#// alex my beloved 😭🫶🫶

[anjelagarrick]

comfort of a laugh track

alex keller x reader

summary: alex relishes the time he gets to share with you after being put on medical leave.

tags: ptsd, losing limbs, trauma recovery, established relationship, fluff with angst, clingy! alex, sharing a bed, sharing clothes, just two idiots in love, self deprecation

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ALEX BREATHES SLOWLY, his exhale fanning over the bare skin of your shoulder. You’re fast asleep, completely unaware of him still being awake in the early hours of the morning. Alex had a habit of sitting and pondering, it was both a comfort and also a curse. He hated silence, but sometimes he hated his thoughts even more; he certainly didn’t want to wake you for petty comfort over practically nothing. Of course, you’d insist that any discomfort was worth soothing away with gentle touches and hushed kisses behind closed doors, but Alex knows his mind, he can fight the creeping bile that sits in his sternum as he closes his eyes.

It truly never feels real, how he almost died, how he lost his leg; how he almost left you behind despite always promising he’d come home to you. Alex’s eyes open again, and he’s in his home; in bed, arms wrapped around you. He isn’t on a battlefield, bleeding out somewhere, nor on a medical gurney with an oxygen mask over his mouth and nose. Leaning forward, his sweaty forehead presses to your cool shoulder, facial hair slightly tickling you as you shuffle, taking a soft, sleepy breath. Alex waits for you to soothe again before moving, lips kissing your shoulder ever so gently before he nuzzles his face into the back of your neck. Holding you felt so surreal, like he was holding love itself- that ignited feeling never went away, and Alex knows he doesn’t want it to. He wants to love you forever.

Your hand presses over his, thumb running over his knuckles as you hum softly. “Go back to sleep.” He whispers, voice scratchy and coarse due to lack of use. “What’s the matter?” You stifle a yawn, leaning your back against his chest. “It’s nothing, hon. Just rest, yeah? You’ve got a busy day tomorrow.” Alex kisses behind your ear, turning his hand to thread his fingers between yours. You hum again, rolling over in his arms, letting your own arms curl around his middle as you bury your head under his chin. “You can always talk to me, baby. We’re in this together.” You croon, kissing his collarbone so gently he barely felt it. “I know, I just want you to rest for now. I know you’ve been stressed. It’s not easy having a crippled boyfriend.” Alex laughs, it’s strained.

You frown. “You’re not an inconvenience, so don’t even try that all that talk with me.” You scold, softly hitting his back. “Sorry.” Alex exhales; as tired as he is, he doesn’t want to close his eyes. “We’re in this together, baby. I promised you i’d always be here.” You let your hand move from his back, slowly massaging his tricep, just under his elbow. “I know, honey. I… I’m really thankful, for you… for the team. This hasn’t been easy. I can still feel my leg sometimes- it throws me off.” Alex finally closes his eyes, taking a small breath. “I know it’s not easy, love. But you’re strong, you’ve been doing so well at adjusting. You can do this.” You assure him, moving your head to press a kiss to his upper lip. Alex immediately chases you as you pull away, kissing you properly. “Thank you, baby.” He mutters, hand rubbing soft circles over your hip. “Of course..! I’ll always be here for support.” You coo, nose brushing against his gently. “Whether it’s in the middle of the night, in public or private; or even if you call me on the job. I’ll never abandon you.”

Alex smiles, warmth collected in his chest. “I love you, hon. You mean the world to me.” His voice rumbles a little in his chest due to the low volume, you hum softly in return. “I love you too, Alex.” You respond, kissing him again. “Are you going to try and sleep?” You ask, hand moving from his arm to cup his cheek, thumb rubbing against his cheekbone as your other fingers massage his jaw. Alex exhales softly, loving how your fingertips feel against his face. “I dunno, doll.” He mumbles. “That’s okay, baby. We can have some hot chocolate and maybe put on a movie?” You suggest, pulling away from his embrace as you sit up. “You need rest, baby.” He reminds you with a frown. It’s true, you were exhausted, but caring for your boyfriend in a hard time was your number one priority.

