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This truly is the last thing I want to say on this blog and then I'm done, but given how the fucking catastrophe started it's only appropriate this is how I end it—

You have racist bias whether you like it or not. Particularly if you are US American, racism was baked into your worldview no matter what kind of household, liberal or conservative, you grew up in. Racism is quite often far more covert than it is overt. It is not just a voluntary behavior; it is more often the subconscious ways you organize and hierarchize other cultures and people.

In the case of Gaz—sure, you might actively believe that he deserves to be more included. You think he's a good character and people really should think about him more! But you personally headcanon him a certain way, and really it's not a headcanon you're actually all that into, so that's why you don't talk about him as much. It's not because he's black, it's because he doesn't fit the thing you like talking about the most. The fact that he's black is really just a coincidence, you're not excluding him because of that. In fact, you're sure other people like him for exactly the reason you're not all that into him, and you'll just leave it to them to pick up the slack. Or you'll get to him later! In fact, you have some ideas for him. You just haven't gotten around to them yet.

Take that and multiply it by thousands of white women in fandom—not just this fandom, not just Gaz's character, but every fandom and every character of color. It doesn't matter that there's no active malice behind not personally liking black characters and other characters of color. Non-white characters still take a backseat to their white counterparts, because white women in fandom cannot wrap their heads around black, brown, indigenous, and Asian characters as complex, complicated characters worthy of their interest or frankly, their desire.

They cannot wrap their heads around this because they were conditioned not to by decades of racist culture.

Case in point; plenty of white women in this fandom have fallen head over heels for Makarov and Graves. The sins of these out-and-out villains are totally forgiven by virtue of their sex appeal, and because they are portrayed by attractive, charismatic men who put a lot of passion behind their performances.

But can we say the same for Hadir? Can we say the same for Hassan?

The sins of these two Middle Eastern characters do not outweigh those of their villainous white counterparts, yet how many angsty fix-it fics have been written exploring Hadir's complicated relationship with violence and imperialism? How many enemies-to-lovers or even lovers-to-enemies fics have been written about Hassan, the face of whose homeland has been irrevocably marred by US interference?

No one who points out the racism of this trend is accusing these white women of active, militant white supremacy. I'm not saying any of you even have to like Gaz, Hadir, or Hassan. But your preferences have been tuned for you by a culture shaped by slavery, imperialism, and white supremacy. That is not something you can escape merely because you support the BLM movement or reblog vetted Palestinian gofundmes.

The only way you can truly fight your own racism is to be actively anti-racist. It is about far more than who you give money to or what graphics you pin on your instagram. It is an everyday practice of learning how racism has shaped your worldview for you.

This is not work that is done in a week, a month, or a year. Becoming anti-racist takes as much time as it took to make you racist in the first place. For some of you, the work may turn out to be easy. For others, it may be hard. You must do it either way.

Some good places to start:

Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe

Ain't I a Woman? by bell hooks

We Real Cool: Black Men and Masculinity by bell hooks

A Burst of Light by Audre Lorde

The Body Is Not An Apology by Sonya Renee Taylor

Fearing the Black Body by Sabrina Strings

Reading Lolita in Tehran by Azar Nafisi

Being Palestinian edited by Yasir Suleiman

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today is veterans day in the us so let this be a reminder to all my cod enjoyers: cod is, at its core, propaganda. do not fall for it. do not join the military. that is all

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I'm a fool for lingering touches and stolen glances

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I love when people depict Ghost as Just A Guy™

just a regular dude who has a handful of facial scars, decent communication skills, and semi-healthy coping mechanisms

everyone expects him to be a dramatic edgelord and sometimes he plays into that, but he’s also a little goofy. He does sudoku puzzles and takes bubble baths and loves fuzzy slippers but can’t wear them around base

he’s not an extrovert but he’s not an introvert either; he’s the life of the party if you get a couple of drinks in him but no one ever invites him to go drinking because they’re all scared of him

he had a couple of years of mandated therapy that actually managed to do something so now, twenty years later, he’s just a regular dude in the military who made wearing a skull mask his shtick that he still gets a kick out of but doesn’t really care for the dramatics of it all anymore

Just A Guy Ghost is my favorite Ghost

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Hope this cheers someone up

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Okay we’ve had the 141 kidnapping Keegan a lot but hear me out on the Ghosts yoinking Roach.

Small quiet quirky guy. They miss Logan.

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(via @yooo-lets-go )

Elias Walker father of the year

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Silly Halloween comic 🎃 (pretend I posted this on time)

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hypothesis. fanon corries are basically the 141

I present to you

evil boss man:

the dead one:

the other dead one:

riot police:

has permanent possession of singular shared brain cell:

family dog:

I rest my case.

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Okay, uh, thought i just had

Logan and Hesh are the two sides that Elias was in one person. Hear me out on this.

Elias had two "soldier sides" one Captain Walker, the leader, keeping everyone in line, making sure everything works, that is Hesh, leading, always looking out, the planner, next in line to be the captain of the Ghosts (when he has his years down ofc)

And then we have Scarecrow, the man with the mask, the overly skilled fighter that can make the enemies scared just by showing up, doing the most dangerous shit but still succeeding (mostly) that's Logan, the guy that made it through enemy territory with only a knife, that's why he got the mask (not to say Hesh ain't skilled, he is, but you get what i mean)

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lmao guess who college's eating me alive, sorry for being inactive :(

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Ghosts 2/remake requirement: Random QTE's to do impulsive shit. Shit that adds absolutely nothing to the plot. Like you get close to Hesh and get a QTE where Logan just pokes his cheek until Hesh smacks his hand away. Another one where he pets Riley really good all over his face. One where he smacks Merrick's pen out of his hand and he just starts swearing up a storm in response. Like literal random impulsive shit, hence the QTE part.

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thirst trapping yall with butch könig 🫶 sketched these in like an hour she invaded my mind ugh. ignore how short her left thumb is im not fixing it u cant make me.

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In the “sin city” mission of CoD Ghosts, I think the setup Rorke has the Walkers in is interesting, in and of itself.

All bound to chairs, but with Elias and Hesh next to each other, while Logan is across from the both of them. I imagine mostly because his plan was to have Logan shoot Elias and watch him die, all of which happened.

But the fact he separated Logan from the both of them is interesting to me. He was already pulling Logan off that beach in a way from the beginning.

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YEAH!! :D

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migraines got to me, tried to distract myself

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i was put on this gay ass earth to draw the same pictures again and again