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can i just say. and this is probably a niche hill to die on. that i am so gobsmacked every time someone vaguely hints at the idea that jotaro doesn't care meaningfully for the other crusaders, usually particularly kakyoin and joseph, when those two actually tend to be the ones he reacts to being hurt the hardest
like he cares for his loved ones!!!! that literally plays into his character motives in every single part he shows up in!!! stop lying to me!!!!!!!
#me.txt#jjba#i'm going to ramble in tags actually. excuse me#ok. rereading sdc and so confused at the general perception of jotaro and his friends/family. he's not NEARLY as flat or as dickish#i understand that the anime (particularly the dub) tends to slander him but even then he still clearly cares for them! i'm confused#i also understand that a lot of people dig against jotaro and kakyoin as a dynamic because 'they're popular' and that generally disliking#popular things across media is a thing that i've seen consistently everywhere but the discredit to them simply as a DUO and not even as a#pairing is so..... odd..... like they're considered to be a duo that clicks for a reason. i enjoyed them even before i got into the fandom#every time i see someone say jotaro is overrated/dull i take a shot and assume they're an anime-only or only read the manga like once btw#joseph and jotaro also have a neat dynamic and they obviously both love and care for each other. like they're not going to go around loudly#or anything but literally the entirety of the lovers and the prelude to the dio fight IS jotaro being worked up over joseph getting hurt#equally i don't know if it translates to the anime as much but joseph is VERY complimentary when it comes to jotaro. like he sings his#praises so often and reminds everyone that he's his grandson so frequently (d'arby the gamer is a good example of this). either way it's so#peculiar....... there's not enough avdol and jotaro content btw (also in canon) because jotaro obviously looks up to him and avdol jokes#around with him on the occasion they interact after their intro which doesn't start very well. it's very cute#i do think an important thing to note about jotaro's character is how he acts AFTER his intro because he's so drastically different. early#jotaro and later jotaro aren't the same character and i do not mean this in a character development way. excluding the jail incident he's#completely different and probably shouldn't really be taken into account (especially considering the amount of slapstick in araki's intros)#and i think that's really???? what people center on for his character? Which sucks balls bad!#anyways. i could ramble more about this if asked i have so much to say but sigh. jotaro cares so much for his friends and family he's not a#flat fully cold asshole character regardless of whether you watch the anime or ova or read the manga. you just have poor media literacy#i wouldn't recommend watching solely the anime for his character though. the dub also changes a lot so it's... questionable#i love the anime and it's still important for him though. also adds neat stuff. i need to stop myself. i have many thoughts on the matter#jotaro kujo#joseph joestar#noriaki kakyoin#adding in case anyone sees: i am not saying that he is perfect about this. in fact he is very ass about it with jolyne and holly and that's#very important. he also is in fact an asshole sometimes. NOT as much as you guys are making him though!#please don't get me started on how much of a dick etc people make kakyoin to veer away from the 'woobified' characterizations of him#in fact i think that's bad if not worse because it CLAIMS to be in character. hes a prim asshole at times but not that angry or dishevelled
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6/11 • Day 3 • Celebration
I Think We Might Be Friends -- Level 40 Convo, featuring my Summoner, Moe! (Uses it/it's pronouns!)
Aka what happens when a mirror reflects a mirror. But like with one of those funhouse mirrors that distort your image. Wouldn't that be fucked up or what
Also also just. Sharena bestie you have me BEWILDERED. I remember so distinctly when I got her 40 convo, waayy back before I had a good read on her character... it struck me, stuck with me for years. I think I finally understand, now, though.
Some close ups of my fave shots!
Also! Coloring this was a last-minute impulse decision, which thankfully paid off! I was sooooo scared though ESP of not making time after. ALL OF THIS TIME. So I took pics beforehand too!
With... kind of inconsistent lighting LMFAO 🧍 I feel like this version has a nice effect too, but! It was important to me to show Moe in full-color, here. Similar, but in opposite directions...
