#[ feeling brave again for .2 seconds but i havent done one of these in like a year i think actually lmao so... ]

[enavant]

❥❥❥ ROMANTIC SHIPPING CALL !! like if you'd enjoy exploring a possible romantic dynamic to build up with my muse !! liking will signal to me that you'd like the possibility of it && that we can start a possible romantic dynamic between our muses including discussing our dynamic type && sending shippy type things to each other as well, etc. multi muses can also specify as many muses as they would like for this as well. we do NOT have to have interacted before btw, we can build something new for it !!

j'isu && aphrodite are both bisexual && open to all types of romantic leaning dynamics whether it be domestic bliss, polycules, toxic, fwb or anything in between, etc. please don't be shy if you'd like to explore a dynamic !! i'm open && easily excited about dynamics.

[rahrahrahweregoingtosmashtheoiks]

Hi!!!

I have a lot to update, just moving is wildly draining so i havent had the headspace to write anything yet.

SO i got the keys a week ago today, and excitedly rocked up with my laptop bag so I could carry on working there for the afternoon. I’m eventually going to make a little video of my progress when I can be bothered to figure out how to use imovie. but i LOVE IT. honestly. i wish id done it sooner in the pandemic, but tbf maybe being alone at that point would have been a bit miserable.

anyway, there was no sofa. and there clearly should have been a sofa. so HMM i called them up and we eventually finally managed to get the sofa delivered on tuesday. but back in time again to friday. after my work day finished, i popped back to grab some essentials, including bedding, and decided to just spend the night there immediately. our current contract doesnt end until the 2nd of dec, but honestly its a hell hole and iM OUT. it was hard to sleep, even with earplugs, because a weird ocd (i have diagnosed ocd i am allowed to say this) thing i have is that i am wildly sensitive to smells, so sleeping in new places is impossible because i can smell them and i cant cope. ANYWAY MORNING CAME, and i got up early to run back to the old place and pack up more stuff. my flatmates mum was coming to help her move her stuff around lunchtime, so i helped her pack up the final lil bits and load the car. THEN an angel twitter friend came by to help me rescue my bookcase from the greenhouse. i didnt really need it in the current flat so i just stored it there to avoid throwing it away, and spiders have taken over, so i didnt dare even open the door. we pulled him out and brushed off the cobwebs and he SEEMED spider free (reader - he was not), so all good. i did ask my guy best friend to help first but he told me spiders were ‘evil monsters’ and refused. rude.

ANYWAY, after doing a few little trips (and hurting my body so much i could barely lift an arm) myself, my moving van came on sunday. i booked a small van, and it was immediately obvious that i had more than a small vans worth of stuff. we can just do two trips :) i smiled at my nice moving man, josef. no we cannot, josef replied. fortunately josef had brought large van anyway so this was a moot point and he didnt even charge me extra in the end. what a great guy. i left him an excellent review. my favourite bit about unpacking josef’s giant van, was that when my bookcase was laid on its side, i was able to see that there WAS in fact a spider attached to my bookcase - he was simply nesting with his eggs under the base! after screaming hysterically, josef loudly asserted THERE WILL BE NO SPIDERS IN MY VAN and grabbed him in his bare hand and hurled him out the door. i bravely removed the eggs myself later. im sorry for separating you from your babies, little one. i feel bad now. but you are hideous and terrifying. this act of valour also featured in josef’s 5 star review.

ANYWAY over the next few days i ordered a little tv table, and both him and my sofa arrived on tuesday. not sure why i expected hermes to deliver me a fully assembled table, but they clearly did not, and i was forced to assemble it myself with a potato peeler in place of a screwdriver. it took like 2 hours, but we got there. the sofa men attached the sofa’s legs in what i would describe as ‘the most manic act of efficiency i have ever seen in my life’. they tag teamed the job in honestly 30 seconds and then sprinted out of the door. bye.

a few days later, after id dug out enough coat hangers, i pulled my jackets out of my laundry basket where id been storing them in transit, and unearthed yet another spider. this one was the daddy long legs variety which i am sliightly less scared of, so i managed to capture him and gently release him outside, whispering ‘goodbye angel’ as my upstairs neighbours stared at me out of their window, as they do every time i open the door. they had a SCREAMING row last night and i actually considered calling the police. i definitely will if i hear them again. i couldnt make out words but it was loud enough to wake me up at 2am, and he was RAGING. it was quite scary. and she was screaming and crying. and there were multiple loud bangs that i *think* were them slamming doors, but they could have been throwing things which i why i considered the police in case she was hurt. so maybe il keep an eye out for her over the weekend..

anyway. a few other things happened, i hosted a failed work movie night, me and Sofie netflix partied Holidate, which is godawful, and now i am on my first standard class train in 5 years because i spent all my money on rent. it’s my grandads funeral today im giving the eulogy. i currently think il be fine, but my emotions are a law unto themselves so i guess we’ll find out at 12!!! this train has no freebies or wifi, so im using my phones hotspot. i also have my normal sized suitcase inside of a giant one i borrowed from my parents when i first moved to london like 5 years ago because its the size of me and i have nowhere to store it. so i am generously returning it to them. anyway. i have like an hour and a half of this journey left so im going to read my kindle and decide what to have on toast when i get in.

[glowstickhaloboy]

the final part or else god help me (otherwise known as: the happy ending)

part one

part two

part three

“you never answered the question, dear,” aziraphale points out, carefully unpacking the contents of a whicker basket onto their picnic blanket, mindful of crowley’s sprawled-out legs. 

earlier that morning, there were weather reports of rain, but that report conflicted with crowley and aziraphale’s plans for the day, so miraculously (actually, the accurate term was demonically) a fine patch of sunlight remains obstinate over their hill while the rest of london glowers. but that’s far away.

crowley looks up from a dish of strawberries, caught off guard. “hmm?”

“have you?” asks aziraphale, smiling politely, which is as close as he gets, masking-manipulative-behavior-wise, to taking after crowley.

“oh, you’re far too pleased with yourself about whatever it is you’re planning. look at you, you’ve been thinking about it all morning. come on, out with it, what is it?”

aziraphale gasps, wronged. “i beg your pard--”

“before i die of old age, angel.”

“rude.” aziraphale tuts. he hands a cloth napkin to crowley and then tucks the basket out of sight behind his back. “i’m just making innocent conversation.”

“innocent,” crowley repeats, and the repetition is all that’s necessary to show which substance exactly he believes that sentence to be a load of.

aziraphale smiles sweetly at him and asks pointedly, “have you ever been in love?”

“angel,” crowley sighs, leaning down so that he talks over the bone of his shoulder, “i don’t think i ever wasn’t.”

that stuns the smile off of aziraphale’s face. he reaches out suddenly, like a man drowning, for crowley’s hand, and it’s worth it, crowley thinks--being so open, that is--if it means a reward like that.

which steels his resolve.

