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dadw prompt! #12 from the 50 kisses prompt list: Sneaking away to a hidden corner to share a secretive kiss. + fenders :D
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As always, the day ended at the Hanged Man. Fenris wasn’t quite sure when the tradition had started, or when it’d shifted from a simple let’s get something to drink to an actual tradition, even amongst the non-drinkers in their group, but it was nice to have something to look forward to. He drank, of course, but never too heavily - he did not want to lose himself in a crowd like this, after all, but the ale was cheap here, affordable even when he had lost the last several hands of Wicked Grace.
Varric was winning tonight. Typical, really, although usually he could hold his own and sometimes Isabela took the pot. Anders rarely won and over time the bets drifted lower, the game becoming friendly rather than competitive. Sometimes the mage couldn’t spare the coin and didn’t play at all, but none of them begrudged him that - he had the clinic to attend to, after all. Surely there were costs associated with that.
He rather suspected that Varric spent a considerable amount of his winnings supporting the clinic, but he never could confirm as much. Nor, he thought, could Anders, which was likely the point. An anonymous donation to the clinic or new supplies suddenly showing up felt different than being handed coin by a friend, and the former was far more difficult to turn down.
Over time, a new tradition had risen from this one, although it was not a group activity. Fenris stretched and excused himself, clapping Hawke on the shoulder as he passed and waving off Varric’s idle protestations. The dwarf just wanted him to lose again. Merrill waved goodbye to him before Isabela claimed her attention by leaning heavily into her and he hid a grin by turning away from them. He may not approve of the blood mage, but he couldn’t help but be a little touched by her insistent generosity, her gentle nature seemingly at odds with her manner of fighting. A contradiction he had once found suspicious and had eventually grown to accept, for all of them had their contradictions. This new tradition was one of them.
He took a deep breath as he left the pub - the city didn’t always smell the cleanest, but it was certainly fresher than the cramped, humid air inside the Hanged Man. He slowly worked his way back towards the mansion he’d come to occupy, although halfway there he ducked instead into a narrow alleyway and waited. It did not take particularly long. “Were they suspicious?” He asked as the other man slotted into the alley beside him, their arms brushing as they stood side by side.
“I doubt it. Played my last hand and it was miserable.” Anders laughed quietly and Fenris smiled to himself, turning to face the mage - then shifting so that he was bracketing him against the wall, his laughter fading into a soft gasp. Fenris glanced from his eyes to his lips, watching Anders’ tongue dart out to wet them before he pushed forward.
They kissed hard, with a fierce demand, hands seeking out points of contact to draw them closer together. Fenris bit Anders’ lip to feel the shudder of his moan between their mouths.
An argument had brought them close together, a tension building that Fenris hadn’t been able to identify until Anders drew near him before turning away sharply. Realizing what he had been letting slip away, he’d grabbed the mage and kissed him. That one experience had led into this happening several times a week, and Fenris idly wondered when he’d stop having them meet outside the mansion.
For now, this was enough. He pulled back to see Anders’ eyes dark and wide, searching his for a time before a small, wry smile crept across his lips. “Next time, then?” Fenris nodded before kissing him a final time, then stepping back.
“The alley closer to the docks,” Fenris said. “You leave first next time.” He watched as Anders nodded, pulling away from the wall and straightening his robes.
“I’ll be there,” he said, grinning before making his way clear of the alley and back to his clinic.
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CONTINUATION @predvestnik ↤ from here :: CORNERED ↩
DILUC “as well i should.” oh. well- that-
run, breathe the vestiges of sense. the heat of his gaze darts to the door into the kitchen- has to know but can’t ascertain the location of the back door beyond childe. there is a tall ( infuriatingly so... ) slab of snezhnayan cornering him against his own bar, &-
& something low in his belly trembles for this. traitorous, traitorous—
his cheeks are still catching up to the look in blue eyes.
—it’s worse than hunger. something light & weak, weakening him. there is strength in this monster man on more levels than initially presumed, & with breath skating along skin these facts sit in the middle of his being like a child amid scattered toys. their prominence feels so innocent.
more than one figment of nightly imagination has proven that deceptive.
i- you- listen, you uncouth foreign fuck-
instead, diluc’s face shifts away - unwilling to heed anything but the safety that is shame. it’s a fence sitting sort of safety, however. given childe’s nature to push, there is no real salvation in inertia. ( & when he has been instigating for weeks? the fucker doesn’t seem to back down from a challenge unless to rile his opponent up. )
‘uhm’ manages to mute itself in the press of his lips. “...” in, & out, the breath at his ear is warm & knows him frightfully. ( there is nothing better than being s e e n. ) heat is a sharp sliver that cuts directly into his core; lead by those words that come from that mind behind those all-seeing eyes... fuck. he’s going to have to— visit someone, pay for something. this is- embarrassing, there’s no need to feel so intensely when- dammit, he wasn’t supposed to take this seriously! ( or something. sensible thought is proving elusive. the frustration at suffering consequences is not. )
“there is no next move.” begins lord ragnvindr. he has not moved an inch. neither has the weight of his desperate gaze on the kitchen door. “...merely testing a theory.” will a fainting follow the heat in his face? wouldn’t prefer to be unconscious around the harbinger, but it’d spare him his own folly. it’s one thing to need closeness. another to crave it here.