“It’s fine, hon. I don’t want you to be uncomfortable or upset.” You get up, pulling one of Alex’s shirts up over your head. Alex sits up, watching you in the dim light that seeped through the curtains. He knows he can’t say anything to convince you to get back into bed, watching as you saunter from the bedroom, turning on the hall light as you went. Shaking his head, Alex leans over, grasping his crutches. Slowly moving his leg over the bed, his foot hits the floor- he almost feels sick as his stump hangs off the bed. Taking a deep breath, Alex stands, leaning his weight upon the crutches. It was certainly difficult- he was embarrassed to be in public as he ambled so slowly beside you, yet you’d only smile patiently as you held open doors and rested a comforting hand upon his back. He didn’t deserve you.

Slowly, he moves his crutches forward before taking another step, then another, then another. It’s a very slow process, but he’s getting better at it. The kitchen light is on, and Alex takes a soft breath. The small apartment you two lived in felt like a massive mansion due to how long it would take Alex to get room to room. As he steps forward, his foot slips, back hitting the floor with a harsh thud as his crutches clutter to the ground. With a defeated sigh, Alex tries to blink away tears- he felt useless. “Baby, are you alright?!” You stress, kneeling beside him, hand gently touching his head. “Yeah- sorry… just slipped is all.” Alex sighs, staring at the ceiling above. “Oh, Alex…” you whisper, wiping the corners of his eyes gently. “I’m sorry.” He responds on instinct- he’d been doing that a lot recently. “Don’t be. Come on, let’s get you up.” Slowly, you help Alex up, having him lean upon the wall as you grab one of his crutches. “Lean on this,” you hand him the crutch, letting him slowly lean his weight upon it as you retrieve the other.

“I feel like such a burden.” Alex huffs out a bitter laugh, watching you frown. “No, you’re not. Not to me.” You kiss his cheek, resting a hand upon his back as he slowly tries walking again. Slowly, he finally eases himself onto the couch, sighing softly. “Stay right here, hon. I’ll finish making our drinks.” Leaning down, you kiss his cheeks, cradling his head for a second before pulling away. Alex slumps into the cushions with defeat. He missed going on runs, it was one of his favourite things to do in the mornings, but now he could barely walk to the kitchen without needing you to help him. “How pathetic…” he muses bitterly, glaring at the stump where his full leg once was. “So fucking stupid- why did I let this happen?” Clenching his right fist, Alex takes a deep breath- slowly trying to release the guilt from his chest.

“Alex, baby. Are you alright?” You ask, sitting beside him as you hand him a freshly hot mug. “Yeah, m’fine.” He breathes out, hand tangling into yours as you rest your mug upon your thigh, grabbing the tv remote. “What do you feel like watching?” You ask, head resting against his shoulder. “I don’t mind, baby. You choose.” Alex responds, closing his eyes. He’s back in that damn place again, jaw clenched- head spinning, Farah is there, helping him- trying to bring him back to consciousness. He can feel his leg, it hurts- “Alex.” You pat his shoulder a little, he opens his eyes. He’s on the couch with you, your eyes are worried. “Are you okay?” You ask softly, hand lingering upon his shoulder, thumb smoothing his creased shirt as he breathes. “Yeah. I’m all good, baby. Just… remembering things.” He responds, blinking a few times. “Try to focus on the tv, baby. Just relax.” You kiss his jaw softly, ignoring how his beard scratches your face as you settle against him. Alex throws a spare arm around your shoulders, squeezing you close as his other hand holds his mug, resting it upon the thigh of his mostly missing leg.

As Alex sits in thought, mostly thoughts full of self deprecating words and loathing himself, he’s brought back by you; you’re just shuffling to get a little more comfortable, but it alerts him of his surroundings again. He’s in home, he can see you, feel you, smell the jasmine incense you’re always burning throughout the day as you adored the smell, as well as insisting that it promoted happiness and would help Alex relax. Alex exhales, it’s slow- soothing. Taking a sip of his hot chocolate, he watches the old sitcom rerun you had found on one of the channels, relishing the comfort of a laugh track.

[formulafics]

VALENTINES DAY

Scenario: a peak into some of the grids Valentine’s Day with yn. <;3

Includes: charles leclerc, alex albon, lando norris, george russel, mick shumacher, yuki tsunoda, and logan sargeant.

