#:-) i need to leave

[mimidroolz]

Just helping a friend out :)

[starlite-dragon-lair]

Please send me information about immigration to your country that wouldn't be on the government sites. Like customs and how walkable places are o thr job market.

[crimsonkenjii-writes]

Chewing on him. Why is he so cute???

[shima-draws]

If work is stressing me out so much that I start looking for other jobs (which I NEVER do bc. Scared™️) that's when I KNOW it's bad lmao

[contemporaryelfinchild]

The thing about doing a PhD is that it sounds nice to spend a long time working on a single project so you can do a really good job at it. But then you realize you are starting your 6th year working on the same thing, and you are so fucking done with it actually.

[johnlockissess]

funny how it is now 2024, 7 years have passed since tjlc was shot down by that horrible mess that was season 4, yet this simple fact doesn't seem enough to stop this weird phenomenon from occurring, where the longer you stare at meta the more you believe in tjlc again. you can't let it go it makes too much sense to be fake. you're suddenly waiting for a s5 that confirms it all. it's like some sort of brain tumor that regrows when you poke at it

[a-ikuoliver]

only way i could ever be into satoru is just as a ruse to get closer to suguru

[sga-owns-my-soul]

i'm this fucking close to walking out at work i fuckimg can't do this anymore

[dollypopup]

no but like. . .it really is just so fucking depressing. it's *so* fucking depressing walking into the tags and the archives and seeing post and after post and narrative after narrative of the same damn Pen stan power fantasy of Colin on hands and knees for forgiveness. of how stupid he is. of how we want other people to swoop in for Penelope.

I love this character. That feels like a rarity in this fandom, but fuck it, I do. I love him. I love Colin. I love Colin's recklessness and his silliness and his honor and his hero complex. I love that he doesn't say the right thing and that he's all but howling for someone to hear him. I love how he makes friends with all the unconventional people and I love how he doesn't subscribe to the same narrative as all the other couples. I love him for all he is. For his mess ups and his triumphs.

And forget what the show will have happen, but what is *wrong* with us, that we can't muster up ANY empathy for him at all? Don't you remember being 20 and with no idea what you'll do with your life? Don't you remember being young and aimless and unsure? Are you always perfect with what you say? With knowing when other people are interested in you? Have you never hurt someone's feelings without meaning to? Have you never said something about someone behind their back who means so much to you in a moment of poor judgement?

Don't you deserve tenderness and understanding, too? Why are we so punitive with him? I understand angst, I understand drama, but I don't know how we can be here for any period of time and not hate what we've done to him? Hate what we've done to *them*?

Is anyone listening? Is anyone there?

Do you know? Do you even *understand* how shitty it is? To pour so much love into this couple and see nothing but us hating on him? To have him as a favorite and see people calling him stupid, useless, hoping other people make him feel like shit? Nowhere is safe for us. Even his own SHIP isn't safe for us. It's just wanting him to grovel and be humiliated and jealous and sad. Where's her pride in him? Their support for each other? Where's the encouragement? The tenderness? Why have we taken their love story, that was meant to be about being messy, making mistakes, and being loved regardless, through it all, and turned it into a 'You have to suffer to deserve love' narrative, instead? Into having to be on hands and knees begging for care? Why is it everywhere? Why is there nowhere to go that isn't permeated with it? And why are WE the weirdos for loving him? Why are we the ones who need to suck it up and shut up? Why are we the ones getting bullied by other members of our ship? IT'S HIS SHIP.

What have we turned them into?

Colin is one of the best love leads in the entire series. THE best male love lead. No, I will not change my mind. And yes, I wholeheartedly believe it. Because I LOVE this couple. I love this couple so damn much. And every time I walk into these archives, I feel like some weirdo because everyone is salivating over the same Puritanical 'MAKE HIM SUFFER' shit and there's NOWHERE to go. There is never anywhere to go.

Why don't we love him more? Colin is fantastic. And doesn't Penelope deserve a fantastic partner? Doesn't Colin deserve a partner who strives to understand him?

Is the shape of our ultimate love story really one that's drawn facedown in the dirt?

[lottieurl]

Let Me Out Of Here [points at my own body]

[toenzy]

I’m so angry I’ve developed a headache

[chicago-geniza]

Fuck it. Applying to grad school in Wrocław

[ilostyou]

i hate it but i love you so i’m letting you go but you can always come back

[astrocyclops]

emergency. It involves my family. I feel terrible for asking ANYONE this, but ultimately I need to leave. I found a room at a friend’s, but they’re across states. A ticket to her state is $191 and Uber to airport is $52. If you cant donate, share this image around. If you can donate DM me

Thank you

[socks-wizard-money-gang]

What if she was right tho what if she was am I really nothing to them as well am I really nothing to anyone but a trophy

[swordwieldingenby]

why the fuck is it so important to people that I wear a fucking dress? I hate it so much. I look at myself in the mirror and I feel like someone else is looking back. someone people could love more. someone more normal. someone my mom could show to her friends. someone more palatable. someone else.

the sequins feel like forks stabbing me everywhere. I’m done. it doesn’t even fit the fucking carnival theme of the homecoming dance. my caretaker thinks I look nice. she says so. I look and feel wrong. maybe I could be a clown.

I want to rip it off, along with my skin at this point. I imagine showing up to school where everyone calls me Avi. where everyone I know sees me as a boy. or something close to that anyway. they see me as me. I’d get misgendered for the rest of the fucking year. I can’t leave this hell. I’m stuck with my mom for the foreseeable future.