@sharenaweek
#sharenaweek2024#fire emblem#feh#i understand why animation errors occur now. if you notice any wonkiness no you didn't LMFAOOO#THSI WAS..... SUUUUUUCH AN EXPERIENCE THOUGH ........ and i've been WANTING to do this FOR YEARS TBH#she threw me for a loop SO SEVERELY in the beginning. and it just Stuck w me.#what they don't tell you is sharena has a front she wants you to fall for too. but she doesn't even realize she does it...#and i think that's a huge difference between her and al and her and moe. those two are extremely intentional.#sharena... i just get the sense she's desperately trying to just get something to work.#like to me. she's got a case of autistic masking so severe it's hard to see her under there.#but she's trying SO hard. to be herself. but bc of that masking... even though she's devastatingly sincere#she doesn't come off that way. which is why she's so hard to read. why some things feel forced.#why sometimes she comes off disingenuous when like. she couldn't be more genuine if she tried.#which is why she has/had so much trouble making connections esp early on. why her ties would look different than alfonse's#LIKE. v hc territory LMFAO but like. i feel like her character finally clicked for me when i realized#oh. she has trouble making friends too.#sharena#moe tag#summoner oc#my art#my comics
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its past midnight and time to yap about Mouthwashing. Anyway obviously we don't see the Specific Events only how the characters react but with Anya... Okay I'm going to talk about the Sexual Assault not with Specific Details but that's what the post is about so
Anyways she reads to me as very like... trying to downplay the severity to herself. Like thinking through it (not having the exact quotes but) I feel like it'd be an unfortunately natural reaction- if you were stuck with 4 guys and the guy with the second highest position on the ship assaulted you depending on the situation. I feel like its not hard to imagine you'd try and reframe it as Less Bad to cope because let me be honest if I had to confront the implications of that, mainly the fact he could do it again and I wouldn't have any real way of dealing with it without complicating things even further bc he doesn't just have a close relationship with the guy with the Most Power on the ship, he also is in charge of keeping Me and The Other People On The Ship Safe, i would be in deep denial just to not lose my god damn mind like thats so fucking scary. And then the implication you tried to talk to the captain and even if he wasn't cruel he didn't Understand the Severity of what you were suggesting is like. Besides feeling afraid it could genuinely really fuck with my own perception bc like "if this guy who I trust says he's not a bad person maybe I'm just overreacting?" is. Again unfortunately understandable.
And again I'll say that Anya fully breaks down when the news breaks that pony express is fucked and like. 1. I think that's related to her own finances (and also. Literally just realized the way an abortion could interact badly with "no savings" like I Just Processed that fact. Like I knew "oh if she couldn't abort having to support a child wouldn't just be traumatic but also fucking nightmarish finance wise" but even having an abortion could make things so much harder.) 2. Jimmy LASHES OUT at Curly OPENLY. again based on my interpretation of Mildly In Denial To Cope this would. Like. Really fuck with that because it goes from "I trust the captain and I don't want to be afraid of my crewmate for a year" to "oh he is willing to verbally abuse the captain, who is his friend" and realizing I wasn't overreacting.
I also wanna point to the dead pixel conversation and obv it's symbolic but idk if it's meant as "there's a dead pixel that Anya noticed and she's using the topic to like test the waters" or if it's "anya is literally just trying to figure out Curly's thought process" which isn't like super important but like. Focusing on the way she starts the conversation by saying that she "Likes the illusion the screen has". (I don't remember the exact words sorry) But that's really interesting to me bc obviously you can read into Curly not seeing the dead pixel and instead focusing on the bigger picture (and how the dead pixel "doesn't ruin the illusion") but I think it's really interesting that Anya starts by talking Positively about the screen even though the dead pixel is there (and she can't stop thinking about it)
Like thinking through implications option 1: she's talking about the screen and uses the dead pixel to get a feel for how Curly responds to her bringing up issues
2: she's being entirely metaphorical and still trying to sort of self soothe- seeking external validation that the dead pixel Isn't Actually That Big A Deal (and therefore she's just overthinking)
3: idk how to phrase this exactly but ppl have talked Abt the way she talks to Jimmy, how it indicates a sort of "Fawn" response where she tries to keep him calm with compliments and stuff, and her talking about "enjoying the illusion" is her trying to do something similar with Curly- essentially starting the metaphor by downplaying the issue
Anyway. I don't know if I have a full conclusion but another thing is I think ppl need to acknowledge that while Curly fucked up and harmed Anya (mainly thru inaction). He's not uniquely shitty. Most people will be in a situation where they act similarly, and that DOES NOT JUSTIFY HIS ACTIONS. I AM NOT SAYING CURLY IS ANY BETTER. I am saying that you need to be able to recognize your capacity for harm thru inaction and understand that like. He's not uniquely terrible he's just Normal Levels Of Unhelpful, which in a situation like Anya's is Dangerous
Like. Basically you can say "fuck jimmy fuck curly" all you want but you need to be able to understand that everyone including yourself has the same capacity for harm
#Mouthwashing spoilers#Rape ment#SA ment#Ask to tag#Idk I will say with the Anya thing: I'm a little bit speaking from personal experience#Of. There are things that I think about like ''ppl say These Things (that I experienced) are Very Bad but I don't think that's the case#For me'' like. Not consciously ''oh I'm over reacting'' but more ''well maybe my situation is different'' and it's really hard to figure ou#How much of that is genuinely the case and how much is denial y'know. 👍#Also Curly is a trans guy to me bc I'm hungry for characters who are trans men and just as culpable of willful ignorance and harm#As cis men. Anyway if anyone has a diff take on Anya's situation and)or mindset I'm open to hear it this is just my thoughts#Based on how the scenes read to me.#Also like the situation is delicate and this isn't like A Perfect Fix but genuinely Curly should've given Anya the gun#I don't think she would've shot it but it works as a Defensive Threat in a way that would give her security and also deter jimmy from being#A fucking problem because he doesn't experience consequences for his actions due to a mix of Captain's Friend and#''we can't really do shit to him or we lose our co-pilot'' (even tho he fucking sucks at his job they don't learn that until he#Is The Captain so they likely assume he's at least fucking. Functional and they would be worse off with him out of commission. Y'know)#But then again Jimmy's allergic to responsibility and consequences to the point of murder suicide so maybe Anya wouldve had to shoot him#Idk. Imagine me pacing full of rage. Imagining a universe where Anya can just fucking go to med school and doesn't have to deal with#The pony express. FUCK THE PONY EXPRESS
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Always a Price (Ascended!Astarion & evil!Tav)
also on AO3
SUMMARY :
They didn't always agree but there was one thing that could always unite them - power. They both sought power for the betterment of their lives and the empire they were considering building together. But what happens when one's quest for power could lead to the other's doom?
