#/ it goes veeeery well with all kinds of things

[astarab1aze]

i wanna say that bloodwine is some super fancy thing, but it's kind of not. it's just the only wine that tastes kind of decent by itself and paired with other things. it's like... a palate cleanser, more than anything, that you can get drunk off of. it's also the only wine that can effect most nightfolk, some magical properties to it but nothing extraordinary, unless you count nightfolk being able to actually get drunk on it as extraordinary. it's plain and nondescript in flavor, but can taste the faintest bit sweet, tart, bitter, or dry depending on what you pair it with. recipes and blends are proprietary, so no one shares them.

true to its name, bloodwine is blood red, similar in consistency to fresh blood and stains just as badly. you'll never get it out of your clothes if you spill it, and that's really where it gets its name. no one knows who it was really invented by, what its intended name was, but it's been apart of their culture since forever ago. somebody somewhere once said it was 'what the gods drank the night they created the world' and, well, nightfolk and their drama.

[ptsdangeldust]

i generally get the impression that alastor's body is kind of being held together with duct tape.

or, you know, stitches, anyway.

i do think it goes back to the idea of [the thing he's based on] "wearing a person's skin" for sure.

it wouldn't surprise me if the green is important too?? his deal-magic (including the chains around husk) is always green. the stitches here are green. his irises are green, too.

i've heard people talk about how they think the stitches over his mouth are symbolic of him not being able to speak about his own contract but it feels more to me like he's like... bursting at the seams? in a sense?

he's had the stitches when he's in his "true" form before, too. and not just in his face - in his clothes, too.

i do agree he seems to be literally unable to stop smiling. could also be playing on doll / ragdoll type of themes.

also, his power and radio voice effect both immediately disappeared once his mic stand was broken. he could retreat but that was it.

my only real theories that coincide with this at the moment are:

alastor's deal is tied directly to the mic itself. all of his tentacle powers and such (and probably the deal making things) are directly from there. so he's not naturally overlord level; he made a contract to artificially inflate his power. (probably his shadow teleportation thing is his own power, though)

zestial is maybe involved somehow. maybe he's not the one alastor directly struck the deal with, but he's notably both 1) green, and 2) has stitches in his design (on his hat). also, alastor is weirdly cagey and nervous around him and only him, of literally anyone we've seen him interact with thus far.

notably, zestial is also the only one who has the remotest idea where alastor has been. he has a line about alastor falling into "holy hands" in the above scene, which alastor is quick to neither confirm nor deny. zestial also makes a comment about no one quite knowing how alastor got to hell in the first place. veeeery interesting.

the "holy hands" line could bode well for the "alastor's deal is with lilith" theory, though, since we now know lilith has been in heaven this whole time. obviously alastor has had his powers since long before his absence, but he could've maybe been ordered by lilith to come to heaven when she did.

i think the idea that this is not alastor's real body in some way makes a lot of sense with the notion that he "appeared out of nowhere" and already had crazy overlord-conquering powers. if he was already a resident of hell with a different body who had suddenly gained a new appearance and new powers, it would be easy to just act like he had suddenly gotten there. this way it would make him look a lot more legitimate, too.

there's also the X on his forehead in his "true form" where a third eye would be... and X's (over missing eyes, anyway) are associated specifically with angels.

... or, you know, more specifically, exorcists. who are all girls. so if this idea was relevant it'd have to mean one or more of three things: 1) this is an all-angel thing not an exorcist-specific thing, 2) not all exorcists are (or at least always *were*) girls, 3) alastor is trans. i like the latter honestly

could also just be another stitch, too. who knows.

....... i think i'm grasping for straws at this point. anyway. thanks for reading this far LOL i don't have a real conclusion to come to. would love to hear other peoples' thoughts.

[silverystrings]

whether for good or ill

i think that there is so much tension and hatred towards house of the dragon and has been since the beginning, that hating on the writers and everyone involved has become too much. i just don’t think that sara and ryan are d&d. d&d and everyone involved in game of thrones were arrogants and misogynists and thought that they were better. i mean by the end they didn’t give a fuck that much.

but with ryan and sara, i think they aren’t those arrogants and misogynists despite the contrary beliefs. i think they geniunely enjoy the world and they tried a different approach. they are the not like the other girls. jk jk unless..

no but this particular history was difficult to do either way. we are talking about the targaryens; the incest made them mad blood purist “perception” of the audience//general/local audience. and they do start with “they are their own enemy/downfall”. so i don’t think they have forgotten that. they have “themes”. and yes they have tried to do a character arc for everyone in big and small ways. and yes hbo crossing two other episodes probably damaged this second season a lot. i mean season 1 was also like this until the last two episodes where shit it’s at its peak. and the second season probably could have ended up too in that way.

as some reactor said, it felt like in this finale everyone kind of found themselves, even more setting up to do for season three.

daemon in the finale of season 1 wasn’t really loyal to rhaenyra in the complete sense. the way he was looking at her at visenya’s funeral, the clashing in the council, the choking, the way he said “dreams didn’t make us kings, dragons did” ????????? and the scene in the second season with rhaenyra, the way she says my throne, and he throws it in her face what he thought all along, that viserys chose her because of daemon.. and then he goes to harrenhal alone, tries to be a king, gets haunted by all these “dreams” and finally understands and supports Rhaenyra fully, that she is the rightful queen, and the part they play in the greater story. we know that season 3 and potentially 4 are just deaths after deaths. and as a lot have predicted, they probably will be estranged again. but it won’t be for the throne, for the heir, for this thing that has been between them since the beginning of the show. it will be because of his daughters. (laena;have you looked after our girls)

alicent—i don’t think the writers did nothing with her. i mean they love liv and what she brings to the table and alicent. they never wouldn’t have a plan for her character. she is a character that is the only one who survives and dies the last. as i said i don’t define her character as her being a mother. in fact that’s why ryan and sara are better at bringing something different. constantly in game of thrones we have all the women or the contraversial ones like cersei or catelyn but especially cersei: have being a mother define her character. “your love for your children is the only redeeming quality. if it wasn’t for my kids i would have thrown myself off the red keep a long time ago.” there are so many scenes and quotes about cersei and her loving her children and doing everything for her children. and yes that’s great. but in the books, she wants to rule for herself because her time has come, and she doesn’t want tommen to rule or learn or anything. yes she cares deeply and is constantly concerned for their well being. but still in the show it was very exaggerated. because they loved cersei but the audience didn’t. so her one quality was her motherhood. and that’s great. but as i said sara and ryan don’t make motherhood their only quality. alicent is a child bride and she has a veeeery complicated relationship with her kids. and her crowning aegon is definitely moreso because her and otto truly believed in keeping the peace of the realm. having a female heir, war was gonna follow. so that’s why alicent did it. yes the viserys part it’s oopsies but i mean dreams and tragedy are a targaryen thing and not far fetched. so she did that. and she completely lost. and by the end she sees that this isn’t “right” and wanting war to end. she is at last herself. she did what she was supposed to do, the mission of her life, and now she is free. i am so curious to how her arc is gonna go from now. is she gonna go and meet up with daeron? maybe she will try to put him on the throne when the people turn against rhaenyra and she thinks he is the best of them?!?! i know people think her story was over in s1. i think those are very misogynistic fans. alicent isn’t a villain and it’s not gonna be one. the writers have said this since the beginning. and i for one love that. she is the most normal character in the whole show. i said what i said. otto for making her be a child bride was the worst. the targaryens and rhaenyra and daemon were always gonna be a problem for her. and she making male heirs was always gonna be a problem for them. she is free. is she gonna be like arya? idk.

rhaenyra— ooof. i think this season was her finally getting assurance that she is the “chosen” one for the prophecy and that she is the heir, not because viserys spurns daemon. and i think as daemon finally understands the dreams importance, rhaenyra also understands the dragons’s importance. i mean they completely turn the tide for her in this season. and i know how much criticized rhaenyra’s and alicent’s relationship is. but alicent coming to her at last and essentially confirming and wanting her to take the throne it’s like the last thing to come full circle. her father truly believed on her and not because of daemon, daemon finally accepts that she is the heir too and is firmly done with the “pursuit” of it. and alicent, her best friend, the mother of viserys’s other kids, her enemy, her best friend, finally “supports her”. it was a rollercoaster it’s true. but she came on top. and i think now she will not be stoping herself in blooding her hands or doing necessary things for keeping herself on that throne. i think others have done thinkpieces on how she was like sacrificing the people to claim the dragons. all those scenes. and how she will truly believe that she is that one for the prophecy and will do anything now. i think dragons dying is gonna be her weakness just as how she started to feeling powerful with the dragons. i have seen theories of fisherman lucerys. and this is exactly the type of thing that sara and ryan could do. we won’t even know what started the war in the first place. luke dying is sad, but not defining. i know it sounds crazy. but even if he died or not, the war was always gonna get ugly.

i think these are the big characters of the show. and others are all also in personal journeys. rhaena finally having a dragon and being “useful”, criston accepting his faults (i mean alicent’s brother questioned him in front of everyone, pissing in his honour as a knight, the thing he was obsessed with, almost killed himself over, killed joffrey over, is now accepting his faults and accepting his death, he fought in wars before but wanted something more for his name, and he lost all of it to the dragons. he is defeated in every sense. his only arc is fighting as he was before the kingsguard. we have helaena who again isn’t defined only by a tragedy as sick as b&cheese. she still touches jahaera after. she is a dragon dreamer. and i don’t want her to just kill herself because of sadness. i know that we criticize the show for the grief and how quickly it’s over. i do agree too. but again i m not gonna define them by it. helaena speaking to daemon and aemond knowing how their fates are intertwined or rather their deaths. why did they do this? i guess helaena never being heard for her dreams and she now herself reaches out at the end to speak her “wisdom” and is actually listened and believed by both of them. it’s some sort of progress. but doesn’t she see herself is the question? possibly the same day too?!? hmm. aegon and aemond. i think everyone has said a lot abt them. tragedy is always gonna be present in this show. shakespearean tragedy. and also everyone is grey. we see the tragedy of both of them bc they never were suited for the throne. and that power.. absolute power as otto says.. especially in this family period and in this war.. it was gonna be poisonous..

idk i get all the complaints.. but as i said i could never treat them as d&d. especially for the female characters. they are actual characters. and yes i was mad too, at the “women peace and men bad bc war”.. but that is present in the book too. it’s the women who bind the wounds. and i did want to see mother playing this game for her son, rhaenyra wanting the throne for herself and being vengeful. and i think we will see that. but in different ways. not in obvious ways, in caricature like ways. and men did want war and were thirsting for war. so much peace that the last “war” was with maegor. so everyone jumped at the chance to write songs for them without knowing the cost of war especially with dragons. this isn’t a theme only in hotd but in asoiaf too.

i think they and the adaptation has flaws.. but i can’t call all of it shit or soulless. it was always gonna be a hard story to do. especially in the pov of the targaryens. they are their own downfall and so are the dragons. that’s how it’s gonna end hotd and same with every adaptation.

i m almost excited for a knight of the seven kingdoms, but man not for aegon the conqueror one. i genuinely think we don’t need it. and everything post dance is so much more interesting so i won’t be mad at those adaptations. but again grrm is never finishing those books. and so sometimes the question does arise of what’s even the point of these adaptations. i guess we just can enjoy them but even that is a crime. however picking the story where all the dragons die isn’t a bad idea for a show. especially with the events of asoiaf and game of thrones. it’s just that the “heroes” are not obviously targaryens and so it’s kind of hard and depressive to enjoy them. idk idk idk and just thinking abt the years its gonna take to make these other seasons it’s insane. insane for the fandoms and not normal people obviously 😭

[electronickingdomfox]

"Timetrap" review

Novel from 1988, by David Dvorkin. A very short story that could have been an episode without much editing. The writing style is plain, even simplistic, but there's a certain skill in plot building, and it kept my attention at all times. I'm not gonna dissect the plot here. Just a brief outline: Kirk gets lost inside a strange space-time distortion, while trying to rescue the crew of a crippled Klingon ship. He loses consciousness, and upon waking up, he finds himself one hundred years in the future, in a Klingon Empire totally different from what he knows. The Klingons here are kind and civilized, after having achieved peace with the Federation, and they call themselves the "New Klingons". Having lost both his ship and friends in the past, Kirk finds solace in the love of her Klingon tutor, Kalrind. Besides, the New Klingons have a special task for him since, according to their history, it was Kirk precisely who made possible the peace between Federation and Empire. Though of course, things aren't that simple...

