#>_> so im scared abt the writing still

[gorillaxyz]

im gonna throw up

[lovesickeros]

now that natlan is out it's tsaritsa yearning hours again because i am one nation closer to either being horribly disappointed or foaming at the mouth!

creator!reader w a little side of conflicted tsaritsa is such good food I can't not yap about it. a woman who has dedicated so much of her life to severing herself from "love" of all kinds and succeeding and. just being so confident that when she meets you she's bitter and angry and mean. because she can't stand you. she isn't supposed to love yet you worm your way into her heart anyway and you don't even know it.

especially in smth like an imposter au. she tells herself your just a tool for her to use but your treated like the Divine you really are, pampered and spoiled every step. tells herself it means nothing when she indulges you – let's you hold her hand in private, eventually let's you move aside the veil, just a little.

and she hates it. hates how easy it is to let you break down the ice she's built up for years.

all you do is smile and she feels like she can't breathe. because despite how violently she rejects love in all aspects, it always bleeds through eventually. she despises it but the way you brush your thumbs over her cheeks makes her bitter and warm and it infuriates her to no end.

she hates you and she loves you and she can't stand you and if you were ever taken from her she'd destroy every inch of teyvat if she had to go get you back.

and ironically enough I think she'd also be the one to initiate any first kiss. maybe she's still trying to convince herself it's just a fluke and itll make her realize it meant nothing, it means nothing. desperate to fix whatever you've done to her and instead it just makes it worse.

a horrible mess of a woman who gave up on love just to be confronted with it when she finally accepted it's absence.

[aibouart]

compilation of my other fav palette challenges from the years past... i should do them again sometime......

chara #9 belongs to @askbookwormflareon

[motorcity-thoughts]

the more i think abt it the more crazy it is. mike’s biggest fear.. is himself.

[aropride]

i really dont understand studying at all like genuinely i don't know what it is . i know about "taking notes" and "reading the textbook" and that's it . quizlet doesn't do shit for me because i don't know what to. do. with the cards. look at them ? am i supposed to just look at them . No one bothered teaching me actual skills bc i got good grades when i was 8 and now i am so hopelessly lost . why did no one think to teach me this for when stuff got harder than four plus three

[kidpunkjunk]

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[myymi]

if u had to pick one thing that is your least fave tails headcannon what would it be?

i feel like this a mix between headcanon and characterizing but im choosing it anyway:

people not making tails scared of chaos in sonic forces

i think it's so dumb when people say he shouldn't have been scared just because he fought and won against chaos 4.

do i think the writing is awful? yes, but him being scared is still in character regardless of the writing.

people tend to forget tails is a child, age removed or not, he's always referred to as a young kid.

do you know how terrified any child would be in that situation?

i mean, he thinks sonic is dead at that point in time, and people really expect him not to freeze up when he sees one of the people who killed him? it's so stupid.

don't get me wrong, i do think tails should've been the one to fight off chaos instead of bringing in classic sonic. but there's no reason to get rid of his fear to do that.

tails is allowed to be scared, and people saying he wouldn't have been are just wrong.

[cimicherrychanga]

btw u guys have to promise to not be mad at me for becoming ur turtle mutual. please

[siobhanromee]

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[veemimis]

Thinking making Bayojeanne CATLD comic . . . < Has never made a comic

Thumbnailed it , its 3 pages just cute fluffy stuff . . . I need to actually finish the art im working on now but aaugh i crave bayojeanne

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[whomturgled]

i have so many feelings and i hate it

[chisatowo]

Read the new sekai story. Not ok.

[priestfrommidnightmass]

lately ’ve been feeling kinda guilty because i’ve been feeling much less satisfied and proud of this incredible opportunity i’ve received that i’ve been hoping and dreaming of for ages than i was with my silly summer job taking care of kids and like. i don’t know i’ve been reconsidering if being in film is even what i actually want to do because tbh i’ve been realizing that my actual dream is just to. be liked and have friends and be around people? i’ve been lonely for so long and i definitely know i’ve projected a lot of my desires and dreams onto my writing and lived vicariously though a lot of films and it was so important to me because it felt like it was life or death. so now that i like. have friends and have more life experiences and am satisfied with my place the idea of actually Working in film is just… i don’t know! it’s kinda been making me feel sick everytime i think about it. i don’t think i’m actually passionate about the thing i thought i was. i’ve found something i’m good at and it’s not what i thought it was or thought i wanted whatsoever! that’s scary because even questioning this kinda makes me feel like my life is turning upside down! i feel like that post where someone said they started taking anti depressants and is now deleting their bts account or something

[anevilmanstit]

good omens spoiler warning

So... I binged the 2nd season today... so uh, last warning for spoilers bc I have thoughts and I need to let them flow (literally just rambling...)

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Let me start off by just saying that I am a huge fan of pairings that are doomed by the narrative. If it feels like the end of the world when they kiss, if the display of their affection/feelings feels like death I am guaranteed to be on the floor in the fetal position, I am eating dirt, my heart is going on strike. Honestly the best.

And the acting of both David Tennant and Michael Sheen was marvelous. Their performance felt to me so realistic that it was almost tangible.

However, this felt somehow different than the other such representations of "doomed love". Love had always been implied and I feel like their relationship was never one to hide their affection for one another. They may have denied it verbally a couple of times in both seasons 1 and 2 but they had always acted to the contrary.

So when the kiss came to me it didn't feel like doom, it wasn't as if both of them were accepting their fate, it didn't feel the same way that I've seen this trope in other media. Instead, I saw it as more of a last attempt in violent desperation. I'm not saying it was violent but it almost seemed like Crowley acted on frustration in "a hopeless situation" for him. It didn't feel the same because it was a one-sided feeling of demise. It wasn't both of them who got the short end of the stick, it was just Crowley.

And yes, I understand that it must have been hard for Aziraphale too, but it was he who chose to leave Crowley. It wasn't a circumstantial thing, and it wasn't something they had discussed beforehand. They did not walk into "oblivion" together.

Sure, they seem to be doomed by design (being on opposite sides and all) but they had managed for so long that their relationship's "death" is a choice, rather a necessity.

I'm not blaming either one of them for their choices. I understand why both of them decided what they did and ik that there is season 3 to look forward to, but I'd just been served a fresh plate of a whole new kind of heartbreak and my brain is refusing to accept it.

[banghwa]

it is. undefinable how profoundly tired i am these days.