#directioner

[edwardcreel]

internet and social media made people think one's priority is to always go to social media and make a statement for the world when someone they love passed away, otherwise their social media silence means they don't actually care about that person and therefore deserve to be harassed.

it's disturbing as fuck how we can't "grief in private" anymore and instead having to come up with a sentimental social media post for likes and comments to prove some strangers we actually love our deceased friend/family member.

[the-wonderland-madnesss]

I think what's making this more painful for all the fans is not only the fact that Liam and the band were a central part of our teenage years, and we basically grew up alongside them, but also what a media shit show this has been.

His face has been plastered in every media site in every language. We know exactly what his last minutes were like. We know that, about 40 minutes before his death he was seen asking strangers for a hug before he smashed his laptop. We know he spent the last month donating large sums of money to gofundme pages of sick children. We have the recording of the 911 call hotel staff made, and what the room looked like afterwards. We know he said he was on a boyband and that fucked him up, which may very well been his last heard words.

Some even had the horrible luck of seeing the pictures of his corpse. In a way it feels like we were all there, we can get a vivid picture of his last minutes and that makes it all more horrifying

[lebesyej]

"we can live forever" 14 years of my fav band ever 🥹💖

someone asked me for a Larry wallpaper

[lives-in-midgard]

Thank you Liam for making me happy while watching interviews or any other video of one direction and also while listening to your music. The music of one direction has been such an important part of my childhood and so were you.

We will never forget you ❤️

Rest in Peace Liam Payne

[jaywriteshome]

I’ve never seen this before! They’re so cute

[seashellawe]

one direction

[starfox313]

Made this tonight. Honestly this still doesn't feel real. Such a fucking tragic situation.

[lirrylocks]

idk if it’s just me but i feel like i’m also mourning for my teenage self who was finally allowed to scream and cry and act a little wild with the whole fandom. i’d never allowed myself to express myself like that, and liam and the boys helped to shape who i am today. 

i’m not just upset over the loss of liam, I’m upset because what if i forget that part of myself? 

[honey-worm]

R.I.P Liam Payne.

Many things went on through my head the day I found out that a member of One Direction passed away. It was Wednesday October 16th, 2024 around 3pm. I was having a pretty normal day at work until I got the news via text from a friend.

"Bitch Liam Payne from One Direction died" "You're fucking joking"

I was in literal shock. I really thought they she was joking (if you can even joke about death.) I went on Instagram and the first post was, of course, Liam passing away at the age of 31. I literally booked it to the restroom to scroll down multiple social media platforms, verifying what I had just read and messaging friends back who were also freaking out. People who I haven't talked to in years, you know, the ones I would just scroll by on Facebook, stated that I was the first one they thought of. They wondered if I had posted about it. I didn't realize how big of a fan I was until they mentioned it to me because it's not like we were ever best friends back when 1D was the it band. I honestly couldn't believe it. There was just no way that Liam Payne, from one of the biggest boybands in the world, was no longer with us in the flesh.

After the devastating news, the next hour at work was a blur. I couldn't concentrate on what was needing to be done. None of my coworkers were going through what I was feeling. Though, I already knew they wouldn't understand... They're all 50+ years old. I had no one to talk to about this.

The moment I got into my car after work, my Made in the A.M. album CD was already playing. I checked Twitter and TikTok, feeling the emotions of every single directioner. Retweet this, retweet that. Repost this, repost that. I got myself off the apps and headed home, singing along to the boys I hold so close to my heart. I started to cry because suddenly I was 17 again and things would never be the same. The songs would never be the same. All my 1D memories were flooding in rapidly. All the tweets, all the fanfictions, all the youtube videos, all the posters, all the merch, all the talk... All of it. Teenage me was surfacing.

As I got home, I took my dogs out, fed them, and immediately got into bed. Back to doom scrolling. I needed to be with people who understood me. Tweet after tweet. I was reading everyone's tweets about how sad we all are and how so many of us don't have anyone in our real lives to understand the impact this actually has. We all gathered on social media to start grieving. It felt like we had jumped back in time, constantly tweeting and talking about a boyband that made us so incredibly happy during such bad times in our lives. My whole timeline was filled with photos of the boys again. Every tweet was a directioner, just like it was 11+ years ago. It was such a bittersweet feeling. Happy because it's all about the boys again, but, upsetting because it's all about the boys again due to a tragic death of one of them. We aren't teenagers anymore. I wasn't just grieving Liam, I was grieving my inner teen. Grieving the fact that we'll never get to go back to that time again. It was such a weird feeling. I'd cry, be fine, feel numb, dissociate, go back to crying, back to being fine, cry again, go numb... It was a literal rollercoaster of emotions.

What's so crazy to me is that I spent the 2 weeks prior of this loss, binging all 1D songs. I was in the middle of reminiscing about my teenage years of being absolutely obsessed with the band, rereading the fanfic I wrote when I was 19, watching frat boy Harry edits, remembering the way I felt during those times...... Then Liam dies??? What was the universe up to??? I couldn't believe that every day for 14 days, I was listening to all albums before, during, and after work. They were just on all day every day. I was reliving my teenage years, remembering how infatuated I was with "frat boy" Harry. The one that made me fall in love with 1D in the first place.

Myself, and so many others, were never expecting a tragedy to happen to one of our idols so early on in life. We weren't expecting to experience such a loss at the ripe ages of early 20s-early 30s.

I hope that all fans are spending their time with loved ones (online or in real life) during this time because what you're going through is so so valid. You aren't alone. The whole world is mourning such a big part of our lives. Continue to let 1D live on. Watch those YouTube videos, read those fanfictions, listen to those 1D songs, watch those 1D movies.

You and that inner child deserve to relive such a happy time during a traumatic chapter.

And please remember to love one another. Continue to be a lover. Give love, choose love. Love everyone, always. No matter what, treat people with kindness. You never know what someone is going through.

All my love,

R. x

[creelarke]

You can mourn Liam Payne and be heartbroken over his death, as he was one of the most important parts of your childhood/teenage life, while at the same time acknowledging that the accusations made by his ex girlfriend against him are serious and should not be sweep under the rug because he’s passed away, by the way.

I wish he could have had access to the help he needed and I pray for his friends and family. I also pray that his ex girlfriend, should the accusations against him were to be true, finds her peace and justice.

This is heartbreaking.

[strwberrykisses]

lou moodboard thingy made by meeee 🎀

gonna do harry next :3

[1d-fangirl-blog]

This account is so precious to me, as I dedicate this account for 1D. As a Directioner with full of memories with them, I enjoyed making gifs and creating post about them. I may not be active (since life happens) since they go on hiatus as a group, I still love my OT5. I still love them equally. I can't believe I have to go back to this account just to say how my heart is breaking right now. I still cannot believe what just happen. My heart is broken right now because of Liam. I just hope he knows how much we love him. I cannot explain what I'm feeling right now. My thoughts and prayers are with his family.

Rest in paradise, Liam.

You are loved.

[thatcanyongirl]

staying up late on a school night to read a wattpad fanfic is a core 2014-2016 memory

[jaywriteshome]

Harry and louis’ vocals in the better than words bridge are top tier

I’m in love

[sunshinelore]

harry styles did not put his blood, sweat, and tears into a live cover of Girl Crush just for y’all to call him a queerbaiter