The story does a good job of keeping the reader in the dark (or almost as much in the dark as Kirk) by selectively giving information in small doses. And I think the sense of gaslighting and eventual disappointment, shared with Kirk, was effectively done. It's not very difficult to guess there's something else going on, and expecting a plot twist. But what exactly entails that plot twist isn't all that obvious, in my opinion.

Characterization doesn't have a lot of depth, though Kirk and Kalrind are alright. It made me feel bad for poor Jim, his heart break at the end, and all the manipulations he goes through. So yeah, this is one of those "make Jim suffer" novels. It's also interesting to see Kirk changing his opinions on Klingons, for better or worse, and starting to hope for an eventual alliance. As well as see him falling in love with a Klingon woman that, at first, doesn't match his beauty standards, and even terrifies him a bit. This is one of the cases where the romance subplot makes sense in context, and adds to the story, rather than being there "just because". For his part, Spock keeps his Vulcan facade at all times, though there are hints at his rogue tendencies. He's placed in a position of command after Kirk's disappearance, which creates much friction with McCoy (similar to "The Tholian Web", which the novel references on several occasions). McCoy is very, veeeery grumpy in this one. At times even malicious. Must have had a bad day... There's a funny bit where Kirk calls him out on his bullshit about being an "old country doctor", as he points out that McCoy, like everyone else in that era, just went to the medical academy.

In summary, this may not be one of the best novels, not by a long stretch. But it's a fun, quick read if you want the feel of a TOS episode.

McSpirk Meter: 6/10*. Kirk feels pangs of sadness whenever he thinks about Spock or McCoy (and the Enterprise too), since he's lost a hundred years in the future, with no hope of ever seeing them again. It's most noticeable in the case of McCoy; Kirk is said to experience a powerful emotional reaction when he gets reunited with the doctor. And McCoy spends the last chapters being a mother hen for Kirk, and chasing him around to get his much-needed rest. McCoy also feels at once that there's something very wrong with Kirk, through mere intuition and his deep knowledge of his friend, even though medical instruments say otherwise. On the other hand, Kirk is said to know Spock better than anyone else, and noticing subtle gestures in the Vulcan that others can't. Spock, as usual, is disobeying orders (or at least bending the rules) to find the truth about Kirk's fate and save him.

[aellegro]

wait till you hear about this next nominee: MOON AERA, born on the 18th of JUNE, 1997 and bears a striking resemblance to LEE SAEROM. they’re a FIRST year BACHELOR OF MUSIC COMPOSITION student and HAVE BEEN IN MULTIPLE COMMERCIALS — impressed yet? rumor has it they’re hoping to be a FAMOUS CELEBRITY, but personally, i think they should aim a little higher — something like the king’s club, for one. now, that suits them a little more, don’t you think? guess we’ll just have to see if they’ve got the talent for it in our upcoming recruitment round.

HIIIIIIIIIIIII i’m kon (she/her) and i’m so glad to finally meet and greet all of u and ur beautiful muses!! have been lurking but decided to bite the bullet and apply for bxc8!!! honestly did Not expect to be accepted so fast ejlfnjenwo kind of screamed... but i can’t wait to be writing and scheming with all of u... also!! i’m available to plot on either dms or dc (plzzzz add me on evermeow) so smash that like button <33 i’ll try my best to fill in the blanks but if u have any questions feel free to ask!!

background

she’s born the youngest of three, the first (and only) daughter after two sons, and the first granddaughter on both sides of the family

technically has 3 brothers if you count her cousin (son of the ent. company ceo) since he was an only child and liked hanging out with the siblings… considered himself one of them tbh

which made her uncle really grateful to their family for taking care of his son since he was busy taking care of the company and whatnot (also like… since he’s separated from his wife but that’s irrelevant)

back to her, she’s pretty much an angel in the eyes of literally everybody in her family like she can do no wrong 😇 and if she did the other person was probably at fault and started it first anyway

veeeery verrrrrry doted on and spoiled because of that which really all goes to her head and is internalised that she can get whatever she wants — 27 years and it hasn’t been disproven yet!

all things considered she pretty much cruised through school with the help of her brothers and anyone who wanted to get on her good side

it’s really only in the last year of high school where she was like! hey… maybe i don’t want to graduate as a nobody, marry some dickhead and be known only as his wife… hmm maybe i could be a celebrity… it’s nice to have people’s attention on me ❤️ and if i marry someone he’d be known as moon aera’s husband instead #feminism am i right

…it’s kind of strange to stick your guns to a random train of thought but it really did seem appealing to 18yo aera at the time and she’s nothing if not very determined to make her dreams reality + it seemed cool (also if that happened to include a little plastic surgery then so be it)

to her credit, she didn’t rely on her family from the jump. she went for multiple auditions by herself then announced it to her family after people got back to her about starring in the commercials… things definitely got chaotic in the moon household that day

got recruited by a company that wasn’t her uncle’s after a few of her commercials were released but trust that he definitely had a hand in ensuring that she’d get preferential treatment anyway

as for the king’s club… sensed the many, many opportunities that came with becoming a chessmaster and accepted right away

miiiiight have had something to do with the resignation of cho minah (the other black bishop initiate) but who’s to say she did? cho minah never complained either so all’s fair in war and all that good jazz… didn’t even become an aera anti after she debuted so that’s a #WIN for sure

speaking of initiates dropping out, she wasn’t close to noh hyungseo and was decidedly neutral in 2016 but if she had to choose, she’s definitely not his biggest fan. was definitely shocked during the incident but we move on… like how aera could give less of a shit about noh hyungseo and his death in 2024.

did really freaking well for herself after that if you just ignore all her haters and naysayers, and seemingly (since we all know it’s not just effort) girlbossed her way up until she became a household name, with her face plastered everywhere and her songs on repeat at any shop you enter

honestly… long live moon aera and her army

personality

gemini sun, scorpio moon, virgo rising

[−] tends to be impulsive (see: auditioning without prior consultation), especially about what she wants. has a bit of a short fuse but usually gets over it quickly unless you really wrong her one way or another… then you’re doneeeee ⚰️ resentful like no other, kxe1 knows what i’m talking about. genuinely feels like the world revolves around her and that people should have the same amount of loyalty she does towards them.

[+] intuitive and observant. very flexible and is able to thrive in different environments, can make friends or at the very least find common ground with just about anyone anywhere.

in 2016: very affable, barrelling past any icy exteriors. perceptive enough to know which buttons to push and when, making it easy for her to make friends. for the most part, it’s not a facade at all which lends a little more credibility to how genuine she’s being with you. her sense of humour is snarky and a little crude but what else can you expect from growing up with a bunch of brothers. that one friend who has to stop and say hi to anyone who recognises them. but don’t be fooled because she’s still a self-serving bitch at the end of the day 😒

in 2024: with the passing years, she’s definitely mellowed out and uses most of her cheerfulness whenever she’s interacting with fans. is more or less the same, just a little bit more cynical and jaded due to her experience in the industry 🚬 but hey, that’s exactly what she signed up for. her circle of friends is much smaller now but everyone who’s met/worked with her all say she’s very nice and kind and would like to get to know her more.

trivia/misc.

her fans are called dear… i hope everyone here is a dear and streams her music

ever since she went solo, she’s had more creative control thanks to her uncle’s intervention and actively takes part in composing her songs and lyric writing

first brother: moon jaeyoung, 1991, chief prosecutor / second brother: moon daehyun, 1994, high school teacher (science) / cousin: moon yejun, 1995, head of artist development — if anyone wants a plot where aera plays matchmaker for your muse with any of them lmk

has a maltese named bada and she genuinely adores her dog so much like that’s her little baby. watch what you say about bada because she has her own separate fanbase i don’t make the rules

artist blurbs

ouiwish (위위시) was a girl group under GROOVE Media. The group consisted of 5 members: Dabin, Miso, Yume, Hanbyul, and Aera. The group originally debuted on August 10, 2015 with 4 members, with fifth member Aera joining the group on November 23, 2018 for their sixth comeback. GROOVE Media released an announcement stating that the group officially disbanded on 31 August, 2020.

Moon Aera (문애라) is an actress and soloist under DH Entertainment. She initially debuted as a member of ouiwish (위위시) before making her official debut as a soloist on 5 March, 2021 and made her acting debut in 2019 as a minor role in the drama ‘Love in Sadness’.

i’ll add more soon i’m kind of over this and want this out ASAP i’m sorryyyy we can fuse brains when we plot together

[ukkigirl]

haiiii i hope you are doing well !!!!! ive been wanting 2 ask this 4 so long but who is the dude with blonde hair and glasses that you seem 2 love..... . ive been so Curious ever since i followed you hahaha

HIIII thank youu and you as well! omg i was doing just okay but this ask has brought me straight to amazing :DDDD i had to put it under a readmore bc i wrote too much HAHA

it's ukki!!!

actually its yuuki makoto, but ukki is a nickname given to him by one of the characters bc hes kind of dumb like a monkey (i think the word they use for a monkey sound in jpn is kikii)

he's from the idol rhythm game ensemble stars!! you've probably seen the characters around at some point its veeeery popular.. the this one

anyway ukki is one of the first 4 'main characters' aka he's in the protagonist idol group aka a lot of people think these 4 are really basic, boring etc. which is fair...but ukki was/is very unpopular in the english fanbase bc they think hes UGLY TT______TT i dont think hes ugly at all i think hes very cute an dlooks like a nice young man plus he was the cutestbaby ever

i started joking about him looking like a bug and like a warlock's curse i out of nowhere became insanely obsessed with him and wrote this whole thing about the ukki grub life cycle and his larvae stages and stuff and now i just think about him every day bc my friends encourage my bjork stalker level enjoyment of him but aw hes so cutes aawww. i think he has a really lovely and sad backstory that not a lot of people give the time of day to bc he looks like a hamster but well i think hes very sweet. and also basically an oc at this point but thats how it goes

i think i wouldnt have become so crazy abt him if he had more english speaking fans but ive found myself as the ukki protector and #1 american ukkigirl so thats me now yayyy ukki YAYYYY

i had to cut this down a bit bc u didnt ask me this much but pls...spread the word....this year my goal is to move him up from 43rd most disliked character to a hard 38th...

[jack-kellys]

this is literally all i've been thinking abt like fr

below the cut r my written notes bc they probably aren't legible but basically. davey spiderman. kath is veeeery harry osborn-coded. jack is cool friend/hot guy mary jane. antics will ensue. and then we have race crutchie and spot ofc:

davey: IS THERE ANYTHING BETTER THAN DAVEY "MOUTH' JACOBS SPIDER MAN. literally there isnt...

he fits the spiderman a little closer to miles than peter in terms of like.... the difference in tragedy in his life and especially how miles handles tragedy compared to peter. and also davey has a better support system of ppl who know off the bat. i think sarah would be cool as the "guy in the chair" role that's so funny to me... their comms banter>

jack: FEMME FATALE DAMSEL IN DISTRESS MJ JACK KELLY. IS such a look.

