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The desire i have to be wanted is so strong it almost overwhelms me.

The need to be needed haunts me, suffocates me, wraps its fingers around my throat and squeezes.

It consumes me, eats me whole, dismantling me as if i were as insubstantial as dust.

I don’t know why i crave the desire of another person with such intensity i worry it will shatter my heart.

All i know is that i am lost in a current of longing.

Oh lord i fear what will become of me.

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Mitch McConnell next, like to charge reblog to cast

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This is so me when i

imagine ur living inside a tiny mushroom house... with a tiny chimney.... deep in the woods... no one knows u exist... u make soup in a tiny pot.....u are free

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I think that at the end of the day, all I want to be perceived. To be acknowledged. To have someone outside of myself say “I recognize that you are here.” Because sometimes it feels like I am simply moving through life and while I may interact with others, it’s all trivial. Our paths simply brush and then move on. And to have someone who looks at you and Sees you. Like actually perceives your being. Is something that we should never take for granted.

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There is so much to do and i am so sleepy. Have you ever considered the fact that i, a teenage girl, am simply so weary? Why must i continue to participate in this thing we all call “society” i was not made for such toil.

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It’s easiest to learn surrounded by beauty <3

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Autumn adventures :)

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Omg this is so me

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Love love love

Forest scavenging haul

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Hope you have a good day! 🎉🎉🎉

Thank you!!

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I know university is supposed to be hard and you’re supposed to meet new people and you’re on your own for the first time but guys I’m so lonely. I am so just terribly lonely. People keep telling me I’ll find my people eventually but it seems like eventually is never going to come and i don’t know what I’m doing wrong. I feel like that scene in little women where Jo is saying “i care more to be loved.”

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I dream of a quiet life. A quiet life, a peaceful life, a life of love. Maybe it’s a solitary life, maybe there is romance, but above all there is contentment. There are trees around me, and a little cottage where I can rest and I mean really rest in the full sense of the word. There is a kitten who curls up on my lap. There is a record player that gently croons to me. There are blankets that I have made. There is a garden outside that I tend to and I get to harvest each autumn. There is perhaps a little town where I can go to a farmer’s market. Perhaps I sell herbs from my garden. Perhaps I have a little bookstore in that town. I can breathe. I am safe. I am fulfilled. I am content.

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I hope I can make something so beautiful one day, I love the simplicity it’s the best form of magic :)

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some excerpts of my annotations whilst reading de Tocqueville. believe me, these are nowhere near what i had for ar*stotle