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BALLOONS WILL FLOAT, KIDS.

This is a story of an old friend. 

And I say “old” because this might be the end of our friendship. 

We met each other during our high school years, and together we formed a group. That group then, led to a bigger group that I can now safely call a family. This particular group of friends are the first ones I would call and invite for my own wedding (if I ever have one). These girls have been a huge part of my life. We accepted each other’s flaws and strengths. They made high school fun. And together, we just all clicked.

Years passed by, after graduation, each of us went separate ways. We don’t go out anymore together as a group. We don’t take lunch at the same table anymore. We transitioned into “adults”. We were forced to find other people upon entering college. We were forced into an environment so huge and different that we were asking ourselves- can we do this without each other? Without our first group of friends- the same people who accepted us?

What if no one sees me the way they do. What if I can’t make any other friends.

But to our surprise, each of us made friends. And yes, that’s just life. You continue to meet new people. New lovely friends. Funnier people. Crazier people. People that were different that it pushed us to be different. To be out of our own comfort zones. People who we can influence and change. We made new groups of friends that were not only good for college but also for a lifetime.

And there’s nothing wrong with that.

It started during the first few years of college where she started to drift away from us - intentionally. 

We were a group four before we had a big group. I, together with the two, brought it up to her through chat. I was the one who brought it up and she explained it all to me. She said, she needed time to understand herself and grow. She felt left out. She felt that everything changed - that us, the group of four, were not the same anymore. She didn’t know how to face us anymore because she can’t helped but to feel awkward.

Of course we felt weird about it. Why would you feel awkward. Why would you feel, all of a sudden, that you’re having a hard time talking to us. Did we do something wrong? Was there something during those years that we could’ve done for you to not feel this way?

I am the type of friend who would want to make my friends comfortable around me. I am not the type of friend who would intentionally make you feel left out. I can craft jokes, talk about celebrities - anything to make my friends feel welcomed and engaged. And during those times, I was sure I was doing that.

We were inviting her out for lunch. For a quick catch up. Something, to let her know that there’s nothing to be worried about. For months, a year.. we constantly tried to make her feel connected. Unfortunately, we weren’t successful. 

A year passed, and she completely drifted away. She was still in our group chat and we could see her reading all the messages, all the conversations we had. All the rants, all the birthday greetings - everything group of friends would share in a group chat. She was still reading everything but no reacts, nothing. Not even a smile, a like, a comment. 

So we took it upon ourselves to kick her out of the group chat recently. We felt like a year with no news from her would be enough to kick her out of the chat. Our reason for kicking her? Simple: Why would you want to still be in an active group chat if you’re not present on it. As if you don’t care being in that group. 

It just seemed pointless for us to see her reading everything, yet with nothing in return. It felt as if, she was just reading everything for her own entertainment. Or to check what our topic was. To get rid of the notifications that the chat has. We thought she wouldn’t care.

But she did.

And we were surprised that she did. She explained that, even though she isn’t active in our group chat, in her mind, we were still her friends. She thought that we would understand her silence. It was already enough for her to read our conversations because it transports her to the time that we were still together like in high school. She thought that we would understand that choosing to grow on her own would not result anything to us.

But my friend, that’s not the case. 

You left. You chose to sacrifice us and put yourself first. You chose to pour your time into yourself so you can grow by yourself. And we respected that. We weren’t angry that you chose to focus on yourself. We were hurt that by focusing on yourself, you felt like we weren’t helpful or good for you. That you needed to drift away in order to grow.

But balloons float.

You can’t let go of it, expecting the balloon to suspend in the air while you grow from a kid to an adult. It pops. It deflates. It floats. 

You left hoping to be a better person than you were but you forgot that while you were away, we also grew and changed individually. Many things have happened to each of us that changed the way we think, the way we talk. 

You expected us to act as if nothing happened throughout the years that you were away. That while you were busy fixing yourself and growing, we would just stay the same.That’s never going to happen. You changed and rightfully so, so have we. 

Ending connections are tough. Friends are hard to let go and forget especially if the cause of its end are misunderstanding or miscommunication. Friendships get stronger when put into conflicts, as to any relationships. However this one, felt.. different. It’s close to exhausting each of us. It’s close to the brink of breaking and mending it would require time, healing and a whole new length of understanding. 