A/N: this is another super short post, BUT AT LEAST ITS A POST 🙌🏻 as always, shoutout to my beloved @renarots for fueling ideas that go into these fics 🥰

charles_leclerc and ynln

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charles_leclerc Happy Valentines Day - Mr & Mrs. Leclerc ❤️💍

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ynln obssesed with you for life 😚

⤷ formulaleclerc SOBBING I LOVE YN AND CHARLES

arthur_leclerc ❤️❤️

lovelyleclerc CHARLES AND YN ENGAGEMENT WAS NOT ON MY 2024 BINGO CARD WHAT THE FUCK

alex_albon and ynln

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alex_albon valen-time for a valentines dump

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ynln were literally so cool 😎

⤷ logansargeant the coolest 💯

⤷ formulaoneoneone logan is NEVER beating the yn and alex are his parents allegations

lando.jpg and ynln

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lando.jpg 4 years down, forever to go. 😚

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ynln I love you forever my sweet boy

⤷ ynln and happy Valentine’s Day, everyone! 🥰

norriswrld their anniversary being on Valentine’s Day may just be the most devastating thing in the world

⤷ ln4nation LITERALLY.

ynln and georgerussel63

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ynln my forever valentine. ❤️

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georgerussel63 love you to the moon and back. 🌙❤️

⤷ amgr63 this is so sick and twisted george 😭

mickshumacher and ynln

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mickshumacher my favorite girls for life. happy valentines day ❤️

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ynln micky, the people want to know - do you love me or Angie more?

⤷ mickshumacher yes.

⤷ shumishumi THIS IS SUCH A CUTE RESPONSE IM ON THE FLOOR

yukitsunoda0511 and ynln

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yukitsunoda0511 happy valentines ❤️

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ynln you’re my favorite human 🥹

cryingoverf1 what do y’all know about yn and yuki being the best couple on the paddock? NOTHING.

yukisgirl these are my parents btw guys (yn and yuki adopt me challenge)

logansargeant and ynln

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logansargeant happiest man in the world 🫶🏻

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ynln happiest girl in the world 🥰

⤷ formulasargeant GOD THEYRE SO CUTE

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thank you for reading! <3

[superpyodan]

do Alex and Kenny ever get married? :3

rubs my hands together like a fly

YES. and i have a LOT to say about it. and some doodles to accompany it. so please bear with me.

first of all !!!

it takes Alex and Kenny a while to get married. like, five, six years? because they both have some complicated feelings about marriage. kenny’s one of those people who doesn’t necessarily agree with marriage as a concept, whereas alex feels weird about the concept of getting married while being in a gay relationship. which is obviously something he works through, and then eventually he manages to convince kenny to marry him (lol). however, it’s kenny who proposes to alex. and alex cries his eyes out like a baby, obviously.

SO !!!!!!!

immediately prior to the wedding, haley, emily and evelyn help alex get ready. haley is STRESSED TO HELL, because she is so determined to make everything perfect. but she’s also an emotional mess, because like, HER BEST FRIEND IS GETTING MARRIED. (also, in the alex & kenny canon, abby and haley are girlfriends and get married a couple of years before alex and kenny do.)

shane and abby help kenny get ready!!!

kenny does not know how to tie a tie. because he is a fucking idiot. so shane does it for him, and abby does kenny’s hair!!! for kenny, the pre-wedding preparations are a lot more chill, tbh. he’s personally less anxious than alex is, and abby and shane are just being silly and cracking jokes and stuff. good vibes

the wedding:

(LOOK AT KENNY’S HAIR😭😭❤️❤️❤️ ABBY DID SUCH A GOOD JOB 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️)

they get married. on the beach, in the summer. emily made alex’s suit — they chose to both wear blue, because it’s kenny’s favourite colour :’) kenny doesn’t like wearing suits though, so they came to a compromise and decided that he didn’t have to wear a jacket.

sam is kenny’s best man, which is the most hilarious thing of all time, because sam and kenny have… history. he didn’t initially ask sam, he asked abby, but abby suggested sam instead because it would be funny. so. yeah sam is the best man and everyone makes jokes about it all day.

