#> its either finish these or finish the raphael one

[ihaznoclue]

What about cuddling with the three brothers of your choice when its raining outside, something Fluffy. Maybe after a very tiring day of fighting crime, they just want to relax and cuddle with you.

Pairings -> Raphael/Raph, Donatello/Donnie, Michelangelo/Mikey x Reader

Warnings -> None

Note -> Just relaxing after a stressful day

Genre -> Fluff

RAPHAEL

Raph always has it tough, always doing patrols, fighting crime or any foot clans but at least he loves doing all that to protect the city of New York even though no-one knows who's the real hero's of this city

But that doesn't mean he can't have a break or a rest once in a while with his favourite person, his soulmate, his everything

You were the definition of angel, always making sure Raph was treated fairly and always got taken care of even if he doesn't think he needs to be taken care of by you

Tonight was a stressful night for Raph as he went on solo patrol while Leo was having a conversation with Master Splinter, Donnie gearing up his inventions or gadgets for his next time of patrol and Mikey just being a goofball doing his own thing of playing video games

You came around the lair around 1am to see your favourite turtle, but couldn't see him anywhere as you called out to Mikey who was in the living room on the couch as he clicked and tapped on his controller

"Yo Mikey, Where's Raph?" You questioned to the younger turtle who didn't dare to look away from the TV that his game was displayed on but replied saying "Oh Raph? He's on solo patrol, he'll be back in a couple of minutes"

"Thanks Mike" You thanked Mikey as you went to Raph's room to wait for him as he comes back from patrol, hoping he was okay

Now you were on your phone, laying on raph's big bed as you scrolled through social media

Now until you heard a grumble from a familiar voice, making you look up to the door to spot Raph stressful face

Placing your phone down as you smiled at him "Hey Raphie" You greeted him as he returned his greeting with a groan as he plopped onto his bed as his voice was muffled by the blacket

"I'm sorry Raph but I can't hear you love"

Raph then lifted his face up as he spoke more clearly "Can we cuddle?" He asked, not being ashamed of asking as he knew you wouldn't turn it into a weird thing

You smiled once more "Of course we can"

Raph then decided to take off all of his gear and his mask to get comfy as it looked like he was extremely exhausted from tonight's patrol

You gave out a little laugh as he nuzzled himself more into you as his face was in the crook of your head, taking in your scent as he relaxed his muscles

You weren't really that tired as you took your phone that was laying beside you as you turned the brightness down to not wake Raph up

Now it's been a couple of minutes as you became a little bit tired, seeing the time as it was now 2:43am so you decided it was time to got to sleep yourself

You could hear the rain pitter patter on top as it calmed everything down, making yourself comfortable as you fell asleep beside Raph

It was now time to unwind

DONATELLO

It was another exhausting day, saving the city from criminals and bad guys or either foot clans o staying the lair for hours on end doing God knows what

Inventions, gadgets, anything to help keep the city alive and safe and even his brother since he's the 'Tech guy' who only knows technology and inventions

You know the nerd stuff that his brother can't even bother helping him with even though he might not need it anyways even if he asked they wouldn't know a single thing at all about technology

Right now Donnie came back from patrol with his brother but went straight to his lair to continue his work on his stuff that were important for him to finish

You got a message from Mikey that he was worried for his older brother that he wasn't getting much sleep as he told you Donnie went straight to his lair after a long and stressful patrol so you decided to come down

It wasn't a long walk as you finally made it to the lair as you called out

"Angelcakes, Finally you'r where, I'm worried for Donnie" Mikey whined as he hugged you in a greeting he always does

"Don't worry Mikey, I'll get Donnie to sleep in no time" You promised as Mikey let you go as you walked over to the lab

It seemed like Donnie hasn't noticed your presence as he was super focused on his science stuff

You frowned as you saw how tired he looked as he looked through a magnifying glass so you decided to go up to him as you hugged him around his shoulder that made him jump slightly at the touch

"Oh It's just you, you scared me dove" Donnie nervously chuckled as he went back to looking through the glass that was set in front of him

"Mikey told me you guys came back from patrol, but I have one question though" You spoke making Donnie stop in his tracks to look up at him

You frowned once again "Why are you working so much in this lair without sleeping Donnie, Mikey and your brother are worried about you, I'm worried that you aren't getting enough sleep" You confessed

"I will I just need to finish this one last thing" Donnie said as he continued on his work that made you sigh

So you decided to stay which turned into 2 hours, you could hear the rain form outside on top as you sat near Donnie on the floor waiting for him to finish his work

"Donnie.. It's been 2 hours" You whined as you looked up at Donnie who slightly smile down at you "I'll be done soon"

You slightly pouted then thought of something that might get him to get into bed "What about we cuddle? Would that get you to bed?" You asked

This made Donnie stop as he bit his lip, seems like that worked as he stood up from his chair and picked you up from the floor as started ot walk to his bed

You were so smug about that the idea of wanting to cuddle actually worked as he placed you down on his bed as he took off his gear and his glasses, going straight into the blankets

You followed behind as you were now up close, your head beneath his chin as he churred slightly as he took in your scent

You could hear something thumping a little as you knew that was his tail

You were about to say something as you looked up to see Donnie was now asleep, long gone so you smiled as you kissed him on his cheek by leaning up

"Goodnight Donnie"

MICHELANGELO

Mikey is a cuddle bug, but he always asks first before cuddling you to death

But this is a whole different situation where He came back from patrol with his brothers, seeing him stomp off to his room, looking all pissed

You wondered what happened until you heard arguing form the two older brothers of the four, you knew the fight alot, like all the time because that's what brothers do

They fight but you hoped that nothing happened to Mikey though since he's always so cheerful and excited to see you but maybe he was too focused on getting away from his brother constant fighting

Today was the day you were going to hang out with Mikey as you made your way to the lair

Mikey texted you earlier that he was on patrol so he requested you to wait for him in the lair and maybe having a orange crush or two if you wanted to

Thats when you were waiting on the couch as you played a video game, waiting for the brother to come back from their night patrol to make sure everything was okay in the city

That was until you heard voice coming from the left side as you looked back to see Mikey stomping away to his room and his brother behind

Leo and Raph were arguing again and Donnie going to the lab to lock himself in there for who knows how long

You instantly paused the game that you were playing as you went to question the two brother on what happened but they didn't say anything and continued arguing

"You always tell everyone what to do huh Leo, this patrol was shit because of your leadership!" Raph yelled

"Oh so you're saying it was because of me!? What about sticking together when told to"

"That's no the case!"

As the arguing continued you decided to go check on Mikey as you stood up from the couch, walking away from the loud voices as you went inf ront of Mikey's room as you knocked to let him know it was you

Hearing a muffled "Come in" You went inside as you shut the door behind you as you leaned on it, looking at Mikey was laying on his bed with his face covered by the blankets

You sighed as you spoke up "Mikey.. You okay?" You asked and that made Mikey yelled out

"They always do this everytime!" You decided it was best for him to let it all out as you walked to his bed, climbing on the bed as you crawled your way to him

"They're brother Mike, brothers always seem to argue on the littlest things, but they still love each other even though they argue"

"But I just want them to stop.." He sighed as he laid on his side as you slid down to laid on your side facing him

Reaching up your hand to stroke his cheek as you thought of something "How about we forget about this and we just cuddle, you seem exhausted" You told him

Mikey nodded as he wrapped his arms around to move you closer to him as he nuzzled into your shoulder, churring sounds coming straight from him as you smiled

"Thanks Sweets" Mikey mumbled as he seem to drift off to sleep, making you think that he was actually exhausted from all the things that happened tonight

You decided to stay up a bit until the voice outside of his room died down, which it did finally

Now all you could hear was the soft breathing from your favourite turtle beside you and the rain from outside, it was calming

You decided it was time for you to go to sleep as well, so you shut your eyes and got comfortable as you held MIkey's hand

Now it was time to relax

-A<3

[junowritings]

Can I request headcanons for Haarlep, Dammon, Rolan, and Zevlor with gn crush who can't genuinely can't tell if someone is being platonic or romantic to them?

Anon dear nothing but kisses thank you for the amazing request and requesting my fav Tiefs~

I'd wanted to leave the scenarios between each vague when I began this; I swear this started off small but it's now like 2am and ten pages long but here we are!

Also I've only just finished Act 2 so I may not have been too accurate with Haarlep and the others' act 3 moments but I do hope you enjoy~

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Haarlep 

♡ You’ve certainly put yourself in it this time. Managing to earn the affections of an incubus like Haarlep? You’ve either done something very right, or so very very amusing.

♡ At the House of hope the lines between affection and lust have all but blurred for Haarlep long before you showed up snooping around in places you weren’t supposed to be. You aren’t the first one to be lured in and, if the place’s owner had its way, you most certainly wouldn’t be the last; but that doesn’t mean you can’t provide some worthwhile entertainment for the incubus you stumble across in Raphael’s quarters.

♡ The second you’d poked your head into the boudoir to snoop you’d caught Haarlep’s attention, if only for the fact that you most certainly shouldn’t have been poking around so brazenly. They’ve heard your name plenty of times; heard how you’ve toed the fine line of keeping Rapael on his toes at every turn without making an enemy of him - yet. You should know better than to test the limits like this - but you don’t, and that makes the thought of killing you so wasteful to Haarlep when there’s far more amusing ways to make use of you.

♡Maybe it was merely for curiosity’s sake that they allowed you to walk in and out of the place with your life and soul intact; the potential of getting to do something - or someone - fun too tempting to pass up on after wiling the days away with the same old faces. For you to come voluntarily traipsing round the corridors of Raphael’s very ‘home’? Knowing the consequences and either too brave or too foolish to heed them? Now that piques the incubus’ interest, enough that they’re willing to let you leave after they’ve had their fun. After all, they know you won’t be able to stay away for long.

♡ You keep coming back - of course you do. You’re fun to toy with - the most amusement that they’ve had in quite a while. Even with an unwanted guest squirming around in your head and time being a precious commodity when your corner of the world is on the line, you always have a penchant for coming back for more. And they are more than content to give you those reasons to keep coming back; you’ll never stray for long now that they’ve got their claws into you, of that they’re certain.

♡ Oftentimes your visits aren’t with the promise of fulfilling desires - at least not the carnal ones. Instead you make a habit of sneaking into Raphael’s boudoir just to keep them company, flashing them that mischievous grin as you stretch out onto that luxurious bed and eagerly pat the space beside you. Haarlep feigns the role of a lover well - they’ve had enough centuries to hone their craft after all. So even they know when the line between a mere amusement and something more affectionate begin to blur together when it comes to you. It's gradual, of course - those simple hours listening to you rattle away about the latest scandalous adventure as they gently card clawed fingers through your hair; watching those little twinges of content pleasure on your face as you lean into their touch almost instinctively. 

♡ Haarlep is intimate by nature, always wanting to keep a hand on you at all times no matter the form that they take. Even in the most mundane circumstances you’ll find claws rubbing soft circles into your sides, a head perched upon the crook of your shoulder and warm breaths against your ear just close enough to get you to squirm or playfully push them away. If they’re feeling particularly greedy they’ll hide you away from the world within their wings, pulling your attention to focus purely on them as their tail curls loosely around your leg.

♡ The first night that you make the mistake of drifting off right there in the incubus’ arms is the day that Haarlep puts a face to the emotion that rattles awake within their chest. When was the last time they had felt such affection? Adored for merely existing? The concept of love is inherently foreign for someone like Haarlep, who has long released any such ties the moment they were contracted to be Raphael’s personal mirror in bed. And yet the feeling is relished nonetheless. 

♡ Be it blind trust or mounting exhaustion that leads you to this they care not; they’re far more focused on engraving every little contour of your face to their mind, running a finger down the curve of your jaw with a pleased hum. Such a hopeless one they’ve managed to fall for - if only you knew just how much you drew them in.

♡ Haarlep knows full well that you must be a little clueless to keep willingly coming back to the incubus without thought of the potential consequences. One would mistake you for a fool, or someone who values their life so little - but you’re neither (most of the time), and it doesn’t take much for Haarlep to clock onto why that is. You’re hopeless at differentiating between platonic and romantic advances; poor thing. A better person would take pity on you, perhaps assuage your inner turmoil with a few simple words. But when the alternative is being able to get you squirm with just enough hints to keep you on your proverbial toes? Well, who could fault them for keeping you guessing? 

♡ Out of all of them, Haarlep is more than happy to keep you spinning with this ‘will they won’t they’ game that they have circling around your head all of the time. Why waste a good thing with something so frivolous when they already have you right where they want you? Away from prying eyes, tucked away in their arms as they make your head spin with honeyed words and teasing remarks of your little conundrum. There’s no need to spoil the party by putting a name to the blatant feelings that lay thick in the air, is there?

♡That’s what they believe at least while they have you. But alas there’s always the inevitable departure - time is ticking on the surface world, your world. And you can’t spend all of your days in the House of Hope for them to seek out whenever they wish, though the idea becomes more and more appealing with each passing day. They're always reluctant to see you leave, hoping to tempt you back with teases and promises, all the while their hands are on your hips and his tail is back to curling around your ankle as though intent on convincing you to stay. 

♡ They allow you to slip from their claws if you insist, but don’t think you won’t have eyes on you until the very second that you disappear through that portal, contemplating pulling you right back for one selfish reason or another. They have teased and pulled at your heartstrings about missing you before - a comment once said in jest to rile you up - but this time Haarlep’s the one who feels the familiar tug as they slink back to their familiar stage. There’s the ripple of shifting bones and infernal magic rippling through them as they don your form, standing before the mirror within Raphael’s quarters as they bring a hand up to affectionately caress the flesh of their - your - cheek. An imitation of the real thing, but it serves its purpose as they anticipate your return.

♡ Perhaps, they decide as they map out every inch of this reflection of you, they will wrap this little game up sooner than they thought. Better for the cat to snatch you up before a fox does, hm?

Dammon

♡ Nothing’s been easy since long before Dammon and the other Tieflings took up the journey to Baldur’s gate, hoping for a better life than the ones that they’re leaving behind. He’s had to leave a lot of things behind in pursuit of that better life - his forge and his tools, anything he couldn’t carry or risk going back for. Hells, he was limited to the clothes on his back and the essentials he’d been fortunate enough to take with him; but that was all he had left of his old life, and Dammon knows the others are the same. It’s not just material possessions either - any plans he once had about his future went up in smoke months ago, instead clinging to the hope of forging some kind of livelihood in the city when they finally arrived. Anything other than that? Any dreams of love? A partner? A family? A dream is all they’re set to remain as.

♡ Dammon’s thankful that there’s plenty of things to keep him busy. Sure the forge and tools at the grove don’t hold a candle to his setup back at his old place but it’s an excellent way to keep himself occupied whenever he finds himself getting restless and itching for the outlet of familiarity. While things remain a stalemate between the Tieflings and the druids, he passes the time helping where he can, repairing armor and weapons with what limited materials he has to make sure that no one’s going out there completely unarmed. It’s good work for now, and lets him stave off the pining, leaving the humored thoughts of kindling anything romantic with anyone for the lonely nights at his forge or tucked away in his books.

♡ That all changed once you came along of course.

♡ Your mere presence is a whirlwind of a tale in itself. Armor bashed and dented from something much larger than goblins, weapon looking as though it’s one good swing away from snapping in two. Hells, it looks like you took a tumble from a damned cliff and walked it off - a thought he admits to a few days after your first meeting. He decides it’s probably best not to ask when you laugh, patting his back with a shake of your head as you chuckle that he doesn’t know the half of it. Wherever you came from you’ve taken a hell of a beating, and yet you still look ready to take on the world as you amble over to his forge to browse his wares and introduce yourself to the tiefling.

♡ You make yourself known about the Grove, making fast friends with some and tolerable allies in others. Dammon’s firmly in the former category, and really enjoys having you around. Even if you don’t know much about smithing you humor him whenever he talks about his craft, listening with an eager ear whenever he gets that bright glint in his eye that signals he’s going to go on a tangent. Don’t mention it though - it will fluster him to the hells and back to know that you notice that kind of stuff. Not to mention you respect his space while he’s working. Dammon’s focus when his working is honed in on defining details and making each piece perfect in his own way, so it's easy to lose track of what’s going on around him when he’s bent over his forge with his newest labor of love. 