To whoever who reads this rant..

I hope you see your friends, especially the ones that had hoped nothing but great things in life for you, to be non-destructive. Growing up, making yourself better.. I hope it doesn’t require you to abandon those who are willing to help. You don’t need to lean on and depend on certain people. You can grow on your own and let your friends watch and support you and be amazed by you. I hope sacrificing them would be your last resort and if you think sacrificing friends is vital to your success, make them understand. Make them not feel that they are useless to your growth. And once that you abandon them or choose to push them aside, understand and respect the aftermath of it, no matter how good or bad it is. 

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Most of the time I hate myself, but sometimes I love me.

Do you get that feeling also? 

It’s as if you’re still proud of who you have become despite years of hating yourself. 

I may not have high achievements and awards during highschool or college. I may not be attractive, hot and sexy like the other girls. And I may be jobless right now but for a couple of reasons - I’m still proud of who I am. 

I’m getting this feeling tonight because I have a close friend who always seeks an advice or opinion from me and I appreciate it a lot (Makes me feel useful, heh) and also because of the fact that I’m very much self aware of what I say and what I do that each time I voice out my opinions or ideas to her, I realize the “wisdom” that I have that I often neglect.

I may not always have the right solutions to everything but the fact that I can apply what I observed from my own and other people’s experiences and construct advices from it and share it to someone makes me feel like no matter where I am and where I stand, I’m still going to be truthful and honest to myself. No sugar coating when it comes to my thoughts and advices.

Anyway, I just wanted to create this post because I know the feeling of beating yourself up too much for not being perfect. For having plenty of mistakes and flaws, trust me, I know. But sometimes you just gotta let yourself breathe and see the small things you do and say because maybe you don’t realize but you’re actually radiating and sharing positivity out into the world and that’s something you should be proud of. 

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Being bitter and negative is boring and I dont want to do it anymore

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STORYTIME: I failed and lost my first job.

A BIG OOPSIE. 

Imagine this scenario, kids. An insecure fresh graduate, who is afraid of going out into the “real” world and doesn’t even know what to do in her life successfully found a job that she unexpectedly enjoyed (not to mention.. that paid well) and met a lot of wonderful people who welcomed her positively and changed her vision. 

I was living a fucking dream.  Lovely job, great people, good pay. Everything was so wonderful. 

Until it happened. 

After I graduated from college, I knew that the path I would be taking next would be different and more serious so I have been preparing myself and tried to instill the fact that I would be out there, not necessarily to create friends, but to survive, build my own path of success and live my best life. However I was taken aback at how lucky I got when I met the people at work and how completely heartwarming it felt when they immediately accepted me as part of the team. The three of us newbies, during that time, felt like we completed the family and like I said, it was wonderful.

And that was why I forgot the fact that I wasn’t there to make friends. I wasn’t there to be crowned as Miss Congeniality what-so-ever. Don’t get me wrong, I am grateful that I am friends with almost everyone but I forgot to realize that while I was being loved and accepted, we were also being watched. And sadly, because of that, the three of us didn’t get to fight our right for the job. 

I wasn’t the perfect employee. 

Let’s clear that up. I didn’t get to meet the perfect percentages. I rarely got 100% each month and overall I was only around 98.5% when they needed 99.5%, so damn fuck- it was very hard. I did everything I could but even the days where I felt like I did everything right, I’d still get an error or two. Not reaching the numbers- I admit my fault there. However the truly sad part was not that but an incident that happened within the team.��

I won’t talk about the details of the incident too much but it was between my team vs. a few people, not to mention, from the same team too. So imagine, a group of 20 people; 10 of us versus a group of 6. The incident took place the day after when we got reported by those people who didn’t know what happened, who didn’t see us and added details that had no proof at all.

An investigation occurred.

For few months, we were under investigation because of what we did- because of a celebration that we had. We were asked many questions. We had to talk about that night and the management only looked at us and didn’t even question the ones who reported and it felt unfair. 

