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How is a bitch supposed to just... not smoke or drink also no emotional eating (that's worse to me) and not hide from the world? I'm so do do wanting to get a secret vape but I know I absolutely can't

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couplespo will always have a chokehold on mee

like yes i wanna be the ed gf to ur gymbro bf

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whatever your problem is, the answer is not in the fridge.

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Y'all... I did it last night. I had 4 (four) pieces of candy. 2 andes candies and two reeses cups. no more. Just that. Binge who? yesterday was 1214cal because by God I put the green bean casserole on my plate and it wasn't good it was wasted calories BUT I CANT BE RUDE TO MY MOTHER IN LAW.

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⟡ ݁₊ . ♱ daily dose of th!nspø (legs ver.)

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I love ur spo boards smch!! if you have time could you pls make a grey thinspo board. Not like a scary cold grey but more like a comforting one. Kinda like cloudy days and grey sweats. Idk if that makes sense sry.

Thank you sm! Hope this is what you were looking for <3 If not, please feel free to dm me and lmk if you'd like me to edit anything

Grey Spo Board

Th1nspo:

Meal ideas:

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cozy thigh highs

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If you’re like me and this is your favorite time of the year but you feel like all the fall aesthetic things to do involve food (pumpkin spice latte, cinnamon rolls, hot cocoa…) and all your safe foods are cold/summer stuff (Diet Coke, cucumbers, tomatoes etc) here is a how to romanticize ana during the fall:

-tea to keep you warm! you can even have fun making your own

-warm coffee for breakfast

-walking in the city or the forest to get to 10+k

-taking time to manifest about your ideal life instead of 3ating when bored

-imagine wearing tights to show off your skinny legs

-the OUTFITS the LAYERS the taste, everything looks good on a skinny body

-a warm bath and bath bombs

-lighting candles, you can get any scent you want like chocolate or cinnamon because no cals 🥹

-soup as a low cal meal

-MUSHROOMSSSSS

-reading books

-studying

-baking for others

-cinnamon on EVERYTHING

kisses and stay skinny

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Oh I guess that's my whole day, time to comple-

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pilates princess but with total black outfits♡♡♡

black pilates princess insp0 board

meal ideas: like so clean girl

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So like... who was going to tell that I wasn't ugly just fat?

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I'm only moots with other adults but idk if this will resonate or if it's just me? Tw pregnancy/family planning talk below cut as well as trauma mentions

Part of me really does want another baby, maybe even I have an even number... but I'm also absolutely mortified of that weight gain. I know I know, you do not NEED to gain ANY fat during pregnancy. The weight you should gain is fluid, flesh, a little person. But I dont need fat stores. I'm not a cave woman. I'm not going to be starving after birth. Breastfeeding and pregnancy require fewer calories than a lot of people think, as in additional 200cal. I know that. I know my sister in law is on baby number 3 and she didn't gain any fat at any stage. She still has a flat stomach because she maintained her core and kept up with her exercise routines AND ate a sensible amount. She's not magic, she's not special, it's not impossible to do. I know that.

But also... i gained 30lbs OF FAT with my first kid, lost it, and AGAIN gained 30lbs of fat with my second kid. I was already overweight to start with. I'm finally almost at a normal weight, honestly I really really really want to have those little tiny female fitspo abs JUST ONCE in my life at least. Like this. Maybe a bit lower body fat.

I can't help but also feel fear around pregnancy. All 3 pregnancies I've had, I had a bear death experience. 1st was a major car accident, 2nd was an ectopic pregnancy that ruptured and I was bleeding internally, 3rd was a uterine infection that was caught late resistant to antibiotics and resulted in dangerous tachycardia for me and baby. I'm afraid of the next near miss. I'm afraid of another miscarriage. I'm afraid that I'll lose my control and I'll gain all the weight back and start ALL OVER again. I dunno. Is the weight fear and ED thing or natural? Tbh I don't really know any former fat moms, let alone any who had more kids/want more kids. Every fat mom I ever knew stayed fat or got fatter. (Very open to responses btw, despite are always open to *adult women*)

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I guess all i needed was representation

I feel much more motivated and... valid?

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Post run full stomach of liquid... but I'm lighter than yesterday.

Locking the FUCK in. I won't see him first a minimum of 5 weeks, possibly 12 weeks. That's plenty of time to hit 120lbs. Maybe even 115lbs.

128lbs is the cutoff of overweight for my height, I'll be under 25BMI for the first time in like 10 fucking years.

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Ya know, it's way past my because time and tomorrow is a 5:30am running day, but GOD damn it I'm very stressed and sad and the best thing I've learned to do is use that energy to clean. Yeah I did it for like an hour and a half, but I feel a tiny but better and I wasn't self destructive.