♡ Maybe that’s why you’re able to catch him by surprise so often, startled out of his own reverie spotting you leaning against the beam of his makeshift workspace. You comment how amazing it is to see him so immersed in his craft - it’s inspiring, really - and that small appraisal alone has his face turning a lovely shade of copper. His work’s been praised before - it’s the highlight of his days seeing people genuinely appreciate the things he creates with his own hands. But being the one receiving such praise rather than the items he makes does something to his poor heart.

♡Dammon recognizes that he’s beginning to fall for you. It’s not something that hits him all at once, more like a gradual wave of affections that wash over him with each little greeting or rushed wave as you dart around the camp and back out again on the next adventure. It makes him feel…lighter, warmer. He’s tried to remain hopeful about what the future holds, to keep morale going in his own way; but he’s just as uncertain about it all as the others are. But having you around? Seeing the lengths that you go to - both from the issues at the Grove to the attack on the inn and the conflict at Moonrise? That kind of life that he had to push on the backburner feels feasible now - and you’re beginning to become an integral part of it at every turn.

♡ Dammon’s love language is acts of service, so you can expect him to go out of his way to do things for you to make your life easier. It starts off small; giving you discounts on anything you buy from him and little freebies he can spare whenever things aren’t so dire. Dammon always believes that you deserve more however, so eventually you can find him going out of his way to fashion whatever materials he can spare into things for you. 

♡ He’s no jewel smith, but he knows his own craft well, so he’ll gift you things that he knows you’ll find useful - weapons . He’ll refuse any kind of payment you try to give him, assuring you that you deserve far more after all you’ve done as he gently presses your gold back into your palm with a warm smile, his touch lingering a little longer than necessary. 

♡And yet you still wonder why the party strong-arms you into being the designated buyer whenever you stop by his forge for repairs or supplies - your lack of awareness is going to give Gale more gray hairs at this rate.

♡ The only problem with Dammon’s acts of service, is that it’s very easy to mistake these gestures as him just being a good person - which he is! You’ve seen how easily he goes out of his way to help others in a pinch. You were there when he went through all of that effort to help Karlach curb her infernal engine enough to give her the chance for closeness that she’d been deprived of for years. (after all she’d almost cracked your ribs returning the hug you’d given her to test if Dammon’s upgrade had worked.) It’s easy for you to rationalize all of his gifts as something that’s just platonic - you couldn’t hope for more, right?

♡ Dammon wishes so badly that you would.

♡Is certainly the most upfront about his crush out of all of the tieflings once he realizes that you struggle to discern any romantic intentions. Though he does worry that he’s the one misreading the situation and that you may not actually reciprocate the feelings he has for you, in the end it doesn’t stop him. He needs to get his feelings out there before they burn over - especially with what could very well be the end of the world dangling over everybody’s heads by the time you all finally reach Baldur’s gate. If he doesn’t do it now, he worries you’ll never get the chance to figure it out for yourself. 

♡ He’ll call you away from your companions, asking for a moment of your time at the back of his shop. Tucked away in the far corner of his workplace, it reminds him of back at the Grove curled over his forge with you by his side watching him work with a quiet admiration. The memory gives him the confidence to reach for your hand, noting the way your eyes widen and your breath catches. You’ve fought gods and toppled cults, and yet you’re left speechless by his touch? As if the tiefling couldn’t fall for you any more. 

♡ If he had his way, Dammon would give you something far better than just spilling his feelings, something more profound than just words. But he knows better, that you’re on borrowed time and a small moment whisked away in the back of his forge is all he can give you right now - with promises for a proper date and confession when you come back alive.

♡ Expect Dammon to go overboard with the gift though, because of course he won’t just leave it at words. He keeps flipping between something classic like flowers and sweet treats (maybe even craft some metalwork flowers himself?); or perhaps you’d like something more practical like a weapon or armor with custom engraving (that he absolutely put his signature on in the hopes it will remind you of him when you’re on the road.) In the end he decides to go with a combination of both, carefully tucked away somewhere safe to give to you whatever your answer may be.

Rolan

♡ The idea of a crush was, at the beginning, a laughable notion to Rolan. Back at the Grove his priority was focused on two things and two things alone - one, getting to Baldur’s gate to begin the apprenticeship he’s dreamed of for months; and two, getting Cal and Lia there with him in one piece. Anything beyond that was unimportant, at least, that’s what he told himself at the time to make the idea of leaving the Grove without the rest of them more palatable. But then of course some newcomer just had to step in during one of the bi-daily spats about it and that whole idea went up in the air along with whatever patience he may have had.

♡ You’d convinced him to stay, convinced him not to pack up and leave in just one conversation and he’d bended to your interjection just like that. Rolan still doesn’t know why he conceded, watching with furrowed brows as Lia rounded on you excited to figure out how you did that and Cal sighing in relief that the whole argument was finally over with. It doesn’t matter - soon you’ll be right back out of those gates, just another soul passing through, and you’d be gone as though you never existed in the first place.

♡ If only it was that simple, but no, you just had to stick around instead of carrying on your way. Perhaps it would have saved his heart the trouble if you hadn’t.

♡ His feelings are misplaced, mistaken for frustration watching you traipse around fixing problems he hasn’t been able to. At first it’s jealousy - another ugly feeling he won’t admit. How do you make helping people look so easy? Breathing life into the cracks that have formed between the two groups and patching them up as simply as you breathe? 

♡ It doesn’t help that you stop by to see him every time, a habit that persists long after your time in the Grove. Rolan believes it’s out of pity and the wizard is ready to give you an earful about it. But the longer you stick around the more he has to come to terms with the fact that it’s nothing as malicious as that - you just enjoy coming to see him, for whatever reason. Rolan doesn’t know at what point your company becomes more than tolerable, even enjoyable - but the idea of it being anything more than that, with anyone much less you, is a far off notion.

♡ Of course he doesn’t expect to fall for someone, and he most certainly doesn’t expect it to be you. He’s a stubborn soul, who is just as reluctant to come to terms with his own feelings, much less the realization that these feelings aren’t the closely guarded secret he believed them to be. 

♡ All it takes Cal makes an offhand comment once about how Rolan’s ‘complaints’ about you these days sound more like praises - that if he didn’t know any better it sounds like he actually loves having you around. And just like that Rolan very nearly chokes on the drink he was unfortunate enough to be imbibing in at the time. 

♡ Him? Have feelings for YOU?! You, some wayward adventurer with a penchant for sticking your nose in where it doesn’t rightly belong out of some presumed sense of duty to this little wayward band of Tieflings? Who goes out of your way to seek out his company again and again no matter how harshly he comes off in return? Who humors his temper, grins at his sarcastic wit, and gives him that damned smile that sometimes makes the warmth in his chest feel like it’s shooting straight up to his throat threatening to spill-

♡ Oh.

♡ Oh no.

♡ The lightbulb pings simultaneously, and it's a good thing you’re not around to hear his siblings absolutely losing it over the knowledge that their brother is stuck pining over you. Not even a few weeks ago he was cussing you out over some perceived slight that was childish in hindsight, spurred on by his own feelings of helplessness. But now? You still made his blood boil, but gods if it didn’t feel like his blood burned for you now.

♡ Rolan’s way of flirting is by showing off to you. He believes that his greatest asset to impress you is his magic, and is fully prepared to use the arsenal of non-lethal spells at his disposal in an attempt to get you swooning. During the celebration at the Grove he remembers fondly the sound of your applause at his performance, your eyes alight with mirth as the sky right above your heads came alive with the results of his magic. The satisfaction of witnessing your face light up in the glow had been worth it; you’d rolled your eyes at his admittedly overdramatic bow but still grinned as your expression softened in embers of the campfire. It still has that warmth Rolan’s begun associating with you kindling in his chest, so he sets on impressing you every chance he gets, with the hope that just maybe it’ll be enough to kindle a warmth within you too.

♡ Rolan insists that he’s not outright confessing to you because surely you already know? Granted he hasn’t been the most…open, about his feelings, nor has he been very direct in his approach where others would have been bold…

♡ Oh who is he kidding - the thought of your rejection scared off any attempts to confess before this point. You’ve always been there - coming in every time there’s been mortal peril to save his life and the lives of his family again and again. It’s hard not to feel as though he’s got nothing to give every time you prove your resilience - would you even want him after you’ve seen him at his worst? He’d much rather live with the torment than know the answer to that question, even if it gnaws at him every night.

♡ Before you ask, yes there’s a betting pool on who’s going to confess first. What began as an inside joke spread like wildfire amongst the group the second Mol caught wind of the lucrative deal. Rolan doesn’t know what’s more mortifying - the fact that his affections are blatantly obvious enough to everyone around the pair of you, or that despite all of this you’re the only one who has no idea.

♡ Someone else is going to have to break the stalemate that’s going on here and convince him to confess. Not just for your sake or Rolan’s, but because your respective groups are getting fed up with the building tension with no-one saying anything. Gods you can’t both be this dense can you?

♡ Yes. Yes you can. And no one is having a good time right now.

♡ Fortunately for the both of you, the aftermath of Moonrise is when the dam finally breaks on all of the things that Rolan’s been holding back. Loose lips sink ships, and in Rolan’s case all of the drinks he’d imbibed earlier attempting to drown his sorrows at the last light inn have eased the filter that kept his feelings at bay. It’s made him far more prone to speaking his mind, not to mention that he’s still reeling from the rush of relief at seeing his siblings alive - yet another thing he has to thank you for - so much so that he’s seeking you out before he can think otherwise.

♡ He doesn’t have to go far; you and Rolan nearly butt heads as he goes to shoot up from his seat, and though you look worse for wear still bearing the bruises and battered gear of a battle well won he watches your expression light up. All it takes is seeing you’ve come back alive, that you’ve come straight to him before you’ve even thought to patch yourself up and his resolve crumbles. 

♡ Rolan’s out of his chair and in your arms before you can blink, one hand winding through your hair and the other pressed against your back to stop you from falling flat on your ass with how swift he moves as he holds you like you’ll slip right through his fingers. He swears he can hear your heart hammering against his chest, too focused to notice the twitch of his tail curled round your leg. By the time he catches himself, Rolan practically goes rigid and pulls back, enough to see your face. The tiefling takes in your wide eyes and slack jaw with a sudden jolt of clarity that fuck, you really weren’t aware of what you were to him this whole time; and now he’s gone and-

♡ He opens his mouth again - whether to take it back or blame it on the drink. But before he can there’s arms around him, and suddenly he’s back in his chair with your face pressed into the crook of his neck, and he swears he sees a flash of red on your face enough to rival his own skin. You hold him tight enough that he has to focus a little to breathe, but it’s a sacrifice he makes gladly as his ears pick up on your hurried murmurs of ‘having no idea’ and ‘can’t believe it’ as you practically corner him into his seat.

♡ The moment is broken by the swift screech of “Finally!” from somewhere in the inn, and suddenly the world’s spinning again. Rolan’s glare over your shoulder in a bid to suss out the offending party is half-hearted, lacking any real bite in lieu of having someone far more important to focus his attention on.

Zevlor

♡ Welcome to slow burn two: electric boogaloo, and in this essay I will-

♡ Zevlor has not lived an easy life, even before the fall of Elturel; you can tell he’s got more than his fair share of scars and war stories behind those deep yellow eyes, the testament of a man who fights daily to hold the pieces of his hope and faith close to his heart. He’s a weathered soul, who many have relied on and put their faith in even in spite of his own perceived shortcomings. The tieflings that he leads to safe pastures are no different; they’re all hoping to find a better life at Baldur’s gate, and all of them turn to Zevlor to lead them all there. 

♡ The relief is almost palpable when you arrive through those gates, dragging Aradin and his men in behind you. You’d made short work of the goblins fighting to tear their way inside, still plucking bits of arrow and guts from the battered shell of your armor as you’d wandered into the Grove alongside the rest of your party. 

♡ He has every reason to believe that you’ll simply go on your way, knowing that you’re more than capable enough to handle the threats out on the road to leave the Grove in your peripherals without a second thought. Yet you don’t; instead you’re right back into the fray, pushing between the spat between himself and Aradin without hesitation with a sharp reminder that there’s more here at stake than some squabbling about something that could have - but didn’t - happen.

♡ Zevlor isn’t proud to admit that he’d hoped you’d be useful in easing tensions in the grove between the Tieflings and the druids. You’re a neutral third party, so to speak, and though he’s sure that the druids are set on locking down the grove and kicking them out to the wilds he hopes that someone like you will be able to at least buy them all some time. When that inevitably didn’t work he’s surprised to learn you’ve set your sights on the next best thing - forget just the goblins at the gate, you’re gearing your party up to take on the source at the heart of that camp.

♡ He’d be lying if he said he didn’t admire you from the beginning, a feeling that only becomes more profound the longer you’re around. Zevlor watches you humor Mattis’ salesmanship, sees you taking the time to train the others to better defend themselves and diffusing any quarrels on the daily rounds that you insist on joining the Tiefling on. It has a visible impact on the camp’s morale, and Zevlor has to wonder if you were truly just a passing adventurer or something more divine sent to them in their hour of need when he catches you conversing with the other tieflings, bringing smiles to their faces after months of hardships.

♡Another firm member of the ‘won’t broach the blatant pining in the room’ club. Zevlor’s lived long enough to put a name to the emotions that he’s feeling, and has taken the time to process what exactly that means when it comes to his feelings for you specifically. What he feels for you runs deeper than respect, deeper than the mere admiration that he held for you at your first encounter beyond the gates. 

♡You consume his thoughts every second that you’re not close to his side. Worries himself into a panic each time you leave the safety of the grove wanting to follow but kept rooted with his own duties. You’re more than capable of defending yourself as you’ve demonstrated time and time again, but gods if he doesn’t lament not being there to protect you as ardently as you do to others. It would be selfish to want such a thing, but it doesn’t stop him from craving it in the least.

♡ Out of every single being on this list, there is none more reluctant to confess to you that he’s begun to fall for you than Zevlor. He knows this affection; wishes for nothing more than to allow himself this small act of greed keeping it close and savoring the warmth it provides. But unless you say something that is as far as he is willing to dare your relationship to progress. 

♡ What really stops Zevlor from confessing is himself. He firmly believes that he’s simply not worthy of you. He’s a man who has made too many mistakes, made too many choices that have led to lives lost and consequences on those around him. Surely you deserve someone unmarred by that kind of life? Who can give you love uninhibited by the guilt and ghosts of one's past that plague him on so many sleepless nights?

♡ But oh how easily you’ve got this man curled around your finger, and you don’t even know it. Now that you’ve so thoroughly poured your life into the cracks of his soul, after everything you’ve done, that selfish want kindles a fire in his heart. He’d drop to his knees and pledge you his life if it meant having you look at him with a sliver of the affection he holds for you.

♡ The closest that Zevlor’s ever gotten to confessing to you was during the after party in the Grove. It had been the first time in who knows how long that Zevlor could try to shelve his worries for the future, to allow his guard to relax for the single night of revelry that this celebration offered. A respite like this was far too welcome, and Zevlor was about as ready to fall asleep where he stood as he was to wile the hours away enjoying the revelry.

♡ And there you were, the one responsible for it all leaning up against his side, thoroughly exhausted from doing the rounds around the camp but beaming with pride. His eyes were on you the moment you pressed a hand to his shoulder, golden eyes glowing in the light of the campfire taking in your ruddy cheeks and tired grin as you sighed over how good it was to finally see him smile.

♡ Perhaps it was the longing of a sentimental old tiefling, or being half drunk on the atmosphere that seeped into every fiber of the party, but in response he’d brought a hand to cover your own. Zevlor had guided it away from his shoulder and you’d allowed him to with ease. You’d watched with curious eyes as he’d brought your hand up just enough to brush his lips across your knuckles, ghosting over bruises and scrapes with an unspoken reverence.

♡ You’d never had the chance to ask him what you’d really meant to him back then - Alfira had interjected to veer you back over to the party, eager to show you the beginnings of her next song dedicated to your feats. And by the time you’d spun around to look for him again Zevlor had all but slipped away, gone for the rest of the night.

♡ By the time you reach Baldur’s gate you’re still struggling to discern Zevlor’s feelings from that night. That’s it; no one else can wait for you to realize the obvious anymore.

