#% i spent a LONG time on this im rlly proud of it

[unordinary-diary]

Blyke in Season 3.

This is my prediction. With the way Season 2 ended, I think they’ll find Blyke months later looking something like this.

Shit happens to people in prison. Terrence was murdered in his cell, Rein was worried about being killed by other inmates, hell, Blyke’s already pretty banged up in the finale and he’s been there for 2.5 seconds. Not to mention that the Authorities seem to have no problem torturing kids *COUgh* Keon.

Perhaps it’s a bit pessimistic, but the story’s been getting a lot darker lately. I doubt Blyke’s getting out of prison without a little extra trauma at least.

Latest Chapter as of Prediction: Side Story — Triple Threat (1)

[mimikinyuu]

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[RO-TO-TO! ACCESSING MICROPHONE!]

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[MICROPHONE ENABLED! LISTEN?]

(cw: misophonia [loud breathing], slight flashing imagery)

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distortion world from pokémon platinum plays in the background through the video. the video is fuzzy and unclear, like it was filmed in someone’s pocket. legion is breathing heavily and whispers ‘shit’ before running. he whispers ‘fuck’ while still running. after twenty seconds, he takes a brief pause before running more aggressively. he continues to run for another thirty-ish seconds, briefly stopping to hyperventilate. he stops running, then whispers “where is it?” three times. the bell in the background music chimes, and a loud roar is heard. legion chokes and takes a step back, and the creature roars again. legion is heard saying “no, no, no, no…” as the creature roars, and the video ends with him running again.

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% distortion world pokémon platinum music extended hd

% giratina’s cry: slowed

% voice acting and running foley made by meee

% also PLEASE let me know if any edits should be made to the video id and i will fix it asap!!

[evelili]

I just wanted to say that I've spent the past couple of days reading the Magnum Opus as it were. And I just wanted to say it was really good. I've long since lost my FiMFiction password on account of this being the first MLP fic I've read in, in my rough estimate, 7 years. But I wanted to say you did a really good job writing the characters! You adapted the first episodes of MLP really well, there was enough there to be familiar, but enough to keep me guessing as well. (1/2)

I really liked how you wrote Twilight especially, and the memory swap thing in Chapter 11 was brilliant, and I felt really good for near instantly clocking what was up. And also the illustrations for all the chapters were really good, the way you wrote Celestia and Luna were also both phenomenal, their characterizations were fantastic. Not to mention Sunset and Twilight's relationship. But if I said everything I liked I'd go over the character limit many times over so I'll leave it here. (2/2)

(combined both ur asks together so i can answer at once xd) thank u so much for this lovely comment!! it's great u clued in to c11 quickly, i think one of my writing peeves is twists that come out of nowhere. imo it's really a success of foreshadowing if readers can figure out whats going on ahead of time and then anticipate the reveal to the characters! so im rlly glad u enjoyed that aspect of c11, plus the story + the character interactions, celestia in particular i know i wrote an interpretation of her that's quite different from canon, so im v happy u liked her! and ofc, sunset and twilight are the core of the story, and even if it's a bit of a jumpscare, im rlly proud of how the epilogue can convey their relationship, and how it grows from the "main story" until the "end" ^^

thanks for reading!

[spookier11]

(I was originally reblogging from this post here , but I got so off topic I feel it would be disrespectful to not just make it its own post. so i made it its own post!)

#just wrote a whole infofump about pigeons in the tags and didnt send it. be proud of me#<- no prev why would you say that#give me the infodump i beg#please??? pretty please????? (tags from @evedaser) (prev tags are mine)

OK!!!111!!! YAY! i reformatted to a normal paragraph for ease of reading ^_^ (and i may have... added some more)

I love this so much omg, I've never thought about pigeons as ace or ace icons b4.... im thinking too hard about it rn BUT pigeons have really interesting mating habits. they are like,,, the bunnies of the bird world. bc most birds lay one or two clutches of eggs a year, and that number varies depending on species. so, a bluejay only lays once a year, and they lay 2-7 eggs. so thats 2-7 new bluejays a year! robins are a bit of an outlier & lay up to five times times a year! they lay 3-5 eggs, so two robins could have TWENTY FIVE baby birds in a single year. (this is really rare, of course.) bald eagles lay once a year, and almost always lay exactly two eggs. so, two eagle babies per year. how often a bird lays and the amount of eggs correlates to a birds place on the food chain- a bald eagle, with few natural predators, only needs to lay once a year to keep up their population. because bald eagles are so BIG i'd imagine it would be super bad for them to have more than that but i dont know for certain if thats a defining reason... bluejays are much smaller so they CAN feasibly lay more than two eggs, but bluejays are also BEASTS! who can fend for themselves very well! so they only lay once a year, but they lay more than two, and that keeps the bluejay population thriving. robins have it rough, so they lay far more frequently- the robin eggs/chicks commonly get eaten by larger birds or animals and, unlike the bluejay or eagle, they aren't able to put up a fight. to make up for this, they just lay more, so some are destined to live! but PIGEONS genuinely lay year round. different places say different things, but from my understanding and experience pigeons lay eggs just a little over monthly! pigeons, like eagles, lay two eggs at a time (& can very rarely lay 3) so a healthy, captive pigeon could have TWENTY! baby pigeons in a year. twenty is waaay over the average though,, a normal city pigeon hatches 8-12 birds a year! which is still impressive!! pigeons are NOT equipped to survive in the wild, at all. they are domestic birds!! so it makes sense that they lay so often- its how the species stays alive! what i DONT understand and think is really interesting is why do they only lay 2 eggs at a time?? and actually i stopped yapping about this for a bit and tried rlly hard to find an answer,,, and sadly the best one i found was 'lots of variables go into what sized clutch a bird lays,' which like I KNOW.... but N E WAYS! basically pigeons have the unique laying habit of laying two birds at a time, year round, rather than having a large clutch all at once or only laying once per year!! they PROBABLY only lay two eggs at a time 4 the same reason eagles do - they physically cant lay more than that at a time and keep in good health - but don't quote me on that guys i dont know thats just my hypothesis im just some guy. of course, like robins, lots of pigeon babies (squabs) dont make it. however,, they are are way more likely to die from malnutrition or parental neglect then being a snack for a bigger bird. i just think pigeons are neat! and its cool how they nest year round!! wow i really got off topic! oops!! asexual pigeons real actually,,,,