I'm mean and would give him a symbiote arc tho.

for now he's Spectacular!MJ in terms of vibes...

she's very smooth when she and peter meet and i think jack could embody the "future star of the stage" kind of persona but as an artist not an actor. as for why i'd give him a symbiote moment... mostly bc i don't think it fits davey very well as in idt his anger can be taken advantage of like jack's can and jack's desperation can. jack is not immune to manipulation like davey is LMAO... jack's desperation to protect ppl when he personally is in a bind isss... it is strong.

kath: KATH IS QUITE LITERALLY HARRY OSBORN. LIKE. BFFR. Thinking maybe spidey saves her and it's a scene and pulitzer gets protective in a fucked up way and like. Has her under lock and key afterward.

better yet if davey saves her almost accidentally/preemptively bc that's his best friend katherine but she didn't need saving, and since she was saved, (and pulitzer is a dick,) would totally not let her out of his sight/his company's sight as much as possible.

and tbh i'd probably keep the norman osborn alignment and make pulitzer a scientist while kath goes against this by being a journalist/someone who excels at humanities.

racer: RACE IS BLACK CAT IN MY HEART. could be Jack though.

bc jack is soooo... like he would. but race and stealing things and being snarky and feeling entitled to it is so true...adding some mobster flair to a homme fatale.. yea. ESPECIALLY because-

spot: SPOT IS VERY INSOMNIAC WRAITH. LIKE- VERY.

wraith is a character who is originally a cop.../at least one of the wraiths is initially a cop that works w spiderman and then becomes an occasionally murderous vigilante/punisher-esque character. which is rather extremely spot conlon. also it'd give race and spot rly good banter

now maybe my fav of them all- crutchie: Crutchie as a 20yr old pre-med researcher -> Dr. connors/the lizard moment. Also mentor Crutchie>>

i also think the injection thing would be more of an accident than a like...solution. like i think he's got his prosthetic and he's chill w it and is researching lizard limb regeneration for a final project and there's a the flash-in-the-chem-lab accident. but mainly crutchie being like 19. knew davey & jack & kath while he was in high school with them. very initial eddie brock is spectacular spider-man basically lets be honestt

anyway yeah this has been driving me. up a wall

[allthefujoshiunite]

What do you think that made male characters in shounen series are the best for shipping...? I mean there are also male characters in shoujo or josei, but shounen/seinen are on a different level, right ....I mean until now, in 'my top 10 otps ever' list, at least 3 of them are from shounen.....

This is honestly an interesting question! My immediate guess would be their position in the story, how they interact with each other and how they are presented overall.

In shojo/josei, similar to romance stories where the protagonist is male, we usually see love interests or side characters in relation to the main caharcter rather than seeing them interacting with each other.

Now, it doesn’t mean you can’t ship two characters whohaven’t talked to each other, you definitely can. But seeing them next to each other gives you the spark. One example that came to mind immediately is Horimiya. I think it’s easy to ship, for example, Miyamura and Tohru because they are good friends and interact with each other on other stuff than their romantic partners or love lives. I think they go well together!

The thing about shonen, however, is that usually they have a rivalry between the main male characters that are borderline obsessive xD This rivalry goes on for a veeeery long time, is emotionally charged and we are, as audience, emotionally invested in as well. The poetic declarations don’t help their cases either xD And that kind of “They were meant to be, and will be together eternally,” narrative works very well.

This is all I could think of for now! Thanks a lot for the thought-provoking question and please send me another ask and tell me what you think!

[inn-oceanid]

hi! if youre okay with doing more dorm mates hcs for other characters, could you do kaeya and albedo as your dorm mates? thanks so much in advance <3!

Kaeya and Albedo as your dorm mates !

Tysm for the request ! I enjoyed writing this lmao.

Contains; fluff, and flirting, touchy Kaeya but that’s all. NOT PROOFREAD

So how did you guys met? —you just happened to be in the same class as Kaeya, as well as dorms. Kaeya was in the same class with Albedo last year so he was preeetty much close with the quiet boy. Which made him invite Albedo to stay with the two of you in your dorm because, the place was kind of big for the two of you.

Alright when you stay with these two, you can clearly see how their personalities are veeeery different if you pay attention—to be honest you don’t need to pay attention, you’ll see anyway.

Albedo

It’s like new day new fact for you after Albedo moved in with you and Kaeya. You were very amused at how he was very smart when it comes to science and mathematics computation.

Like he can do mental computations—like how tf? 184 x 246? Without a paper and a pen, I’d take you (+me) ages before you can finish solving it inside your brain (+mine)

So like, whenever you blurt out math equations from your homework, Albedo’s there to say the answer within 3 seconds.

Walking calculator.

Albedo also likes sketching, you’ve seen and watched him sketch many things ever since he moved in.

Like in the balcony at 5pm, he’ll sketch people walking home from school and you’ll watch him sketch sitting beside him.

Albedo likes it when you watch him do his hobbies, it makes him feel like you’re so intrigued about him, and he likes your company very much.

sometimes he’d go, “Can you be my reference? For my sketch, if you don’t mind.” And request you to just sit right in front of him and do your thing.

He sits right in front of you while he crosses his legs, and uses his thighs for a stand for his sketch book.

You admit you get shy when he looks or scans your face and body for his sketch, the way he looks calmly serious while sketching. There’s just something that makes you shy around him—and he knows.

Your eyes meet way too many times when he looks at you as he continues to sketch.

Just wait until he holds eye contact with you while his hands do it’s work without even looking at the paper.

Deep inside Albedo wanted to smirk at you badly because of how tensed you look while he doesn’t tear his eyes away from yours, but he’ll tease you some other day or time, maybe later.

After he’s done sketching, he’ll show it to you while having his back lean against the chair he’s sitting on. “I’m done.”

“Oh don’t you look alluring in this sketch?—just like always.”

As much as you want to look at the sketch first and see his drawing, his word was first to make you blush furiously and cover half of your face. So he’ll leave the sketch beside you and wash his hands.

Other than sketching, Albedo is good at baking. When you asked why, he goes,

“I have a little sister, although we’re not blood related but I see her as that. We bake cookies during weekends, I’ve mastered the art of baking because of that. I guess it’s for her to like my cookies, and so that she’ll remember me whenever she sees it. And so that she won’t get lonely whenever I come back here.” Like bro that’s so wholesome.

He also goes, “Why don’t you come with me to visit her some time? I’m certain that she will very much like you.”

Albedo also teaches you his special cookie recipe, he said it’s better to be prepared. So that you, him, and the little girl he mentioned named, Klee can bake together when you visit her.

Surprisingly, Kaeya also knew about Klee. Guess like he and Albedo are really close huh.

Watches you mix the ingredients together. He won’t scan what you’re doing, he’ll scan your face, your hair, your concentration. He finds it alluringly attractive.

And he tells you that you’re attractive while you’re in the middle of your baking.

Kaeya

Kaeya

Define kaeya seriously.

He’s touchy, pokes here and there, everyday.

Kaeya is the kid in the room. He likes to complain about things, whine, act like a child.

He likes it when the attention is focused on him, whether it’d be you or Albedo or both.

He’s really close with Albedo where it goes to the point you think if he’s bisexual or something, if he likes Albedo or something.

But he does straight things that confuses you more, like he’ll suddenly hug you from the front all of the sudden, from the back, anywhere he can hug you.

Like, you’ll exit your room, he’ll hug you.

He exits his room, he’ll hug you. It somehow tells you that he wants affection because you see a lonely side of him when he’s quiet or sitting alone in the living room so in return, you hug back and pat his back while making small steps with him somewhere.

Just, be, affectionate. Then he’ll be happy.

The most adorable thing he does is when you and Albedo are sitting together on the sofa, he’ll squeeze between the two of you, the does these two things:

Lay his head on your lap, and rest his legs on Albedo’s. Then he’ll talk about how his day went where you and Albedo would just chuckle at while listening.

Or, rest on someone’s shoulder and sleep.

And when he does sleep, you and Albedo will move once you knows he’s totally asleep and cover him with a blanket.

And he’ll be waking up with his friends cooking him dinner, in which he’ll softly smile to.

Kaeya is the one who does groceries. (💀)

He’ll always go to the groceries with you and Albedo with him. You’re a package, the three of you, three in one, yeah that’s his mindset. He doesn’t like leaving one behind.

He holds the list and tells you what to get, what brand like “Get pasta, get pasta. No that’s too cheap, that one.” Bro it’s just pasta chill, it’ll taste the same.

But unfortunately he says it’s not the same, then will head to the next isle.

After groceries, he’ll be heading to a fast food restaurant and treat you two as a thanks for coming with him. He does this every time. More like a routine.

He’s noisy when he goes outside—

But gets quiet when he’s home. He acts homesick but he says he isn’t.

When Albedo’s not home, he’ll sit on the dinner table and draw circles on the table while he asks you random things when you’re doing your homework.

“What is the most precious thing you received as a birthday gift?” — “What’s important for you right now?” “What makes you happy?” “Do you think the world is round?”

“The world is round, you can’t change my mind otherwise. I don’t get why some people it’s flat, I completely disagree. —just because we travel and use a straight road doesn’t mean it’s flat.” He’ll start murmuring which is enough to make you chuckle and lose concentration on your work.

He’s talking about Diluc-

BONUS

These two would always walk with you to school, on the school hallway, cafeteria, literally everywhere. Like there’s no day you don’t walk without them.

Kaeya is always in the middle. For some reason.

“Classes are starting? Already?” Kaeya would always roll his eyes. (Lmao the tone when he said, ‘me? Lonely? Not when someone’s here nagging me all that time, that’s for sure’)

He waves at Albedo when you walk him to his class, like a child being separated from his older brother. While Albedo just looks at him and nods, ‘yeah. We all know we’ll meet again later.’

[captnjacksparrow]

Is it true that Kishi’s wife is similar to Sakura. And I am thinking what if Kishi is gay but he hides it and he doesn’t love his wife so he wrote Sakura based on her

But it seems that he dismissed that theory later in another interview. Also if Sakura was Kishi's wife then why couldn't he make N/aruS@ku as endgame??? I mean Kishi knew that he was going to pair up Hinata with Naruto right from Pain Arc... If that's the case, why make Sakura to confess fakely and then dismiss their bond entirely for the rest of the Manga???

So, this Sakura was based on his Wife is just a theory. He never explicitly mentioned it... He infact, made Minato to say Sakura resembles a bit like Sakura in order to spite NH.

As for Kishi being Gay.... ***Giggling***

In Chinese novels, there is this genre called Harem which is usually written by Male Writers. They are veeeery popular among dudebros over there.

Those type of Genres usually goes like this... Like How a Poor UwU innocent boy who was abandoned, rejected and ostracized by the bullies has risen up to seize the position of power and in the process how he wins over inordinate number of Gals’ hearts because of... Yooo!!!! Toxic Masculinity.... 

And If you want a close to Western Equivalent of such Genre... Take James Bond movies. He is cool, rich, has gadgets and gets to bang a sexy femme fatale WITHOUT FAIL in every one of his movies. 

To give you a picture,

ALT

Pic from Scum Villain Self Saving System - Anime.

This is how your typical Harem novel Protagonist looks like. Sitting on a Throne, looking down on someone, surrounded by bimbos who wear skimpy costumes. He got Fuck load of Spiritual Power and lots of Gals.... It’s everything a guy ever wants in his (wet) dreams and these type of genre fuels Male Power and Sexual Fantasy. The Protagonists are usually termed as “Stallion”. And if you want to know more about this, Check this hilarious Reddit thread here. [[’Papapa’ means euphemism for Sex in Chinese]]

So, it’s A Typical Media for dudes to self-insert. 

This kind of thing exists in our Naruto Manga too.

Jiraiya was seen surrounded by Girls.

Here, Filippo, the guy from Mario Manga was drawn very similar Stallion pose. 

My boy Charasuke too....

And that’s why Naruto created Harem No Jutsu in order to knock out Men.

Because Men are horny for these stuffs and Naruto used their desire against them to knock them out.

But What Kishimoto really did in Naruto???

He ended up drawing Naked Sasuke, Naked Sai and these bunch of Naked men... 

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Add the fact that, Naruto is Kishi’s Self-Insert character and Naruto practiced Naked men more than Rasengan

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Sexualization of Sasuke and sometimes Sai.... 

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Made Sexualized Sasuke to seductively hug Naruto (as Kishimoto).

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Made Sasuke look alike Sai to describe about Naruto’s Man Part several times.

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Sakura and Hinata not being sexualized which is contrast to every other Mangakas who drew women characters in a Horny way.

Sigh.....

