#< can't believe i nearly forgot to actually tag for that

[mistytpednaem]

that's cool, random empty blog who saw it fit to respond to a post i only tagged for spoilers and a cw. you are correct, they were also sexually assaulted. hold on i am receiving a very long fax detailing all the times lucy steel and yasuho were in some form of sexual peril

[ima-ghost-art]

Here he is!

The one

The only

Husband and Romance Partner to Cody Walsh himself

LOOSE BARON!!!

he's not exactly how I planned but I'm not going back to change it now lol

made sure to add the oogie boogie tattoo that made Cody fall inlove with him too lmao

[florenceafternoon]

━。゜✿ jily fic recommendations ✿ ゜。━

Because I will never get tired of them, here are some more fic recs. These fics are set in the wizarding world but aren’t necessarily canon complaints.

For reference, anything in italics is an extract from the summaries on ao3.

Never Quite Awake by @sunshinemarauder 

“Endings are nothing unfamiliar to Lily Evans; she’s seen the ends of sisterhood, friendship, and innocence, all from miles away. But this is an end unlike any other. An end that was never supposed to happen.”

If to love someone once is to break their heart, to love them twice is to break yours.

Lily falls for James in her seventh year. But the couple are sent onto two diverging paths when a life-shattering altercation halts their burgeoning relationship. Five years later, she's a curse breaker and he is a soldier.

When they meet again, it feels like coming home.

All the angst that comes with a jily second chance romance that takes place during wartime. A fake dating subplot, cursebreaker!Lily, pining!James. What more could you want. France (country) - a relevant tag

Through The Rain by @bookeatingbean

James and Lily's first kiss, and the story behind it. There's some fluff, some character study, and some good old-fashioned angst.

If you're looking for a character study that shows how they grew up through their school years. This fic shows you that Lily was not a perfect person and James was a bully for the sake of it but he grew to understand that the world does not revolve around him and strives to do better. Or Lily is stubborn and James is the definition of a ride-or-die

It's been a long time by writtenbyfreckles (on ao3)

It's been ten years since Lily left Hogwarts. She's returned to England to work as a Healer on the "ward of the wacky", only to find home isn't as safe as she thought it was. An attack leaves her locked in a ward with her patients, a bunch of Death Eaters and an Auror she hasn't seen for a long time.

I need more cannon divergence Auror!James and Healer!Lily

The Guide To Becoming A Better Man For Lily Evans by @padfootswhiskers

prompt: I decided to walk outside shirtless (accidentally) but I forgot it's winter and why're you screaming at me like that? And oh gosh, you're very pretty.

lingering days, short-lived nights by letthebookbegin (on ao3)

The summer before seventh year, James is desperately trying to think of anything but Lily, who's burrowed her way into his mind and looks quite comfortable there.

The summer before seventh year, Lily is craving a distraction. Avoiding her sister, she picks an ice cream shop for shelter.

At the end of a long summer day, their paths cross - and the rest, as they say, is history.

Ties That Bind by @charmsandtealeaves

Lily Evans grew up with old wives tales about soul mates, but she'd never put much stock in the idea. Not until after she learned about the world of magic and the fact that soul bonds were a thing that actually existed. Which makes these strange new feelings and experiences that much more difficult to manage.

So I read this a while ago but stupidly forgot to bookmark it and then I spent nearly an hour trying to find it again. Needless to say, I ADORE this fic and you should all go read it. Like, right now. Then come back here to talk to me about it.

Lily Evans Doesn't Believe In I Love You's also by @/ charmsandtealeaves

“Did you hear Lily Evans doesn’t believe in I love you's?”

It wasn’t exactly a secret. But no one knew why, until she decided to share a bottle of fire whiskey in the astronomy tower with James Potter.

Same Lily, same

Meet Me At The River also by @/ charmsandtealeaves

A chance encounter with a misplaced owl leads to a correspondence between pen pals. Lily confides in her mysterious Flea and finds herself falling along the way.

I can't remember if I've recommended this one already, but even if I have I'll rec it again because I love it so much!!

Your Friend, James by @thelighthousestale

It is the summer before their 7th year, and Lily and James spend the entire holiday writing letters to each other as their relationship slowly changes from friends to something more.

Just the ending of this one is everything. James and Sirius are never beating the codependent allegations

Castling by @missgryffin

When they were still very young, Remus Lupin’s dad married Lily Evans’ mum. It changes everything.

Lily and Remus are like the little brother who got bullied and then found friends except he invited them over for the first time and they all act weird because they're mildly terrified of his older sister. Friends to lovers jily is only rivaled by academic rivals jily.

Just the Two of Us by @arianatwycross

Head Students James and Lily face a perilous twist when a malicious potion surfaces in hate mail directed at Lily. Dumbledore orders a week-long quarantine in the Head Students' suite. With unspoken crushes lingering, the duo navigates close quarters, leading to unexpected revelations, lingering looks and forehead kisses.

silence and patience, pining in anticipation by @kay-elle-cee

Lily’s been hung up on James for years; a tipsy conversation might be the push she needs to do something about it.

DRESS IS A JILY SONG FOREVER AND ALWAYS

The Devil in the Cloak Room by @chiechie97

Getting your heart broken when you’re 17 seems to alter your brain chemistry more than you would think. Which is the precise reason why Lily has no intention of reconnecting with the friends she lost at the end of school.

And besides, she has no chance of knowing anyone at the masked Halloween party her friend drags her to. Especially not the guy in the devil mask. Right?

Usually I rec complete works but this one is so good I had to include it

Deception and other ways to find love by @annasghosts

“I’ll be your fake girlfriend, Potter.” And this is how Lily Evans embarks on the adventure of (fake) dating her former Hogwarts nemesis (and crush, but ssssh, it’s a secret). Will she be able to keep her cool? Will he?

Class of '78 by @emeralddoeadeer

Class of 1978 Five Year Reunion - July 29th, 1983

Now is the time to look upon our shared experience, our similarities must unite us rather than letting our differences divide us. Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry invites the Graduating Class of 1978 to return to the castle for a weekend of reconnecting, reminiscing and recreation. We hope the passage of time has been kind to you all and look forward to welcoming you soon.

Professor Albus Dumbledore, Headmaster, Order of Merlin First Class, Grand Sorc, DWiz, X.J sorc, S of Mag Q

It's been five years since graduation, and while many things have changed, some things never will.