♡ Someone else is going to have to step in to give you a nudge in the right direction, and not a gentle nudge either - if you’re truly struggling to see how hard Zevlor is crushing on you you’re going to need an intervention. Don’t be surprised if your traveling party is the one to bite the arrow and do it. You have no idea whether to be confused or offended when they drag you aside to break it to you and ease their suffering. Astarion is griping on about how this started off entertaining but now is downright painful to watch you two eyeballing each other and not doing anything about it. Wyll is trying to stem the migraine he gets in his attempt to really drive home that you’re not just imagining all of these romantic moments you’ve had with Zevlor. And Lae’zel is several minutes away from clocking the entire group round the heads with the hilt of her sword for wasting time.

♡ She shoulders past the other two with a biting comment about their lack of efficiency before turning her attention back onto you. Her tone is sharp but not unkind as she quips that you’re wasting breath on your own perceptions of the tiefling’s actions. What you should focus on is what you want and how to get it. Besides, even a fool would notice the way he starts at your beck and call - she’d like to believe that you’re as competent as she thinks to put the pieces together.

♡ Lae’zel’s words do the trick. They watch your brain shoot through every train of thought you’ve been battling with all at once, eyes comically large and hand clamped over your mouth in a poor attempt to mask your scream of realization as you do exactly what she says. And then the next moment you’re scrambling past your companions, a frantic command for them to meet you back at the camp before you all but trip over the pavement beneath you in your haste to seek out the former hellrider.

♡ Once you find him, Zevlor almost jumps out of his skin with how hard you barrel through the door and into his home. He’s half a mind to worry that there’s something seriously wrong, immediately rounding to close the distance between you and place his hands upon your shoulders to keep you from falling flat on your face. The questions of concern die on his tongue the moment your hand cups his face, guiding him to look at your face and thumb brushing over the ridges of his cheek in such a way his mouth runs dry.

♡ When you finally blurt out what you came here for, asking through hurried breaths if he loves you Zevlor all but freezes beneath your touch. His eyes are wide, wild with the fear that you’ve come to turn him down and fully prepared to assure you that he’ll never burden you with his feelings ever again. That is till you continue for him. All it will take is a little reassurance on your part that he has nothing to fear, that you care for him in turn, and you’ll have this poor man practically crumbling into your awaiting arms as though you’ve slipped the weight of the world from his shoulders. Give him time, hold him for a little longer, and Zevlor will gladly regale you with the feelings he’d intended to leave unsaid for the rest of his days - he’d do anything you’d ask, after all.

[goodlucktai]

could you please do prompt number one with the a team duo? (raph and leo!!!) i just think leo is in need of big brother love sometimes <3 prompt number one: "Shit. Shit, shit, shit, c'mere." (btw, ur writing is amazing im literally blown away every time!!! tysm for all the writing u do)

dialogue prompts

1. “Shit. Shit, shit, shit, c’mere.”

x

Something bad happened to Leo in the prison dimension. In the minutes—the minutes—between losing him and getting him back, something bad happened to him.

“This isn’t right,” Casey had said that first night in the medbay, staring at the X-rays on the illuminator as if he could change them by wanting it hard enough. “These breaks aren’t new. They can’t be.” 

“He wasn’t running around with a spiral fracture in his tibia before the alien invasion,” Donnie replied tersely, more high strung with every second his twin remained limp and unresponsive on the infirmary bed. 

Mikey was glued to Leo’s side like a miserable orange barnacle, Splinter rarely venturing more than two steps away at a time. April had been torn in two with worry for Leo and worry for her mom, and had only been convinced to leave when S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N pinkie-promised to feed live updates to her phone at the top of every minute. 

If Leo had woken up even for just a minute back on Staten Island, it would have been a reassurance his family could stack all their hopes on. Instead, the brother they dragged out of the void had about as much life to his limbs as a ragdoll. His head lolled in Donnie’s hands like something out of a horror movie—and Mikey’s breaths started to shudder, and Raph thought for a fleeting, hysterical second that the world had ended, after all—and then Donnie found a heartbeat. He showed a weeping Mikey where to find it, their fingers pressed in the soft hollow of Leo’s throat where the carotid artery pulsed loud and clear. Raph kept his own hand there for the entire trip home. If that stubborn heart stopped he didn’t know what he would do. He didn’t know what he would do. 

“But the bone has already formed a hard callus,” Casey said. “I know sensei and my uncles healed faster than mom and Aunt April did but still. Leo shouldn’t have reached this stage of healing for another week at least.” 

Donnie’s face, already stormy, reached a level of dark anger Raph had never seen before. He studied the charts on the wall without speaking, memorizing them. Ninpo sparked around his fingers like he was only barely resisting committing violence, and only because the desired target was well beyond his reach. 

“What does that mean?” Raph asked hoarsely. His hands were squeezed tight between his knees so no one would see if they started to shake. 

“It means that either Nardo broke his bones in about eight different places a week ago and no one noticed,” Donnie said in a brittle deadpan, “or that monster put its hands on him in the prison dimension and Leo healed from it somehow.” 

“But he was only in there for like, for like ten minutes,” Mikey warbled. He sounded heartsick and confused and too young to carry the weight of the world on his shell. “We got him right back out, we—we didn’t leave him in there long enough for all that.” 

“I have a theory,” Donnie said, and then didn’t say anything else. He dragged a chair over to Leo’s bed with an unholy screeching sound, tucked his head against his twin’s at what couldn’t have been a comfortable angle, and started to tap around on his phone. 

“Okay,” Casey said at length, recognizing an immovable object when he saw one. He turned to Raph instead, a child-sized soldier whose mission wasn’t quite finished yet. “Raphael, could I look at your eye?”

He had finished cleaning Raph’s eye and patching up his shoulder and moved onto wrapping Mikey’s hands when Donnie surged up from his chair so suddenly that everyone in the room jumped. His phone crunched into two distinct pieces in his hand, military-grade case and all, and he flung them away. 

“Woah, hey,” Raph said, “Dee, are you—” 

“I ran diagnostics on Leo’s gear,” Donnie said. It was his flat, toneless voice, the one that meant he was feeling so many things he had to shut something down to prevent a total systems failure. “The timestamps didn’t make any sense. So I ran them again. And again. And everything seems to be indicating that Leo was in the prison dimension for over three hundred hours.”

No, Raph thought. He stared at the shape of his little brother in that bed, at the vivid black and blue bruises on his face—noticing for the first time the faint yellows of much older ones around his neck. 

Horror crept up Raph’s throat. 

Please, no. 

“What?” Mikey blurted, sounding as hysterical as Raph felt. “What? No, he couldn’t. He couldn’t have. It was only—”

“For us, thirteen minutes,” Donnie said bleakly. “For Leo, thirteen days.”

Since then, Raph has learned a lot more about temporal differentials and post-captivity recovery than he ever wanted to know. Donnie made four different PowerPoint presentations that the entire family was forced to sit through. All of them are budding experts on several subjects that they might otherwise not have been, studying as feverishly as undergrad students cramming for a final, desperate to be helpful. 

So this is Raph’s fault. He knew better.

If he’d taken even a second to think before following the unmistakable sound of a turtle falling out of bed into Leo’s room, before lunging over to the crumpled-up form of his little brother on the floor, he would have recognized the blackout for what it was. He, of all people, should have seen it. 

The episodes are few and far between, but only because Leo is rarely left alone when he’s awake, and sleeps even less than he did before. It’s easier for him to keep his head straight when he’s ensconced in a turtle pile, or curled up in Splinter’s lap for reruns of really bad soap operas that he mumbles along to in Spanish, or keeping Mikey company in the kitchen, taste-testing everything that gets pushed his way (handily supplementing all the meals he only picks at, Michelangelo is a genius for discovering that work-around). 

It’s when he’s asleep and the nightmares come knocking that they have to worry. If Raph had known he was in here taking a nap, he would have made sure Leo had company. He probably would have curled up around the slider himself, giving Leo’s highly strung subconscious a hand,  soothing him back to sleep before the bad dream could dig its hooks into him and yank him awake. 

But the sleepiness probably hit him in a sudden burst, the messy pile of pillows and stolen purple blanket too tempting to resist. He must have curled up to rest his eyes and drifted off. 

And he woke up alone, in the dark. The shape of someone much bigger than him looming above everything else. Raph knew better. He did. Of course a cornered animal was going to bite. 

“Fuck,” he breaths out, white hot pain shooting up his arm from where Leo had buried his teeth a moment ago. It hurt, but it had nothing on the way his heart was breaking. 

He’d seen Donnie lash out like this a few times before, overstimulated and fully ready to bite whoever was stupid enough to put their hands on him, but not since they were kids. Mikey used to handle all fits of temper by hiding in his shell and closing the little hinge to keep everyone else firmly out, grumbling ticked-off turtle noises until he was left alone. 

When Leo was little, on the other hand, he wanted attention when he was feeling bad—he wanted to be picked up and held and would cry and pout until he got his way. Whether he was feeling upset or angry or scared, the solution was always more or less the same.

There’s no recognition in his eyes now. Leo has never looked at Raph this way before, even when Raph was the Krang’s puppet, even when Raph had him dangling by a strangling grip on his throat—even then, Leo didn’t look at him like he was a stranger. 

He had to fight like this in the prison dimension, didn’t he? He had to tear survival out of that place piece by bloody piece.

Raph hates that he had to do that and loves him for it in equal measure. 

“It’s okay, Leo,” Raph murmurs. “You did just right, okay? You stayed alive. However you have to do that is okay. You got mixed up just now, but it’s not your fault. I shouldn’t have scared you. Raph’s so sorry.”

Leo is staring at him, eyes wide and glassy. All the gold in them is edged out to black, pupil swallowing iris whole. There’s blood on the corner of his mouth. He smacks his tongue, tasting it. Like the worst version of giving him ice cubes to hold or peppermint to smell, it grounds him, bringing him back to the present moment. 

Raph watches Leo realize where he is and what he’s doing, sitting on the floor in the corner of the room with blood in his mouth. 

“Raph?” he says, small and scared and sixteen years old. 

“It’s me, I���m here,” Raph says, too fast, “you’re safe, Leon.” 

Leo’s eyes drift lower. He clocks the teeth marks in Raph’s arm and starts to cry.

“Shit,” Raph says, scrambling forward frantically on hands and knees. “Shit, shit, shit, c’mere.” 

Leo spills willingly into his hug, like it’s ten years ago and he’s had his heart broken by an argument with his twin and nothing on earth could possibly console him but he was willing to let Raphie try. 

Except Raphie knew all the tricks. Raphie knew that tearful little turtles just needed to be squeezed tight and rumbled at and snuffled until they couldn’t help but giggle. 

It isn’t such an easy fix this time. Leo’s shoulders shake like he’ll never stop crying, his wet sticky face smearing salt and blood where he has it crammed in the crook of Raph’s neck. He clings as if he’s half-afraid something or someone is going to wrench him away. 

Not in this lifetime. Never again. 

“I’ve got you,” Raph tells him. Heart settling now that his little star is in his arms, safe and sound. They could come back from anything as long as they had this much. “Raph’s always got you. Don’t be scared. Don’t be sorry. We’re okay.” 

[s74rf1sh]

Hi I seen you want a request sooooo...can I request for tmnt 2012 turtle bros reacts to their fem s/o letting her hair down for the first time and starting blushing at the sight.

I already wrote a draft for this but Tumblr decided to gaslight me so sorry if thus comes out later then expected :’>

Gn!reader no warnings except for swearing

Letting down your hair for the first time -2012 turtles-

Leader in blue

Ok so, picture this: it’s late at night in the lair and you convinced your boyfriend to watch the reboot of SpaceHeroes even though it revealed to be absolute garbage after 15 minutes of screenplay. This is one of the many reasons why you love Leo so much, he can be so versatile.

Wanna workout until you collapse on the floor? Alright, he’ll help you afterwards. Wanna go stargazing? He’s already got the keys of the turtle tank. Wanna sit down and bitch? He’s getting the snacks and sitting down at the table.

And when you asked to watch something and cuddle, he did what he does best:make you happy. So there you two were, cuddled up like disgustingly cheesy lovebirds as chuckles and occasional criticism of the shitty show could be heard fairly. Despite enjoying this night, you couldn’t help but feel your eyelids get heavy and it didn’t take you too much time to start yawning until you realized you should just give up and crash. It wasn’t new how you would rest your head on the ninja’s shoulder…but what WAS new was the horrible pressure from your hairtie. With very little to no patience you decided to lift your head, let down your hair and toss the annoying hairtie somewhere on the couch so that you could be comfortable.

Now, you were much too tired to look, but if you did you would have seen the greenest shade of green on Leonardo’s cheeks.

How could you look so beautiful? Was it allowed to be so attractive even when sleepy, with messy hair and a slightly smudged t-shirt? He didn’t know. What he knew was that he felt so so so lucky to have someone like this by his side.

And also that he should let you sleep in peace, that too.

The brawn

Training with Raphael always had its quirks…it was a totally different experience everytime and that’s, partially, what made it so fun and stimulating.(other than having an excuse to see his sweaty muscles). Today was no different. You were in the dojo and had just finished warming up, deciding to grab your weapons.

He grabbed his beloved sai’s and you went with Donnie’s old plastic bō he used for training sessions. Once you were all set up, the session began.

Feeling yourself, you chose to give it your all and went for direct action. The turtle was somehow able to see it coming last minute and deflect your attack by swiftly deviating the staff from his trajectory to somewhere else. Had he done this with his hands, there wouldn’t have been any issues, but the sharp triple points on the sai managed to grab the end of your braid and tear open the tape holding it together, causing the braid to come undone. Now behind Raphael, you turned around to insult and compliment his move simultaneously but you were met with…strangeness.

“How the fuck did you manage to counteract? I thought I had caught you by surprise!”

Silence.

“Raph?”

He quickly turned around to not let you see his face. He felt like he was going to explode from overheating. Maybe it was the way your hair compliment your features so well, or maybe it was the smell of your shampoo…either way, he was obsessed. Once you figured he wouldn’t turn around, you excused yourself and epwent around the lair looking for a hairtie to replace your broken ribbon with.

He never confessed anything about this specific event, but he did tell you that he liked you more with your hair down.

The brains

Donatello was always so awkward…even after you began to officially date. It’s not like he doesn’t like you or anything it’s just that this stuff is still very new to him and can often feel unreal. Like wdym you can hold hands, kiss, cuddle, go on dates and all that stuff? WDYM YOU LIKE HIM BACK AND HE GETS TO ACTUALLY DO THIS STUFF WITH YOU INSTEAD OF JUST DAYDREAMING ABOUT IT??

And for the most part you have to take the initiative and grab his hand, steal a kiss, cuddle him or ask him out…but once you have shown him that it’s alright and he doesn’t need to overthink every single move, he will do all that stuff without hesitation or fear.

But there was this one time…

You bought brand new clothes and brought them to the lair to do a fashion show for your boyfriend in his lab, and at one point you came out with your personal favourite of the bunch. This long, light blue dress you had bought for your uncle’s wedding fit like a glove and once you finished putting it on, you walked out of the little homemade dressing room you two made on the spot.

“So? Whatcha think?”

He didn’t speak, he just…got closer, brushed his hand behind your hair and undid the high ponytail you had arranged a few hours earlier. Just like that, he got lost in your eyes for a couple of seconds before snapping back to reality and blushing like a schoolgirl.

“UH- I JUST THOUGHT YOU’D LOOK NICER IN THIS DRESS WITH YOUR HAIR DOWN I…FORGIVE ME I DIDN’T- I LIKE THE DRESS!!”

You couldn’t help but laugh. Not in a mean way, just a geniuine laugh before happily heading back to the dressing room.

Mikey

Even before dating, the energetic turtle loved to use you as his model. Of course, he’d never make you pose in a way that is uncomfortable for you but he absolutely loves to experiment, and now that you are his partner, he can do so without having to worry about the awkwardness or the inappropriateness of guiding you in the posing process.