evelyn walks alex down the aisle. jas is the flower girl (starts crying)

here is (very sloppily drawn JHSKSJ) abby and haley being VERY proud of themselves because they entirely take personal responsibility for alex and kenny’s relationship. AND THEY HAVE THE RIGHT TO !!!!!

and here’s the full doodle page i did 😢

id like to add that like . the wedding is very emotional for them, because kenny never thought anyone would ever love him enough to marry him, and alex never thought he’d be comfortable in his sexuality to the point where he could not only be in a relationship with a man, but MARRIED to one. like…. i wanna cry just thinking about it tbh because they both went through a lot to get here and im so happy for them 😭😭😭😭😭😭 talking about them like they’re real people wtf

i will BE QUIET now but thank you for asking me this question i had a lot of fun with it 😭🫶🏻 alex and kenny my beloveds….

[littlechillis]

Hello! I'm sorry to bother you but I was wondering if you might be able to recommend some Arsenal blogs? I am new to Tumblr and don't really know where to start haha

hii hii!! omg no bother at all, i'd love to!!! welcome to gunnerblr, i hope you're prepared for the shitshow brought to you by my beloveds ��💕

in no particular order at all:

@barbiegirlmartin my wifey! posts slay edits, the sweeeeetest and deals with my bullshit on the daily 😚💗

@fabiovieiras funniest ever, talented editor, and a blessing on the dash <3 founding mother of fabinelli hive!!

@colorsofmyseason / @anothercolorsofmyseason i believe was the first arsenal blog i followed! always super up-to-date with content 🫡

@mccleans a local celebrity i must say so myself, sometimes posts mustafi/mourinho/etc jumpscares but we all love her abundantly anyway <3

@robholdingprotocol makes GORGEOUS text edits (idk what they're called exactly..) that make me cry into my pillow 🫶

@footballandshit not a strictly arsenal blog, but such a lovely person and makes very very cool art i don't see elsewhere!!

@maiteo a puter genius so i've heard! eye-candy spreader on the dash 🤭

@santicazorla arsenal and f1, jorginho fucker but i love her very much 😚😚

@wvldorf the queen of fancams... the Mother the Creator 😩💓

@smithrowed and @permertesacker the gif creators that keep on giving !! didn't watch the game? don't even worry bc they WILL deliver ‼️

@trentskis arsepool blog, it's giving mixed marriage!!! 💏

@sunatron literally JUST posted not one, but TWO fancams that i'm obsessed with (hii wiloooo) 🙈

also VERY important mentions, respected nelli hive members: @ne11i @starboygabi @gabriel-martinelli @victorosim 🫡

@bukayos speaks truth only btw 😤

@mikarteta is so so friendly and sweet, impossible to not like 🥺

@vivstenius my most trusted awfc source!!

@alex-iwobi literally so fkn funny?? i cannot be rbing every single text post like !! 😭

@chelleisamazing mixed with bundesliga too so you might learn a thing or two!

@albert-anon a niche blog but is a centre of worship for our beloved assistant coach 😌

@odegaardism certified ødegirlie but also my sister in the østihive <33

[baeshijima]

Lowkey want to play the yumekuro game even if I dont understand a lil thing about it since it is only available in japanese :') I stalked the account who post the illustrations and. OH. MY.GOD. they are all so pretty and breathtaking????? I think this is the prettiest and most gorgeous artstyle in gacha games I've ever seen. I'm really shocked not gonna lie.

ALSO WARNING long ramble ahead since some hot guys caught my attention while looking huehuehue >:D

this victor guy caught my eye first especially the fourth picture LIKE DAMN i wish i was the gun lol AKJSAKA

this howl-lookalike looks so cute too and the type of guy who will tease you nonstop

AND THIS ALEX GUY because for some reason he reminds me of xiao

THIS GUY TOO i REALLY have a feeling he's part of a mafia BECAUSE LOOK AT HIM im really weak when it comes to mafia boys in a game he's so hot plsssssss

AND LASTLY THIS ONE absolutely breathtaking i cant stop staring at him and this card illustration BECAUSE WOW.... i really have no words. The artist/s behind the art production is really really talented

