#;; moments? more like meme-nts

[aethercore-seeker]

🌱 MOMENTS:

After spending a lot of time with him, I finally figured out his schedule! Lo and behold!

@deepspacexavier, @apple-caleb, @farspaceapple, @cryocardiologist, @artistrafayel, @qin-conqueror, @mephistosperch

[aethercore-seeker]

I wish my home was like this...

by romance_and_roses

[jsprnt]

babe i hope you don't get mad at me. i totally understand and appreciate his decision to represent turkiye. after all he never got a proper conversation with german representatives/ they didn't take him srs enough to consider him.

i wish he can openly talk more in turkish without getting laughed at and can bond more with his team mates. the accent is gonna be naturally heavy and the only one's fault is his daddy's. no need to make fun of something he wasn't thaught in. the memes were too much for me personally cz i know how annoying that is with german as the second language.

i know he is only 19. he has showed what he can do against ger nt and at juve but there was minimal interior by him in this competetion. i do not expect him to pull a prime ronaldo and score even once at every match. but it's a fact that he has not created the same amount of attacks as baris alper. he missed lots of opportunities just like the remaining young attackers.

kerem, samet also got lynching. and let's not kid anyone, his face card gives him an advantage among young women. the coach should have given semih a chance so he would not be targetted because of his formation. montella's decisisons were questionable anyway.

I’m definitely talking about the crazy abuse he’s received. Obviously, I’m saying it wasn’t his best performance, and yes, he made a lot of mistakes, but I’m seeing people verbally abuse him, send death threats, want to physically harm him, which doesn’t make it okay whether he did good or bad.

we all saw the game yesterday, and can pick apart every single thing. kenan had his chances, but missed- at the end of the day, it just didn��t happen, we didn’t win. we can’t baby him obviously, I’m saying have some grace and be mindful.

It’s happend, and it’s done, talking shit about the players who gave their all is absolutely unnecessary..

I’ve seen so many other also get crazy hate, especially players like cenk, kerem, mert m, altay and especially samet in the other game. In my post I’m talking about kenan only, because the anon was about him..

About his Turkish, we all know the only person is to blame is his father, who didn’t bother to pass down a huge aspect of Turkish culture.

He’s said himself that he holds back on speaking the language because others make fun of it. Culturally, german born Turkish people are made fun of for their accent.

We can have a whole cultural dissection of how wrong that is, and how it holds people back from speaking their own language. (Something I’ve also experienced myself) many other players like Ferdi, aren’t 100% fluent in their Turkish, and I get that.

as a person also born and raised in the west, my Turkish isn’t incredibly fluent as well, even though we visit home every single year for two months straight.

though I’m confused about what his ‘face card’ has to do with my post. All I’m saying is the hate is too much. his outside appearance is honestly giving him more hate at the moment, can you not see how people are tearing him apart for fixing his hair once or twice?

we can go on and on about montella’s choices and the ref (that got on everyone nerves), but nothing will change.

I understand where you’re coming from, and definitely agree with some of your points.

they’ve all done incredibly well, and we should honestly be proud of them, not go around and verbally harass them. football culture has its own problems, and that one is a huge part of it.

[nutal]

time to witness part 2 of my school long paragraph essay about my imaginary scenarios that may age as bad as milk bc my blood flows with red bull and xanax (guitarspear and Adam), so here we GOO-

*ahem*

Pretty much, I have no idea how Adam and Lute's relationship started out, but judging by the fact that Adam keeps pushing others away, I'm pretty sure they were rivals before they turned into lovers (enemies to lovers thing, inspiration for this headcanon : "Thanks for the Venom" by @deadgirlwalking91 , it may not be necessary to also show the inspiration but imma show it anyway cause yes uvu)

Basically, I think that before they became lovers and stuff, Lute was like: "U STOOPID NI-" and Adam was just like: "lol get L + ratio'd loser", u get the idea XD

Tho, as time went on, when the two started to get to know each other more personally, Lute realizes she actually really likes Adam, and she's pretty much like: "WOT, I GOT FEELINGS FOR THAT DUMBASS?? THERS NO WAY UnU" cause she isn't used to relationships like Adam + she thinks she hates him with all her heart so she kinda tries to deny it (burning passion lol)

Adam also realizes that he really likes Lute (he's still a love-wanting little dummy), and he also tries to deny it, at first, but then he starts to realize that he actually fell HARD for Lute (bc he a lovey lovey dummy, tho I can't blame him for being like this, he was basically made to reproduce when u think about it, so it explains why he's so lustful). When he realizes this, he kinda starts to panic since denying wasn't really effective anymore, he kinda just has a panic attack, bc he basically vowed to himself to NEVER fall in love again (Lilith and Eve trauma) + he's just like: "DUDE, I HAVE SO MANY FUCKIN HOT MEGA BABES, AND I FELL FOR LUTE OUT OF ALL PEOPLE??? RRAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH" + deep inside, he thinks he's worthless, so he basically thinks she's just gonna reject him

Because he realizes that he has hard feeling for Lute, but also thinks that she is automatically gonna reject him, he starts to push her away even more, being more obnoxious and annoying, even being straight up mean to her, like, straight UP mean.

BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT, it somehow didn't work, and Lute just grew more closer to him (if yk one thing about Lute, Lute is a crazy bitch, so she'll just take this all the fricking way), then at one point, he just emotionally breaks down cause his feelings for her were getting too strong (for he also grew closer to Lute somehow), he goes home, takes off his mask and just destroys everything in his room, then ending up just.. crying

Now, here's what I think on how the two confessed to each other:

One day, Lute and Adam would be having an argument, going back and forth and things (context: Lute wanted to have a serious talk with Adam, but then she sees his real face for the first time while he was having another panic attack... and Adam is mortified by it..), it goes like this:

Lute: "I know what's going on, Adam. Don't try to hide it."