It’s really impossible to tell when was the first time he has seen you with your hair down since this guy has probably seen you in more outfits and hairstyles than your mother, but a really cute and nice detail that I think is worth mentioning is that he actually does your hair. He will look up inspiration and then try his best to achieve the look he envisioned before getting to work with a smile on his face (I mean, drawing permits him to stare at you for long periods of time without looking weird sooo…)

And frankly, you love it. Well, he does too, but the feeling of his hands running through your hair is so relaxing, it feels way better than any hairdresser that has ever touched your scalp in your life. Plus, this way he gets to express his artsy side in more ways than just drawing! Thinking of your clothing, arranging your hairstyle and pose is really stimulating for him! His brothers always tease him for this but he always flexes about how he has found his muse (this guy is way too sweet for me to handle istg)

His sketchbook is filled with drawings of you <3

[wakacreations]

Raphael: When the Contract Ends

Authors Note:

My brain goes through long stretches of inspiration for either writing or digital art. So far it has been digital art but I managed so finish this one shot that was collecting dust in my wip writing folder.

If you favor AO3

Word Count: 1725

Summary:

Raphael watches what should have been a climatic ending as the Netherbrain falls. Where did the hero disappear off to when they should have appeared to take their final bow?

You always come to surprise me, little mouse. No matter how unabashedly you played the hero, I admit you have impressed me. I didn’t believe you would make it this far but you always exceed my expectations except for this one. Like one of the Archdevils you plummeted to the desolate land below. It is not within my nature to intervene at such a spectacle when the finale has come to its final resolution.

The anticipation is maddening to witness what will become of the savior of Baldur’s Gate and of this plane. The crown will be firmly in my hands in the end. There is nothing for I to hold any ounce of concern. The fireworks were overhead dissipating as the elder brain was no more. The remnants scatter themselves to be devoured by the Chionthar. I, the fox must watch and wait at the most opportune time as I have always done. Seeing your silhouette sunk beneath my horizon, all battered, bruised and stained with life that doesn’t match your complexion.

No one weeps for one less mouse on the material plane. They are to be long forgotten like the many other vermin that fall prey to their own hubris. Time is ticking away, little mouse. Will you claw your way and grasp the victory in mere moments or will this be how far such a tenacious pipsqueak of a hero endures. Such a shame really, you have grown to become one of my favorite clients. There is a feast in the wait for my most favored mouse. 

I hear the pulse of your ever slowing rhythm. Running through my palm to the fingertips, I am attuned to you. I could just as easily squeeze these threads leaving the vibrations to grow still. Better yet with a twitch of a claw sever them with one fluid motion.

Come now little mouse, impress me once more. You haven’t quite left just yet. There is still an inkling of your presence. With a pluck of a finger your heart will still race. You feel it don't you? You have escaped death throughout your journey. Experienced such confides and yet now, you would choose to bow like a lowly hound? It is unbecoming of you to be this dull. How much farther will you plunge? It seems farther still as you are intent on joining the brain to sink together to the lowly bottom, disappearing into nothingness such like all waters leading to the Styx. Will you simply be like those long forgotten souls?

The strings have become taut and just a slight reverberation is all that's left. They are looking for you, mouse. Those companions of yours. How long will you stay before breaching the surface or would this be your grand departure? Are you bidding time to resurrect like a gallant Faerunian fable? When hope has arrived but your merryband is left to mourn basking in the sunset. With some witty one liner to close the end of this tale you will crawl upon the docks coughing up rancid grey water. Any minute now mouse. Your cue is here and I am waiting.

Their cries have gone desperate as they thrash about in the waters, surfacing and diving deeper endlessly searching for you, the hero to be. Any minute now I am sure. You will turn up. 

From here where I stand I observe your companions you hold so dear as grief settles upon them all. The last sliver of light fading off to the natural predictable end. When all hope is lost I have told you I will be here when your time runs out. You slip through my hand. No, not yet as much as you tease.

The flare for the dramatics, mouse? Beg, borrow, and steal is what I have told you. Will you do so again? You have done so before; clinging desperately to that measly precious life you viewed with such naive wonder and still proceeded to have fought for valiantly regardless. For this to be your end? A waste of your talents and wit of a mortal gifted favors from the final scribe themselves, that have come to be the source of my amusement. In death you will still pay your dues that you have signed in your rich ink.

What I do for an ungrateful client. For the hero that needs a savior till the very end. With a flap of my wings I ascended forth scanning for the tells of your shimmering gassily hue against the floating debris. You learnt how to remain silent as a corpse though I thought you preferred to chatter than to be surrounded by the suffocating still air.

How apted you have come to rest in an expansive grave devoid of such necessity. Succumbing to the oxygen you took for granted with every word uttered from behind your self assured smile. You, the being that never wavered as you made clear of your resolve. Mortals are always so bold until fate discards them on a whim.

I have always had the eye to find those who had potential. What am I but the devil that knows. There is much that I do. I will make the most out of this obligation of ours. We are bound, you and I.

Ah, there you are. I felt the draw of you beneath my hand pulling I towards where you lay submerged underneath the battering waves. Call for me, mouse. You know better. There is no need for your vessel when you have your own will to command.

The gods are no longer listening to your pleas. There is none left for them to gain. Their precious realms have been saved. Their devoted worshipers are spared from further tragedy. You have already served your purpose to them. Their curtains are drawn.

Come now, little mouse. In proper rapport I have met you halfway. I have already met my end of our agreement. Are you attempting to elude yours? Insolent insignificant little creature, I will hold you to the bitter end. Shaking free of my infernal visage to give chase through the endless Ninth or is it more the Abyss given your nature.

There are tasks in need of my attention I would rather be tending to than plunging down into these foul waters to where you are made to drift without any semblance of purpose nor the drive to attend your deserving applause. 

What is left here but the absence of outward sensations and the heightened awareness of one's own senses, a justly punishment if I've ever seen as the semblance of this plane vanishes. What better place for you to be left becoming lost with the seafoam or simply eaten by the awaiting lurking maws. I swam towards your fading silhouette. You are already claimed.

There was the empty shell of you now, curled up basking in the humble circumstances you have found yourself in. Isolation. Where I should allow for you to continue to dwell till the accumulating pressure forces the stubborn cerulean wisp to violently return to that hollow husk of a skull.

Reaching out to you to drag you back to where you truly belong, I caught the glimpse of the familiar rays I have grown fond of. Mouse, I suppose I unfairly doubted you. I pulled the weightless cadaver against my flesh. You have kept a devil on their toes. Always with the unforeseen twists. Tucking away my possession within my arms; well there is a reason to never assume before reading the last line. We were greeted by the heaven’s above with every kick. The devil is in the details I'm afraid for I, and you. 

You will hand me the crown. Those were the words etched onto the parchment. Luck would have you. The beating heat enraptured our glistening forms. Upwards the gaze of the wayward will seek guidance to the new coming reign. Your companions look upon us with a mix of horror and relief as the rest of the realms will fall in line. Nestled against my breast you held my heart's desire. The warm winds enveloping in our descent through towards the refuge. Our obligation has concluded but as one last parting gift. You will be made to see the fruits of your labor.

In your palm with Death’s fingers gripping the means to the end. I have met you encircling my own claws around the band. Returning you to your companions as your frame comes to settle on the harbor but the devil always collects. I took in the sight of you now. Thank you for you, little mouse. I am humbly honored. You have paid in full with interest. There is much waiting for us, mouse. I arose from where I kneeled. The ringing of bells are in the distance. Rolling the coin between the knuckles, I turn to leave, adieu.

The Hells will be waiting in joyous celebration. With a final flip of such a precious coin and a whistle in farewell, the radiant lights will gleam crimson against the rolling clouds. The familiar scene I have grown fond to witness unfold. Faerun was off limits as we both have come to agree. Do you believe I have forgotten about such an arrangement? There was a reason for I to say the devil was in the details for I and for you.

You think I am but a fool who will be compelled to end this game of ours with merely receiving my rightful crown? I will not be squandered from what I have deservingly earned through my millennias of tribulations. You should have listened to your companions. They did give a fair warning on their part but the hero knows best aye? Don't think I have forgotten as I watched you through the acts time and time again.

You honestly believe I haven't noticed when I glanced in your direction? Did you enjoy yourself in our time together, little mouse as you scurried about behind your screen? I will be seeing you very soon. Like I said before there is much a devil knows. I will use you well and I will be waiting. We have yet to dine as promised till then ta ta for now and remember to open your home when you hear the ringing of the bell or that unexpected knocking at your door, won’t you?

[changeling-fae]

You know, thinking about how Raphael and the Emperor fill similar roles but with different methods and how Raphael’s “better the devil you know” takes on a double (triple?) meaning. Raphael straight up tells you what he is and uses that as leverage against the Emperor who deceives you pretty much the whole time.

And for a lot of people it works, people in general prefer honesty up front and while Raphael is absolutely a shady devil, most people would respect his candor over being lied to from the start. Not everyone of course, the Emperor’s tactics still seems to work on a lot of players, given how many never learn he was manipulating them from start to finish.

But I really do like the scene of Raphael laying out all his cards and giving you an opportunity to compare them against the Emperor.

The Emperor could argue he lied about who he was because no one would trust an illithid (which is likely true) but he now has the disadvantage of another shady being persuading his target because said shady being was up front with who he was.

I do vibe way more with Raphael (obviously lol), and I recognize a lot of it is, yeah he was upfront about who he is and his motives. And while arguably headcanon territory, it’s still pretty clear that Raphael has some “affection” (in his own way) for us versus the Emperor who the moment you break through his facade, clearly cannot feel affection.

When he tries to seduce your character and if you turn him down, the narrator actually makes a pretty clear note of planting suspicion about how fast and suspiciously quick the Emperor changed tactics and words despite 5 sec prior talking like he cares about us.

Actually I wouldn’t say it’s that headcanony that Raphael has an attachment to us, all the jokes aside about him having a crush, we get the evidence that he has an attachment from other places aside from Raphael’s mouth.

The diaries and plaque (if you sign the contract) proves it in the sense that in game, Raphael never expected us to see his writings or his vault. And the archivist in the vault says something along the lines about how special we are to Raphael and how Raphael has a “softer spot” for mortals than most, and the archivist says all this to us thinking we’re just some random devil in disguise. Information that wasn’t meant for our ears technically.

Meanwhile you got the Emperor over here who is very good at faking affection and sympathy until you start to examine him more. Then he drops it like a rock, it’s almost scary how quick he can.

Raphael is oddly relatable because he is kinda pathetic in his own way. You can see where and how he got to being who he is. The Emperor is, well, alien. He’s definitely very good at utilizing his old memories of when he was mortal to his advantage, but that mortal is dead and he’s basically just another illithid, just one who happens to be more independent than most.

And while this is all speculation on my part, it’s clear that Raphael both hates but is attached to mortals, likely because of his own existence. He’s half mortal but lives and is bound by the rules of hell like a devil. I think he envies some of the freedom to choose that mortals have, and that’s why he’s so insistent that mortals don’t have choice. He wants that freedom to choose but can’t because of his nature (“hell, hell, hell has its laws”) and he’s trying to convince either himself and/or mortals that they don’t have a choice either, to cover up that envy he feels.

Imagine being the child of one of the big bad archdevils who rules over a layer of hell. There probably is a level or feeling of helplessness that he never had a choice but to be what he is.

And you can contrast that with the Emperor who is no longer mortal and while definitely fighting for his own independence and freedom, is quite content to be what he is.

Considering the whole game has strong themes about choice, fate, and freedom, it’s just fun how even the antagonists shares those struggles same as our characters and the companions.

[creativeartgal]

THoughts on Obey Me ending

it feels weird to me that Obey Me is ending both app stories. it could stem from me not wanting it to end but this seems like a weird place to be ending it. Like it feels like it came to a surprise to the devs as well cause it felt like they were working on new things for every character and there are till things to be explained in game.

for example the dates. they just release dates for Lucifer and Mammon not long before the announcement. it seemed like something they were going to do for everyone eventually. like it would be kinda weird for it to just be for those two. like i guess the argument is that they are the most popular ones but it seemed like they were planning on making more. another thing (and this might be more of what i thought they were planning) is the additional focused events. like the one they did for lucifer appreciation and the younger brother appreciation. idk i thought they would be breaking it up into groups to include everyone. like one for Diavolo and Barbatos and one for the exchange students (Luke Simeon and Solomon) and maybe one for the new characters or you could add them into the other events. like add Mephisto in with dia and barbs for a royal event or add Thirteen and Raphael for an exchange student event.

another thing that bugs me is that I don't understand how they're planning on ending the story. as of right now the the last lesson to be released is lesson 56. that means we have 4 more lessons till the end and I don't know how they are going to do that. first we got the whole babble thing with Raphael which should take up most of 57. so what about the last 3? on a minor note I think Belphie and Levi still haven't done their sf competition ( I could make a whole other post about the science fair but ill leave it here). its either gonna be shoehorned in or we might not even get to finish that whole side quest. two what about the whole going to the past thing. with how its affecting mc magic it should be brought up to the rest of the cast but i fear we wont have enough time to go into a lot of detail , or hell what about nightbringer, you know the one who sent mc back in time. is that just dropped or is barbs just gonna be like yeah I did that cause we all know it was him. is Simeon turning into a demon gonna have enough time to be satisfying or is it just gonna just be swept under the rug in a oh guess it wasn't anything at all.

idk it just feels like something happened behind the scenes and now the writers and devs are having to rush an ending. especially since the celestial blessing has items that seem like they are just dropping stuff they wouldn't be able to otherwise. i can only hope that im just worrying over nothing and thing end in a somewhat satisfying way or at least be expanded apon in whatever they are planning next. sorry if this is rambly but i just wanted to get all my thoughts out.

[alpaca-clouds]

Baldur's Gate 3 - Or: Why Endings are hard

The last few days I have seen quite a few posts going around about Act 3 and in general the ending of BG3. Which is understandable, because yes, the ending still kinda feels... off. Some decisions feel forced, some of the character endings feel unsatisfying, and how the game deals with Orin and Gortash also kinda feels off. There is a reason, why I did not write just one, but two fix its for the ending.

But let me talk a bit how this happens and why this is in fact quite a common thing to happen. If I had a dollar for everytime I enjoyed a thing where people were unhappy with the ending of the "thing", I would have enough to cover this month's rent lol

Now, let me talk about the most obvious fact first: Act 3 of BG3 is very long. Mostly because of all the side quests you can do - though you theoretically do not need to do, of course. Though even if you do only do the story-stuff, it is fairly long for one reason: The companion quest most finish up here.

As in my other stuff about the ending: Spoilers under the cut!

Let me quickly make a list of the stuff that is more or less essential to the plot happening in Act 3. Like, quite a bit of this you do not need to do to finish the game, but... For the story to properly finish up this is part of Act 3.

Confront Gortash (Karlach's quest is tied to this)

Confront Orin

Finish off Cazador

Save/Kill Shadowheart's parents

Save Duke Ravengard

Do the Balduran quest

Do the Sorceror's Tower and have Gale talk to Mystra

Deal in either way with the Githyanki revolution

The Counting House

Rescruit Minsc

Deal with Raphael in one way or another

Deal with the Elderbrain

That is a lot, right? And this is all without other sidequests that you can do in Act 3 (like dealing with Ethel and "Build-a-Clown").

The only companion, who does not give you anything to do in Act 3 is Halsin. (I don't know about Minthara, because I never managed to recruit her so far.) Okay, admittedly, also kinda Karlach, because you have to go against Gortash either way and other than that there is nothing that happens in her questline. Which, yes, is one of the reasons her ending feels so unsatisfying.

Now, I absolutely understand why this happens. Because of the thing we actually see with Karlach. It kinda feels off that one character does not really have anything to do towards the end. It feels unsatisfying.

Let me stay with Karlach for a moment. Because she is a good example. One of the main reasons her ending feels so unsatisfying is, that you do not really do a lot for her. Like, in Act 1 you fight Zariel's people sent after Karlach and talk to Dammon. In Act 2 you talk to Dammon. In Act 3 you fight Gortash, which you gotta do either way.

I would argue, that her ending would feel a lot more satisfying, even if it stayed the exact same, if you just were allowed to try and fix her. Maybe do something for the Gondians or Ironhands so they might try and fix her. Or try to get Gortash to fix her (like I wrote about). Or do a more complicated quest for Dammon to get something that might fix her. It does not need to actually work. But just you trying to do something would make the ending feel better.