strong warm smart hungry
childe wants him & his ears are ringing. childe teases & his mouth grows wet. childe looms & boxes him in & t a u n t s & he wants nothing more than to kiss or punch or both at once. maybe most of all he wishes to be kissed with that same ridiculous audacity.
bold as all get out
“you’re imagining things.” when in doubt? project. at least it’ll keep childe busy smarmily dissecting that instead of encouraging m o r e. “i’ve merely been-” nearly swallows his tongue. shrinks—from the cold hard fact that he has not moved away yet more than the actual body that makes him want to stay, “returning the favour.” breath shivers where confidence does not. fuck, fuck, fuck. “you enjoy,” tempting me “—attempting to... harass me.”
agh. hunger aches through the body. it’s all he can do to tense his fists in the pockets of his slacks & stay still. ( gripping the counter- That He Owns -would have him holding the fucker’s hands. ) a low buzz spreads through his veins. his ears ring. when ginger strands tickle from his chin to his brow bone diluc finally blinks. “...” it’d be so simple to tell childe to back off & yet he cannot bring himself to do so.
“where’s your professionalism, harbinger? fraternising with the enemy.”
#conflict.jpg#oh;; no;;; mr harbinger.... pls don't-- uwu --come onto me more!! i'm too virginal & squirmy uwu u wouldn't;;; taint my innocence;;; uwuwuwu#he has most definitely not 'welcomed' this problem thank you very much he has tomfooleried his dumb ass into it.#IF YOU'RE GONNA DRAG HIM AT LEAST CALL HIM THE ACCURATE VARIETY OF STUPID. WAILS DISTRAUGHTLY#with: predvestnik#predvestnik#rp ✦ diluc#i'm laughing so hard help me#diluc vc: ah i. should definitely reinvigorate my sex life. That'll Help.#when it doesn't: AAAAAAAAAAA#i mean it'll help a LIL maybe but-#'you foreign fuck' is diluc's unintentional pet name for him btw. it's just kinda begun to stick around in his head.#a lot safer than 'hot handsome bastard' or 'That One Asshole who makes me feel butterflies when there is nothing but inappropriate times#to do so'#ur so rude for not respecting basic rules of morality / ethics here >:/// what happened to professionalism harbinger???? fraternising with#the enemy??? tsk tsk#he'd say that if he wasn't scared he'd blush at saying 'fraternising with the enemy'#which he might've been doing if u recall his sleep paralysis demon#ANYWAY-#actually fuck it he's saying that but i'm leaving the tag in so u can see the paralysis demon part LMFAO#WHYT HE FUCK U LYYYYIN#MMMM OH MY GOD-
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Welcome to the fucking multiverse i guess lets see what i goþ
REAL SELF
Goodness gracious i look like i have 69 issues and music tastes aint one of em. The hair aint 100% accurate but alas, picrew got limitations. Now off goes this sadge easily-tickled italian boy and welcome... the-
IDEALIZED SELF (which is made outta pure imagination and fantasy and r34 tags and anime powerups and-)
YES. YESYESYES. MY OC IS SO EPIC LOOK AT THEM THEIR EYES ARE RED UNDERTALE AND THEY ARE WILLING TO FUCK ANYTHING THATS ABLE TO CONSENT. THIS ALSO IS PART CAT EVEN THO IT SHOULD BE PART DRAGON. HIS HAIR ARE THE FUCKING MILKY WAY ACCORDING TO ANCIENT RECORDINGS AND HES SO FLUFFY HE WOULD FIT IN THE @comicaurora CANON. LOOK AT HIM HE CAN NUKE DIMENSIONS AND USE THE SCP DEITIES AS BLUNT FORCE WEAPONS. AUWUWUWUUAUWUAUEIAUWLFLJSGLYJRLGL
I shall summon moar of the moots.