James Potter Won't Go Quietly by la_plus_heureuse (on ao3)

Lily Evans remembers plenty about James Potter from Hogwarts. But an assignment from Mojo Magazine to profile the Quidditch star turned activist makes her realize what she remembered was all wrong.

canon divergence staring quidditch player James and journalist Lily

On A Scale of One to Ten (requires an ao3 account) by @petalsinwoodvale

Lily starts falling for an insecure, yet charming auror named James who is recovering from injury in her ward. No one else on staff will sit and talk to him, mostly due to septic skin covering most of his upper torso. Lily, however, finds him charming and funny. Naturally, when James' injuries start healing, he grows more and more handsome. The other healers suddenly take interest in James, romantically ...

foxy by lizpaige (on ao3)

Lily joins the boys at the shrieking shack on a particularly difficult moon in her new animagus form.

Lily & Remus friendship is so special to me

[firedragon1321]

Oh boy. Here comes the hard part.

The next two kids are gonna be really tough to make meta for. Then we have Izzy (who's painfully easy), TK (gonna be tough to totally circumvent Matt, but doable) and Kari (oh boy...I have WORDS). But Joe/Mimi really only interact with Tai when there's no-one else around (like Princess Karaoke) so excuse any kerfuffles.

Though Joe does have more to talk about near the start of the series.

In the very beginning, Tai and Joe did interact more. Along with Matt, they were in the running for group leader. Tai has a take-charge, simple approach (i.e.- we're doing this right now) while Joe believes leadership is his responsibility as the eldest. What actually happened were fights where nothing got done, and someone else (usually Sora) had to scrape up the pieces. Notably, when Tai and Matt butted heads, it often fell down to Joe to untangle them.

They're two different styles of leadership- one based on action, the other on responsibility. Could Joe have been leader? Maybe. But he would have played it too safe, especially in the beginning. That would have worked for the first few episodes, where survival was the goal. Once "getting home alive" became "save two worlds", more risks were required. And that's where Tai's leadership style becomes the better option.

It's not that Joe can't take risks ever. Rather, he makes himself the only risk to protect the others, such as when he nearly drowned trying to save TK. Tai does this too against Piedmon. The rules of their leadership styles differ, but the core is the same.

As for their friendship? Eh. After the early leadership struggles, they only interact after a "let's split up gang". I do have to praise Adventure for splitting the group in awkward ways so we can see how each character interacts with every other.

(I didn't talk much about Princess Karaoke here because I need it for Mimi.)

Edit- Forgot to tag @taichiyagamiweek.

[roseofhybrids]

I don't know much about your Human Uzi au is it okay if you could give me a quick run down on it?

Also on a slightly unrelated note, check out this cool eyeball I drew.

A very nice eye indeed

First a small explanation. So it started off when @the-lost-lights had left an ask for another user I follow with the initial idea of a human version of Uzi living on Copper 9. This raised the question of how she managed to live on a frozen planet with poison air, and world building enthusiast that I am, I decided to offer up some ways the bunker could be made habitable. Since then, Lost Lights has been sending me more of their ideas for the AU. As such, I consider it more their AU than mine. All the ideas originate from them, and I then offer up possible ways those could play out, possible story consequences, ways things could be explained, et cetera.

Anyhow, it starts with that initial ask. Uzi is the last human on copper 9. The core collapsed when she was still just a baby, but she managed to survive the initial end. It was then that Khan and Nori happened upon her, and took her in as their own. With the help of Nori's solver powers, the two have been able to hide the fact that she's human from not only the colony, but from Uzi herself. And so the two drones raised their adoptive daughter in the bunker, with everyone else believing she was just another drone.

That is, until she became a teenager. And, as teens oft do, Uzi decided to go fight deadly monsters in the woods outside the bunker. She ventured out to try and stop the disassembly drones, only to encounter N and nearly get killed. But before he could land a killing blow, N realizes she's human. The disassembly drones were sent with the sole mission to destroy all rogue AI. So they have no idea what to do upon discovering a living human on Copper 9. And so, they begin a new secondary mission: Protect the human from the corrupted worker drones.

Thus, shenanigans ensue. Also, angst, angst also ensues. As Uzi grapples with the revelation that she's not actually a drone while trying to uncover the mystery of the strange occurrences surrounding her mom, Doll, the sky demons, and the core collapse.

Some extra details: I think this is all of them so far. Someone (me) forgot to tag them properly at first, so I had go on a little hunt.

Uzi has an existential crisis (canon-like body horror)

Disassembly drones as helicopter guard dogs (and Nori's dynamics with them)

N protects Uzi from drones, Uzi protects N from Khan

Nori tries to finish what Uzi started

You can't just kill a baby, Nori! (and Doll's adoption)

Humans are fragile (school, J Doorman, Doll gets grounded for murder)

Androids (and Nori casts Modify Memory)

It's just a cold, calm down

Fanlady ideas

Mommy issues hilarious

Odd one out in class

[mikibwrites]

WIP Thursday 🙃🙃🙃🙃 bc I love all y'all and @chaotictarlos replied to my post in two seconds so maybe there's some interest?? lol

They met and fell into bed together nearly every chance they got over the next two years. When it came time that Owen decided he could better serve the community by teaming up with Judd to increase the knowledge base hunters worked with, and when Iris’ sister Michelle came back from England and convinced Iris she wanted in, well. It made sense for Carlos to bid Iris a tearful–not permanent, they promised–goodbye and he and TK packed their combined arsenals into Carlos’ flashy Camaro–

“So fucking impractical, oh my god! It’s tiny, it doesn’t hold nearly enough in the trunk, and it’s distinctive as hell! How in the fuck do you manage to keep a low profile with this thing? The cops are bound to know you!”

“It’s fast,” was Carlos’ smug answer.

–and headed out on their own.

EDIT i can't believe i forgot to actually TAG people omfg: @carlos-in-glasses @alrightbuckaroo @lightningboltreader @bonheur-cafe @rachelsversion1 @lemonlyman-dotcom @sanjuwrites @chaotictarlos @paperstorm @welcometololaland @herefortarlos and anyone else who hasn't shared yet even tho it was yesterday LOL

[kanguin]

That poem hit me hard wow. Idk why I want to open up on Tumblr of all places but idk. I never share personal stuff in posts. Just oversharing in tags.

So yeah. I'm depressed. Depressed as shit. I quit my job recently because the commute, the low pay, and the high social energy cost of making 100+ phone calls a day just. Sucked the life out of me. Even my mother and fiance could see it. But this just marks burnout number... 4? I believe. I've experienced burnout and mental collapse 4 times now in the past decade. 4 years between the first two, 5 between the next two, and now just 1 year between this one and the last. And now I'm supposed to look for a job I like again, but... I don't know what I'd like. I'm not exactly enjoying life right now. And the thought of selling more of my life for money is not putting me in a good mental spot.

