#+4 +3 +3 +2 +2 +0 +2 +2 that's nothing. that's really not worth my time

[pegasusknightsonly]

my Robin is already starting to struggle compared to my other trained gen1 units so i thought about giving her an early promotion to patch her up and make some progress towards her eventual rallybot role but

this is just depressing

[meazalykov]

wrong number

bayern munich frauen x lena oberdorf x reader

1/6, 2/6, 3/6, 4/6, 5/6, 6/6

summary: you're the honorary bayern munich teammate.

the excitement fills your veins as you land in lisbon. 

you’re finally here, and it’s hard to believe. lena doesn't even know yet—you wanted to surprise her, to be there in person for the match of her life. it’s been a long journey from buying the ticket, keeping it quiet, and making your way to portugal, but every step felt worth it because nothing, absolutely nothing, would have kept you from being here to support lena in the champions league final.

hours later, you’re waiting anxiously in your hotel room when a knock finally comes. you open the door to find lena, looking tired but smiling, and her face lights up as she sees you.

"you made it," she says, stepping forward to hug you tightly. she lets out a deep breath, and you feel some of the tension melt from her shoulders.

"of course i did," you say, hugging her back, brushing a hand over her back. 

"how could i miss this? tomorrow’s the match of your life. are you nervous?"

she pulls back slightly, her smile fading as she flops onto the bed beside you. 

"yeah… a little," she admits, looking away. 

"it’s more than that, though. i keep thinking about the final in 2023… it’s like this shadow hanging over everything. it won’t go away." her voice goes quieter, and you see just how much she’s carrying from that day that you’re unfamiliar with.

you sit beside her, reaching out to take her hand. 

"do you want to talk about it? what happened in 2023?"

she nods, her gaze fixed on a spot across the room. 

"it was against barcelona, with wolfsburg. we were up 2-0, and then everything just… fell apart. they scored three goals in, like, eight minutes. i felt so helpless. all those months of training, just to lose like that. sometimes it feels like i haven’t shaken it off."

you squeeze her hand gently. 

"i can’t imagine how tough that must’ve been. losing on that stage, with everyone watching… it’s okay that it still hurts. a lot of people would feel the same. i also know that you’re stronger now."

she looks over at you, a small smile finally breaking through before giving you a light kiss. 

"thanks. i don’t know… i’ve tried to push it out of my head, but tomorrow feels like a chance to finally put it behind me. i want to prove to myself that i’m not that same person who let it slip away." she whispers against you.

you run your thumb across her knuckles, trying to pour all your reassurance into that small touch. 

"and you’re not. you’re here, stronger and smarter, and you’ve learned so much. but whatever happens tomorrow, you’re still amazing. i’m just so proud of you."

a soft blush colors her cheeks as she squeezes your hand back, her gaze meeting yours as her forehead rests against yours. 

"thank you. it really helps, having you here. more than you know."

after a while, she heads back to her hotel room for a good night's sleep, leaving you with a warm, happy feeling that stays with you until morning. 

it’s surreal, thinking back to a year ago when this whole thing started with a wrong number. now you’re here, in lisbon, to watch the woman you love play in one of the biggest games of her life.

the next day, you find yasmeen at the stadium entrance, her face lighting up when she spots you. she flew in from america just to keep you company, and you feel a rush of gratitude as you hug her.

"ready for the match of your life?" she grins, eyes sparkling.

"more ready than i’ve ever been," you laugh, feeling your own excitement build up. you’re both practically vibrating as you take your seats, and when the game kicks off, it’s all you can focus on. 

seeing lena on the bench doesn’t dim your excitement—she’ll get her moment, and you know it.

the game starts off tense. city’s vivianne scores in the 20th minute, and the bayern fans around you groan. you try to keep your spirits up, leaning forward and clapping.

"come on, girls!" you shout in german, even though your voice is quickly swallowed by the roar of the crowd.

yasmeen chuckles beside you, giving you a supportive pat. 

"you’re so into it already."

you grin. 

"it’s impossible not to be. they’re incredible."

just before halftime, bayern’s perseverance pays off. in the 45th minute, klara sets up a perfect cross, and pernille rises up to head it in, tying the score. 

you leap out of your seat, clapping wildly as yasmeen cheers beside you.

"yes! let’s go, harder!" you yell, grinning from ear to ear.

at halftime, a fan behind you taps your shoulder and asks for a photo. she’s wearing a lena jersey, and you assume she just wants a picture with "lena’s girlfriend." 

you’re hesitant but smile and take the photo with her. when yasmeen teases you, you roll your eyes and laugh it off, though you can’t deny you’re a little flattered.

"look at you, getting famous," yasmeen nudges you. 

"you’re practically the team’s mascot at this point."

"shut up," you laugh, feeling your cheeks warm. 

"all i am is lena’s slightly anxious but very supportive girlfriend."

the second half starts off rough. city’s bunny shaw scores twice in under nine minutes, and the atmosphere in the bayern section gets tense. you bite your lip, glancing at yasmeen for reassurance as the clock ticks on.

bayern doesn’t let up. lea schüller scores in the 55th minute just one minute after shaw scored city’s third goal, and it feels like a breath of fresh air. 

one more goal, and they’ll be even again. you clap, your hands sore but determined, and yell encouragement, hoping somehow the team can hear you all the way on the bench.

then, in the 68th minute, pernille gets her second goal, equalizing. the stadium erupts, and you jump out of your seat, pulling yasmeen into a hug. 

this match has you on the edge of your seat, your heart racing with every pass, every tackle.

a commotion catches your attention near the right side of the pitch, and you see sydney in a heated exchange with alex greenwood. sydney is keeping the ball away from greenwood as the ref tries to intervene. you can’t help but chuckle as yasmeen leans over. 

"what’s going on with them?"

"just sydney being sydney," you say, grinning. 

"kidding. i’m not sure, maybe sydney just wants to give her team a breather.” 

minutes later, in the 79th minute, lena stands at the sideline, preparing to sub in. your heart skips a beat as you slip off your light blue button-up longsleeve to reveal your oberdorf jersey underneath. yasmeen catches sight of it and snickers.

"i wonder if she’ll get a yellow card within the first five minutes."

"probably," you mutter with the pride in your voice. you’re just thrilled to see her out there, part of the game she’s worked so hard to return to.

she’s barely on the pitch when, in the 81st minute, she makes a classic side tackle on mary fowler, and you and yasmeen exchange a look. 

lena gets a warning, but she’s unfazed, her focus sharp.

the clock’s ticking, and tension fills the air. then, in the 88th minute, lena sets up an assist to sydney, who powers the ball into the net, bringing the score to 3-3. 

you jump up, screaming as loud as you can, caught up in the joy of the moment.

at this point, your mind starts to wander, reflecting on how far you’ve come. a year ago, you were just a student in virginia, living a quiet life. now, you’re in lisbon, watching the woman you love play in a champions league final, surrounded by friends and fans. it feels surreal.

yasmeen nudges you, drawing you back to the game. 

"imagine if lena scores the winning goal."

"i hope," you murmur, watching her with bated breath as she passes the ball to tuva, who then lightly passes it to ana. 

ana crosses up to klara, who leaps up for a perfect header. the ball sails into the net, and the stadium explodes in cheers. the scoreboard lights up,

4-3.

klara runs to the corner, celebrating, and you watch in awe as the team surrounds her. then she turns and sends a heart your way, her hands forming the shape in the air. you send one back, beaming as yasmeen chuckles beside you.

the final whistle blows, and it’s like the whole stadium erupts at once. the scoreboard is locked at 4-3, with bayern’s victory glowing bright, but it’s hard to believe until you see the girls flood the pitch, their faces breaking into elated, disbelieving smiles. 

yasmeen nudges you, and you turn to see her beaming.

“they really did it,” she says, a little in awe herself. 

“and they really love you, huh?” you laugh, heart swelling as you watch the team embrace, overcome by what they've achieved.

“guess i just got lucky,” you murmur, and you mean it.

after the immediate celebration dies down a bit, the trophy ceremony begins, the crowd cheering louder as each player receives their medal, eyes glistening with the weight of the win. confetti rains down, golden and shimmering in the stadium lights, and you feel a lump in your throat. they’ve worked so hard for this.

suddenly, you hear a voice calling your name. you turn to see sydney and tuva waving, beckoning you over. before you can process it, they’re running up, reaching over the barricade to pull you across it.

“you’re coming with us,” sydney insists, her grip firm, and tuva laughs, nodding in agreement. they drag you toward the heart of the celebration, and you glance back at yasmeen, who waves you off with a smile.

“go have fun!” she calls, and you smile back gratefully.

you barely have a second to catch your breath before you spot lena jogging toward you, her face flushed with happiness, eyes bright under the stadium lights. she wraps you in her arms, lifting you slightly, and you cling to her, laughing as she swings you back and forth.

“we did it,” she breathes, her voice full of amazement.

“you did it,” you correct, pulling back just enough to look at her. her eyes search yours, and you can see that same mixture of pride and disbelief.

“i still can’t believe it,” she whispers, her hands resting on your shoulders. 

“it feels… surreal.”

you smile, brushing a strand of confetti from her hair. 

“it’s real. and you deserve every bit of it, obi!”

lena smiles, a little teary-eyed, then leans in and presses a soft kiss to your cheek, lingering there as if she wants to soak up the moment. 

“thank you for being here,” she says quietly, and you can hear the depth of her gratitude, her voice soft and genuine.

“i wouldn’t have missed this for anything,” you whisper back, feeling your own emotions rise.

nearby, klara is holding the trophy, posing for pictures, her grin as wide as you’ve ever seen. when she spots you, she waves you over, gesturing for you to come closer. you hesitate, feeling a rush of self-consciousness. 

you’re not a player, after all—you didn’t sweat and fight for this trophy like they did.

“come on!” klara calls, laughing at your reluctance. 