@satelite-kun-main @strixludica @floatingcamel23 @f4y3w00d5 @skyethewolfwizard @k1nky-r0b0t-g1rl @virtualgirladv @catboybiologist @catboymoments and why not allow me to jus-
@b0tster
...whoops. fat fingered the "summon comically OP blog" button. Uh anyways-
i am starting a picrew chain because this picrew is literally SO cool
heres the picrew, do two: what you look like and what you want to look like!!
what i look like
what i want to look like
tagging @mybedroomceilingsbored @urlocalsadkid-l @boob-gremlin @bleep-bloop-boo @totalcharliespringsimp to start it off
#RG666 i see you#<-name's alex#the challenge is what you ARE vs what you WANT to be#<- uwu you know me so well~ <3#anyway#mad respect official megumin for knowing what you want to be like and then being like that#except for the eyes i guess but idk try contacts?#or even just have a pair of red tinted glasses maybe that'll do the trick#<- YO WAIT FR#also yeah alexxel i see why you doubt my cisidentity#hope i didn't forget to tag anyone#<nªĥ
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Sometimes I decide to see what the "other side" is talking about and I lurk on anti-terf blogs and gyns I have to say. I'm continually stunned by the fact that I thought it was normal as a TRA. The rabid "everyone can do the most outrageous shit as they want forever and ever and to engage with other opinions is literally catholic nazi conservatism 🤪🤪" is so... idk how to describe it, but reading their blogs completely overstimulates me 😭
It's always go go go go don't stop to think about it go go go FUCK TERFS here's a stunning misinterpretation that we can't even absorb deeply enough to actually question that'll be passed about like candy go go go trans rights go go trans women are women and cis bitches should die!!!!!1!1! but not really because we love women but only the ones that let their natural predators in uwu let's spam their tags with furry porn guys <3333
It's a lot!! And I forget that that's the other side of the spectrum on this issue because they're so online and fringe and... cringe is dead but they're really trying!!!!! I got used to dealing with normies but these people are insane about it and I'm genuinely taken aback. On here we have our issues, sure, but we're not so fast and groupthinky. We have our arguments but that's almost comically preferable to passing around a blocklist so you can keep yourselves in your bubble.
Like I'm always open to changing my mind that is an OATH that I take really fucking seriously. I read their blogs in good faith and engage with their thought processes because I NEED to know I'm making the right choices here. I'm surrounded by it on a daily basis and I come to the same basic conclusion that women deserve female spaces and a word to describe our femaleness and our humanity together and that word is woman. No postmodernist "gender is a social construct anyway so it doesn't matter what I use it for" erases the system of oppression that gender is and the fact that women are oppressed on the basis of sex and always have been. And they hate us. They hate us for expressing this quite simple and mild feminist take.
And somehow they've got this far with it lmao. Zero respect for the radical feminist women that came before them unless they call men transwomen and GNC women transmen. They would have fought the suffragists tooth and nail and put posters up of "wanted women".
#radical feminism#radical feminist safe#radblr#radical feminist community#radical feminists do interact#radical feminists do touch#feminism#radfem#radical feminist#radfems do touch
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woo! woohoo! weeheee! oh that took a while. i wanted to finish it during chosenweek and idc im extremely pleased. it turned out just how i wanted
here's the original page 3 before i
DEEPLY SCRUNHKGLED IT !
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this document was created with the help of 5-year TCO handling expert, avast!, for the purposes of any other antiviruses coming across and wanting to keep useful HI-PWR StickFigures.
please be aware that the TCO variant in particular is the most dangerous to keep idle. its power core is an experimental device that WILL explode if unattended/starved for all types of input energy for too long (also see: BITE protocols).
upkeep shouldn't be too hard if you've installed the avast! ECL system, but still. don't mess around with it! serious!
this is why regulations exist, people! don't forget it in the Chest or you'll have a time bomb on your hands...
anyway it gets to the feathers bit way later than TDL's document. they're not as vital to a host PC as core maintenance, but still a thing to keep in mind.
if your TCO is especially agitated for a period of time, it may be molting... apparently feathered animals do this all the time, and someone went way too hard on the strength specs on its exterior armor so that'll take some effort.
when the User is idle, let the Cursor hang around near the Taskbar so the TCO can use the pointy parts as leverage (or just wait a while, it should get over it).
note: it might also complain for more food. don't worry, this is purely a simulation of the increased nutritional requirements of real molting. status quo should resume in a few days.
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/lore dump over ``^^``
aaand the other point of this post is to ask you something.
yes, you. 💕
would u like to
ask me a question about one of the other bullets on my big ol diagram? :333
i have most of this information written out but,,, i didn't know how to structure it. so! YOU ask me first what you're most interested in uwu or ill just skip merrily through them one by one, no pressure.
perfect example question: "WHAT THE HELL IS AN ANTINODE/GAIN CRYSTAL/METADATA CLIENT"
ask either in my literal asks, or in tags on this post, or in the tags on my previous story post, or in my DMs- anything will do! \o_🎉
thank you!!!!!! i love engineering discussion!!!!!!!!!!!
#--/ art#--/ story#executable!au#subpixels#alan becker#animator vs animation#ava the chosen one#ask me anything#AMA#ava au
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My NO's in Fanfiction !