i just think birds are so cool u guys i cant not talk about them!! also i spent way too long writing this out to really just keep it in my notes app somewhere...

[talleztpurple]

I just spent almost 9 hours making a fake cover for my jthm oc Randi 🤑🤑🤑

I rlly am proud of how I rendered everything but I hate the fact that I got too tired to render the shadow of the hand on her hair

I also was watching the jthm dub while drawing this but got sad cuz I was on the end of the 5th or 6th one and then finished it 😞

anyways uhhh details about the art!!!

Time taken: 8 hours, 34 minutes

Layers: 9 (I merged a bunch together)

Comments: Holy fuck this is crazy,, but im still pissed abt the hand thing. Anyways this took me way too long and I'm not gonna post any art except for doodles for another 9 months

References: The 2nd and 7th JTHM covers

[taegularities]

HELLO my angel ❤️ how are you this fine evening?

first of all, i met up with my ex friend and it went rlly well!! we spent two hours just catching up about the past 4 years 🥹 however things felt a bit awkward towards the end when we talked a bit more about why we fell apart, however we both agreed how necessary it was ‼��� im just so happy that things cleared up a bit and im hoping we can at least be good friends 🙏❤️

seconddddd, i was reading your response and omg theres no way its been about a year since i started to actively interact with you 😭 ive been here much longer, but omg time flies 🥹 im so beyond grateful for you, you are the human equivalent of a warm hug on a cold day, i truly love you and am so proud of how much youve grown as a writer and person 🙏 #1 fan until the day i die ❤️

i cant wait to spend another year with you and the different universes you have created 🥹❤️

- wife from war anon 💂‍♀️

MY WONDERFUL BABY, HI!!! i've been exhausted and struggling, but gonna wind down a bit since winter break started and yeah!! have you been okayyy?

very glad to hear things went well with your friend!! i know it can be a lil uncomfortable at first, but i think if you guys give yourself a bit more time, things will (hopefully) shift into place. no matter what, i just hope you're happy <3

and yeah… a year it's crazy 🥺 and babe… i think i needed to hear this bc wow 🤧 what if i cry?? 😭 thank you for saying that. i feel so freaking warm whenever you send a message… like idk how i deserved this, but i adore you so much and hope you stay for a long, long time, so i can keep giving you virtual and metaphoric warm hugs 🥺 love love love you <333

[attaboy-art]

londoners ASTOUNDED by third year in a row of record-breaking amounts of slay! more on page no.034

[outlier-roddy]

man i know im like not rlly that much old enough to look back on being 16-17 and say ‘wow i hope kids who are 16-17 dont go thru what i did’ but yeah i fucking hope kids who are 16 dont get immediately groomed by anti antis the second they enter online fandom bc thats a big problem that doesnt rlly get enough attention lmao. the older fans are freaking out bc theres less and less wide acceptance of their creepy “fiction doesnt affect reality so anything is ok” theory so they’re going for the kids to try and get them to believe what they do!!!! and i KNOW this bc the person that groomed me fucking told me straight out lmao!!! 

[merry-the-cookie]

teresa would you like to talk about any of your wips please 🥺🤲 some crumbs for your humble friend

omg maya absolutely <3 (the fact that my last actual irl sleepover was spent recounting my wip in great detail 💀)

im puttin it under a cut cus 👉🏼👈🏼 im rambly

ask me stuff my dudes we’re having a sleepover

sleepover post

so im back on my time travel weird au bullshit, and one of the greatest things about it is i can describe just about any version of them i want. red hair ash? yes. black hair ash? also yes. long hair? short hair? curly? slicked back? black hair mike? pink hair mike? the answer is yes

anyway i dont rlly know what to say about it, i feel like im always talking about the same story fjdjjsd but theres these couple lines im so proud of, and so many moments i hope will touch people! Recounting the whole story to my friend the other day was so gratifying cus i got to see her reactions live gjfksjf