Standing a short distance from the platform, Gan watched as the smaller runes around the room began glowing in preparation as Astarion centered himself in the runic circle on the ground before Cazador’s coffin. A bit ironic how Cazador had planned to start a new phase of life in this dungeon but instead it will be his grave. Gale and Shadowheart had departed the dungeon long ago while Gan served as Astarion’s eyes as he meticulously carved the infernal writing into his former master and tormentor’s back. They voiced their objections to what was about to transpire, pleaded with them to consider all the souls they were condemning to tragic fates but were ignored by the duo.
Preparations finished and Cazador suspended in the same spot he’d flung Astarion into earlier, everything was finally ready to come together. Weapons firmly in their hands, they watched as the giant rune on the floor and staff in his hand began to glow the same crimson red as the bodies situated around the arena. They remained alert, ready to strike in case things began to sour. He'd made them promise that they would stake him if there was any hint the rite was killing him. Gan swallowed the small lump forming in their throat and nodded affirmatively. They didn't want to think about what would happen if everything the two of them had been working towards would unravel so they held fast to believing it would work.
Their thoughts came back to the present as Astarion began chanting the phrases from the ancient scroll. Blood curdling shrieks began ringing out followed just as quickly by juicy pops of viscera dropping from all the vessels formerly known as bodies. As he continued to chant and more screams rang out from the others that were kept in the dungeon, Gan’s head began to ache. What started as a mild pulse became throbbing pain as the ritual continued, bringing Gan down on a knee. One last rap of the staff and the chanting stopped, the pain that radiated from the top of their head to the base of their skull began to subside, granting them much needed respite. Still clutching tightly to the dagger in one of their hands, struggling to stand, they finally raised their head only to find Astarion standing before them. They were unsure if it was the pain or something else entirely but they hadn’t noticed that he’d made the distance from the coffin to the pillar so silently. From where they were, he seemed as tall as a tree looming over the forest underbrush. Gan breathed a sigh of relief, expecting him to reach his hand out to help them upright, when they suddenly found themself disarmed and gasping for air. Astarion had grabbed them by the throat, fangs bared, eyeing them as if they were his next treat. Gan swatted at his shoulders as their feet kicked desperate to be on the ground again. With a smirk and a slight tilt of his head, he looked at them. Gan had looked in his eyes many times before this moment and they couldn't recall a time his gaze had been more unnerving. He stared at them, hand still firm around their throat as his free arm curled under them, bringing their body to rest on the ground. Gan tried to focus and muster what energy they could to feel around for their weapon. Though Bloodlust was no ordinary weapon, they weren’t sure if they would even be able to kill him now. Even faced with dire odds, they'd still try before it was all over.
Kneeling beside them, Astarion leaned over and started slowly grazing their cheek with the tip of his black nail.
"I couldn't have done this without you, darling one."
Gan thought they’d heard a hint of tenderness in his voice at the end there, yet despite his tone, his hand remained in a tight grip around their throat. He tilted their head slightly, barely relieving the pressure he'd been exerting and exposed some of their neck to him. This was nothing like the few times they'd willingly bared themself to allow him to feed upon them. This seemed sinister. Against their will and at his whim.
Their free hand gently grabbed at his wrist, desperate to get his attention. They couldn't tell what he was thinking for certain but they went into survival mode.
"..pl…please…" Gan managed to mutter, trying to remain calm.
"P…Plum…please…"
For a fraction of a second, his eyes softened at his pet name stumbling from their lips.