TW: opinions
( Just to clarify, this post is ABSOLUTELY NOT made to offend anyone. Seriously, write whatever you want to write and have fun !! I'm just trying to find other people who share the same views as me, thank you<3 )
1) Turning a mlm/wlw ship into a straight ship.
Sorry, but this just gives me the biggest ICK. Literally makes me want to throw my phone out the window, smash my head against a wall and gouge my eyes out. LIKEE, tell me you're homophobic without telling me you're homophobic smh.
You may be thinking rn, "Rio, how do people turn em into straight ships?" WHEN THEY FKIN GENDERBEND ONE OF THEM.
I LITERALLY CRY WHENEVER I TRY TO LOOK FOR A TOMARRY FIC AND I SEE "Female Harry Potter" / "Female Tom Riddle". LIKE NOOOO??? WHY ARE U TURNING MY POOKIES INTO FEMALES... THEY'RE SUPPOSED TO BE A MLM SHIP. WHY R U MAKING IT STRAIGHT??? It's giving "homophobic" !!
P.S. I just wanted to say, NO I AM NOT TRANSPHOBIC. I know some of u lots might jump onto that conclusion. BUT I AM COMPLETELY AGAINST THAT BS.
Don't get me wrong, I'm alright w ppl genderbending characters! NOT WHEN ITS IN A MLM/WLW SHIP THO.
P.S. I know that I can just exclude those tags whenever looking for a fic, but..the thing is, some people DON'T EVEN TAG THAT IN THEIR FICS WHEN THEY TOTALLY SHOULD BE TAGGING IT.
2) Making characters act so OC.
Yes, I do know that it IS fanfiction, people can do whatever they want with the characters. BUT SOME OF THEM MAKE THEM SO OC-ish THAT I CANT EVEN RECOGNISE IF THIS IS THE SAME CHARACTER IM OBSESSED W AND LOVE.
Some people make Harry an "UwU" cutsie little silly guy, all soft, and totes a cute cinnamon roll that he's defenseless and weak that he needs big almighty strong 10-pack Tom to save him because he's too little to do stuff for himself >-< .
EW, ICK.
STOP MAKING HARRY A PICK ME. My guy fought a literal war and defeated the dark lord. So why, IN MERLINS NAME are YOU making him act like this:'((
LIKEE, where's my sassy, sarcastic silly guy?? :((
AND TOM. OH MY DAYSS, TOM. Y'all either make him too mean or too nice I SWEAR. Likee, mean as in would Avada u if u even say a single word to him. LIKE BRO, HE WAS A PREFECT AND HEADBOY. HE DIDNT BECOME SO BECAUSE HE AVADA 'D INNOCENT PEOPLE.
P.S. I'm talking abt teenaged Tom Riddles, Voldie would def kill innocent people ykwim?
Or nice as in would call u pookie wookie bear and cuddle u if u had a bad scary dream. Let's bffr rn.
LIKE, where's my crazy psycho nice silly guy??? DD:
IF U WANT THEM TO ACT SORT OF OC-ish PUT THEM INTO A SITUATION THAT'LL FORCE THEM TO ACT AS THOUGH. Seriously, some can get away w this behavior if it is played correctly!!
3) First Person POV.
Pretty self-explanatory, next.
4) "He growled"
Okay, alpha, remus wannabe, furry looking ahh.
JS STOP PLS, IT'S NOT ROMANTIC AND PPL DONT FIND IT ATTRACTIVE.
When I say "ppl" I'm talking abt myself.
#fanfiction#harry potter#tom riddle#harry james potter#tom marvolo riddle#tomarry#MY NO'S IN FANFICTION#i almost tagged nose#opinion#if youre sensitive#dont read#tw: opinions#not made to offend anyone#seriously#write whatever u want#and read whatever u want#im not shaming u!#/srs
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i got tagged by @honrupi thankie thankie!!! sorry m only gettin to this now ily gomen ;w;w;w;
last song: fly by bloodwitch!!! not a day goes by that i don't think about i am not okay with this it's a fucking shame what happened to it
favorite color: pink n purple!!! though yellow is also a very big fave UwU
last book: the last book i read that wasn't for school was a dowry of blood by s.t. gibson!! it was a cool read i definitely enjoyed it, though it was hard to get through at some points c":
last movie: oh man i dun even know.. one of my favorite YT channels put out a rango video yesterday so i guess that!!! rango's a weird fuckin movie i can't decide if i like it or not
last TV show: i am a slave to the arcane train,,, i have Thoughtzos about the finale but i'll spare you all the torment ;;;>///<) but i'm also watchin the ranma remake!! i binged the first few episodes and then two new episodes got released that i haven't watched yet,,,,,,, maybe that'll be what i do tomorrow durin my day off ehehehe
sweet/savory/spicy: spicy spicy spicy oh my god i love spicy food so much if i ever turn down spicy food that's how you know i've been turned into a pod person
relationship status: i'm involved with someone!! we're not using labels cuz of personal preference but i do love her very much c:
last thing i searched: "edwin hubble" cuz i wanted to find a picture of him to color!!