I mean, Instead of Giving “Stallion” contents for Dudebros by sensualizing girls & oozing out Masculinity just like how 99% of media does to women characters... He ended up Giving Yaoi contents for Girls as well as for Guys who are into men by making Sasuke to parade with his open chest for 100 Chapters & this Reverse Harem no Jutsu.. And he was regularly indulging them for 600+ Chapters... 

LOL... I don’t know if Kish is a Gay and I am not going to indulge myself in it... But his taste and way of writing all points to him being one.

[husbandohunter]

Stardew Impact [Stardew Valley+Genshin Impact x Reader]

Part 2/3 Zhongli, Xiao

Synopsis: “A mysterious phenomenon brought you and your s/o to an unfamiliar world: Pelican Town! Without the power of Visions, the two of you begin to learn the life of what it takes to be...a farmer?”

(DOMESTIC FARM LIFE ROUND TWO)

Genre: Fluff

Others

Diluc and Kaeya

Albedo and Childe

(A/n): This was meant to be part 3 but I couldn't wait to write xiao. Plus Ive been writing Albedo for almost the whole month already Word count_2.6k

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Xiao

• Thrown in an unfamiliar environment puts Xiao on high alert. Instincts kick in and his hand subconciously grabs for his spear. Nothing. Not even his vision activated. Xiao's gaze darts all over before landing on your figure. He sighs in relief, you're safe, that much he can decipher as of now.

• Stripped of his power, left with only claws and teeth (if must) to protect you from any dangers, he was ansty with every little thing. 

• The villagers are so nice??? For what reason must they have to act so friendly to strangers (Xiao wonders). The Mayor even granted you two a vast farmland free of charge. 

• Shortly he realized he no longer had his karmaic debt. Xiao wasn't sure how to live his life in this state. He dedicated his entire existence to years of slaughter and suffering that it became the only thing he knew. He won't admit it of course, he'll just throw in scoffs and remarks about how mundane activities are a waste of time when in reality, he just has no clue on how to handle them.

• Thats why the first day was difficult as you both try to figure out how to plant parnsips. Deciding it was better to go with an experiment, you split the share of seeds in half and used what basic knowledge you had on farming to finish the job. Xiao on the other hand tried copying what you did….though the outcome wasn't so desirable it was a mess. (His trained hands have taught him to be on the rough side).

• He doesn't bother socializing with the townspeople even though he has no karmaic debt to worry about. Xiao thinks you're more than enough anyways so what's the point? 

• Robin is the only person who can tolerate him for obvious reasons (cough Sebastian cough) she knows exactly how to deal with his personality type. His glares don't faze her, she simply thinks its just a teenage phase of some sort. 

• Eventually they become mutuals, Xiao thinks Robin is similar to Verr Goldet in a way. Since he's the one who does the heavy labour of chopping down trees and mining stones for building upgrades, he gets a chance to visit her house quite often. He comes back with lots of recipes too.

• You find out that his adepti blood never left him. Xiao doesn't need sleep so you better believe it when he tells you the next morning that he spent the whole night watering all 300 of your crops (watering is the only process he's good at for farming). 

• Sometimes you catch him staring out of the window, wondering what he may be thinking. Life was so much more different, almost hard to recognize. Was this real? Is it okay for it to be real, just this once? Ever since he committed his duty to Morax, Xiao didn't dream of a time when everything would be peaceful. Yet here he is, no longer a weapon but on a journey to find out what it's like to live as a normal person. 

• Spring: Every morning you find him kneeling behind the cabin with the pet cat (yes, cats seem to suit Xiao very much). He just stares at them, hesitant if he wanted to pet their fur or rub their chin. So he continues to glare intensely, scaring your cat away :(

• Whenever you wanted to attend any of the town's festivities, Xiao wouldn't even hide his distastefulness but goes with you regardless. Why do mortals consider hiding eggs and finding them a fun activity? And what kind of a name is Flower Dance? Can't they just call it a dance?

• Though…he does like the sight of you wearing a flower crown. Xiao likes putting stuff in your hair.

Since setting foot upon this new world, time seemed to have slowed down to the point that almost everything felt like an eternity. And you didn't mind, with him by your side, you wouldn't mind if it did last forever.

The lull of the grass was the only sound Xiao could hear as he closed his eyes and rested his head on your lap. You maneuvered across his scalp in small, subtle motions, surprised with how warm he felt against the heat your palm. He stirs a little and lets out a soft breath before turning his face to lay on the side.

You were slightly intrigued by the yaksha's new demeanor. From far away, Xiao was an intimidating man, even during the first time you laid eyes him, his presence felt similar to a knife pointing at anyone who dares to come too close. But now, the face that usually held his signature annoyance melted into something you never thought you'd see as the sun rays brushed against the surface of his fair skin. You observed the way his dark eyebrows stayed in a relaxed arch. The red crescents lining right above his beautiful long lashes and the sound of soft snores through parted lips. It was hard to believe that this man was the same person who claimed to have ended a thousand lives through thousands of years.

Did he fall asleep already?

Gently moving away the strands away from his cheekbone, hovered your gaze above him and whispered, "I thought adepti don't need rest."

"Hmph," Xiao responds, though there was no harshness in his tone, "Quit trying to be difficult, I didn't tell you to stop."

The smug grin on your face only widens. You lean downward and said to his ear, "And what's the magic word~?"

Xiao sighs at your antics. You were truly pushing your luck today and he simply didn't have the patience to entertain you. Without a warning, he grabs your wrist and pulls you down, foreheads pressing until you were but a breath away. The adepti conquers, he does not plead.

• Summer: As expected, your parnsnips weren't able to grow as much. Thus, this season was going to be the one to make up for the lost profit. Xiao is very good at hunting, perhaps the best in the entire town. Though the way he catches fish is rather peculiar, said by the folks. He prefers to carve a spear made of wood and repeatedly stabs the lake until results show. Xiao dislikes the old fashioned way, he says its unproductive and it unecissarily takes too much time. 

• But as much as he scared the whole town, they were extremely grateful when he cleaned up the slime issues happening in the mines. You could say that he grew very popular since then and eventually mustered up the courage to greet him a hello whenever he passes by. 

• You nudge him to reply back. Xiao usually shoots you a glare but slowly, he learns the courtesy of acknowledging someone's prescence.

• Fall: You woke up to a burnt smell coming from the kitchen. Xiao just thought he would return the favour since you always worked so hard. (He was actually trying to figure out what a 'whisk' was. It was no wonder why there were eggshells in the dish!)

• You realized that Xiao was taking more initation compared to before. At night, when you thought the animals were actively jumping in the barns, the noise was actually from Xiao trying to adjust himself to the ways of tending the field. After learning what TV was, he would always switch to the channel "Livin off the land" to gain some insight. Truly, Xiao was greatful even though he knew he eventually had to return to his duties, he wanted to utilize the current days the best way he could. And what better way was it to just make you happy in return?

• Winter: This was the season to test the accumulation of Xiao's abilities: you caught a cold and he had to manage everything in his own. Xiao scolded you for not wearing enough and being too careless but at the same he considered that you must've been working too hard.

• Goes to Robin for help. She basically became his mom now. Prepares the food and leaves them in the fridge, she teaches Xiao how to use the phone in case he needed any help and also lets him know where all the essentials are. 

• Xiao stayed by your side the whole time even though you told him you'd be fine. But he refuses, he may no longer be a gaurdian but he was your gaurdian. That role never changed.

~~x~~

Zhongli

• You wake up on a soft bed with Zhongli sitting at a chair nearby. He hands you a cup of brewed water but you're still blatlantly confused. Seems like everything was taken care of by Zhongli, it ends up with him explaining everything to you. 

• The folks instantly assumes you both as a married couple. Who could blame them? He did carry your unconcious body all the way to town while asking for a local doctor. You can bet that the ladies wish they were you at that moment. Zhongli took care of everything, including with the contract with the new farm.

• It didn't take long for you both to adjust to the new lifestyle. Zhongli's accumulated knowledge was enough to last all four seasons. Days past by peacefully as you shared the tasks. He'd place down the stone paths towards the gate and you busied yourself with decorating the house. After that was done, Zhongli would rest upon the rocking chair outside your door (like the grandpa he is) and sometimes you'd join him in one reading session. His voice was soothing, you eventually dipped into a slumber as the evening grew colder. Just like always, your beloved brings his arm to encapsulate you from the wind, brushing his thumb against your skin subconciously while you snore softly into his shoulder.

• In a way, the townsfolk were right. You both do act like a married couple. It's basically domestic life with Zhongli in a nutshell.

• He gets connected with Gunther and lands a role in the Museum. Since he's there so often, Zhongli also manages to be acquainted with Elliot as well. Two men who have a common interest with books while speaking in poetic prose. Their conversation would last for hours to the point Gunther had to kick them out of the library!

• Veeeery good with the children, not in an entertaining way but its just the aura he reeks. Penny usually had trouble dealing with Vincent since he never seems to be able to focus but the minute Zhongli speaks, he's all ears. Not only that he was also very good with the elderly. He even recommended some herbs George could take to soothe his back issues.

• Problem is that he still forgets to bring his wallet and Childe isn't here to save him. So once you stepped foot into the Stardrop Saloon and Gus calls you over, he tells you about the cost he owed to his tab….

• But this tranquil life full of genuinity and deprived of sovereignty, he was overjoyed to be able to spend it with you. Because he knew you were unlike him, that all humans were born with an expiry date. He knew so well that after every new greeting, he would have to face the goodbyes over and over until the world eventually came to an end. He knew you were also going to be part of those many goodbyes while he would still be here.

• But as Zhongli walks amongst the fallen leaves, he remembered the beauty that carries within every new beginning. They brought him to you and he would never hesitate to trade his gnosis for it.

Spring: You shot up your bed when Zhongli blast the TV at full volume. He apologizes, saying that he was simply trying to change the channel. You figured it was best for him to go outside before he somehow glitches the screen until it couldn't repair itself (Robin charges for repairs).

• Every thursday you both go to Pierre's store to complete your grocery shopping. He offers to push the cart as you fill the basket with all the necessities (plus it saves you the trouble of having him tossing whatever he sees without looking at the price tag).

• Every afternoon you order a take out from the Saloon, sharing the meal while sitting at the fountain's edge near the community center. Every evening Zhongli would take you to explore the rest of the vast farmland, discovering places you weren't even aware of. It was no wonder why everyone thought you were a married couple. 

• Summer: Since the cabin was too small for a bathroom, you guys would have to travel up the mountains in order to get to the Spa house (cue sweatiness x10). 

• The concept of hotsprings was derived from Inazuma so it was no surprise that Liyue eventually took it after him. Zhongli had collected some incense from foraging items over the past few months, he knows whats up. But overall he gives the best bath sessions (hands down) and you were the one who insisted in joining him.  He was a gentle and sweet lover, always putting your needs before his. Ancient artifacts and old history books have always been precious to him, he treated you no differently.

The heartbeat of the oceans continues to rock back and forth until they brush up on the sandy shore, washing away the two pairs of footprints left behind by a man and a woman.

Gold against gold, his amber eyes reflected against the scenery. Millions of lights flashed among the sea when the sun began to climb down from the sky, it's rays hugged across the valley like an ethereal glow bestowed by the heavens as summer's wind brought even more warmth than what he had currently felt. You trance ahead of with the same light shaping around your form. 

"Oh hey there's another rainbow shell," you waved at him before running off, "I'll be back!"

How is it that you still continue to shine like gold in his memories?

Zhongli suddenly ponders at the chapters laying ahead of him. He spent so many years turning each page without ever reaching a conclusion, forever searching the fabled happy endings written in fairytale books, but he knew his immortality wouldn't grant him that wish.

Thus, the formal archon raised his pen and reweaves his own story. He envisions his future with you by his side, engraving every detail until it was immortalized in his memories.

Perhaps I shouldn't keep her waiting.

With a renewed resolve, Zhongli clutches the gemstone tightly in his palm, he seals the page with the final contract between your future and his.

