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Do you trust your instincts? I certainly trust my instincts because every time I have ignored them I have come to regret it!

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Ugh

Me I’m tired and my body hurts. I didn’t have to go in to work today because of the weather. I posted the assignment for my students to do their distance learning today and now I’m just lying here. I’m wondering how does one get beyond the regrets of the past? Those regrets that affect today? Im trying to make peace with myself but damn I was naive! I have heard that teenagers don’t have the…

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What is your favorite place to go in your city? I have been living in my city for 16 months now and I don’t have a favorite place as in a place I like to visit! I can say that WalMart is my favorite place as in the place I frequently visit! lol!

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What book are you reading right now? How to make sewing patterns by Donald H McCunn

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2:22

It’s crazy that I can’t seem to get a straight path out in front of me! I keep taking these crazy turns that are dead ends. Will I ever learn? I can’t really say, cause I’m not sure. I just hope that I get a few more things right before the window closes. So for now I’ll do what? I want to talk to a real professional person, and perhaps pick up some more coping skills. My iPad is set to suggest…

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My first high

I been thinking about you and I lately. I wish I could read your mind because I don’t know what you’re doing right now. I don’t believe my absence left a true void in your life as you stated. I don’t know how it could. I think we are so used to having each another operating in our lives that we don’t have the ability to see it any other way. We have a  history of real passion. An Intense sexual…

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Dust in the wind

Oh I see what you’re doing now  Had you figured from the beginning  and I somehow  Tried not to let the past have any say about now   It’s all looking good but It is said that what you see aint always what you get, but I digress  People are the same whether it’s  Here or There and everywhere   One is wanting another to walk along side  but discovers That they only joined in to get You…

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Coping unadvisedly

Is it better to cope when you’re sober or inebriated? I wonder sometimes because I’ve tried it many different ways. I was so broken from rejection that I drowned myself in liquid spirits until I heard an audible voice. This dark soothing voice offered relief in my darkest moment. “You know everyone who sleeps knows no pain. They lie in their graves in peace. No one is there in the cemetery most…

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Growth

May 30, 2023 I want to be your hero! I realize that at this point in both our lives you need your husband to be your hero! My job as your mother is to let my little birdies fly free and find and/ or become their own hero! Our relationship has outgrown this living situation. I’m too close to you. You don’t need me smothering you so I can’t do anything but leave your house. I want to be…

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Part 2 EXPECTATIONS & REVELATIONS

UPDATE  I now have an appointment to see a podiatrist on June 5! SMH! The story of my life ! My newest revelation is that the doctor will get to my fractured and painful foot when he can! Until then no one can help me with my pain. I can’t NOT walk! I’m not going to use a bedpan (don’t have one anyway) and I’m not wearing a diaper so I MUST walk on my fractured foot! If it gets worse then I’ll…

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May 23, 2023 Been doing a lot of thinking, and brushing it off lately… For the most part the brushing off has been about my foot. Walking around with a fracture now since before May 13 I know for sure, cause Cook got me on video! I was limping my way to the stage to receive my Kenti sash in the Black graduation! So, it’s been at least 10 since my foot started bothering me. Another revelation is…

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Going postal

It’s an April Tuesday morning and I turn on the television to see the headline “5 dead in bank shooting”. This incident reminds me of an old familiar phrase “Going postal”. Did they say that he live streamed the shit? Wow! What’s troubling is there are some who would find this entertaining! So why are the Tennessee 3 getting so much flak? SMH! It’s obvious that something must be done. Students…

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Hru

Checking in “How are you doing?” My professor asked the class and I thought she must not want an honest answer. People don’t want to share their struggles. For one reason or another we are not comfortable doing so. One reason is that we know that many of us just don’t want to hear it. Another is that we don’t want to seem like we can’t handle things. So the politically correct response is,…

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I am…

I am a breeze, rustling through the Autumn leaves. Crisp clean air that revitalizes the land. I am a ray of sunshine, blanketing the Earth with my …I am…

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Get it off your chest

What do you do when you need to get something off your chest? Speaking of that, you know that phrase, “Get something off your chest”? What is that all about? I mean it is definitely metaphorical but where did the metaphor come from? It’s a Saturday morning and I am en route to one of my closest friends, April’s house. We’re headed to a spa day! Yay!! I’m excited to be near something like a spa!…

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Today’s prayer

We all suffer heartbreak. We all live with the expectation of grace from others. It is a sure thing to have some expectations unsatisfied. Disappointment is a part of life. Humans are not always going to rise to the occasion. We let others down. We let ourselves down. We hurt others. Others hurt us. We suffer self harm in many forms. Some choose negative coping strategies like substance abuse for…