I don't play video games anymore. I haven't been able to do so for more than a couple weeks a year in ages. I never talk to my friends one on one anymore. I have no hobbies to speak of, really, aside from messing around on my computer, but it's not like I have the space to engage in any hobbies anyway since my broke ass still lives with my mom. I have my fiance living with me now, but while they're an emotional anchor, we have no space to our own besides the bedroom and a bonus room, but the latter is still technically a public space we can't decorate ourselves or use for painting or hobbies.

I feel stuck and miserable. I want to move out, I want my own home and space to be unbothered in, I want my own fridge and pantry with my own food, and to be able to be out of my bedroom without being on call for sudden required tasks or unwelcome socialization. I want a space to engage in hobbies; sculpting, painting, building, working with my hands. I want to be able to operate on my own schedule and not have to compromise on when is too late to start a task or eat a meal. I want to be able to start HRT in the privacy of my own home, so that I don't have to disclose my transition until I'm ready. I want... Freedom. I want to be able to live a life that feels mine, and not like I'm living in borrowed space and time.

But all of that requires money, and that just leads to a catch 22. I need money to achieve my desires, but need a job to get money. But I need a job I am happy doing so as not to burnout a 5th time, but I need to be able to enjoy life and work in the first place for that. And if I already enjoyed my life I wouldn't be in such a bad spot mentally.

I used to be so hopeful and determined for my future, but it's been 6-7 years since I graduated college with my bachelor's, and by now I've all but lost hope things will ever change. This genuinely feels like this is it, I'll be stuck here in this house until my mother dies, I get kicked out, or my heart takes me to an early grave like my father.

My next therapy appointment isn't for two weeks. I sure hope I stay on topic next time, because I only ever realized all the things I forgot to cover after the appointment. Even though I had my issues well memorized and written down.

...

If anyone actually reads this long ass ramble, I'm sorry. It's nearly 5am for me writing this.

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..

To be honest, one of the aspects of my personality I miss the most is my love of making and keeping friends. Not that I was ever good at it, but I always enjoyed getting to know someone knew, and of course I loved learning more about my existing friends, too. There are so many people I can think of where I go "wow, I wish I had the energy to get to know them", but I can't really do that anymore in good conscience. Anyone I try and befriend nowadays is just going to get abandoned in a month or two when my overwhelming shame drive me to ghosting them.

[greetingfromthedead]

C23: Dusty Memory

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The few days you spend in town go by in a haze; your mind is too consumed with trying to figure out how or why you fell asleep and forgot everything that led up to it. The only explanation is that you did recover a memory, but at the same time, that couldn't be true because you don't really have a new memory. After your nightmare, you tried to sleep again only to have that same dream, and Vash had to wake you once more. Avoiding the memory made you stay up again. Once you spent the night playing with Vash's hair, the other time you sat on the roof of the hotel, looking down onto the empty streets. Vash didn't like this, seeing you tense again, not able to relax, but chose not to say anything.

After Vash had made sure the Plant was alright and wouldn't relapse, he suggested you'd move on, heading east again towards the town of Calamity J. You had no issues with it and simply agreed. Vash tried to pay for the hotel stay but was bluntly refused; the townsfolk insisted that it's their way of paying back for him saving their lives. Vash had to admit defeat, and on one hot morning, the two of you set out again into the vast desert.

"Are you okay?" Vash finally asks, not expecting to get a fully truthful answer from you.

"I'm fine," you say, not turning towards him. "Actually, the voices have quieted down a lot on occasion. Not sure how or why."

Vash looks over with a frown on his face. He doesn't believe you are fine; he has seen you zoned out in thought for the past few days; you've been more shut in, smiling less, and bantering less. He knows you are worried about something. You seem so distant.

"Do you have any idea why the voices disappear? You said I was able to quiet them down. Does it have something to do with me?" He keeps poking at the issue, hoping to get a hint on how he could help you.

"I don't know. It could have something to do with your unique presence, but..." you have an idea of what the cause could be, but you don't want to make him worry about it since you could be wrong, "I'm not sure. Maybe it is you."

He sees your weak smile, which doesn't reflect in your eyes. He thinks back to when he tried to hide his pain from you. Is this how you felt back then? Vash wishes he could just take away your problems, make them disappear, and see you smile.

"If you figure it out... anything at all: what is causing it, what it means, how I could help you... would you tell me?" He asks in a serious manner, watching your expression carefully.

"Of course," you say with no emotion. Your eyes haven't met his since leaving the town, and it tears at his heart.

"Sweet Pea, please, look at me," he pleads, and your gaze does lift from the sand and is turned to him, but all he senses is pain. "What aren't you telling me?"

"Don't worry about it. As long as the voices are gone, I am good. I can focus on you, on me, on everything." But at that moment, the cries in your head are nearly deafening.

After two days of traveling without issues, the worms have become relentless; swarms of these critters have been following you. The toma keep trying to catch them mid-flight, snapping their beaks at them. You also keep swatting them away.

"What is up with these?" asks Vash as he shoos more of them away. "They've been following us for hours, and it's nearly nightfall. We can't even really set up camp with them around; the toma would be restless."

"I know. I wonder what's going on." You brush some more of them away from your tomas. But suddenly the little critters seem to freeze, fluttering without moving, and a moment later a worm spout fills the air with sand a little ways to your side. Way too close for comfort.

"We have to move!" Vash calls out, and both of you signal your toma to run. In the distance, there are some rocks, so you head that way.

Behind you, you hear more eruptions of sand, and you assume there are other worms. They can't be too big, but big enough to seriously injure the toma and Vash. Lucky for you, the birds are faster, and soon, you find yourself close enough to the rocks that the sounds of the worms stop as they probably have reached bedrock. Not taking any chances, you keep moving, and to your surprise, there is a small village in the midst of the rocks, but on closer inspection, you realize it's abandoned.

"I never knew there used to be a settlement here." Vash mumbles as you get closer; the toma no longer running. "I wonder why it was abandoned."

"No power source, maybe? Or perhaps the worms?" you theorize.

"Could be. I think it's smartest for us to stay the night here; there must be bedrock here so there are no large worms, and the toma can also stay indoors."

"I agree. Let's check the houses."

The town is empty; there is not a soul anywhere. Most buildings have been partially covered by sand; the rest are simply dusty. It looks like looters have been through here; some houses are ripped apart more than others, but still, you find one that is in decent condition; the sand hasn't made its way in too badly. You check the little toma enclosure, and that too is in good shape; just minor tweaks to the gate, and you can lead the birds in and get them settled, picking up the rest of your gear. Vash is still inspecting the other houses and trying to piece together what happened.