• Fall: After getting your first house upgrade, it was time for the next event: the ceremony. Yes, Zhongli would only have a wedding if Liyue traditions were involved. Everyone was invited of course, they were quite intrigued with the flashy setup such as lanterns and fireworks (you were a little worried with where he got the budget for such items) and Zhongli even educated Gus about some recipes he can use for the Saloon.

• You found out that Zhongli was saving all his money for this day (it was no wonder that he couldn't pay for his tab!). Old habits die hard, it was a shame that he didn't have his powers to craft the right items, but at least he got to sea you in a traditional eastern dress (it's the part he was looming forward to the most).

• Fall is the best season. One you wouldn't forget.

• Winter: Ah he finally learns how to use  technology after three seasons. He only knows two channels from the TV which was 'Livin off the Land' and the weather channel. Zhongli oftens talks to himself as he tries to figure out more mechanics, he seems to be extremely absorbed in the most basic things.

• The miner of the house. But instead of using them to upgrade tools and donating them to the museum, Zhongli likes to keep some of them for collection. You could say your house also had a little museum in the other room.

• Romcom movies and soap operas. You can't change my mind that this is what you both spend your time watching as the snowstorm rages outside. 

[hotchnerxo]

Our Past Life , Chapter 1

Masterlist

Pairing: Aaron hotchner x gn!reader

Summary: You come to meet your old friend, Hotchner at his office. You went to lawschool together, but ended up on very different life paths. You ended up being a internet entertainer, Hotch a leader of BAU. Are these differences too much, is it too late for them to make it?

Words: 3.4k

A/N: This is my first Fic in a veeeery long time. English is not my first language, please forgive me possible errors or mistakes. Feedback is always more than welcome. This chapter is pretty long. Reader gender neutral, they/them pronouns (let me know if I have missed a spot) Also, message me of tag me if you wish to be on my mention list whenever the new chapter's up.

Content: Pretty cute, mentions of anxiety, abuse and self-harm. Sad boy Hotch.

A part of him was glad he could be at the office before the rush hour, but the same time he felt kind of dumb for feeling that way; getting a great amount of joy from getting to work before anyone else. That is some sort of an accomplishment, right?

But his priorities were good enough to recognize his need for coffee. Putting on a fresh pot of coffee coming, he leans his back to the counter in their break room and goes through his agenda of the day in his head. Although, most of it was paper work, making a few phone calls and one budget meeting. Mostly boring stuff.

SSA Aaron Hotchner fills his cup and struts to his office at the end of the hall. Sitting on his desk chair, he looks towards the office that’s slowly starting to fill up with his employees. A nice, quiet chatter come from outside his office, which feels comfortable. He didn't feel physically so alone, but emotional emptiness was still a whole other story that he didn't have any time to spare right now. Getting his files and notes together, he had to leave for the meeting.

Couple of hours pass until he can get back to the fifth floor, his "home" floor where his team and friends should be as well covered in paper work. But instead he almost gets the glass door shoved to his face by his technical analyst. She looks upset behind her red glasses. Flower dress and heels were bright, as always and her blond hair was on an updo at the back of her head.

"Why didn't you tell me?" she says stern, looking deep in his eyes. He was confused, going through all of the things he possibly should have told her. Mind hitting blank, he asks what she means. "Why didn't you tell me that (Y/N) (Y/L/N) is your friend? I am so disappointed in you! You should have told me that you are friends with one of my favourite celebrities!" She speaks so fast and excitement is coming through leaving her disappointment in the shadow.

A small smile rises to his face. "Well, yes. They’re my friend, but where is this all coming from? Haven't seen them in a long time" he says amused when walking in through the glass doors he almost got hit by seconds ago.

She points to Aaron's office "then why are they waiting for you in your office then?" Hotchner's eyes shot big and towards his office where, indeed, you were. Sitting on the leather couch. Your legs were crossed, hands on your thighs. Looking so patient. And so... grown up. Your hair was exactly how he remembers it being, shirt tucked in your jeans. He tried to hide that fact that you looked so good to take his breath away.

Soon, he realized, he was staring. And his friend was looking at him confused and waiting for answer. "Your guess is as good as mine" Aaron says and steps to his office with more determination than ever. His mind was going million miles in an hour, trying to think why you were here. After all of these years. But, man, he was happy to see you here.

He enters his office and sees you on his couch turning towards him and a warm smile appears on your lips as you see him walking through the door. Few lines formed around your eyes and mouth as a reflection about all the laughs in your life. It was good to see. "Hey" Aaron smiled. "Is everything alright? Long time no see" he started, a load of worry starting to take over. Why else would he be here? Is everyone okay?

You stand up in front of him, taller than he remembered. He wanted to run his fingers through your hair, but he hold himself back. It suits you so well. And your bottom lip was curved to a smile and Aaron couldn't help but have his mind wonder around how he ,many moons ago, used to kiss those lips. Trying to get rid of those thoughts from the past, but you starting to speak didn't help. " Everything's okay" you almost whispered. "Is it wrong that I wanted to come and see you?"

"I never claimed that. It's good to see you." The agent laughed and opened his arms for a hug he knew was coming; and he was right. You wrap your arms around him the same way you did before. It felt so familiar. Aaron felt like everyone was watching, which they probably were. This office didn't give much privacy. But he didn't want to let go, it felt so good to see you after all these years. And it was clear to him that you didn't want to either. But you had to. So a little hesitant, you both let go of each other, take a step back and just look at the other.

"You look good." you say, looking deep into his whiskey colored eyes.The spark was still there, even if those eyes have seen a lot. And the dimple on his cheeks when he smiles made him look like the young man you used to know. Now, only in a suit that must have been expensive and a tie that was perfectly matched.

"You don't look half bad yourself" he chuckles.

You take a quick glance on your right, seeing a whole team looking straight at you two. A light blush took over your face. You brush your thumb on your own bottom lip as you look back down. Just seeing you do that sends shivers down Hotchner’s spine "I can see that we don't have much of a privacy here" you state. Aaron takes a look to his left to see exactly the same thing you saw a few seconds ago. Seeing his whole team out at the bullpen, gathered around, chatting and trying to look as innocent as possible, as in trying to convince them that no one was looking.

It made the agent laugh. "Yeah. That's my team. They're nosy" he laughs.

"I was hoping for a chance to talk with you" Your expression turned more serious, but it still is so soft and warm. "and I'm sorry for coming as a surprise, but I really needed to see you. When do you get off from work today?"

"I still have a few things to do, so in few hours, hopefully. Why, what is this about? Are you sure everything's alright?" He was now worried and has a stern look on his face.

You land your hand on Aaron's arm and was surprised how big and strong it felt, compared to how small he was when younger. "Everything's alright. It's just" you stop and take a deep breath. "I've missed you. Can we talk tonight? I know I came unexpected and all, but I would like to take you out. For old time's sake." Hotch just nodded. He didn't know how to respond. "I'll text you." you finish and turn to walk away, letting your hand linger on the man's arm a little longer until it no longer could reach it. And then walk away.

He looked so healthy. He used to be so tall and skinny it looked unhealthy. But now, he looked well. Thicker, more manly. Muscular.

God he looks good.

***

”What do you think they are talking about?” asked Garcia. She was so excited that her idol was in the office and could barely keep her eyes off of you talking to her boss in his office. “They look close” she said, trying to think every possible reason.

JJ and Rossi looked at each other. They knew. They were closest to Aaron and although he is very private person, he may have slipped some things about this (y/n) person. A smirk rose to both of their faces as they soon turned their eyes back to the leader in the office. It was interesting to see that they were the legendary (y/n) they have heard things about from his past. And they both agree that he definitely could have done worse. And one even more clear thing was, they still have chemistry.

“Somebody tell me” the technical analyst demanded. She was so excited she couldn’t hide it much longer.

JJ opened her mouth to speak but Dave beat her to it “Let’s just say that they have history”. Jennifer chuckled to her friends’ reactions. “What do you know about them?” Dave continued with asking as it was clear Garcia knew the mystery in the office. “A celebrity maybe?”

Garcia was more than happy with answering that question: going on about you and your best friend’s Charlie’s internet show called Top Priority and your past and what kind of crazy things you two do for a living. Internet sketches, a morning talk show type of a show. “Wow. Who would have known?” Morgan was truly surprised as he listened to her story. A part of him thought that was really odd and for Hotchner to know a person like that and clearly being close to them seemed off character.

“But they are truly the kindest people on earth. (Y/N) and Charlie both. They have done so much good to the world and they are super creative and they are funny, and they are definitely good looking.” she kept going on and on about you and your careers. “But where does Hotch come to the equation, that I don’t know. I don’t think they have ever talked about him in their show. They have brought up some of their friends, but I don’t think they’ve mentioned him. So, why not?”

“Maybe it hurt too much?” Dave suggested.

“What do you mean? They don’t look like they’ve fought. At least any time recently. They actually seem really close and, you know, happy.”

A small smile came up to his face when talking “the rumor is, they were really close” he said and took a few steps backwards starting to head towards his own office.

“Wait, what? What do you mean? They’ve said they’ve been best friends with Charlie all their life. They would have mentioned if they had ‘another best friend’, right?” Rossi lifted his eyebrow as in a sign for her to think again. “What? No…” she was shocked. Were they together? There’s no way. How did they not know? All of these questions popped up to her head and her mouth formed almost a perfect O. The rest of the team were almost as shocked. “Oh my god oh my god they’re coming out!” Garcia panicked and tried to hide the fact that they were staring at their whole conversation.

But it was clearly too late. You have a wide smile on your face as walking down the stairs. You greet the team as you walk past. You could see a light embarrassment in their faces, and it made you chuckle, but you know they didn’t mean anything bad with it. They were just curious. You walk towards the double glassed doors as you hear clicking from heels behind you catching up. As you turn, the technical analyst almost pumped in to you.

“Omg, I’m so sorry!” she said embarrassed. “I’m a big fan of yours and Charlie’s. I’m sorry, you must hear that all the time. Umm…” a warm smile on yourr face made her forget what she was talking about and she couldn’t help but smile.

“What can I do for you?” you ask.

“What? Oh, yeah. I’m a huge fan of yours. Would it be okay to take a picture with you? I’m sure you get sick of people asking that all the time and hope that’s no bother.” She goes on but to her surprise she got accepted and she was over the moon. She got her phone from her pocket and you put your arm on her shoulder. You take a picture and Garcia kept thanking you over and over and telling how her friends, other fans were going to lose their cool. You just smiled and soon turned for a one last look towards the office you just left from to see your friend looking back at you too and smiling while shaking his head apologetically. You wave a quick goodbye and leave the office.

The team shot one last look towards their boss out of curiosity but soon got back to work after they noticed him looking back at them sternly but getting back to his desk at the same time. Everyone else did the same thing. A quiet chatter still remained.

Two hours went by until Hotch’s concentration broke and his mind started to wonder back to you and how great it felt to have you close again, how good it was to see you and how good you looked. And your smile was still as gorgeous as he remembered, and your eyes.

He had to stop himself if he was going to work any longer today. Instead of letting himself indulge in his imagination, he gets up and takes his mug with him out of the office. His legs felt heavy as he has been sitting for hours at once, doing paper work, making phone calls and filling reports. The usual. A part of him feels numb, but not as much as days before. Something unexpected happened and a ray of hope showed up. But soon, everything bad flooded back. All the worry and overwhelming feeling, they were all back. He just sighs, hangs his head low and heads to the coffee maker in the kitchen. Trying his hardest not to overthink everything, not to analyze every single thing. Why did his brain have to be his worst enemy once again? He actually smiled earlier, why can’t he allow that to himself? Why does he have to punish himself ( even if it’s unintentional) for being happy? Is he really that self-destructive? Should he be worried?

But instead of analyzing those thoughts, he pours himself a cup of fresh coffee, or as fresh as it can be in this office, and leaned to the countertop with the cup in his hands. For a few breaths, he just focused on the warmth of the cup, the smell of the coffee and the counter behind his lower back supporting him. He was tired, but something unusual feeling was beating in his chest, but he couldn’t recognize what it was. Why is he this exhausted and overwhelmed? What drives him into this situation? Why is he only noticing it now, after it has gotten this bad?

