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It’s almost christmas. Palestine is still under the brutal oppression of Israel. Please, donate what you can to Palestinians.

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i want more steam friends be my steam friend

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Everyone on this website still using their hands to jerk off. Grow up!

miss tantric meditation pussy over here

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*sees another guy order a blueberry mojito* 💭 pssh … gay.

*makes eye contact with bartender* 💬 yeah can i get a cutebeer lite

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Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei

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Watching this video makes me want to marry a man and beat the hell out of him lol

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It's been a while since I drew Louis and Lestat.

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August 2016

photo mike spears

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So I’ve been in a self imposed dry spell for like 2 years. As a very sexually inclined person it’s been rough but I’ve been fulfilling myself in other ways (work, volunteering, grad school). However, I struggle with porn dependence and jerk off frequently - at least once a day for weeks at a time. During this time my tastes can get a little… avant garde, let’s say. Not “can only get off to the sound of a bee farting” level but still not great. I’ve had unique porn interests from age 15 and my earliest materbatory dreams were about being abducted and “harvested” by aliens. So I know this is something IN ME and not spurred on by trauma (though undoubtedly worsened by) but I still feel like I’m broken in some way.

Here’s we’re another interest comes in: foley work. I’d had a fascination in the field for years that really solidified when I watched Berberian Sound Studio (I love exploitation and troma films too so it comes as no surprise). I haven’t gotten my hands on high end equipment, but I’ve futzed around with anything I have on hand that had a microphone and/or audio output and various fruits, rocks, sheet metal pieces, etc to try and recreate beautifully horrific soundscapes to dub over scenes in movies or to add into ambient tracks for shits n giggles. Only for me though; posting this stuff on any platform that could be tied to me would guarantee I’d never find a job in my field.

So, yea, the fetishes I talked about? The best way I can describe it is… “wet, sucking” noises. There usually has to be specific imagery to go along with it but I can and have finished to “what good pussy sounds like” noises with some interspersed moans. Ideal imagery in these cases can be standard fare girl/guy giving a vacuum blowie or it can be… tentacles. Specifically the suction ones. It’s kind of fucked up to wrt the tentacles as most of the thrill comes from their looming, teasing appearance before descending on a less than willing participant. So there’s usually a level of bondage involved. ANYWAY I found what I’ve considered my Holy Grail of porn, but, like the Arc of the Covenant, now that I have beheld its splendor I am forever changed and disfigured.

It’s this 3D video of an undefined human wrapped in what is essentially a meat prison. You can really only see their hips and their dick… to shorten the vulgar details, a tentacle comes out and sucks them off. And upon finding this I was as pleased as a peach; finally something I could use for self-insert tentacle suck-suck fuel. But: there. Was. No. Sound. None. And I normally would just huff in frustration and find something else, as I hate downloading porn and leaving a trail of what I watch. However, I was really captivated and this video lit a fire under me. I spent weeks upon weeks carefully crafting my soundscape with different slimes, wet pumpkin innards, jello, and even suction cup toys on my wet tile floor to give a satisfying “pop”. I actually bought some decent equipment for the process (an expenditure that hurt my credit but dammit I needed to blow the Big One). And by manipulating surrounding surfaces for audio texture and messing around in adobe to align each wet slopping thump with the “rhythm” of the motion on screen, I felt pretty successful. Still, I was missing something: moaning.

Here’s the part I’m less proud of and honestly why this is kind of a confession. I’m not attracted at all to my own voice and I’d probably be cringing and dying internally if I tried to record moans for this project. So I just… looked on to some royalty free sites for male sounds. But none of the moans I found really did anything for me. What did were these,, scared breathing tracks on YT. I coupled those with some “death gasp” sounds during the climax, and this gurgling at the end that I intended to sound like the self insert was getting a tentacle down his throat. Once I got it all together i watched it. I couldn’t get one minute in without shooting harder than I ever had in my life. It’s become my porn-habit bread and butter that I either finish to or use to just rub one real quick. While part of me is certainly prideful, I have this lingering fear this is a serial killer red flag. I spent way too much time and money on this; plus my choice for “sexual gasping” were all found in the Halloween section of freesounds.org. And the end gurgling sound seems waaaay more like a death rattle when I’m in post nut clarity. Idk I feel like this is bad for me in some small way but I’m just going to try and let this be it’s own self contained project that I never revisit and never perform with any other soundless clip of porn ever again.

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just went outside and it felt like this

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46 movies in a year is pretty good for a guy like me

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Hollow Basin — Lunacid

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i have like a month in between getting home and school which ill be paid for but literlly never on time so im definitely gonna have to become like, an instacarter for a few months manfffuuccckkk