You get inside and find the dusty little bedroom. You open all the windows and start to get things cleaned up. You take the bed covers outside, dust off surfaces as much as you can, and make the bed with your gear, covering the still slightly dusty mattress with your own and using the blankets you carry around. This should be comfortable enough for Vash. You intend to keep watch, as the voices have been too quiet for the last hour. You feel the storm coming, and you don't want to be tormented by nightmares.

You search through the kitchen but don't find anything edible, so you have to dig into your supplies, getting the little gas burner and mess kit ready. Vash comes back empty-handed, saying he didn't find anything and that this village has been abandoned for a long time.

"What are you cooking up?" He comes closer and leans on the counter.

"Stew. I had one in my bag." You are stirring the pot patiently, still avoiding Vash's eyes. You feel guilty for not telling him everything, but you don't want him to worry about something he can do nothing about either. "This feels strangely familiar."

"How so?" His curious gaze focused on you.

"I wish I knew. Something about this—the small, dark, gloomy kitchen, the smell of stew. The dust in the air, and you leaning there." You frown as you try to recall the details.

Vash dusts off a stool and pulls it out with a scraping sound, and it sends shivers up your spine. Multiple chairs making the same noise echo in your head.

"There were many people. The pot was a lot bigger." Like through a thick fog, you see figures moving in your head, trying to step closer and see more details. You are consumed by it. Vash sees your hand stopping, your eyes somewhere far away, and he looks at you intently, ready to act the second you need him.

Just a moment later, your body is woken up with a jolt. After a moment of staring at the spoon, you lift the mess kit off the burner and take a step backwards.

"Iris?" Vash stands up, his hands already reaching out to you.

"I remember. But it doesn't make sense." Your eyes focus on the floor. "There was a kitchen, only a bit bigger than this, but it was full of people, like 10 or more. The small, broken windows were partially covered, and there were dark clouds outside. Everything was dirty, but it wasn't dust; it was soot. I was making food for all these people."

The picture in your memory seems so unreal, so unlike you.

"Do you remember anything else?" Vash asks quietly and comes closer. You can see his feet as he stands in front of you.

"No, it's just a brief glimpse." You sigh, "Could it be a memory of before the Seeds ship? Because I don't think I ever got that close with people after the crash, and I remember most of that time, I think."

Vash's hand lifts your chin up so you are looking at him. His eyes are so filled with compassion and love that it makes you even guiltier for keeping things. He leans his forehead against yours, his gentle fingers still under your chin.

"That's good. Right? You wanted to remember. Maybe there's something more you can remember, something you can reach." His voice is quiet and encouraging.

"I'm not sure it is from before the crash or before Project Seeds. There's no way of knowing; it just doesn't fit with the rest of my memories." You look at him sadly.

"Doesn't matter. You still remembered something new. I'm so happy for you." His face is so filled with kindness, you can barely take it. You should tell him about the voices and what you think is happening. But you don't want the kindness in his gaze to be replaced by pity or sorrow.

"Thank you. For rooting me on, Red." You smile at him; this time it reaches your eyes, but it doesn't hide the glint of sadness.

"I always will. I'll do anything for you." He smiles too, and lifts his head from your forehead to place a kiss there instead.

You reach your arms around him, underneath his coat, and step closer to hug him, feeling the metal between his heart and your cheek. You still hear his heartbeat; it's slightly elevated, and his voice sounds from his chest.

"You can trust me with anything that troubles you. I can't help you if I don't know what pains you." His arms tighten around your shoulders.

"I'm afraid you can't help me. Not with this." You say it quietly, surprised that he heard you at all.

"But maybe it will get easier if you tell me? Won't you try?"

"The voices have gotten worse, unless there are the quiet moments where it's like they have disappeared... I can barely hear you. I can barely see and focus on the road ahead. They have never been that bad before, and last time they drove me close to insanity."

"So it's either all or nothing?"

You nod against his chest, a lump forming in your throat.

"Are the quiet moments increasing?" he continues.

"Yes, they are more frequent but unpredictable. I don't know when they come or go or how long they last."

"Maybe it's a sign that the voices will be gone soon?" he says, hopefully.

"That's the best-case scenario, yes."

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[lindszeppelin]

to the stalkers on my blog, make sure you send over the entire post.

something has been brought to my attention and i cannot keep my mouth shut about this. i will not stand for molly to insult my intelligence on her gossip blog and start a lynch mob against me for something that is not even true to begin with.

the anon that came to me sometime ago who asked me if i wanted to know where she went to law school...as soon as i got that anon in my inbox i knew that person was attempting to bait me. i don't give a fuck about molly to want to know her personal information. hell i don't even know the personal information of my actual friends in the fandom besides basics lol. and while i might despise the scumbag that she is, i would never dox anybody. doxing is serious and has permanent after effects, and it can cause trauma. so knowing that this anon was trying to make me look a certain way and make me fall into their bear trap, i set up a bait for their bait on purpose. I wanted to know who that anon was so i could put them on blast to the community as a PSA. i didn't actually believe they had her personal information. im nearly 30 years old and have been around the internet for a long time, i wasn't born yesterday.

if that anon remotely knew personal information about any one of us and they were to dox someone, that is breaking the law and we do NOT need a person like that in this fandom. so i went to find the rat and lure them into my trap. well the coward came back to me on anon with a "nice try" response, so i obviously wasn't able to get them into a private message and figure out who the user was, which was my goal. and i knew how this would be perceived. but i have nothing to lose by being candid and honest about my genuine thought process. and like i said, no matter how much i dislike molly, i would never dox her as if im some disney channel villain.

as always, all that molly cares about is pointing the finger at me to her followers and inciting a lynch mob against me. and as for the other thing she said about me recently...i have been receiving dozens of anon messages all the time about the crazy things she says about austin and people on anon venting to me about her. but i delete them, and i have done for a hell of a long time. i can't even remember the last time i even mentioned molly by name as a response to someone's message, it must be months at this point. so you are incorrect when you tell your followers that i have started a hate campaign against you and talked about you for the last year. but hey, you basically have done the same to me on your blog, and you actually cannot keep my blog out of your mouth. so in your eyes it's okay to start drama because you're exempt from the backlash. got it.