Adam: "Pfft, please! YOU don't know S H I T . "

Lute: "You're literally just proving my point, you didn't even ask what it was even about."

Adam: "I- OH GO FUCK OFF MY DICK, YOU FUCKING C*NT! YOU'RE SERIOUSLY ANNOYING ME, YOU KNOW THAT?"

Lute: "WHY DO YOU KEEP PRETENDING THAT THERE'S NOTHING GOING ON WITH YOU?"

Adam: "BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, YOU CRAZY BITCH!!" (reference: Yuno and Yuki - because I love you, you crazy bitch! meme)

Lute, remains stunned for a moment... did he just.. confess..?

Adam becomes petrified, immediately realizing that he confessed, he wanted to just.. run away from her as far away as possible. But, instead, he just remained still, he couldn't even do anything at that moment, he was on the verge of tears. Then, Adam saw her face go completely golden with blush, he gets confused... why was she blushing?... wasn't she supposed to say something.. or just tell him she doesn't feel the same...? This didn't make any sense for him, but he just stood there.

Lute: "I... love you, too, Adam.."

Now that, THAT was just... he didn't even know how to describe it in words. Sure, he could have chosen to not believe her at all, but because the two grew closer.. he kinda just.. believed her.... just like that. His face becomes golden with blush as well, though he was slightly smiling.

Ever since that day, the two decided to have some kind of an open relationship (not committed, since Adam is still traumatized as hell after what happened with Lilith, ESPECIALLY Eve, who he basically committed to even more, only for her to leave him suddenly without a trace, confessing his love to Lute obviously didn't automatically make his fears go away), and Adam and Lute just enjoyed each other's company xd

sooooo uh ye, this is kinda what I think happened (those r just imaginary scenarios tho), im gonna take another breath now *intensly inhales the oxygen tank*

OKOK YES YES SO TRUE i agree with the idea of them being rivals/being annoyed with each other at first but again I wouldn’t necessarily call that ENEMY territory since it’s not like they’re out to kill each other or something LMFAOAOA also i love Thank You For The Venom so much @deadgirlwalking91 is so damn talented it’s crazy! That fic has definitely shaped a lot of my headcanons for them as well haha

And YES the part of him vowing to never fall in love again but……. then there was Lute and whoops here we go again LMFAO!! And yes, again, this man is so damn insecure and has a fear of rejection n shit so ofc he thinks she’s not gonna reciprocate. And meanwhile Lute is very much in denial, but she loves him just as much.

ALSO THE ARGUMENT CONFESSION? NEEDED. SO SO REAL. And I am a huge believer in Adam having commitment/trust issues but as time goes on Lute pretty much proves her loyalty to him and mends his deep-seated abandonment issues 😭

God, i LOVE guitarspear.

[party-gilmore]

absolutely wild learning about my austistic leanings later in life because like

my parents just thought i was “eccentric” and found me rather entertaining, weirdness and all (plus their own probably undiagnosed AuDHD making their benchmark for normal skewed anyway) and my mon specifically was always so “mever change for anyone just be you” from a very young age so i just…

never experienced the concept of masking i guess?

Not as masking, I mean.

i would read accounts from autistic people talking about their experiences and struggles and pressure to conform and masking and the mental effects thereof and i would feel empathy because i “went through similar issues” but i th

i thought i was just being bullied for being Weird. just in general. like kids do. that this was a case of “well this sounds a lot like what i go through, but im not actually autistic so it probably isnt my place to join the conversation.”

it just never clicked that, “um. hi. these are the exact same behaviors you do. and there were moments in your life that almost led you to masking. because thats what it would’ve been. masking. but your dumb ass thought it wouldve just been ‘changing how you act and who you are in order to be bullied less’ which okay TECHNICALLY yes that is an accurate if watered down description of masking too, but.

Then you refused to on principle, because bullying is bad and fuck you and got angry about it to the point of overcompensating and INCREASING your Behaviors (tm) until you completely skipped over one of the key experiences that wouldve helped you identify with other people on the spectrum later in life.”

I just rolled through life like a steamroller of righteous, spiteful confidence that my preferences and actions were nobody’s business but my own and vice versa unless they clearly and directly affected others - so much so that I never actually set any kind of benchmark pattern for the way (NT) people around me act.

So I never had a benchmark for masking.

like im going back through all my memories of friendships that soured because i took everything at face value instead of trying to read deeper into cues. because I would always just say what i wanted people to know, straight up. like if i wanted attention i would ask for it if i wanted them to know i was hurt i would tell them. That made so much sense to me i assumed that was the norm. Because clearly. Thats logical. and obvious. So certainly other people are doing the same.

I got blinsided a LOT by the games my school friends and later some early adult friends played, yeah, but AGAIN (see: steamroller of self confidence) I simply assumed that was THEIR problem, not mine, and just… grieved the friendship and hoped for their sake they’d eventually sort their shit out 🤣

I literally thought they were the ones having difficulty with social contracts and cues and relationships.