We were reported by people who didn’t know what really happened. They based it on what they saw and created a narrative of us without talking to us. It got out of hand. We were resentful and we felt uncomfortable because we knew then that they have been watching and just waiting for something to happen- to stop us from having our ‘perfect life’. 

Until the 6th month came, we were about to sign for a permanent contract however because of the whole investigation and our shortcomings, the management and HR made the decision to end our contracts and not offer us the position. Damn. It was heartbreaking. We were honestly anticipating the idea that we would soon get kicked out, all three newbies, but we didn’t realize the impact of it- how it would affect us mentally. 

A month after and I’m still currently unemployed.

The whole thing was a little bit traumatizing, not going to lie. I know that I have to come back stronger and wiser than before. I thought I would be back to zero but I know now that it’s not entirely true. I’m still dealing with myself and still re-building my own confidence. I learned a few important lessons the hard way through this whole experience:

Not everyone’s going to like you and you can never be too comfortable with people just because they act nice towards you.

Genuine happiness can attract jealousy and jealousy eats people. Always be mindful of it. 

Be accountable for your actions, always. 

If all things fail, if the world around you crumbles- the best way to deal with it is through silence. The people who caused your downfall will enjoy the outcome of it but you don’t have to give it to them. 

No matter how dark it may seem, find a light and revel in it. 

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STORYTIME: I rejected my crush.

Your crush liking you back! How can it possibly turn bad?

I met him the first time during my first few weeks at the office. He was closely working together with my team. He was smart, responsible and outspoken. No, he’s not good looking but I didn’t really mind since I don’t really fall for charming guys. He’s a part of a band and they play music here and there. 

The first few weeks I already heard a lot of things about him. How he had the worst years of his life because of a girl who basically destroyed his heart and his trust. Oh, and this girl’s also part of our team. I heard the complete story between those two and I felt nothing but pity and sadness. The first thing that came into my mind was: No one deserves to be treated that way. To still work with the person who hurt you, who destroyed your reputation and abandoned you.. just, how?

And so my interest grew. 

At the same time, he was already expressing his interest towards me. We talked almost everyday at every hour but one thing I had a hard time doing was to approach him in person. In my defense, I don’t usually talk to guys let alone a guy who I liked. But I knew it would be off not to befriend him since I want to get to know more about this person and turned out, he also wants to get to know me. 

This is the part where it went downfall. To set my grounds, here’s a few facts about me: I never dated anyone. Never had a boyfriend. Never been into a relationship. Never did anything with anyone. Not fond of relationships. No experience, ever. Nada. And I told him all of these because I knew as a proud Virgo, my walls are fucking high, it would be impossible for someone to break it. But I gave him a chance. 

I was interested to get to know him and I already cleared everything on my part. He knew it wouldn’t be easy. That I am not easy. But he wanted to pursue. I thought, nothing wrong with that since I do want to get to know him. However, some things surfaced that I wasn’t prepared for. 

He was trying to cage me. 

Clearly we liked each other. We dated, sure, for weeks. A month? I’m not even sure. I wasn’t paying too much about the time but I knew things were going fast. He started to show a side of him that I didn’t want to deal with. He started to act possessive and manipulative. He would make himself the victim intentionally or unintentionally. He started to doubt and question everything I said and at the time, I was angry enough to prove him wrong. There were constant explaining to do that it literally felt like interrogation whenever I talk to him. 

Until I just realized, he’s in no place to question me, my decisions. My plans with friends. It even came to a point where I cancelled a movie with a guy friend because he was simply jealous and I went with him instead. At the time, I thought it was the right thing to do. And I kept on thinking what the right things are because I was trying to understand this whole thing. 

But it was wrong. I was wrong and he was too. The things he started to do, to show, to say. Everything was wrong. We were never together. We were not a couple but he acted like one. And it made me hard to breathe. I knew it was simply toxic.

I ended it multiple times.

The first time I made him stop courting me was through a call which I knew was not the right thing to do. I did it in person and call multiple times but he had a hard time accepting my decision. I offered him friendship and he told me he didn’t want me to be his friend. He can’t do it. He begged. He tried to bargain. But I had enough. I knew that I don’t have anymore interest towards him and that I was done. 