Astarion leaned closer and looked into their eyes.
" Aeternitas ," he remarked to them, his eyes poring over their face.
They'd spoken about what happens after Cazador, the tadpoles, the elder brain, everything. What would it mean for them…if there was going to be a them after. They had mostly aligned throughout their journey together but what would happen when he became a vampire ascendant and they were controlling a cult. Both desired power but neither wanted to consider what would happen should their goals and paths diverge. They'd left things at choosing each other and would come to terms with the day someone no longer did when faced with it.
Astarion loosened his grasp just slightly so Gan could speak with less strain.
It was just enough to let Gan cough a little in relief. Once it subsided, hopefully a bit of truth would bring him back to reality…or at least buy Gan some time.
"I already chose."
Astarion's eyes widened just slightly. Gan couldn't tell if it was surprise or disgust but they readied Bloodlust just out of sight. He released the grip on their throat but left his hand resting there. A slight breath of relief but they remained on their guard, Gan closed their eyes for a second to calm their heartbeat as much as they could. He could probably sense all of this now but they needed to steady themself. If this moment was going to be their last, they'd try to leave him with a parting gift to remember them by.
Instead Astarion shocked them, taking their cheeks in both hands and kissing them. A kiss that was insistent, greedy, and far stronger than it's ever been. It was nothing like the other times, not even post confession was like this. In this instance, it was almost like being absorbed…devoured. Astarion may not have been sinking his fangs into their neck but he was claiming them nonetheless. Gan surrendered just a little in hopes he would ease up. They needed him to come down from the intensity of the ritual or else Gan would be paying a price like the souls just moments before.
Their free hand came to rest at his chest and cautiously tried to get him to stop. Astarion eventually released them in his own time, pleased that they were sufficiently marked…for now. Gan remained there on the ground, watching as he stood up and looked around. A grin on his lips, twinkle in his eyes, and a renewed purpose in his stance. Just looking at him they could tell he was changed. Time would tell if Gan would regret this journey they agreed to join him on. Forever's a long time and power always has a price. Would either of them be willing to pay it? For each other? For themselves?
#Ilina Gavren#Gan#BG3 tav#evil Tav#Astarion#Ascended!Astarion#Ascended Astarion#Vampire Lord Astarion#otp: hand in despicable hand#Astarion x Tav#Astarion romance#BG3#BG3 spoilers#Baldur's Gate 3#Baldur's Gate 3 spoilers#razrogue writes#long post#tagging long in case read more doesn't work
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honestly my real opinion on ai is not even from an ethical standpoint. my opinion on ai is that because it isn't actually artificial intelligence that is a misnomer it's not intelligent and it doesn't think it is therefore just plain not good at most of what we're currently using it for outside of like hyperspecific applications that i know nothing about and never will. it simply can't do the job man.
#jack facts#and this isn't an argument about what constitutes ''real'' art either it's about technical skill#the ability to self correct; improve; make requested changes; do something that hasn't already been done before or do it in a new way; etc#it just. it can't do it. it can't do the job.#and like laymen using it to make fanart or oc art or whatever like i don't really care that much#like i absolutely think you're tacky and a big whiner and i don't respect you but i don't think you're A Bad Person#unless you're dishonest about it and trying to pass off ai as self-made in which case you're the same as someone who reposts imo#but like as far as like industry ai. like the ethics of usage are complicated but i honestly don't care because the stuff is garbage anyway#whether it's ''art'' or not it will never be skillful and it will never innovate. it is low quality and it is boring.#it can't not be low quality and boring. skilled and interesting are literally beyond its parameters that's just the facts.#so truly there is absolutely no point in using it for anything that requires skill or interest.#or like. representing concepts. expressing an idea etc. those things can't be replicated only shapes/color/letters can.#which is honestly part of the reason why i don't even have any interest in caring more about the ethical aspect#it's not going to last for very long because it doesn't work. it just doesn't work! it can't do that!#anyway.#reading process#writing process#soc
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The way qiu qingzhi/qiu shenji sees through lb instantly regardless of medium and yet still misses the most important part.
