and take care of you. Honestly from what I am getting, the sentence in which your father says that his wife killed him was a sign for you somehow. I think he wanted to communicate with you and tell you to take care of you and start seeing the past under a different and more positive light and... try to heal and be happy.

Ofc I may be all wrong: if you think you actually went to the afterlife to meet them all, I'm nobody to say it's not so. You know it better what is going on inside of you... just take good care of you and really, ask for help dear.

All the best<3

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

I thought I was gonna be doing this around an hour ago but it wasn't up yet xD But!! Here I am :D

AAHHH they're actually married y'all this is wild I'm so happy for them :)

Can't imagine my joy when I see tarlos again lol- anyway xD

Awww they're so cute :')

I love this little vlogging thing ngl

Hellooo sir

Hurricanes o.o

Not the AI generated images xD

Uhh possumsss

Sure

I mean it might be but still freaky xD

Oof hey guys xD

Nahhh it'll be fine you guys have always been way weird lol

AAHHHH hi Chenford :))

My lovelies <33

Lol you will not sleep more

Bro's staging an intervention 💀 XD

Ay Lucy mind yo business xD you can definitely over prepare sljfhs

LOL he's getting her that way xD

Iconic Tim slay

OOF hey Aaron xd

I saw a clip title and- yeeeah sorry bro

Why is this room so big

This therapist is judging you xD I'm joking but yk

The mood lighting xD Aaron lol

Yeah bro you're just dependent on her

Bro won't talk about his trauma but this he wants figured out xD

"Celina rejecting me or me getting shot" 💀 SLFKDGHDKS AARON'S

AN ONLY FANS SLFJDSK??! BAILEY

A spy agency 😂

So this is the explanation of why we see all of this lol

He made sure there wasn't shark swimming lol

They're idiots I love them <3

"Hey. I'm married" XDD they really are idiots

Oof Aaron and Celina 😭

AARON NO

Aaron. No.

Bro's just not good at. emotions xD

I mean. . . girly. . . take the laptop- xD

Nah I'd feel guilty lol

"I'll take it" SLFKHKDS good for that lady lol

XD Smitty

"You asked for my advice" "I did not!!" XD

Oof why they all looking so stern lol o.o

Bc she did the thing?

Yeeeah xd

Oof o.o

Bestie yeeah that was dangerous

:'/ :( honey

xD the dogs lol

"Is it even really helping?" "Hey!" THIS EPISODE IS HILARIOUS XDD

"I'm kicking you out of the car" slfjdfhsk tim

OPE the guy from the promo o.o

Tbh I expected all Nolan and Bailey and while that wild help the isolated vibe (cameras do that too though) and I do love them, I'm glad we get the others too lol

Especially with a shorter season xD

Okay good glad we're disturbed xD

Is he gonna be the only other guy there lol

Okay good he's not xD

But he is there

Nolan stop stalking him

Oh so they're bandages?

Billionaire playboy philanthro-

No don't talk to him xD

Nolan why 😭

SLFJDHSL her narration xD she's an icon

She's probably also right slfhs

At first I thought he said like what is or smth but lowkey I'm glad he fully pronounced her name :)

Nahh girl's in denial

DLFJFKS HIM PULLING OVER

There weren't even birth charts lol!

"You didn't say we couldn't talk about boys" "That goes without saying" xDD bro is suffering

He's gonna let some of it happen though to distract Lucy lol

How do you expect her not to study xD

Bestie 💀 xD

What's with the blood though o.o?

Uh oh xD

Bro's going through it

Is he lying though-

Nahh Tim mentioned it so I bet he's telling the truth

Is Celina not going through it enough 😭😭

No puke is not good o.o that's head trauma 😬

I mean obviously it was but yk that's extra not good