Then over the past couple years the more I see accounts from other people in the AuDHD spectrum, like “yeah neurotypicals actually [thing i had been assuming was just an asshole trait for years without questioning it], heres what they really mean and a good script for responding” and “its funny how i [exact behavior i did for years] and no one realized i was austistic till later” im like… 🙃

And the last kicker was the post about food touching with the tag response “sometimes masking your autistic traits ends up more autistic than the unmasked trait” and my gut reactions were, in order:

…why would you bother to mask that, why is the way you eat anyone elses business?

i mean i guess it would ease up the pressure a bit, i got bullied for that too, i can see how maybe you wouldnt want to have to put… up with…

…

oHHHH SHIT IS THAT WHAT IT WOULDVE BEEN. IF I HADNT BEEN SO ANGRY ABOUT BEING ASKED TO CHANGE. IT WOULDVE BEEN MASKING. IF I’D KNOWN WHAT THAT WAS. THIS WHOLE TIME.

its just… its just been a series of months of me shaking my head and realizing my entire life has been that meme like “Am I having difficulties connecting socially??? No, it is everyone else who is wrong.”

🤣 girl help

[stormoflina]

Call me selfish but I want all the boys just to rest and not play international. City players always magically pull out of international for injury and then are suddenly fit for premier league games

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im with you, anon 😭 especially with our South American players with the upcoming Copa América.

as a south american myself, it would be wise if they didn't travel (while it would be amazing to win la Copa, i don't expect my country to get too far in the tournament cause my dearest Lucho cannot do everything by himself) cause shit gets ugly reallyyyy fast in our football. players over here loooooooove their dirty tackles especially those from certain countries that know that they can get away with many things cause they are more successful than others (just like certain countries in other regions lol). many of our matches are aggressive and borderline violent when you see how hard they play each other even without dirty tackles 💀

i will never forget Copa América 2015 and 2016, those two tournaments were filled with fights almost every single match. competitiveness here seems to jump straight from normal competitiveness to violence within like 5 minutes of the game starting lmao.

i remember one Colombia vs. Brazil match ended in a fight after tensions just kept rapidly rising as the match progressed. the whole thing exploded when Neymar kicked the ball just so it could hit a Colombian player and in retaliation a Colombian player came running and pushed Neymar which only helped to make things go even crazier. the whole thing became a meme and many were kinda happy cause goddamn, Neymar was so fucking annoying during that tournament 💀 (not that he has changed tbh, he seems to be getting worse as he gets older).

and oh my god, while this specific moment was not really aggressive or anything, there was this one match (Chile vs. Uruguay) where a Chilean player put a finger up an Uruguayan player's ass (Cavani, out of all people 😭) and the one who got sent off was Cavani after he lightly slapped the other guy and he, as football players do, dramatically fell to the ground holding his face as if he had just gotten punched within an inch of his life. However, the match as a whole was aggressive as hell. Crazy match tbh.

later, the whole thing got reviewed and the Chilean player got suspended for like three matches lmaoo. some look at him or hear his name and go "oooh, that's the guy that put his finger up Cavani's ass".

i remember watching that match with my family and we all just looked at each other all confused cause "did that guy really put his finger up Cavani's ass??? 👁️👁️" and then got mad when Cavani got sent off as if we were Uruguayans cause no one but Chileans were rooting for Chile during that tournament lmaooo.

- long ass rant anon with south american gossip lolololol 🇨🇴

My lovely anon, thank you so much for providing the South-American gossip, this was so amusing to read!!

I confess, I don’t watch a lot of South American football, but when I do, it always leaves an everlasting impression lol. Those players truly play football like they are in war, but hey, violence can be entertaining - especially if the drama is not happening to your favorites, but rather rivals haha. I’m so afraid of this international break, ngl, my favourite ever player is finally back from injury in our nt after 1,5 years and I just know if he goes down even with the lightest tackle I will be clutching my pearls lol. And of course with Domi too, or any players really. They also suffer from the passion disease and act like they are fighting for our country’s independence or something. It’s just a friendly, please protect yourself!!

And hahah, no, I actually remember the Cavani ass touching incident. I didn’t see the whole match but rather the videos and meme after that haha, crazy stuff. Which countries are the favoured ones in your opinion? I'm nosey and live for the drama 😭

[pawfulofwaffles]

Can I vent?

Like in Among Us?

Ok sorry. But like seriously. How do neurotypicals fucking survive. I worry so much about my adult life, because NT adults complain about it so frequently and I don't even got my shit together at 15-- how am I going to survive in adulthood? I've been reassured multiple times that I'm going to be fine, but these reassurances are coming from people who don't have the same issues as me.

They don't regularly experience the shame I feel once I finally snap out of zoning out, or the numb realization that I've barely gotten anything done in 3 hours of working. When I try to explain it, it feels like trying to explain flavors to a person without tastebuds. And they probably feel the same about me, because I can't fathom the idea of being able to just... focus. Today my mom frustratedly told me something along the lines of "I don't get it, when I was a kid, I just got it done. Why can't you do the same?" I don't want to get distracted, I don't want to disappoint my mother, I don't want to feel so hopeless about my future. I just want to feel in control for once.

Along with constantly worrying about whether I'll make it or not, I often wonder what makes everything worth it. Silly question. It's the small moments that count, right? Like the good times hanging out with your friends, that's what makes it all worth it. But in adulthood, time off seems far and few between. From the looks of it, my mother is always working. How does she find joy in anything anymore? I already feel like I'm constantly working on week days since it takes me until 9 PM to actually finish at least 94% of my school work(though, probably more around 71% if I bothered to thoroughly check what I should be working on, and that's not even accounting for non-school work I should do, like hygiene, laundry, cleaning, and other domestic tasks that I can easily forget about). And then either I get good rest but have an "all work no play" day, or use 10-11 PM as free time, but end up half asleep the next day thanks to my revenge bedtime procrastination? Jokes on me, I'm gonna be exhausted physically and mentally the next day no matter what my sleep schedule is!