IM FINALLY HOME AND ON MY COMPUTER SO I CAN ANSWER THIS !!! and dw i feel u on that 😭 ive been wanting to play for so long but the constant switch from my region to jpn region would be too much.... jpn enstars i can manage bc i rarely requires updates but idk how often yumekuro updates 😭 might try it and see... for my beloved cyrus and kuchen.....

bUT YES THEIR ART STYLE IS LITERALLY THE PRETTIEST AND THATS WHAT FIRST DREW ME TO IT 😭🫶 literally screaming crying throwing up all over again while going through the links bc i remember first seeing those cgs an dhhhmfhmds i want a global release... but at the same time.... how good will the translations be.... head in hands....

[carebearcody]

it‘s early for you but here it is CERTIFIED ALEX BDAY HOURS !!! happy happy happy birthday my love ♥️🥹💜✨ i know this year has been rough and at times has been downright cruel so here‘s to another year older but another year that is kinder and softer for you my dear friend! ❤️❤️❤️🌟 thank you for your energy and your humour and the way you make us laugh and the way you love!!! im so glad i can call you friend. nothing makes me happier than waking up or coming home from work to see +12 discord notifications from you or a „PREV TAG“ and knowing that even though we are so far away from each other you are actually right here!!! i love you i love you i love you ❤️🥹 i hope you have a marvellous day and eat something delicious and do something fun 💜💜💜 you deserve the world and im forcing the universe to give it to you with all my might!!! 🪐💜✨

jay oh my goodness i’m tearing up wait 😭 thank u beloved, im so happy this silly little sport brought us together bc i get to know u :’)))) i love u sooooo much, even tho we’re on opposite sides of the world i feel like ur always right here w me and i adore u and yeah 🫶🏽

[rammy-selfships]

NO I AGREE NOT ONLY IS THE PERSON WHO MADE THAT BILL DESIGN A B1LLD1P SHIPPER I JUST PERFER THE ONE ALEX DREW AND OTHER HUMAN DESIGNS 😭like @/candyheartedchy’s design is a GREAT example of cool bill designs, chubby bill my beloved 💖

normal triangle man i love the most cause i still love him the way he is 🫶

Am I wrong???

[peaceisadirtyword]

German Vikings Con🫶🏼

I wasn’t going to post these here because I don’t like how I look but I just love these pictures too much🥹❤️ Not only I was lucky enough to see Alex again, but I also met Jordan and he was the sweetest🥰

I first met Jordan for his autograph. I took my favourite pic of Ubbe so he could sign it and he was so sweet and nice to me! His smile was amazing😭 he asked me if he’d see me again and I said yes, so when I came to his photo op he was like “hello love! I was missing you” and I nearly cried (hence my face in the pic, because he hugged me and I was freaking out). I saw him a few times during the convention, and he was always smiling and being absolutely perfect and I just love him even more now❤️

(I’ll leave this pic here even though the quality is terrible because I want you guys to appreciate his smile🥲)

Alex was, as always, the main character of the story of my life. He recognised me (the memory that man has) and he gave me an amazing hug during the photo op. He always had a smile for me🫶🏼 the pic with him is absolutely perfect even though my face kind of ruins it but I don’t really care! During the Meet&Greet he was so close and open with us! And he talks a lot🥹 I never thought I’d meet someone that talks as much as I do, so it’s very nice. He described himself as a siberian husky and I can’t agree more with that😭❤️ I had some gifts for him for the autograph, so I couldn’t talk that much with him bc I had some autographs for other people :( but that’s okay because I’m seeing him again very soon🫶🏼 he greeted me with a “hey gorgeous” and a soft smile, he hugged me and I made him laugh, which is like the biggest accomplishment of my entire life. He was a delight, and I can’t wait to see him again🥰

I also had the chance to talk to Alexander. He was also very nice even though we all could see he was a bit tired (he spent days giving concerts around Germany🥺). When I thanked him for coming, he gave me the biggest smile and thanked me. He’s amazing, I’ve seen him in many projects besides Vikings since I was little so it was a dream getting to talk to him!