Here’s a couple lines i really love from a part in the uuuh second act out of three perhaps

He’s wearing a leather jacket and tight pants, a few rings on his fingers, nails painted black. He looks—different. A bit harsher than Michael’s ever seen him. Michael’s always thought of him as soft, before now.

and this one

"You’ve been so sad lately. Or maybe you’ve always been sad, and I just never realized. I’m sorry I didn’t realize."

anyways thank u for asking <3 sorry im always talking about this specific au fjdjskf i cant focus on many aus at a time 💀

also if u were actually asking about drawing wip! heres. a boy <3

[attourney-at-lycan]

i havent sent in a ramble in a bit so here’s a bit of an infodump i dumped on a friend

so what i was thinking, maybe gene and dante grew up together in a poverty stricken side of town, a place where they're just such a huge gap between those who have money and those who don't. their parents were barely around because they worked their asses off to help. gene had to learn to trust himself in certain situations because there's constant crime going on around him. he had no choice but to learn how to lie, cheat and steal to help the family as well as protect his brother.

i love my rewrite gene because he loves his brother so much he's willing to do fucked up shit for him yknow? and i just rlly love sibling plots sm.

anyway, dante kinda learned from a young age about how things work, despite gene's best attempts to make him grow up as a normal kid would. yknow, give dante what he never had. but it doesn't work too well. ofc he still managed to do something good bc as we can tell, dante joined the good guy squad (granted gene does fuck him up later on).

when he's old enough, gene finally managed to get a great paying job, as a guard. even if it was..... lying his way to get there. i wouldn't be shocked if he didnt get payed well bc the town lord's pretty corrupt (if u couldn't tell) and would take advantage of the poor. but still, it's a job that pays much more than the small coin they were earning. his parents are proud, dante is....... not too thrilled bc he knows that gene had to do, and gene's estatic that he gets to help their family to hopefully some day get out of this horrible fucking town.

(i wna talk abt gene for a few and it's that he's learned not to let morals hold him back. gene will do anything for those he loves so he i believe he doesn’t think himself a good person. in fact there might’ve been some self hate bc of it. he keeps talking big about having to be a bad guy to do things he has to do, but doesn’t like being the bad guy. he never wanted to be, but he is because he has to be. (ofc this is all before he becomes a shadow knight) and this definitely weighs on him a lot. gene’s also the type to believe the end justifies the means, while dante seems to be the opposite to me. i love the concept of brothers who love each other but cannot look eye to eye. it's so fitting for them as well!)

OH YEAH I FORGOT ABOUT HIS POWERS- i forgot he can fuck with ppl's memories???? in the series he gains them at like.................. right after he falls in love with the lord's daughter- (what a coincidence huh) but im gna make it so that he earned his powers around the time he seriously start to think of working as a guard? like that, he could easily weasel his way in as a guard w/ those memory powers.

so yeah, i think him using his powers to do shit, i think.... it gets to his head? he finally feels powerful and has control of shit, when he spent most of his life struggling to get things. he has no one to stop him even if dante tells him that it's not right. gene doesn’t listen because dante's young, he doesn't understand that these powers are useful but he'll understand when he's older.

and that's when the whole incident with changing the memory of the lord's daughter to fall in love happens. i think it's fitting for gene, the concept of using his power to get what he wants bc he's never had the abilty to get what he wants. and now that he has this power, why not use it? plus, it's not a bad thing to change her memory to fall in love with him bc she'll truly be in love, right?

ofc this is just his warped view and it's just rlly.. a culmination of all the power he's been gaining lately. he's getting too much of it, it's overwhelming and intoxicating so eventually when he does that, it's almost like a breaking point?

dante is worried, and rightfully so. he's watched gene do shit for too long without telling anyone else and it weighs on his consciousness, he's worried gene is going to do something he'll regret. that he’s going to do something he’ll never be able to get back from. he's worried for gene. (ofc the lady too) but everything goes wrong when he tells the authorities. he didn't think that the lord would immediately go for a fucking death sentence on his bother.

when gene finds out it was his brother who "snitched", he's heartbroken, shocked, furious. he's been betrayed. his own brother is going to get him killed?

i dont have many details after what happens bc i still wna work on shadow knight lore. but after gene manages to escape, i think he does try to go back and talk it out with gene bc he's in disbelief at what happened.

my belief is that gene never really hated dante for what he did, i don't think he still does. (at least his instincts as an older brother doesn’t let him hate dante to the point where there’s no love.) but i do know that shad, the shadow lord ofc, manipulates him into believing that dante did it all on purpose.

perhaps shad makes gene believe dante did it out of jealousy, that he was jealous that gene had these cool powers, that he had a cool job and that he had his own live and dante didn’t.

and normally, i believe gene wouldnt have believed him but the circumstances made it work.

from what i've seen w/ laurence and the other shadow knights, they're not in their right mind when they're start to become shadow knights and it's the prime to shove thoughts into their brain, practically brainwash them into believing things that aren't true. laurence tried killing aphmau initially, you cna tell he wasn't....... really *there*, not esp after all the torture (that was somehow glossed over throughout the series.)