“Hey there” a kind, soft voice echoes from the other side of the kitchen. JJ was leaning on the door way, apparently she’s been there for awhile but he hasn’t seen her. “Are you okay?” she could see right through him and gave him a look that he knew he couldn’t lie thru. So, he just shakes his head.

“I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Maybe I’m just tired, but my anxieties are through the roof for some reason. Hasn’t been that way in years and all of the sudden, it’s horrifying.” his gaze raised to meet his friend’s kind eyes. She walks to the kitchen and leans on the counter next to him.

“You don’t have to be perfect. It’s okay for you to take a break. When was the last time you had a weekend off? When was the last time you went for a long run? Or slept more than 4 hours straight? Gone one day without thinking about work? I could go on and on but I can tell that it’s been awhile and I don’t mean to make you feel worse. But honestly, I’m surprised it isn’t even worse.” she said stern but soft. “You don’t have to be a superman, Aaron. You don’t have to carry the whole world on your shoulders, you’ve already proved that you can. Please take care of yourself.” her tone was so warm and caring, but they both knew it’s easier said than done. But also that it has to be done.

A small fragile smile appeared on the man’s face. “ I know you’re right. But the same time, I’m afraid to do that. I’m afraid I’ll lose all control over myself.”

“There is literally no reason to be afraid. If you don’t take a break, you’ll reach your breaking point real fast, and I’m scared I’ll lose you. And your limit is not far away. Please” she almost begged. She’s known Aaron for years. She knows his dark past, all the abuse he’s gone through, his anxieties, his fears. She knows all about his self-destructive thoughts and actions. And sometimes, she notices them before he himself does. It goes both ways, that’s why they are so close. They are each other’s grounding force. That’s why she is so worried, she never wants him to get so low again that she has to worry if he’s hurting himself. "I know Cruz has been giving you a lot of extra work as he is out of town, but it's too much for one person alone. It's unfair of him to do that, to expect you to do all of his work when he's not in here, on top of your own." Their boss, Mateo Cruz has been on a business trip for a week now and passed a lot of his paper work for Aaron to stay on top of. It's been a lot, but he thinks he's done a good job balancing between the two. But he does recognize that it has taken its toll on him and his free time. "I know you don't have much of a choice right now, but I need you to promise me something".

"What's that?" he asks, finishing his coffee.

"Take a break. The moment Matt gets back, I'm going to take your weekend shift, and you are not allowed to even think of work for two days." She steps in front of him, demanding look on her face. JJ extends her hand in front of her as a sign of a deal sealed with a handshake. She knows it's the only way to get him to slow down. For her surprise, with a sigh Aaron shakes her hand. "Good boy."

He couldn't help but laugh. He put his coffeecup in the dishwasher and washed his hand, about to head back to his office.

"Before you go, I wanna ask you something" JJ stopped him with a smirk on his face. As Aaron turned towards her again "What's the deal with (Y/N)? There's something going on, I can tell".

"Oh boy." he chuckles, bringing his hand to the bridge of his nose and pressed on it a little with his two fingers. "I honestly don't know. I haven't seen them in years. They said they want to talk tonight, but I'm not sure if I have the time or energy to go out with them tonight."

"Are you kidding me? Of course you're going!" she almost shouts. "Wait! Go out with them or go out with them?" Jennifer loves teasing him every moment she gets. Those moments are rare so they are extra special. And she knows that you’re definitely a subject that'll get him every time.

'I don't know' were the only words he says after that, responding with a little smile, not giving into her teasing and walking towards his office. JJ walks behind for a few steps on her way to her own desk still going on about the subject, insisting on him going. For her disappointment, she doesn’t get a response from him. She sits down at her desk, looking at her friend walking to his office. A small smile stayed on her face as she thought of her friend possibly reuniting with someone special. She can’t resist, she takes her phone and texted Aaron: "You two looked good together."

Just a few seconds after, Hotch shoot a look towards Jennifer down at the bullpen after he read the message. He texted back "I know" and turned back to his files, but his mind was definitely focused on something else.

He couldn't stop thinking about you in his office earlier. How good you looked. Your smile. Your whole being. Your arms around him, holding you close, reluctant to let go. You smelled so good, your voice was so soft and familiar.

He needs more. For old time's sake.

[phantasmiafxndom]

headcanons for the obey me! brothers crushing on their owner in pet au? what do they do to try to earn their favor/attention? with a dominant and strict but kind owner please :))

In general, it’s a lot of veeeery eager to please boys. XD

. . . 

Lucifer

For the most part, Lucifer’s crush is subtle. He’s very good at controlling himself, even if that’s mostly because he’s convinced his feelings are entirely inappropriate. However, once it’s gotten bad enough, you’ll easily notice the utter adoration in his eyes when he looks at you. To earn your attention, Lucifer subconsciously highlights every good thing he does. He wants you to see him as capable and worthy of your time and investment, so becoming the most well-behaved, even-tempered demon he can be is his real “strategy” for getting attention. 

Mammon

He’s obvious. As in, so much so that it’s almost sad. Mammon is terrible at hiding his feelings, and a massive crush is no different. Even though he knows that it’ll never happen, he can’t help but want to make you as happy with him as possible. When you reward him, he can pretend like it’s for more reasons than him just being a good pet. One of his key give-aways is that his wings flutter every time you so much as touch him... and he blushes like crazy around you constantly. To earn your favor, Mammon tries his absolute best to be good, obedient, and not cause trouble. 

Leviathan

Oh, he’s a mess. When Leviathan starts crushing on you, any confidence he has goes right out the window. It’s all he can do to even speak to you properly. Every time you praise him or treat him kindly, he falls even harder, and that both hurts and brings him incredible amounts of joy. You’d never want a demon in that way, so it’s hopeless... but even so, Leviathan can’t help but try to please you. He tends to show off and make sure you notice the things he does right, especially if it was something you told him to do. Just ignore the fact that eye contact is impossible.

Satan

In line with his nature as a companion type, Satan’s way of showing his crush and trying to get your attention is to go all out with his “purpose”. Instinctively, he starts trying to fulfill whatever duties you’ve given him to an even greater extent— he even becomes something of a perfectionist trying to accomplish that. Your praise makes his whole chest feel warm. The problem is that those unfamiliar feelings make Satan tense. He’s not sure how to handle crushing on you, so he gets quite on-edge while trying to manage it. He’s more desperate than he wants to be.

Asmodeus

Unfortunately, thanks to what he’s been through in his life so far, Asmodeus’s go-to for earning someone’s attention is sex. So yes, he’s making passes at you. Even if you’re not responsive to them, it’s kind of all he knows how to do. If they don’t work, he’s lost, and will be left simply trying his best to be good, whatever that means. His definition is formed by whatever you want of him. That said, Asmodeus is also as sweet and friendly as can be. He’s always happy to see you— and so, so clingy. It can be hard to tell if he’s crushing or just affectionate. 

Beelzebub

When Beelzebub starts crushing on you, it’s bad. He doesn’t know what to do with himself and feels painfully awkward and useless trying to keep your attention on him. Does he really even deserve it? He’s very shy about trying to earn your favor, and mostly shows his feelings by merely being as obedient as can be and trying not to do anything bad. He’ll even give his best effort to rein in his appetite if it’ll do anything to make you happy with him. Your kind side makes Beelzebub’s heart feel like it’s melting, and he’d do anything, legitimately anything to see you smile. 

Belphegor

The brat really doesn’t know how to process those feelings. Belphegor has spent so long hating humans that he’s immensely confused when he starts falling for one— especially his owner. It’s not like he has a shadow of a chance, so why should he do anything special? And yet, even when he tries to think that, Belphegor winds up trying to appease you and earn your favor despite himself. The main way this happens is that he’s clingy, always wanting to be close to you and hear praise. And even worse (in his perspective), his crush on you is adorably obvious. 

[holmes-cringe-compilation]

Yes hi hello I have been loving reading your blog, thank you so much for all of the choice S/holmes content! They have been simply *chefs kiss*

Could I maybe request how Holmes starts falling for/getting a crush on someone as well as how he would go about trying to express his feelings to them? How he would ~woo~ someone? I can't help but imagine some Period Drama-style pining and longing glances from this emotional boy. Maybe even... A Hand Touch™️? Anyways thank you for all the great work that you do!

a/n: hi anon ! thanks so much aaaaa i'm glad people enjoy my holmesie stuff !! sherlock pining is super fun to write so heheheee i hope you enjoy !

sherlock pining headcanons

sherlock is the kind of guy who just simply doesn't want to hide his feelings of love, but he does it anyways and my god is he good at hiding them. he's also very much so the person that sits at his desk for hours just zoning out, thinking about you. that is until iris snaps him out of his thoughts for dinner.

well, he's usually always upbeat with everyone he's with as that's how he is but if you pay attention veeeery very carefully to how he acts around you, he's more giddy, passionate and protective of you, but it's very subtle unless you could see through him like glass.

he goes home everyday and sighs because he's been pining so hard for you. iris notices and asks if there's something wrong and is met with silence, something she's very well used to with the likes of sherlock, so she assumes that it's just another one of those days... although something does feel off with him.

i think i've said this before but i like to imagine that sherlock does little acts of kindness for you at least every day for you. one day he buys you a cup of tea, coffee, whatever and the other he could shield you from the rain with his coat because yes he also forgot an umbrella.

one thing he remembers to do every day is bring you home safely and soundly after a long day of hanging out with him. he's always there for you and keeping an eye out for danger if you're out and about late at night.

he's so nice, especially to you ! it's just incredibly hard to see that he's so much warmer to you than to others. he buys you those nice little treats he knows you like from the nice sweet shoppe around the corner just to see your face light up as you nibble on them. it makes himself all happy just seeing you all happy !

sherlock tends to stick to you like you were tied to the hips together unless he's in his detective mode and deducing left and right, he can't seem to stay still during those segments but the rest of the time you two are inseparable.

he's always there for you and whenever you're having a conversation where you laugh or smile (most of the time because sherlock likes to tell you jokes and puns to see your reaction) it makes him pine more for you, all of his crops are watered, his skin cleared and all the birds in the world are singing.

oh !! have i mentioned that he likes to tell you stories from his old detective days ? he loves to ramble and it takes every fibre in his body to stop, and you don't tell him to because he's such a good storyteller and tells so many interesting stories !

most of which are bloated with white lies and words that make him more heroic looking tee hee.

since this blonde is very insistent on staying close to you at most times, there are times where you two are sitting down with each other whether it be on a bench, relaxing after a tiring day or in a cozy café while you don't realise you two are on a date until the moment sherlock drops you home.

in any case, there are moments where sherlock gently brushes his hand over yours (sometimes on accident, sometimes on purpose) and he realises a second too late, the poor man flushes red the moment you turn to see him. it's quite entertaining because you've never seen him go red in the face before ! he is cute though...

another thing he likes to do, sometimes he buys you little flowers on occasion in attempts to woo you which, they do. these come on nice holidays like valentines day or on your birthday but if he gives you some flowers on a day that's not those two sherlock makes excuses, saying that it's 'international give your bestie flowers day' before smirking and giving you the beautiful flowers.

he's such a sweetheart and you tell him this in a platonic way (even if you wish it were more in the romantic way) and it's something that he thinks about for ever ! even when you two are in a loving relationship, living the life in your retirement years, sherlock loves to look back on the old days and talk about how you used to call him cute names when you two were younger. aww~

[seyaryminamoto]

Do you think canon Zuko has any understanding of the idea of duty? That he, especially given that he aspires to political power, should act like his status as Prince gives him certain responsibilities? That doing what's best for the for Fire Nation or the world might require him to do things which make him unhappy or uncomfortable or require him to make grave personal sacrifices? Does he even understand duty as a concept?

Oof. Complicated questions, thus, this sat in my inbox for a veeeery long time.