current obsession: .............. arcane..........
looking forward to: doing absolutely nothing tonight and tomorrow lmfao since my last class got out today i'm officially on thanksgiving break but i still have tons of work to do, so i'm taking two days to just rest and relax and vibe so i can still have a little bit of time off before i start workin again ;w;w;w;w;
favorite drink: water n dr pepper,,,, the two drinks necessary for life to form =w=) although i also fucking love eggnog which is great bc we just got a fresh carton the other day that i am very excited to crack open ehehehehe
song playing on a loop in your head 24/7: since the 23rd it's been spin the wheel by mick wingert, but other current contenders are the ballad of jane doe from ride the cyclone, all comes crashing by metric, and omen by guilhem desq
current favorite character: jinx my fuckign beloved,,,,,,,,,,,, my lil pookie my boo bear my lil angel that's never done anything wrong ever,,,,,,,,, ilysm
fun activity you would like to get into: i know i've been saying this for like a year and a half but i would love to get into hema!!! i gotta find a club near me i think there's one that operates a few miles from me, i just gotta dole out the cash to get everythin i need as well as find the time in between my busy schedule ;w;w;w;w;w;
last video game: minecraft!!! i'm workin on a build with my pep n it's comin along very nicely if i do say so myself UwU
last comic/graphic novel: hmmm... i'm not really one to consume comics anymore, so the last one was probably skip and loafer!! i read all the translated books i could get my hands on at that point and it was mega fun, i still have to get up to date with em again cuz ik more's been published online!! the stars just gotta fuckin align already,,,,,,,,,,,
thankie thankie for taggin me honeybee this was mega fun!!! i tag @scalierpepper @illudens @spacey-daydreams @echoequinox @muttself and anyone else who wants to do it UwU
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Accidentally came across the "valangel" tag today and yeah it's mostly, 99%, just people drawing cutesy romantic uwu shit between Angel and his rapist and abuser, Valentino. Someone even saying "I think their relationship can still heal", there's like LGBT flags in the background of their "otp" and they're downright celebrating them as a couple. And usually, angel looks delighted and in love. It's so sickening.
Welp, that'll teach me to have faith in people.
(In my defense, I never saw any of that four years ago when I was looking at a lot of Val/Angel stuff. Maybe four years of Stolitz poisoned their brains, or maybe it was always there and I just never looked hard enough.)
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I was tagged by @girlvinland ! Ty!
Favorite colour: Red :D
Last Song: Total Eclipse Of The Heart - Exit Eden
Last movie/TV Show: Parasyte The Grey
Next on my watch list: Ooh I actually don't know! More Kaiji, couple action movies coming out soon. I wanna see Monkey Man
Last game: FF14 and Content Warning
Sweet/savoury/spicy: Sweet and Savoury
Relationship status: In a poly relationship!
Last online search: I think an uwu face LMAO
Current obsession: FF14, and I believe that'll have to continue as I may be getting off trial to get married! I've been thinking of FF in general, like 7-9. But I think Octopath and LAD are always on the mind
Greatest flaw: Having a choice and sticking to it is difficult. I try to change it so that if I think I wanna do something initially, I just start it right after having the thought. Eg. Writing
I've tagged a lot so I'm lazy this time but I appreciate you Bug and everyone who sees this
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just gonna quote repost so I can copy over all the tags more easily
so like, I got the therapy plan, I know the food times, I'm just too nervous to eat with the group, so I try waiting until most are done, but not too long so I can still get my food
I didn't sleep again, so I was in bed all day skipping all the appointments, resting in hope that'll somewhat compensate for no sleep, not sure if it did
the sounds, the people, the bed, the environment, that Alyssa (second gf) and the gc are most active when it's 21:00 (9pm) for me is also problematic because I wanna spend as much time with them as I can, especially now
my mom wants to buy stuff that could help me, like ear plugs, sleeping pills (or, well, valerian stuff mostly just calms down I think)
I could shower at any time, as long as I'm quiet after 22:00 (10pm), so I might wait with that until later today
and I should still to it today because the morning run is on my list tomorrow and I'd rather shower before that
I forgot to fill out the food plan for next week, gonna do that now when getting dinner. if its still here. :p
I hope they'll let me go home at weekends
it is a possible thing, just not for the first weekend
I'm gonna ask my therapist about it, but the first meeting is on Tuesday. I'm also gonna ask him about connecting me to a psychiatrist for hrt. he said it's possible, and I would like to get that done.
outside of that, I saw more and more people, mostly on twitter, post supportive stuff, kinda as a bash against trump. I hope if enough people do that, we get some attention.