“and that’s why i wanted to tell you,” he continues, as bravely as he can in the face of six millennia of packing down a particular past. “but...”

“now, if there’s any doubt in your mind--”

“it’s not doubt for me.” 

aziraphale looks confused at that. his thumb stops massaging crowley’s knuckle and he asks, “well, what does that mean?”

“i think it would freak you out,” crowley says plainly.

“my dear, i’ve known you for over six thousand years. nothing you could possibly say or do is beyond my comprehension of you.”

crowley raises his eyebrows. he beckons aziraphale closer and, the both of them leaning in, whispers something into aziraphale’s ear, the whole while thinking with wonder, i’m talking about it. i’m saying it out loud and i feel okay.

when they resume like normal, aziraphale’s eyes have grown the way a cat’s paw does in bringing out their claws. crowley can’t help but smile.

“no,” breathes aziraphale.

crowley nods (just a shade away from smugly.) “yup.”

“no.”

“yup.”

“surely not. surely you can’t have fallen. are you lying to me?”

“told you it would freak you out.”

“i’m not-!” aziraphale begins to protest, rather sharply, then stops himself and takes a deep breath. “i’m not freaking out. do you mean to tell me that i forgot to pack the archangel raphael’s yoghurt?” 

something of the mirth in crowley’s expression quickly fades, but he keeps his composure. it’s been awhile, that’s all, since hearing that name be spoken aloud. and by aziraphale no less. aziraphale, the only hope crowley has left that angels might really be holy. the only one in all of creation whose opinion on him really matters. and he’s just learned the truth.

and it’s okay.

it feels like the world has been saved a second time.

“the yoghurt’ll still be there another day,” crowley says, measured.

but aziraphale slaps his own forehead, obviously past the point of listening. “of course! the stars! oh, you’re sneaky, it was you all al--”

“yes?” crowley prompts. (aziraphale had gone very still.)

“oh.” the angel melts. “it was you all along! crowley, my dear, you... you... you practically set it all up for us, you beautiful creature. oh, every moment we’ve had, here in our middle, it’s all because--because all of your marks are still there. no part of you has ever left. don’t you see?”

it’s crowley’s turn not to listen. his ears are still ringing with the echo of crowley, my dear,

crowley, my dear,

he puts effort into snapping out of it, into controlling the traitorous, sappy twinge of his heart.

“you never fell at all. you couldn’t. not after all you’ve done for the world. you will never be erased from heaven.”

up until the very last second, crowley is prepared to argue, but then, unexpectedly (yes, even to himself,) he grins. it’s a very bastardy grin. and it’s a powerful one, too. he nods to aziraphale conspiratorially and says:

“whether they like it or not.”

[AN 1: find this collection on AO3 for easier bookmarking]

[AN 2: i am in no way sick of writing these goons, so consider my ask box open for prompts! please send me anything you might want to read in a small fic!! and thank you so much for reading all the way to the end. i honestly did not imagine receiving such a warm response when i first published part 1, but you’ve all made me feel good about my writing in ways i havent in literal years, so thank you thank you thank again <333]

[diggersofgraves]

Whywhywhywhywhy.

Let me get my feelings out.

I havent seen you in so long. Since the summer after high school. Yet, I've liked you since the beginning of high school. And those feelings never went away.

When we finally had something in the end. After everything. Idk, things just didnt line up. You were working through stuff. I was going away for college in a few months. It just didnt line up.

And it took time to get over you. A long time. I'd stay awake at night, thinking about where I'd be if I'd just been brave enough. Or maybe even drunk enough.

Finally, as I started my second year of college I thought, "hey. Maybe I'm over this. Maybe it's done for."

And a part of me was relieved. Another was sad. Bc I need to move on. And I thought I did.

And I'm 2/3rds done with my second year. And out of nowhere these stupid feelings come back. And I remember how it was.

Spending all of prom together, even though we never agreed to go together. And i wasnt even mad at you when you left halfway through the last dance, a slow song, to chase after someone else. I was just happy it happened.

And I remember when we went to Disney. With all our friends. Or rather, all my friends who you tagged along with. And through every ride, with no words, we agreed we'd go together. Through all of it.

And when we were both too scared to get on the same rides, there was almost something. Almost something. It was left unsaid though. And even when it finally seemed like it would be said, we were interrupted. Like in a stupid shitty teen movie.

When we video chatted while you were at the park with your soccer team. And it was just a continuous steams of 'almosts'.

I even remember way back in 9th grade. When stupid lovesick me asked you to marry me any time I saw you or enjoyed our time together too much.

And then in 12 grade when the roles were reversed. And something made me too shy to act normally in front of you. But you didnt care. You would shout across the hallways whenever you saw me, "hey beautiful, let's get married!" And it flustered me to no end. And then you'd asked, "why do you get so nervous in front of me? I havent changed, you know?"

And when we were at a volleyball game in the high school gym, watching our friends play. As we left the game a little early I cracked a stupid joke at a comment you made and you stopped, looked straight at me and said, "I really want a girlfriend just like you." And I didnt do anything about it. Just laughed.

And it seemed so dumb to others, probably. Two girls playing too intensely at fake love. I like to think it was real.

And really, its 2:30 a.m. now and 5 nights ago I had a dream where we squished together in my tiny twin bed and slept as one. My legs tangled in yours and your hands holding onto mine.

I know that wasnt what started this all over again though bc it was 3 weeks ago when my friend called me and you were with her. And the first thing you said to me, after more than a whole year, was "when is our wedding?"

And that wasnt fair, how quickly my stupid heart fell all over again.

Bc at this point you were probably joking.

And it seems so dumb to feel this intensely for someone who I havent seen in such a long time, but I do feel like this. I feel it so strongly, it hurts sometimes.

And I'm too scared to ask others how you are bc I'm scared it'll make me look pathetic. And lovesick. Which I am, but they dont have to know.

But I'm just happy hearing about you. Even if you're happy with someone else. Or content with just friends. And I think it makes me seem creepy.

I didnt say anything before college bc I was scared that with the distance included in my going to college, it would end up being just a simmer fling, but i thought you were too good to be a summer fling. Still think you are.

Still, I hope I see you this summer. With all my heart. If I have a wish for the summer, it's to see you.

Maybe itll make me feel more dumb, but hopefully it will also make me see that you're good as you are and I should be too.

It sometimes feel like I'll never feel this intensely about anyone else.

Bc I haven't before you and I havent after you.

I wish I would. Just so I could forget you properly.

At least forget how you make me feel.

Sometimes I wish this WAS a shitty teen movie. Bc if it was, I know I'd see you again, eventually. And we'll fall in love, properly. We'll spend the rest of our days together, talking about how we skirted around each other so long.

Damn it.

[survivorreelsmagicwithin]

Episode 1B - “I'm praying to Yoncé I survive and don't get first boot.”-Jess

no words.