I have seen people argue that Wyll has the weakest stuff in Act 3, which I very much do not agree with. Like, Wyll and Lae'zel both get a very short end of the stick in Act 2 (there is not really a lot happening for either in Act 2), but Wyll actually has two quests in Act 3, which is in fact more than anyone else. Especially as the Balduran quest ties him directly to the main plot.

Of course, I am still going to argue that Astarion and Shadowheart have the most satisfying ends of their questlines.

But let me get back to the main issue. The main story ending does feel... Hollow. And I think really that this boils down especially to one thing: The main plotline does take away your choices in Act 3. Yes, sure, you can try to become the new Absolute and stuff. But... That's about it.

Sure, you can ally with Gortash. But he dies either way.

You cannot really ally with Orin in any way.

And as I bemoaned so many times: The game forces you to choose whether to ally with the Emperor or Orpheus. Either way does only give minor differences for the ending. And no matter how much you allied yourself with the Emperor so far, he won't listen to you no matter what you say.

In the end the issue with Act 3 - as it is with so many of those endings in stuff that people felt were unsatisfying - is a pacing issues. You want to give all storylines (in this chase the character quests) a proper ending, which all needs to happen in that last Act, because it would feel off, if a main character does not get to do anything in that Act. (Again, like Karlach.)

Yes, I absolutely agree that we actually needed MORE STUFF in Act 3. Especially for Gortash and Orin. But on the other hand the third Act was already SO MUCH.

And that is without going into the problems of development cycles. Like, I don't know how bad it was with Larian working on Act 3, but especially the stuff with the Epilogue feels a lot like they actually did not finish everything. This feeling also gets supported by the fact that Act 3 to this day is more buggy than the first two Acts.

Yes, the problem is the writing - but given this is a game, that writing also needed to be implemented. Maybe they wanted to do more with Gortash and Orin - but they didn't get around to implementing it all.

If this was a non-interactive story, one could have probably tied up several character quests together. But of course that does not work here, because the game cannot know which characters you will have along in Act 3. Like, sure, it would totally make sense to tie up the plots of Karlach and Wyll. But there is a chance either might have died or left the party - or that you have not recruited one of them. Hence... bloating.

And really, the only thing one could do about it would be to add more. But that would make the bloating worse. It is... complicated. Planning stories is complicated.

[likablemuffin]

Hey, where's my sister?

(From: The Last One (A sequel to One left)

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"Hey, Don Don? Do you know where Reni went?"

Leo was extremely confused when he went into Reni's room, where she would normally be waiting for him, and didn't find her there. He was even more surprised by the fact that, because he was a bit late to hang out with her, she didn't come crying to him or was just crying when he came in the room.

"Oh. I sent her to go check something out in the sewers. She isn't back yet?" Leo shrugs as he leans on the doorframe. "Unless shes invisible or something, I dont think so." Donnie hums. "Well, I'm sure she'll be back soon." "Could you check her tracker to make sure she's okay?" 

Donnie groans. "Shes fine, Nardo. Probably just fell into the water or something." Leo huffs but doesn't say anything else as he leaves. Donnie turns back to what he was working on before.

Leo walks to the kitchen to get something to eat. Usually eating something helps him calm down, and besides, he thinks he can smell someone cooking in there. Probably Mikey.

Just as Leo expects, as he walks in, he sees Mikey bending over the stove. "Heya Mikester! Whatcha cooking?" Mikey flinches at Leo's voice but tries not to show it. Mikey turns around. "I'm cooking some butter chicken. You want some?" Leo licks his lips. "Ooo~ What's the occasion?" 

Mikey doesn't respond, and Leo soon realizes that Mikey's cooking as a stress reliever. Must've heard those voices again. "Right. Sorry." "Its fine."

Leo sits down on the counter (yes, ON the counter. He's a bit weird like that <3) and waits for Mikey to finish cooking. Turns out that Leo looks pretty displeased because Mikey asks him what's wrong. "Hey, are you okay?" Leo turns to him. "Hm? Oh yeah, yeah....just Donnie sent Reni to go find something in the sewers or something, but shes still not back yet."

Mikey hums. "Well, I'm sure she's fine. Probably just got caught up on something." Leo nods and kicks his feet in the air. "Yeah, you're probably right." 

Mikey wasn't right though. 

After three more hours of waiting, everyone was getting confused as to where Reni had went. Raph had found Leo and Mikey in the kitchen and asked them where Reni had gone. When Leo told him where Reni had gone, he asked them when she left. That's when they all realized it had been too long to be normal...

"Okay, Donnie, bring up the tracker, please." Leo announces as he walks into Donnie's lab. Donnie turns around in his chair. "What? Why?" "It's been a few hours since Reni left! What do you mean, why??" Donnie sighs as he turns back around in his chair to face his computer and clicks on something.

"Fine fine....I don't know why you guys care so much anywa-" 

Donnie freezes as he opens the tracking program. Raph takes a step forward. "Bro? You okay?" Donnie's voice hardly comes out a whisper. "The trackers been disconnected."

Everyone stops dead in their tracks. "D-Disconnected...? What does...what does that mean?" Leo was the only one brave enough to ask the question.

"It means that something happened to it. Either someone somehow disconnected it or someone removed it." "What?!" 

Raph puts his hands on Donnie's shoulders. "How does that even happen? Where is she!?" "Well, I don't know Raphael! The tracker was disconnected!" Mikey bites his fingernails. "M-Maybe we could go to the last place the tracker was?" 

Donnie nods. "That seems like the most logical thing to do...come on, let's go. I'll lead the way." 

As they walk through the tunnels, they notice lots of areas where it looks like there has been some sort of tussle. There are scratch marks everywhere. 

They finally reach the area where the tracker was last. They don't find anything except a cloth. Donnie crouches down and starts inspecting it. While he's doing that, the other three look around for any other clues to Reni's whereabouts. Sadly, they didn't find anything, but Donnie found out what was on the cloth. 

"Its chloroform." 

No one speaks for a few seconds until Mikey screams, "WHAT?!" 

Everyone doesn't say it, but everyone is thinking the same thing.

Someone kidnapped Reni.

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[inevitably-ineffable-husbands]

Crowley's Past: Was He Archangel Camael?

With S2 now having been out for a few weeks, and the theories running wild, I think one of the unanimous beliefs within the fandom is that Crowley was SOME sort of Important Angel Before™. I touch upon the MANY clues in the various parts of my initial GOS2 Thoughts Meta, so I won't go into too many of those here, but inevitably this separate meta started out as the pulling-and-expanding-upon of the Archangel Crowley theory, primarily the "Raphael" theory, since I have loved that theory to bits since its inception early post-S1.

That was until my friend Peter finished watching the season early last week, and presented to me an alternative theory as to Crowley's identity that I thought deserved its own post breakdown, since I haven't seen this theory before.

NOW, I should make it clear I haven't been as DEEP in the fandom as many of y'all since S1 aired, so it's probably come up before S2 as just a light mention, but I personally haven't seen anything, so what follows is a joint speculation between my real-life, not-in-GO-fandom-spaces-whatsoever friend Peter, and myself, with my contributions being the expansion of his theory and linking it to what we already know.

The theory is this: Crowley might actually be Archangel Camael.

Please, PLEASE note that I am aware that authors and writers change things for creative liberty and originality, so please take this entire theory with a grain of salt (or go nuts with me, I'm happy either way!).

I'll TRY to keep this concise, but y'all know me. You can skip right to the "Conclusion" for a point-by-point breakdown if you don't want to read everything, but I hope you'll at least give me a chance to explain within the body of this meta.

I apologize in advance if any of my thoughts are a bit scattered. Here we go:

The Initial Text

Here is the initial text Peter sent to me after he finished watching S2 (and this was after I mentioned that the popular running fandom theory is that he's actually Raphael):

Okay… well - disclaimer I did not go to religious school and my biblical studies were a great many years ago. As I recall Lucifer was not one of the 7 archangels - he was meant to be but he rebelled before he was appointed (and there is some wiggle for a fictional story). So, based on what we have seen Crowley was one of the 7 but he hung out with the wrong people and asked too many questions. He never says his real name when we see him as an angel it is comically dodged - for a good reason. Crowley has a login and proves he had clearance way above a level 37th angel. He can see the top most important meetings… like he may have been allowed to attend in a previous life… And one line sticks out to me “one fallen prince has already gone to Hell. Two shows a problem.” As I stated Lucifer was not a Prince - we are not talking about him. Gabriel was banking on going to Hell like his “brother” - I’m guessing Camael, the one who Sees God - who ironically has cursed eyes now as a demon - the Prince of Fortitude (also Love and Charity). He often breaks his demonic spirit in cases of charitable needs or love. Crowley is one of the big Seven to be entrusted with creating the cosmos ;)

Naturally, this had a lot of things click for me, and I'm going to break them down below, with my additional research into the points that Peter made since he mentioned that he was going off memory.

Who Was Cameal?

When Peter mentioned this angel, it boggled my mind that I never actually recall knowing of this archangel. I went to a Roman Catholic school up until Grade 12, and with that comes Religious Ed classes, which also feature World Religions in the later grades. Funnily enough, I found out WHY I never heard of Camael:

Camael is not recognized by the Catholic Church due to the Vatican's decision to ban the veneration of angels not mentioned in the Bible [SOURCE]

Kind of explains why I only heard of Gabriel, Michael, and Raphael (which now adds another layer to a theory I will cover further down in "Does Crowley Remember?"), then.

Reading further:

[He] is the Archangel of strength, courage and war in Christian and Jewish mythology and angelology. [SOURCE] He is claimed to be the leader of the forces that expelled Adam and Eve from the Garden of Eden holding a flaming sword. However, in iconography he is often depicted holding a cup. [SOURCE]

A Flaming Sword, you say??? Interesting. Here's a good place to point out that there IS also a theory that Crowley and Aziraphale are one single archangel that was split into two (and Gaiman has stated that in original drafts of the original book, they were at first one character, so this fact might be an afterthought of that original idea). Also, interesting that this angel is depicted with a cup, traditionally used in Christianity to depict wine, which is Crowley's drink-of-choice. So, there's that.

Another standout point for me is the Adam and Eve bit (which I bolded above). The Snake of Eden is TECHNICALLY the instigator (the "leader") who encouraged the expulsion of Adam and Eve from the Garden. "Forces" in this reading of it could be the metaphorical definition of it; the knowledge of good and evil, and the desire to see beyond the Garden. AND also the Flaming Sword itself BEING the object of force given to the couple for protection.

Furthermore, Crowley's a strong and brave character, given all the shit he endures time and time again. Strength (and bravery for that matter) can mean many things: emotional strength, physical strength, possibly also a strength of character and an unwavering belief in the values one holds dear. I should also note that it's interesting that an angel of war, should Crowley indeed be this character, wants nothing to do with a war and is actively trying to stop one: an angel of War can absolutely NOT want a war, because he knows it's wrong.

And without the Angel of War up in Heaven to PREVENT any war at all? Well, they would just get all willy-nilly crazy on the idea of War without having any pushback on it, wouldn't they?

Kind of like how Gabriel was to be demoted (cast out) for denying Heaven a War. Funny old world, isn't it? Seems the parallels write themselves.

What's in a Name?

Because Peter mentioned the name meaning, I had to look into it myself, and indeed, one of the various meanings of Camael is apparently "he who sees God" in Hebrew.

As Peter stated above, I think this is very significant because it's seemingly only Crowley who has "demon" eyes that he himself cannot change. It's the ONLY part of him that always remains a constant, and why he is forced to hide them. We know from S1 and bits of S2 with Shax that other demons can change their eyes because we see them mimicking other humans time and again without the black eyes if they choose to.

Crowley's eyes could have been cursed specifically because was ordained as "the one who sees God" and possibly was the ONLY angel who ever "saw" a physical God in the literal sense (it's implied in the show that no one actually SEES a physical god). It's possible that Crowley being cast out literally burned his angelic eyes and left a visible scar that can't be fixed or erased – a forever-reminder of what he did and can no longer do. AND as the one who sees God, he indeed was a very high-ranking angel.

In the GO universe, I suspect he was indeed the FIRST Supreme Archangel, tasked with creating God's Vision (HAH) of the Universe. And when Crowley questioned what the point of creating such beauty was only for it to be destroyed, God (or, I suspect more likely, the other Angels) saw it as Crowley questioning their "vision" in the metaphorical sense.

Does Crowley Remember?

In light of Season 2, and some interesting exchanges and moments of Crowley with other angels, some people speculate (and as I watch the series more, I'm starting to also agree somewhat) that Crowley may not remember everything from Before.

Now, while I do like this theory a lot, and it makes sense with the context clues from S2, I don't think it's that he doesn't remember anything at all, however, as many versions of the theory postulates.

My speculation is this: what if, by having his Angelic Name removed from recognition in the Bible, and going through a similar Trial to Gabriel, THEN by Falling the traditional way, the memories are still there, but they're just a bit fuzzy and scattered? It could also explain why some of the other Archangels DON'T remember him... he was removed from the memories of other ranking angels (Saraqael is the only angel to seemingly remember who Crowley was, so I postulate that she WASN'T a top angel until fairly recently, because of the named angels in the next section).

The show brings up the Book of Life in S2 on several occasions, leaving me to believe that this will be an important item in the next season. What if the phrase "it will make it like you don't exist" literally means "don't exist in memories"? Maybe a Book of Life 1.0 existed at one time, and everyone who Fell was forgotten because their angelic names were removed. Because wouldn't that be more awful than never having existed? Remembering that you WERE something or someone, you had a name that you can't remember, that you WERE important to people and events, and having everyone around you who you considered family forget who you are? It's its own kind of personal Hell ... kind of like George Bailey in It's a Wonderful Life, a movie that references angels, funnily enough. And Crowley remembers the furniture being there but not where it all belongs. I think his memory haziness is also a side effect of Falling the traditional way (burning sulfer and all that jazz, possibly causes trauma amnesia?).

It's a stretch here, I know, but I thought I would put this one out there as a possibility as to what it could mean (given that Gaiman and Pratchett tend to "play on words" a lot, I think it is worth mentioning this as an alternative meaning).

In S2, when Gabriel was sentenced, the Trial stated that Gabriel would forget his time as Gabriel, but not his time as an angel. I think a similar thing happened with Crowley, only much more violently with the "burning the eyes out" and "staining his wings black" thing.

My friend Peter mentioned that the show avoided Crowley's Before-Name "to a comical degree". I reckon, rather, that Crowley just simply doesn't remember his Angelic name, and his changing of his demon names is him possibly trying to find an identity. I think he recalls it having started with a "C", maybe? And now he's a snake, so he's kind of crawl-y, must be "Crawley". As time moved forward and as he learned more and more about humanity, he changed is namee to fit in better. Having a full Human-esque name makes him feel more connected to the Humanity he prefers.

And because I'm a romantic sap at heart, I think he enjoys spending time with Aziraphale because perhaps some part of Azzie's presence helps Crowley remember bits and pieces of his broken memory. He is LITERALLY Crowley's Emotional Support Angel – remember Shax can read into people, it seems. Azzie brings comfort to him, and seeing another Angel that also questions the choices Heaven makes allows Crowley to feel less alone.

The Original Seven Archangels

It's brought up a couple to several times in S2 the point that "God loves sevens". I actually couldn't remember why Seven was such a big Biblical number so a bit of quick Googling reminded me that "Seven [...] communicated a sense of “fullness” or “completeness” [...]. This makes sense of the pervasive appearance of “seven” patterns in the Bible." (SOURCE).

And of course, after Peter had mentioned it, I had to look a bit more into who the Original 7 could possibly be. Wikipedia mentions it could be Michael, Gabriel, Raphael, Uriel, Camael, Jophiel, and Zadkiel.

Peter was correct in his assumption that Lucifer wasn't one of the original 7 archangels, so that leaves us with Raphael, Camael, Jophiel, and Zadkiel, if we're assuming that Crowley is one of these top Archangels.

I would also like to speculate that "God likes 7's" could also mean (if you allow me to reach a bit) "God's favourite angels are the initial 7". If Crowley happened to be one of these 7, it could explain why he's able to get into Heaven without raising alarm at all, why he still maintains his immense power that set off alarms in Heaven when it was used purposefully against Heaven, why he was able to access the Gabriel Files, and why Sarqael allowed Crowley to continue watching the Trial (because if God allowed Crowley access even when he's no longer an angel, then Sarqael has no reason to believe that he's still not important to God).