#the whole bit in the cdrama where they're discussing how well they know each other and qqz says he knows lb better than lb realises#and he's not wrong! but qqz still doesn't understand him /enough/ to avert everything. meanwhile lb does know qqz better than qqz realises#bc even when saying they're not friends lb still /believes/ in him or at least knows enough of him to know which accusations are false.#they both understand the other more than the other realises whilst still holding back from each other.#meanwhile in the manhua/donghua lb tries to reach out and hits a wall w/ qsj bc qsj understands the politics of this more than lb does#despite lb losing his family and distrusting the empress his sense of justice still makes him too easily to manipulate.#the tensions btwn minister xu + qsj had been stoked but qsj refused to rise to it (even w/o knowing the extent of bg manipulation)#but lb was the piece in the right position to fast track the 'investigation' not realising it could only ever lead to a rigged execution#in both cases everyone is trapped by something bigger than themselves. can only work w/n the framework that will lead to their doom.#it's just that only qsj/qqz is fully aware of it. lb doesn't yet comprehend. he thinks he does. but until qqz/qsj takes the hit he doesn't.#and qsj/qqz miscalculating wrt lb. reading his 'show' for what it is. but still missing the most important detail.#qsj/qqz fumbling the personal side bc of the politics whilst lb barges into the politics w/o fully reading the waves he's creating...#anyway don't mind me. just intensely glad the tag isn't dead even if the overlap of cdrama and manhua/donghua watchers is tiny.#white cat legend#white cat legend spoilers#<- for my own tags again
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Hey guys would you be curious if I said I have a story with a little deer ppl society. I made it with my first online friend a while ago :33
#💭 — ⌗nervo rambles . ♪ᝰ#I specifically love the protagonist of the story#his name is Frostedleaf#and he has a friend named Rosemary#(their relationship stays completely platonic throughout the story)#I don't have a title for the story but I have most of the main plot points figured out!!#I haven't worked on my stories in a while tho so maybe this will be the motivator I need#anyways yeah guys#btw Frostedleaf had reading glasses#and is very clumsy#Rose has to look out for him so he doesn't hurt himself like he always does#UGHHHH THIS IS REMINDING ME HOW MUCH I LOVE THESE TWO I CAN'T#they're my second favorite duo I've made but a very close first#the first is a ghost girl from the 1990s?? If I remember right????#maybe the 80s but either way she can play piano and then she befriends a guy who also plays piano and they solve her cold case together bc#the guy loves true crime and stuff (am I projecting? a little)#the ghost girl haunts the schools piano room where she was killed#I love that story sm I need to develop it more#I think it's my oldest story I've kept around
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i'm going to SCREAM
#tm#you don't get how UNHINGED this makes me it's SO#like he's been out all day trying to track down this missing kid (as part of her case too; to give her another avenue against volker)#and they have their little catch up and at first he's concerned (she's been at this all day and now into the night too#and he GETS it - in a way maybe other people wouldn't - but he doesn't want her to burn herself out; he wants her to be careful#maybe he's about to tell her a version of 'get some sleep')#but then she talks about amanda and it makes me NUTS because she does NOT ask for his help#she doesn't ask him to stay; to read the files with her; to 'burn the midnight oil' with her#she's just...stating her case; explaining why this means so much to her; and he listens; he takes it in; and he makes the choice to help#to sit in this with her and to help her work through it#and i just -- neither of them will ask the other for help (yes i know she did at the end of the last episode the context is different ok)#but they're both so quietly (and sometimes not so quietly) desperate to help each other it makes me sick#it's so interesting to see how they deal with this as the show goes on....idk how to explain it but like#when jane needs help he closes himself off; he keeps secrets and he schemes and he lies ('let me help you' 'you're sweet')#because he's trying to keep the people he cares about - the people he never planned on caring about as much as he does - safe#even as he shares more with lisbon (and sometimes the rest of the team) he still doesn't share everything#because that puts them at risk#and that's what lisbon used to do to - in the earlier seasons she put up walls when she felt vulnerable; and she still does in some cases#but with this case especially she's much more accepting of help - she relies on her team (not that she doesn't usually)#and she's practically an open book to jane - in this scene most of all - she lets herself be more vulnerable#(and open to suggestions/ideas she might otherwise scoff at or reject)#idk idk it's very interesting but this scene makes me so wacky there's something so soft and tender and understanding about it#the way there's no spoken acknowledgement - no 'i'll help' or 'thank you' - just the silent understanding that they're in this together#because they're partners#(also the way he picks at the rest of her food - the 'done with this?' the only thing they say - and the framing through the window#is still somehow very domestic it's like my perfect scene)#spinning my wheels hard i'm not thinking clearly i just love everything about it
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i think you might just need to go outside
you're the one who sent three anonymous messages to a stranger on the internet about a reddit sub full of ao3 fans about something she posted two years ago anon so idk maybe I'm not the one who needs to log off
