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Because ultimately, we are not the avatars we create. We’re not the pictures on the film stock. We are the light that shines through it. All else is just smoke and mirrors. Distracting, but not truly compelling. ➳Jim Carrey

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1st three photos: during grape fast 

Following photos: gnarly detoxing in the past

It’s always a longing of mine for a more conscious journey in search of healing. Detoxing and eliminating unnecessary substances from the body is really a constant life journey, and transitioning vegan helped me realize this even moreso. Like so many, my entire youth and development was based off a heavy grain and meat diet. Very acidic in nature and can systematically overwork the body. At age 25, I began to feel the effects of changing my diet to plant based almost immediately. I felt the psychological shifts as I removed the fear induced flesh from my digestion. But I really dived deeper when I made the decision to surgically remove my breast implants that same year. They were a time bomb of chemicals that sat a top some vital organs for nearly 5 years. Representing a time period of searching outside myself for fulfillment, I knew they had to go. After the surgery I was eager to aggressively cleanse and started a number of tactics to encourage this. But most of last year, I was questioning why I was getting sicker. I was having a hard time for sure as I thought I was doing something positive for myself. But didn’t realize that my body was going through the ‘healing crisis’ stage of detox. My skin was purging. I refrained from glancing in the mirror as I no longer felt myself present. I developed a skin condition that I could never get a definite diagnosis for from conventional western doctors. It was similar to eczema and not many people know this but dairy is a major perpetuator of this disease. I felt chronic fatigue and joint pain, brain fog, cystic growths, more than normal painful periods, inflammation, loss of feeling in my extremities. It was defeating, to say the least. The stirring up of the toxins being held for years caused by a combination of the implants, pharmaceutical drugs, acidic foods, and chemicals were released and swimming all throughout my body. My symptoms aren't just happening physically, but also psychologically. I experience major bouts of depression, difficulty communicating, strong emotions and loss of interest in my creative projects. And really just sometimes turning into a robot going through the motions was the easiest way to cope.  But I found joy in another endeavor in my life. Creating an eclectic tiny home in my van, @a.strayproject. I spent most of my time healing while working on my build out during my free time. It was my form of active meditation.

But it became evident that my kidneys were still under functioning and not cleansing my lymphatic system properly because I continued to experience toxins being eliminated from my skin. Daily life still exposes us to toxins, in the air we breath, the water we drink, the foods we consume. I still haven't felt quite back to normal and so I believe the universe handed me a gift of retreating even deeper within to research and experiment with a more holistic approach. I’m now currently on the longest fast I’ve ever done and have made it to 16 days consuming just grapes. The protocol I’m on is meant for 2 to 6 weeks of eating nothing but grapes. I’m at 2 weeks now and oddly enough, I have no desire to change the status quo. My hunger no longer desires food, but instead a deeper healing and detoxification. So given those feels I hope to make it to 6 weeks! It has been quite an interesting journey, but I am slowly seeing the physical effects as my skin has been clearer than it ever had. The bags under my eyes are slowly draining and I feel more refreshed than what I have felt in quite some time. As I’m still monitoring my health and so close to this experience on this fast, I can’t fully express what all is going on within. I hope to release not only more and more toxins but also as many surpassed emotions as possible. But I also intend to for sure keep track of everything in hopes that this may remain a good reminder for my future self, at the minimum. Above all else, I can’t begin to say how appreciative I am of all those that have been with me on this journey, whether it is my family and friends, or just a stranger passing by. XO's

I’ll attach a few links for those further questioning the grape fast and the powerful cleanse it provides:

Brandt, Johanna. The Grape Cure. Ehret Literature Publishing, 2012.

Morse, Robert. The Detox Miracle Sourcebook: Raw Foods and Herbs for Complete Cellular Regeneration. Hohm Press, 2004.

http://www.highvibrations.net/info_grape%20cure.html

https://www.youtube.com/user/robertmorsend

^ I also suggest watching Dr. Morse’s videos on youtube and doing your own research!! 

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ꜜ “truth waits for eyes unclouded by longing the longing for peace, the longing for people to be other than they are prevents you from seeing what is to see what is includes your longing for peace includes your wishing for people to be more kind to one another includes the actions of your own heart” Ram Dass

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Physical illness is a manifestation of Psychological illness

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Psychological illness is a manifestation of Spiritual illness 

I’ve reread this simple sentence over and over and the relevance applied outward keeps intriguing me. 