Perhaps, in Modern Day, only having four archangels making the decisions symbolizes that, indeed, God's not really calling the shots anymore – and hasn't been for a long time – and that the whole system is all broken and not complete.

It also begs the question: if Crowley was one of the Original Seven (if they are indeed going to go in that direction), what happened to the other three? Did they also suffer the same fates? Were they turned to Scriveners just like Gabriel was to be?

Here is where I will also throw out there that my random thought that Muriel possibly also may have been one of the other three, as my own expansion of this theory, but I digress.

Anyway, I think I found the original Fandom Wiki that Peter quick-referenced when doing his quick message to me, and it's very interesting:

How they were founded as a unit is unknown, but it is said that it happened during Lucifer's rebellion. When Lucifer rebelled against God, one entire choir of angels followed him and was lost. Many angels from other choirs also followed him in his rebellion. It is revealed that Lucifer was meant to be apart of the Seven Archangels as well, however, since his fall he was replaced by Camael. 

Disclaimer here that I understand that Fandom Wiki isn't THE BEST resource, but we're also talking about a fictional story that loosely references actual scripture, so I think it's valid enough, heh.

But I bring this point up because Peter links it to Metatron mentioning the "Prince of Heaven" falling, as Gabriel as being "another" one. "Another one" what?? We have to assume that Metatron means another "Supreme Archangel" as holding the title of "Prince of Heaven", meaning Gabriel was NOT the first and only Supreme Archangel. I don't think Metatron is referencing Lucifer here. In fact, they deliberately avoid saying a name. We just ASSUME that it was Lucifer because that's the "common knowledge".

If GO is going to reference the theory that Lucifer actually fell BEFORE becoming an Archangel, then that means in my theory Crowley became his replacement of the Original Seven. And given that he was possibly the One (and only angel, in my above theory) Who Sees God, he was in-turn given the position of Supreme Archangel, charged with creating, again, God's Vision of the Universe.

I think having Crowley be the one who witnesses Gabriel's Trial is important if we're going on the theory that they are mirrors of each other in S2. What if:

Crowley ALSO had a similar Trial when he questioned God (or the other Archangels) about "what's the point of" the destruction of the universe, then subsequently saying "nah" to having Armageddon 6,000 years before the events of S1?;

In said Trial, Gabriel was a presiding member, and, given that we know his prior cruelty from S1, he voted on Camael being cast out in a vicious and cruel fashion "for betraying God". Thus, his eyes burnt and forever scarred to prevent him from ever seeing God again, had his name and memories removed from the Book of Life, and sent to on a one way trip to Hell. I speculate this because Trial-Gabriel certainly believe he was going to "Fall" that way. I'd also wager Camael/Crowley was the last angel to ever "properly" Fall, which is why the modern angels still think that they do it this way, rather than the way they planned for Gabriel. I realize that this point DOES contradict my theory about the other missing Archangels quietly being erased and reassigned, but perhaps BECAUSE Gabriel is SO High up the chain, they HAD no choice but to make an example of him. Perhaps Metatron just quietly deleted the other Archangels' original names without anyone's knowledge.

We now know from S2 that regardless of an angel's status, the angels will veto against anyone who goes against their interpretation of The Great Plan. We now also know that the "Supreme Archangel" is also a "title only" job that has benefits only if you're going to go with the Majority Vote. And if you don't, they're going to make an example out of you.

And I reckon Camael/Crowley, just like Gabriel after, tried to "go his own way" (as quoted by the Metatron) and got banished for it.

Aziraphale really now has himself in a pickle, and I suspect that he will figure ALL of this out when he gets there.

And finally because this is the "Sevens" section of this meta, I also want to mention these "a-bit-reaching-but-still-plausible-theories" that I came across while I was researching:

This tweet speculates that Gabe is morse coding "7"

Michael tweeted 7 dots after S2 aired

CONCLUSION

While this theory doesn't outright bust the Raphael Theory (since there are some similarities with Crowley and Raphael within the theory), as well as the "he was Lucifer" theory (which I also really like, but Crowley mentioned in S1 he was "hanging out with Lucifer and the guys" before he fell, so... I'm more apt to not really run with this theory). BUT it does tie up a lot more things, and it connects things better than the Raphael one does, in my humble opinion.

The TL;DR of this entire post is this:

I think Crowley was an Archangel, that is the only CERTAIN thing I feel.

I think he was Camael, The One (and only angel) Who (Literally) Sees God. He was the First Supreme Archangel who created God's Vision of the Universe.

I think that Camael questioned the Council of Angels why they need to destroy beauty that God created. It didn't make sense to him.

They told him about Armageddon (the S1 one). As the angel of war, and as the Supreme Archangel who had final say, he said "nah". And he tried "to go his own way" to avoid Armageddon.

The Council and Metatron did not like this, saw it as blaspheming against God. Camael then had a Trial similar to Gabriel's.

I think this all happened shortly after the war that sent down Lucifer and the other rebelling Angels, so Heaven was still VERY tetchy about anyone who questioned God and The Great Plan. Because Camael was a Supreme Archangel, the original Prince of Heaven, this was seen as SEVERE betrayal of the Council. For the record, I think the "Before the Beginning" sequence takes place AFTER the War that created Hell.

My belief about the Book of Life is that its ACTUAL purpose is to remove people from being remembered, which is far worse of an existence for someone banished. A metaphorical interpretation of "removed from existence" simply could mean "and everyone forgot about you", à la It's a Wonderful Life, a movie that references "angels getting their wings".

Camael was sentenced in a way that would make an example of him to other angels to remind them of their place: He was cast out of Heaven, his angelic name erased from the Book of Life which caused his other Council Members at the time to forget him, and for him to have foggy memories in turn, although he KNOWS he was an angel (perhaps as a side effect of being cast out the traditional way, you are forced to remember that you once lived in Heaven). His eyes were burnt out to quite literally leave an unremovable scar so he could no longer "see" God and their vision, which explains why Crowley cannot ever change his eyes regardless of how he presents himself. He has to hide them away.

I think Crowley was the last angel to be cast out in this way. BUT because his ANGEL name was erased, none of the remaining Original Council angels (Gabriel, Michael, and Uriel) recognize him. I suspect Sarqael remembers him because she was NOT an Archangel at the time since she was not one of the Original Seven Archangels.

I also suspect that there are purposely missing Archangels for a reason, and the fact that only 4 rather than 7 seemingly run things symbolizes the problems in Heaven and that God has not been in charge for a long time. I think those missing 3 or 4 are actually Scriveners, who were quietly sentenced and erased by the Metatron, hence why Gabriel thought that he was going to be cast out like his predecessor. But because Gabriel WAS a Supreme Archangel, he HAD to be made an example of, just as Crowley before.

"Supreme Archangel" is a Title-Only job, and if you go against the Council, you are indeed made an example of. I think this is purposeful setup for S3 to show that Azzie is in DEEP shit.

EPILOGUE

I still want to expand upon my Angel Theory section from my S2 Meta, but for now, I am so pleased with how this turned out, and I hope you've enjoyed this Deep Dive into another Archangel Theory. I had a lot of fun with this one; I like learning about supernatural things, it's always interesting.

I am interested in others' thoughts on this theory, especially if your memory of your religious education is a bit better than mine! Feel free to expand upon this more, because I am an interactive blog, so it will be added to the post! <3

I hope you enjoyed, and thank you for reading!

[pouralaura]

guess I could do a wip wednesday

here's a wittle segment of the chapter that I swear I'll finish in the next couple of weeks. I'm closing in on 8k words. I have a full time job

who will burn who (Prof!Raph university AU) chapter 2

Friday’s class is a blur. Tav watches Raphael, as usual; listens to his smooth, syrupy, sinfully melodic voice as it dips into gravelly depths when he makes a point during his lecture. But it’s in one ear and out the other. There are insects buzzing in her head in the form of Haarlep and their generous fingers, and they’re saying the dirtiest fucking things. The image in her head has remained the same for the past twenty-four hours: her professor, doing exactly as Haarlep had described and getting off to all that he can glean of her wet little cunt through her panties. She has to bite down on her lip to keep herself focused enough. Still and cool in her chair, but damp between her legs and restless everywhere else. Raphael goads her too, even, in his way; calls on her more than once during the lecture, unsmiling. Tests her. It’s part of their game, the way he challenges her. Makes her recount a number of facts about Thomas Traherne and his religious works, which she does placidly, without complaint. He maintains a little too much eye contact before turning away, the ghost of a smirk on his handsome face if she looks closely enough. Unaffected. As usual.

Until he’s not – tomorrow – she hopes. 

He assigns them homework over the weekend, the audacious ponce. She leaves the room without looking at him, a sway in her step that says but I know you’re watching me. 

Saturday is a blur too, come to think of it. Its main activity is a long bath wherein Tav soaks until her fingers and toes are prunes, debating the merits of shaving too much versus not enough and then deciding not to change anything from what she normally does. Because, she tells herself, it’s me. It’s not a contest. He’s already won.

I’m the prize either way.

[immedealwithit9855]

Touch Me!

Part 10

Summary: With LeatherHead gone and the 'wedding' officially called off, it was time to enjoy the area without fear of getting kidnapped or killed. Who would've thought so much mayhem would happen within 5 days? Yet, something else was brewing.

Part 10.5

Walking the grounds was serene. You were barefoot, wearing a dress whiter than the clouds above you. The water in the lake flowing smoothly to the unknown. Your dreadlocks were coated in orchid flowers. You picked one out and admired its beauty. Walking to the lake, staring into its mysterious depths. Silence had become a new friend. Footsteps approached. Heavy. Careful. A smile forming upon your face, dimples adding an extra glow. You turn. "Raphael."

He extends his hand out to you. Taking it, you kept your eyes on him, silent. No words, just.......passion. He lifts you up as if you weigh nothing, carries you into the woods to an isolated place. He lays you on the ground and stares. Goosebumps spreading throughout your mocha figure. He plants a sweet kiss on your lips. Soft, certain. He gropes your large chest, tightly. Breathless moans bubble from your throat. He sits up, unfastens his pants. Your body quakes at his sudden desires for you. You didn't take him to be the type to be so forward. His biceps pulsing, breathing ragged, he became predatory. As he leaned down, ready to take you, a noise rang out.

"Soups on, guys! Come down and get some grub!" Mikey's voice echoing throughout the house.

Eyes shooting open. Back in your chosen room. What was that? A dream? The window was closed, the sounds of groaning coming from the attic. You look to your side, an annoyed Raphael sitting up in bed, rubbing his neck. "Hey." He greets. A smile makes a home on your face,"Hey yourself, Sexy." He smirked, shaking his head. "I think ya got da wrong guy." He does his stretches, your core gushing at the sight of his veins throbbing. "You're the only guy in this bed with me. Better to say it to you than Vern or that mad gator." You retorted, shivering just mentioning it. "Don't bring that up again. Yer Mine. End of Story. Cool?" His forcefulness was exciting. You couldn't agree more. LeatherHead wanting to marry and impregnate you was terrifying. "Cool."

When you returned to the house, Donatello was on you. After being given an order, he checked all your vitals and every part of your body to make sure nothing sinister was done to you while being held captive. At least, whatever Raphael would allow. When he finished, him along with his brothers and Splinter went over the area to find any other threats. Checking the forest and the barn. When they came back, Raphael went straight to your room, despite being told otherwise by Leonardo.

You felt he was being indifferent. That shallow announcer gave you up to a crazed mutant gator, forcing you to surrender to protect your newfound friends. You couldn't begin to image how the entire situation made Raphael feel. What choice did you have? It was either them or you.

He may have been shocked with the knowledge of another mutant, but that mutant wanted to take you away from him. His feelings were scattered, he wasn't sure how to feel exactly. All he knew is that he didn't want to lose the one thing that made him feel normal. You stood up from the bed, wearing your booty short PJs and short sleeve shirt, studying him. "You're right." You began, slowly inching your shorts down in the front to reveal your most private area. His eyes bugged out at the sight of your mocha snatch, he licked his lips. "I am all yours. This is included." You quirked your brows at him. He didn't know what to say, just had this look of surprise on his face. 'What I'd do for a taste!' As you changed into your day clothes, he continued to gawk at you. Even as he was getting ready. His instincts urging him to sink into you.

You made it downstairs to the kitchen to greet everyone. April launched herself into your arms. "What was that for?" She snickered. "Well, you're such a strong woman, I wanted to confirm it for myself. That and being glad my girl is okay." You put her down and joined the others for breakfast. April and Casey had an announcement as soon as everyone was fed and settled. "Given the circumstances that happened during our stay. It's been decided we extend our vacation for 5 more days." Casey nodded in agreement. Mikey clapped for joy.

Leonardo was hesitant, weighing in the pros and cons of the trip. He stood up,"So long as you stay out of trouble. We'll stay longer." He says.

"Yes. That last one wasn't my fault though. It was...." You felt a glare sinking into your back, Raphael was softy growling. 'Oh, right. We just discussed not bringin' that up again!'

"Ya gotta give her some credit. Ya should've seem how she stood up to that gator. She was a boss, man!" Casey says, giving you a fist bump.

"We got ourselves a hero in the making!" Mikey hoisted you up, twirling you around.

"Mikey. I ain't do nothing to earn the title of hero." You giggled.

"You made a sacrifice you didn't have to make in order to protect people you don't even know. That's pretty cool." Donnie joined in giving you a friendly nod.

Splinter and Leonardo shared a look.

"Given the deeds you've shown and your willingness to help others. Would you consider learning self-defense?" Splinter puts it out theor for you to know.

You thought about it. You can fight, but it's more like hood fighting than actual fighting. "Can I think about it before I give an answer?" You sheepishly say.

"Yes. We think it best you have fighting skills in case another situation were to occur."

"Yeah. A baseball bat can only take you so far." Leo added. You made a pouty face, wishing they would let that go. "I was goin' for a home run, but the dude forfeit!" The whole room erupted into a laughter as they remembered the guy's pleading for you to stop vandalizing their vehicle. Mikey had tears in his eyes. Donnie was having a snorting attack.

"I better get some air before I cause an accident. Is it alright to roam about?" You asked, knowing Leonardo's protectiveness.

Leonardo gave you a look,"Fine. Watch your back. Be vigilant." He warned.

"Dude you scoped out the entire area. I think we're good. I hope." Casey murmurs.

You went outside to enjoy the fresh air. The guys came out with you, Splinter suggesting they do some training before they went to explore. April took your hand and dragged you to the barn. You spent a short while in there to get away from LeatherHead, you didn't have the time to admire the layout and it was getting dark. You squealed when you took in the whole layout. The loft up top gave you ideas. It felt like home when you launched yourself in one of the hay piles with April following suit. Rough housing and sharing laughs as you started to soak in the tranquil environment.

You relax on the haystack and start to converse.

"I'm really sorry for bringing this madness into your life. You probably think I'm a nuisance by now." Sighing in frustration, feeling bad that you caused tension.

"Girl. This is my life. Ever since I met the turtles it's been nothing but madness. You're not a nuisance, you're awesome." She nudges you, snapping you out of your saddened state. "But the real question is.......What's really going on with you and Raphael?"

That question came later than expected. Given what's happened, you weren't sure he was still feelin' you or not. Another mutant wanting you? How was he supposed to feel about that? "One thing for certain, I don't wanna hurt him. I feel like I've done that recently and I can't stand that." You lowly say. "Whatever he wants to do going forward, I'll understand." She listened and recalled the conversation her and Raph had before that night you made it official. "I don't think you hurt him at all." She starts,"He was more worried than hurt. He was ready to kill this LeatherHead guy." Yeah, that sounds like Raphael. "He's all over you, girl. Last night him and Leo nearly got into it when he insisted on being by your side."

You were stunned. Raphael. The toughest of the group wanting that badly to be with you? "He's amazing. You're so lucky to have him and the others in your life April." You complimented. "Now you're apart of it, sis. I don't think the guys are allowing you to go anywhere." She giggled. You smiled feeling loved and appreciated. "Hes hard-headed, but he adores you." She said with a smirk,"I bet if you sing for him, it'll send him to another dimension!"

You laughed, taking her advice into consideration.