“get in here!”

you make your way over, feeling a bit out of place, and she hands you the trophy, the massive silver and blue prize weighing heavy in your hands. 

the moment feels surreal, and you look at klara, a little overwhelmed.

“are you sure?” you ask, voice soft.

she grins. 

��absolutely. you’re part of this team, too, you know.”

lena’s hand slips into the side of your waist as she steps closer, nodding with a warm smile. 

“she’s right, you know,” lena says, giving your hand a squeeze. 

“you’re like our honorary teammate.”

you smile, heart racing, and glance around at the team gathered around you. it’s a strange feeling—this sense of belonging among these women who have worked and sacrificed so much. 

they’re looking at you with genuine affection, the bond you’ve built with them over time stronger than you’d ever realized.

“alright,” you say, laughing, feeling a bit more relaxed as they crowd in around you. 

“but only because you all insisted.”

they cheer, pulling you into the picture, arms wrapped around one another, laughing and shouting in excitement as the photographer snaps photo after photo. you can feel the joy radiating from each of them, the weight of this accomplishment shared and celebrated together. 

when klara makes a heart with her hands, aiming it at you, your chest tightens with warmth.

yasmeen, watching from the stands, raises her thumbs up and laughs, mouthing “so popular!” and you give her a teasing eye-roll, smiling at her playfully.

finally, as the photos wrap up and the team disperses to greet more of their friends and family, lena pulls you aside to meet her parents, holding you close as you both take in the night. 

the lights of the stadium are soft now, the crowd gradually fading, and it’s just you two talking to her family, standing side by side in the quiet after the storm of victory.

“i’m so proud of you,” you say to lena after her family leaves the stadium, voice thick with emotion. 

“watching you play, seeing you out there after everything you’ve been through… it’s incredible.”

lena’s eyes soften, her fingers tracing the outline of your hand. 

“i couldn’t have done it without you,” she murmurs.

“you’ve been here every step, even when i was sidelined and frustrated. you kept me going.”

you smile, your heart swelling with pride and love. 

“that’s what teammates are for, right?”

she laughs softly, her gaze tender. 

“then it’s settled,” she says, her smile widening. 

“you are officially our honorary bayern teammate.”

the words echo in your mind, wrapping around you like a warm embrace, and you know that this night, this moment, will stay with you forever.

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authors note: I hope you enjoyed this six parts series :) I started it 10/1 and finished this part last night before a halloween party I had to attend lol

[cicerfics]

Q's 10 Favorite Jumpers, Rated and Reviewed By 007

With Rebuttals (and Revised Rebuttals) from the Quartermaster Himself

Gifted to @foxsoulcourt over on Station Pacific, just for being awesome!

Fits Q like a glove and the shade sets off Q's lovely winter complexion. 9/10.

Didn't this ridiculous business of seasonal color analysis go out when I was still in primary school? You're dating yourself, 007.

Well, somebody has to, since you wouldn't let me take you out for a drink last night.

...

Color less garish than usual, but fuzzy texture makes Q look like he's growing mold. Off-putting. At least, as off-putting as is possible for a man of Q's caliber. 6/10.

It's mohair, you heathen, not mold!

And stop talking about my 'caliber' if you

...

The color washes out your complexion. You ought to stick to darker shades, dear. Still, this one fits you snugly and the knit is thin enough that I can see your nipples when it's chilly in the server room. 8/10, it'd look even better on my bedroom floor.

You are no longer allowed in the server room when I'm in there, effective immediately, lest I file a complaint with Human Resources. Stop looking at my nipples. (And there's a phrase I never thought I'd have to use when addressing a colleague at Her Majesty's Secret Service.)

I live to defy expectations.

Color does marvelous things for Q's eyes but the squiggles give me vertigo. 5/10.

Get your eyes checked, old man, and stop blaming my jumpers for your vision difficulties!

Ranking has dropped to 4/10 due to Q's insolence. Be nicer to me, or I'll be the one to file a complaint with HR. Age discrimination is against regulations, my dear.

Stop calling me that

I don't really think you're that old

You do need reading glasses though

I never thought I'd see the day 007 cites regulations to me.

Why are there so many bars and blocks? Why isn't the jumper one harmonious shade of gray? Atrocious. 3/10.

It's comfortable

It reminds me of that time you

Don't lie, I've caught you looking at me when I was wearing th

It's considered artistic, 007, but of course you wouldn't know anything about that.

Grand old warship, Q. Nothing more.

Don't be ridiculous, of course you're more than

...

Reminds me of my grandfather. Deeply disturbing that I still want to shag Q even when he dresses like my grandfather. 2/10, will be reporting the quartermaster to Dr. Wilson for damaging my psyche.

You will do no such thing. That poor woman has enough to bear as it is. Overseeing your routine psych screenings is enough to warrant hazard pay.

I've caught you looking at me in this one too

You don't own this one, but you should. Let me buy it for you, darling. 10/10, would tug you into a broom cupboard during your lunch hour and undo the buttons with my teeth.

What is your obsession with Tom Ford

I don't see why

You say things like this but then you never follow throu

Why did you cancel our dinner the other nigh

I am not the sort of gentleman who permits himself to be despoiled in broom cupboards, thank you very much.

Puts me in mind of those odd little sailor suits posh people used to make their children wear. I think someone put me in one, once, ages ago. 1/10, you already look young enough to make me feel like a filthy old man, no need to make it worse.

I wouldn't mind if you were a bit 'filthier', actua

Well, if the shoe fits.

And you scold me about wasting money with damaged equipment and bloodied suits. Look at the price tag on this. Outrageous. 10/10, worth every penny, you're delectable in this one.

I only bought it to treat myself after

It was my birthday and i

You said you were taking me out for dinner for the occasion but then you

…Thank you.

I'd ask what I've done to deserve this torture, but I suppose I already know the answer to that. 0/10, I will have burned this one by the time you've read this list, and I apologize for nothing.

You know exactly what you've done, yes.

Three million pounds of my department funding for heaven's sake

Not to mention the fact that you canceled our dinner after I

And I hardly bought this to torture you. I don't buy my clothes with you in mind, 007. Don't be so arrogant.

And if that isn't an empty threat and you've actually broken into my flat and destroyed my personal property, I'll have your head.

My. How forward of you, Q. Well, I'll have to insist you take me out to dinner first. Then you can have whatever bits of me you like.

Don't be vulgar, you menace.

Not unless you're going to follow through on

You're the one who backed out of the dinn

Did you really burn it?

It was a threat to national security. Could sear a man's eyes right out of his skull. It had to go.

The cats agreed with me. They didn't put up any protest when I pilfered from your wardrobe.

For heaven's sake.

Then they're getting their least favorite flavor of tinned food for supper. And you're not getting dinner from me at all.

Now, I hope I'm not being punished for cancelling on you last week.

Of course I'm not

I don't see why you

You

...

You're being punished for wasting your day reviewing my jumpers rather than completing your overdue AARs. Please allow me to direct your attention to the rather large pile of paperwork with your name on it.

Sod the paperwork.

Q. I'm sorry I cancelled. You have no idea how sorry. But something came up.

I'm sure it did.

Something to do with the job.

...

Some internal business. Something had to be taken care of.

Somebody had to be taken care of.

...

Mallory told me not to discuss it with any of the department heads just yet. I handled it, but the job won't be declassified until tomorrow. Expect Tanner to call you and the others in for a meeting in the morning.

...Oh.

Well.

You should've told me sooner.

Q, I'm shocked! You're saying I should've gone against Mallory's direct orders and disclosed classified material to you against his will?

Of course that what I'm saying, you filthy hypocrite. You could've told me. I would've been discreet.

I know you would've been. That's not the point.

...

...Bond?

I'm trying to keep you out of trouble these days.

Trying not to be the man who ruins your career.

You've never

If that's how you feel then why

Even if you did, I'd

Rather unflattering that you assume I can't take care of myself.

I can, I'll have you know. And I never asked you to protect me. I can protect myself...and I can protect you in the bargain, thank you very much. I'm rather good at it, in fact.

Well, I can't argue with you there.

...

...?

Suppose we don't wait for tomorrow's meeting.

Suppose I take you out to dinner and tell you all about the whole sordid business tonight.

...You're planning on disclosing confidential intel in the middle of an Italian restaurant?!

Suppose we skip the restaurant.

Suppose I bring a couple of curries round to your flat and we talk about it there.

The flat you recently burglarized.

Let's not dwell on the past, dear.

Besides, I think the cats are warming up to me.

And I've got an overdue birthday present for you.

...Dare I ask what it is?

A replacement for the jumper I burned. A whole new ensemble, in fact.

Something much better than anything in your wardrobe. Much worthier of you. Something to show off those good looks of yours.

Will you let me give it to you this evening?

...Ah.

Well, I was going to ask what I should wear when you come over, since you have such strong opinions on the matter.

But if you're bringing a new outfit along, perhaps I shouldn't bother to put anything on at all?

Darling, I always said you were a genius.

19:00 tonight, your place. I'd say 'dress to impress', but I think your idea is best.

There's no improving on perfection, after all.

Do you really

I want you to

For God's sake, if you don't make good on your promises this time, I'll

19:00, then. I trust you know the address

Please try to be on time, 007.

For you, Q?

I'll be early.

[primrosebow]

An open letter to bigfatbimbo.🪽

Reasons why you should write for Adam.

1 -> He is a misogynist (not for long)

Look at his face. He is so weird. I swear. He has been favoritized for far too long, leaving him with the most mind-numbing god complex. Don't you want to stab him to death like niffty? Don't you want to put him where he deserves to be (either underground or under me)? I do. You should too! Because his way of thinking meets it's end where my heels begin.

2 -> He is stupid

He has the emotional maturity of a boiled lobster. He fits into heaven like an orca in the amazon river. He is so unbelievably incompetent it is actually kind of mind boggling. Don't you want to crush him like he's a little bug (either with your fists or your thighs)? Didn't he literally say one of the "biggest issues evet" was math or something? He probably couldn't tell you where Africa is in the world map even if you paid him. Even the fruit of knowledge couldn't give him enough braincells to function as a proper member of society.