It has been approximately a year and a half since I chose to end what was unknowingly making me ill. So why not babble on about some of the things that I’ve learned in this blip of time... 

The exponential number of both girls&guys coming forward about their experiences in forums and private groups continues to shock me. Both in surgically removing and implanting. On the surface level this may seem all very trivial, and not anything to mind as it is now just so common. But just last week I watched a young girl vlog her implant journey in naive excitement all while I cringed in reflection of how it brought me to a time I too felt this way to drastically alter my body. But this self harming isn’t always surgical.

As a society, it always baffles me as to why things are the way it is. And that leads to my constant cyclone of questioning it altogether.

Our reality is ill. Physically, Psychological, & Spiritually. 

And it is no wonder why our youth make ill choices. But healing a damaged society is best done through healing ourselves. 

The point where I’m at now, is in no comparison to where I was in the past. I couldn’t understand why going vegan then shortly after removing my implants was making me more sick. For months on top of months I stayed away from as many social settings as possible. I didn’t want to show the physical ailments I endured during my initial detox phase, but all over my body; my face, chest, legs, arms - all of it was covered in a painful skin condition no conventional doctors could help with. Instead they wanted to pump me full of more pharmaceutical medicines to suppress what my body was trying to push out. A pool of toxic metals and chemicals. 

But I am no longer ashamed. The fading scars are just a start in transforming, but my explant was truly a cornerstone in propulsion toward the inner work of a cleaner body and spirit. It’s been a short trip, but I’ve learned / am learning so much. And the most important of it all is that we are own best healers. A big part of it starts through what we consume in all areas. It’s an ongoing process but I’ve learned to cut out so many things from toxic relationships to non-healing foods. Although it is not always easy, I’m so happy that my vegan diet has recently turned to nearly 80/20 raw foods and I’m actually really loving it. 

So to everyone that is going through a shadowed part, and I know that you all are… give yourself the loving patience needed in growing your awareness. Because it will most likely get darker before the light. Forgive fervently & Embrace these lessons.  

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Self Love through the Space of Introverted Isolation

I just wanted to preface by saying that learning self love is a never ending endeavor we will be traversing 'till the days of our enlightenment. It is not always easy, it is not always straightforward, but it IS a journey worth working toward every day. Engaging the authenticity we have within will unlock the healing very much needed not only for ourselves, but everything around us.

In most of my past I pondered as to why I preferred the company of myself over others. I felt it shameful and feared it a problem that needed curing and so transformed myself into a person I truly didn’t align with. But these days, I now use my introversion as a tool in the development of what was really missing: self love.

With an innate introverted personality, I deal with exploring the depths of existence through isolation. It can be an equally effortless way to the truth with self love, or toward the fear with self contempt.… Like I said, not always straightforward.

Using seclusion can allow large magnitudes of space. Leaping into understanding the process of love.  But any method can prove to be a double edged sword.  It can become difficult to differentiate the lines between needing space away from society, and needing society within space. Despite how introverted I am, having social connections is a natural requirement.. So whenever I ask the universe for the solace to work within my psyche, it can be given in overwhelming amounts at times. Here is when the perpetuation of fearful loneliness can easily begin to shadow the journey..

See, I see this as a reflection of the cosmic era we’re all still adjusting to. The recent Aquarian shift, the age of information.

Half of us will greet this restructuring with open arms while others will bear arms against any change to their status quo. Bringing out both the light and dark within our human family. Just know, it is ok to seek empowerment from a truer source rather than pursuing the ideals that were expected in the society many of us grew up in. Ideals rooted in the previous Piscean age. An age where identity and validation existed outside of oneself. An age where many truths were hidden in secrecy. It was in this era encompassing the past two thousand years where the theme was dominated by hierarchy and vertical power among the few. Whereas now, energy through knowledge is spreading horizontally to equalize. Now is a better time than any to accept oneself as a whole and find the truth within versus without.  

In recent years, the restructuring I’ve been getting used to revolves around the arc of detoxing.

Removing toxic implants resting atop my heart chakra that were causing a number of health ailments.

Removing the flesh of fearful, anxious, and abused animals from entering my body.

& most difficulty; removing a destructive partner where I invested my love, validation, & worthiness within him.

Though all of these experiences left me alone, struggling through melancholy they are all incredibly necessary to my dying process. The dying of a brainwashed ego.

Developing self love exists within many variances but the process that I’ve started to resonate more and more with is this; “Self"-Awareness leads to “Self"-Acceptance, which then leads toward “Self"-Love. If you take the word “self” out of the past equation, this allows the capacity of love we found within  to spread far and wide. Because ultimately, our inner work is meant to be a source of spreading light outward.

