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Im god

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Which one of you put a woman's green musky ass feet on my dash.

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what did I do to end up on the side of tumblr where people's dawgs are OUTT and how do I get aaay

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Every morning, shivering and walking naked to the scale 😬⚖️

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I'm so afraid of loneliness, all the time I'm looking for people who pay attention to me, all the time I'm flirting with someone who could be a possible partner and if I don't I look for them until I find them. I always end up sexualizing myself, creating a personality and way of being so that men look at me and desire me, my emotional stability is based on that, on how much attention I receive, but it is so sad to realize too late that they only see me as a "hole", as something disposable, abandonable and usable. In the end either way I end up being alone, feeling empty, abandoned and depressed.

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BPD culture + hypersexual is sexualising myself hoping people will like me more that way and feeling disgusted by myself for that but not being able to stop it.

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someone I know made a mii of me and made it as skinny as possibe not sure how to feel about that one

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need to be skinnier because people built my identity around being the weak skinny frail rat guy and i have nothing else to base myself off of if i don't follow others ideals of me

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ive been eating more (like 900 kcals so I'm tweaking for no reason I fear) bc I'm in so many aps I literally need to eat or I fail immediately and it's making me tweak Soo bad!

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Yes I made this meme, yes you may use it

Edit: why the fuck did my shitpost get over 100 notes

Edit: 200? That's it. Y'all are insane

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too tired to even slit properly i fear

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"80 year old you will regret starving yourself!" STFUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!! I'M NOT MAKING TO 80!!

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what should i do tonight hmm..

m4sturbate..cVt..or both !!! >_<

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starting this tmrw :3

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i dont wanna make someone worse i fear like i want someone whos chill w cutting ME open but like . they chilling yk .

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I just want to be bloody and bruised. Is that too hard to ask for?