Mind you, he didn’t stop pursuing me after I ended it multiple times. He called me, messaged me over and over. Completely not respecting the decision I made. He was never brutal with his words but one thing was for sure, each time I talk to him, there’s always an answer. It’s as if he was only listening for the sake of listening but not understanding any words I say. Persistent and annoying, that’s what he was for days, weeks.. until I called him out. 

As I type this, he’s trying to befriend me. Trying to continue dying conversations just to talk to me casually. And honestly, I don’t think there’s anymore he can do for redemption. I don’t even think we can be friends. Sure, maybe 5 years. 10 years, we can be acquaintances but right now, a hard no. A hard pass.

There was no guilt.

I was having a hard time weighing what the right things were to make it work but when I made the decision to end it, I knew it was the right thing to do. No hold backs, no regrets. I knew it was a must. 

I may have no experience with relationships but I am grateful that it didn’t force me to settle with less. I didn’t feel the rush to make it work just so I can have my first relationship. I am grateful today because I saved myself from something toxic. 

Today I’m still dealing with this guy. But no matter how stressful it has been, I gained another lesson and understanding it better: We shouldn’t settle for less. We shouldn’t force ourselves to make it work just because the beginning sounds like a fairytale. All the flowery words and compliments a person can give doesn’t make the person worthy. 

Remember that everyone can compliment you but not everyone can make you feel good and safe - and that’s what’s important when looking for someone. 

Well.. that’s the end of my story! I hope you enjoyed reading and hope you learned a lesson from it. Watch out for more storytimes, hahaha!

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Thoughts from an irrelevant girl.. (Pewdiepie Racial slur issue)

Back here just to state an opinion of mine about this issue. Before anything else, I am not an important person. I have no powers or authority whatsoever. I am also just a fan, supporter and avid watcher of Felix’s content on youtube. Just to clarify things out, I just want to voice my thoughts and opinions with all honesty and I am in no way trying to be superior above anyone else, haha.

Alright, so for those of you who didn’t know about this issue, just recently Pewdiepie accidentally dropped the ‘n’ word in the heat of the moment while he’s playing with his friend, Brad, in one of his livestreams while playing PUBG (Player Unknown’s Battlegrounds). I was actually watching the stream when it happened and it was surprising, but guess what? He didn’t mean to offend anyone. Felix Kjellberg immediately apologized right after he said it, and I’m sure he got surprised that it slipped out of his mouth. He added: “I didn’t mean it in a bad way.” which people think that it’s also even more insulting. But I don’t think it is because I believe and agree with him. He didn’t mean his expression in a bad way, and he spurted it out whilst in the heat of the moment, out of frustration. I got surprised but I thought as well; “Well, that was surprising! haha lmao yeah, it’s fine, you didn’t mean it. Now go on, continue the game!” But I was sure that he’s starting to worry a little bit because you could see it while it was happening, and Brad was even joking about it. He told Felix that it would be a long day for him starting from that time, and here we are, people are taking that part of the video and taking it out of context. Now more people are calling him a racist. Even the writer and co-director of the game Firewatch wants to sue him which is a different issue I suppose? But I think it correlates with this whole “racism” act.

I am a huge fan of Pewdiepie and I think that Felix Kjellberg is genuinely a good person. I don’t know him personally, of course, and my reasoning for believing that he’s a good person isn’t justified. But I do believe that he’s not a racist. I understand what he meant when he said he didn’t mean to sound it in a bad way, and I think for him, he mainly just stated a word. Yes, that sounds confusing. But for him and for a person like me who got it, who believes that this shouldn’t be another issue directly pointed at him to put him down and end him- I think it was just another expression to blurt out. The way he said it was the same with how people use the words: fucktard, coward, shit, cunt, asshole etc. I know that there’s probably history about the ‘n‘-word but seriously.. he wasn’t trying to bring back the past and insult what happened before. That’s why, I feel bad that people are seeing yet again, another issue and use it to put him down. I don’t think he deserves this pool of hate. I think in reality, he’s not the only one who have used the word. Other people uses it voluntarily, and insultingly.. and this person didn’t even mean it. So why get all the hate?