3 -> he deserves humiliation

He deserves to have his entire worldview rocked and destroyed, something we can surely provide. His shallow thinking should be promptly obliterated. He has only ever gotten away from beautiful tall strong women because he always had the option of just asking for a different woman. They didn't have the mental fortitude to put him in his place. We are the bearers of the curse (liking repulsive men), and, since there is no "mental fortitude" to begin with, there is nothing for him to break down. We (as a collective) should end him.

4 -> I know what he is

His entire persona is a gigantic act to make up for the fact he cannot appropriatelly cope with losing in general, much less losing the, like, 2 wives he ever had (to THE SAME GUY!! MIND YOU!!!) and if he had more people they were one night stands. Not because he left them, but because people know he is worthless scum and he is good for nothing other than his "original dick" ( eugh. I usually refrain from cursing >:// ). It is the reason for his pride and also the only thing that makes him even remotely worth the hastle of talking to. He is the equivalent of a carnival prize to the people in heaven, scoring him is more of a show of your own endurance rather than how coveted he is. He has been objectified through his own hubris. He should be made aware of that. He should fear the knowledge we posses. It should be used against him.

5 -> he sounds.. like.. . He sounds good.

I watched the series while skipping most of the songs but I genuinelly could not do it when he was singing. No wonder he's in a band or something, I didn't actually pay attention to what he was saying I was paying more attention to the sound of his voice so I don't remember clearly what's up with that. Like he sounds REALLY good. If only he knew how to just use his voice without saying the most repulsive atrocities to be ever uttered by anyone ever. Oh yeah! We can make him incoherent enough for that to happen.

6 -> Lute deserves better

Lute deserves, like, a woman. Not him. She's too gorgeous for him, and, the difference between us and her is that while SHE is dealing with HIM, in our case, HE has to deal with US. Really, we're just saving a beautiful, amazing, stunning, showstopping woman a lot of trouble, and getting an ENTIRE PATHETIC MAN AS A TRADE! WIN WIN! Literally no downsides, I swear.

7 -> he is girl dinner

Don't you just love looking into your fridge and seeing the worthless scraps that built up overtime but somehow taste better now than they usually would have, which is particularly shocking considering it has 0 nutritional value? That would be what girl dinner is, and also an appropriate analogy for what Adam is like! Just roughly ok looking enough for you to not downright call it a biohazard. You will go to bed satisfied after fighting tooth and nail for your dinner (getting him to behave properly) and, it'll be easier the next times maybe! Operant conditioning is a heavy hitter with this repulsive individual, so it might actually get easier! Who knows!

8 -> Pretty please? (´｡･д人)ﾞ

I really. Uh . I really want him if you couldn't tell? Maybe the cannibalism and the fear I want to instill into him got in the way of you seeing my point, but, like, that's just how I love. The highest honor I could bestow on him is wanting to eat him, so, maybe that'll assist in your judgement? I also just really like your writing and would love to hear your thoughts on his idiotic self. AND! AND! Other people also want you to write about him if I well remember the 1 ask you received about him!

I await your response when you are available @bigfatbimbo

If you need more convincing; I can, like, draw him? I'm going to draw him no matter what but like I can cook something up for you in particular who knows.

You did say you were already considering writing for him, so, maybe this can be a final push in that direction for you!

- sincerely, Bow

[someguy-209]

Wanted to take note of what we know so far about what's going on with Avid's misadventures lore, so I figured I'd put it here. Transcripts are first, my thoughts are afterwards.

Midway through the most recent AA video at the time of writing, regarding a mysterious symbol on the ground: "But in a place of hopelessness, there is a sign of hope. A symbol on the ground that to this day no one full understands, but some see it as a symbol of progress and of change"

At the end of the video, a rocket is shown on this pad. Avid says: "But I've been called for a very important mission. A mission that I can't turn down. A mission that's going to require, 150% of what I've got. Thank you guys for an amazing season; I couldn't have done this without you." *Misadventure theme begins playing* *Sbk avid is shown looking upwards on a tree, presumably up at the rocketing ship. Olm watches/spots sbk avid.* The beginning of the first Misadventures video opens on the rocket drifting through space. "This is 0-LM 1 sending one final mission log. (note that 0-LM is pronounced Oh LM, not Zero LM) The mission was a-a complete failure. It's just me now. The rest of the crew... is dead" *Drone begins* "You know I-I was asleep for most of it. Woke up, everybody's screaming. Ran to the only escape pod, we, you know, we used to have two escape pods... budget cuts... tragic... It appears the collision with the nearby planet is imminent, survival rate looking aaaaat 19%, which you know... could be 20% if you subscribe to the channel. You're probably wondering who I am and why I'm here. Well, my name's Avid and I was invited to join the greatest opportunity in my content creator career. This is an SMP where we're going to be creating a Minecraft RPG together" (continues) *Screen starts shaking as rocket nears planet* And finally the misadventures "theme song" (thanks Egg!): Cabin pressure nominal Navigation optimal Nebulous phenomenal “Just a year or two, That’s all,” they say But something went wrong A meteor storm Anomaly on board You do not belong Oxygen on low One by one they fall Now I’m on my own I do not belong I do not belong I took the only escape pod Now hope’s the only thing I’ve got And I won’t just sit here, waiting This misadventure’s worth taking

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I'm going to assume anyone reading this knows what happened in sbk, mostly because I'm not really the person to explain it. I recommend this if you need any pointers, some other info is linked in it as well:

With this in mind, the OLM naming of the spaceship makes a lot more sense, considering that the Avid on the spaceship is the one under his control.

The thing that piques my interest is that Avid appears entirely human during the duration of the third transcript, even though he usually becomes one when being controlled by Olm. This implys that either: 1. Avid is entirely himself in these moments and he had nothing to do with the problems on the ship, 2. Olm is controlling him without revealing the enderman form and Olm caused the destruction of the ship, 3. An entirely different entity, (i.e. an "anomaly") has replaced Avid and destroyed the ship. I'm actually not too certain which one I'm leaning to the most, the details regarding avid/anomaly not belonging in the theme song feel too important to ignore, but maybe I'm looking into things too hard. We have at least two more years of Misadventures to figure things out at least. I'm curious as to who "the rest of the crew" and the "anomaly" on the ship are! The crew could be villagers of the deep, canonically the players on the AA CMP, maybe they never existed? And maybe the anomaly is a remnant of Olm? No matter what they are, there's just such a strong disconnect between the end of AA season 4 and the start of Misadventures that I'm desperate to understand more of what happened. Although it could just be to make Misadventures more palatable for new viewers. Anyways uh. AvidMc_ America's sweetheart of all time.

[konxhk]

Freakshow☆Finale

Taemi Mori's execution

TW's: Death, blood, decapitation, blades,

(I finally managed to write this! :D My first time actually writing so I hope everyone that was waiting for this is satisfied, have a good time reading!)

"IT'SSSS PUNISHMENT TIMEEE!!!!"

How many times had Taemi heard this? 2? 3? 4? She didn't remember but it didn't really matter, she wouldn't have to hear it any longer so counting was no concern now, how lucky!..Well, maybe lucky was not the best word, but after killing [REDACTED] she was getting a lot more than she believed she deserved.

That was one of the various thoughts on her head as she felt the metal collar lock around her neck, stealing the air from her lungs as it dragged her away from the court room and classmates to whatever was waiting for her.

Long hallways were all that was visible for a while, followed by complete darkness and eventual light, and before she knew it Taemi found herself in a..stage? It was like her own stage but..different. Most was similar, red, yellow and white curtains, bright lights pointing to the stage she fell into, big decorations and details everywhere. She stood up, a bit wobbly from being dropped so carelessly, only to be met with countless gazes...well, sort of.

Countless figures with scribbled faces, of all ages and genders, both in the audience and in the stage as other performers, were looking at them, the closer ones even having puppet joints.

Taemi felt a bit uneasy at the 'realism' but still kept on her smile, not like she was happy, of course not, but if she was going to die in front of everyone she didn't want her last performance to be some kind of pity party, she wanted to honor her talent, to spare one big show and make it remarkable..to make it worth what she had done.

As the execution music started playing, a more circus themed version of it, she noticed a big vertical counter on the curtain, from 0 to 100, the 0 with sad face and the 100 with a laughing one instead, it was quite obvious what she was supposed to do, make the audience laugh, she could do that..

So she did!

She didn't know how but she didn't care, she just did it all, speaking and presenting each and every act with more and more effort, speaking louder and non-stop gesturing as the figures on stage moved and performed. Smiles, shouts, jokes, dancing, anything that made the people entertained she did, and it worked perfectly - The scribbled on their faces turned into happy smiles, the cheerful sounds coming from the crowd making her feel the adrenaline on her body, the counter going up nonstop.

..20..45..65..80..and eventually 100!

Taemi was glad that it reached the top, she actually did it! She made the incredible final show she desired!!..

..Yet..strangely nothing happened, the cheerings continued and so did the performers, not stopping once, which confused her but she went along with it, so much agitation she almost forgot it was only leading to her inevitable death..

As she kept the show going, suddenly a monokuma dressed as a clown came up with a giant circus hammer and banged the counter on the curtain, making it spin a lot until it went still again, but this time turned upside down, the top saying the same 0 as before and the bottom with a -100 and a angry face, and when Taemi saw it? She was shocked, and a bit scared but she tried to keep it up, please tell her that it was not going on what she thought of..

Taemi continued the show, keeping on her theatrical smile and composure, trying to ignore the sweat in her hands and the fast beating of her heart, performing just as greatly as before..but the results weren't as great.