"You should have seen him. He was so panicky, he's never like that. Not over a girl. He really likes you, Y/N. Maybe even loves you." The last part she whispered. She further explained hes been working out more than usual. His training sessions with his brothers have exceeded his norm. Hes even been knitting a lot.

"I never thought I'd make such an impact on him. Or anyone." Your tone was calm, gentle.

Suddenly you heard rustling in the barn. It was coming from a corner behind a set of doors. Taking a deep breath, you slowly walked towards the sound, April holding your hand as you inched your way to the mysterious sound. You opened the door.......

😬🫣😲

The guys were outside basking in the sun, having completed their training. They conversed amongst themselves.

"Finally some peace and quiet." Donnie mumbled, playing with his drone.

"It was pretty cool knowing there was another mutant." Mikey added, flying on his board.

"That's the end of it and the town is safe." Leonardo reasurred, continuing his katas.

Raphael growled at the thought. 'Shes safe, too.' However, Vern was up to his usual narcissistic behavior.

"Aww man. I think I'm in love. She was such a Babe. She swooned when I tried to protect her." He lied.

"Ah thats real funny. I thought you were da one hiding behind her?" He gruffed.

"It was a fast moment, man. The girl got me more hypnotized than Akon!" Vern sighs, making kissy motions on the porches pillar. Casey rolling his eyes.

Outrage wasn't enough to describe how this turtle was feeling, he was livid. Raphael withdrew his sai, piercing the pillar just beside Vern's lips.

"Dude, chill." Mikey chimed, landing on the ground just in time to hold Raph back from pounding Vern.

'He's really head over heels for this woman. Marry her already!' Leo thought, agitated with his brother's flaring temper.

"Did my message not go through? I warned ya man!" Raph barked.

"What'd I say? What'd I say!?" Vern whined.

Just as the others were about to intervene, screams were heard from the barn

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!"

Immediately Raphael retrieved his other sai and rushed to the barn along with the others to see what the commotion was about. Kicking the door open the guys flooded the barn to see April and Y/N cuddling an animal.

"Is that a.....fox?" Donnie asked, squinting his eyes to get a better look.

"A finnick fox. The poor thing was caught in a fishing net in the corner."

Casey walked over and pet the shaking canine. "I keep forgetting about the abundance of wildlife around here. They seem to like this area."

"They seem to like Y/N a lot too." Mikey adds.

"He's so cute. Look at his ears." April cooed, scratching the foxes ears to show they mean no harm.

Raphael looked at the baby fox as he snuggled into your chest for warmth. 'Those are mine!'

"Wonder how it got in here?" Donnie scanned the pups vitals, confirming it was just exhausted.

"Maybe we should keep him here. Nurse it for a bit and release him. The mom must be worried sick." You suggested.

"We're NOT keeping it!" Leo lashed, seeing how you and April were showering the pup with love.

"Didn't say we were, Fearless. We can't just release it out in the wild. Besides, Mama Gator is probably nearby. She could devour him in a matter of seconds." You responded.

"You have a great heart, Y/N." Splinter says, studying the puppy.

They all admired your need to help others, especially animals. Your personality causing Raphael to fall in love with you all over again. Wanting to get you alone for a change and away from Vern.

"Stay here with him. We'll collect some sheets and towels for him." April suggested.

"Me and Vern will go into town, look around for some stuff to better take care of him." Casey adds before departing.

"This is fun. Never had a dog before." Mikey exclaimed.

"I can look up some information on how to nurture a fennick fox. As far as where to put him when we release him." Donnie pointed out, while pulling up his screens to begin his research. Leonardo followed him, glaring at Raphael before they all left. It was just you, Raph, and the pup.

While you found a spot for the fox to rest, you turned to Raphael.

"Some trip, huh?"

"Yeah. Some trip."

It was awkward. You couldn't stand it and finally spoke up,"Look. I had no intentions of causing trouble." You abruptly say. "I can't image how the events have made you feel. I'm sorry!" He just stood there, listening. "If you ain't feelin' this anymore. I ain't mad at ya for it!" He lost it when you said that. Grabbing you by the face and kissing you hard. Tongue sinking down into your throat. Moaning as he caressed your canal with his long tongue. He released your mouth,"You ain't do nothin!' You protected my friends. I still want ya!" Your eyes filled with tears. "Do ya want me though?" You placed your hands on his scaly cheeks,"Yes. I want you. Desperately!" You admitted.

He shoved you into a haystack. You giggled at his eagerness, then your face got serious when you seen the bulge twitching in his shorts. Your thighs couldn't stop rubbing as he got closer to you. "I wanna see ya. All of ya!" He demanded. You looked confused, then he started pulling at your bottoms. It was then when you realized he wanted to see more than what you showed him earlier. However, it wasn't fair if he sees you, but you not see him. Crossing your legs caused a very irritated look on his face. "Dis teasing thing is gettin' old, Babe!" He mumbled. You had to agree, it was fun for a bit, now you just want him.

"I wanna see you too." You purred, shocking him.

"It ain't like a human guy's, ya know dat right?" He warns.

"Yes. It's you though. I want all of you too."

He couldn't articulate the proper words. His mindset was to claim you before anyone else does. He was so touched that it nearly drew him to tears. Yet, his insecurities began taunting him again, fearing you may look upon him in utter disgust. May even run away. The glimmer in your eyes, the sway in your dreads, your warm, chocolatey skin gave him second thoughts. He carefully undid his shorts, as you slowly inched your bottoms down. Both your breaths were heavy as you took that slow and steady step. Finally the bottoms were off of both of you. Fully exposed. Spreading your legs, giving him the view he deserves. You watched as his massive girth slid out of his cloaca. The moment felt sacred as you drank in each other's most private parts.

"Gorgeous flower." He coos, watching you drip. You blushed at his compliment.

"So big. Strong. Mesmerizing." You trailed off, rolling your hips at the sight of him. It was different. It was a dark green, spongy tip with a lighter color to it. His veins pulsed as the breeze hit his entire girth, adding to the atmosphere. "Can I.....touch it?" You faintly asked.

No words left his lips as he took your hand, guiding it to his stone rod.

You gently explored. The look of pleasure on his face was to die for. This may have been his first time allowing a female to touch him in this way, so you treated him with utmost gentleness and respect. You leaked at the grunting sounds he was making, while focusing on his handsome face. "That feels good. I wanna touch you too!" He groaned. You guided his hand to your core and he began exploring you.

It was such a tender moment that you wished it would never end. "Say my name, Baby! I wanna hear dat sexy voice." He groaned, his meat throbbing in your hands. You happily obliged,"Raphael! Oh, Raphael!" You rocked, rolled, and twitched together. Gasping as your climaxes spread down you thighs and wrists. You shared a tongue twisting kiss. He looked at you,"We ain't done yet. Tonight, yer all mine!"

As you 2 were cleaning up, Casey and Vern were in town conversing at the pet store.

"Gotta question." Vern says, eye balling the women shopping around.

"Whats up?" Casey responds.

"Is it me? Or does Raph want to pound me more than usual?"

Casey knew due to April constantly talking about it. Raphael has a thing for you and has been overprotective. Given the recent event Casey tried to steer clear of Raphael himself.

"Yeah. I'd pound ya too if you were hittin' on my girl!" He admitted, not hesitating.

"You're joking, right? Y/N & Raphael? There's no way! She's......." He makes a chef's kissing motion. "While he's.......well. You know."

"Hey man. If they like each other, who are we to get in the way. After all, it's not often a girl from another dimension shows love and appreciation to these guys. Especially Raph." Casey reminds him.

"I'll tell you what, I'd be more than happy to take her off his hands." Vern straightens his collar in a mirror, completely dismissing Casey warning.

"That's a lot of woman to handle. She'd be the pants and you the skirt." Casey laughed as they brought some supplies to the counter for check out.

April and Splinter came back to the barn to see you and Raphael playing the energetic fox. While Donnie, Mikey, and Leo ventured out into the forest to find a good spot for the fox to roam about to find his mother. The scene itself creating a sense of amusement.

"He's so adorable. Too bad we can't take him home." April grins, making the fox's temporary bed.

"Yeah, ya know, Fearless won't approve." You snickered.

"You are quite the animal magnet, are you not?" Splinter spoke.

"Yes. I've always loved animals. At the time I had cats, dogs, guinea pigs, hamsters. They're amazing creatures." You say with a cheer in your voice.

Raphael's chest got tight admiring how much you loved animals. You somehow befriended a vicious alligator mother and her offspring. Now your taking care of a baby fox. He couldn't be anymore smitten with you. Constantly rubbing his fingers together, imagining your velvety heat surrounding his thick digits moments before April and Splinter arrived.

"That reminds me, On the way back, we caught a glimpse of Mama Gator on the docks." April added.

"She's still around? Geez. What now she gonna follow us around too?" Raph chuckled.

Splinter found your new acquaintances impressive. He too has noticed Raphael's growing infatuation with you. At first he had doubts, keeping in mind of the possibility of you being warped back to your dimension, leaving his son broken hearted, empty. When he was told how LeatherHead somehow warped back, he began to worry. Though he favors you, as a father he wants to ensure his son does not get hurt. For now, he will keep a good watch on the both of you.

When got the baby settled in, it was time to depart for the day. You noticed Mama Gator gawking at you. You gave Raphael and the others a sign that you'll be alright. "I'm just gonna hang with her for a bit." Splinter was skeptical, but gave a nod of approval. "Take caution, child." You gave a nod and proceeded to approach the relaxed alligator on the dock. Raphael watched with caution. It soon turned to astonishment as you snuggled into the mother's side, without causing her to snap or attack.

Vern and Casey just got back and immediately noticed you lounging on the docks with the alligator. 'She's a dare devil!' Vern thought. Raphael went into the woods to kill some time before tonight. When really, he was freaking out! 'What do I do? What if I hurt her? What if she backs out?' Many thoughts ran through his mind as he leapt from one tree branch to another. He wasn't alone when he caught sight of Donatello looking over the stream once again. If there's anyone he can ask about this, is the smartest of the bunch. It was gonna be weird, but he had to try.

"Yo Donnie!" He hollered out.

Donnie turned to see his bara brother land on the ground, walking towards him.

"Hey Raph. Didn't expect to see you here."

"Where's Leo and Mikey?" He asked.

"They went deeper into the forest. Probably doing some sparring. What's up?"

Raphael looks off into the distance. Trying to figure out how exactly he was gonna ask his brother about intercourse.

"Lemme ask ya somethin?"

[wellhalesbells]

top 9 books

tagged by @rosieposiepuddingnpie - thank you and curse you, this is my least favorite/favorite thing to do!

The Starless Sea, Erin Morgenstern (a book about the love of books and story-telling, another great example of this is Cloud Cuckoo Land, by Anthony Doerr but this edges it out just a little in my all time faves. Also consider this a stand-in for Erin Morgenstern's other gem: The Night Circus.)

The Secret History, by Donna Tartt (I always waffle between the dark academia vibes of this or the snowy Amsterdam/dry Las Vegas heat of The Goldfinch - they're both absolute perfection and have gay undertones so they bounce back and forth depending on the day.)

Middlesex, by Jeffrey Eugenides (you know how people use 'sweeping tale' to describe certain books? That's this one. It just whisks you away. I know everything there is to know about the Stephanides clan and I'm a better person for it.)

The Bedlam Stacks, by Natasha Pulley (Honestly, also consider this a stand-in for every Natasha Pulley book there is. Sometimes my favorite is The Half Life of Valery K, sometimes it's The Watchmaker of Filigree Street series, sometimes it's The Kingdoms; it's really whose yearning I'm vibing with the most that day: Valery and Shenkov? Thaniel and Mori? Merrick and Raphael? Joe and Kite? It varies.)

The Stand, by Stephen King (I also really want to put Holly in that spot, I just finished it and I haven't loved a Stephen King book like that since The Stand - the only reason I didn't is because Holly is, at least for now, the last book in a series that is a spin-off of a series and every other book in those series don't hit the level of Holly, at all.)

Anxious People, by Fredrik Backman (this can also act as a stand-in for A Man Called Ove as well since I love them both for the exact same reason - they believe in the best in people. They make you feel better about humanity in general.)

The House in the Cerulean Sea, by TJ Klune (I will also point out that I have yet to read a TJ Klune book I haven't loved and that is not an insignificant amount now. This one is an older queer love story with the added bonus of found family. It's magical and heart-full and kind)

Project Hail Mary, by Andy Weir (Also a big lover of The Martian but this has something extra special for me - the alien was unique and I cared so much about every character that even glanced across the pages.)

Vera Wong's Unsolicited Advice for Murderers, by Jesse Q. Sutanto (I laughed, I loved, I goggled at Vera's incredible ability to bring people together - a more motley crew of people there is not and yet somehow Vera not only makes it work, she makes them family <3)

Special shoutout to Lessons in Chemistry, by Bonnie Garmus, I read this semi-recently (within the last year) so I don't know if my gaga-ness with it will fade or not but right now I'm like: this should absolutely be on this list, I just don't know if that's gonna hold or not. The writing is absolutely gorgeous and the plot is perfect, I just don't know if it's top ten nine perfect, y'know? Also to S.A. Cosby - Razorblade Tears is literally hanging off the end of this list by its fingernails (also read everything else by him because it's all good!).

Ongoing series - that either aren't finished or that I haven't finished so they're not cemented yet (aka Maddie cheats so she can have more spots): The Thursday Murder Club series, by Richard Osman (it's up to four books now and they are absolute perfection - it's a series that believes the best in people, even its villains, no one is allowed to be one note and you never know who it's going to pick up and keep forever), The Monk & Robot series, by Becky Chambers (it's just such a quiet, peaceful little sci-fi series that loves its characters and tea), Empire of the Vampire, by Jay Kristoff (absolutely no notes on the first book, I was stressed out and ravenous), The Infernal War Saga, by Hailey Turner (pitch perfect first two books, I'm obsessed with everyone and, like, borderline too into Honovi and Blaine??), Legends & Lattes, by Travis Baldree (this book is kind and it's found family and it's Cozy High Fantasy, like, who even knew how badly I needed that?! - a prequel is due out next month!), The Expanse series, by James S.A. Corey (okay, I know this is done but I am only through book six, though so far absolutely every one has been perfect), The Amina al-Sirafi Series, by S.A. Chakraborty (the first book is so good, which I am zero percent surprised by because I five-starred my way all the way through The Daevabad Trilogy as well!), and the Susan Ryeland series, by Anthony Horowitz (these mysteries are absolutely right up my alley - because who's investigating them? An editor of the first book's murdered author. I hope he can manage to keep these going because they are so damn good!)

tagged: @andavs, @maichan808, @callunavulgari, @midnightisquiet, @bleep0bleep, @petals42, @emeraldawn, @melowdeee, @alocalband, also anyone else who wants to do this - i love seeing people's literature tastes!!

[thatonefunnyfella]

Turtles of the Frontier

(An Apex Legends x ROTTMNT AU fan project, in collaboration with @shardkn1ght.)

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This is the second half of a collaborative piece Shardkn1ght and myself have been working on. Soph's half can be found HERE.

Whilst Soph handled the artistic side, it was my role to advise/be a consultant when coming up with an original origin story and to make sure everything was lore-friendly to Apex and Titanfall. On top of that, we've also made concepts for each character's abilities and an lore explanation for each. This post will serve to present that.

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Leonardo

Class: Assault

Can open red supply bins

Carry more ammo per stack

Tactical: Red-ear retraction (30s cooldown)

Leo hunkers down and uses a small personal dome shield to protect himself for a short time 

When the dome runs out, it emits a small shockwave around Leo, pushing enemies back and applying a stun effect for a short duration. 

Any damage the dome takes during its active state will increase the radius and duration of the stun. (maximum 15m, 10s)

Lore note: A relic from a bygone conflict. The now discontinued Hammond Robotics™ Red-ear titan-grade dome shield. Named after the aptly named turtle from the core system, the Red-ear shield was used as on-board protection for Atlas chassis based Titans and the Militia’s Vanguard class Titans. It would be attached to the Titan’s top hatch to protect the Pilot as they either embarked or disembarked. However it was never fully adopted by either the IMC or Frontier Militia as the top hatch was rarely ever used by most pilots, rather opting for the quicker and far less claustrophobic options. After finding one in an abandoned Hammond construction line, Leo had Donatello retrofit a kinetic feedback discharge system to it, making it repel anyone who gets too close.