I honestly, seriously, genuinely... don't think Zuko truly understood, at any point in canon, what it really meant to be a leader. I know many of us (and I think you, too?) don't particularly like the comics, but in my opinion, The Promise did a surprisingly decent job at highlighting several problems left in the wake of the end of the war, and perhaps unintentionally, this is one of the problems: upon becoming Fire Lord, Zuko is remarkably erratic, unsure of his choices, even seeking advice from his FATHER, of all people, because he has no idea what he's doing.

In the most favorable possible view of Iroh, he taught Zuko to be a better person. I don't entirely adscribe to this belief, but fine, let's concede that he did, or else this answer would never end: not just because you're a good person, however, are you guaranteed to be a good leader. Zuko, as we both know, is far from the best person in the world, and he is prone to making impulsive, emotional mistakes that can cause harm and trouble, and typically, Zuko doesn't face the consequences of most his actions, or the narrative just pins the blame on someone else. When we see this sort of behavior in a real-life politician, the immediate reaction we would have is "this guy is awful at his job", and sadly, I find myself thinking that quite often when it comes to Zuko's canon tenure as Fire Lord.

So... what is Zuko's concept of duty? Going by his pursuit of Aang in the first two seasons, duty is a task given to him by someone whose approval he seeks (in this case, Ozai) and he must pull it off, no matter what, to gain said approval. By Book 3, this logic still applies fairly easily to how Zuko acts over Iroh: I've highlighted in the past that the main motivation for Zuko's redemption is Iroh, doing right by Iroh, making amends to Iroh, regretting how he treated Iroh. He points that out explicitly in Ember Island Players, he does it as well indirectly by bringing up Iroh first of all, when confronting Ozai: this is his main priority. Ergo... I'd honestly say it's safe to judge that this is what Zuko regards as duty, as what he has to do. Iroh wants him to be Fire Lord? That's exactly what he becomes. The difficulties and complications in this particular line of work are taken for granted, and so, we have an outcome that was remarkably well depicted in The Promise, despite that comic's many glaring flaws: Zuko gets swept back and forth, twisted left and right by all the pressures and responsibilities, because he has no idea what he's doing as Fire Lord, and no idea/experience in how to be a real leader.

As far as I can tell, the core of the matter is that nobody really seems to have taken Zuko all that seriously as future Fire Lord. Ozai, evidently, wasn't training Zuko to be his personal heir. Ozai himself is a questionable source of information regarding learning what it means to be Fire Lord, considering he, as well, wasn't raised to take that role, just as he didn't raise Zuko for it. Yet Iroh didn't exactly teach Zuko how to lead anyone either, as far as I can tell: his lessons were meant to be of a more personal nature, and even then, Zuko had lots of trouble accepting most of them. Iroh's firebending lessons to Zuko were typically stunted in the basics because he was hot-headed and rash about getting to the intense and interesting stuff...

So: neither Ozai nor Iroh gave Zuko actual responsibilities. Ozai gave him a punishment Zuko was trying to endure however possible, a punishment he wanted to prove himself unworthy of by finding the Avatar and "regaining his honor". Then, Iroh punished Zuko as well by giving him the cold shoulder in Book 3, then he escaped and Zuko did everything he did, after betraying Ozai, to prove himself worthy of Iroh's kindness once again. It's not actual duty, the way it is in Azula's case: no doubt, Azula wants Ozai's approval too, but she has the madman's trust when it comes to finding her brother and uncle, to taking down the Avatar, and to conquering Ba Sing Se, as far as anyone can tell. I do doubt Ozai gave her all these missions at once, but he gave her the resources through which she pulled off ALL of them: she had the firebending procession, she had a ship, she had a train-tank, she had mounts... Zuko had a rundown ship that looked like a 1:10 scale version of every other ship in the harbor back in the very third episode: he was being punished. In contrast, Azula is entrusted with a mission, with LEADERSHIP, while Zuko has no visible, tangible, objective experience with the latter (consider how Azula steals the Dai Li's loyalty from under Long Feng: when did we see Zuko pulling off something like this? Even with Jet, Zuko was more of an associate to the Freedom Fighters, and Jet was still the leader).

I've always thought Zuko wasn't prepared to be Fire Lord, and the main reasons are the ones you indirectly point out through this ask: Zuko doesn't seem to treat the throne as a responsibility, but as his right. I won't get tired of pointing out that this was NOT Zuko's birthright, he was NOT born thinking he'd be Fire Lord: he was born to the second branch in the Fire Nation family. We literally SEE the day in which Lu Ten's death is revealed to him. According to somewhat official sources? He's ELEVEN in Zuko Alone's flashbacks. I, personally, think he looks a little younger than that, but I think that's the official wikia age, no idea where they got that info but that's what it says. Meaning...

Zuko, objectively, only had been crown prince for FIVE YEARS.

Zuko was NOT raised, not by his mother, not by his father, with the belief that the throne would one day be his (Ursa is gone before Ozai is crowned and Ozai clearly wanted Azula for the job rather than Zuko).

And yet, when you backtrack to the show? It seriously looks like that was the case. He clings to the throne in Books 1 and 2 as though he had no other purpose in life, as though this was everything that was promised to him (in contrast, Azula only ever indicates wanting the throne in Sozin's Comet: Part One). Even when he's an outlaw, discarded and cast out, he STILL talks about the throne, as though most his identity were built upon the notion that he must become Fire Lord: why? How come? Within five years, he's crafted his entire existence around being the heir to the throne? That's... a bit weird.

And a bit wishful, too. Which is why I commend that the comics show him struggling as Fire Lord, if anything they should've had him struggling MORE than that, because Zuko is simply NOT prepared for these responsibilities. He never gave any indication, any sign, of seeing it as such. He sees it as his right, his birthRIGHT. Why? Why more people don't ponder how utterly strange this behavior is, beats me. But it really does bother me that Zuko built his entire existence around being Fire Lord in a very similar way to how Korra built her own about being the Avatar. I have very little praise to give LOK in general, but the premise of Korra learning she was a person, a human, and not just the Avatar felt like the perfect parallel to Aang's story, where he was very much anchored in his humility and belief that he was just "one kid", and his rejection of his duties as the Avatar was meant to change gradually as he learned to accept himself as he was. Korra, however, never fully hit the mark with this subject, in my personal opinion... much as Zuko doesn't hit the mark either, since the show's only direct attempt to "deconstrue" Zuko's clinging to the throne happens in one dialogue, and his attachment to the idea is built up again, right afterwards:

Zuko: And then ... then you would come and take your rightful place on the throne? Iroh: No. Someone new must take the throne. An idealist with a pure heart and unquestionable honor. It has to be you, Prince Zuko. Zuko: Unquestionable honor? But I've made so many mistakes. Iroh: Yes, you have. You've struggled; you've suffered, but you have always followed your own path. You restored your own honor, and only you can restore the honor of the Fire Nation. Zuko: I'll try, Uncle.

And there we have it. The only point in the show (that I can remember) where Zuko seemed to not feel worthy of the throne and questioned he should be the one sitting on it (RIGHTFULLY!), buuuuuuuut he goes right back to wanting it, right afterwards, based on how this single exchange was enough for him to be 100% determined to take down his sister, merely a few lines later.

As for his willingness to make personal sacrifices... some might say he was outright willing to die for Katara in the finale -- though I'll point out he was trying to redirect the lightning anyway, didn't do it as well as he should have, but he wasn't exactly, consciously, trying to DIE for her... --, some might say that he left Mai behind in the FIre Nation, and that as well was a sacrifice... but was it? We don't see him missing her, or suffering about her fate, at any point in time after SHE sacrifices herself for him in the Boiling Rock (my biggest gripe over this particular canon couple is this, tbh). I feel like the show generally presents Zuko's situation as somewhat... self-sacrificial? Especially in Books 1 and 2, and yet that's really not the case: it isn't Zuko himself who makes the choice of traveling to find Aang, it's a punishment inflicted upon him.

This particular view upon his circumstances makes it so Zuko is never responsible for... well, any of his choices? It's always someone else's fault, therefore, whatever he suffers through, there's always someone he can (and usually does) resent for it. Therefore... I can't genuinely think of anything Zuko sacrificed in order to come as far as he did. He was forced to let go of things by his father, typically, by Zhao as well, maybe, but even then, it's not like we saw that he has a super healthy and happy relationship with, I don't know, Earth Kingdom people (his only meaningful positive EK bond was with Jin, which went nowhere and goes forgotten after a single mini episode)? The Palace staff? The commoners of the Fire Nation (they just treat him like a hero and he seems awkward and distant about it anyway, like he can really just do without their worship)? He doesn't have other friends beyond Azula's own friends... thus, he doesn't sacrifice anything that really matters. And in a sense, some people might say he doesn't have to sacrifice anything at all: he already went through so much strife and struggle that why would he need to sacrifice anything else? But the thing is... you DO have to learn to make such sacrifices if you're going to be a good king.

So often, people who devote themselves to their jobs have to consciously neglect their families, to name one thing: Zuko neglects Mai and she explodes at him for it in The Promise, then he just tries to get her back at all costs in Smoke & Shadow, with no thoughts given to the fact that maybe he isn't ready to juggle both a relationship and the throne, that maybe Mai could be happier with someone other than him, someone who can give her the attention and relationship she's looking for... THOSE are the sacrifices I'd be referring to, personally, sacrifices where his happiness and peace of mind have to be set aside for the sake of something much more important than himself, and I expect that's the kind of sacrifices you're referring to, too. I seriously don't think he's ready to make them, and with the comics as reference, there's seriously no evidence to suggest he's prepared to accept these burdens that come with the heavy mantle of leadership and ruling. I've never seen any signs of him being ready for it, myself. Maybe I need to reexamine the show and see if maybe I'm missing something... but I don't really think I am.

The worst part, for me, is that Zuko isn't even doing the bulk of the things he's doing in pursuit of genuine happiness: he's doing it over a sense of destiny. He never stops to reason with that destiny, to wonder if maybe he doesn't need to be Fire Lord, if maybe he could have a life beyond that role. Book 2 veeeery briefly suggests he MIGHT be on his way to questioning that destiny, but as I've said before, I don't see the sense in Zuko's big change of heart after the Appa incident considering we don't really understand what he's learned, other than how to be the perfect nephew for Iroh, apparently. Zuko never really is happy, as he says in the show: his happiest moments are with Mai and they're only like a 25% of his relationship with her, everything else is a mess (and his relationship with her isn't exactly the core of his character, either). So, the way I see it... Zuko is even worse off than it looks at first glance. He's out to fulfill a destiny he has never stopped to reason with, a destiny he's 100% sure is his, despite he has only been on that path, objectively, for five years? Despite he wasn't raised all along under the belief that this was what he was supposed to be? If given a chance to be genuinely happy, what on earth would he even do? A lot of the growth I gave him in Gladiator was based on that particular question: is the throne really what Zuko needs to be happy? It doesn't look like it, even in canon. If it's not... then it's not happiness he seeks, it's some sort of sense of assurance that he's doing the right thing, according to the figure of authority he follows at a set point in time: by Book 3, said authority is Iroh, and Iroh wants him on the throne. His motivation, as far as I can see it, is as simple as that.

Long story short... I don't think Zuko really has a strong grasp on many concepts that he absolutely should have reasoned with and worked out in order to become Fire Lord. In a sense, he's way too young for the role he's given, for the heavy burdens he has to deal with, and I'll NEVER see the sense in not having Iroh taking the throne (beyond how "poetic" the creators and writers found it to crown Zuko to finish his story, of course), at least for a short time, before Zuko can be ready. This is exactly why I wrote things that way in my oneshot where Azula takes Zuko's role, more or less: Iroh serves as regent while Azula prepares for taking the full role of Fire Lord when she's ready. I love her, she's awesome, I absolutely adore her character... but I don't think an Azula who was sidelined and sent on a long voyage with her uncle for YEARS could possibly be ready for the responsibilities of being Fire Lord right away.

Meanwhile? Iroh was given leadership of military missions enough times that he became a general in the Fire Nation forces. By all evidence, he was Fire Lord Azulon's pampered and spoiled son, whom he DID prepare for the duties of a Fire Lord for as long as Iroh was born: Iroh literally had fifty-ish years of preparation, as far as I can tell? How is he NOT the better suited person to take the throne, if just temporarily, while his nephew learns what it really means to rule by watching him, or by maybe learning leadership by managing smaller duties first, a specific town or city, and then putting his knowledge to good use by becoming Fire Lord properly?