I don't even know what my job is gonna be in the future, but if it takes me from 4 PM to 9 PM to do like 20 fucking math problems... just, what's the point of it all if I'm just going to feel drained every day for the next 60 years? The only time that I feel somewhat ok is the weekends, and sometimes during my RBP nights, but those are usually also filled with guilt and dread for the coming day.

I don't know. I just don't know anymore. I'm sure I'll figure it out eventually. I'll find a balance and be able to work while also finding time for fun. I'm just tired and sick and my bones hurt. I should go to bed. I wish it wasn't so hard to figure out what will work for me. And it's not helping that when I try to explain it, I feel like I'm just perceived as some lazy inconsiderate fuckup. As if I want this. Maybe they're right. I don't know.

Don't feel obligated to interact with this post, just being able to write it was stress relief.

To leave this off on a lighter note? meme

[jason-todd-is-a-real-mood]

It makes me laugh to see non french people voicing their frustation about our wins . Because we do d say the same things! but like the moment you do it we just turn full "america fuxk yeah" mode in a very arrogant and aggressive way ( look at the memes you may see on twt an tumblr)

You're fulling us with seum that will be send back at you at every turn. The frenchness in us will take the arrogant french route. We don't control it. We will just be more arrogant. We will be sore loser and horrible winner. There is no stopping it. We can't stop it. I mean just look at belgium (or is it belseum ?) and how we are still making fun of them !

You see the " if you want me to be your monster, ill be your monster" quote or something? It's us with the arrogant french cliché .

No one will criticize france nt more and better than us but we will not let you do it because we may say it's shit.. but it's like our shitty shit.

We have the cheh facile

[k1ll-theb1tch]

1, 10, 11, 13, 15, 18, 20, 22, 23, 24, 26, 28, 31, 34, 35, 38, 39, 40, 41, 44, & 46 for the Autism ask meme

1. How old were you when you found out you were autistic?- I haven't been professionally diagnosed. But it feels so obvious that I have it. I feel very comfortable around other autistic people and I have many autistic traits and behaviors. So I diagnosed myself. There have been some flags from my childhood too. I am also pretty sure I had pica or still have it too? Idk. I ate dog food as a child because it tasted good. But I have been self diagnosed for a few years now. Maybe.....three years? My sense of time is very flawed.

10. What are your most common stims?- hm....I am a chewer sometimes. Humming.....shaking my head...scrunchijg my nose and other more subtle stims like popping my socks when I am sitting down. Um....clicking ...stimming with my dogs ears...oh and the big one is stimming with crinkly things and imitating the crinkly sound.

11. If you could give any advice to your younger self, what would it be?- sigh. This is a hard one. Because I felt like such a freak when I was younger. I didn't have any friends and I didn't know how to relate to people. I tried my hardest. But I just got more bullied the harder I tried. So....I would tell myself not to try so hard. I would tell myself.....to focus on your special interests and enjoy the things you enjoy without apologizing. My special interests got me through my school years. So I would say to my younger self to focus even more on that and your school work rather than trying to make friends who are just mean and closed minded people. And....that one day you will have friends who understand more. Just hang in there.

13. Tell us an autistic person that you really look up to.- Well this isn't a real person. But a character in a show. The Big Bang theory. Sheldon. I see myself in Sheldon. A lot of me. He does have a heart. And he cares about people. Just like how I care so much for people. But he just doesn't understand neurological ways of thinking. And the things NT people do and how they communicate. He is just himself and he has friends who do like him despite his bluntly honest moments.

15. Have you ever received any accommodations for your autism in either school or work?- i can't remember what grade I was in. But I remember briefly I did have some accommodations. Mostly just for math since that was a whole different issue and not my autism. I live in Mississippi so it is a very religious based state. The only "accommodations" i get is prayer. I'm not even religious.

18. Do you find it easier to get along with other autistic people?- oh hell yeah. I don't even have to think about masking. Its much easier.

20. What kinds of things are good sensory wise?- oooooh my dogs ears is my favorite. And his little paws. I use my dog to stim with a lot!

22. Would you say you're proud to be autistic?- in the past, I would say no. But now that I am getting older and am meeting more ND and autistic people....yes. I am getting closer and closer to becoming very proud.

23. What's the longest you've ever has a special interest for?- my current special interests. Medical illnesses and mental illnesses and disabilities. And lady gaga. Lady gaga has been a special interest since 2010. The other.....about.....well, since middle school. I'm 30 now. So that is a long time.

24. Do you have meltdowns?- occasionally. I don't have sensory related meltdowns because I rarely leave my house. But I have routine based meltdowns sometimes. Like if something major happens and messes up my routine. Yes.

26. Do you avoid eye contact?- god...yes. lol

28. How long do your special interests usually last for?- I kinda answered that already.

31. Do you have a comfort item? If you feel comfortable with it, then show it to us.- i do have a comfort item. I will post a picture! His name is shiber and he is a stuffie! A puppy stuffie.

34. Do you enjoy hugs? Or are they sensory hell?- I really don't enjoy hugs. No. They aren't fun for me. And they don't make me feel comforted.

35. Have you ever used a weighted blanket?- no. I haven't.

38. How good are you at detecting sarcasm?- only if I really know the person who was sarcastic toward me. I don't think I understand how to do sarcasm myself. But if I know someone well enough then I can tell when they are being sarcastic.

39. What's the most comfortable/sensory friendly outfit you own?- the thing i literally wear every single day. One of three hoodies. I only have three tbh. Big shirt. And leggings.