In one moment everything was 'perfect', the counter was on 0, people cheering and laughing, perfect music playing, various performers on stage with the focus on them. In the other moment everything had gone south, no matter what Taemi did the counter went down and reached -100, smiles had turned into frowns and cries, booing instead of cheering, the music getting more and more distorted and performers disappearing or breaking apart, one by one..until eventually Taemi was the only one on stage.

She wanted to keep going even with no more people for acts, the lights focusing on her in the stage's center. Taemi tried to think of something, she really did, but while she was silently panicking and doing her best to figure it out the people got more agitated, their voices getting louder and louder in the crowd.

"Why is this show so mediocre?"

"How boring!"

"I thought this would be better.."

"This is a waste of time."

Usually Taemi would have a polite thing to say back, a laugh to put on, a shrug to leave it be, but right now? The constant reminder of death and fear of every next second was eating her up, especially when the people didn't stop and their words got harsher..

"Is that girl even trying?"

"Does she think she's good or something?"

"Ha! What a stupid joke!"

"Just leave the stage already!"

"Such a disappointment.."

Those were only examples of the thousands of insults and comments she could hear, her chest tightening and her smile wavering. She wanted to continue the show and improve it but before she could even begin to try she felt a sudden pressure in her chest and saw a red stain in her suit..what the..

It confused Taemi for a few seconds but when she saw another one in her leg she understood what it was, tomatoes.

Tomatoes were being thrown at her along with shouts and booing, and of course it was not only that that was being thrown - Eggs, shoes, trash, cans, rocks, knifes, etc.. it all hurt, the sharper things leaving bruises and cuts all over her body, leaving cuts and stains in her clothes.

As it went on and on it only got worse, Taemi's breath getting shaky, her smile no longer on her face, the pain getting stronger, her unblinking eyes getting watery and her body almost shaking as she panicked, no longer being able to hear coherent phrases between the distorted music tunes as she became overwhelmed.

"Freak"

"Disgrace"

"Selfish"

"Murderer"

"Weak"

"Heartless"

"Lost soul"

"Ordinary"

It was all swirling in Taemi's head as she tried to shut the noise off, trying to ignore the words and pain she felt all at once, both in her skin and in her heart..yet, despite all of that, a different sound rang out in her ears between all the noise, a sound coming from above, almost as if something opening..

"Huh..?"

She barely choked out between breaths as she turned her head to look up at the ceiling above the stage, her vision blurred for a second by her watery gaze, and in the red curtain she saw a bunch of confetti coming out from a hole, followed by the sight of a huge blade just above.

Taemi's eyes widened as she saw the shiny mouton over her, giant, sharp and unmoving, the music reaching its peak, the instruments pausing and the lights fully focusing on her, everything else going dark..and, as a finale, the weapon suddenly dropping on top of her.

She barely had time to react as the last thing her crying eyes saw were confetti, angry faces and the blade that cut her throat open in one go, splashing her pink blood everywhere on stage, the music ending cheerfully and confetti flying everywhere, her pityful body being dropped on the wooden floor and ending her perfomance and execution..and her life as well..

[Taemi.exe saved to NWP_blackened_list]

[n7punk]

2024 Writing Wrapped

Buckle your asses in because this is a long one (when has it ever been a short one)

Stats:

Fics posted this year: 32 (it honestly feels like way more)

AUs: 25 Canon: 7

Updates (chapters, one-shots, etc): 97 (damn I thought that was higher too lol but that's an average of posting every 3.14 days for the 10 months I wasn't on hiatus and and posting 1.87 times a week if you include my hiatus period, and my goal this year was to hopefully update 1.5-2x a week on average, so that goal was definitely met!)

Total word count: 600,179 (my goal was 600k and I got it in with only a few hours left)

AUs: 400,695 Canon: 41,235

Fandom events: 4! (Big Bang, Sapphic September, AU-ctober, Sheratober)

Novels: 1

Personal projects: 2 (misc)

Writing streak: 730* days

I haven't actually written every day in there, I have a couple of rest days thrown in that I only allow myself if there are extenuating circumstances (power outage, sick, etc) where I give myself a word count of 0 because my counter still picks that up as writing. Having this streak is extremely motivating to me so it's worth the "inaccuracies" to have it force me to write on the days I normally wouldn't because I don't want to break it. Removing the freebie days from this year, they're 6, and going back to 2023 it looks like I had 1 since the streak started, so the "real" count is 723. When I port over my streak to next year I'll use the reduced number so it will be more "accurate". I want to keep those freebies in the single digits every year and I'm happy with that.

Retrospective:

1% of Catradora fics!!

that's how I started the year, posting 'stardust, glitter, and love', which let 'freak occurrence: confluence' become my 117th Catradora fic that took me to 1% of the tag (as of writing this I'm 1.17% even after taking nearly two months off lmao). This was a huge goal of mine I was honestly hoping to hit at the end of last year, but kicking the new year off with it was great too.

In late January/February I was working on EtB(LtF), but I got a little ahead and as I was slowly posting the final chapters, I also joined my first fandom event EVER! and wrote Lightbeam for the Big Bang.

The Big Bang was so fun. I want to shout out karo-lynn again for the absolutely GORGEOUS art that went above and beyond with multiple illustrations. Kitten Catra is soooo cute and the way the glowing effects came out is just 🤩 Getting to do Lightbeam for the Big Bang was really great because it was a "milestone" event for the 4th anniversary and the fic I got to write for it was almost a follow-up to my "milestone" fic because they were the only couple in freak occurrence: confluence that hadn't had their "home universe" fic come out, and Lightbeam was the genesis of a long-standing idea (kinda headcanonish) about Adora being the goddess of Etheria that I had, so thank you so much to Tippenfunkaport for arranging it because the final fic and art means so much to me <3 (and also even if I'm still working my way through them, there were a lot of good other fics that came out of it I loved reading!)

To my memory, February/March was a little slower working on MMaM and SYE, but I went a little crazy with OLIG in April/May and had so much fun on that project. I really, really needed it. I'm not going to get into it, but with stuff that happened in my family... this was honestly one of the scariest years of my life. I was trying to figure out why I have vague negativity associated with the OLIG project and then I remembered what was happening around then and realized it had nothing to do with the project itself and in fact that was the only thing that kept me sane. That's probably why I was having one of my troughs in mid/late-May through July. Everything I picked up after OLIG/the Big Bang I just couldn't spark my interest the same and I was tired, but I eventually settled on Slipstream and slowly wrote that for... ages. But I don't want to make it sound like I was depressed that whole time. March-June were really hard, but the main reason I didn't write much in July was actually because I was having so much fun, because I got to meet up with a bunch of friends IRL for almost two weeks. It was so incredible and ugh, I'm committed to making a meetup happen again because I miss them so much.

I think I finally finished Slipstream in August, and that's when it happened. I saw the Sapphic September prompts. I already did individual retros on Sapphic September and Sheratober/AU-ctober, but needless to say: I went fucking insane. The unhinged era returned. And I had a fucking blast. I do want to do more fandom events in the future, but we'll get to that in the future plans section.

I will say, after those events, I honestly felt a little tapped for solid fic ideas. So like, I have a list of 7 ideas I'm interested in (and 1 WIP I'll try to finish and post in January), but I have no thoughts for an actual plot for those 7, it's literally just a tagline, like "Wedding Crashers AU" and that's it (using What a Beautiful Wedding as an example). So there's something there but plot calling to me. The Catradora whirlwind combined with future plans I'll get into later (I promise I'm not going to keep saying that) motivated me to finally pickup my novels again as my next project after the month was over.

I also did something new this year and wrote fanfics without the intention to publish them at any point. I talked about how I lied to myself I wouldn't do it with SB,WCFM to make me start it but lowkey knew the whole time I was going to. That wasn't the case with these other two. One I knew would be bad and had no interest in making good, and the other was for my OCs. For both I wrote 10k in one day. And it was bad. But it was also good. It felt good and the quality or missing scenes didn't matter since no one but me would ever read them. I'm not going to make this a "habit" but I'm definitely open to doing it again, especially for my OCs lol. And though one day I would love to turn them into published characters, I think there's some kind of conflict of interest issues or something with me posting fic of them on the internet, so they will probably continue to stay just for me, but hey, let's talk about novels!

Novels: Oh My God What The Fuck is NaNo Doing

Alright. So, if you don't know, NaNoWriMo used to be a huge thing for me. I won it 4 years straight 2012-2016, and picked it back up in 2020 when I got into writing again because of Catradora. In 2020 I just did a collection of fanfic for it (SLAS/OTOS/misc), and in 2021 I did my first original novel since 2016 in it. When 2022 came around I was burnt out from writing a whole novel that year already, revising the one from NaNo, and trying and failing to start a third novel that summer, so I didn't do NaNo. And, uh. Well. In 2023 there was no way I was finishing even a fanfic project at 50k with adjusting to my new job, so I ignored it.

And can I say, what the fuck. Shit went down. If you don't know, there are plenty of rundown posts and like a 2 hour video essay on it. It's fucking insane. A lot of people lost the motivation to participate, and thus the motivation to write at all for some of them. Not me. I got these emails throughout the year begging and pleading they've changed and it made me actually consider writing a novel on my own - outside of Nano - for the first time in 2 years. I hit my stride and was feeling really high during Sapphic September and was like you know what I can actually do this, and god knows NaNo is continuing to pull garbage every day to keep that motivation up. Once I knew I was doing the events for October I thought it was perfect to do those two theme months and then take a break for my novel on my own.

I now have a week to finish the last two chapters by the end of the year (my goal) and I swear to god I'm going to do it. I'm at almost 90k (I know, I'll trim it in revisions, y'all know how I am). My Novelember 2024 retro post has more details on how that has been going. I just hit a run of writers block over ONE SCENE, but I'm past it now and hopefully these last two chapters will be fast. That's like 3 days each I should be able to do that.