LITERALLY

NO WORDS.

Two points. TWO FUCKING POINTS.

I'm praying to Yoncé I survive and don't get first foot. That ain't a cute look xoxox

i'm already forgetting to search for the idols, i'm already getting paranoid about if i need to start making alliances instead of just enjoying the really cute convos i'm having with ruthie lily and kevin (max is kinda dry and annoying but... we'll try to make it work ig).... and i'm already hating every challenge we do especially this one although i actually really liked the challenge it was so creative and fun, i just hated that i have bad luck and am stupid with the deduction things, HENCE why i havent looked for the idol yet. LOL. so.... tl;dr - things are going perfectly! this hufflepuffle is workin exactly as he should!

I just wanna say we really are the hufflepuffs. 114 moves in like 5 hours, but we did it.  Really proud of Ruthie, Landen, Kevin, Max, and I! Sending positive vibes to slytherin. Hope they are okay in this madness.

Yo my tribe? Kinda dope. I think that everyone worked really well together today! I think Joanna kinda took the lead and some of her ideas were... a choice. But! It got us first place! I think that this tribe has a good shot of getting to swap unscathed.

With Slytherin going to tribal, I really hope that someone I don’t know goes, but at the same time I’d be okay with Jess going? I feel like she’s such a sleeper threat in most games I’m in with her and I really just don’t want to compete with that this time around.

I kind of snapped and got myself an idol good until final 6 teehee.

I knew that the Snape's letter or writing or whatever that freak was up to was SOMETHING. Did I get lucky... hell fucking yeah.

A crackhead like me SHOULD NOT have all this POWER.

I also gave Jacob literally the worst clue ever because we are sharing clues ladies xoxoxo

The clue was:

"Snape is taken aback. “That wouldn’t be any business of yours now would it? I wouldn’t want to find out you are spreading false information. I trust you won’t have any issue with that”. Congrats! You’ve discovered Snape Storyline 2! That’s all for the moment, and will end your search for this round."

BOTH ARE HALF TRUE. Just in case he doesn't put 2 and 2 together and now I went from place to place on purpose. He's gonna think now I gave him something of value and I know he's gonna think "No way someone go an idol on day fucking 3".

CONFESSIONAL 1.1 — Walking into the Great Hall, I saw a few familiar faces... for not good reasons!

First Jacob, who I know from tengaged. He and I were in a similar friend group for a short period before he left it, but we had a rocky relationship. We flirted a bit (blame 16-year-old Nicholas), but that is in the past.

Secondly, Jess... who I just directly sent home in Eve’s The Challenge: Fresh Meat. She did not have great words to say to me (such as I’m condescending), so I was very wary and, honestly, unhappy with her being here.

But, as Kylie Minogue says, it’s better the devil you know.

Flash forward to the Sorting Ceremony, and I’m so happy to be.. Slytherin? I told Mister Vintage (Sammy) and Mister Heinen (Caeleb) that I’m either a Ravenclaw or Hufflepuff, but I suppose I’ve been lying to myself.

Then, I see my tribe: both Jess and Jacob are present. This is a curse wrapped in a blessing wrapped in an enigma. And, I love it.

I hate, hate, hate conflict and bad vibes, so I directly spoke to both. Jacob did not easily recognize me, but remembered me fondly; so, a successful reacquaintance. Jess, on the other hand, was definitely more apprehensive (as was I), but I made one thing clear: the past is the past, and I am declaring my loyalty.

I have been hurt in previous games by shoving the past aside while the other is still grudgingly aiming for revenge, but I feel Jess is different. She apologized to me about her words, which did hurt, and I apologized to her. What I said was honest, so I’m glad to see a fateful blossoming.

The first reward challenge is revealed, and honestly, I’m really bad at participating in pre-merge competitions, because I do not mind tribal. However, I do want to, since we are such a small tribe, focus on maintaining our numbers in case of a swap. We came in second this reward, and honestly, I’m glad to have eaten cupcakes (although I hate cherry). The fact we all chose a dessert and were privately messaged makes me assume someone received an advantage, but who knows...

What I DO know is that I had two separate relationships, so I wanted to lock a trio down (Me, Jess, Jacob), but I obviously did not want to gamebot this early and make the chat day one. So, naturally, i waited until after immunity.

Speaking of immunity... I took charge, because I like it, but also, I wanted to be able to take blame if we lost. I hate the whole “let’s vote someone out cuz they cost us a virtual challenge” this early in the game, it’s a cheap way to vote. I want to vote on loyalty and activity instead. That’s why I am probably going to target Jessie or Vi, but I‘m unsure as to which will be my vote. On one hand, Vi is much less social, but she also contributed a lot to the challenge. I do not want to judge a book by it’s cover, so I will reach out to her and assess her vibe.

I like going to tribal first, because my philosophy is that it’s better to test loyalties now, rather than guess loyalties later.

Regarding other players, Jules and Juls just played in a mini with me and sheeped the majority alliance to screw me over, so I’m not feeling them right now. Bitterness doesn’t exist in my mind: play well and I respect it; sheep and be stupid, and I will gladly dish out the karma. 

I’m satisfied with the happenings of this game so far, and I hope to make it further!! This is one of my first real orgs so, I’m em definitely excited. x. nick

Yay we won immunity. Raffy do be carrying our tribe though!

WELL WELL WELL!!!!!!! as far as my relationships go which is where i left off last round, really nothing much has changed about how i feel about or view my tribemates, but in exciting news... we won immunity!! i am not going to be first boot that is so nice, and im hoping that we can keep winning immunity until a swap so I can feel more secure. I think I could stand a shot if we lost on this tribe but i think if so the vote would split 3-2 i dont think i can get a unanimous vote on anyone unless its myself which is NOT WHAT WERE TRYNA DO HERE !! if anything i feel like i have the best chance to wiggle myself in with the girls (lily and ruthie) Max would probably be my ideal first vote if we ever lose an immunity because I know landen can be useful in challenges, but he YET AGAIN addressed me with a name that does not sit well with me he called me a "challengewhore" yet another reference to TS 2020, so this is not a good sign. Ideally I could get landen out and still be set but i know he has a relationship with juls who i also have a relationship with and wish to continue to have in this game, and us going against each other could make that more stressful than it needs to be because i know landen avenged beck for voting juls out maybe juls would do the same for him? Much to think about, but thankfully i dont have to think about it all that hard because yet again we ARE SAFE !!! woo, anyways thats pretty much it hopefully we can keep winning :D

Ahhhh safety feels so nice, I’m glad that I’m not in danger of being the first boot. Also I love the fact that ravenclaw won the first challenge with so little moves HAHA!

I want to go far in this thing with lily and with kevin, my goal right now is to get to merge and owen be alive so I can work with him!

