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(via @yooo-lets-go )

I adore your ghost so much. He’s just a dorky guy whose had a bad time and is a little weird but is loved so much

Thats how I like him

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Think I’ve talked about this before but I still really like the idea of Elias’s whole “Enlist motherfucker.” shit (on top of the constant training he runs the boys through) being attributed to his (widely unaddressed) ptsd.

Like listen hear me out it makes sense… you know what saved him in Sand Viper, and then every suicidal operation thereafter? His teammates, his training. Ergo, he thinks that is what will always save him. (Subtly, subconsciously.) Ergo to keep his sons safe (alive) they need the same things. So, he makes them a team. He trains them to be prepared for most every scenario. He makes sure, in a kinda weird way, that his son’s lives and safety are ensured.

(And then all of that doesn’t work in the end, does it?)

(Except I like to think it will.)

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thinking about Gaz having to defuse a bomb immediately after watching his best friend die and not having a good time with it

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German Shepherd Logan!

This blogger regrets nothing✌️

(An artist once drew dog Logan with one floppy ear i love it so much I’m going to to carry this on

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Have some more lady ghostsoap! !

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raffle prize for @\Kaar_ne on twitter

diff version under the cut

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Are you, like me, suddenly obsessed with COD and want to write fanfic, but you don't want to always follow the canon missions?

Introducing: the mission generator. Pick one thing from each catagory and write away. Assembled from various resources and my head.

Objective:

<air strike / aid / arm / assassinate / assault / bombard / breach / build / bypass / capture / clear / contact / contain / control / defend / destroy / disarm / disaster relief / disengage / disinformation / distract / escort / extract / guard / identify / infiltrate / interrogate / isolate / investigation / lead / liberate / medical assistance / neutralize / occupy / patrol / propagandize / recon / recruit / repair / rescue / sabotage / seize / supply / surveillance / train>

Target:

<ship / dictator / informant / army / navy / armor / missile / chemical gas / estate / financial institution / airplane / organization / religious icon / subject matter expert / terrorist cell / journalist / rebels / airforce / drug trafficker / intelligence agency / factory / general / supply chain / submarine / enemy base / hostage / safe house / WMD / monument / leader / deserters / militia / research center / lab / bridge / mountain pass>

Unforseen Complication:

<old rival / dependant / redundant cell / transportation problems / competition / blown cover / legal trouble / old enemy / natural disaster / love interest / old friend / wounded / illness / journalists / bad weather / civil unrest / emergency election / civilians in need / double agent / weapon malfunction / team separated / betrayal / mistaken identity / regime change / deserters / ambush / bad Intel / false flag op / sabotage / traps / hacking / capture / setup>

Location:

<city / town / village / estate / mountains / abandoned house / military base / port / desert / forest / plains / river / ocean / tunnel / caves / swamp / jungle / coast / volcano / ruins / arctic / tundra / hills / canyon / mountain pass>

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Logan knew he did something wrong when he shot the deer.

It was his first. Not his first time shooting a gun mind you, he even had his own rifle at that point, but it was his first time killing something. Dad had been there to supervise him... and to tell him when to shoot. Just like he'd done with David the season prior.

Logan later learned most kids struggle killing their first prey animal. They get scared, procrastinate, even cry... Logan had not done any stalling. When Dad said "This is your shot." he shot. The deer stopped living. Then he turned to his father for approval and instead found him staring back with... surprise.

Dad had been quick to "fix his face" when Logan looked at him then. Schooling himself into neutrality and then praise, but Logan understands his initial reaction... it probably gave the wrong impression when his youngest son blithely followed the command to fire.

Of course it definitely did say something about Logan's psychology, but he doesn't think Dad got the right angle. Logan's logic had been this; "David did this already." And that thought had eliminated any hesitation before it bloomed. It had not been cold indifference that laid on the trigger. Logan very much understood the importance of the deer's life and weighed the worth of it's end... it's just that where David had tread Logan found a path easy to follow.

Logan was just glad Dad wasn't there to judge when he killed his first man.

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This feels unfinished but like I've been sitting on this sort of idea for a while. I read somewhere a while ago smthn like "The hardest thing about teaching your child to hunt is getting them to end their first kill" and I had the idea that Logan would just.... not struggle because "Oh well David did this already, nbd." Speaks to their whole codependency yk? They cannot detangle themselves from another; When one of them does something they both take responsibility.

In my mind Elias kinda shuffles the detail of "My son didn't hesitate killing something the first time." away and just goes "Yeah he got a ten pointer!!!!" instead of realizing the psychological ramifications of his whole..... method? Raising the boys.

Also giving Logan some level of self awareness is gonna be one of my "things" from now on I think. Mostly because I can go "Just like me fr fr." but also because I think it'd be funny if he went "Yeah this ain't normal. I don't care tho. It works for me so whatever."