And then... let's talk about

Future Plans:

For the first part of January, I'm actually going to be working on outlining a second draft for that novel I wrote back in 2021. It's a sister book to this one so I want to get it to a stronger place. I do want to finish and post the one Catradora WIP I have tho (brace yourselves it's very stupid). Once the Femslash February prompts go up, I'll start working on those and posting throughout February. I miiiiiiiighht do the Big Bang again if I have an idea I think will be long enough and "cinematic" enough for art. I know I'm going to be super busy 2025-2026 (doing a training course for work 6 hours a week this spring, probably changing roles in the summer, hopefully going full-time in winter of 2025/2026, definitely moving in 2026 and maybe doing a smaller move in summer 2025, etc) so I'm trying to be realistic about what I have time for while also trying to set myself up to hit my big goals anyway because I'm honestly so scared to go full-time because I worry I won't have any motivation or time to write. After the last year and a half of letting my novels languish I'm really concerned I'll never write them if I'm fighting through the difficulty of a full-time job while disabled too, so I want to set myself up for success with being ready to query by then because if I had an actual agent/book deal I think it would keep me motivated (or at least force me to work on them lol) and I want to get these novel out there, the characters are super important to me and the thought of never trying is horrifying.

My big goals for next year are this:

Participate in Femslash February of course, hopefully for at least 20 prompts, though I'd love to do them all if they're good ones for me (After February, I'll either work on Big Bang fic - which means I won't be posting anything - or I'll go back to revising novels).

Participate in one more writing/fandom event (whether it ends of being the Big Bang or something else like Sheratober).

Update/post fic at least 32 times (usually my goal is 1-2x a week, but I'm probably going to be on hiatus working on novels for a few months, so I'm kind of halving 52 weeks and then adding a bit more to it for this goal, hopefully I actually still end up with a weekly "average" but I don't want to set up myself for disappointment).

Revise my novel from 2022 at least once.

Get one novel to the state where it's ready to query by the fall (probably requiring 2-3 revisions, unsure if it will by my current novel or the 2022 one yet).

That's all I can think of right now, but I do want to end as I always do with my thank you for reading because without y'all I don't think I ever would have gotten the confidence to actually pursue publishing but all your kind comments and messages have really changed my life and helped with my imposter syndrome so much <3 Ignoring the confidence thing, I would not have written as much as I do with the motivation I do without those comments, so thank you so much 💖

[currytantou]

[translation] Dear Vocalist Evolve Entry No 6 A’ – Animate track / CV: Kimura Ryohei

also x-posted on my wordpress blog / ko-fi page / commission me! as usual, do not repost or use!! :')

0:03 Hmm, it should be around here… Oh? Oh! Found it~! Extra large sunny side up! Yeah, apparently it’s an artwork slash bench! As you can see, it’s the shape of a freaking huge sunny side up! You don’t always get to sit on a sunny side up, do you? ‘Nuff said, we gotta take some photos!~

0:40 Here goes!~ First off, let’s strike a cool face. (camera snaps) Next, go all out and make a weird face. (camera snaps) Lastly, gimme a big smile! Honey, I love you!!! (camera snaps) Wait, wait!! It’s my duty to check the pictures~

Hmm, hm! These turned out nice! Pfft! Honey, that’s way too much effort on that weird face! But, but! Considering how you still looked cute despite the all-out weird face, I expect nothing less from my miraculous girl. What’s your deal, Honey? A’-tan is getting dizzy over your staggering cuteness attack! So, how’s the last picture look like? Whoa! This is bad!! It’s a problem if anyone approaches you! That’s not true! Your eyes weren’t half closed but you looked right into the camera- whoaa! Well, hmm, that’s true. It turned out nice. Actually, it turned out way too perfect that it captured Honey’s super angelic smile! If everyone sees that, they will fall for you! Therefore, I’m not showing these to anyone! But it’s our precious selfies so I should at least send it to Honey. When you’re at home, you can secretly take a peek and recall your Hakone day-trip memories with Darling all you want!

2:29 (phone vibrates) Alrighty! Let’s get going and move to the next place! This place is bigger than I expected and moving around takes so much time. Since we’re here, I wanna briefly check the whole place but they have an outdoor art gallery and indoor exhibition. So if we wanna see both, we gotta be quick. That said, we can’t stay still. Where to go next? Of course, I’m gonna prioritise where Honey wanna go, so don’t hold back and tell me~! Hm? Which is it? Huh? Soap bubble castle? We have no choice but to go! (clears throat) I shall lead the princess to the castle so your hands, please.

3:26 We are here!!~ Hmm? The princess’ castle is being occupied by all those kids? They seem to be having the time of their life, eh? It kinda looks like a damned stylish jungle gym. Now that we’re here, we too should aim for the summit and climb it! (Honey stops him) Huh? R-really?~ Seriously. No way I am stopped by the age limit after all the effort to reach here. But gentleman A’-tan doesn’t mind letting the kids have the castle if that means I can have the princess all to myself. I am way, way more content with this. (kisses)

Nah, this is basically how overseas people say hello. Besides, everyone’s attention is on the castle. So, no problem, no problem! Don’t mind that. You should tell me if there’s any place you wanna check out. Although I said we’re checking all places, of course I’m prioritising Honey’s requests!

4:48 It was long but I sure had fun!~ Makes this whole Hakone trip worth it. Hm? Huh? There’s no presence at the bus stop…Don’t tell me we missed it?! Ahh…Nah, it’s fine. I checked the schedule earlier and there’s no changes. If we get on this bus, we can easily ride the bullet train and go home. That said, let’s sit down. Honey, I’m sure you’re tired. Since we’ve been walking around the whole day.

I know right. We managed to look around but not take our time. Although, well, I came here knowing that. Yeah, let’s come again. How about we stay the night next time and make it a hot spring trip? After all, Hakone is all about hot springs! Doing it right away might be tough but a night stay might be possible after cd release. I know right! I wanna soak in a hot spring! Of course, with Honey~ No way, of course we should! After all this time, Honey?~

Ahh, a hot spring with Honey….Honey out of the bath…yukata…her nape..!! Ahh!! Ahhhh!!! Just imagining it makes me lose it!! That means I’m booking it on the bullet train ride!! Of course, it gotta be a room with a hot spring reserved in it! This will somehow work out if I put all my effort into it! Besides, I still hold a grudge over the jungle training camp the other day. I definitely won’t let ‘em take captive of me suddenly again!

6:43 And that means, Honey, you should tell me when you’re free! But before that..! Bam! (A’ hugs Honey) Don’t worry ‘bout it~ The bus isn’t here yet and there’s no kids around either. I felt excited thinking about the hot spring trip, so I immediately need your lips, Honey~ (kisses) I’m confident I would enjoy myself wherever, as long as you’re with me. But having you all for myself gotta be the best when nobody’s looking. That’s how our next date plan should be. Look forward to it~ (kisses)

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tysm for reading <3 ✮ ⋆ ˚｡𖦹 ⋆｡°✩

[itzsephig5]

8 (What Lurks in the Dark)

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Y/n's POV:

I sat down next to Yelena while I was crying. I feel her put her arm around me and pull me closer. "Three years. Three years and it meant nothing to anyone." I say in between crying. "I know." I hear Yelena say quietly. I finally stopped crying heavily. "It meant everything to me, okay? You are my sister, and no one can tell me otherwise. You will always be my sister Y/n." Yelena tells me. I nodded my head at that. "You know, I remember when I first met you." Yelena says. I looked at her. "Really?" I asked. She nodded her head. "You were so small. I think you had just turned a year old a few months before I met you. I remember looking at Melina and asking her what your name was and how old you were." She explains. "Your hair was a lot lighter than it is now." Yelena added. I looked at her. "What color was it?" I asked. "When I first met you, it was a really light brown. It darkened as you grew up." Yelena explains. I just nodded my head at that. "At that time, Melina told Natasha and I that we had to look after each other, but we really had to look after you because you were the youngest. Hell, you took your first steps and said your first words with us." Yelena tells me. "I didn't know that." I say. Yelena handed me the bottle of vodka and I took a swig from it. "What do you remember?" Yelena asked. I let out a hum. "I remember maybe the last year. It's like when I was three, I could remember everything after that." I say. "Well, minus what the Red Room did to my memory." I added.

It was quiet. "Do you remember the first kill?" Yelena asked. I nodded. "I think I was five." I say. "I was eight." Yelena says. "Sucks that we never got a normal childhood." I commented. "Nothing about our lives will ever be normal." Yelena tells me as she grabs the bottle back and takes a drink from it. I just sit for a second. "I sometimes wonder what happened to my birth mother and father. Like, I wonder if they're still alive or if I have siblings. But I remind myself that whatever happened for me to be in this situation happened and I got to meet you and Natasha. And as much as I hate the fact, I did meet Alexei and Melina, who are my parents whether they like it or not." I say. "I understand that." Yelena says. "I wonder about my biological family a bit too. However, it's not worth it to think about. I'd rather think about my life now, even if it sucks mostly, and be glad I have you in my life and the fact we are free from the Red Room." She explained. I leaned my head onto Yelena's shoulder. "I wonder what I'm going to do when all of this is over." I say. I hear Yelena hum at that. "We'll figure something out; all I know is I want us to stay together. We will find something to do, I promise." She says. We both sat there before the door to the bedroom opened. I looked up and saw Alexei walk in. "Oh joy." I say. I hear Yelena laugh at that. He sat down and started talking. I honestly just zoned out of the conversation, not wanting to hear him talk. I only noticed what was happening when the lights shut off and bright headlights were through the window. "Get down." Alexei tells Yelena and I. Yelena grabbed me and we both crouched down. Alexei stands in front of the window before he gets hit by some sort of dart. My eyes widen as I saw that. "They think..." Alexei starts to say before more darts come through. Yelena and I both covered our faces. Alexei falls to the ground afterwards.