you are not worth my time, the breath i have in my lungs, or the mental capacity to give a shit about anything you say or do. but when you try to go on your gossip blog and say that i purposefully tried to dox you, you're a fucking moron first of all, and as much as we hate eachother i would never put someone's life at risk like that. but i guess that is just simply out of the realm of possibility for you, because what other thread do you have to go on to hate me besides the fact that i think Austin and Kaia are not endgame? give me a break.

but circling back to one last thing i forgot to mention...after we had our issues with each other where i had to block you because you refused to do something as simple as have the common curtesy of making a separate austin tag so we didn't have to see kaia content in his main tag where you basically said "deal with it"...so many people came to me on anon sharing their experiences with you in the beginning of me turning on anons, and they came to me out of fear that you and your friends would bully them out of the fandom for daring to speak up against you. i am proud to have cultivated a purported safe space for people in the fandom to freely speak their mind and share stories free of judgement. i will never silence anybody for speaking about their personal stories of bullying and harassment. you got an issue, take it up with the many victims you have under your belt. you are not the innocent princess you like to try and portray yourself to be. and while nobody is perfect, there is no excuse for the shit you have put people through in this fandom. on here and on twitter.

that is my truth. whether you choose to take your blinders off and believe me and put this stupid shit aside is up to you. i am not holding my breath because your words are predictable. but i was not raised to be a narc, i was not raised to be a snitch, i was not raised with off-base morals where i would harm people for fun. i speak the truth and i have nothing to lose by being honest. but i was raised to stand up to bullies like you.

i know my intentions and i can sleep well at night knowing i was trying to do the right thing and expose a cockroach in the fandom. clearly that person still is a degenerate, and if they are your friend then you better be careful of who your friends are if they were willing to sell you out to me for shits and giggles. i know you will always believe that i was trying to actually dox you. and while i am not here to break bread with you, i was looking out for a fellow human being, regardless of what my feelings are for you.

oh and by the way, can you say that you ever do the same for me? absolutely not. when i came back to tumblr after a few days break when i had a fucking mental breakdown at the spiteful, venomous anons that came to me to send me hate after a shitstorm that you started, what did you say in response to me coming back? basically "yeah good look trying to block anons babe, they will never stop". if the shoe was on the other foot and an anon sent you my personal information, no doubt you would not share the same cutesy to me of trying to expose that person to the fandom for their snake behavior. you do not take accountability for the horrible things you say to people and how you purposefully start online wars with those that dare to disagree with you about austin. you have a fucking wrap sheet of people you have hurt and offended on tumblr and yet your response is "i don't think i have done anything wrong". just because you think you didn't hurt anybody doesn't mean it didn't happen. it's called taking accountability.

so you're welcome for trying to expose the shit stirrer. while my attempt to expose the person didn't end up working, i gave it my best efforts and i am okay with that. why don't you take your anger out on the person who acted like they were actually going to leak your personal information to your enemies instead of me, the person who was actually trying to expose the shit stirrer? because you never will. my integrity means a hell of a lot to me, so you're dumber than a sack of hammers to think that you can talk about me like this and expect me to not respond to you. you have once again brought this one on yourself.

happy valentine's day, pookie.

[nobylite]

aitsf + 20, 11, and 9 for the violence ask game

9. worst part of canon: i don't want to say all of aini because that's mean and some parts of it were very good (i would die for ryuki and tama). so i'm gonna go with a toss-up between every time uchikoshi is unnecessarily horny (this includes most characters' treatment of iris and excludes everything tama has ever said) and kaname date's entire character and storyline in aini. making a big deal out of his disappearance only to reveal that he was just in atami and an amnesiac for six years is stupid. having his appearance stay the same because he "had a silicone mask of saito's face" is stupid. everyone had wild pre-release theories on how date could still be in saito's body and nearly every single one of them is more interesting than the truth. this is only the first question and it's already getting so long and i don't care. his entire treatment of aiba and mizuki. he lost aiba in the resolution route, she was the one who made him whole, and you expect us to believe that he'd get into a genuine fight with him and they'd separate? it's like the writers forgot that he's actually a genuinely compassionate person underneath all of his old man bickering. it's why mizuki route works so well- and speaking of mizuki, we were absolutely robbed of a proper reunion in aini. all we got was a poorly timed "welcome home" that was immediately followed up with another porno mag joke. because date's just the porno mag guy, we can't have him show any other emotions for too long or the game will explode. i'm going back to the mask thing real quick- it could've at least been interesting if they went into it as him preferring saito's face to his own. but they didn't. just a "ohhh the ladies like this one more" boy shut UP. i hate you pandering to new fans and defeating the point to a sequel. i love you version of aini that lives only in my head. oh god this is still only the first question. i'm so sorry chey

11. number of fandom-related words you've filtered: okay this is easy. i don't need to write an entire essay. only three- 2zuki, dateryu, and ryudate. 2zuki because it's fucking gross, and the ryudate tags because a lot of the fans are annoying and i don't think date would reciprocate. he's bagged the ultimate milf he doesn't have time for some twink

20. part of canon you found tedious or boring: hmm. well if we're going for boring i could say date's character in aini BUT i already wrote a whole essay on that so i'll pick a different answer. a lot of mizuki's side in aini was kind of boring/disconnected. i know in hindsight this is because half of the time you're not mizuki, you're bibi, but when you're playing for the first time you don't know that, and it makes mizuki seem watered down and bland compared to ai1. you have to withhold a lot of information from the player to pull off the timeline twist, and while it works, it comes at the cost of mizuki's characterization. she feels a lot flatter in aini because we're locked out of so much of the narration. the same can also be said for bibi, and we're locked out of even more of her true thoughts since the game misleads us into thinking she's mizuki. the result is that mizuki doesn't feel like herself, and we don't truly get to experience bibi's thoughts. i like bibi but her execution left a lot to be desired

wow that's over 500 words. sorry i have an illness

[fandxmslxt69]

Ahhh!!! can't believe I forgot about this tag!! Thank youuu @superficialdomina for the tag, your sentence is INTRIGUING me and I'm stalking around to see how it goes!!! Anyway, here goes??

Rules: in a new post, show the last line you wrote and tag as many people as there are words.

“And I think you’re beautiful,” He said suddenly. The words came in a soft whisper, a secret shared between two strangers hidden away from the world. (<- I picked this one from my Loki fic cuz its actually...kinda okay. this line was written like. nearly a week ago, I haven't done anything else since please send help)

SHIT this is long bahaha okay umm do I even know that many people?? I do not know 26 people? Umm. Uh oh okay let's try? IM SORRY IF YOU WERE ALREADY TAGGED

@sarahscribbles @the-lady-amphitrite @romanarose @melodygatesauthor @whatthefishh @tripleyeeet @runa-falls

I told you guys I do not know 26 people, so sadly we are settling for 7? my bad guys. ANYWAY WOOO <3

[gotdead]

LETTER'S HOME

Here's a little special write I was inspired to do after my uncle shared a letter written by my grandpa to grandma during WW2 D day.. I converted the letter into a poem

My Dearest Darling,

I’m writing to you from behind enemy lines..