40. Do you collect anything related to your special interest?- yes. It used to be a lot more than it is now. But I do collect gaga things.

41. If you date people then would you prefer to date other autistic people?- yeah. Or just a ND person in general. Someone who understands more and doesn't just call my autism cute or just being quirky.

44. Who are your favorite autistic bloggers? Say something nice about them.-

@ukaknir for sure. He is really my first tumblr autism friend. He is special to me already because of this. He really does help me out if I am confused about something. And he loves vkei just like me. He's got great taste in music. 💜

46. Are you generally a loud or quiet person?- definitely more on the quiet side.

[ultraviolet-ink]

How about Klint for the Character meme? :o

Ohhh!! Thank you for the ask! I love your drabbles so much, It's an honor to answer this!! :D 1) Sexuality: I'm really partial to Bisexual Klint! 2) OTP: Ziekerville! I think they would have been really adorable had we been able to get to know them better!! <3 3) BroTP: the literal BroTP, as in his relationship with Barok, I think their relationship is adorable and my favorite art of them is when they're practicing on the tree!! 4) NoTP: this is a bit of a strong word for how I feel but G/nKl/nt, it's more of an indifference, it just didn't pass my vibe check 5) Headcanon: If he wasn't in Law, he would have slayed in the world of Ballet 6) Second-Hand Embarrassment:..... I don't think there's enough for me to get second hand embarrassment? XD 7) Relatable Moment: He seems like a bit of a goofball from the art I've seen! He seems to have a really close relationship with Barok and it reminds me of me and my sister! ^^ 8) Cinnamon Roll that can be Problematic as a treat!

[monsterfucker-lisa-swallows]

we really don't talk about it enough

like when i was a kid, "hyperfixating" was this big, shameful thing i did that was literally a diagnostic criteria. it was me liking things too much in a way that people found concerning. it was considered a problem. in recent years, we've begun talking as a community more about how it's not shameful to hyperfixate, it's something that we can't help. but nts are seeing our word and applying it to themselves to just mean being obsessed with something. so we've gone from a useful term to describe a particular symptom we have to having it be the new cool term to mean the fandom of the minute. as if this wasn't something you're concerned about when one of us ACTUALLY has the symptom

i've seen this pattern before. "trigger" was a term to describe an event or circumstance that reminded me forcefully of a traumatic event and made me relive it or at least experience other ptsd symptoms. then it became the fun word to mock. so now we all hesitate when bringing up triggers because we get accused of being children who need a "safe space" when the problem is i've never felt safe in my life so have a brain that's hypervigilant when it comes to certain cues

i see it happening again with "gaslight". like i get it, people have been using the term wrong and you're trying to joke about that. but memeing it isn't the way to do it. you're further making light of the very phenomenon that robbed the women in my family of power. i fully thought i was incapable of taking care of myself and that i was incapable of processing objective reality because i was gaslit so effectively from ages 8-18. and it's already a hard thing to prove is happening, because the abuser will seem perfect to anyone outside the situation and seek to isolate you from other people who could recognize it. i watched my mother scream that she was being gaslit and nobody, including us, believed her. because all we saw was the mental break my stepfather pushed her into. and we were all kids living in our own abusive bubbles. we lived in the same house but were so effectively divided. 10 years ago, we thought my mom's insistence that he was driving her insane was part of her delusion. i shudder to think how much harder it will be to prove when people will just shrug it off like "oh gaslight? like the meme? you know that's not real, right?"

like i'm asking nts specifically to be mindful of how they use disability terminology and not to try to use it as the hot new slang of the moment, because this hurts people who actually live with these realities. i've been seeing more and more conversations about how disabled people need to stop pathologizing everything because it somehow fools people into thinking they have our disorders, but i haven't seen that as the problem so much as i see people willfully co-opting our terms and making them useless.

[aethercore-seeker]

🌱 MOMENTS:

I have no friends anymore. Everyone keeps calling Chai as Chai Tea. (ง •̀_•́)ง

#CHAIsTEA 

[radfem-101]

Looking for help!

Hello everyone!

This project has gained a lot more attention than I ever thought it would. At the moment, I (@resister-sister) am the only person working on the educational parts, and @opabiniawillreturn is helping out with posting. In order to get this up and running as soon as possible, I need more people to help with the educational pages.

¡What I am looking for: radfems who know the ins and outs of radical feminism and can summarise the very basics at a level someone who doesn't even know what feminism is could understand. Radfems who have any experience with copywriting and editing.!

This is NOT a meme page, so the writing will be factual and accurate. No funny stuff. We are also trying to be as objective as possible when describing radical feminism. Think of Simple English Wikipedia, that kind of level, only more in depth and exclusively about radical feminism. Much like Wikipedia, we do not use slurs (unless censored as examples, e.g. "c*nt" as an example of misogyny) nor do we swear. This is aimed at absolutely everyone and I don't want there to be any reason that we have issues regarding this. If we get problems, it is solely because of the ideas and not for any other reason. Similarly, any link that uses slurs should be marked. I have seen an upsetting amount of radfems use ableist slurs like "r*****d", and that kind of language is not okay, especially as a disabled woman who has had that used against me. If that comes up in a link, mark it. Just like you should mark links that contain slurs towards TIMs and TIFs, racism, etc. You do not have to mark links for swearing. Yes, a certain amount of this is tone policing, but this is a blog aimed at people who otherwise know nothing about radical feminism and we need to make this a good introduction and not scare people off. This blog may also absolutely be used in shaping libfem opinions about us and I want to keep it civil. If there are TRAs or libfems looking for fights in the notes, please either correct them in the educational tone of the blog, with research and citations, or just leave them. Even if you don't join the team or even want to. 