#further rebuttals: you don't know me or my life and you're an anonymous stranger so??? what do I care what you think#I literally came off last week from a six-day vacation and I go birding regularly. I read and critique fanfic bc I love it#it's a genuine passion of mine and I take it seriously. and that includes criticizing#I do spend a lot of time online but at least I don't send condescending and presumptuous messages to perfect strangers on the internet#implying that they should be embarrassed about something based on the judgement of a group of people whose moral standards#they truly could not give less of a shit about#I think you may be more invested in this than me anon. I will go through my week pleased by this news#you though. seem bothered. find peace#also work on your ableism yeah? calling people weird (derogatory) and telling them to go outside isn't where it's at#best case scenario it just doesn't work. worst case scenario you look like a piece of shit to a chronically ill or agoraphobic person#and as established. you literally do not know me or my life#Anonymous#asks
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Saw certain tweets and here once again a reminder which a twt mutual luckily wrote shorter than I could (plus public so I can rb bc no way I do that myself on that site)
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And if you want smth I wrote myself which is longer and not just abt that here you go
#a wild lux appears#I think they're one mutual who is fine w being screenshotted ik some don't want that#I wrote that bsky thing while waiting for food. Reg the fellow person I talk abt don't bash ppl that already spoke up and stop for a bit#To rb more later. Or ppl that still go to work bc they can't afford not to bc the thing by these actions is community isn't there as net#Or like anyone that shows they care and didn't do anything harmful and just take recharge time or so#Educate willing(!) ppl nicely and don't bash them or send a internet mob to them etc#The ones posting they still go to/buy boycott stuff yeah they're awful but what does bashing them bring at the end of the day#Don't support those ppl yeah but them posting that shows how much they care for it. They prob just want cloud which you give them.#Pressure ppl in power in a way they can't ignore focus on that not no name individuals#If ppl you know talk in private and if they don't want to change literally just cut them out of your life if possible#Online just block. Don't argue w people that just want to stir smth up etc etc#Also I don't think it's too productive to be mad when a standard user anywhere doesn't share stuff. Like yeah give them info abt that but#some either just do smth offline (in that case maybe tell them in this case just sharing online is also helpful) or are mentally too done#and focus all energy to survive (which is intended by the ppl in power. make ppl so done they only have energy to survive themselves so they#don't have energy to speak up abt problems in the world). Bashing famous ppl is completely different bc backlash actually brings smth there.#More ppl could do more if strike organizations would include community care so more actually could not go to work/shopping#Also reg protests so they should know do you know how many don't watch news anymore (I don't watch tv since many years)#I'm sure some also just can't esp younger ppl if they're parents monitor their socials and are zionists#Ofc speak up. I'm just here to say there are explanations. If they read things and still don't care unfollow/block/mute/idc or if you know#Them talk and explain how if is important they speak up#This has been going on for a good while now idk how many still don't know I am mostly pointing that out for new or not as much shared things#Tho I'm sure many don't know bc the standard response is the gov knows what he does and they do propaganda#They think surely the gov takes care of that. If they shut down convos reg that then that is dangerous denialism and living in escapism n#All. Not if the ppl who follow this need a break w fiction or so. I am sure the ppl you try to reach w bashing already muted/blocked all#accs and words associated w that#Anyways I gotta shower now. Disclaimer my personal opinion be an asshole and it's block on sight yada yada.#I just woke up I'm hungry I need to shower but that is also when I decide to share my pieces so
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Murdock has a dream. :) The kind of dream that has... consequences upon waking.
A/N: Uhhh yeah don’t look at me again lmao. I have decided I shouldn’t be let near a keyboard.
558 words. Kitten as a pet name. No pronouns for reader. Reader isn't physically present.
MINORS DNI
Murdock wakes up in a sweat, heart pounding and eyes rolling back into his head. His hand is already on his bare cock, throbbing and rock hard, before he registers what he's doing. In his confusion, he clings to the remnants of his dream, dredging up details bit by bit.
Your lips, hot and wet on his neck, trailing a path upwards. Little bites more implied than felt. The weight of you heavy on his crotch.
A moan pulls from him, deep and rumbling as he forces himself to slow down, his pace a bit too fast, too desperate. Not yet.
Pre lies sticky on his thigh, coats his length. Murdock has half a mind to reach for his lube, but with the amount spilling over his fingers, he might not need it tonight.
Your little smirk as you leaned in to kiss him, turning into your breath washing over the column of his neck. The way you rolled your hips to make him hard. How you moaned his name the way he hoped you would—
His hips stutter, and he kicks off the blankets, the fresh air chilling him, but that doesn’t matter to him right now as he pumps his hand, imagining it’s you, wishing—no, needing it to be you.
He swears you sank down onto him, took his cock inch by inch until he was flush inside you, throwing your head back in bliss as he stretched you so perfectly—
Murdock moans louder this time, unabashedly, thrusting up into his fist. He might be pulling from his own fantasies now instead of just his dream, but in his tired, aroused state, it doesn’t matter to him.
Oh how you’d whimper for him, beg for him to take you, to claim what is his—
“That’s it,” Murdock hisses to himself, eyes screwed shut. “That’s a good kitten—”
Heavy breathing and the sound of natural slickness fills the air, once more growing faster, more eager.