The fighting is thick with so little time..

It's been some time since I've written to you..

Eileen darling, believe what I'm about to say is true..

Thoughts of you have giving me the strength to see things through..

Despite the heinous acts that they have us do..

It was just the other day that we had ported the beach..

All of us boys became men by the end of  his speech! 

He warned us of the gruesome things we may see..

He said “we must block from our mind if we want to be free!”

 I drove the jeep off the carrier plane...

With Hitler in charge and at the top of his reign..

Head of the convoy it was my job to lead..

With mortars in the air,  it's the map that I read..

Just then the jeep rattled as I’m thrown from my seat..

The windshield exploded,  I did not

land on my feet..

The water cold and frigid, as I nearly drowned..

Under water you heard silence, not as much as a sound..

Just then I felt a hand grab onto me..

It was my Lieutenant's fearless nature that set me free..

He said it's not your time to go as he pulled me to shore..

With a stern steady voice, he demanded I give more..

I assured him that I will be at my best..

For that heroic act, a medal was pinned to his chest.

As I lay safely on the beach, stripped from wet clothes..

It was a fresh dry uniform that I purposed..

Missing everything down to my glasses and personal things..

I still had my dog tags and  all of my rings..

It wasn't long before we journeyed up the beach Into Nazi guarded land..

We were under heavy fire as we marched through the sand..

With enemy planes overhead, the nearest foxhole is what I found,

avoiding enemy fire, trying not to make a sound..

It was getting dark now, as I tried to get sleep,.

I lay in the trenches dug under the jeep..

My body was exhausted and covered with dirt..

It was a miracle Eileen, my body was whole and not hurt..

Out of the blue a stranger extended his hand with a blanket..

I guess he thought I needed it more as he muttered "Just take it!"

I was able to survive D day with only a scratch..

As we were directed to head down a different path..

We didn't walk long before spotting a house where we could lay our heads down..

Free of enemy fire, with no one around..

The food we consumed were 10 in 1 rations..

Only thing that fresh were from farmers met in passing..

I recall how good the milk was, it reminded me of back home..

Unsure of the coordinates, our location unknown..

I took inventory of my belongings..

Quarter master nearby so I could replace things..

As stated it the previous letter, there is one thing you can do..

Would you mind sending me another picture of you?

Also honey, can you send food rather than candy..

If I'm brutally honest, sugary snacks are no use to me..

I would however appreciate some canned goods, and that peppery cheese..

Remind me darling to tell you just how much I love you..

Can't wait till we're together again as my love is true..

I almost forgot this part of the story..

That beach we landed on..

It's now officially referred to as  “DEATH & GLORY"

The French people have been so very kind..

We said to hell with beer, and moved on to French wine..

Well Eileen, I've run blank with things to say, I’ll continue to write of you with every passing day..

Oh! I almost forgot to share;

I had to replace my wrist watch!  the saltwater ruined my last one..

I tried to save it but the damage was done..

The new one is a Government Issued HAMILTON inlayed with 17 jewels..

Flashier than the last one not quite what I would choose..

By the way, any word from Johnny? I have yet to find out if he made it to France..

Try to locate him for me, if you're given the chance..

I'm sending a special package to Dad. One I think he really like!

 It's a genuine German scabbard, actually used in fight.

Eileen, I'm sending you a news clip from  the June 12th Stars and Stripes..

It’s a piece of history you'll be sure to hold onto for the rest of your life..

Last thing to share with you, before I must go..

I love you Eileen more than you'll ever know..

Always yours,

Arthur

Written By Georie Saunders

Inspired by letter from war! 2023

[sarah-dipitous]

Hellsite Nostalgia Tour 2023 Day 30

The Blind Banker

"The Blind Banker"

What makes me sad about the Sherlock episodes is I don't think I'm ever going to be able to formulate any fun little games like I have for Supernatural (and may yet develop for Doctor Who). They just come up too infrequently.

I forgot how weird the cinematography in Sherlock can get. There was just this really small segment where...it felt like when a video games frame rate drops. Lasted like 10 seconds and then........like, why did you do that?

Moffat, I think, should be allowed to come up with concepts, but not be allowed to write...and especially not write female characters. This is the coldest take I may have ever had. It's just this poor museum worker...

Man, I've either skipped this episode a bunch of times or just paid far less attention during it because, while I can recall a FEW scenes and something of a general outline for the mystery, there's an HOUR AND A HALF OF STORY. And I know I can't fill in that much from memory.

Yeah, there's a life or death fight with a guy with a sword at 221B, but OMG JOHN IS ME. I prefer using the self-checkout when shopping, but because I know how. to. do. things. right., it's so frustrating when the machine doesn't cooperate. I very recently got to the end of all my scanning, everything was bagged, I was just down to PAYING and the computer decided to call for assistance. Not me, the computer, for no discernible reason. Anyway, John, I feel your pain

"I had a row with the chip and PIN machine" "You had a row?" "Sort of. It sat there and I shouted abuse." Well, now he's just me with every machine I have at work.

(Guys, we're less than 10 minutes in. I'm...extremely sorry for how long the Sherlock ones get. In my defense, this was my main obsession of the three back in the day.)

I'm sure somewhere on this website there's a gifset of Sherlock going around this office, dipping between the cubicles alongside gifs of David Tenant doing the same in Partners In Crime. I probably reblogged it back in the day (but that might have been before I really started tagging things)

Sure, some of the deductions are bullshit, but figuring out who the message was for was pretty impressive. Also, I will also never be mad at him putting the cops to shame.

Ok. I'm starting to remember, this is a smuggling ring...backed by Moriarty question mark??? I know he gets a mention at the end (sorry, we're now four weeks out from seeing him and i'm going to be ANNOYING)

--At this moment, 8:10pm, I've paused for the gazillionth time, but this time to go through the tag for the episode...and it's a shock to know that this is either THE episode with THE tight purple shirt that is the entire reason I use purple for the Sherlock titles or it's just the FIRST one with it. Omg. I've been scrolling and scrolling the tag for ages trying to find anything with that shirt in its actual color. You couldn't escape it ten years ago. Now? Nothing.

