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This uncharted territory

Life's melchonay

Constant missin'

Fires arisen

Is this fate ?

The devil's play.

Away from the known

Into the unknown

Fighting against my very own

Is this fate ?

The devil's play

Forging fire

A dire desire

To sneak away soon

With a boon

A blessing in digsue

With a heavy price

Little I hope

It ends soon

Waiting and grieving

Spirals of emotions weaving

Little break downs

Never found

Lying in the corner

Voices shut out

Words piercing

Through the facade

Breaking the lil one's heart

Never did I hinder

Never was I

A devil's spawn

Little did you know

I was breaking apart

Piece by piece

Word by word

Trampled with my own

Lonely sword

Never escaping

Always bewitching

It killed me

Once and for all

Then a phoenix arose

Soaring high

Determined

To avenge it all

A battle of glory

A battle of might

Let a battle of splendour arise

Little did I know the enemy

My shadow

My unconscious

we had a equal score

A tit for tat

The victor usure

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“Nice guy” part 2

Seems like happiness does not lead to the perfect endings and at the end of the day only you can make yourself happy. 

He made you happy because you choose to see “something special” in him, he wasn't the magic, you were. You chose him. The same way you can choose yourself, you choose yourself over and over again. Until it becomes second skin like cloth to your body, like the glasses to your eyes. Until you dont feel that void or the pang in your heart. Until your heart is ready to love someone else again. While you might not find, the “unicorn” again or even the nice guy for that matter, you know for yourself that you are you again. The person meant to be will find you not at your worst this time but at your best, ready to not fall but live with you through life and pain.

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“Nice Men”

How do we decide if “Nice” is good enough? A keeper? and there's no good or better or best out there? 

Lemme break it down for you. Let's assume the total population of the earth is 100. As a straight woman, we have access to the generous 50 from which 25 are married or gay and 15 are not in your age group. The rest 15 is a mixed lot of violence, toxicity and showcase a severe desire for “mama or a maid for life” behaviour and then we have the rarest of the breed, the unicorn we look for. In this mix, we have the “Nice guy”, who isn't honestly bad, but you wonder where the hell you went wrong as “being nice” is the only character trait he has. Now you keep wondering if he is the actual unicorn, considering the shit out there and contemplate that you won't get a better deal than this or to just dump his ass to wander off in search of the unicorn. 

Most people settle for the nice guy, thinking he is the max you can reach to the unicorn, or that he is the unicorn. However, the parameter to him being the unicorn is your happiness. 

Does he make you truly happy love?