I am very happy to have won this immunity challenge. We barely won, but I managed to pull my tribe to a victory. Emphasis on the "I" part. I am very frustrated with my tribe's lack of challenge activeness and ability. If the time did not work for them, then I do not know why they even suggested doing it at 2 PM. This challenge would have gone faster if I had done everything myself. In the end, though, I hope this helps in me staying in the game because I am a necessity if they want to ever win a challenge in first place. I highly doubt that they could do it without me.

So I’m currently writing this with one hand because my cat decided to lie on my other one  anyways Nobody is really talking about the vote which means it’s probably me going but I’ll see what I can do to change that

Here's a breakdown of my first few experiences since I am writing this a few hours before the first tribal council.

FIRST I was cast in this game along with a BUNCH of people that are icons across different formats of Tumblr Survivor - so that's intimidating. Mostly because my play style is kinda vanilla in comparison. I gotta find a way to stand out or I'm going to be thrown out fast.

SECOND There's a twist that will probably have some major effect at some later point in the game where everyone is added to the Great Hall. I think that it's for convenience of posting things like results and challenges so it only has to be sent to one chat... but also so that we can feel THEMATIC which is a lot of fun.

The game started in the Great Hall and we got sorted into our houses and the implication was that it's random but.. I don't think it's entirely true if I can read into what the hosts said to me once I was sorted into Gryffindor (something about running out of room in Hufflepuff) - because I definitely didn't say Gryffindor in my application.

THIRD My tribe has the following people: Joshua, Juls, Raffy, Autumn, and myself. 

I do not know how many of theme said Gryffindor when they applied but also did not want to bring it up to them as I am masquerading as a brave idiot. :D

Anyway, I started conversations with all of them and they all seem very sweet!!

I've played in a game before with Raffy where he was super snakey but also a great ally until he tried to snake me. So there's that... he's also an "over the top" type of person so he takes charge a lot of the time and voices his opinions about everything. I hope we can create some sort of working relationship in the game, but I think that he will tell me the truth if he does align against me.

Autumn is super chill and super strategic-minded. She puts lots of thought into all of her decisions and makes calls that benefit her getting to the end while trying to align with the right people. If I can't get to the FTC of this game... TBH I want to make sure she gets there. I played with her in one game and we both were tossed out one after another when the game turned on our "side". I don't think that relationship will factor into this game as it was forever ago and we both kinda play "new" every time we start a game but I'm hoping she will want to try and play with me just because I've seen how great she is at the game.

Juls is a very fun person who seems to always be having a great time! I found out she lives in Texas too and that she was excited to get to know me because we are from the same state. I was like.. do I know you? Because when she messaged me the way she did implied that she knew who I was and I was thinking OH NO what have people said.

Joshua seems really sweet. He hasn't added incredibly much to conversations so far with him but he has contributed some fun things. I love that he tries to be entertaining, but as I see it so far he's the first person I'd be willing to vote out if it came to our tribe going to council... though of course, having said that I bet they've all declared me their first choice.

FOURTH The reward challenge was the Letter plus Number challenge so as predicted...

I did terribly and earned 0 points for our tribe and was SO happy it was not for immunity.

The immunity challenge was a Choose Your Own Adventure Puzzle.

We got a slow start in that I feel like everyone was afraid to make a move because that would put a target on whoever "failed for the team". Then me and Raffy kind of got things rolling with him taking the main leader role and me taking on a secondary role either agreeing with his suggestions or contributing a suggestion for what we should do.

There was a misunderstanding with the competition and we ended up making a whole bunch of extra moves because it was unclear to us that the letters we found at a later part of the challenge were able to be changed into numbers at a lockbox so we did a bunch of extra stuff... and I was resigned to the fact we were going to the first tribal when we go surprised that Slytherin... DID WORSE!!! O_O

Anyway... I still have no alliances or confirmed "working game" relationships and I really don't feel like starting those conversations at the moment so if I am out of the ones established or on the bottom of one that will add me to "pick me up" for later votes then I blame myself for not trying hard enough in that category.

FIFTH I definitely didn't just now search for the idol and waste two days that I could have searched other times. Nope! Not me!! :)

Anyway I went on a trip to Hagrid's Hut because I love me some Hagrid and I figured he'd let me in since I"m a Gryffindor and he loves us the best (you know, like a reverse Snape)... I dug through all of his junk and found his umbrella. Apparently I liked that it was pink and then left his hut. 

To be honest, I probably should have taken his dragon's egg and turned him in... maybe could have gotten him fired.

Someone finally got me to come out of retirement- can you believe it

It's been cute so far and I have no complaints, probably cause the hosts wisely put me, Owen, and Dan in separate corners lmao. Yooo if we all make it to merge?? Hell hath no fury. But we will cross that bridge when we get there! And for now I enjoy the calm before the storm. I deadass forgot how to be an org so I need all the time I can get to socialize and reacclimate. Me checking Skype more than once a year? Don't remember ever doing that. I love Raffy, it's always good to see Chips, I think I like Juls, and I'm not sure how I feel about Joshua but it's fine. I like Gryffindor cause we have no beef and I hope it stays that way.

ok so my tribe lost :( big sad. but im def ok bc jess is soooo close to me and we made a threesome with nick so. i think jessie is an easy first boot bc shes not around as much as vi. but really its our decision at the end of the day!

here’s the hot goss.. i’m a little upset i didn’t get anyone i Know on my house/tribe but also grateful HSBSNSNN all i know is that so far i’ve been doing pretty solid in securing relationships with those on my team (at least.. i hope so :flushed:) and i’m hoping they all like me hehe. kinda praying to just mist my way to merge where i can be united with people who like me enough to keep me around still.. >:D 

[i-donut-care-dot]

Burning Love

(Little something I worked on for the past two days - I hope it’s worth the effort of neglecting the rest of my responsibilities XD)

This little one-shot focuses on the background character of Valka - from How to Train Your Dragon 2 - and her feelings, thoughts, doubts… She’s a very complex and simply amazing character and her relationship with Stoick made me fall in love with the whole Haddock family and its portayal…

Anyway, it was inspired by Ellie Amaya‘s (@dearhoneylemon ) reprise song based on “Stoick’s Ship” from the HTTYD2 score written by John Powell. You can hear it right here:

http://dearhoneylemon.tumblr.com/post/98484486872/warning-spoilers-in-case-you-havent-seen-it

And I thank her with all my heart for sharing this small piece of her talent :D

It basically inspired THIS.

Enjoy!

People are not capable of change.

Some of us are just born different, built a certain way…

And Stoick the Vast was certainly built the Viking way. He has always been stubborn - unmovable like a stone - demanding, brave, awe-inspiring and strict. Features of a great chief, indeed. He was impulsive too - he could raise his tone just a tiny bit, but it was enough to make people listen to him. He had that resonant, commanding voice, that beamed from his impressive posture and cut the air, like a powerful gust of cold, northern wind. He was strong like a mountain and could break the trees in half, if he only wished to. But he had never used his strength for bad purposes, instead he used it to protect - protect me, our son and the rest of the village. He was firm, intimidating, authoritative - like the roaring ocean during a storm… He was everything from the man, who is standing before me right now.