Pewdiepie admitted in his latest video that he was wrong, and he apologized about his stupid act. The rest of his fans and supporters understands him. I understand him and I still support him, even more. And to those who say that people who are still supporting him are advocates of racism, that is not true. Felix is not a racist. And this whole issue should be done because he apologized, not even once but twice.

So yeah, I’m done. If you have thoughts on this let me know, I love to talk to fellow supporters and people who just love to watch videos on youtube. Ciao! :-)

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41917: FIRST DAY OF OJT TRAINING

Hey everyone! This is going to be just a super short post because I just want to tell y’all about our very first on-the-job training (this is the start of it!). Shout out to my friend who also wants me to make this so she gets updated with my ‘work’ life, lol: https://embracingself.tumblr.com. ;)

Anyway, so yeah, we got to the office at around 8:55 am- just in time because we planned to get there at 9 am sharp. Fast forward, we met the finance team and the acting supervisor because the one who was supposed to be our ‘main’ supervisor wasn’t there.

It wasn’t really a helpful orientation because the HR left us on the desk, unattended - but it wasn’t really a problem because we had fun making silly comments and all that. But then, when the acting supervisor said someone needed our help, that is where the real work started. 

They told us to get these papers and we’ll check the numbers if they are listed on the papers. It took us, no joke, almost 8 hours doing that task because the papers we had to check were starting from 2014 - 2016. Just one task and it took us 8 hours. Our back and butt hurts because of that. It wasn’t literally physically exhausting because we never ran a hundred mile but it was still exhausting because we sat down doing that same task until it was done.

So overall, the first day went well despite what I just said. It was far from our expectations so I’m personally glad that it happened that way- that all our worries seemed to vanish. I just hope it will get better and better until we accomplish 200 hours, and all our requirements both in school and at work! :-)

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HO BING : A KOREAN DESSERT PLACE || 040617

...okay, I’m just gonna make a short post since I have something fun and new to share. So, hurray! 

I updated you last time with what’s been happening in my life, and I did mention about our OJT or On-The-Job Training and yesterday we visited the main building to submit our requirements regarding our internship. Anyway, fast forward, we had a fun day! 

I found this place on the internet because I was looking for cheap korean-restaurants/cafe around Bonifacio Global City because - firstly, cafes are aesthetic af, lol. Secondly, I don’t want to waste our chance to eat at a nice place around BGC. So this place came up and it wasn’t really that bad. It was cheap and if you’re into korean stuffs, you’ll definitely love this place because they play korean songs inside the cafe. I personally find it funny that staffs greet you in korean as well, haha so it’s a place where you can practice your korean skills.. ;) 

Aaaand yeah, that’s the end of my post. Thanks for reading, and that’s all for now! :-) 

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MY NEIGHBOR TOTORO // 

Yeah, it’s actually my first time watching this movie.. and the reason why I finally watched it is because of Dan Howell, y’know.. the british youtuber. Anyway, I suddenly just remembered how he likes this movie so much? And I trust his judgment and I also have heard that this movie is great, so I gave it a chance and it didn’t fail me. Also, I was so shocked that it was already a 1988 movie.. Well, from that being said, this is a really great movie. Family-oriented, mellow story and it has cute art style too! 

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Alrighty, so since I haven’t posted for awhile once again, lol, what’s new.. I’m going to share my friends and I’s short trip real quick. Would you believe this is a project for our school? Yep. We were tasked to do or to visit a place we haven’t been before and we have to evaluate the place. This is our first time (me and my college buddies) to go out and have some fun together so we made sure to choose a place far from Manila, where we always hangout..

And ta-da, Cavite it is! This wasn’t our first choice by the way, our first choice was Batangas, specifically, Calatagan Batangas which is like... far end of the map, lol. Anyway, we met up early with my dad, and as usual he offered to drive us to the place. We stopped upon reaching the Aguinaldo Shrine which I swear to god, I’ve been there before I just don’t remember if it’s the time where I was learning how to drive and I was with my instructor..

So yeah, we sure had loads of fun. We stayed there for 1 night and 2 days, but we had to check out before 10 am the next day. I would love to be here again if someone would invite me. The pools are clean, friendly staffs and most of all, not a crowded place. That’s all for this post! (Heh, told you it’s going to be quick and short.)