I saw Ida too! She’s the sweetest, and so cute🥺 also Ragga, who is even more beautiful in person! And Jasper, who was very nice to me even though we didn’t have much time! I would have loved to interact with more of the guests, especially John Kavanagh because both my mum and I are huge fans of his work, but unfortunately there wasn’t much time and I had a tight budget😅

It was an exhausting but amazing day. I also got to meet people I’ve been taking to for years and that became friends to me and that was fantastic too! I loved spending an entire day surrounded by people that love the same things I do. It’s like therapy❤️ I loved every single minute of it, even the stressful parts😂 they’re always worth it.

Next week I’ll travel to Paris to see Alex again and to finally meet my beloved Marco🫶🏼 I can’t even explain how thankful and excited I am when I think about it. The convention is one day before my birthday so I also get to spend my birthday in Paris with my family (I have family in France I haven’t seen in a while bc of the pandemic💔). It’s perfect🫶🏼

If you’ve read all of this, thank you❤️ I truly hope every single person in this fandom has the chance to enjoy days like this one. We deserve it🥰 and it helps to cope with reality when life becomes too much💖

[carebearcody]

happy birthday my beloved alex 💘💘💘💘💘💘💘 hope ur having the bestest day despite the thiago injury and liverpool giving away charity points to fullham rip …. thank u for making footyblr so fun and also for sharing my mentally ill liverpoolie brain ilysm sending lots of love mwah 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩💋

makeososoeier thank u sm miss annika my fellow mentally ill sportsblr user!!! ipls i will be marching up to la axa asap to give thiago my hamstring and then threatening the whole squad abt that performance on saturday - ily so so so much even when u make me cry with ur webweaving posts 🫶🏽🥹💘😭💞💋😽

[elettralightwood]

First 100 pages ✨

Imagine watching both Stiles Stilinski and Alex Claremont-Diaz playing lacrosse 😮‍💨 Alex, babes, u wanna fuck him so bad it makes you look stupid 🫶 "Alex’s kind of love story is much more Shakespearean." Someone has to tell him 💀 No cause twelve years old Alex wanting to keep a pic of Henry? Y'all are gonna have to sedate me 😃 "4. Any information regarding or involving HRH Prince Henry’s personal or private life not previously released by official Royal documents, speeches, or approved biographers, including any personal or private relationship the Guest may have with HRH Prince Henry; 5. Any information found on HRH Prince Henry’s personal electronic devices." This is actually heartbreaking ☹️ Sleepy Henry 🥹 "A blue-haired girl in the crowd lifts up a homemade poster that reads in big, glittery letters, GET IN ME, PRINCE HENRY! " OOP 💀 "He’s been aware for too long that most people don’t navigate thoughts of whether they’ll ever be good enough or if they’re disappointing the entire world." Same here my boy 🫡 All of the hospital scene is permanently engraved in my brain 😪 I'm liking this Rafael guy 😌 "Ellen says, starting on another slice crust-first." Immediately jail 😦 "Henry’s super into classical mythology" just like me 🥹 "You keep doing that stupid smile every time you look at your phone. Who are you texting?" Full on giggling 🤭 Who is writing a ff about Alex and Macron 💀 Istg i've seen every movie and tv show they talk about in this book 😎"Alex doesn’t know why Henry never responds to his selfies from bed." I might have a theory 🤔 The turkeys phone call, best thing to ever happen 🤝 "i sent pics of turkeys so i deserve pics of your animals too." ALEX U SNEAKY FUCKER 🤭 "he’s right back in his teens, caring too much about his parents and helpless to change his situation." This one hit a bit too close to home y'all 🫥 STFU HE CALLED HENRY 😭 "I don’t know. I’ve been kind of ... off ... lately.” Alex, babes 🙂 "something feels so restless and hot somewhere beneath his sternum. / He spots Alex, and his smile broadens." Two idiots in love 🤧 “Here,” Alex says, moving his own hips, “watch me.” With a grave gulp of champagne, Henry says, “I am.” Henry is holding on to his champagne for dear life. GIVE MY MAN A BREAK 💀 Alex likes the look on Henry’s face, the sure curl of his hand around the neck of the bottle, the way his lips wrap around the mouth of it. Horny jail 🚨 Maybe he can absorb some of the “much” from the place where their shoulders are pressed together. Thanks for asking, i am not well 😀 THEY KISSED MOTHERFUCKERS I AM SO UNWELL RIGHT NOW Y'ALL ARE GONNA HAVE TO SEDATE ME

"Go fuck yourself.” “Hardly enough time,” Henry says. Jaw on the floor. Left completely speechless. Iconic behavior.