Ultimate: ōdachi point

Leo can use his blade to phase breach a short distance to a designated point.

Unlike Ash, Leonardo’s phase breach does not stay open. This means he can’t be followed by hostiles, however his squad can’t follow either.

Lore note: Ash has seen the combat potential in Leonardo. Therefore, like her own sword,  Leo’s ōdachi has been modified by Ash to allow the blade to tear into the void to a non-adjacent location and end up there near instantaneously. Unlike Ash’s breacher, Leo’s can phase to a location outside his line of sight to get the drop on unsuspecting hostiles. 

Passive 1: Professionally trained

Jumping, falling, landing and climbing are all silent

Passive 2: Natural Born Leader

Leo gains a slight boost to his speed and jump height if one of his brothers are in his squad

This effect stacks if both of his squad mates are turtles

tier 1: 10% speed boost, 25% jump height

tier 2: 20% speed boost, 50% jump height

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Raphael

Class: Support

Can access extra loot from blue supply bins

Can craft unrecovered or expired ally banner cards

Tactical: Security Specialist (0s cooldown)

Raph holds up his forearms and utilizes repurposed armour plates from an old Scorch Titan and inhuman reaction time to block any incoming offense. (50% bullet damage reduction, 20% grenade damage reduction, 80% melee damage reduction)

No cooldown, however it requires a short start-up and finish animation.

No effect against legend abilities

Lore note: Using scraps of a Titan’s armour plates found in an abandoned Hammond facility, Raph had Donny create a set of armour plates that attach to his prosthetic arms.

Ultimate: Goliath Projection

Raph projects a monstrously sized holo-decoy of himself to swing wildly and guard an area (won’t actually do damage)

Any hostile that gets close will refuse to go any further

Will block lines of sight but can still be shot through

Lore note: Another of Hammond’s failed prototypes. The Titan-grade Holographic Decoy projector never saw combat, instead the only known use of it is in leaked Hammond Robotics™ test footage. Originally intended to be a Titan-sized counterpart to the more successful holo-pilot program, this old piece of tech was close to completion yet remained flawed. For starters, it drew too much power away from the Titan’s much more critical systems and was prone to overheating. Secondly, the projections would always move a little too fast; so it would’ve been easy to discern whether or not it was real. However, Raphael isn’t a Titan powered on a highly volatile nuclear reactor. But he is just as menacing. After having recovered it in the same abandoned Hammond facility Leo found his Red-ear shield, Raph had Donatello integrate it into his gear to allow it to project a Titan-sized decoy of Raphael.

Passive 1: Snapper’s Pressure

Upon landing from a height of 10m<, the weight of all of Raph’s gear will create a small seismic sock around him

Shockwave will push enemies back 

Won’t work whilst ADS

Passive 2: Big Muscles, Bigger Heart

Raph can use “Snapper’s Pressure” from a shorter height and with a larger radius (default is 2m) if one of his brothers is in his squad.

This effect stacks if both of his squad mates are turtles

tier 1: activates at 5m with 5m radius

tier 2: activates at ANY height with 7m radius

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Donatello

Class: Recon

Scan survey beacons to reveal next ring location

Uses bō staff to do so

Tactical: Soft-shell Intel (25s cooldown)

Donny uses his augmented shell equipped with Acolyte Pods to fire two Sonar darts wherever he aims

Enemies caught by the scan are revealed for 5 seconds.

Each dart has 10m radius

Both darts are fired on activation, however the second dart is delayed. This means Donny can fire it in a separate location from the first. 

Lore note: After finding an old, inoperable Tone Titan in an abandoned Hammond factory, Donatello reverse engineered some of the armaments found aboard the Titan. Most notably its Acolyte Pods and Sonar darts. Knowing that his battle shell can support a hefty amount of weight, he has crafted the reclaimed pods into a smaller, more personal weapon system, akin to the salvaged Northstar Acolyte Pods Valkyrie utilizes.

Ultimate: S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N

Donny uses his technologically enhanced bō staff to call down S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N, a Reaper who warpfalls onto a designated location.

Anyone who is underneath S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N when he lands will be instantly knocked down.

S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N can fire short-range anti-personnel rockets from his left arm at a slow rate of fire to suppress enemies or draw their fire

S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N’s right arm weapon can be chosen by Donatello on his gauntlet before he’s called in:

Option 1. a slow-moving shield-draining ball of electricity, which will behave similar to that of the LG-97 Thunderbolt.

Option 2. A Branthium powered gravity well that can bring targets in close to S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N

Option 3. S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N can use a second anti-personnel rocket system which effectively doubles the rate of fire.

Anyone in S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N’s sight line is spotted for Donny and his squad

Will be active until destroyed or time runs out (60s).

Give an audible warning that a S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N has been deployed with the Reaper’s iconic screeching.

Lore note: “Scanning Hardware Emplacement Linked to Logic, Defence and OffeNce”, or S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N, is a heavily modified Reaper that Donatello has reprogrammed to aid him and his brothers in combat. With S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N being a model of Reaper that predates the design improvements Ash made during the late stages of the Frontier war, he fires at a slower rate and cannot deploy ticks. However, Donatello has equipped him with threat optics, an enhanced Operating System, and modular weapon capabilities, allowing Donny to equip a multitude of different tools onto S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N. Mikey has also painted him Purple now.

Passive 1: Violent Streak

When Donny uses a grenade he has the option to either make it adhere to surfaces and enemies OR lay it down as a proximity activated mine (mine has to be set manually from close range).

Passive 2: Genius Engineer

If one of his brothers is in his squad, Donny’s Sonar Darts will give out a pulse-echo which will scan a second time

This effect stacks if both of his squad mates are turtles

tier 1: 2 scans per dart

tier 2: 3 scans per dart, third pulse is larger (20m radius)

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Michelangelo

Class: Skirmisher

Can scan care packages and see the highest tier item

Tactical: Lockup (30s cooldown)

Mikey uses his Kusari-fundo in a small area of effect to temporarily wrap up enemies in high-tensile wire and ignite them, causing burn damage over a short time (4 seconds).

Can hit multiple enemies at once.

3m width and 5m reach

Lore note: Whilst exploring an abandoned Hammond Robotics™ facility, Mikey found an old patent for a Pilot’s tool that never made it to production. A set of Kusari-fundo which use a high-tensile wire in place of a chain. This variant of the weapon was not so much meant for offense, more so utility. From what Mikey could see, it was equipped with a small yet powerful internal power supply, which would superheat the wire. The intention of this was to allow Pilots to wrap it around and melt through the extremities and weapon systems of hostile Titans. However with the advancements in Titan defences and with how quickly the battery depleted, the idea was left by the wayside. Mikey has instead found a way to fix the power issue, and the answers lie in Branthium.

Ultimate: Artist’s Intuition

Mikey pulls out a can of explosive spray paint and can tag any surface he chooses. 

Once the can runs out or he chooses to stop, Mikey can detonate the paint causing massive damage to anybody caught in the blast.

Useful for area denial

Lore note: Donny’s intellect and knack for high-explosives had pushed him to combine the two just to challenge himself, and so one day he did. The result was a nano-explosive that he found could bind itself to the Lead particles in Mikey’s spray paint. Once Mikey found out that Donny had been using his paint for his little science project, he hounded Donatello to let him use it for himself. Naturally, Donny didn’t trust that he wouldn’t accidentally kill himself, so he refused. Michelangelo, however, was unrelenting and so Donny eventually had to yield and give up the highly volatile tech to his gung-ho brother.

Passive 1: Rad Enough Ride

Mikey can perform 2 individual dashes using his Branthium powered, gravity defying board

Can be used for a speed boost, evasion, or to get in close

Uses a “fuel” gauge

Lore note: After the team of the Iris Project sent the remaining Branthium through the Phase Runner on Olympus and the rift was created, a sufficient supply of Branthium was distributed across the Outlands. However, not all of it went accounted for. A crate of the rare crystal was discovered by the Turtles and studied close by Donatello. He found that not only Does it have the potential to provide a near unlimited source of energy, but it also possesses gravitational  properties; a by-product of the crystal forming on the edge of event horizons. Donny found that by superheating the Branthium and making it rotate at a high enough velocity, he could create what was, for lack of a better term, a miniature sun. Of course he had to make a suitable containment vessel, so he employed the help of Dr. Mary Somers; whom has had her fair share of Branthium related encounters. And once they’d done so, he had essentially made a battery that could never deplete. A perfect external power source for Michelangelo’s newly acquired Kusari-fundo. Not only that, he could take advantage of Branthium’s Gravity-manipulation qualities to modify Mikey’s boring old skateboard into something much more useful in combat. And so with that, Michelangelo had his new gear hooked up to the Branthium battery mounted onto the back of his shell.

Passive 2: Boxed-in

If one of his brothers is in his squad, the width and reach of “Lockup” is increased, as well as the length of time enemies take damage .

This effect stacks if both of his squad mates are turtles

tier 1: 5m width and 7m reach

tier 2: 7m width and 10m reach plus enemies take extra damage over time.

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credits:

Character art - @shardkn1ght

Backgrounds - me

[gccdstories]

Azazel inhaled, his eyes squinting as he saw the sky for the first time. Just his luck it was breaking. He shifted, his wings flexing. He shut his eyes, delving deep into his magic - hoping to shield the -

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He woke, coughing, by some miracle or curse he was alive. He crawled from his hole, seeing his brothers and sisters. Many had crawled from their prison. He turned, noticing Samyaza.

"What the fuck is happening?"

Samyaza squinted into the sky, it was growing darker, colder.

"The realms are opened. Which -"

"No shit Yaza, I mean why? Do you think -"

"No."

Azazel bristled but bit his tongue. Samyaza turned away, noting the fissures appearing in the sky. So they weren't free, they'd been accidentally freed. How long had the Imperator and the Council locked them in here?

Had it been 2,000 years? 50? Did Raphael even -

"We climb to the gates and try to fly out. Those who can't..."

Samyaza didn't finish that sentence. No one would survive.

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Azazel didn't know where the fuck he was. He saw a village, he smelled food. He turned away from the busier areas slipping into the forest. His hunger sharp and painful, apparently the prison hadn't let him feel hunger....hadn't let him really sleep either.

Small mercies or death by a thousand cuts whichever made easier sense. He lunged, grabbing a rabbit that tried to dart past him. He sank his teeth into its neck, draining its fear, its shock and tiredness. He ate the rest raw, needing to feed on its magic, on everything it was.

Whatever fae shifting thing it was - there was maybe more. Maybe more of his brothers and sisters had made it here and they could really go hunting

@siderealxmelody

She felt it, even if Raphael had tried to convince herself it was yet another dream. Another nightmare. Another hallucination or falsehood trying to drive her just as insane as the countless others had attempted to, throughout the many, many centuries that had passed.

She had convinced herself that it was better, putting him away. That it was the only way to find a path forward, a path where peace might be forged.

Even if that part of her that had screamed otherwise hadn't been able to be silenced completely. Even if it felt like every night since had sent Raphael reeling, falling and cursing to fates and beings that she had long-since stopped thinking cared for any of them.

Her entire foundation, crumbled. Her entire belief, her entire understanding of existence as it was supposed to be--shattered.

And it was all because of him.

She would never, ever forgive him for that.

Or at least, Raphael had tried to convince herself of such a thing.

Even if the pulse that tore through the cosmos felt like a rupture of life itself, of the very fabric of time, of space-- like the very realms shattering in a way she'd never, ever felt-- Didn't even think possible such a thing could happen and still have any life existing afterwards--

But it wasn't Death that Raphael followed from the small village, under the moonlight, cloaked in shadows that the scant night's light tried to pierce, but couldn't. It wasn't Death and decay that she tracked, as each step brought her closer to the feeling, to the thread that had pulled at her, that had tugged at her mind, at the very core of her entire being itself, to follow.

To find.

To seek.

Perhaps, if it had been Death, Raphael would have felt the pain less than what she did, as her breath caught, her wings shifted, her hair catching in the wind that blew the hood from her cloak and revealed her pale face in the moon's light. Her eyes landed on him, and on what was left of the poor thing he'd destroyed.

Nothing, Raphael thought, gaze glancing briefly at the carcass, at the small, tiny fragments that still existed, its magic still trying to cling to what it could, to find root in this realm again before they vanished completely.

But he had left nothing, and Raphael wondered if Death would have been a better friend to greet right then, than to see him again.

❝ ... ❞

She cannot say his name; she can barely even open her mouth. A part of Raphael wanted to deny he was even there, in front of her. That the nightmare that had plagued her essence for countless decades, centuries, was now here. As real as every image her mind had conjured.

But then, there were all those other nights when it was not a nightmare, but a dream. A wish. A hope. And she would awake in tears, feeling as if her heart and soul had shattered anew at the reminder that it was a stupid, foolish thing to hope for something like that.

Something that would never happen. That could never happen.

❝ ... How? ❞

[creativeartgal]

Epic x Obey Me au spoilers

Since both obey me and epic ended this past month I wanted to ramble about this au I've been thinking about since I got into epic this past few months.

Ok so basically this started when I first heard the song Ruthlessness. I kinda knew about epic before this but this song was the first time I saved a song to my playlist. One day I was listening to it, and because I'm obsessed with obey me, I thought about what if this was Michael saying it to mc. And then I had a whole idea for a single self contained animatic that I never actually did cause im not confident enough to do it. (This idea was after season 2 of nb ended but before season 3) Basically it was Michael showing up cause he wants to kill the MC. Here Simeon takes the place of the cyclops but instead of him being blinded its him turning human and in this animatic this is how it would get revealed to everyone else. Then Michael would intimate MC but when it gets to the part "I mean you totally could have avoided this had you just killed my son" he would be looking to Lucifer or even shape shift to look like Lucifer in reference almost having to kill him with the knight dagger. And I didn't really have any really good idea on the rest of the song but had it put to the side in something I would eventually do. And after the thunder saga came out I finally gave in and decided to listen to the whole thing and became obsessed with it like I knew I would (my coworkers can prove this as I will just start signing whatever song from this that pops in my head that day)

While I was listening whenever Ruthlessness came up I would try to finish it up more and more and then I had a pretty decent idea on how it would go and then I was thinking it would be cool if I did a short thing with Monster where at the end during "then I'll become the monster..." Have my mc started showing a demon form and during "Penelope... and telemakus" sees Mammon and their kids and try to go to them but they fade away and the imagined demon form only for after the line "I'll become the monster" the demon form flashes briefly. Kinda also relevant but not fully I can totally see using Wouldn't You Like to be that part of season 1 og during the retreat when Solomon lends you magic to help make a pact with Asmo. It just fits his so well I'm so gonna do that eventually. Then at some point I had this idea for this Epic Au for Obey Me.

So in this Au is fully based on the songs except adding obey me characters in place of the epic ones. It can either start with Ruthlessness or that would be used as a flashback instead to explain how things got the way they are. Basically this is years after mc become a sorcerer. The world's are starting to get more open with each other and there are human and angels at rad for the Three Worlds Festival. MC is married and has kids with Mammon (granted this is cause I use my mc here but honestly the more I think about it, it makes more sense for it to be a Mc with Diavolo especially when considering the stuff that happens in Ithaca) everything is going well when Michael shows up with an army of Angels behind him (add in a unwilling Raphael for angst). Then the Ruthlessness idea but now demons angels and even humans are fighting in battle many of the main characters get injured but MC and Solomon somehow managed to help the others escape ala "all I have to do is open this bag" maybe a spell or a magical item I don't have all the kinks worked out yet. This is a start of a war between the three realms and MC and Solomon are basically forced to help fight for the Human realm even though MC wants to stay in the devildom with their family.

Then it would just go along the same as the musical, again I don't really have everything thing figured out. One other thing I wanna mention is that I can see Solomon taking the place of Athena it fits so well (maybe thirteen could be Hermes idk). Idk I just wanted to get this out there. If anyone wants to add to this or make your own au based on this pls do and either tag me or send me a link cause I would love to see it. I'm not the best at this kinda stuff but I know there are a lot of other people who could make something really good. I might still make those animatics eventually but I ain't making any promises lol