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Which are you???

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S U P E R M O O N          11/14/16 

Heard of the supermoon, and decided to grab my camera and took a shot! //   using my 300mm lens- oh, and no, I’m not a professional photographer, hehe. 

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Hey guys, so.. I think it’s time for me to do a well-written post and since my friend and I went out of town to visit some places, I think this is the perfect time to do one because finally, I have something to talk about, ehe. So without further ado, let’s go. 

The reason why we planned this is because we’re honestly just bored, and I, personally think that I’ve been wasting my sembreak doing nothing at home. So when my friend got ideas and places that we should visit, we really went for it. We chose only 3 places out of the lists that she recommended. Note though, that we also made it a “budget-friendly trip” hence, why it’s only few. 

Here’s the first place we visited and this one’s tough to find to be honest if you ask me. This korean temple is located at Brgy. Pooc II, Silang Cavite. The tricycle we paid from the main road to here costs 80 pesos, which is actually pricey.. but it’s far from the main road so- yep, fair enough.

I find it beautiful the first time I saw it not only that but the ambiance it gives you is so relaxing and calming. It’s my first time to visit a Korean temple and I actually thought that we’d meet some koreans, or even see one but- nah, we we’re just the only ones there.

If you’re fan of KPOP or KDramas.. I’m definitely sure you’ll find this amazing too. This place really makes you feel that you’re not in the Philippines and that you’re in some sort of Koreanovela as well, hehe.

- annyeonghasaeyo! (with chingu ya xylene) 

After feeling like we’re a part of Koreanovela, the next place we went to is where we actually ate lunch. Trust me, we were quite tired and a bit hungry after visiting the korean temple because we walked for so long, trying to follow kuya guard’s directions but it turned out he was wrong, lol. Thank God for the two titas of Silang who helped us hahaha. 

Anyway, our next stop was Mahogany Market! Which is located at Tagaytay itself so we took a bus to get there. 

Too bad I didn’t get to save the picture of what we actually ate which was their famous Bulalo, and I actually forgot how much the bowl is. But what I can say is that they give you a big serve of hot Bulalo that can feed.. 4 people, I think? But even though it was just the two of us.. we managed to eat more than half the portion, so I think that’s good. 

And lastly, the third place we visited was SkyRanch! It’s famous for its ferriswheel which happens to be the tallest one in the Philippines, scary- a bit really hahaha. We were yelling and shouting when we reached the top.

Not only that Skyranch has the tallest ferriswheel in the Philippines but it also offers an amazing, breathtaking view. It just sucks that we can’t stay out for too long in the sun because it was scorching hot and you’ll probably fry yourself if you stand there too long, no joke. 

So after we took the ferriswheel ride, we finally bought some pasalubongs to bring back home. It’s such a shame that we needed to go home early because we don’t want to get stuck in traffic jam and my parents would actually.. kill me if I went home late haha. 

So, yeah. That’s the end of our short trip and also, this concludes my post!  I had a great time really because I felt proud, it’s so odd but it felt like an achievement.. and yep, I felt so adult-y taking the bus, commuting and going to places I’ve never been at. And also this is my first time to go out of town with only one friend because normally we’d go out as a group. Unfortunately, all of them weren’t available because of school. 

Anyway, I hope you had fun looking at all these photos and had fun reading my post, hehe. Wishing for more adventures like this with my friends and/or family, whoop! 

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RECENT WATCH:

Sausage Party (★★★★)

DISCLAIMER: THIS IS DEFINITELY NOT A KID’S MOVIE. LOL.

Well, I had to make it clear because even though this looks like a harmless animation movie for kids, well.. it is not. This movie’s definitely for adults who just wants to have a good laugh at stupid, dirty jokes.. which, honestly, I enjoy. No shame haha. But yeah, this movie’s packed with dirty, dirty jokes.. a lot of swearing, and loads of innuendos here and there. There’s nothing really bad to talk about this movie as long as you’re up for a good laugh and dirty jokes, oh and a mini-food orgy at the end, lol. 