Eh... because it wouldn't be an epic enough finale for the show, I suppose. That's the only answer I can find for this particular question.

So... yeah. That got long :'D but in short... I don't think Zuko has a strong grasp on responsibility and duty, let alone on the burdens inherent to these concepts. Yet more reasons why his character's arc can't hit all the marks it should, imo, to make it as great as the whole fandom is already convinced it is.

[skiyoosmi]

if fate permits

chapter twenty two: i love you

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note. i am sorry for the veeeery long wait; i finally finished it tonight (after fucking up with it for two whole months) but yeah, my emotions are quite unstable right now so this was affected by it (in short, this is a roller coaster ride so pls be ready)

playlist. stay (acoustic ver.); never let me go (both sung by ghostly kisses)

You absolutely had no idea what you were doing right now. As far as you could remember, you were the playwright, the writer of the script. You never had any interest in acting in plays, musicals, nor acting in general… none at all – so why is it that right now, you were standing right on the side of the stage, waiting for the cue for you to come out, dressed up as someone you weren’t supposed to be, someone you were only supposed to have written for?

You swear, this was the most chaotic crowd you have ever seen your whole life. You only watched, alongside Hajime, as people lined up right by the entrance of the university’s theater, murmuring and gossiping about the play that was less than an hour away from starting, “I gotta say, they look way too excited for a story that they should know like the back of their hands by now. It’s kind of funny,” Hajime chuckled, letting out a quiet ‘yeah’ as he shoved his hands in his pockets, watching you cringe on the girls that were obviously here for your best friend. You swore you heard one of them say they’re going to ask him out after the play and you almost wanted to drag her out of the venue by her hair.

“I would say it would be a waste of a ticket for people who are here just to gush about handsome faces instead of the story itself but then again, it’s us who are benefiting from it anyway.” You huffed and muttered a few more things under your breath, beginning to walk to the direction of the entrance for the crew members which was on the farther side of the theater, Hajime silently following and shaking his head out of amusement for your obvious jealousy. I can’t wait for the time when it’s me you’re being jealous for, he thinks.

You thought the crowd outside was chaotic? Nothing could have prepared you for the view you were welcomed to as soon as you entered the backstage. Literally, almost all of the crew members were running around frantically, pushing the small and large props here and there. Hajime, as if he had his ‘danger’ instincts set on, grabbed you by the waist and pulled you to his side just right when a random lad passed by where you were at a while ago, struggling to carry what looked like a heavy log on his shoulder (you figured it would be for one of the scenes that were supposed to be in the forest). You were sure as hell that if you weren’t moved out of the way by your friend, the lad would’ve collided with you and that thing he was holding would’ve fell on you because he was too busy looking back and chatting with his companion who was carrying other props.

Irritated by their carelessness, Hajime clicked his tongue and spoke up, “Oi, you two have to be careful and watch where you’re going. You might just cause an accident with what you’re doing.” The boys replied with an insincere apology, immediately going back to their business. You were soon brought to your senses as well and realized that you were still in his arms. Blushing profusely, you muttered a quiet ‘thanks,’ too flustered to think of a more decent reply. Hajime raised an eyebrow, smirking before leaning his head close to yours again, foreheads touching each other, much like the other day.

“You’re red. Are you feeling sick?” If it was someone he wasn’t close with, it would look like he’s just being concerned but you know better because you can practically hear the teasing behind his voice, so, you punched him right by his shoulders, muttering with a hint of shyness in your tone, “Asshole. Stop trying to tease me, it’s way too much for me. When the fuck did you even get so brave to act like this with me? Jerk.”

He cackled, slinging his arm around your shoulder, and beginning to pull you deeper inside the backstage. You both stood idly by the corner of the backstage, watching the actors get ready. From your position, you could see your blonde best friend, eyes looking lost as they wandered around the area until it stopped right to where you were. You think you held a staring contest for about twenty seconds until your companion spoke up, “You know, I personally think it would be better if you go to him and say your good luck, yeah? Nothing’s going to happen if you just stare at each other all day. I’m willing to share you with him… just for today though. After this, no more.” 

A confused expression formed on your face, wondering what he meant, though he just snickered and ruffled your head, “I said… go to him before I change my mind and pull you away from here.”

“I can’t. These days, I’ve been feeling way too many feelings and I don’t know how to control them. I feel like… I might just burst and tell him everything but I don’t want to. I’m not ready yet,” you admitted, fiddling with your fingers as you looked down, only for your head to be raised up again as Hajime held it up using your chin, a tender smile plastered on his face.

“Tell you what… if you lose control and everything goes astray, just look at me and I’ll save you, like a knight-in-shining-armor,” he whispers, patting you on the head before pushing you towards your best friend who was still looking, by the way. You took a deep breath, stopping right in front of him, biting your lip before opening your mouth to say something but Atsumu beat you to it, arms immediately going around your form and pulling you into a bone-crushing hug, “I’m sorry,” He mumbles into your hair, while you nod, reciprocating the gesture, “I… I’ve been such a shitty best friend, huh?”

“Yeah, right,” You huffed, trying to look mad and intimidating but it only came off as cute in Atsumu’s vocabulary, “After this, I’ll treat you to this really good restaurant. We can talk about anything and everything you want to tell me, even if they’re bad, I’ll listen, yeah?” He suggested, his hold on you still not loosening as he looked down on you, “I’d prefer it if only good things come out of your pretty mouth though.” 

You rolled your eyes, getting ready to retort as usual but a loud crash and a cry of pain interrupted you. Looking to the source of the sound, your eyes, as well as Atsumu’s widened. You can only watch as Yui, who was on the floor, clutching her ankles, angrily screech at the boy who was bowing his head and apologizing, the large piece of wood you luckily avoided a while ago found its victim and it’s the main actress of the play, “What the fuck! Why weren’t you watching where you’re going?! Look at what you did!”

Your best friend jogged towards her and once again, you were left behind. Love seriously sucks, you thought as you watch him try to shush Yui’s cries. The director, who heard about the situation, ran to where you are, asking what happened. “I think her ankles are injured, Miyu-chan,” you quickly replied, anxiety beginning to arise within you because what was supposed to happen now? You can’t cancel this play; you all have been working for months for this! Besides, the theater must be full of the audience now. As if she was reading your mind, she spoke up, “We can’t cancel this now, but we can’t force her to act as well. She can barely stand up, look. Mina, tell Mari to ask the audience to wait for a little while more, we have to think of a solution.”

By now, Atsumu was supporting her, making their way towards you with Yui limping, “Miyu-san…” “No, Yui. I know what you’re going to say but I won’t let you do that. Go to the infirmary and have your ankles checked. Your well-being is more important than this play,” the director firmly said, much to the brown-haired girl’s dismay.

“But you can’t cancel it! The people who bought the tickets will get mad! I can do this, it barely hurts, Miyu-san!” Yui pleaded, even going as far lifting her injured foot in a pathetic attempt to show that she was fine but it only put her to a worse situation as soon as she winced. Miyu only gave her a look of ‘I told you so.’ 

“Don’t worry about the play, Yui-chan. YN can replace you in your role.”

“What?!” “WHAT?” You simultaneously yelled out, obviously not expecting the sudden decision to be made, much less one that has something to do with you, “Wait, wait, wait… Miyu-chan, aren’t you being a little rash right now? I’m not a good actress!”

“She’s right!” Yui scoffed, “I’ve been practicing this for so long and you’re going to replace me with someone who never did?!” 

“That’s right,” Miyu nodded, crossing her arms, “She knows the script and the lines better than anyone here. And don’t try to fool me, YN, you know you can act.” Her unrelenting eyes told you that she knew everything there was to know; she’s been your friend for more than a year now, after all. 

“Oh, well. You won’t change my mind no matter what you say, so just go, Yui. Iwaizumi-kun, sorry for this sudden request but can you take Yui to the infirmary after what we’re going to do?” Hajime blinked but nodded, nonetheless. He feels somewhat sorry for the brunette who was on the verge of tears as she was helped by the crew members into one of the changing rooms to undress her costume.

It’s definitely not the first time in your life but you felt like vomiting the breakfast you had this morning.

You already lost count of how many times you took a deep breath in hopes that your heart will calm down. You listened as Mari neared the end of her welcoming rites and speech for the play, placing your hands on your chest as a final attempt to get tranquility within. The fairytale-like background music began to play and soon, a younger version of your character appeared on the stage; it’s the beginning of your Cinderella play. To be honest, you don’t even know where they got that child actress and how they managed to convince her to join the play but right now, you couldn’t care less because all you’re thinking of right now is how to not mess up your lines and deliver them with the proper emotions. 

Your brother, Osamu, Tooru, Makki and Mattsun, who you were sure as hell were in the audience, will never let you hear the end of it if you mess this up. You don’t want to live the rest of your days in Japan being a laughingstock. No way, you refu–

“You’re thinking too much about it. Calm down,” A voice from behind you interrupted, hands beginning to massage your shoulders to get your stiff muscles to relax. Turning around, you were met with the one and only Miya Atsumu in a prince costume. Right there and then, you felt like your heart’s going to burst for a different reason this time. 

Goodness heavens, Lord Jesus, thank you for blessing me with this beautiful man and letting me meet him, you thought as you savored the view in front of you, also thank you, Mr. and Mrs. Miya  for successfully creating Atsumu and delivering him to the Earth, it must have difficult to produce such fine masterpiece.

“Ya look… beautiful,” the blonde mutters, a hand rubbing his nape and sheepishly grinning, a slight blush adorning his cheeks, “Ya should dress up yourself from time to time, yanno? It really suits you.”

“Gee, thanks for calling me ugly on my normal days,” you scoffed, giggling when he let out a sound of disagreement, “No! That’s not what I meant, idiot!”

“I know.” 

Before you can continue your conversation, the signal for you to come out is finally closing in as the “stepsisters” appeared onstage. Rather shakily, you took a step forward, almost tripping on your dress due to your nerves. You were fortunate that Atsumu was attentive enough to grab your wrist, “YN, I told you to calm down.”

You gulped, nodding and taking a deep breath. He smiled upon seeing the determined look on your face and for some reason, his body moved on its own - placing a hand on your cheek with his thumb rubbing it, he approached you and placed his lips on your forehead. Maybe it’s because you were so nervous or maybe it’s because you longed for this moment for almost your whole life. Whatever the reason is, you just find yourself tearing up a little bit as he whispers, “That’s my girl.”

Never in your life had you wished that time can stop this much before. As you stood still in Atsumu’s embrace, you felt your heart being squeezed with so much love yet pain at the same time. How is it that he’s so close yet he’s someone you can’t have? 

“I love you, Atsumu,” you tell him, eyes still watery; heart hoping that it reaches him, that he picks up the meaning behind your words. But he doesn’t, as he stops to look at you, he squints his eyes in a joking manner as he speaks, “Hey, why do you look so emotional today?”

Disappointment grows in the depths of your whole being, though you don’t show him that. Because perhaps this was enough, you can try again another day. You’ll try and try until he finally understands. You can do that… you’ve been holding on pretty well the past fifteen years, so you huff instead, ignoring the painful thump of your heart, “Nothing, you jerk! Is it really that weird to hear me say I love you to you, hah?!”

You hear the dialogue of one of the stepsisters, calling out as your cue. You start to trudge forward but before you could fully go, he replies, “I love you too, YN, always remember that although I’m so shitty sometimes.”

Yeah, this is enough for now.

Perhaps, you shouldn’t have been so confident in saying that; you should’ve just been straight to the point because nothing has ever compared to the agony engulfing your insides as Miya Atsumu sat in front of you in a random booth of a restaurant, speaking the words you’ve always dreaded to hear as a Moira and as his very own soulmate, “YN, I think I’m done waiting for my soulmate. Can’t you just cut my thread off please?”