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Tumblr gets to see it first 😌 The yearning for ghoap art has been too much for the little (non extistent) (i barely have time to sleep) time I have sooooo I put them into my concept assigment :D!!

We had to draw centaurs! I made soap a kelpie and Ghost a skelly horse that has bones that ✨shine ✨

Also I wish I had had time to render the jewelry on Ghost 😭 I was gonna make it so pretty

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PUT THAT BACK ON WHAT ARE YUOU DOING?!?!? - mando!ghost

@27potatochips for sharing the same braincell as me <3

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been drawing lots of smooching

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Okay lets talk about the absolute pants-shitting ptsd fear Logan had to have felt watching Rorke put a gun to his brother’s head in the train engine.

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don't want to go back to study haha

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This truly is the last thing I want to say on this blog and then I'm done, but given how the fucking catastrophe started it's only appropriate this is how I end it—

You have racist bias whether you like it or not. Particularly if you are US American, racism was baked into your worldview no matter what kind of household, liberal or conservative, you grew up in. Racism is quite often far more covert than it is overt. It is not just a voluntary behavior; it is more often the subconscious ways you organize and hierarchize other cultures and people.

In the case of Gaz—sure, you might actively believe that he deserves to be more included. You think he's a good character and people really should think about him more! But you personally headcanon him a certain way, and really it's not a headcanon you're actually all that into, so that's why you don't talk about him as much. It's not because he's black, it's because he doesn't fit the thing you like talking about the most. The fact that he's black is really just a coincidence, you're not excluding him because of that. In fact, you're sure other people like him for exactly the reason you're not all that into him, and you'll just leave it to them to pick up the slack. Or you'll get to him later! In fact, you have some ideas for him. You just haven't gotten around to them yet.

Take that and multiply it by thousands of white women in fandom—not just this fandom, not just Gaz's character, but every fandom and every character of color. It doesn't matter that there's no active malice behind not personally liking black characters and other characters of color. Non-white characters still take a backseat to their white counterparts, because white women in fandom cannot wrap their heads around black, brown, indigenous, and Asian characters as complex, complicated characters worthy of their interest or frankly, their desire.

They cannot wrap their heads around this because they were conditioned not to by decades of racist culture.

Case in point; plenty of white women in this fandom have fallen head over heels for Makarov and Graves. The sins of these out-and-out villains are totally forgiven by virtue of their sex appeal, and because they are portrayed by attractive, charismatic men who put a lot of passion behind their performances.

But can we say the same for Hadir? Can we say the same for Hassan?

The sins of these two Middle Eastern characters do not outweigh those of their villainous white counterparts, yet how many angsty fix-it fics have been written exploring Hadir's complicated relationship with violence and imperialism? How many enemies-to-lovers or even lovers-to-enemies fics have been written about Hassan, the face of whose homeland has been irrevocably marred by US interference?

No one who points out the racism of this trend is accusing these white women of active, militant white supremacy. I'm not saying any of you even have to like Gaz, Hadir, or Hassan. But your preferences have been tuned for you by a culture shaped by slavery, imperialism, and white supremacy. That is not something you can escape merely because you support the BLM movement or reblog vetted Palestinian gofundmes.

The only way you can truly fight your own racism is to be actively anti-racist. It is about far more than who you give money to or what graphics you pin on your instagram. It is an everyday practice of learning how racism has shaped your worldview for you.

This is not work that is done in a week, a month, or a year. Becoming anti-racist takes as much time as it took to make you racist in the first place. For some of you, the work may turn out to be easy. For others, it may be hard. You must do it either way.

Some good places to start:

Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe

Ain't I a Woman? by bell hooks

We Real Cool: Black Men and Masculinity by bell hooks

A Burst of Light by Audre Lorde

The Body Is Not An Apology by Sonya Renee Taylor

Fearing the Black Body by Sabrina Strings

Reading Lolita in Tehran by Azar Nafisi

Being Palestinian edited by Yasir Suleiman

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today is veterans day in the us so let this be a reminder to all my cod enjoyers: cod is, at its core, propaganda. do not fall for it. do not join the military. that is all

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I'm a fool for lingering touches and stolen glances

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I love when people depict Ghost as Just A Guy™

just a regular dude who has a handful of facial scars, decent communication skills, and semi-healthy coping mechanisms

everyone expects him to be a dramatic edgelord and sometimes he plays into that, but he’s also a little goofy. He does sudoku puzzles and takes bubble baths and loves fuzzy slippers but can’t wear them around base

he’s not an extrovert but he’s not an introvert either; he’s the life of the party if you get a couple of drinks in him but no one ever invites him to go drinking because they’re all scared of him

he had a couple of years of mandated therapy that actually managed to do something so now, twenty years later, he’s just a regular dude in the military who made wearing a skull mask his shtick that he still gets a kick out of but doesn’t really care for the dramatics of it all anymore

Just A Guy Ghost is my favorite Ghost