"Come on, get up." Yelena whispers to me. I nodded before we both moved towards the bedroom door to exit and figure out what happened. I grabbed my gun out of the waistband as the two of us left the room. I see Yelena do the same thing. The lights being cut off and the headlights from whatever was outside made the whole house look eerie. "Stay behind me." Yelena tells me. "I will." I say quietly. We both walked around the house and tried to find what was happening. "Do you see Natasha or Melina?" I asked Yelena. She shook her head. "I haven't seen them yet." She responds. We both keep looking around before Yelena freezes. "What happened?" I asked. I looked around Yelena and saw that Natasha was on the ground unconscious. I went over to check Natasha to make sure that she was still breathing. "Is she okay?" Yelena asked. "She's breathing." I confirmed. I heard footsteps walking towards where Yelena and I were. I looked up and saw Melina standing there. "I'm sorry." She says before hitting Yelena with her widow bites. I looked up before quickly standing up and pointing my gun at Melina. "You'll understand soon." She tells me before she hit me with the widow bites. The last thing I remembered was hitting the ground and seeing what looked like a flash of sadness on Melina's face.

[chemposting]

randomly stumbled upon this blog. chem AND lifesteal posting? u are so cool. i have very very limited knowledge of chemistry (took ap chem lol. i thought it was really fun but nobody else understood me…) so like half of ur blog just flew over my head but this shit is so interesting. i’m so intrigued. so what’s ur favourite molecule. or idk. tell me things… i’m just a curious fella

HELLOW THANK YOU SO MUCH... mee?! im So Cool... chem poasting slash mandizo is cool... no... it cant Be....

I GOTTA SAY its pretty hard to pick a favurite molecule. every molecule is so swag in their own ways. but if I had to pick one (and this is quite relevant to your ask) it would be the Havoc Duo Molecule

(the woke mob calls it Zirconocene dichloride) they just let chemists make whatever nowadyas and its so awesome

ap chem... wow... not to dox myself but ive been in china my whole life so far but im very intrigued in various chemistry curricula all around the world. teaching something is just as cool to learning it to me. ap chem is basically first year undergraduate general chemistry. AS A SOLIDLY DESIGNED COURSE IT CERTAINLY DELIVERS. i just hope that it would introduce some preliminary organic chemistry knowledge. my wish list

ILL SHARE WITH YOU WHAT IVE BEEN WORKING ON AS OF LATE. as a sneak peak...

we dont always get what we want in life. sadly this is also the case for amides... amides are molecules that look like the above two. with an oxygen atom and a nitrogen atom bonding in a specific way. blue ball is Optional. anyways often times in organic synthesis we would reeeeally love to turn things that are attached to that nitrogen into other things. as shown in the above diagram! a more complete reaction scheme is as followed:

THIS UNFORTUNATELY THIS EASIER SAID THAN DONE. for various reasons, conversion rates of the original amide is usually straight garbage. its commonly around 50% with plentiful opportunities to go much lower to single digit or 0%. its a huge waste of resources, energy and time. QUITE AWESOMELY THOUGH, THE BELOW REACTION (which is used to make a precursor of Tamibarotene. tamibarotene haas been approved for leukemia treatment) , with equaimolar reactants, REACHES A CONVERSION RATE OF 92%:

this is quite Gobsmacking. so why would this be? we can actually investigate with fairly simple general chemistry knowledge. we have 5 reactions worth discussing here and Allow me to list them all.

Reaction (1) is the main reaction we care about. (2) and (3) are reactions involving the acid TfOH and amines which act as bases. (4) and (5) are reactions involving solid salts dissolving and precipitating. lets list the five reactions and their equilibrium constants here:

Assuming that solubilities of R1R2NH2TfO and R3NH3TfO are s1 and s2 (mol L^-1) and with some dope algebra:

we can see that the ratio of concentration of B (the amide we want) and A (the amide we want to turn into B) at equilibrium, which we will call r, is

and this is Directly linked to conversion rates of A because convertion rate of A is

and THIS IS SO AWESOME. i was really surprised that r would have such a simple form and that this formula which we derived with nothing but simple assumptions (were not even dealing with numbers here) and basic knowledge can explain so muchs. For example lets solve the stupidly high 92% mystery:

A high conversion rate means a higher value of r. Had side reactions (2) (3) (4) and (5) not have happened, we would have r = sqrt(K1) (this one is left for the reader to prove ... smirk). so what we are trying to find out here is when does the following inequality hold:

One solution would be that when

its just really awesome that we could have a solution with such amazing actual chemistry interpretations. And forr reasons that are a bit beyond the scope of this post, the molecules involved in that reaction which makes Me-Tamibarotene satisfies all of the above conditions (by a long shot). so Thtas why we were able to have such high yield in that specific reaction, and we can expect similarly satisfactory yields in other reactions that also clears the checklist!

[soliro-moonlight]

Woke and chose violence today so have an unnecessary list of how long it took me to make the transparents based on what ibisPaintX.

Yes, I do these by hand. Is there a better way to do it? Yes, but do I hate myself? ...well my arm seems to think so. Anyway, here's the shit post:

1. Shinigami in Yuma's art (0:13)

Tried to boom kill me since I yeeted her from Yuma's art so I gave her a transparent. Easy to do since she is basically a blob, but she's cute.

2. Seth sitting (0:21)

Couldn't stop cackling when doing this. This man had a chair in the main game but in the art book he looks like he is going to drop the most mid rap album. Immediately faceplanted when I was finished.

3. Desuhiko sitting (0:22)

His wavy hair was annoying but it was in big chunks so it was easy to manage. Overall his design is so cute especially with those big shoes but I did slap him when I was finished.

4. Vivia sitting (0:30)

His hair was more annoying than Desuhiko's given they are smaller, but I got through it. Belts were cool to transparent. Fell asleep two seconds into the process.

5. Yakou sitting (0:30)

The chair was easier than I thought to transparent but points docked for Yakou's hair being so curly and thin. Love the man but I have half a mind making him bald.

6. Guillaume sitting (0:36)

Her chunky hair. It's so nice and big enough where it's not annoying but there is so much of it. Def took time but the rest was fine.

7. Original Yakou art (0:48)

First attempt at making a transparent so not too bad of time, but at the same time I just did just one of the Yakou. Couldn't do the jacket version cuz his hair was going to kill me. Didn't help the scans colors were off so his hair def got chopped in the process.

8. Original Vivia art (0:51)

Second transparent I made and it went moderately better given I also did his jacket. Like with Yakou I probably chopped some of his hair off and those strings, but he didn't care.

9. Yuma art (0:55)

Over the best of the character sheets to transparent so far. No little fly away hair, no wavy curls, and no strings. Worst part was probably the ahoge, but it was nothing compared to the other hair I had to deal with. I love him so much, I'm gonna transparent him more.

10. Halara art (1:32)

Bribed them with cats to get them to work with me, but it was a smooth process. The worst part was they were so pale and their hair was so white it was hard to distinguish them from the background. Almost chopped their hand off in the process.

11. Seth art (1:40)

Nothing really notable other than his poncho is really nice to transparent. It's big and his bunny ears are so cute. Also I almost chopped off his neck cuz his uniform is so white and it was hard to distinguish it from the background.

12. Makoto art (2:10)

I swear Makoto heard how fun I was making the transparent for Yuma cuz his string thin hair was a pain to deal with. It was made worse compared to all of the others having white backgrounds, his is tan, making it hard to distinguish which was hair or not. The fact it didn't take it longer cuz I threw out one of his back art cuz it was the same.

13. Guillaume art (2:57)

The chunks. The chunks of her hair. It's so cute, but it's hard to erase around. I created a whole new system to get through her specifically. Although it was worth it cuz Guillaume gave me a horoscope reading. She told me to give up, fun.

Bonus: Yomi transparent I forgot to post (3:06)

Honest to God it was just a blur to me, but I'm pretty sure it wasn't hell. Took longer cuz I measured his waist and he was fighting with me the whole time. But dw, I got the results. Yomi's waist is 13 cm.

[auguryofjellyfish]

some random day 27 thoughts wooo

starting with ken cause...um. he wasn't there at all.

ken being totally absent after last week was just diabolical. when i said i wouldn't be surprised if he fucked off to his room forever, it didn't mean that i wanted it to happen..i..i didn't think i was going to be right. he was just gone. it had to be because of the Bonk, right? what else? it could be for no reason like with hiroaki like 2 weeks ago, but, nah.

i wanted the Bonk to matter but i didn't think ken would just disappear 😭 and nobody even checked up on him, well, people were busy having breakdowns...just...aughhhh. ken...at least he was mentioned?

i really, really hope something huge happens with him next week.

(not his death fucking hell)

[phoenix]

watari....god. my girl. sweetheart. fuck, i hated this. she did nothing but suffer yesterday. like...her being so broken just makes everything seem pointless. everything's been feeling mostly pointless since kamimura's death anyway.

she begged moko for answers. on her knees, with her head to to the floor, she begged. to let them go home.

i...i'm not sure whether i should be worried or not. watari just...even though she's suffering, even though she would be capable, i just don't believe she would do anything...not on purpose, at least. maybe i'm being naiive. but i still think she's safe. just...slowly dying. inside.

when she's not having fun, there's no joy at all. none. shigeki and mai can have a fucking sweet date or whatever and ojima and hiroaki can laugh at shigeki and tease him but nishino's pain is like a black hole. without her, it's not worth it. nothing is worth it.

[graveyard] & [stretch]

hama...to have an existential crisis in a place where you could lose your life at any moment...honestly, i think this episode probably hit way too close to home, for many people.

he had never questioned god before. that's crazy. he's such a devout catholic, for him to be so broken to start doubting whether god exists, whether there is an afterlife at all...something like that feels like every single thing in your life, everything you've ever believed just crumbled into dust. if there's no heaven, no hell, what the fuck is going to happen? the security of belief is gone, and only the cruel, yawning unknown remains. that must be an absolute terror to experience. especially in a place where you're reminded of your own mortality every single second.