then with sasha, there was a whole thing with her believing that she was betrayed by her significant other. (i don’t remember much of it tho but i know its a thing) there’s a pattern in shadow knights where their memories or prespective of things have been warped, i dont see why it’d be any different for gene.

but yeah, it'd explain why he'd come back for revenge later on. gene literally could've killed dante but he didnt, instead he just..... erased dante from everyone's memory. my thinking is that gene did come back to kill dante but couldn't bring himself to do that so he did something else to quell his rage. idk if what he did was worse than death or not but fegywuy yeah

TLDR; dante and gene but make it like alibaba and cassim from magi. FUCK i love sibling plots sm dude

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dude hold on, was just looking up dante and gene’s last names in google and zack is their uncle?

isnt zack… aphmau dad- THEYRE APH’S COUSINS?!

o nvm zack’s just a diff dude.

from storytelling standpoint, rlly jess? so many names in the world and yall just decide to reuse zack’s name. did u not have the budget for a new name? /hj

[radicalcoffeeclub]

hello! i am really trying to cut back on my make up usage. i have gone through my make up collection and pulled out all of the stuff i haven't used for months and also removed foundation, highlighter and liquid eyeliner from my "everyday" (once a week or so) make up routine. i am proud of lowering what i'm wearing when i do wear make up and i feel better and also getting used to my face more (it's less of a shock when i take it off ? :( ugh so sad) but for some reason im finding it rlly hard to get rid of the make up that i've had for months or even years and barely used. i can't just lob it in the bin even though logically it makes so much sense and i WANT to!!!! i want it gone. i don't wear it, it takes up space, it reminds me of the money i've wasted and i don't wear lipsticks or foundations etc anymore so pointless and yet! it's been sat in a pile on the floor in my bedrorm for weeks. how do i rip the bandaid off and just bin it!! once i do that, i then plan to keep lowering my make up routine items. (it works better for me this way and is more likely to end completed and not give up💘) thank u!!!! ily

I can realllyy relate with this because this is exactly how i quit wearing makeup too. It's okay to slowly reduce what you use.

I don't think it's necessarily a bad thing to keep old makeup stashed away somewhere. I kept mine for about a year after I stopped using them and only threw them out once I was moving out of the apartment I lived in at the time. I'd rediscover the makeup bag periodically and while I felt bad about it like you described, going through the items after not using them for a longer while kind of cemented how much I didn't want to wear makeup anymore. You forget how bad foundation and lipstick and mascara smell! How weird your brow products look up close, pigmented powder and goop. How dirty and oily the brushes were even though I'd washed them regularly. Don't even get me started on the false lashes and glue! After taking a step back I could really see how unappealing and ridiculous it all was. I had so many products! So much plastic and chemicals, so much time and money spent, and for what? A poorer self esteem. Anyway, once I moved out it felt really great to finally toss them out! They had been laying around for so long it wasn't hard to do it anymore.

I wish you the best in this journey anon! 💖

[mobtism]

thinking abt my ocd again... smth i am rlly proud of myself for is keeping this tumblr account for so long without moving... ive had it for i think two years now? and that is a really huge deal for me.

d.nt r/b... mutuals i implore you to read on

i struggled heavily with mental/emotional contamination growing up. i never necessarily knew it was a thing, never had the words for it. but i very often found myself feeling Wrong over things that realistically had nothing actually wrong with them.

if i had drama between a friend and me, i needed to move accounts because it was unbearable. the bad experience i had while on the account made me feel disgusting. the account was now contaminated with a horrible memory. and the feeling only festered until i moved accounts and gave myself a clean, blank slate, untouched by the icky experience.

this intense feeling of contamination wasnt only triggered by dramatically bad events. there were times i would need to move accounts because it felt like it was contaminated by an old interest i no longer liked. there were times it felt like the "memory bank" on that account was full - that i experienced and spent "too much" time on that account, and i no longer had room for new memories. sometimes i simply felt the need to move because it felt like my life was improving, and i wanted to put sadder times behind me and start anew. there were even times where nothing happened, but i still felt the need to move.

like a horrible itch you cant scratch, itd sit in my mind and make me feel highly anxious, uncomfortable, and wrong. and there is this intense stress and fear that, if i were to keep that contaminated thing in my life any longer, i would become contaminated too. these feelings would fester endlessly, until i'd finally move accounts. and then that overwhelming, devastating, nagging feeling would disappear almost immediately. i'd finally have a sense of clarity, like i could finally breathe freely again.

its damaging. its debilitating. this intense feeling of dread and fear. this inherent Wrongness. it takes control over me, it becomes my most present thought, and it is extremely stressful to deal with. and it can not be shaken off easily. my brain tells me that it has to be dealt with in the Exact Right Way - otherwise, the awful feeling and the thoughts will not go away, and it will worsen with every passing moment. its something i have to fight against constantly. ocd is a constant battle against yourself, against your own brain and what it tells you. and hopefully, hopefully, you'll eventually win against it... but only enough for it to then manifest in some other way. this process never stops. it is a constant cycle of this, present in so many different ways, tons of them, always, all at once. and all you can do is just keep fighting at every chance you get.

i still struggle with mental/emotional contamination, it still manifests in other ways. i am still ocd.

but with this? i have made progress. ive had this account for two whole years... and i am culminating memories, both good and bad on here, and im staying put. there have been so many times over the last 2years where ive wanted to delete my account and start all over again, erase every memory i could - good and bad. but i havent. and im still here, on this account, after two whole years. and that is something i am so proud of myself for.