I plan on having separate pages for important issues in radfem, such as porn, gender, men, etc. There will also be a main FAQ page, which I am currently working on (although it's a bit of a mess). If you think you can help with any of these pages, please message me and tell me a bit about what you are planning on writing. If you also would like to become a member of this blog, please message me! Let me know a bit about yourself and what you can help with! If you would like to help with the FAQ, also let me know! What questions have you been/seen asked a lot about radical feminism? Do you have any resources you can contribute? What did you find useful when learning about radfem? What do you wish you had when you were learning about radfem?

Thank you very much! I look forward to this blog being more complete and useful thanks to your help! 

[mjvsec]

Top 5 mutuals

Anon you gave me an occasion.

Since this year is going to the end I would like to say thank you to all the tumblr people who made my year with their posts, contents and everything beyond.

I know it's a top 5 but in this case I'll tag more mutuals because it's hard to pick only 5.

@ringer04 my wonderful Steph, amazing editor and amazing person. You always supported me in every moment, you consider me even an inspiration and let me say I'm lucky to have you in my life. Keep going great, I'm there rooting for you!

@cranberryuniverse Zuza you are one of my favourites in the croatia nt fandom and we share lots of things in common. You always make me smile and also laugh with your liveblogs and not only, you are surely a ray of sunshine and that's why I love you.

@the-musical-thot my cutie Ele! Always a sweetie nothing else! The fact we're both also multifandom makes my heart beating faster and all the time spent talking and sending memes and pics screaming like 2 hard fangirls 😂😂 I love you no matter what!

@mwrieke Mar I don't know what to say if not that you're a precious soul. You simply make me smile with few whether it's a pic of an animal, a comment about a footballer or also a pic from your trips. You think that I can be a free spirit and well I hope the new year will see your premonition coming true. Meanwhile know that my heart belongs also to you ♡

@jessparaguss my lovely Inesa what would I have done without you? You're fantastic and please be always a ray of sunshine ♡

Then I want to mention my cycling group who are some of the bestest I ever met, we disagree in various things but that's why we're united haha

@ricciardorkk @colferandposthuma @julie-vm @itsthefantasticdrowse @genderaesthetics @olafilippe

In addiction @charlotte-lancer @joaquinqhoenix and @keanuureevess who are absolutely sweeties ♡

Ok now all the others who also made my year, I won't say enough thank you guys ♡

@mbappefc @itsgoldentaylor @13frogges @lovren-la-vida-luka @snarkandsarcasm-isme @croatianstan @downthepub @lethalice @papacarloslefteyebrow @schemppion @firstaidspray @stairway2mars @devilmaytrans @broski-is-a-witch @godbastian @babysdrivers @the-supernatural-atheist @matzhummels @daylightisfadingaway @shenken @the-ville-idiot @aregrettablehullabaloo @vintagesoul1975 @dreamers-queen @vatreniworld @madamaholmes @kaedien @richardhammondappreciationblog

I hope I didn't forget anyone if yes sorry 🙈😂

Ok anon enjoy this wave of love I spreaded

[purplesurveys]

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Why are you taking a survey? Becauuuuuse it’s a Sunday night and I’m not doing anything and I like surveys so I might as well take one. When's the last time you were grounded? First or second year of high school - back when I was majestically flunking algebra. Anything exciting taking place today? The day’s mostly over so not really, but looking back, it wasn’t a very exciting Sunday overall. In fact I was dreading having to wake up because I knew a nasty hangover was waiting to come pouring down on me D: What are you craving? A basket of Korean dumplings or mandu would be amazing right now. Is there anyone in the room with you? My mom is in the same floor (she’s making dinner), but I’m alone in the living room at the moment.

Who's the last person that made you laugh? Andrew, but that was hours ago. I just laughed over a meme five minutes earlier hahahahaha. What's your favorite color? Pastel pink. Who did you last hit? I don’t get physical with anyone. Do you like kool aid? I’ve never tried it. I’ve only ever seen it in upscale groceries in Manila too, so it’s not very accessible. Are you currently reading a book? No, I’m not. How do you do in school? I’m doing fine I guess. I never miss a deadline, am a good groupmate in projects and more often than not serve as the leader, and I’m still running for Latin honors after almost four years and despite signing up for a number of extracurricular positions and commitments, so I think I’m headed somewhere good. What's your biggest goal? Honestly my idea of being successful is conventional and traditional; I wanna be able to save up enough to be able to settle down, get a (big) house, and have kids. I’d LOVE to travel too but it’s not really my Ultimate Dream. Who have you texted today? Just Gab. It’s been a quiet day and most of my conservations have taken place on Messenger. What was the last thing you did before bed last night? I went over to my mom’s room to say hi because she asked me to drop by to let her know I’m already home (because I was out until 2 AM).

What's your biggest fear? Being humiliated/feeling embarrassed in front a large crowd. Look to your left...what's there? More of our couch. And to your right? Our electronic keyboard. Nina wanted to learn how to play the piano when she was around 9, and my parents fully supported her and got a brand-new keyboard and even hired a tutor for her. She ended up not pursuing it but we haven’t thrown the keyboard out, because we still tinker with it occasionally.