“That’s it. Take it. Take my cum. Needy thing.” He groans, low and long. “Fuck. I’m gonna fill you up—” He chuckles, its usual sharpness dulled by the threat of sleep. “I’m going to fill you up with my cum—”
“Please,” he imagines you begging breathlessly, “oh fuck, please—!”
It’s the thought of your pleading eyes, your desperation, your need matching his that sends him over the edge, eyes rolling again as he groans, his cum easily shooting up over his fist as he fucks it through his orgasm. It lands on his stomach, even up by his chest, and, despite his best efforts, on his sheets. He doesn’t stop until his muscles quit rippling and it almost hurts to touch himself. Still, he gingerly, lazily pumps himself, imagining how you’d be sent on your own spiral, twitching above him before collapsing on his chest. He laughs, a lavacious smile spreading over his face. No more would his seed go to waste on his fingers and bed.
Murdock lifts his hand and spreads his fingers, watching himself drip from the digits. One day. One day it will be more than just a vivid dream that frustrates him in the night. One day he won’t have to fantasize about you taking him deep.
One day, you will be his. But patience is key…and patience is something he has much of.
Murdock stretches over for some tissues, cleaning up just enough so he can pull the sheets back over his nude body. He smirks, rolling onto his side, and falls into a satisfied slumber.
#murdock x reader#x reader#gender neutral reader#lemon#minors dni#yeah i shouldnt be let near a keyboard at a time like this sbshsjks#I've scheduled this cuz i needed to space out my writing in case i go for another long stretch#even tho i didnt schedule it nearly as far out as i could have#hopefully this read more thing works and doesn't backfire in getting people to see and read it#(the correct people obviously cuz NO MINORS)
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Been reading a bunch of thrillers recently and what if cm fic with Penny as the main character just experiencing as much of that as my angst adverse heart can take? More on this when my brain allows it
#I'm thinking we get heck flirty Derek and Penelope#friends with feelings penemily#spencer/penelope besties#awkward Derek Spencer dynamic as they realise feelings because Derek flirts so heavily with Penelope and doesn't know how to flirt w/Spencer#and Penelope is watching this all happen like 'aw my sweet little idiots'#but at the same time she's becoming more and more unsettled by Events#and she's trying so hard to be cool about it#and they're working on a case (have been for a while bc it's slow and on the backburner) that starts to feel a little too#uncanny#a little too relatable#and now she feels like an idiot because she hasn't told the team and she should know better that's ao stupid of her#but when she goes to bring it up with anyone she feels like she's being silly and drawing their scary work into her daily life#and maybe she just needs to Chill Out#but also maybe she tells Emily and asks her to keep her fear secret bc she feels stupid and it's all probably fine#and Emily earns her trust by doing so#but at what cost?#god I want to read it and it's devastating I have to write it first
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.havign lots of thoughts about how npcs are portrayed learning about the nature of their universe in works
#.most of the feelings were thrown onto evan since like. i dunno feels like a lot of the works like that write the npcs as fi the npcs-#.are actually people from outside the game transported into the game and have points of refrence about this whole thing and react how ''rea#.people'' would react to learning that they were inside a video game#.when really the npcs would prolly react closer to just going yea okay. since that's their world. they have no other world. that's their#.universe. and now they ave a little bit more info about their own universe#.yea they could have an existencial crisis if they knew what it means but also like#.''ooooh that means that i'm not real'' uhm. yea they are. they still are. that world is real from their perspective and continues to be#.real even after the learn about this#.from OUR perspective they aren't! but from theirs? yea! they are!#.also it9 s not like they would instantly know everything about how video games work even if they had no prior knwledge of that#.why would they try to change the fact that they're made out of lines of code#.that's like being mad and wanting to change the fact that they're made out of atoms#.except in their case it's ones and zeros in a computer#.PLUS!!!!!!!!! IN SOME CASES!!!!!!!!!! MAYBE THEY DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT VIDEO GAMES OR COMPUTERS ARE!!!!!!!!!!#.IT ALL DEPENDS ON WHAT SORT OF WORLD THE VIDEO GAME PORTRAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#.IF THE WORLD HAS COMPUTERS IN THERE THEN THEY KNOW A LITTLE BIT MORE!#.IF THE WORLD IS MEDIVAL THEY WOULDN'T FUCKING KNOW SHIT!#.once again pointing at evan and how we threw bunch of our feelings about this onto her#.since like he grew up in a world post combine invasion and like. technoglogy isn't really the best#.like barely anyone has any access to it other than the combine and all that jazz#.so she doesn't know what video games are. maybe has heard of what computers are#.she learned about being in a video game but to him that's the same as learning how our solar system travels through the galaxy and physics#.it's just another little detail about the world thta may explain some things. or maybe it doesn't#.when facing with her code she sees it as her dna. yea she's reading it but she deson't understand a thing in it#.maybe some fragments maybe not#.just like how everyday people wouldn't know how to interpert dna if they already haven't studied about that subject#.and when him getting corrupted. she doesn't know what happened. he just knows that something did. but she can't do anything about it#.and instead just learn how to navigate the world with more difficulties#.like how one would with a pernament injury