[aphrorite]

-ˏˋ sweetheart diaries ˊˎ- #1 !! 🌷🌸🎀

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⋆ ✧₊ﾟmay 12th 2022 ☀️✨🌷 ⊹ɞ

today wasnt as bad as i thought itd b (,;; i could hrdly ge tout of bed becuas iw as super tired becau i was in acall last night n when i woek ip my bed was super cold ))): soo i endnedup getting out of bed aroun 720 but i still made it in time for school !!!!! 😆😋

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it was relly hot outsid too like high of 28 today???? ya i enjoye d it for a little bit but i wish it was jsut a little lesss cos its tooo hot and i dont hav sunglasses so i cant see ��� cos too sunny. is pretty thoguh ileither way! <3

i wore a black pleated skirt, a white zip up turtleneck shirt, my vivenne dupe necklac (cos is too expensiv. also why buy it branded when i simply love the design and can diy it?!?! i heard it not rel gold )): ) , and later wore my af1 shadow that i accidntallg left at work (woopsi)

maths was rlly borin and four stduentd in my class were rlly annoying me ))): i odnt kno if its misophonia or somethin ? (my sister sai it migb tht) thoguh my classmate behind me woudlnt stop coughing n je did that every fiv second and it wa s hard 2 focus on trig cos of it ))): n t he n three student in corner of class woidlnt stop xackling and my music couldnt block it out . i wish i could hav a wuieter space to work cos that way i could focus easier , my music can only do so much !

speakin of music, im listening 2 undertale soundtrack again and im currently playing snowy from the spotufee . its really calming! ^^ i also like castle town, u can always come home, fallen down n home. ♡♡

 

work kinda bothered me ): im really stressesd n its making ym regresijnf involuntary. my ocd rlly lciked in when i was working w this one girl and i didnt know whehrer i was doinf a good job ); yeah shed say i did amazinf today bu… i wsjt s ur e cos our boss didnt seem so prohd of the boxes we got through,, we got thru 6 and had 7 left,,, almost half! hmph,,, i rllt odnt like my boss sjdhhs and im still sad cos my favourit employee and closest frien there brooklyn quit ): i didnt get her contac info so idk if ill ever see her again,, tho at lest she get make bank ag toher plac ! good on her. hehe 💸

i had pizza for dinnnerrr omg!!’nn nn n i got to choose what toppin this time it was MY PICCCCKKKK i so happy bout dwat. it didnt look as good as i thoguht cos i mae mistake of extra chees ebht it yummy in my tummy so is ok. yum yum chicken onion mushroom bacon cheese pizza aarhrhjfj deliciohsose

went on 2 walk with my sister ! played project sekai w her and watched her do a blender animation for her sims 4 char <3 i liv giving my cat roscoe cuddles hes so cute ! hhmm i cleaned me room again im really proud <3 (good job me, i did it!) drank some more water,, i SHWOERED OMG i m so proud,,, did some PAINTING HOMEWORK TOO AHHHHHHHHHH WHAT?????? CRAZY OMG,, DIDNT NAP TOO !! GLUED MY MOSIAC !! even tho nap is ok when i nap it too long ): SPENT TIME W MY CAT !! BUT OMG I ALSO WATCHED SONIC X FOR THE FIRST TIME AND IT TOTALLY EVOKED SO MUCH NOSTLAGIA BC WHEN I LITTLE LITTLE I LOVE DRAWIN AMY ROSE N SONIC ON MSPAINT AND IT WAS SO COOL AND CHEESY AND I LOV IT URGRHRH I HAVENT TOUCB NETFLIX IN SO LONG AAHH n i also WORK ON THIS BLOG !!!! all at break i was teyna see othe rpol blog and how it work n now i think its ,, making me feel heard and less stressed even tho i am only half regressing or agw dreaming . i also meditated while looking for some pfps and so infeel so transformed ! i also browsed aliexpress a lot today KDDJJSJFSHBD

i hav a math test tomorrow , work , n prob more hoemwoek so im stress BUT TOMOROW NEW DAY AND I DID LOTS TODAY AND AM PROUD. but i also should sleep earlier,,, is 138

bye bye diary for now. i luv u . bear say bye too 👋 🧸

╭┈─────── urs truly, ࿐ ˊˎ-

╰┈➤ sweetheart xx

[squishy-mochi-is-bright-pink]

hi! uh—sorry if this is confusing, it’s my first time making a request. uhm—i’ve just been feeling rlly down lately and was considering self harm. so, if it’s okay with u, can i request for tsukishima/sakusa/osamu (u can choose if doing all is too much) seeing their s/o with a fear of sharp objects about to self harm but not going through with it and them comforting their s/o? u dont have to do it tho if ur not comfortable with it, i just wanted to try asking :)

Characters: Tsukishima and Sakusa

CW: self harm, sharp objects

Genre: comfort

Word count: 1, 616

Summary: You've been struggling with thoughts of self harm, which then lead you to a fear of sharp objects. Your boyfriend notices and tries his best to help you.