As soon as he saw me and his eyes locked on me, he… dropped his sword. And Stoick never dropped his sword. I keep watching him with caution, as he quickly reaches for his helmet and takes it off carelessly. He continues staring at me with wide eyes, but does not say anything. And Stoick was never speechless. I quickly wash the expression of disbelief and sadness from my face, and look down to compose myself.

“I know what you’re gonna say, Stoick…” - I hear my own, calm words leaving my mouth, breaking the tense silence.“How could I have done this?” - this time my voice trembles as his gentle gaze meets mine. He stands there, perfectly still and not moving a muscle - completely frozen. And Stoick never froze. I feel the guilt welling up in my chest, so I breathe out to keep my emotions in check. “Stayed away all these years? And why didn’t I come back to you? To our son?” - my own words immediately start to turn against me. They are full of regret and… despair. No. I am not the only one, who should feel guilty. I take on my defensive tone again and begin to speak. “Well…” - I pause for a moment to see him finally move from his place. “What sign did I have that you could change, Stoick? That anyone on Berk could?” - he carefully and slowly approaches me, one foot after another… It melts my flawless, proud facade in seconds. I am afraid of this Stoick - he is too calm, to collected, too… stoic. I hear Cloudjumper’s growl behind my back and I know the dragons are responding to my sudden state of panic. “I pleaded so many times to stop the fighting, to find another answer, but did any of you listen?“ - my voice is far from being tranquil and my thin shield is breaking up every second - my confidence shrinking along with it. He should have said something by now. He should have stormed all the way to me and throw everything in my face - all the pain, grievances, anger, disappointment, heartbreak. I abandoned him. I deserve everything, but compassion, empathy… and his loving gaze.

"I know that I left you to raise Hiccup alone…” - I lift my staff and grasp it with my both hands as a gesture of defense. He is very close now… so close, that I can see the gray strands in his once-flaming-red hair and beard. He takes another step and another, and another… “…but I thought he’d be better off without me.” - he raises his brows in confusion at my words, but does not stop. I look over my shoulder and take a step back. There is no other way out and I feel trapped - trapped in my own emotions, that I carried in my heart through all this years… and they start to overwhelm me. I feel the tears begin to well up in my eyes as I go on with my cracking voice. “And I was wrong, I see that now, but…” - I stop suddenly, when my back hits the firm, icy wall behind me and a gasp escapes my mouth. I turn my gaze to look at his face - much older since I had last seen it and sort of tired… marked with a few visible wrinkles - and then right into his forest green eyes. There is no anger in them. “Oh stop being so stoic, Stoick.” - I slightly raise my voice in concern, as I notice him slowly reaching out his left hand. “Go on… SHOUT, SCREAM, SAY SOMETHING-” - my desperate words are cut off by the sudden touch of his huge palm, gently and delicately cupping my face. I shrink unwittingly at the unexpected contact and stare at him with wide eyes. I feel like the whole eternity is passing us by, as we look at each other with uncertainty. All at once, his expression softens even more and both joy and relief appear on his face. And then the time stops at his words.

“You’re as beautiful as the day I lost you…”

I instantly feel the weight of these ten words. The amount of emotion they are carrying. I cannot take this any second longer, so I break. I close my eyes and let a single tear fall on my cheek, as I lower my head. The tight grip on my staff loosens and I feel every muscle in my body going numb. The day I lost you… - I hear his words echoing through my mind. His charity, calmness and a complete lack of anger are the worst possible tortures to me. Because now I sense and welcome the burden of all these past twenty years. And when he lays a soft kiss on my lips, they all come back to me, one by one. Everything becomes black and white and I finally understand, that I was wrong all along. As we break apart, I gulp the longtime guilt down my throat. Once again, I look deep into his eyes and I see the final proof in them.

People are capable of change.

 This realization hurts even more, when I see him approach his magnificent and imposing dragon. My eyes wander from the creature’s remarkable horns, over his armored neck and jackhammer-like maw to the strong, pointed wings and clubbed tail. The Rumblehorn. Impressive. I hear Stoick call him Skullcrusher, as he pets the dragon’s huge head and it puts a wide smile on my face - I could not imagine my dear husband not giving his fellow dragon a mighty name, truly worthy of a warrior. I see an extraordinary bond between them - based on mutual respect and trust - and along with Cloudjumper, I admire them from nearby. Our eyes meet and he beckons me over to join him by his dragon’s side. I take a few steps forward and let my hand slip into the palm of his outstretched hand, and I smile even wider when his fingers curl around mine in a loving gesture. I allow Skullcrusher to sniff my other hand and I watch as he confidently nudges it with his nasal horn. I tenderly stroke his lower jaw with my left palm, while keeping the right one in Stoick’s warm grasp. His hands, which once used to kill - are now caressing both his dragon’s and my skin.

Once again…

People are capable of change.

 These words are still echoing through my mind, even though I try so hard to focus on my son’s excited chatter. “Mom, you’d never recognize it.” - Hiccup starts babbling about all of his adventures on Berk for all of the past years, as he helps me prepare the supper. And even when he constantly keeps calling me Mom - which pours honey all over my love-hungry mother’s heart - I still cannot beat the feeling of shame, that I wasn’t there for him when he needed me. He forgave me. He gave me another chance. Still, it surely could not heal the deep wounds cast by his own mother, not in such short amount of time. “You wouldn’t believe how much everything’s changed…” - he goes on. You’re right, my son.. a while ago I wouldn’t believe, indeed.

“Your son’s changed Berk for the better. I think we did well with this one, Val.” - Stoick says and adds one more brick to my wall of blame. YOU did well, Stoick. Not me…

His enormous hands fall on both of my shoulders and it startles me to the point, that I drop all of the food from the plate right on the floor. I watch with embarrassment as in the matter of seconds, all of the fish end in Cloudjumper’s belly, after both he and Toothless quickly took care of the mess. I turn around in humiliation, but to my surprise I see, that this whole situation made Stoick laugh.

“I’m… a little out of practice.” - I explain myself to him and observe as he puts a new portion of fish on the plate, smiling all along.

“Well, y'know… I didn’t marry you for your cooking.” - And I smile at his teasing remark. For one brief moment I am able to draw my thoughts away and look back in time, to the happy days… If only it was possible in reality, not just in the memories…

“And once you move back in, with all your dragons, Drago won’t stand a chance. Everything will be okay!” - Hiccup’s words reach my ears as I walk away to fill the earthen pitcher with water, that’s dripping from the huge block of ice. I should stop dreaming. It is not possible for me to just ‘move back in’. I left Berk. There is no place for me there, not anymore. I cringe as my own dark thoughts cloud my mind and crash what’s left of the joy from reuniting with my long-lost family. Lost because of me. I can’t come back. Not after what had happened. Not after-

And then he starts to whistle. Not just any other song. It’s OUR song. Blurred flashbacks start to appear before my eyes. I blink a few times, but they feel so real…

The sound of his footsteps accompanies the cheerful melody when he approaches me from behind. He takes the pot from my hands and puts it away.

