#!!!! sigh

[artofalassa]

'Just like a muse to me, you are a mystery'

[cultural-derealization]

😔

[fairycoures]

a little very self indulgent, but intimacy struggles with simon riley.

18+ minors do not interact — very vague descriptions of thoughts and negative past experiences with the topic of sex. nothing extremely detailed.

this was written with very little sleep and i've never written for the fandom before so let's see how this goes. also not written with a specific gender in mind but may lean more towards feminine i have not proofread this.

something about the beginning of the relationship, everything is fresh, all those feelings are new and neither wants to shatter that porcelain figure of perfection that this has all felt like so far. kissing, the bits of physical intimacy shared here and there, but nothing past light makeout sessions that always seem to get interrupted by the buzzing of simon’s phone for one reason or another.

the thing is, you could go past that. the barrier that divides the delicate from the ravenous, feral underbelly waiting beneath heated touches when things start to get heavier. but ironically, it’s for the same reason that both you and simon are utterly terrified of even bringing that up.

in simon’s mind, he doesn’t want to damage you. you’re the bloody fucking sun, and what is he? scarred hands that can never truly wash away all the blood, all the things he’s done in his life. how could he be the one to taint one as pure as you?

not to mention, it’s already set in stone that you’re going to run off once the novelty fades. once the idea of having this big, strong shadow always lurking, always protecting. always terrified that you’re the next thing that he’s going to have to lose. every little thing like yourself always dreams of having someone like him until they actually get him. once the honeymoon phase fades and you inevitably realize how damaged he is.

and if he lets you in, if he brings down those walls and grants you a side of himself that he doesn’t even show around his bloody team—the ones who have been by his side through so, so much—and then you leave? he’s already been torn to pieces time and time again and survived. he doesn’t know if he’ll be able to live a life without you in it if he lets you see behind the mask.

it would ruin him.

and you.

you, who have had awful countless experiences with men where, every time you show that side of yourself, the side who isn’t all pretty and perfect and wants to be ruined and put back together with gentle hands. every time things get into sex, they never come back from that.

every conversation has to be turned into a scenario. what were once sweet, affectionate words turn to the sole focus being your body. those rose-colored glasses come right off and you realize that yet again you’ve given your time to someone who was just holding off on showing you that the only thing he cares about is what you can do for him in the bedroom. how good you can make him feel. it was never about you.

simon has been all you knew you needed and everything you couldn’t have fathomed. even with the leaves, the inability to contact him on missions except for rare moments where he can get a cell reception, even with the way the man so far has showed very little of his past to you, it’s never mattered. he has made you feel seen in a way that no one has ever come close to doing.

and if it all turns out to be a facade, you don’t know if your heart could take that type of hurt.

neither of you wants to cross that line for fear of being left, of being hurt, and it’s not like you don’t want each other because god you do. who wouldn’t want simon? the man has arms as thick as tree trunks and thighs to match, he’s built like a brick house and the voice on that man is enough to make your head turn to warm syrup, warmth pooling between your thighs. and who wouldn’t want you? you’re an angel sent down to earth, sent to either bless or curse simon because with the way you plague his every thought, he has to wonder which is which.

but it’s also so much more than that for both of you, it’s just that it’s so bloody hard to look past what has been into what could be.

[alicornze7]

Ribbun week - Day 4: Plushies

Wowww two characters finding plushies of each other and it turns out they work like something akin to a voodoo doll how creative/j

yeah no nothing too groundbreaking today just them being silly

the calm before the storm

[mmso-notlikethat]

since we are talking bucktommy... remember when this 😖

[cultural-derealization]

😔

- Sylvia Plath, from 'Ariel'

[artofalassa]

Late as always, but another year of wings, swords and the absolutely best bois <3

[screamziiez]

why is it so hard to find stuilly fics that aren’t them banging or Billy just straight up being abusive towards Stu 🙁🙁🙁 why can’t they just be enjoying each other’s company or hanging out 🙁🙁🙁 SOBSOSBSOBS !!!!

[po3tiic]

[cumcov3redangel]

Im sorry but I love a sadistic man with cold dead eyes who’s mean to me and gets hard when he hurts me

[infernalwraths]

Raphael stop being a cunty diva challenge (failed).

The amount of cuntiness this man excudes is actually too much for my brain to handle.

Look at the way he’s standing in this scene… cunt.

[highendphsrs]

crazy how arcane is a show predominantly led by women with two sapphic women as the main couple in the series but all i ever see in the arcane tag is mostly jayvik/jayce and viktor

[lettersihavetowriteandimstillill]

the loneliness i wanted too

[kantbeloved]

[realscreaminggoat]

a list of all my moots bc i love you guys 💖

(part one)

@cigarettes-and-black-eyeliner @kissing-chefs @locklaicy @ambervolakisfan @faggling @head-of-oncology @amantadinepoisoning @evilhorse936 @drrathouse @realliveversion @elevated-sarcasm @eavaus @billi-ashli @verysexyseagull @spectreburbank @thelostlullaby @soudakatt @autisticalastor @dr-robert-chase-s-hair @runrunrunfarfaraway @ilikestopwatches @s1oths @shanevs4evermd @stonesgossard @sillylilguy999 @luhvbatz @derrickkdyer @spinkertoot @themonthofjune4 @richardcameronshusband @procaffeinatingtheday @freakozoidboy @mrmonk-has-a-blog @the-weird-kids-next-door @audiovideodisco @insanely-noodle @gfuudb @worldrusher @rizzlonso @frootwhoops @mourningrat @cuddyonvicodin @saviimeanssavii @housingaroundd @vicodinszz @neuronoodles @kindchenschema @cloud-pier @jfkkenndy @bitchinlyras

i will reblog with more (message me if you want to be removed)

[ratchetonsteroids]

Late night doodles