Warcraft (★★★)

Okay, well, to start off- this might not be a fair judgment for this movie but I will do it anyway, lol. I’m not a fan of Warcraft, but I did get the chance to play this before and.. hm, it was okay. With that being said, I didn’t really get the chance to finish the movie.. not because the movie’s bad, but I didn’t get into it that much and I don’t plan on watching it again because I think I’ll just waste my time. But to be fair now, I think you might enjoy this movie if you have played this game for awhile and has background with all the characters.. so yeah.

Ghostbusters (★★★★★)

So at first, I didn’t really want to watch this movie because I wasn’t a fan of shows/movies with ghosts on it, heck- believe it or not I even cried when we watched “Casper: The friendly ghost” when I was a little kid and my teacher had to walk me out of the room to help me stop from crying.. embarassing. But I checked this movie out, finally, and I didn’t regret it! This movie is a lot of fun to watch and well, Chris Hemsworth’s character was really funny and new to me. He was so cute and added so much character into this movie. Definitely recommending this movie for a good laugh and some minor spooks! 

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#004: CONCUSSION 

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RECENT WATCH:

The Angry Birds Movie (★★★★★)

Okay, so, I gave this movie a high score- as in a perfect score because I think, I am still a kid at heart, and because of that, I find this movie really awesome and great. I will say that this is a bad-ass movie, it has cute characters, funny lines and great adventures. I don’t think that you’ll ever go wrong with a kid’s movie, so if you got free time and would like to just have fun, definitely check this out! You’ll also enjoy this movie if you were once addicted to the game because you’ll definitely appreciate the story more. 

The Jungle Book (★★★★)

Of course we all know the story of this little boy who lives in the jungle, and is known as Mowgli aka. the man-cub, haha. This movie is full of different species of animals, and adventures!  I didn’t get bored watching the movie because it was well made, all the graphics and all the animals were... amazing. Now as I’ve said, this movie shows a lot of animals so if you love seeing wolves, panther and bears, and other more- definitely watch this movie. And also if you are up for adventures, and hm, a little bit of drama I guess, then go watch this movie!

The Danish Girl (★★★★★)

Now this movie... at the first half, I got so confused. But later on, watching it and having to read more details about it (while watching), I finally got what the movie is all about. The actor in this movie is Eddie Redmayne and I loved him because of his passion fulfilling his role in the movie, “The Theory of Everything” as Stephen Hawking. Now that you know the main character here, I’m sure you’ll definitely check this movie out. What about this movie? This movie.. is wonderful, simply beautiful. You’ll see the hardships of being “different” especially way back before when people are not aware of different sexualities. I cringe a lot at the first half of the movie because I thought this movie was pure sexual and shows some weird fetishes but definitely I was wrong. It wasn’t truly heartbreaking and tearjerking movie for me. But nonetheless, it is a great movie and a great eye opener for people who still don’t have an idea of how hard it is to be confused of your identity and sexuality. 

Just Before I Go (HIGHLY RECOMMENDED: ★★★★★)

I definitely cried so much because of this movie. It has been sitting in my laptop for months, and for some reason, I didn’t really want to watch it because I thought it’s another romantic movie and I’m definitely not up for romantic movies most of the time. Totally regretting. This has got to be one of my favorite, FAVORITE movies ever and will always be in my top list. If you got problems in life, and cannot find the reason to live anymore- (trust me, I do get all those feelings and it is sometimes fucked up).. you got to watch this movie. I highly, highly recommend this movie because I think it helped me a lot to realize that.. everyone has their own problems and conflicts in life.. and really, it’s more than just “living” with it, and just blending with the problems.. it’s really about fighting and owning life. Just watch this movie, and I’m sure, you won’t ever regret it. 

Concussion (★★★★.5)

This movie is based on a true story that shows how a doctor named Dr. Bennet Omalu (played by Will Smith) discovered CTE that affected many football players. I am not really familiar with football, but I am aware of how rough it is just by the looks of it in the field. This movie shows how concussions have affected the brains of the players, and it’s not simply having a concussion, but it messed up their brains. Well, if you are interested in science- especially the neuroanatomy, and as well in football, you definitely have to check this movie out for information of how this study changes the game.