“No need to apologize,” Henry tells her. “Rebel commanders outrank royalty.” He shoots Claudette a wink and a salute." Henry my beloved 😭

"a picture of Henry’s dog wearing a Slytherin scarf. (i don’t know WHO you think you’re kidding, you hufflepuff-ass bitch, Alex texts back, before Henry clarifies his dog, not him, is a Slytherin.)" This is literally a married couple.

"You are the thistle in the tender and sensitive arse crack of my life." "Thanks!" OH MY GOD 💀

"I thought you’d kill me in a more personal way. Silk pillow over my face, slow and gentle suffocation. Just you and me. Sensual.” “Ha. Well.” Henry coughs. My brother in christ was fighting for his life every second ☠️

"And I know you like Henry.” “Shut up,” Alex says. He brushes a finger under his collar and finds his skin damp. Do they always have to crank the heat up this high when it’s snowing outside? “This is interesting,” Nora observes. “No, it’s not,” Alex snaps. “Fine, he can come. But if he doesn’t know anybody else, I’m not babysitting him all night.” “I gave him a plus-one,” June says. “Who is he bringing?” Alex asks immediately, reflexively. Involuntarily. Oh he panicking panicking 🤭

"Please do smack me if this is out of line, but you are the most exquisite woman I have ever seen in my life." “You’re a charmer,” June says, smiling indulgently “And you are a goddess.” I would've blushed SO HARD.

It feels as steady and huge as the ground under their feet, as encompassing of every part of him, as likely to knock the wind out of his lungs. SHUT THE FUCK UP 😭

Whoever told me Alex wasn't in love from the start was LYING to me. He didn't realize it, yes, but boy was whipped!

Reading Red White and Royal Blue and reacting every 100 pages ❤️💙

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Like, he’s pretty sure he’s straight. Sure babes 🫶 Straight people, he thinks, probably don’t spend this much time convincing themselves they’re straight. Lmao 💀 No cause Alex falling face first because he was having horny thoughts about Henry is top tier 🫡 "Prince Henry is a biscuit,” Nora says, “let him sop you up." NORA OH MY GOD ☠️ "He likes you. He’s freaking out." I wanna cry myself to sleep 🙂 Jealous Alex is so hot pls 😮‍💨 Amy my beloved 🫶 His suit is black, smooth, elegant. Perfect. Alex wants to rip it off. Honestly, same 😌 His footsteps stutter, as if he’s thinking of making a run for it. Alex is not above a flying tackle. I would pay real money to witness this 💀 Henry, the prince. Henry, the boy in the garden. Henry, the boy in his bed. Poetry ✍️ There’s something about the two of them, the way they ignite at different temperatures, Alex’s frenetic energy and Henry’s aching sureness. Idk why i love this sentence so much 👏 Alex is living for it, watching Henry come undone, letting him be whatever he needs to be while alone with Alex behind a locked door. No cause the "be whatever he needs to be" got me crying 😀 Henry rolls over onto his back. Alex’s body wants to follow and tuck into his side, but he stays where he is. DUMB BITCH 🤺 His eyes flicker down to Alex’s hip, where it’s bared above the sheet, and he says as much to himself as to Alex, “I am very, very gay.” HORNY JAIL 🚨 he throws his head back and laughs, and it’s only him, the nerdy, neurotic, sweet, insomniac rich guy who constantly sends Alex photos of his dog, and something slots into place. Y'all i feel tears coming 🙂 "people are writing fan fiction about y’all" so real 💯 I absolutely loved how panicked Alex was during and after the polo match 🤭 OH WE GOT BUTTERCREAM INVOLVED ALRIGHT 🧁 Alex’s heart goes so fucking weird that he has to put his head in his hands for a full minute. Just like me reading this book 🤝 Henry my baby 🥺 All on board the Remus is gay train 🚂 Aw Alex being proud of his sexuality 🥹 binds Henry’s wrists to a hotel bedpost with his own necktie OH DAMN ALRIGHT 👔 "I did get both of the gay kings,” Henry points out. “There’s a prophecy for you.” Another iconic line 🙇‍♀️ BABY 😭 I'm literally gonna protect Henry and Bea for the rest of my life 🫂 also Alex and June 🫂 and Alex wants so badly to see the shadows of expressions moving across his face, to be able to touch them with his fingertips STFU 🤧 June really said "babes u really thought u were hiding it well?" 🫵 You have so much in you, it’s almost impossible to match it. But he’s your match, dumbass. 🥹 it’s not my fault he’s a mysterious and retiring young royal and you’re the tempestuous ingénue that caught his eye Speaking nothing but the truth 🫡 Shaan sweetheart 🫶 "Say good morning to your strumpet, Henry.” “Good morning, strumpet,” Henry says, glancing away from the road to wink at the camera. That's a powerful bottom right here 🫵 Alex feels calmer knowing somewhere in Wales, Henry got a decent night’s sleep. Crying and screaming 👹 I'm sorry what happened to Rafael 20 years ago??? 🤨 Hoe Dameron 💀 Cash 🥹 Come back to me when you’re done being flung through the firmament, you lost Pleiad. STFU??🤧 I’ve already been in the royal box ALEX PLS 💀 Philip is such a dickhead, i hate it sm 🤬 I'M SORRY WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK???? RAFAEL???