A/n: your request wasn't confusing at all, don’t worry. So sorry I didn't get around to writing Osamu but I hope this is alright. if you ever need someone to talk to im here, or you could request as much or as little as you want. Just remember self harm isn't the answer, alright? Remember you're loved <3

Tsukishima

Okay, so even though everyone says that Tsukishima doesn’t care or isn’t a good boyfriend to you that is a big fat lie and you know it. This boy is super observant. ESPECIALLY when it comes to you.

You’re his baby and the love of his life, and one way he shows his love to you is by paying attention to everything you do and acting accordingly. He’s usually subtle about it though. You shiver? Oh, look extra hoodie. Tense up when one of your classmates approaches the two of you? Oh no something came up with the team and you’re both required to solve it.

Slight rant aside, he notices immediately that something is wrong. It may take him a little bit to figure out what exactly but he’s looking into it immediately. By the end of the day, he’s checked with your friends if anything is bothering you, he’s found out whether or not you are behind on work or if school is stressing you out. But nothing.

Luckily for him, it was Friday, thus, he was coming over to your house after school (practice). Usually, he’d come over and do some homework then you’d watch a movie together and honestly you could use some affection right now.

When he arrived at your house you were already showered, dressed and waiting at the table to start your homework. He came in and placed a gentle kiss on your forehead and sat down across from you, he’d already changed into casual clothes after practice.

Tsukishima exalted deeply for the first time that day and let himself relax now that he was alone with you. He’d spent his entire day trying to figure out what was up since you’d been acting weird for a little while now and he was back to square one. Nobody he’d asked knew anything that might have upset you, and he’d asked a lot of people. More accurately he’d asked Yamaguchi to since he knew people found Tadashi less intimidating. However, he still hadn’t had any luck in narrowing down the issue.

You seemed to be focused on whatever work you where doing so he decided to do some of his own work and ask you about it during the movie. He pulled out his maths book and a pencil from his pocket to begin working on the algebra homework.

After around thirty minutes of working together with some lofi playing in the background and occasionally asking for help from one another, his pencil lead snapped in the middle of an equation. Slightly irritated, he went to his bag to retrieve a sharpener but couldn’t find his pencil case. Shit, he must have left it in his desk. Oh well, he won’t need it till Monday anyway.

  “Hey, Shortcake,” that stupid nickname he’d gave’ you made you look over to him “do you have a pencil sharpener? My pencil case is at school.” At the mention of a sharpener, you squeaked out no far too quickly. Okay, somethings up. He’s sure of it now. 

So he gently set down his pencil and placed one of his hands on yours. When you looked up and made eye contact you could see how concerned he looked. Though it isn’t just concern, there’s something soft and loving there too. It’s because of this that you just aren’t able to break the eye contact, even though you’d much rather check your house slippers for bits of dust. 

“Baby,” he starts softly, “I know somethings up. You’ve been different for a few days now. And as long as you’ve been in my class you’ve never forgotten your stationary. Do you want to talk about it? Or we could do something else if you want.” By now there were tears beginning to slowly roll down your cheeks and Kei had gotten up to wrap you up in a hug. “Come one baby.” he says as he guides you over to the couch to sit down.

Once he had you settled in beside him he started to rub gentle circles on your back and waited patiently for you to calm down enough to talk to him. Once you had calmed down a little you began to explain everything. From the thoughts of self-harm to avoiding anything sharp or dangerous just in case. And he just sat there and listened. All the while gently rubbing circles and patterns into your back. He listened to every word you said and took it all in making sure to give little nods or hums of acknowledgement, enough to let you know he was listening without interrupting you.

When you’d finally finished telling you everything he simply scooped you up in his arms and hugged you as tight as he could. “Baby, Y/n. I’m so proud of you. You’re so strong and I’m so glad you didn’t do anything.” he gently kissed the top of your head and whispered, “I love you so much.” 

You snuggled further into him and he turned the tv to your comfort movie, even if he didn’t love it or would much rather watch a documentary about dinosaurs.

Sakusa

Sakusa is another boy who people wrongly assume is a bad partner. I object. Although he is slightly more hesitant when it comes to physical affection in public he’s one of the best boyfriends you could ever ask for.

Generally, when the two of you hang out he has a routine to ensure there is no fear around germs and he can be as affectionate as he wants. You both take showers and change into freshly washed clothes when you arrive at either home before you spend time together.

Because of how naturally observant this boy is, and the number of showers he’s had to take at your house he has your shower products almost memorised. He knows what they are, what they do and where they go. Honestly when you’re running low on something he’s more likely to notice than you are. And of course, being the loving boyfriend he is, he’ll remind you to add it to your shopping list or even go shopping with you.

This mans love language is probably quality time or acts of service, so if there’s an opportunity to give you a hand or just spend time with you he’ll take it.

Today was just another day, well not exactly, Sakusa was coming to spend some time with you today, which honestly was not rare at all. You had both fallen into a steady routine of taking showers and changing before spending time together. He would never ask you to do it but you knew it made him more comfortable. Plus he far preferred your shower to the locker room one.

