#[ jed tien / dehvils. ]

[shadowbrn]

jed  tien  (  @dehvils  )  said  to  tyler  lockwood  ;  all the what-ifs start to haunt you, you know?

when  alaric  saltzman  had  called  him,  he'd  ignored  it.  all  twelve  times.  when  caroline  had  called  him,  he'd  picked  up  immediately.  apparently  the  salvatore  alpha  had  died  and  came  back,  and  he  wasn't  having  the  best  time  adjusting  to  being  untriggered  again.  and  of  course,  since  tyler  had  been  there  .  .  .  caroline  wanted  to  connect  the  two.  tyler  had  agreed  instantly,  and  now  he  was  meeting  up  with  the  former  werewolf  at  the  grill.  they'd  already  gone  through  the  introductions,  and  tyler  couldn't  help  but  frown  at  jed's  words,  ❝  you're  not  wrong.  ❞  he  says  in  what  he  hopes  is  a  somewhat  reassuring  tone,  ❝  but  you  can't  let  that  stop  you  from  living.  anything  could  happen  .  .  .  but  you  have  to  embrace  what  you  are  now.  ❞

[founderscouncil]

JED TIEN ( @dehvils ) said “It was about surviving. So I learned how to fight… and kill.”

A quiet breath falls between them as Jed's words taper off slowly and Finch knows there's a defensiveness that has instinctively sprung up within her body, a natural reaction at hearing that he has killed before, but she forces that away because this is Jed, who's practically her best friend and the closest thing she has to a sibling and everything she knows about being a wolf is pretty much due to him. She tries to remember that instead of falling back into those hellish nights, once a month when she tried to lock herself up and keep the beast at bay. Finch knows intimately well how control is basically a folly when the full moon is in the sky, and they're only moderately better without it. So she just reaches out and places her hand on top of Jed's, a brief touch of comfort before she pulls away again.

"Well, based on what you've told me... we all do that, right?" Maybe not exactly like what Jed had been put through, but every single person in the pack had killed someone. It's why they were there in the first place. "I know a thing or two about surviving, and... I think we owe it to ourselves to forgive who we had to be in order to survive." It sounds like a mangled up version of some cliche superhero line but the sentiment is still there. "Until I came here, fighting was all I knew how to do. But that's what the pack is for, right?" she musters up a smile and nudges his side playfully. "We lean on each other. That includes you, chief."

[shadowbrn]

from  the  rundown  caroline  had  given,  jed  had  spent  the  majority  of  his  life  as  a  triggered  wolf.  tyler  obviously  didn't  know  what  that  was  like,  but  he  knew  what  it  was  like  to  lose  it  all.  it  had  to  be  devastating  for  jed.  he'd  grown  up  knowing  about  his  werewolf  side,  he'd  grown  up  embracing  it  and  being  prepared  for  what  it  took  to  become  it  .  .  .  their  situations  were  so  different,  but  tyler  could  be  there  for  him  in  this.  ❝  you  changed  at  a  young  age.  ❞  tyler  pointed  out,  ❝  of  course  you  didn't  know  what  your  purpose  was.  ❞  he  shrugged  his  shoulders,  ❝  this  is  your  chance  to  figure  that  out.  from  everything  caroline  .  .  .  headmistress  forbes  .  .  .  has  told  me?  you're  an  amazing  kid.  all  that  stuff  you  had  before  is  still  in  you.  you  just  have  to  find  it.  ❞

before his curse had triggered, he had been weak. unable to protect himself and others from his father's wrath, unworthy of all he had come to gain. a mere glitch in the system, a question mark, a lonesome soul until he had found the school, found his pack. until he became the beast. faint smile etches upon pallid lips, burger clutched within an iron grip abnormally unappetizing. the switch had curbed his taste for red meat. magnificent. ❛ sure, but what if i'm NOTHING like this? ❜ festering fear unlocked, terrors that kept him up in the dead of night. who was he without it all? ❛ i was never . . . i was never good, y'know? i wasn't useful or talented or anything before this. the wolf changed me; i can't let it go. ❜

[shadowbrn]

kaleb  was  still  skeptical.  he  loved  jed,  at  least,  he  did  now,  but  this  story  seemed  way  out  there,  even  for  him.  jed  had  definitely  been  off  lately,  but  kaleb  didn't  know  why.  he  just  .  .  .  didn't  seem  like  himself,  and  kaleb's  brow  furrowed  as  he  listened  to  the  story,  ❝  cerberus  just  happened  to  show  up?  come  on,  jed.  even  for  the  salvatore  school  that's  fucking  wild.  ❞  kaleb  frowns  before  speaking  again,  ❝  what's  going  on  with  you,  dude?  ❞ / @dehvils

𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐃𝐑𝐀𝐆𝐎𝐍 … 𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊, 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐇𝐀𝐃 𝐁𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐀 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐏. onyx hues shift skyward, arms folding indignantly across a leather-clad chest. recite a single bluff during your first year and now no one takes you seriously. unbelievable.

❛ dude, i swear this huge fucking dog with three headscame right at me in the woods last night! like, why would i even lie about something like that?! I IMPRESS people just by being the phenomenal alpha that i am; i don’t need to make up lies! ❜ never mind he might not even be a werewolf anymore, let alone an alpha. some things were better left unsaid until copious amounts of cheap beer.