THE RED ROOM SCENE AND THE ONE RIGHT AFTER Y'ALL OH MY GOD I'M HYPERVENTILATING

“I’m going to die,” Henry says helplessly. “I’m going to kill you,” Alex tells him. “Yes, you are,” Henry agrees. I just love them so much 🫡

Reading the emails giggling and kicking my feet and then remembering they get leaked and i find myself crying and sobbing 💃

Henry sinks to his knees on the white marble and looks up at Alex with big, blue, bottomless eyes, and Alex doesn’t know a word in any language to describe it. He forgets they don’t spend the night. So, they do. He discovers Henry sleeps curled up on his side, his spine poking out in little sharp points that are actually soft if you reach out and touch them, very carefully so as not to wake him because he’s actually sleeping for once. In the morning, room service brings up a copy of Le Monde that Alex makes Henry translate out loud. They're keeping it casual guys!! No feelings involved!!

But Perfect Stoic Prince Charming laughs when he comes, and texts Alex at weird hours of the night: You’re a mad, spiteful, unmitigated demon, and I’m going to kiss you until you forget how to talk. And Alex is kind of obsessed with it. Keeping it so casual!!!!

GUYS THE PHASE "NO FEELINGS INVOLVED" IS OVER, I REPEAT, THE FEELINGS ARE VERY MUCH INVOLVED 🗣️

Was the phone call where they talk about Bea and Henry's dad and Henry and Alex's childhoods written specifically to shatter my heart in millions of tiny little pieces or what?? No cause it worked.

He looks down at the magazine and feels the corner of his mouth tug upward. “He looks so different,” he says after a long minute, gazing down at the baby Henry on the page and his easy, unfledged sureness. “I mean, like, obviously. But the way he carries himself.” His fingertips brush the page in the same place they did when he was young, over the sun-gold hair, except now he knows its exact texture. It’s the first time he’s seen it since he learned where this version of Henry went. “It pisses me off sometimes, thinking about everything he’s been through. He’s a good person. He really cares, and he tries. He never deserved any of it.” I really don't have anymore tears you guys please :D

THE KARAOKE SCENE AND WHAT HAPPENS RIGHT AFTER??? AND THE SLEEPY CUDDLES??? AND THE MORNING AFTER???? Y'ALL 😭😭😭

The moment you first called me a prick, my fate was sealed. O, fathers of my bloodline! O, ye kings of olde! Take this crown from me, bury me in my ancestral soil. If only you had known the mighty work of thine loins would be undone by a gay heir who likes it when American boys with chin dimples are mean to him. HENRY OH MY GOD 💀

Reading Red White and Royal Blue and reacting every 100 pages ❤️💙