"if you're in hell, keizou....there is no god."

and even if there is, it's not the kind of god he wants to believe in.

and he thinks he's a terrible person, he thinks he would go to hell...HOW?! he's one of the kindest people in this cast! he loves his mom, he loves his sister, so, so much, he's so caring and thoughtful and...and he was tortured in prison. that's why he feels that way, no matter what, it's ingrained deep in him that he deserved it. it doesn't really matter what truly happens after death, but how he feels about himself while he's still alive. and he deserves to feel like he could go to heaven.

already covered shigeki&wada. but i'll just say, if shigeki dies without telling mai about his feelings, i will be so pissed...

my final takeaway from this week's episodes...when i was writing my death predictions for this chapter last week, i was kinda nonchalant about it cause i was still feeling numb after [panic], [rotting] and whatnot. but now...if shigeki and ojima really both die in chapter 4? it's going to be total annihilation. a part of me already feels like there is 0 point since kamimura died, and if you break up every other meaningful pair that still remains...what's even gonna be left? tetro is about 50% less fun without ken and kamimura eps. hayashi's like idk, but hiroaki without ojima.....chapter 5 would be nothing but a barren wasteland. there would be nothing left.

i LOVE shigeki now, and just 3 weeks ago i was like, i don't vibe with him meh meh. what the fuck. i'm 100% sure that shigeki is gone. he just doesn't know it yet. it fucking hurts. i want him to be here for as long as possible, but it's approaching...soon. soon.

but ojima...i don't...know. i'd prefer if he wasn't. it would be very, very hard to take.

and even if these predictions are totally wrong, some other poor souls are going to die. no matter what, it's always gonna be lose-lose. whoever is going to go first, i will miss them terribly.

[caxycreations]

If I lose out on the victory points from ONE MORE MATCH because of a little shit that can't handle losing...

Several matches in a row now, I've had the other player quit out the INSTANT they would have lost.

Most recent one was especially infuriating.

Rant below the cut, with a lot of game-specific terms and info.

Yes, I'm pissed, I paid $90USD for this fucking game and I want to have a good time, but every single match I wind up suffering from boredom because nobody else in the goddamn community wants to actually FIGHT.

See, I play SSj4 Gogeta, and he's pretty hated in the community. Why is he hated, you ask?

Because he has an ability to instantly go into Max Power/Sparking mode. Sparking mode gives the following benefits:

Boosted melee damage

Boosted ki blast damage

Boosted Super damage

Access to one use of your Ultimate

Instant Movement if you block while moving in any direction

Increased max number of ki blasts per volley

So it's a pretty big deal, you know?

SSj4 Gogeta also requires 3 Skill Stocks to USE that Instant Sparking Ability. For reference, Skill Stocks start at 0 for all players, and -slowly- build up over the course of the match.

Normally, to enter Sparking Mode, you need to have a full ki bar, at least one Skill Stock, and then you need to charge for ~3 full seconds to enter Sparking Mode by filling the ki bar a second time, which is ONLY possible while you have a Skill Stock.

So, the biggest thing people hate about fighting SSj4 Gogeta is that he can enter Sparking...For three times the cost of entering Sparking normally, and for more than twice as much of a wait, because of how long it takes to get Skill Stocks to charge up.

They also dislike his stats; he does just way too much damage, apparently, despite Mr. Satan, the lowest damage character in the entire game, being able to do about two thirds of an entire health bar of damage with one combo (you get 3-4 health bars), which is BARELY LESS than Gogeta.

And he gets 1 extra health bar. But, given how much damage EVERYONE does, that means next to nothing.

So, to recap, people hate SSj4 Gogeta because:

He's able to "instant Spark" after waiting several times longer than just -Sparking normally- (and it leaves him vulnerable the entire 2 seconds he's activating the ability)

He has 12% more damage per hit than Hercule, the lowest-damage character in the game

He has 1 more bar of health (several characters match him, but the people whining never play those characters) so he can take -one- more combo or -one- more super than normal, and ultimates don't insta-kill him.

So you may ask yourself "Well Caxy, how do you play? Are you abusing these things?"

FUCK NO.

I don't waste my time with supers or ultimates. Every time I've ever bothered using one, it's been blocked, perfect-dodged, or Skill Countered (actual name of the ability, if you have 2 or more Skill Stocks you can Skill Counter to deflect or negate the attack entirely) because supers and ults in this game ARE NOT WORTH THE EFFORT unless you know, beyond all doubt, that you CAN get them off.

So I'm a melee fighter. I get right in your face and wail on you until you die.

In theory.

See, there's another ability. Perfect Counter. If you hit the right buttons at the right time, you'll not only perfect-block the hit, but you'll counter with a knockback.

And that leads to some really good fistfights, with both players trading hits back and forth, trading PCs, etc

It's fun, when they actually want to fight you.

Enter...

The Problem™

Nobody wants to fight.

They'll PC, knock me back, then start charging ki, and they will do that over and over, until they can either use the Super they want to use, or they can hit Sparking and ult me.

Now, on most characters this isn't an issue. I'm pretty good at dodging a lot of the common Supers, and the Ults are pretty garbage unless you secure a stagger so your opponent can't dodge or block before using it.

But the ones that upset me are specifically Broly, the Legendary Super Saiyan, from Dragonball Z.

Why?

Because his ki blasts gain infinite use when he enters Sparking, he has an Instant Spark ability, and every single Z Broly player does the same thing:

Focus on pure defense until they can Instant Spark, knock you away, activate Instant Spark the picosecond after hitting you away, then spam ki blasts at you until the last segment of their Sparking, at which point they cast their Ultimate.

Why is this frustrating, if Ultimates are so easy to handle?

Because the ki spam means you're stuck guarding or deflecting the blasts, and can't dodge, and Z Broly's Ultimate is Unblockable so you HAVE to dodge it.

You can't just let him hit you, cause then you'll be staggered when he casts. But you can't block or deflect either, cause then you'll be mid-animation.

Even abilities like Afterimage Strike and Wild Sense, which auto-dodge one melee, super, or ultimate, will not work against his ultimate.

So, what specifically happened to piss me off enough to type up ALL OF THIS?

I fought a Z Broly. I melee'd him to about half of one bar left. He managed to knock me back and pop instant sparking. He spammed ki blasts. He hit me with his ult. I had half a bar left. Evenly matched. Perfectly balanced.

I ran in for a melee, stunned him, then gave him a taste of his own medicine by popping my own instant sparking, stunned him again, and cast my ult at point blank.

You know your ult hit when a cutscene plays showing the ultimate animation. It started to play, I watched him "disintegrate" in the beam, and the second he did, BEFORE the cutscene was over, before it counted my win, before his last tic of health disappeared...

He disconnected from the match. Alt+f4'd his way out of the loss.

Which returned me to the lobby, without gaining the Rank Points for the win, because the match "did not conclude", because he disconnected before it could be done.

He was so determined to win that he relied WAY too heavily on the cheapest trick in the game.

He was so determined NOT to lose that he hit alt+f4 instead of taking the loss and moving on.

I fucking hate the kind of people that make up most of the communities of EVERY fighting game, but when the game itself DOES NOTHING to punish players for playing like douchebags, it's even worse.

The "penalty" for quitting out of a match? A warning that you quit out last time. Do it too often and they -slightly- increase how long it takes you to queue up.

The worst part is there's a setting to specifically exclude players with a high quit-out rate, which I have enabled so I don't get quitters, which means that guy has a clean record but for some reason just COULD NOT stand the idea of losing to me with his cheap-ass trick.

Fuck Bandai-Namco.

Fuck Spike Chunsoft.

Fuck the guy playing Broly.

[miyuti]

♡ Midsummer Legacy ♡

(graphic design is my passion coUGH.. you can even see my lazy brush strokes....)

Yet another Legacy Challenge, wow Miyu, you've really outdone yourself now huh? Anyway.. Welcome back! I've been in retirement for quite a while, but I'm back now to give a (hopefully) more thought out legacy challenge that I will do my absolute best to see through to the very end.

Be prepared, this is going to be a long post, but to summarize this challenge: It's going to be inspired by my favourite holiday from my home country, Swedish Midsummer! It's going to span a few generations, so under the cut you will find more information about the rules, generations, themes, etc. Thank you in advance for giving me the time!

Before We Start ♡ Below I will be listing a few things to keep in mind while doing the challenge.

1. No Need to Stick to Theme! If you feel like you like the rules but not the theme, feel free to change it! There's no need to make all the sims floral, or.. frog shaped.... Just go nuts!

2. Changes to Rules If a rule stresses you out, don't feel ashamed to change it. I admit I ignore some of my own rules whenever I'm having off days, no shame in it.

3. Mods You may mod the game as much as you want! Just make sure you're not cheating any milestones, fears, skills, moodlets, needs, aspirations, or anything that might take away from the challenge! (Change if necessary)

The General Rules ♡ These will be the rules for all the Generations!

1. Travel Fee For every world you visit you must pay 50 Simoleons, this excludes; Active Careers, Active School (be it through mods or via HSY Pack), or neighbourhoods in the world you currently live in. The Travel Fee includes Festivals. Pay up

2. Moving Lots You may not move out from the lot you chose at the start.

3. What happens, happens If you accidentally burn your house down and don't have a fire alarm, do not restart the game! Keep playing, see it as a more interesting challenge or a great option for storytelling!

4. Traits Randomize all traits! Including your Founder!

5. Start with 0 Simoleons!

6. Lifespans I prefer if you play this on Normal Lifespans, but it is ultimately up to you!

Generation One ♡ Flowers in Bloom

Aspiration: Freelance Botanist

Career: Gardener

Generation Goals:

Complete your Aspiration

Complete the Gardening Collection

Have a greenhouse anywhere on your lot

Have your lot be worth 25k Simoleons at the very least before having children

Marry your spouse surrounded by flowers.

Planted in Spring, Bloom in Summer, Wilt in Fall, Buried in Winter. "Keep your head high, Young One. The process will repeat, your flowers will welcome you with open arms next Spring."