Again, it is not always easy. There will be times you’ll find yourself gasping for air in desperation on the bathroom floor. Tears will flow in amounts they never had before. And your way of life may feel absolutely meaningless. But it is also in these times of becoming aware that we see ourselves, wholly. We are giving our shadows the space it needs to breathe. Seeing our faults and flaws can make us want to turn back. I encourage you to keep going because shining light over the darkness we hide away will make it easier to accept and honor what we may think is shameful or ugly. It is with these necessary ingredients, that love can truly be authentic.

The reality of this current age of intelligent chaos, is that it is all just that, chaotic… but through this disarray is where grace can be found. As the Greeks believed, life began out of chaos. And this is something  within all of us. The capacity to find beauty behind the scars.

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She wore flowers in her hair and carried magic secrets in her eyes. She spoke to no one. She spent hours on the riverbank and had midnight swims.

— Arundhati Roy

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& still, the body is the most intriguing form to me. As I’ve studied anatomy to the core, the studies point toward the mechanical. There is always a reason. But, I want to believe there is something else igniting our aging, our growth, our healing & sickness. I want to live within the realm where there is no reason. Where life is an art, not a science. ☽

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We are not the afflictions, adversities, or the chemical imbalances we have. We hold so much more than our possessed flaws. But experiencing and being with the lows and the flows of this journey is something especially to embrace, & despite being thrown off track a bit stay thankful af ALWAYS.

To find balance there must be an imbalance. & I tend to forget this stigma behind being labeled sick or depressed. Which typically causes a first rate denial or avoidance as per social norm. Why is this? Is it for fear of abandonment or admitting some sort of self defeat? Of course it is easier to just not answer the question, "what's wrong?" Of course it is easier to get high on our preferred addictions. But then not only do we cheat others of the truth, more regrettably our own identity becomes piled with more fronts & layers. Adding to the work needing to be done in trudging toward the center. The only person abandoning you when entering these inflicted hells, is yourself. ☕︎ Be present, especially through the lows.

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maybe if @freethenipple was as prevalent a movement over 6 years ago, maybe if i lived in a nudist colony, maybe if greed didn’t run the medical & every other industry, maybe if i didn’t rely on past people or externals to supply my self adequacy... there are a lot of “maybe" scenarios i’ve pondered over the years. and none of them ground me in the present. 

❊ this healing process has brought an incredibly heavy amount of sensations, from disconnectedness to utter vulnerability. & with spring now here, this seasonal melancholy is finally shedding and I've been feeling pleasantly happy. Even with the disfigurement. It took me full circle to discover; I love everything about my body.

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Capitalism over Confidence.

So I am writing this piece in hopes that I can spread light on the issue with implant manufacturers that much of the medical community disregards.

Breast implants are one of the leading surgical procedures but no matter how many advertisements or doctors that say they are “safe”, they ARE NOT…

Breast augmentation is not as seamless as the common public thinks.

It is a completely barbaric procedure.

If you are considering going forward with this cosmetic “enhancement”, please…. Don’t.

If you have breast implants, you should seriously consider getting them removed.

Drastic, I know. But this, unlike your tits… is real.

Because this was an elective surgery, legally I must take complete responsibility for what I have gone through. And I do. But I also elect to advocate against it because I am lucky to have found truth through other girl’s personal stories. Not through the medical community.  The only thing I can hope for is to push real life messages to prevent hundreds of thousands of girls from falling victim to false advertisements in the medical field in the next generation.

Despite its wide use in many medical devices (silicone implants of ALL kinds, silicone encased pacemakers, mirena iud etc.,) silicone is toxic. It may be a slow poisoning for some but it is a chronic aggressor of the body’s natural immune system nonetheless. There is a reason why France is once again considering banning implants all together or why Venezuela, being a leading cosmetic country, is making liquid silicone biopolymer injections highly illegal 1. The presence of heavy metals in the production of silicone are beyond astounding:

•••SILICONE TOXICITY:

Instead of being told that silicone is an inert substance that does not react with body tissue, I wish I had been told the truth which is silicone is made up of heavy metals and over 40 known toxic chemicals.  Plastic surgeons don’t talk about the ingredients in silicone and that silicone will react with your body because nobody would buy implants if they knew the truth.   Here are some of the over 40 known toxic chemicals in silicone:

Methyl Ethyl Ketone, Cyclobexanone, Isopropyl Alcohol, Denatured Alcohol, Acetone, Urethane, Poly Vinyl Chloride, Lacquer Thinner, Ethyl Acetate, Epoxy Resin, Epoxy Hardener, Amine, Printing Ink, Toluene, Freon, Silica, Flux, Solder, Chlorplantinic Acid, Metal Cleaning Acid, Formaldehyde, Talcum Powder, Chlorplatinic Acid, Metal Cleaning Acid, Formaldehyde, Talcum Powder, Color Pigment Printers Ink, Oakite, Cyanoacyrylates, Ethylene Oxide, Carob Black, Xylene, Hexone, Benzene, Hexanone, Thixon-OSN-2, Rubber, Acid Stearic, Zinc Oxide, Naptha, Phenol, Methylene Chloride, Platinum Salts, Platinum, Tin and other heavy metals 5

If you wiki each of these above chemicals you will see that they are defined as as cytotoxic, neurotoxic, carcinogenic and harsh irritants to live tissues causing inflammation.  Can you believe that chemical companies making breast implants from these toxic chemicals could ever believe they should be implanted in humans and that plastic surgeons are promoting these toxic bags as safe?

The manufactures of breast implants do not disclose what is in the implants and the chemicals vary from batch to batch even for the same brand of implants.  The manufacturers and plastic surgeons also don’t tell you that implants sweat and bleed microscopically from the first day of implantation and that this process increases over time as the implant shells degrade in your body.   Most implant shells are very degraded and substantially leaking toxic silicone by six to eight years and many rupture even earlier.  Cohesive gel rupture too, we have seen many photos of cohesive gel breast implants ruptured within a few years.

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For months now, I have watched a facebook support group that started just last year grow exponentially. Women from all backgrounds are flooding in by the thousands, sharing their stories. I probably have seen more boobs than the average porn addict that is for sure. And each one of these member’s cases are all showing the same symptoms relating to silicone toxicity. Because breast implants affect most body systems, symptoms are widespread and can be related to toxicity, immune dysfunction/failure, autoimmune diseases, neurological symptoms, endocrine symptoms and metabolic symptoms.2 Symptoms can be found under: www.healingbreastimplantillness.com. Collectively - this has been termed BII, breast implant illness, which is an umbrella term for the long list of issues arising due to the presence of implants in the human body. Silicone is not like surgical steel in that it can be a wonderful host for mold growth. Which is a very common incident I’ve seen in the women who’ve explanted. Lyme disease is becoming increasingly prevalent in girls with implants as well. Fibromyalgia and lupus are becoming increasingly linked with implants. Yet still this is not taken seriously in the medical community…The majority of doctors are textbook kind of people, and this issue hasn’t made it to the textbooks, yet.

Again, implants are just not safe. “But what about saline kind?” many people ask….The answer is; silicone shells cover all types of implants. Despite how common this surgery is, in the grand scheme of things - it really is just not understood. The first breast implantation was performed just 54 years ago on a woman that is still alive. Which really translates to the fact that long term problems are just now widely surfacing. Including such cases of mold growth, autoimmune diseases, and BIA-ALCL lymphoma to say the least …Therefore almost all of us have just been guinea pigs in these surgical endeavors.

But after buying a little knowledge from the great American college system, in the scientific world I can for certain tell you: Research can only be performed with grant money. How do you get grant money? If you can persuade those giving the money that the investment is well worth the returning funds and that more than likely they can get their money back tenfold … In other words, it’s somewhat like a credit card corporation - and the interest is your life’s work. We live in a business driven society. Very rarely, is research done just “for the good of mankind.” There is no such thing as unconditional love… There is always a condition..

Even after a vulnerable time of mastectomies, breast implants have become a routine procedure. Mainly because society has already provided this image for our imaginations of what the feminine body should look like. Which is why, it may come as no surprise that breast augmentation has been the #1 cosmetic procedure for over a decade. But, you may not have realized exactly how popular the procedure has become. The growth rate has remained virtually recession proof over the past 20 years. 3

So there you have it… implants are a HUGE HUGE money making business.

Implants are an expensive long term commitment too. Well I mean not really, they’re actually relatively cheap for the initial surgery if you actually hustle and save. It’s the upkeep and additional “maintenance” surgeries that they fail to emphasize that becomes so expensive. Which is why many surgeons look at their patients more like returning customers. And how does business 101 go? Telling the buyer what they want to hear so they can land the deal. And I was most certainly told that mine would last my whole life with no need to worry. They don’t and two years later I had to undergo a second. Apparently, implants are meant to “last” 7 years6 - so that means, if I was implanted at 20 and plan to live a long healthy life of 100 years… I would have to undergo 11 more surgeries for “replacements.” But I am now down two and it’s only been 5.5 years.