THIS shirt. God. I have to do EVERYTHING around here--

You can kind of tell that John's never done anything wrong ever in his entire life (save for the murder last episode, but even that was to defend someone who was about to be murdered-ish) by the way he didn't run the second Sherlock and the graffiti artist started running

One thing about John (and possibly just Martin Freeman) is that he really know how to yell at someone while barely raising his voice. I mean, suuuuure, is Sherlock getting attacked and nearly dying? Yeah, but John's annoyed with him.

Also, I didn't say this before, but I meant to...Sherlock's a lot better at lying to people to convince them to do things than Dean...or Sam, honestly.

Oh! Oh! Ohhhhh!! The number pairs are like...page number, word number of some book from that library book!! I'm piecing it together now!

Omg this Scotland Yard detective is insufferable. At least Lestrade knows he's outmatched and needs Sherlock's help. This guy won't believe there's a serial murderer even with three victims until Sherlock can prove it. Like won't even investigate it? At all??

I love Molly but I loathe how easily she gets played by Sherlock. How easily she's manipulated by him. The slightest compliment. Not even a compliment, honestly. First he just notices her hair is styled different, then says it suits her better like that. Dude. Stop falling for this, girl.

Look, I like Sarah and John, they're cute, but also my aro-spec ace ass could never accidentally (or not) say "good" when someone says they don't have a significant other after. ESPECIALLY if I've accused them of slacking on the job due to said non-existent partner. Good LORD.

How are you so bad at hiding that you almost get caught that easily??...No, you DID get caught that easily. John was right. You don't think anyone can compare to your massive ego, Sherlock.

You know what? The Black Lotus had every right to do what they did. The banker and the librarian were just two more in a long line of the English going to distant countries and taking shit that ain't theirs. They had every right to kill them over an artifact worth MILLIONS that the banker's secretary will now have to hide for the rest of her life.

Mrs. Hudson takes such good care of her boys.

Sorry, but if I got kidnapped and almost killed after a date where my date's roommate crashed to drag said date into solving a mystery with him, there wouldn't be a second date. There would only be my permanent 'fun fact about me.'

[sukibenders]

Do you want to talk about how, since the stills of bridgerton s3 dropped showing Kate with Anthony and Kate with her Bridgerton family, all you and the Edwina stan accounts you reblog have talked about is Edwina and Mary? Has it ever occurred to you that desi women, like me, are so excited to see a dark skinned brown woman, like us, be happy and adored and loved? A whole desi romantic icon in the flesh in western media. Here you and your buddies are, the majority of whom openly hate Kate, (and are uncomfortably possessive over Edwina (I don’t include Mary because y’all don’t actually care about her nearly as much as you state)) and are vitriolic about her in their posts, are now concern trolling with “Kate Sharma deserves her own family, Kate Sharma deserves her own friends, Kate Sharma deserves a better man”, when hardly any of you gave a damn about her until you didn’t see the desi woman you wanted to see. If I’ve missed even one comment from you (your own or reblogged), saying ok Kate Sharma we see you, this brown girl deserves her happiness after all the trauma she went through, we love to see it! Please correct me. So determined to be the Sharma white knights we didn’t ask for you all forgot to do any uplifting at all.

Okay now you're taking a lot of stuff that I post out of context and, personally, I feel like you're pushing something on me that was never there. I'm happy that you are excited about Kate being loved, especially as a dark skinned brown woman, but my issue was never her being loved or saying that she didn't deserve it over Edwina. I can wish for BOTH of these women to be happy and loved, rather than piting them against each other, without overshadowing the other. I don't know why people think that it's impossible, or that having Edwina interact with the Bridgertons within itself is taking away from Kate. She's still viewed, by myself and many other Edwina fans that you say you know, as the viscountess and is perfectly loved and happy with her family even if Edwina is there (because she also is Kate's family). It's not uncommon for siblings to be cool with their siblings in-laws, there's nothing adherently wrong with that and it doesn't come from the guise of wanting to outshine Kate, at least for me and the people I follow (we also include Mary a lot of times into the family but not many hate on that idea or drag her character, and it leads me to believe a reason why that's directed at Edwina so much is because you view us as wanting her to take what Kate has which is far from the truth because many of us want Edwina to have something for herself too---for me, it's a prince). Correct me if I'm wrong, but your point of view seems like you just want Kate separate from Edwina (+ Mary) in regards to their family now that she's married to the Bridgertons, and want to keep that family all for herself, and that you don't like them (as par your "Sharma white knights" comment which is a choice). That's fine if you want that, and I'm sure that you can find others who do, but please don't come here to my page, or others who don't want what you want and send stuff like this even though it's completely untrue.

Because if you view being critical over some choices that a character does as "hating" them then I can't help you with that and you should just block me. I don't hate Kate, and I'm perfectly able to be critical of her while still wanting her to happy and loved. She isn't perfect and that's fine. If I did hate a character, as by example of some of my other posts outside this fandom, it would have an anti character tag but it doesn't. Because I don't hate Kate. I don't know where you also tied this into me hating to see a Desi woman having a happy relationship in Western media because, respectfully, that is a very big stretch. I'm happy about the Kate and Anthony stills (which I've reblogged but I've never been one to get up and excited just by a few pictures, from any fandom, until actual video content drops but that's just me) but that doesn't mean that I can't be critical about their relationship, specifically how Anthony treats Kate and is given more scenes to his backstory in comparison to her. We see more about him, are able to see more of him on a deeper level more than we ever see with Kate, which I've called out before. Many anons that I receive, similar to yours but also different, always assume that I hate Kathony or Kate because you don't like some of the stuff I say, but it literally calls out Anthony's behavior and how he acted towards Kate (which was wrong, never got a full apology for, but some of y'all skip past that). Him calling her the "bane of his existence", or constantly making her seem like she didn't know what she was talking about (pretending to be someone different in front of her sister and mother) or putting her's and her sister's reputations at risk by playing with their emotions. Me calling all that out makes me hate Kate? Makes me not want her to be happy? And I even call out the writers, multiple times might I add, about how unnecessary the drama that they added ends up being pointless and takes away time from what's actually important. Some of you are quick to hate on Edwina and her storyline, saying that it's overshadowing Kate but that's to blame the writers, who also added more plot for Penelope and her family which was not needed (especially since she's getting her own season, this one should have been about Kate solely as similar as it was to Daphne's). I'm happy for Kathony, but the writers irk me because they didn't have to shove so much angst onto us from the beginning. If they wanted to portray them as a happy couple from s2, as I said, they should have cut the "I'm planning to marry your sister" plotline short by the bee scene (which happens in the books) or scrapped it as a whole. By doing that, plus removing the Featheringtons, you could have more opportunity for Kathony to be together without so much angst falling over them (adding Anthony apologize for his behavior and make him seem like less of a prick, as well as provide more room for Kate as a character and a look into her own backstory). Back to the Sharma white knight thing, listen and I mean this with respect, I don't care whether or not you "asked" for me or any other page to be (just like I didn't ask for you to be in my inbox), because it was never about trying to adhere to what anyone else had to say. It was about us calling out poor writing choices, making better plotlines and finding ways to give these characters better respect than the narrative did. If you can't see that and just view it as me mindlessly supporting the Sharmas (which, when I say that name I also still involve Kate, even though many of you want to remove that aspect from her now, correct me if I'm wrong if you don't) then I can't help you.