“Remember our song, Val?” - Stoick asks gently and I want nothing else, than to shout out ’Of course I do, my love!’. But no words leave my mouth. I stay silent, as he sings the first lines of our song.

“I’ll swim and sail on savage seas,

with ne'er a fear of drowning.

And gladly ride the waves of life,

if you will marry me.”

Word after word - I remember all of them perfectly. There is no way I could forget the song, that Stoick had sung to propose to me, long time ago. The song we danced to at our wedding, with the applause of the whole Berk. The song that accompanied us, in both good and bad days of our marriage. The song I used to hum to Hiccup to put him to sleep, when he was just a small baby. I missed it so much. I missed them.

Stoick goes on with the singing and I relax a little, when he delicately caresses my cheek with his palm and then slowly turns my face towards his.

“No scorching sun, nor freezing cold will st—”

“WILL STOP ME ON MY JOUR—ney. Sorry ” - Gobber interrupts him with his much more vivid tunes of the song - and probably earns Stoick’s famous disapproving gaze for this. I would have found it very funny either, in different situation…

“If you will promise me your heart. And love…” - Stoick proceeds and tenderly links our fingers together, as he reaches for my hand and brings it to his heart. His long beard is tickling the skin on the back of my palm and I realize how much I had missed his touch. He looks at me with anticipation. I close my eyes and drift away with the memories for a moment.

There is no harm in trying, right? So I will try again. WE will try again.

“ …And love me for eternity.” - I finish for him and I hear the instant relief in his voice, when he sighs deeply. I walk away from him, just a tiny bit, so there’s more room for both of us and I continue my singing.

“My dearest one, my darling dear, your mighty words astound me.” - I feel the weight of the past twenty years slowly load off my mind as I sing the next lines of the song. “But I’ve no need of mighty deeds, when I feel your arms around me.” - And then I cannot help, but smile when I reach out my bend arm and Stoick immediately does the same, so our forearms touch and we begin circling together in the familiar rhythm. The memory of the dance steps still fresh in our minds as we pick up the pace of our singing.

“But I would bring you rings of gold, I’d even sing you poetry!”

“Oh, would you?” - I cut in, as we bump into each other and I laugh it off instantly.

“And I would keep you from all harm if you would stay beside me!” - I smile even wider when he laughs along with me as he sings.

“I have no use for rings of gold, I care not for your poetry. I only want your hand to hold…” - I gracefully spin around in his arms, as the song goes on and our love is renewing before our own eyes.

“I only want you near me!” - his words alone are enough to me. There’s nothing holding me back right now. So our voices finally unite in one melody…

“To love and kiss, to sweetly hold! For the dancing and the dreaming! Through all life’s sorrows and delights, I’ll keep your laugh inside me!

I’ll swim and sail on savage seas with ne'er a fear of drowning! And gladly ride the waves of life If you will marry me!” - Stoick lifts me up with his hands and I feel complete again. There is no room for any more hollow thoughts, when we all laugh together and my husband is still holding me tight in his powerful embrace, as if he meant never to let go again.

“Ah… I thought I’d have to die before we’d have that dance again.” - he says with a dreamy voice, still panting from the dance.

“No need for drastic measures.” - I respond with a breathy chuckle and we both stare into each other’s eyes, when he kneels and speaks aloud the words, that I would never forget.

“For you, my dear… anything.”

People are capable of change.

We all are born different. And we die different.

We just cannot know when and where we die.

And Stoick the Vast certainly did not expect to die from his son’s dragon fire blast.

To tell the truth, nobody expected that. I would have never believed it myself. But when I pressed my ear to his still chest and I didn’t hear the familiar beat, and instead the rumbling silence, I knew…

Not even his bravery, stubbornness, impulsiveness, nor strength could save him today.

Because he did not think of himself, when he rushed to protect our son - the future of all Berk.

And it breaks my heart to see Hiccup like this - as if he already had the weight of the whole world on his shoulders. He doesn’t say anything, when we prepare the boat. Not even when we cover Stoick’s body with white sheet and place his helmet on top. I painfully see Hiccup grieving on the inside, letting only a few tears fall on his cheeks from time to time. He tries so hard to be strong - for his people… and probably for me. The spitting image of his father.

We let Stoick’s ship sail slowly and I watch as it flows to the open sea, with my late husband’s body on board. The mourning silence is broken only by the sound of the cracking fire, that’s devouring the remaining wreckages of the abandoned ships. We quietly observe as Gobber approaches with a bow and arrows in his hand, and opens the ceremony with an old, Viking funeral rite.

“May the valkyries welcome you and lead you through Odin’s great battlefield. May they sing your name with love and fury, so that we might hear it rise from the depths of Valhalla and know that you’ve taken your rightful place at the table of kings.

For a great man has fallen: A warrior. A chieftain. A father. A friend.”

A husband - I add in my head. My dearest one…

I raise up the bow and correct my grip, as I focus on the flaming arrowhead and its target. The tears blur my vision and I can only see the outline of the receding ship, at which I aim my arrow. As I release it, I can only think how the fire will separate us once more, the last time being twenty long years ago.

So we part again, my love…

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[thegeminisage]

i realized i had been typing up zelda blogging into notepad for like a week plus without posting, cause i didn’t wanna post everyday once i finished the main story? but then it got SUUUPER long. i waited for it to kinda taper down since now i’m mostly down to completionist stuff, and since it has, i’m gonna post it & just do small posts if i decide to blog abt anything else.

it feels rly weird not to zeldablog now

i ran into a blue? silver? lynel and got trapped fighting it on my way out of hyrule castle AND KILLED IT!! yay!!

also im going back to the mountain to check out that glow

i checked the shrine out next to it, since i was only activating them near the end and not DOING them

and they've gotten way more complex

now i understand when the monks commend your resourcefulness like before i was like, pls. that was way too easy. literally anyone could have done that

i went to the lake at night and it isn't glowing ): idgi did i see something else? does it only do that from a distance? on certain nights? i could see it from SO far away...

o my god theres a GOLF minigame the camera angles even do the thing

fucking fuck dinraal showed up WHILE I WAS PLAYING GOLF 

i MISSED him im so mad i couldnt fast travel away bc minigame!!!