it's horrible how he goes against things he doesn't understand. misinformation might be an excuse the first time, but this is going way too far. if you don't like it, don't interact with it at least. if you wanna interact with it, learn about it first, so you know what you're actually doing. a general thing.
aaaanyway, don't let those haters get to you cuties
they're gonna bite their teeth off our rainbow colored cotton candy asses uwu
(context for the cotton candy, someone used it as an insult towards a friend but she thought it was actually a pretty cute description so be adapted it. kinda like queer used to be an insult. and some gays use the bad word for gays too, which is fine, I just don't like doing it myself >~<)
Anyway, it'll take some more time to adjust to my new situation, but I can get through it. And so can you all through whatever you are going through. maybe not now, maybe not in a week, but at some point you'll find a way, and you will go it step by step. even the smallest steps count.
you can do it. and I'm proud of you for having come so far already.
so like, I'm in a clinic, mental stuff
Adhd, depression, gender dysphoria too ig
generaly just to get back on track, to be able to take part in society as normal again
now I did had an anxiety attack just before I should have come here yesterday, but a few hours later my mom helped me get there
it was fine, they respect my gender identity and stuff
ofc the patients still assume male, because u didn't shave, but the good thing is the workers only refer to me by my last name, and I can just like, not tell the patients my legal name
I cna just say my name is Ash. to be fair I do dislike that name in german, even with correct pronunciation
like, not dislike
just kinda sounds weird
anyway, I haven't checked my weight in a while, that's 99kg, 218lbs. I think, neat
they took a blood sample, they'll do that every week
and blood pressure, heart rhythm, weight too, all that medical stuff
I managed to finish my food list thingy for, well, the food I'll get here
for this week at least
and I'm planning on cleaning up, well, myself
shaving, showering, all that normal people stuff
at least I'm getting a bit more confident in doing things myself here
not enough, I hope that'll come before the end of day meet up thingy where we talk about how we're doing, if we reached out goals that we set in the morning
did I mention I didn't sleep last night?
main problem is my former sleep schedule and the drama in the gc, but that'll fix itself
despite that, I'm actually doing pretty fine
I do feel like this place will eventually get me through all this stuff going on
even though it does suck I pretty much don't get to get on vrchat with the gc people anymore
sucks badly
buuut, I can still tease them pretty well over chat it seems~
aaaanyway
probably keep updating progress and all that stuff
idc about oversharing my life here tbh
I think it's better to do that on tumblr than any other social media, but idk
(gosh, the tags are always the most difficult part)
#transfem#transgender#depression#adhd#autism?#mental health#ash lore#gender affirming#positivity#lgbtq#queer#stay determined#I wish I knew what other fitting tags to use so more people can see this. Mostly so they see the positive stuff.
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Underswap: my way
Queen Toriel rules over her people with a stern and protective hand. She is old, older than the barrier, and she believes she knows how best to keep her people happy and healthy.
Here, the cameras are used to keep the citizens safe from crime and to make sure no one that's struggling gets overlooked. The monsters that are showing signs of Falling Down get the help they need from the Royal Caretakers, headed by Undyne, who do their best to make them hope again. The caretakers provide therapy and medicine as needed. Pills with a low level of determination are one of the latest breakthroughs on that front and so far seem to be fairly safe.
Citizen's well being is put above all else, even their privacy and sometimes even autonomy. It is not forbidden to show negative emotions or be rude towards others, but it's generally thought of as selfish and harmful to others around you, so monsters tend to keep it to themselves. After all, doing too many harmful things might land you in Caretaker's care, since getting better is mandatory under the Queen's orders. Nobody is getting left behind under her rule. And most monsters are alright with it, since they see the Queen's intentions are good and they got used to wearing cheery masks in public.
The few monsters dissatisfied with this state of things join the murderous Traitor in the Ruins of the old capital, all the way on the other side of hotland, or make their own little pockets of privacy where the eyes of the Queen can't reach.
The knowledge that the barrier can be broken has been lost to the years. Some might say it's a purposeful cover up on the side of the Queen to take away a reason for conflict between the monsters and any humans that may fall. Some might say the Queen decided that a prison could be a safe haven for her people. In any case, the peace held for the six human children that fell and spent their lives among the monsters, and it should have held for many more.
But then Chara fell, and they, along with the Queen's adopted child MK, heard of the old legends and chose to try and both free and protect everyone. They wished to show them all the Sun as it cast its rays on the golden flowers of the surface.
#jelly wrestles weasels#yes that'll be my writing tag from now on#underswap#undertale#this is like the third try at a general outline I did#how do people manage to write clearly????#you all writers are wizards#but ye#Alphys is in charge of the cameras and the defense systems in case either Asgore or some human decide to make trouble#tho one is more likely than the other#but we gotta keep people from the barrier so we gotta amp up the threat#UwU#I hope this all makes at least some semblance of sense#and if anyone wants some clarification on the events or motives or a detailed explanation of how some character fits into the story#feel free to ask!#I'll get to it#eventually...#headcanon#underswap headcanon#long post#?