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OF COURSE the jury president for my candidacy exam is a magnetic materials guy
#magnetism is my worst subject. i STRUGGLED in physics e&m#and he's not going to know anything about the materials im working on (cement) so there's a good chance his questions will focus on what#he's familiar with (magnetism) which he can get to via the technique im using (nmr)#so it's all fair game for him to ask. he can worm his way into the question of 'why does a moving charge induce a magnetic field'#if he wanted to#hopefully he's chill and only asks relevant questions#like it's within his right to ask questions like that so my job is to be as minimally annoying as possible so he doesn't#want to make me sweat#im already reading through all ~100 papers i cited in my proposal in case they ask about any of those#but now i need to learn more about magnetism. just in case he asks. and he could very well ask about all the basics of how the spectroscopy#works. which i know fairly well but just enough that i can probably explain it but would prefer not to#rays european hot girl phd#im ready to be DONE WITH THIS#the exam is in like a week and a half
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Once had someone I know laugh at me because "read" is pronounced "reed" not "red" (trying to convey what I mean in text with similar sounding words here, you know?)
Now... you may notice that he was, in fact, a complete buffoon
Also worth mentioning that he pronounced "totem" like "tow-um"... also told me that wireless chargers didn't exist in like 2018 (despite being a self styled tech genius), which is less relevant here but I think helps paint the picture
Anyway, I was typing "red" and my fingers wrote "read" and I was like you're not wrong but also no, and I was reminded of this while I was tossing around ideas about "Red is read red" as some dumb post to make
Take away is max was an utterly self centered arrogant ass with rich parents who acted like he was some kind of ultra genius while being a damn fool... and now that I think of it also had a real hard on for elon musk cause he recognized what a brilliant person he is; which is all to say there's many many many many many reasons I don't talk to max anymore
#if you ever wonder why I don't capitalize some names the answer is simple; it's to show I don't respect that person#this doesn't apply to usernames since those are often all lower case#like if I talk about Doug the mayor; I very much respect him so it's capitalized; but if I talk about most politicians it's lower case#you; whoever's reading this; would almost certainly be capitalized because I respect everyone unless given a reason not to#but max... max has given me many many reasons not to respect him#such as laughing about how people still needed to pay rent no matter what when the pandemic hit#and not at all thinking about the fact that he could work remotely was a blessing he should be grateful for#and not to spit on his neighbors out of arrogance; that it was fortune not personal brilliance that got him this#behavior like that tanks my respect to the point where he's max and not Max#trust me; the more I told you the less you'd like him... and the saddest part is there's a decent person somewhere inside him#or there was once; it's obvious that person's never coming out again
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Listen, I write for myself. If y'all wanna show up to the puppet show then come on in, but I don't need an audience.
#I think it's pretty obvious considering my pairings that idgf#getting love from people is a bonus#I know this has all been said to death but people still need to hear it#you can't just expect or demand love#it doesn't work like that#love yourself love your passions and your work#and eventually someone might send you some love too#I believe in a lot of cases the lack of feedback or “love” may be caused by not marketing your work#when I was active in discord and posting my fics there I got a lot more feedback than just posting to ao3 or tumblr#I honestly do believe it's a bit unfair to expect people to give you validation - validation is lovely but you shouldn't expect it#I haven't met a single person who has given a comment on every fic they enjoyed nor have I ever expected my friends to read all my stuff#not to mention strangers#imagine if every person expected that? exhausting#I think it's more fair to expect people to at least enjoy their own work to the point where the feedback doesn't matter#and if you absolutely want feedback then YOU yes YOU need to actively reach out for feedback - find a beta or space to discuss with others#I even heard that people are refusing to finish works because of bad comments#um ok? why?#because it demotivated you is what I'll be told#well that sucks but if it does and you stop doesn't it mean that person sort of won?#they demotivated you. they stopped you. they defeated you. shut down your fic. the thing that THEY didn't like#and of course that is totally your decision#but what about the readers who are enjoying it? ones who may not be even saying anything? or even future readers!#I have commented on fics from like 2010 and GOT RESPONSES - so don't discount those future readers - some may not have even been born yet!#like yeah these stories are for me#but I still want to throw the puppet show#because I love doing this and maybe#someone else will too#but I don't need to know about it#twotalestalks
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