And the line "hardly gave a damn about her until she didn't fit what I wanted to see" is very wrong, and while you have a personal connection with these characters that I won't understand and do respect, I won't tolerate you painting what I say in a different light just to fit what you believe. I never put Kate on a pedestal, especially not as a woc, and even put out multiple ways that could have relieved her stress and given her more scenes for happiness. Some of which does include being with Edwina and Mary because they are her family as well. If you don't like either of them, which it reads like you don't, and just want the Bridgertons to be her new family, fine, have at it. But don't come here, or to other pages, expecting them to do the same because some want the Sharma family to heal and be happy together alongside the Bridgertons, not without. That doesn't even remotely mean that we want to take away anything from Kate, as has been said before. If you don't like anything that I've ever posted about Kate or the Sharmas or Bridgerton at all, then why did you come here and send me an anon when you could have just blocked me? Respectfully, have a nice day.

[weevilcore]

hello :3

my name is Ivory, and this is my tumblr blog, which I have had for 8 years! I've tried to tag all my posts and reblogs from 2020 forward; the others are in the past and should stay there lol

I am 21, and my main interests are autism (which I think about near 24/7) and animals (which I am studying in school). I am from the US

I am autistic (level 1) and ADHD (primarily inattentive)

that is the TDLR, now for the extended version...

Special interests:

Autism. Since being diagnosed in 2021, autism became my special interest, and I think about it nearly all the time. right now it is at, I would say, a fairly stable level of interest. Things I research right now include how higher support needs autistics experience the world, including AAC and discrimination.

xQc. I'm hesitant to include him here. I feel like this interest is almost 'in remission', which is almost certainly an inappropriate phrase here. xQc is a twitch streamer who streams a variety of games and reaction content. he streams for like 10+ hours per day, so he is an essentially never-ending source of content.

He is a very over the top personality, and exceptionally candid compared to other top streamers. Yet when he gives his opinions on things, even if I disagree with his conclusion or how he delivered it, I can always see where he's coming from.

I relate to his awkwardness, and he is very honest which I appreciate.

I also think it's fun to see how different his life is from mine, like he moves like 2x per year, and he buys all new furniture every time!

X was certainly a special interest last school year, but now as I go to in person school and work, I see a lot more people. Streaming is almost a stand-in for socialization, and now that I have in-person socialization, I'm not as interested in X's life.

Animals are another strong interest for me, although I don't know that it qualifies as a special interest, but maybe it does! I guess it's not a super technical term, so there aren't clear guidelines on that... anyway:

I love whales and all cetaceans! I know it is kinda controversial to like dolphins (they are sorta violent) but I like them. I also like beluga whales, these are the two I have stuffed animals of. But I love all whales!

I also like manatees and aardvarks, the reason I list them together is because they are 'closely' (not that close) related - they are both afrotherians, along with the elephant! I have actually seen a manatee in the wild :D

similar to the aardvark, is the anteater! I love the anteater and how the babies ride on the mother's back! it's so cute

speaking of babies on mothers' backs: the opossum! I love the opossum and I think they are so cute! The virginia opossum is the only marsupial in Canada and the US and so their pouches are so curious to me.

Snails!!! I can't believe I almost forgot! Snails are so cute and slow and my favorite invertebrate. I have a snail squishmallow who goes with me to school. I want to get snail pets in the near future.

humans - not really a favorite animal, but I love learning about our evolutionary history - Stefan Milo on YouTube is a great source of information on this topic

--tags--

#orange - funny tumblr posts I reblog, I didn't want to just tag them 'funny' or something, because I thought that would be rather presumptuous, like saying a joke and then telling you to laugh. but I do find them funny

#purple - more serious tumblr posts. they are on a variety of topics, but autism posts I tag with #autism instead

#animals - literally anything to do with animals, and I will also tag the post with the specific animal so I can find them later (not humans tho!)

#my addition - when I add something to a reblog

#mine - for posts I create

[inkovert]

Okay first - I saw you mention the Spanish book cover in your tags on the OG post and I wasn't sure what you were referring to but I just went to look it up and oh my god??? I cannot believe they actually put that cover out there! That's SO many levels of fucked up.

And ah ok! Thank you for clarifying, I just wanted to be sure what the intention of that video was about. And yes you're right that Evelyn was Latina (which I completely forgot about because it wasn't really emphasized in the book) and the reaction wasn't nearly as great as it is now. I haven't read Malibu Rising unfortunately so can't say anything there. But agreed I think the only people that should really weigh in on this are Latinx people (and to some degree underrepresented minorities because this is part of a larger issue of privilege within the publishing industry but that's a discussion for another day).

I've read the book and I get why people might not like her character in the beginning because she is written to be unlikable but the reaction people are having that you're describing is taking it wayy too far. I think it also comes back to a discussion that has circulated around writeblr many times before of the fact that when men possess those same traits no one bats an eye and even praises them/fawns over them for acting that way, but when it's a woman? She's suddenly a heartless bitch and people instantly start tearing her down. I personally really liked Carrie's character lol. I liked that she was flawed, I liked that she didn't pander to the media to satisfy how people wanted her to act. She knew what she wanted and she went for it. But agree with everything you said in your first post that people need to stop boycotting books just because the character is deeply flawed and don't fit exactly to your liking of how they should behave. Like that's just what it means to be...human?

no because tell me RIGHT NOW why I just saw a video called "Carrie Soto is So Problematic: Here's Why I won't be reading her book."

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you can read books about characters that aren't saints. i promise it's okay. you won't burn in Hell for it. i promise

I'm so tired of the cancelation of everything that's not puritan and pure and a hundred per cent benign.

Carrie Soto is a fictional character. FICTIONAL. Nothing she's metaphorically done has harmed anyone in real life cause she is FICTIONAL. You can read a book about her