So as always he walks into your house, puts his bag on the table and walks to your bathroom to take a shower. When he’s in the shower he notices that your razor is missing from its normal spot. He thought that was a little bit odd. Mostly because he has never seen your razor missing before. Any time he noticed something was missing before it was always just running low on shampoo, or body wash or only having one bar of soap left.

It isn’t that weird so he just makes a note to himself to remind you about it later like he always does. Once he’s finished and changed into his favourite sweats and second favourite hoodie (you’re currently wrapped up in his favourite). He goes to your room and curls up beside you as you’re preparing to put on a movie.

By the time Sakusa had remembered what he needed to remind you of the movie had been playing for around 20 minutes. So he decides to just wait until after the movie to bring it up. With that decision made he just decides to focus on the movie and how you feel giving him cuddles.

After the movie was all finished and you and Omi where cleaning up, when he brought up the missing razor. “Hey baby, remember to add razors to your shopping list. Yours is missing” he mentioned as he placed your throw pillows back on your bed. He paused in the middle of fixing your pillows, that was not the reaction he expected. Something was up. When he turned around and saw you near tears he rushed over to check on you.

“Baby, talk to me whats wrong?” hes says in the most soothing voice he can muster when he reaches you. You dont respond, just crying a little harder and hugging him back. “Its,” you sniffled a little, “its nothing Omi. Ill be fine” you sniffled again trying desperately to pull yourself together.

Sakusa pulled out the handkerchief he kept for you in his pocket. And by the time you'd told him everything he was crying too holding you. "it's gonna be alright baby. I'm here, we're gonna get through this together."

You fell asleep holding together, knowing that you weren't alone. And wouldn't be as long as you have him and he isn't leaving any time soon

[hyperfixationtimego]

Makoto has rainbow loom

Leon has tech decks

Chihiro has silly bandz

Mondo has his kickass embroidery and Perler beads

Taka has Rubik’s cubes and Perler beads

Hiro has fushigi magic gravity balls (that looks even worse typed out than I thought it would)

Sayaka has lip gloss phones

Aoi has those little things with the water and teeny tiny rings that just float and then there’s the button yk

Sakura has hair chalk and the friendship bracelet kits

Byakuya has a mini etch-a-sketch

Toko has Mad Libs

Hifumi also has Mad Libs, but the fandom versions

Celeste has the little Disney Princess teacup sets that came in a giant teapot

Junko has Lisa Frank bags and stationery

Mukuro has the glow in the dark stars that you stick on the ceiling and worms on strings

HEY I’D DIE FOR YOU?? I LOVE THESE????

yes yes yes !!! Makoto has rainbow loom and I’m not gonna go on another ramble about it but I love that for him I rlly do hdbsbdbdbdb

And!!!!! Yeah yes yeah yeah yeah!!!!!! Oh my god dude tech decks are so cool and fun to fidget with......he’s had so many of them taken away for disrupting class but he always seems to come prepared with like a billion of them hdbdbsbdd nobody knows how he’s able to carry and hide so many hfbfbfb The noise bothers some of his other classmates, so he has to be careful with them, but they rlly are some of his favorite things to toy around with 🥺

Chihiro,,,,,,silly bands,,,,,,,,galaxy brain,,,,,,,sometimes during lunch she just takes off all of the ones she’s wearing and lines them up on the table to look at them bc,,,,,,hdbdbdb pretty shapes and colors,,,,,,,and then forgets to eat unless someone reminds her dhsnsbdbs

Makoto 🤝 Chihiro

their arms being COVERED in bright colored bracelets

Mondo and his embroidery ❤️ we stan a king

And the perler beads,,,,,,,uffbdbdbdbdbd me getting flashbacks to my childhood with all these damn things omg but yeah it’s very calming for him!! it requires a lot of patience, but it’s also repetitive movement and action so he’s kinda just !!! 👀

he and Taka have quiet afternoons where they just both do them (either working together or separately) and it’s so nice n softttt??? Comfortable silence ishimondo,,,,,,,,,m love

And Taka with his Rubik’s cubes oh my LORD he probably knows the secrets to most styles!! he can do them pretty quickly, and usually asks someone else to mess it up for him again, but literally give him like a couple of minutes and complete and total silence and BAM there u go

also highkey he could probably solve it with one hand if u asked him to because that’s just,,,,,literally how much of his spare time he’s spent with these damn things dndnsbdbdw

OH MY GOD THE MAGIC BALLS,,,,,,DUDE OH MY GOD OH MY GOD

highkey the only reason he has one is because he ordered it when they were still in business and adamantly REFUSES to admit that he got scammed hdbdhsbdbdbw

he’s not good at it, per se, but he’s built up some sleight of hand skills, definitely hdbsbdbd also it’s probably just fun to roll around and fidget with (plus it’s weighted!!!)

everyone else watches him playing with it like,,,,wow king I am so sorry

he’s also definitely dropped it on the floor of his dorm room bathroom AT LEAST twice, which ended up shattering the tile (and possibly a ball, as well) so he’s just kinda :’)

AND LIP GLOSS PHONES FOR SAYAKA IS AN ABSOLUTE GODSEND HOLY SHIT

literally just,,,,,her vibes are immaculate oh my god ? she’ll put some on and then immediately call her girlfriend over like “babe come here I need to test something” just to kiss them on the lips bc ./////.

she is just,,,,,so cute I’m gonna die??? she also makes the obligatory “sorry, I need to take this,” joke whenever her lips get chapped and she needs to put some on bbfbfbvbf

I do not know what you mean for Aoi’s but I support it wholeheartedly!!