Girls (and guys) are being sold an idea, not a reality. The idea is perfection. But the reality, is there is capitalism over confidence, or the lack thereof rather. It really is a genius money making plot. And supply must meet demand. But it’s interesting as to what has driven the demand behind this elective surgery? Perhaps that whole topic is meant for another article…

This is a documented case I came across a beautiful girl suffering with horrible symptoms of  rupture effects like pain and multiple miscarriages for 4 years without knowing; posted here is an extremely disturbing/invasive surgery of silicone being sucked out of her chest cavity resulting in muscle loss:

( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQnsGcLb7pI ) [[[Super graphic but real life]]] 7

Unfortunately, like with many other social injustices, this knowledge will not make mainstream because it will undermine a multi-billion dollar industry.. Which is why it is crucial for girls going through this to speak up against this. Many women do not even know that their health ailments can be attributed toward her implants or if they have even ruptured for that matter…

I didn’t know this and wouldn’t be going through explanting if it weren’t for social media leading me to the real life, relatable situations versus my many doctor appointments.

Personal Experience:

Many of you that know me, know that when I was 20, I went forward in surgically enhancing myself with breast implants, the #1 performed surgery “on the market.” With it being such a socially acceptable procedure, I, along with friends and family, thought it a surgery of no consequence. I mean, with a surgery being #1 for well over a decade, one could assume the medical community had it down. That is not the only reason affirming my decision to go forward, I spent countless hours researching through forums, medical documents, speaking with many girls I knew and consulted with 4 surgeons. I was well versed enough that the doctors said I could perform this myself. I know many of you are just going to think, damn girl, you’re stupid for getting them in the first place… trust me. I wake up and every day before I get dressed feel that thought to the very bone. But by no means, would I consider myself an ‘idiot,’ instead maybe perhaps ‘blinded…’ [Along with over 300,000 women just that year alone.] Reflecting back on pre surgery photos I realize I looked absolutely fine. It’s funny that not once, was I ever told by the 4 separate surgeons that I looked normal, or that I didn’t need a breast augmentation. But this is not their responsibility. They have to eat too, ya know?

‘Doctors are no gods, they are just body mechanics.’

And to be completely honest, I trust my car mechanic with my life moreso over any doctor.

Anyways, after implanting, it took me less than a year before I realized something was wrong. I just want to say, my scarring has occurred not because of the incompetence of the surgeon, but rather the fact that apparently my skin complexion and genetics just naturally scar poorly. Even going to one of the best surgeons, doesn’t make any difference. But as I was developing separate internal complications, I was convinced by the doctors that I needed a revision and therefore underwent a second operation.  This did nothing to help. I noticed my joints beginning to throb throughout my body, my knees and have joints have gone to shit, my hands and feet are beginning to lose dexterity and always cold. Sharp chronic pains started occurring inside my chest. I began to have unexplained, debilitating migraines. I began to become dehydrated with fatigue. My hair started coming out in handfuls. I began to develop serious brain fog, uninterested, and a feeling of always “out of it.” I  could go on with my symptoms but honestly, I didn’t know if these were related to my implants. I didn’t know what was going on but I just knew my body and I knew things were not right even after a revision. I had gone back multiple times after to try and figure out what was wrong with little luck. I was at the point where I just wanted them out, and this was 3 years ago. Again I was told that I hadn’t given myself enough time to heal and just wait but if interested I should try a third surgical revision with a newer, “more improved” implant on the market. It was explained that I would not be happy with myself if I just got them removed because I would look even more disfigured.  Distraught, I decided to just live with the current situation, thinking perhaps the pain would subside. I attempted laser scar therapy to feel less mutilated… My scars never disappeared, and the pain still remained. Time went on and I put this issue on the backburner. But I knew deep down I needed to address this because my personal symptoms have exacerbated along with the pain. So here we are 5 ½  years later, seriously addressing it.  It wasn’t until after my mom had a breast cancer scare that really kicked me in the ass to get back into trying to determine what was really wrong.  Lo and behold, the symptoms I began to research were SYNONYMOUS to the thousands of women searching for the same answers to similar questions at that time.  But not once has any medical “professional” tried to explain silicone toxicity and that maybe I should get my implants removed. Which is why I am so thankful for the girls who took it upon themselves to provide a little scientific truth behind the “toxic aquariums” inside of me in just recent years. I’m also thankful though for public figures coming forward on this issue and sharing their personal stories. And without social media, a lot of this information would not be out there.