Who do you aspire to be like when you grow up? I don’t have a lot of role model figures in my life. I just want to end up with the best version of myself. Do you know if you want to go to college or not? College is necessary in the Philippines if you want to get anywhere in life, so yeah I kinda had to want to go to it. Laptop or desktop? Laptop. We never had a desktop computer so I lowkey never learned how to turn one on. Do you have an iPod? I technically do in that I own one and still haven’t thrown it out, but I haven’t used it since 2014 or 2015 maybe. Do you have a fan on in the room you're in? Yes, it’s pointed at me right now. Do you have a wallet? I do. What are you sitting on? On the living room carpet. Closest purple object? I’m not so sure. I’m looking around the room and I don’t think we have anything purple lying around. What's the last thing you had to eat? My mom made me fried rice and lumpia for dinner. Heaven. Do you like grapefruits? I don’t like fruits. Sweet or sour? SWEET Have you ever had the Reese's PB Candy Bars? Never. Do you know who Shawn Michaels is? Only one of the best professional wrestlers of all time. He’s very easily my Top 1. Who do you turn to if you need help? Gabie. Her words help more than anyone else’s. Are you more dependant or independant? I am dependent. Are you waiting for anything? Not really. Does the time 2 o'clock have any significance to you? Kind of. My grandma made sure our childhood siestas or afternoon naps started by 2 PM on the dot. As a kid I hated being forced to sleep SO MUCH, but it was an everyday, no-fail routine for a very long time, so it gave me a lot of memorable memories. Do you like bagels? They’re fine. I’d usually get something else at a bakery, but I don’t hate bagels. Are there any stuffed animals in the room you're in? No, just pillows on the couch. What do you think of guys who wear eyeliner? Nothing. They can do whatever they want if it makes them feel good. Favorite tv show? Breaking Bad. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? My mom. She was buying milk tea and wanted to ask what flavor I wanted. Where's your mother? She just finished making dinner so now she is chilling in her room. Do you know who the strongest man in the world is? No. Professional wrestler Mark Henry used to have that title, but he’s retired now so he clearly wouldn’t be the strongest in the world anymore. That’s all I know, lol. Do you like online games? Not really. Do you use Yahoo!Answers? Maybe when I was like 11 or 12. Nowadays I just enjoy it for the meme content. Are you too warm, too cold, or just right? Just right. Do you want a tattoo? I don’t daydream about it, but I’m not opposed to having one especially if the design would mean a lot to me. Is there anything hurting you, on your body right now? My toothaches are magically gone, I’M SO RELIEVED. I’m alright right now, I think. What's your most visited website? It would probably be Twitter. Are you tired? A bit. My hangover is gone but I didn’t get enough sleep overall today, so I’m still feeling a bit tired. What's the best time you've had in the past week? I had a date with Gab yesterday! We don’t get to have legit dates where we wear dresses and heels and go to a classy restaurant all the time, but we planned one out yesterday. It was amazing; we had dinner at this cute place and it was kinda dark so we got to have a candle at our table and just talked for hours :3 It was pretty late when we ended and we were about to go home, but we happened to pass by a jazz bar where a live band was playing so we dropped by for around an hour or so no matter how late it was. I had two Long Island Iced Teas too, so that added to the fun wahahaha. Have you ever been in a fist fight? No. Can you cook? Not even to save my life. What time is it? 7:14 PM. Do you love animals? Yes. <3 What's the last thing you touched that wasn't a part of the computer? My phone. What color are your eyes? Black. Are you waiting for a phone call? Not right now, no. Does it annoy you when dogs pant a lot? Why would it annoy me? Who's one person you care about more than yourself? Gab, clearly. How many hours of sleep did you get last night? Four. I only got to sleep by 2 AM but I had to wake up at 6 AM to prepare for morning mass, u g h. Are there any pets you're wishing for? Nope, I’m more than content with my dog. When's the last time you used hand sanitizer? Maybe in the last week or so, I’m not super certain. Are you waiting for a phone call? Again, no. Wearing anything that isn't yours? Nope, both top and bottom are mine. What is the most annoying thing in the world, to you? STUPID DRIVERS Whatcha gonna do now? =] Take another survey, hopefully.

[nacrepearl]

This anniversary, I wanted to pay tribute to the show by redrawing my favorite SDCC poster. With a few changes. It’s been 3 years since this poster came out on the internet, but it’s the poster for the first SDCC I experienced in this fandom. Below the cut is me being sentimental because I really love this show and its impact on my life is greater than one would think.

March 26th, 2015. I decide to watch Steven Universe after seeing gifsets of the first Stevenbomb on my dash from lingering members of the people who worked on my previous hyperfixation Attack on Space (A spinoff AU from the parent series Attack on Titan, which my interest in was fading quickly). I opt to watch the episodes that are on demand because they’re easier to access. I watch Alone Together first, Full Disclosure second (actual quote from me, who hadn’t known about SU’s musical nature: “Since when is SU a musical?!”). I then spend the next week or two watching the episodes on demand, then going onto KissCartoon to watch the series in order, in its entirety. (Quote when watching S1E05 Frybo: “I’m glad I’m watching these now before this inevitably becomes my new hyperfixation.” I have second hand embarrassment moments from this episode to this day). My brother decides to watch with me occasionally.

Fast forward to the end of March. I’m caught up with the series (back then only up to Joy Ride, which aired the day I began this journey). My friend Zac and I are now both into the show, and the following week Attack the Light comes out the same day that Say Uncle airs. Say Uncle is the first episode I watch live. I download ATL and finish it within a week. The rest of the weekly episodes (you heard me: weekly) were to follow and I was excited to officially be involved in the fandom. The beginning of April, I found the comics and I got to issue #5, the one where Pearl sucks in a gem-embedded book into her own gem and becomes ill from it. that was the day that I realized Pearl was my favorite character. Hurt/comfort is my way to tell.