WOW AND HERE COMES THE BLOOD MOON WHICH I WAS WAITING ON AT THE LAKE MOUNTAIN im so pissed i fuckin hate golf at this point its faster to finish than to run all the way back and quit :|

i finished golf but the blood moon just turned into?? a normal moon??

ah okay the glow is random and it's a rare mount!! thank god it wasn't just me losing my mind lol

haha i went to kill the shock arrow lynel just to see if i could and it only took like less than a minute with atk+ armor and decent weapons/shields

plus i'm just better at that special timing stuff now

figures it wouldn't happen til post-game

wtf another blood moon only a few nights later???

i read it was super glitchy but i never really realized until i was paying attention...

aww i bought a house!! maybe link and zelda can live there until the castle is restored YES THEY WILL BE MARRIED SOMEDAY

it's a cute quest i wish i had brought enough rupees to buy all the furniture in it

anyway like. it's super nice to have finally beaten this game's story?? i feel like now i don't have to Rush, i can stop and poke around and explore just like i want, tbh i kinda wish i had done it sooner

anyway im done for the night but i think i will rack up a bit more blogging before making a post i don't wanna be making one every day anymore

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okay so im gonna wait for the blood moon at this shrine

ive been reading that its random and glitchy?? but had i never read any of that i would have been SURE it was just every full moon, like clockwork

so maybe i'm wrong or the internet is

anyway i have enough fire arrows and wood to camp for a full 10 nights, after which im bailing lol

OH FUCK CANCEL EVERYTHING A SHOOTING STAR

I WONDER IF I CAN FAST TRAVEL TO IT??

only one way to find out

I CAN!!!!!

tonight's a halfmoon...if it's waxing then only 2 more nights, if the blood moon is the fullmoon

waning - 6 more nights :/

and who even knows if the blood moon is the full moon...

i've been reading so much and there's so much i was aching to do while trapped in bed that i don't know where to begin...! yet i am waiting at this dumb shrine, haha

i think i wanna to the terrytown quests? tarrytown? where you build a town, those sound so fun, but ofc i need rupees

three-quarters moon! pleeease letthe next one be a blood moon, i say for once in my life lol

oh no...full moon but no blood moon ):

ugh i do not WANT to camp here for a hundred years

i suppose with the nearby shrine i can get to it fairly quicky but not quickly enough for my liking...once the moon rises you only have literally like two minutes before it leaves

so i have to notice it, get out there, and get naked in less than 2 minutes, without warning :/

ok yeah no this is stupid i'll just do something else while i wait

ah, but what! this is what i was talking about earlier, where do you even BEGIN

i could go back and solve shrines, but puzzles are only fun for so long, i wanna explore and there's so much left to see

i could also rupee farm hahahaha

and for better or worse i do eventually wanna get all the korok seeds...

actually i think i wanna fight minibosses?? which is so weird but i feel like i can take em

i know the silver lynels will kick my ass from reading tvtropes but i can take the others!!!

i also read about the lon lon ranch ruins, which i either missed or didn't realize what they were...i don't have a clue as to where they are, but i wanna see them, i know i'll be Sad

omg people startle when i get close to them wearing dark link armor

oooh i was wondering what this big circular tower was...man i havent seen ANYTHING in hyrule field

apparently there are monsters inside...i see a blue lynel? silver lynel? who knows

but i fought one before, so maybe i can take it

i WAS wanting to fight stuff

camera says it's silver, tvtropes says silvers are harder than calamity ganon himself

but the ones that aren't red all look alike to me, so i have no idea which kind i fought in hyrule castle...and my sword had superpowers then

the problem is all these OTHER monsters...no way could i take them on all at once

so i gotta go around and pick them off first without being noticed if i can

omg i cant drop the master sword when electrocuted ahaha nice

oops i dropped a lizalfos down there with the lynel....lmao maybe i better just go fight him before i fuck up anything else

ah no it's coming back on its own. well done

ok, got em

man, wouldn't it be just my luck if the blood moon rose NOW

tbh if it did i would have to abandon this entire thing, which i would, reluctantly, just so i wouldn't have to wait anymore

ooh god he saw me i was hopin for a sneak attack ;w;

ok here we go i guess!!

i did it!!!!

it actually wasn't that bad, tho it got a bit dicey a couple of times

so much of this game is like, your buffs and armor and weapons, i've had harder fights against weaker foes just bc i wasn't properly equipped

but learning to dodge and use my shield a bit better certainly didn't hurt

tbh it looks like most of what i wanna do requires rupees, so i should go farm some i guess!

boring, but you know

apparently i was wrong about the music in goron city and the gerudo areas and they ARE the classic tunes...i just didn't hear it??

AAAAH the satori mountains are glowing!!

;w; i caught him

what a freaky-lookin boy

i wish i could keep him!!

jesus fuck the blood moon came up and i idled at the screen without looking, god, the ONE TIME

i bet i'll never make it in time but i gotta try

dark link armor will make me move a BIT faster at night for what its worth but i dont even think i have revali's gale ready jfc

thank god i made it with just a few seconds to spare

yikes its lightning af outside so im gonna quit for now

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aww tarreytown looks so cute so far!! i wanna build it up ;u;

lol i hate when you know a guardian is nearby and can't find it even tho i can fight them now my heartrate is still so jacked up

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god the tarreytown sidequests are so pleasant and relaxing like

i havent felt so calm playing this game since...i don't think ever

and like, they talk about the yiga clan and the monsters outside

and if i were a person with more time i would write the cute genfic about how tarreytown gets put under seige but their location makes that hard and they fight off the bad guys

it's always sunny there!!! no matter the weather elsewhere :')

also i finally did break the hylian shield cleaning out the guardian room on maze island and i got a replacement there......for3k, but still

anyway im finding all the chests from the shrines i missed and one is in the plateau ): my heart

like, i can't believe i used to think this mountain was massive, this plateau was massive. it's so small compared to everything else. and so lonely ;_;

like, i miss it, weirdly, but i miss the version that had the easy enemies and the old man and where when i looked outside of the walls it was all very misty and i couldn't even comprehend the true size of this world

so: nostalgia, i guess

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jesus FUCKING christ i went out to see the ranch ruins with epona and i got attacked by a guardian, a yiga clan member, and two silver bokoblins on horseback

FINALLY fought them off, terrified the entire time something would happen to epona, and i got attacked by three stal moblins

fought THEM off and there's a stal bokoblin on a stalhorse! but i can't catch it or ride it because of all times, the blood moon is rising!! j e s u s c h r i s t

now i've gotta get on my horse and get the hell out of dodge before those things come back to hurt her

i was thinking of a nice relaxing-if-sad trip before bed but no i gotta come back on FOOT to kill these guys AGAIN and then bring her back during the DAY so we can properly look around

who KNEW this would be so awful, jesus

okay update i did get on the stalhorse bc i have about 30 seconds to snap a cool pic (no way i can ride it out to whatever stable i need for the quest...even if i could leave epona here, it's much too long of a trip) but fucking hell dude

