#[ without having dislocated it ]

[milkweedman]

TDF DAY 2 (june 30)

Onto the fancy jacob lambswool. This wool is ridiculously soft and fine even for a non-jacob fleece, but for a jacob it's almost unbelievable. Were it not for the fact that it's clearly piebald I would be very suspicious that it is actually rambouillet or some other fine wool. But it's jacob and I'm even more fond of it for that.

Anyway, for my first attempt I wanted to see how distinct I could keep the colors while still combing it all at once. I did white on one side, gray in the middle, and brown on the other side. Definitely didn't homogenize but also didn't stay distinct at all, so if I want a nice barberpole through the colors I probably need to comb each color separately and then just spin them all together.

I spun most of this one on a drop spindle until I fully destroyed my right shoulder like an idiot (an idiot who now can't raise it's hand without its shoulder dislocating instantly), and switched to supported. Supported was definitely less painful, but I'm still having the issue of not being able to keep my arm upright for long enough to make a lot of progress. So, this will need to be spun on a wheel.

Will benefit from being plied on a wheel too I think.

Mostly because it's thin enough that I really cannot visually tell how much twist I'm adding (and nor can I feel it because it's so thin and soft you really can't feel a single ply.) At least with a wheel I have an easier time being consistent, so I think I could get a much much better yarn on my wheel. That'll probably have to wait for next weekend, idk.

Anyway, here's the finished skein, steam blocked and twisted up. It's 1/10th of an ounce and 23 yards (3 grams and 21 meters). Way denser than I was hoping for. I can probably go a bit thinner, but I did think my average with this fleece would be thinner right off the batt.

Not sure how I'm going to go about spinning the rest of tdf. Maybe I'll try waking up early (well... earlier. I already wake up at 5am for work) to spin before I leave. I don't seem to be able to use spindles anymore without extreme pain... problem is the same is also true to an extent of my wheel. My body is such a piece of buzz killing garbage, but whatever. I will figure something out as I am not yet emotionally ready to have to quit doing tdf. Probably next year I will not have a choice, but hey ! Not thinking about it.

Probably gonna spend the rest of the day knitting something with this laceweight to see how it works up.

[theatrekidenergy]

I’m chronically ill. I’m a figure skater. I use a cane when I’m not skating cause I have really severe chronic pain that gets especially flared up by any warmth. And this morning I had the bright idea of “guys, fall is coming, I’m gonna go on a run this morning. Just a quick 10 minute run.” I then went on said run (against all better judgement telling me “this is going to be bad for you later, you’re allowed to let your body rest, you’re already athletic, you don’t need to prove that to anyone, you need to stop ignoring your health.”).

For context I live in Texas. And I only get pain relief in very cold environments (such as the rink). It was 78° at 6am. And humid. I’m flared up to no tomorrow. I only ran for 10 minutes and when I got out of the shower I fell over immediately and sublexed my hip. I just don’t know what to say really. Why does taking care of myself hurt so bad?

[thekidsarentalright]

the universe can be so funny sometimes w coincidences bc i just realized classes start on the 3 year anniversary of me dislocating my kneecap which inadvertently led me to pick the college im going to. like theres something poetic abt that

[spice-ghouls]

I am like the worst imaginable disposition of person to have the knee problem that I have. guy who is pathologically incapable of taking it easy even when his kneecap has died badly

[kerryweaverlesbian]

One of those destiel hurt comfort sex fics where Dean will pour a lot of affection and worry and touching (gone sensual and/or sexual) over Cas whenever he's injured but is too freaked about his own self worth plus fear of rejection to do anything with him outside of that space. They obviously have not talked about it or its boundaries.

Dean: *minding his own business doing research*

Cas: Dean...I need your help...I'm hurt *points to the tiniest cut in the world on his cheek* I was trying to shave

Dean: *very conscious of Sam's presence* so? Tough it out, you're a man.

Cas: 🤨🤔🤔🤔 alright. *leaves*

Sam: what was all that about?

Dean: you know Cas. Real whiner. Like you on that ghost dinosaur case when we were kids and you bumped your knee.

Sam: It was dislocated!!! I was laid up for 6 months!!!

Dean: and you're still whining about it.

Cas: *returns, behind them both* Dean I have another cut

Dean: oh my god, you know edward scissorhands wasn't an instruction manual- *turns. Holy shit reaction.*

Cas: *very long, shallow cut from his jaw to his collar bone, blood smeared all over his neck and face* I thought I'd try with the straight razor. Will you come now?

Dean: *worried and kinda turned on* yeah I'll- I'll help you. *follows Cas out to the bathroom*

Dean: *cleaning the wound with steady, tender hands* you didn't need to do this, you know.

Cas: then what do I need to do? *steady, close quaters eye-contact.

Dean: *swallows. Kisses him.* you gotta stop looking at me like that.

Cas: like what? *angling in for another kiss*

Dean: like I'm worth something. Like I'm worth this *strokes his finger next to Cas's cut* like I'm worth this.

Cas: *lets Dean's conclusion speak for itself for a moment. Kisses him. They tenderly make love and Dean cries.*

[scrawlingwithstyle]

my skeleton is held together with overstretched rubber bands and a whole lotta hope

[cookinguptales]

man, there are days when I'm like "idk how much the ketamine treatments help" but then there are days like today where I woke up with a rib out of joint and I suffered for hours before giving in and taking my treatment a day early (which was okayed by my doctor) and I fell asleep during the treatment and woke up like. rib back in and only mildly sore.

like using this stuff is not perfect (the dehydration alone is hard to deal with) but there are days when it's such a lifesaver.

[yuugurenomi]

internalized ableism that you didnt know was there will make you do things like reinvent being a ambulatory wheelchair user apparently

[poppurini]

millie i cant get this out of my head but since we now know that leona can drive do hypu think he. He does THAT THING. when one hand is steering the wheel and the other is

HE DOES.

[monster-noises]

OOF it's been a while since I've had a nightmare visceral enough to wake me up from a dead sleep into straight terror... But I guess I shouldn't have underestimated how much my brain would pick up from a podcast Teirlisting Horror Games. .....

(I go on to describe the dream in the tags so watch out if you don't want to hear descriptions of the horrors my brain can cook up.. cw Body Horror mostly)

[milkweedman]

Totally fucked up the order, so am now attempting to recreate it from the pictures that i took of each warp on the board, with the hopes that the 3rd warp will at least be well behaved. If it isnt im gonna need to do another round of towels (or maybe just a test warp) bc i cant be doing this on the blanket commission. Am very very aware of how tangled this warp will be. Only potential saving grace is that imo cotton doesnt tangle anywhere near as badly as wool, so hopefully it wont be too horribly bad.

It is going, though. About halfway done dressing the heddles. Next will be sleying the reed. Hoping to get all the warping done by tomorrow.

[chicago-geniza]

Trying to explain how stupid my infirmities are like "well I sneezed too hard and it caused a rippling muscle spasm across my chest and partially dislocated one of my ribs"

[metalst]

hate that medical care costs so fucking much and then insurance decides to pay a trivial amount like. ok yeah my emergency surgery definitely didnt need to be covered by insurance yeah i totally had it for fun fuck you

[mothmvn]

maybe i really actually "needed" testosterone, because for the first time in my exercising efforts, i'm discovering the mundane joys of joint stability

[notedchampagne]

this is a long shot but does anyone have tmj? are there any methods you use to help reduce the pain

[peapod20001]

One of my many talents is the ability to do things, but not know I can do things