I carry on watching the episodes throughout the month, and then after Reformed airs, we are faced with a hiatus. back then, a month and a half was a long time. Then, I got into the Pearl theories. I was all over the so called “nacre theory” right up until the theory had been confirmed in Back to the Barn (I still am, though the term “nacre theory” takes on a whole new meaning that I’m not sure will see the light of day now that we know more about Homeworld). You should have seen me go ham reblogging things about Pearl being lower-class, a lowly technician (ha), a maintenance drone. And all Pearls looked exactly the same back then in the fanart.

May 26th they announced the second Stevenbomb, half the fandom combusted. So did I. Sworn to the Sword happened and I had more fuel for the NT. I woke up that Thursday morning to a gifset of Pearl and Rose’s fusion dance because We Need to Talk leaked and spontaneously combusted right there. Then they announced Week of Sardonyx and our naive selves said “another one?” I went camping that weekend, which was also the weekend of SDCC. I nearly had a heart attack from my over-excitement when I got home that Sunday.

Week of Sardonyx came and went, with even more fuel to the fire for the NT. Cartoon Network does their greatest fuckup of the year by accidentally putting all of the Summer of Steven episode titles a whole year before they air. They changed the release date for the weekly episodes from August 6th to September 10th, and then we were graced by small Peridot on September 24th.

Back to the Barn airs. I die.

Then we go into a very long hiatus until Stevenbomb 4, airing in January 2016. This marks the first epsiodes to be leaked with the traditional screenshots + 2 minute clip. This was our first look at both diamonds + their pearls, and people were reasonably excited. Then we entered what we thought was the longest hiatus in fandom history–and we got the In Too Deep special earlier than expected.

Following the special, they announced the Steven Nuke/Summer of Steven. 4 weeks of episodes every night from mid-July to mid-August. Mr. Greg was the first musical episode and the crew hyped it up so much and yet it still had a huge impact on those watching that night. It was nominated for an Emmy one year later in 2017. We got some of the most intense episodes of the show in that bomb, with Amethyst’s arc, Bismuth holding the first half-hour special, the revelation that Rose supposedly shattered Pink Diamond, and Centipeetle’s corruption being explained further. Following SOS, there were weekly episodes and then another short hiatus, until Gem Harvest’s release in November. A short hiatus and then Three Gems and a Baby aired in early December.

During 2016, I meet two of my best friends through the fandom - @always-make-it-gayer and @hackerperidot. Gale and J have been my friends since that summer and because of this fandom, I’ve been less lonely and have had a blast in the ever growing group chat we have (Reverse Garden of Eden). I love you guys, and of course everyone else in the chat.

Following 3GAAB, in early January 2017, the entirety of Stevenbomb 5 drops on the app. Pictures with the diamonds and the zoo and the famethyst were on the internet in seconds. I had been on holiday break from school, and the night this all dropped was the first school night when the break was over. I stayed up very late, watched the episodes when I woke up for school in the morning, and listened to What’s the Use of Feeling Blue on repeat in the cold, snowy weeks to come. This was also right around the time my mom bought a house and we were ready to move in.

I got another birthday episode–Rocknaldo, airing on February 24th. Could’ve been better. I’m not complaining though. SU was crucial during this time because I was feeling very depressed and closed off due to the move and missing the apartment. The New Crystal Gems was the last episode the apartment got to see, and I promised to show Pearl’s backstory when it eventually aired, but we moved too early for that to happen. I like to imagine it can see my journal entries (you can ask if you want, in short it’s a coping mechanism I developed). Thereafter, we had another hiatus leading up to the sixth Stevenbomb with Aquamarine and Topaz. That bomb ended with the saddest episode in the series, finalizing season 4. Then the Wanted event aired, and we got so much lore content and more hints to the Pink Diamond mystery.

There came the biggest hiatus in the fandom’s history to this day. We were so thirsty for content. It was dry as fuck and the only light in the dark was SDCC with the Lars of the Stars clip (which would then air months later) and the trailer for the first half of season 5′s kickoff bomb.

Gemcation airs, and everyone finally understands Pearl’s quirk with covering her mouth in discussions about the diamonds. We all were getting so antsy at this point to find out what was happening with Pink Diamond and the lore behind the show and by god where is White Diamond?

We get Stranded in January 2018, allowing us to spark the “diamonds get revealed in January” meme with the Pink Diamond face reveal. Of course, this is debunked by Legs From Here To Homeworld in July 2018.

We get more episodes in March, and then are plunged into the final reveal in May with the half hour event, Can’t Go Back and A Single Pale Rose. The fandom collectively freaked out with the revelation that Pearl and Rose were diamond and pearl and faked the shattering in an effort to end the war. The people who survived this saw the Heart of the Crystal Gems arc in July. This was the week that held the Rupphire wedding.

Reunited airs, and I am surrounded by 3 of my best friends ( @asassynerdnamedgabbs, @neroblackcat, and @hackerperidot who had been visiting New York from Australia that week ) so I hold myself back from reacting too much. I cried that night out of sheer joy that my favorite show was the first cartoon to show a lesbian wedding on national TV. Of course, we get the diamonds and then SDCC the following weeks, with Legs From Here to Homeworld. I am at my cousin’s graduation party the day of the panel and my phone is slowly losing battery percentage as I try to keep up with the tweets and posts about what was going on. It was a huge deal.

Now we arrive here. Nothing had been shown at last month’s NYCC which is unusual, but that’s okay. We are still on hiatus, and it is SU’s 5th anniversary of being on the air. I am patiently waiting for the show to come back, and I’ll have more memories to make with this fandom in the months to come.

Happy Anniversary, SU!