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MADE A NEW PSD TODAY AND IT LOOKS GOOD ON FIVE AND NOW IM LIKE............................................... SIDE EYES MY WHOLE AESTHETIC..............................................................................................
#KDFBVDBFIBDK IM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 I LOVE DARK BLUES SO MUCH OKAY#ngl when i first remade i was like what if i made a pink/blue aesthetic that would be so //chefs kiss#then i was like oh but im lazy. and i had so many icons from my last blog that i never used and i wanted to use them so uwu#hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#dark blue and red are so sexy :///////#ooc.#jan makes psds.#that'll be my tag for that if u wanna blacklist !!
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would love to write a good and creative post here but the message would basically just be “I’m thinking about Yula and Koth and how happy they are together”
that’s all thanks
#SWTOR tag#they are on my mind and maybe I'll download the Sims on this computer just to get more OTP content#bc BioWacky hates Koth and I know they'll give me less and less of the romanc in later content so they can appease the edgelords#I block out the uwu edgelords who romance Lana Kenobi with my happy daydreams of tough Sith Warrior and her rebel boyfriend#actually in retrospect? v valid of me to romance Koth with a Sith Warrior#that'll stick it to the edgy fanboys
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#the moron is talking // ooc#tbd#just a headsup sorta? i posted it on my other blog but still#if you're hyped be hyped! but like. i'd deeply appreciate like. tagging both hype and the negativity that'll come#i mostly say this for my comfort and such? uwu
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WHERE YOU SHOW FAVORITISM DIFFERENTLY
aka you bully people to show love<3
just thought i would start something fun for the rebrand of this blog lmao and lately, sagau (this au has turned into a pretty broad term lemme know if i should tag it as smth else) has been ROTTING my brain i love the concept behind it
this is me being self indulgent because this is EXACTLY how i would act in genshin–im not a very nice person but i show my love differently
if you guys want more characters or want to request something else, feel free to send me an ask!
includes: gender-neutral reader w/ the main bois aka albedo, childe, diluc, kaeya, and zhongli!
want other characters? take a look
Albedo
at first he doesn’t even know you’re teasing him!!!! honestly he’s just glad you want to be around him at all
you probably call him “chalk boy” just to rile him up but he doesn't even care he's like uwu a nickname? for moi? like binch i'm trying to piss u off stop looking cute!!!!!
at most you're like a cat who tries to get his attention you're semi aware you're being an inconvenience but why won't he pay attention?? (he is but this is too fun) WHAT DID YOU DO???
you think he’s paying too much attention to his experiments? boom knock over a flask!!! he’s writing something down while you’re talking to him? my pencil now heheheh that'll show him!! whatever you say
your grace.,...,.,.,just ask him to talk to you
(no he can't know!!! my pride my dignity!!!!!!)
he thinks it’s cute–he probably even does it purpose because he’s a smart lil f*cker smh if you think you're so smart why aren't you looking at me?? HUH??? stupid head*ss go back to ur chem set binch
you probably say that more times than you can count like who does he think he is??? a GENIUS??!!! your grace...,,yes
be careful though! he isn’t afraid to tease back even if you are the creator! most people think of him as apathetic with no feelings but you see right through him
“Oh? Does their Grace believe my worship is not enough? I thought you liked it when I experiment. Then what else are you here for? Hm? You couldn't have come all the way up the mountain just to stare at me...right All-Creator?"
Childe
he loves it he wants all your attention!!! he doesn't care if it's "mean"!!!! <3
"their grace wants to tease...me?"
YES U HOMICIDAL MANIAC KEEP UP
if you like banter he's your harbinger!!!!!!!!!!!!
"damn ajax you didn't die today? :/"
"well your grace tomorrow is a new day :))"
if you fight you would banter during it and he probably is like probably *heart eyes*
if you aren't however
you, an all-powerful god: no ajax I'm not gonna fight you...
childe: coward smh didn't know the creator was such a loser :/
you: *glowing eyes of DEATH*
there is SO MUCH you can bully about this man
"ajax please.,.,.,that isn't how you hold a bow"
very much high school rivals who are secretly into each other vibe
he truly loves how fun you are which makes him worship you even more if that's possible
however if you team up with scaramouche he gets SO pissy it's insane like the both of you are UNSTOPPABLE it really is scary
and obviously the more he pouts the more you bully him like c'mon babe don't give me more ammo
"Your Grace! Please don't tell Scaramouche how I fell into the lake that one time! Oh? You did? Your Grace whatever shall I do with you? Fine, fine it is a funny story. However, would you like me to tell him how you warmed me up afterward?"