Generation Two ♡ Frogs Leaping Through the Grass

Aspiration: The Curator

Career: No Restrictions

Generation Goals:

Complete your Aspiration

Complete the Frog Collection

Max Dancing and Fitness skill.

Only have one child.

Max your career.

"Small Frogs are very curious to observe. No tails, no ears they possess. Leaping through the grass in search for new adventures... You miss them, as do I, but they will be back. Eventually.."

Generation Three ♡ The Midnight Sun

Aspiration: Soulmate

Career: Style Influencer

Generations Goals:

Complete your Aspiration

Max Charisma and Flower Arranging Skill

Max Career

Have Triplets. You may cheat this if it doesnt happen naturally. (I'm not sorry, we suffer together)

Before having children, make sure to complete the 2/4 stage of your Aspiration.

What is the Midnight Sun Alone? Nothing but a painful reminder of the warmth you cannot experience. "Will you love me until the Sun burns out?"

Generation Four ♡ Strawberries & Cake

Aspiration: Master Chef

Career: Culinary

Generation Goals:

Complete Aspiration

Max Career

Max Gourmet Cooking & Mixology Skill

Complete the City Living Food Stall Recipe Collection

Successfully Cook & Eat Pufferfish Nigiri

"Strawberries..! Have you ever tried them with unwhipped cream and sugar..? It's the best! Now THAT is the taste of summer! Open wide!"

Generation Five ♡ Bugs & Herbs!!

Aspiration: Live Fast Teen Aspiration Outdoor Enthusiast

Career: No Restrictions

Generation Goals:

Complete BOTH Aspirations

Complete the Insect Collection

Max out Wellness & Herbalism Skill

Meet your Spouse in Granite Falls

"Mom..! Look at this ladybug!" "Wow! Can you count how many spots it has?"

Generation Six ♡ Horses in the Pasture

Aspiration: Championship Rider

Career: Unemployed

Generation Goals:

Adopt a Horse

Complete Your Aspiration

Make at least 45k Simoleons from selling horses

Have at least two mini sheep and two mini goats on your lot

Complete 20 Community Jobs involving your own Horses or Mini Sheep/Goats

"I love waking up to the sound of the farm.. It is the most soul soothing sound in the world.."

And thats it! I hope you enjoy the challenge, and as stated earlier, if you feel like anything is too much or too little, dont be afraid to edit the challenge to your liking! Thank you so much for stopping by, and I hope you have a wonderful day~

[unblinded-by-nostalgia-blog]

SPICE AND WOLF MONTH!!!

IMPORTANT NOTE: This is a review of the Anime series only and does not reflect the thoughts of the original novels. They are two different entities and I will be treating them as such.

Part 1 (Episodes 0-6)

The Story

The story is has Holo being offered a young merchant's hand in marriage via contract.

The first part of this series is based on the third book of the series, which is my favourite in the series.

As an adaptation to the third novel, it is a good one. It isn't the most true-to-the-novel series, but I still enjoyed it. It also went into more detail on the economic side of the series than the original book which many people will appreciate, but those who know how economics works might find that this first half holds the viewer's hands too much.

As it's own entity, it's good. But it doesn't move the overall story much and the series made Holo and Lawrence a couple much faster than the original series did, which makes some of the elements of the story feel rushed.

The Characters

The two main characters get a lot of development in this arc. But I wish that the other side characters, especially Mark, the alchemist and the 'prince' had more development and in the alchemist's case, more screen time.

The Animation/Special Effects

The animation isn't as good as the first series. It recycles footage from the previous episodes and it suffers the same problem as Vampire Knight Guilty where the series had far too many flashbacks. It also uses a lot of still imagery and covers the character's mouths when they are talking, and it is really noticeable.

The Dub

The dub it still top notch, I especially love the 'prince's' voice and the alchemist's. They sound like exactly how I imagined they would sound while I was reading the original novel.

Final Thoughts

Overall, this arc was a great as an adaptation of the third book and as it's own entity. It isn't perfect by any means,nor is it a masterpiece, but it is worth watching is you have the time.

The Story 3.5/5 The Characters 3.5/5 The Animation/Special Effects 2/5 The Dub 5/5

Overall 3.5/5

Part 2 (Episodes 7-12)

The Story

Nothing really happens in the second half that is entertaining, except for the last episode where they made Holo and Lawence an official couple and Lawence lost all of his money.

Many people want a season 3 of this series, but after an ending like that (which is far different from the original book), what is there left to tell.

It would of been better if they made book 4 instead of skipping it and going straight to book 5.

The Characters

We learn a lot about Eve (she's called Abe in this series for some reason), but the rest of the cast is given very little development, heck, even Holo and Lawence don't get much development in this!

The Animation/Special Effects

The animation is slightly better, but that's not saying much because it still uses those cheap animation tricks throughout the series.

The Dub

The dub is still very well done. The only complaint I do have is that Eve sounds too much like a boy in this. She would of been better off with a lower pitch voice, but not a deep as this!

Final Thoughts

Overall, this half is definitely the weakest in the entire series. Apart from the final episode, they are skippable unless your REALLY interested in the story.

The Story 2/5 The Characters 2/5 The Animation/Special Effects 2.5/5 The Dub 4/5

Overall 2.5/5

Overall Thoughts

Overall, this series (and the first season) is overrated, but it is definitely worth a watch. While I do recommend you buy the first season, I recommend you only rent the second season.

Part 1 3.5/5 Part 2 2.5/5

Overall 3/5

[flaylore]

[TRANSCRIPT] X

0:27 X: I don’t remember how long it’s been.

X: I’ve lost count.

X: …I’ve lost count?

X: About what?

X: The only thing I remember is…

0:53 X: Love.

X: I really want love.

X: I’ve heard about it so many times, yet I still can’t figure it out.

X: It’s gotta be something really fulfilling to have..

X: ..to feel..

X: ..to even experience…

X: …Right?

X: You won’t be whole without it. You can’t be you without it.

X: I’ve told people I love them too and yet..

X: You need love…

1:43 X: Need…

X: I need it?

X: What’s that supposed to mean? Am I nothing without it..?

X: What’s the difference between you and me?

X: I deserve love too, yeah…?

2:10 X: No matter what, they…

X: They won’t stop talking about it.

2:20 We love you. You mean so much to us.

2:26 X: That’s right…I..

X: I can’t stop hearing about it.

2:34

2:41

2:50

2:59 X: I get it now…!

X: So then to be loved… It means I have to be special…

X: I really want it.

3:20 X: I want to be loved…

3:25 X: To be loved more than anyone else. A whole lot!

X: But to do that…!

3:36 X: I just have to become special!

X: Special like no one else!

3:45 X: I’ve drawn a couple things before, this is my calling!

3:54

[pacing back and forth in front of canvas]

4:04

[Dark shadowy figures move away from ‘?’]

4:10 His grades are… …well if he puts his mind to it

X: Look, the bottom of the line is…

4:27 X: Some things just didn’t work out for me.

X: Or maybe I didn’t have the right skillset to learn..

X: But… the worst of all.

4:47 …Why do you keep talking like that?

4:54 X: ..What?

4:58 You need to stop treating yourself like that, it’s..

5:07 X: No, you don't understand. I just wanted to..

5:15 What’s wrong with you…

5:24 X: …?

5:27 Hey..You’re not a bad guy, it’s just…

5:34 X: Ha….haha.

X: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

X: It makes sense. I’m a complete failure in every sense of the word!

X: Someone like me who is just a burden on everyone around them!

5:55 X: ..I don’t know when I started thinking like that.

X: One day, these thoughts just began to fill my head.

6:08 X: Why did I even try, haha…

6:12 X: Now I noticed, that…my mind was off

X: ..or at least people told me.

X: You might think I’m an idiot. A fool.

X: After all, some skills can be learned over time, right?

X: But how can I do that… when my mind is like this?

6:42 X: It’s kind of funny now.

6:50 [white figure walks back and forth the entire time] X: I don’t know what to do.

X: I thought that…

X: I had everything figured out…

X: Everything really hurt a lot.

X: At first.

X: Y’know because … I really wanted to…

X: More thoughts like that continued, but…

X: I was thinking too much. I should just move on.

X: I may not be special, but that’s alright…

X: I’ll just… Live my life the way I…

7:39 X: After a while, I just didn’t… care anymore.

X: I was just going to go on living like usual…

X: Maybe not anything special or of worth, but… Hey!

X: I like living this way. I’m fine like this

X: Yeah, I’m fine.

X: I’m fine.

X: I’m fine…

8:20 [white figure stops walking] X: ….You’re…

8:32 X: When I Met That Thing

8:36 X: You… How are…

8:39 ???: Are you really fine with living this way?

X: …Huh? [looks around]

8:46 ???: If you were really fine, you wouldn’t be putting on act.

8:54 X: My Life Got A Whole Lot Happier.

8:59 X: Listen… Things just aren’t in the cards for someone like me, haha

X: It’s okay, I just wasn’t born with any real skill

9:09 ???: How convenient.

9:13 X: …

X: Not the ones that matter to me anyway

9:18 X: Much. Much. Much Happier.

9:23 [small flash] ???: Don’t worry

???: Your other skills are currently… Preoccupied.

9:31 X: Extremely. Happy.

9:34 [small flash] [another white figure appears]

X: …

X: …

X: …Huh?

9:42 X: But, before that…

X: I wish I never even saw it.

9:53 …

X

10:20 “I think everyone is special..!”

10:29 ?: “/I/ am and always will be a problem”

X: “So…”

X: “..Why do you of all people.”

X: “..get to have things I don’t?”

X: “I couldn’t stand it. Why did it have to be you?”

10:58 [music starts playing]

X: “So I decided…what’s yours is mine.”

X: “…Hey.”

11:16 X: “It’s that time of year again”

11:27 X: “Happy Birthday.”