Maybe it’s because we are now in the Aquarian age, who knows…

The Aquarian Age will be dominated by networks, and information. The key phrase for this age is “Be to be.” The key to the astrological sign Aquarius is “I know.” This is the age of information. Nothing is secret anymore. All information is available at your fingertips. Where the Piscean age was organized in a vertical, up and down structure of hierarchies, the Aquarian Age is organized in a horizontal network, opening the world up to true equality. 4

Okay sorry for veering left for a moment…

To be completely honest, there is only ONE reason why women get implants in the first place. And that is for confidence.

I stand here now more confident in myself than I have felt in all my life, but this NEVER came from my implants. The surgeries held me back more than helped. I was offered an opportunity to be initiated and learn the art of Reiki training at no cost by one of my close mentors. But due to needing corrective surgery at that time, I unfortunately could not go forward mentally, nor physically. Which in retrospect was for the best, because my energies were so out of whack that there would have been no way I could work with anyone else’s. Any rigorous involvement in activity dealing with upper body strength basically has been tossed out the window. Even sleeping is painful because I will wake up sore, every morning.  

Prior to surgery I was doing great in my academics, had wonderful friends and family, lived in a charming city with beauty everywhere. I especially had no physical health ailments. All the ingredients for a girl to be enthusiastic with this life. But despite surface levels, I actually was suffering, internally. I was extremely disconnected. Depression became a friend I knew too well for many years. Over analyzing and pinpointing why I psychologically was so vulnerable to make this decision was something I mulled over for years. What I boiled it down to: lack of self love. Which is probably why after getting the procedure I still felt increasingly empty inside. No matter how beautiful or how wonderful life is around you, it’s so very important to take the time to meditate in self reflection, to learn and embrace yourself.  But after determining my internal issues and addressing this head on, my personal journey of self acceptance and happiness has grown tremendously within from non-surgical measures. And I came to this realization unfortunately a little too late. But despite trying to heal by eating clean & getting into hours upon hours of yoga, meditations, and rewiring my brain toward positivity, I was still being attacked physically from the inside.  I couldn’t understand why feeling healthy was always an uphill battle. But now it’s obvious that getting a falsely advertised “safe” operation on top of depression is just not a good idea at all.

I’ll forever bear the markings of this procedure. However I am completely fine with accepting this, because it will be a constant reminder to never fall away from my internal voice and stick with the things that make me feel alive. I’d rather be truly healthy throughout than just ‘look ok’ on the surface.

Again, I am not putting blame on anyone but myself for my past decisions but rather saying, it is okay to forgive yourself.  If you are struggling to find certain answers, my advice to you; give yourself time, simplify, and instead look within. Ever wonder why we make ridiculous choices in our teens and early twenties? One reason is our brains aren’t fully developed until our prefrontal cortex is fully formed: this allows us to help assess risk, think ahead, evaluate ourselves, set goals, and regulate our emotions. This on average happens around the age 25. Which is why I find it quite fitting that for my 26th birthday, I am buying myself my health back <3

Be patient & kind to yourselves!

I’ve been long overdue to detox not only from the implants, but also the emotions that will go with this surgery in less than 7 hours. My last two operations took an extremely heavy toll on my mental and physical self so I’m extremely nervous. I do not know if I have a rupture, I do not know how much gel bleed has occurred. But I do know tomorrow I will be free from these toxic bags inside me. The pros shadow my fears by far.

[[Check out the following links as a stepping stone in your own personal research.]]

1 http://www.thelocal.fr/20150317/new-cancer-fears-in-france-over-breast-implants

2 www.healingbreastimplantillness.com

3 https://www.pacificheightsplasticsurgery.com/breast-implant-statistics/

4 https://www.3ho.org/3ho-lifestyle/aquarian-age/aquarian-shift-what-will-be-different

5 http://www.miljoestyrelsen.dk/udgiv/publications/2005/87-7614-756-8/pdf/87-7614-757-6.pdf

6 http://wisemindhealthybody.com/collective-evolution/breast-implants-the-ticking-time-bomb-in-millions-of-womens-bodies/

7 https://www.patreon.com/posts/why-i-removed-my-6747643

8 http://www.publichealthalert.org/breast-implant-illness.html