FUCK i took too long it rose epona and i are STILL HERE LMAO (((:

i didn't know if i should get on epona and ride for it or teleport to the stable and then board her

i teleported and it looks like she's still safe bc they boardered her ;_;

i took her back out and gave her a bunch of apples ;____; my poor brave girl

lol as if that wasnt enough its about to start lightning

ugh i'm coming back tomorrow and cleaning that place out good and fucking proper

i'd kinda like to do it tonight but it's already so late and i don't feel well and it would take a long time and also be a bit stressful probably

at least now i know where to find lots of stalhorses lol

although if you think about it they're there bc a lot of horses died

aaaaand i'm sad again

(super mad i didn't get pics on my in-game camera of the horse, but the snapchat pic i snapped of dark link riding it under the blood moon was still pretty damn cool)

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w o w

i kinda wish i had been able to bring epona, but i couldn't—it's so dangerous here

but after clearing it out and actually getting to look around, uh

this is brick-for-brick the most faithful recreation of oot's lon lon ranch

and i am SO sad

ugh i just had to restart an entire shrine bc i dropped my korok leaf at the last second bc i was trying to open all the chests and i had to go back and get my good spear that i had to drop to get the korok leaf in the first room...but i needed the korok leaf to get back to the end!!!!!

i hate the weapons system in this game sometimes i won't lie like sometimes it's really good and sometimes it drives me bonkers

oh my fucking god lmao

i can't even RESTART the shrine bc the leaf was in a CHEST which is now empty. holy shit

like, that is NONFUNCTIONAL

they should have had a tools section for leaves and axes and shit i swear to fuck bc i always drop korok leaves as soon as i can bc i don't ever use them to sail and i have so little room and there's so many weapons...jesus christ

i made a huuuuuge list of everything i need to fully upgrade all my armor. it took hours but i think i did the math wrong

remember when i said i was never going back to eventide? well here i am! i'm farming bokoblin guts/general monster drops lol and i knew there were a bunch here :|

but i'm better armed now! so it should be a cakewalk

even red hinoxes don't give me much trouble these days. we'll see

sniped the upper camp no problem with some pretty basic bows. don't know WHY i sniped it, i could have fought them...

haha just kidding. yes i do

time to fight the hinox, i suppose

tbh this is giving me trauma flashbacks lol

duuuude theres a lil star by this hinox's name!!

does that mean the game keeps track of which i kill.......awhile ago the fang and bone guy said he wanted me to kill every hinox and i'm like "fffft yeah right like the blood moon wouldn't come up halfway through each and every try"

but maybe that doesn't matter O:

now i can use stamps to only mark hinoxes i HAVENT killed............interesting

unfortunately i've also been stamping lynels, and i'd hate to take stamps off just bc i'd killed something...man

i wish i had more kinds of stamps and the ability to USE more stamps, geez

i could kill all four moldugas first and see what he did before deciding if it was Worth It

this doesn't make me feel like a badass and i'm not actually getting any great drops. i just have war flashbacks and feel slightly creeped out and anxious. so i'm leaving

holy fuck i finally got the rubber armor and duuuuude it really is shock proof! i got struck by lightning and it knocked me off my feet but only took a quarter of a heart!!!

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guess i should make a list of taluses, hinoxes, and moldugas i KNOW ive killed :|

it won't be comprehensive but i wanna keep track of it, sigh

i'm trying to farm bokoblin guts but this one area is like all these high up bridges and platforms and they ALWAYS fall so every time i have to fly down and climb back up :|

this place was from one of the coolest parts of the trailer though i really like it

i thought foolishly to knock them all off and then go down and get them. of course they'd despawned by then </3

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I FOUND KASS IN THE RITO STABLE? HE HAS A WIFE AND KIDS BACK HOME??

like tvtropes spoiled that for me i'll admit but im still cryin...hes so homesick!! he fulfilled a promise!!!! kass buddy i'm gonna clear those shrines for you ;_;

also update i get medals for killing all the things so ofc i gotta do that if i want 100%

i Dread the getting of the korok seeds i just dont know if i am Capable especially knowing there's no reward

like, i'm trying to get all the shrines done before i finish off the sidequests bc once i finish off the sidequests i am not gonna wanna play anymore, the story stuff and exploration stuff will mostly be over, my drive to keep going will drop dramatically, so like

gotta do the shrines first so i actually have time to WEAR the super cool armor i get

otherwise it would be sidequests, shrines, armor, but then no more playing lmao

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I GOT IT AND IT'S BEAUTIFUL

I MAY NEVER WEAR ANYTHING ELSE

(thats a lie i gotta wear other stuff until i can get this upgraded bc the stats are so low...but its BEAUTIFUL)

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i did all the stables so why won’t kass come see his daughters? ;_;

oh ok i had to go get the cache

AWWW BUDDY

he finally knows it’s me!! furthermore zelink #confirmed thank u nintendo this is probably the most overt it’s ever been tbh

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finally fully upgraded my armor & i never wanna see another dragon again

they kept failing to spawn where they were supposed to and the only one who spawns reliably/is easy to hit/doesn’t send scales flying 100000 miles away is farosh, naydra and dinraal are absolutely horrible, naydra in particular has nowhere you can fast-travel to, you have to fast-travel to a nearby shrine and then walk a good distance no matter where you drop in at. naydra was also the most finnicky about showing up when she was supposed to

at least i figured out i can use a flame sword instead of fire arrows to light campfires

getting honey was pretty easy there’s a fuckton next to those hinox brothers and acorns are kinda everywhere

the beetles were a little more tedious but once i put them on my sensor not too bad...the worst part was turning beedle down every time he wanted one because he does a LONG speech that is SUPER annoying after the 100th time and you’re just trying to buy arrows

anyway im gonna go test the defense

surprise! lynels and guardians can still kick my ass!

everything else seems to fly right off me tho so that’s something

it’s been ages since any hinox or talus was able to put up a fight against me

i’ve still only killed about half of each tho like :/ damn they are everywhere & there’s sooo many

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i’m lowkey wondering if i will attempt to 100% this game like i do Not look forward to getting all those fucking korok seeds, at that point it is no longer fun, yk, and the reward is so stupid

also i saw a video about having to visit every major named place on the map as well

and both of those things obviously guarantee that you see EVERY INCH of this huge and exapansive and beautiful world, but i feel like if i forced myself to keep going and doing it i would learn to hate the game a little bit lmao. lowkey feel like that’s adding fake hours onto your game for something that stop being fun and turns into absolute tedium, but i guess i can understand wanting to give completionist players a reason to see EVERYTHING

we’ll just see how i feel - i still have quite a few sidequests left, and while i don’t wanna burn thru them too quickly (bc again, after they’re over my interest will drop dramatically) i also still wanna fight the minibosses and upgrade as much of my armor as i am able to

but like, who the fuck has time to farm 160ish star pieces...? not me my dude and that mmo-type drop rarity is like :/ i disapprove, that’s like...cheating. but anyway. we’ll see how far i get