HAIRCHALK FOR SAKURA?????? IM GONNA GO FERAL OH MY GODDDD SHE LOVES IT SHE LOVES IT SHE LOVES IT SHE PROBABLY DOES PRIDE FLAG COLORS A BUNCH OF THE TIME AND OTHER TIMES JUST DOES HER FAVORITES LIKE????

and friendship bracelets oh my GOD 🥺 she’ll do them if she ever needs to de-stress or relax, because the repetitive movements are very soothing!!! and she’s 100% made a bunch for her classmates, ofc oh my goodness

Sakura 🤝 Makoto

Making bracelets as a coping skill and giving a shit ton of said bracelets to their classmates because they like to see them happy

hdbdvsvdvdv byakuya totally does!!

He hides it in his dorm; nobody must EVER know about it okay if they find out he’ll die. But it’s really really fun to fidget with and he finds himself using it after particularly taxing or rough days!!! Plus the visual satisfaction,,,,,shit can’t be beat

TOKO AND HIFUMI MAD LIBS!!!!! oh my god they have solidarity so they give each other words if other people are unavailable/not cooperating hdnsbsbsv

and they both crack up when the other person reads the story, too 🥺 Like Toko will try to pretend that she doesn’t find it funny, but she’s snorting and trying to keep a straight face by the third sentence. They both get such a nice fluttery feeling at making others laugh, too!

Jill has tamagotchis!!! A bunch of them!!!!! And she’s really good at taking care of them; she acts like they’re her children dhsbdvsbs everyone else in class 78 is always like how are they all still alive you’re not even fronting most of the time???

(asmr Toko checks on them and takes care of them sometimes for her but she’d die before letting anyone else find out about that ❤️)

And Celeste with the disney princess tea cups oh my goddddd 🥺🥺🥺 they’re practically some of her most prized possessions and she’s very proud of them

Kyoko has maybe two or three or so furbies that she carries around with her and treats like her literal children wnnssnnsdbdb she’s literally the embodiment of the “do you care if I take the skin off this furby” meme no I won’t take it back it’s true

she does shit like create long furbies and other weird ass stuff like that because sometimes she’s awake at 3 in the morning and gets Ideas™️

Makoto is horrified ❤️

HELL YEAH junko loves the Lisa Frank aesthetic ngl like????? bright ass colors!!!!! holographic visuals!!!! oh my god she definitely carries around the little backpacks even though they’re too small for her bdbsbsbs

like she can’t fit anything useful in there and then gets frustrated because of it shdhnssbsb Mukuro is just kinda “why don’t you get a normal backpack” “bECAUSE IT’S NOT FUN, MUKURO”

And Mukuro with the glow in the dark starsssssssssss waaaaa oh my gosh she loves them so much they’re so calming to look at ??? prettyyyyy and also she has solidarity with Kaito because he has them too hdbsbdbd

they both find out the other has them and it’s just the Spider-Man pointing meme and *vibrates excitedly*

[teasandcardigans]

Okay, so, picrew game.

I'm white and pretty pale, but I have a ton of moles/birthmarks everywhere plus a bit of post acne on my forehead.

I have dark brown curly hair and an undercut haircut with the short part being very short (almost shaved) and the long being long enough to reach my mouth.

I have dark brown eyes, they're pretty round and not very big, normal length eyelashes.

Pretty thick and well shaped eyebrows.

Puffy lips with a pretty distinct colour (meaning they are pink enough to be fairly visible).

Straight nose with the tip a bit up.

Surprisingly have sort of visible cheekbones.

I don't wear glasses and I don't have my ears pierced yet.

(Sorry, I didn't check if the picrew lets you do something about the body type but I am on the plus size and in possession of some muscles.)

i-

i spent an ungodly amount of time on this

and i feel like it's so wrong

i'm so sorry

SO LET ME EXPLAIN MYSELF WITH THIS BJFGJFB BC IM ASHAMED BC I THINK I GOT IT SO WRONG JFGHFJGHJ

- the only acne options were like full face and i didn't wanna add something wrong so i opted to nix that

- i got so confused on how to make the hair,,,,, i'm not proud of it im so sorry i tried so hard, i deadass had google open in the next tab trying my best to find something remotely accurate and 😔im so sorry if this is so inaccurate its offensive

- CURLY OPTIONS WERE NOT THE VIBE

- so you said puffy pink lips and the pink color seemed rlly dark so i went with the shape but didn't add color

- sweater vibes bc you seem like you enjoy the cozy things in life

- there are also more moles under the sweater so just fyi i did try to match that

i did my best okay and technically i promised "the best of my ability" but i still care a lot abt making it right but im just gonna stop talking now-