also consider:
you and him are interchangeable in this exchange it depends on the time of day lmao
Diluc
oh
ohohohooh
he is SO fun to tease
at first he would just let it happen with just an odd look on his face...can't upset the creator now can he?
for the first couple of times he probably truly thinks you don't like :/ he's used to hearing people call him grumpy
but after a while and the years he's spent with kaeya he finally realizes you mean no harm
"damn master diluc who made you so grumpy today? did someone tell you that your hair looks really messy today? :/ i mean it does but they didn't have to tell you to your face...how rude"
he just rolls his eyes and continues making drinks and then checks the mirror in the backroom when you're not looking does his hair look weird DOES IT???
honestly the patrons at angel's share have never seen diluc so calm and it's when the creator is bullying teasing him?? you really are the creator!
and oh boy when he realized you do it out of FAVORITISM?? he turns red whenever you tease him it's so cute
you could tease him how stupid his superhero name is or smth when he's doing his nightly duties and he'd act like you just gave him the biggest compliment ever
you: diluc you are so lucky that most of the knights are dumb as rocks because YOU are so stupid how has nobody figured out you're batman the darknight hero?? you barely even change your appearance? i bet you change your voice to seem lower to look cooler stars above i hate you
diluc, turning into a strawberry: im in love with u
after a while he'll tease you right back, we all know that man is a bundle of dry humor wrapped up in a coat and it'll leave you flustered every time
"Thank you, your Grace I'll take your suggestions of my after-dark identity into consideration. I consider myself blessed to have such a thoughtful and amenable God watching out for me. Are you this considerate to all of your loyal subjects or do you just give me your special attention? Should I get down on my knees and thank you properly?"
Kaeya
oh lord what a menace
right off the bat he sees right through he KNOWS you tease him because he likes you because he's exactly the same
you know "how 'bout it boss" line? yeah he probably calls you boss instead of something appropriate like your actual titles he wouldn't dare call you by your actual name though that is a privilege he does not deserve
honestly the two of you probably get into fake fights on purpose just for the drama of it all
"what kind of person let alone GOD forgets to blow out a candle? you could have burned the city down? i cannot believe our "all-loving" creator hates us so that they would do this"
"maybe if you stopped drinking and put away your tits this wouldn't have happened...were you so drunk last night that you couldn't have done it yourself?"
he would probably joke that your "old world" didnt want you and spat you out to teyvat and you're like "you know what? you're probably right lmao"
he'd laugh it off and so would you but on the inside he's like did i offend them?? oh my god kaeya what the F*CK??? was that too far??? what is wrong with you????????
the knights would be MORTIFIED by the way he speaks to you
one day however a knight tries to tease you and kaeya goes OFF absolutely bonkers
he can tease you but no one else he's a bit jealous/protective
you tease him more if you find out
"Hm? Of course, I defended your honor, Boss. We can't have people thinking they can go about slandering our good creator's name. Why, yes, I do tease you from time to time but that is only in good nature and a form of worship. If you want, however, I can show you a different way I worship you."
Zhongli
now i don't want to be stereotypical with mr zhongli here, but honestly you two look like an old married couple bickering
you know those ones at restaurants that are like "i hope i die soon so i dont have see your ugly face anymore" and the other one is like "yes yes go to hell honey anyways we'll share the soup <3"
yeah that's how it goes
people are still like "wow how cute" so like who cares lmao
he thinks it's very amusing whenever you're mean to him because most of the time it only happens around other people
like once you guys are alone it's sappy as hell and he wouldn't want it any other way except nobody believes him when he says how kind you and how you even cook for him from time to time
flame his *ss for never having mora while you're paying for everything he wants ok sugar baby zhongli
you and hu tao are absolutely the worst though please do not team up against him
he counters this though by pretending how honored he is that the all-creator picked him, a lowly humble man
he is VERY grateful and shows it but cmon..."lowly humble man"? stfu morax you used to eat gods for breakfast
zhongli: everyday i thank rex lapis for allowing this union between the creator and i. i do not know what i did to deserve his praise or their grace's...rex lapis truly is amazing
you: are you f*cking kidding me
all in all though it is very cute he would be saying how pretty you look today and kisses your hand and meanwhile you're blushing super badly and you're like "you're ugly and i hate you"
he responds with a smug lil smile every time that makes you want to punch him
"Well, your grace, as much as I enjoy your teasing and vice versa, just know that I mean every word when I say how grateful I am for you to bless me with your companionship. I will gladly be the brunt of every scathing joke you make if it means I can hear your lovely voice."
#genshin#genshin impact#sagau#zhongli x reader#diluc x reader#kaeya x reader#albedo x reader#childe x reader#tartaglia x reader#lady writes#genshin impact headcanons#self aware au#self aware genshin
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thank you @nikiforova Gaby for tagging me :D
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