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Goodbye message from Miss Usagi

I can't think of anything anymore. I feel like I've given all the advice and wisdom I have to give, and like nothing more I do or say will help. It will just be repetitive. I keep getting messages and requests, and I appreciate them all, but I never know what to say anymore. I'm sorry. I'm just don't think I can keep doing this. Every time. I think of something, all I can think of is the criticism or potential backlash that could come with it, and then I become petrified. I'm glad this blog helped people, and I'm grateful for the mods, those who post and those who no longer do, for their contributions as well. I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough to keep going. I've been quietly fading away from everything I love. I just felt like I owed you guys an explanation from before I was really gone. You're all very strong. I know you will stay that way. -Miss Usagi

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Tw: death mention, Orlando mention, negative

I apologize for the silence and lack of pictures or anything. Since I started my job, my life has changed a lot. Some of it is good, but. My car broke down twice, the shooting happened, an acquaintance was killed in it, and I found out a friend of mine who had been trying to reach out was found dead of a drug overdose. She was my age. She came to my Pokemon and Harry Potter birthday parties when I was little and was one of my oldest friends. She loved Sailor Moon. I can't sleep anymore. I'm having a hard time finding positivity. I've been trying to think of something to say to you guys other than that I'm here, and even if things will never be the same, they will improve, but everything I can think of sounds wrong. Anyway I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. -Miss Usagi

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[Text: It's not your fault if a certain medication doesn't work out for you.] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - This post was inspired by my third attempt at finding a helpful antidepressant not working out as I wished it would. I hate moments like this. It makes me feel like a failure, like there's something wrong with me or like I'm not trying hard enough. But that isn't true. Brain medicine can be really weird and doesn't work for everyone. So I guess all I can do is process my emotions, then get back up and dust myself off, because the above caption is right. This truly is not my fault, and I will find the right medicine one day. I just need to keep hanging on and being patient with myself. That's all I wanted to say, and I hope this post helped someone else out as well.

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Dear Usagi, I feel in love with this blog the moment I saw it! For the past two weeks I've been going through a situation that is tough for me. Most of the time, I feel lost and alone. You and this blog remind me that there is someone out there to help me and I don't have to face this alone. Thank you for creating such a beautiful blog. You deserve the world.💖💖

Aww! I’m so sorry your situation has been rough, but I’m SO glad I’m of help! :)

You’re definitely not alone, and I’m proud of you for working through this!

Stay strong!

-Miss Usagi

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My first day at work went incredibly well, actually. I had fun. Everyone was nice to me. We made each other laugh.

It’s a company I love and can believe in. I’m very happy. They’re buying us all lunch every day this week and part of my job now is helping design their training program.

Thank you for wishing me luck! Knowing I had people rooting for me and people who would be there even if I failed was wonderful!

-Miss Usagi

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Because you are more than grades, Sailors!

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so i've graduated from college and i'm trying to get a job and generally adult, but applying for jobs is terrifying. and my parents telling me that there's nothing to be afraid of, just apply places, is really not helping. i really need to get a job. so could i have some encouragement to help me overcome this.

It’s hard to face this kind of situations,applying for jobs may seem terrifying but you have nothing to worry about, it’s just the point when you apply everything you have already learnt!!!! Take it easy, just let your interviewer see you are the perfect candidate for the job because indeed you are!

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Thank y'all for being so caring towards others ( o u o)b it usually brightens up my day to see y'all on my dash >.

Thanks to you for contacting us, it really inspires us to hear from you.

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!!! Miss Usagi, I'm so glad everything is working out for you!! you deserve it and so much more, and I'm so excited to see you doing well!!

Thank you! I’m very glad as well! Honestly, I can’t believe it. I hope it does..

-Miss Usagi

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Miss Usagi life update:

A couple weeks ago, a company called me to ask if I could come in for an interview for a technical writing position. I said yes, even though I was terrified. I’ve never worked full time, or had a job like that. (Plus, it’s a bit of a commute.)

Anyway, I was able to overcome my nervousness, and I felt pretty good about the interview. I just told myself to pretend like I was going to visit some friends I haven’t seen in awhile, a trick my dad taught me.

They called me a couple days after the interview and offered me a job. I accepted.

Monday, I start. I’ve had many a panic attack thinking about the first day. It’s for quite a bit of money, at least, more than I’ve ever made, and I like them. I really do. I want to do well.

My mom took me shopping for job clothes. I’m insecure about my looks, so I was worried, but she soothed me and told me, “Dress how you want. Show them your best, most comfortable self. I promise they’ll see the beauty in you, even if you don’t.”

She also took me for a new haircut, with the hairdresser I’ve been seeing since I was 12. She told me: “Everyone gets nervous when they do something new. I’m in my 60′s, and I still do. Just know that the people in charge will know how you feel, it’s healthy. You’re nervous because you care.”

I decided to tell my dad when I got the job offer, and he was incredibly discouraging, (”Are you sure they’ll like you? It probably won’t work out. Oh by the way your stepgrandfather died today. Just so you know.”) which hurt me a lot, but I’m going to be okay.

In the middle of all this, my wonderful partner also got a job.

I’m very nervous, but I think my life might actually be...working out?

A couple weeks ago, I was sobbing and thinking I wanted to die. Now, I’m blissful.

Your entire life can turn around so easily. Please remember that. I want you to be around to see it.

-Miss Usagi

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Life Update with Sailor Iron Mouse

So today has been quite the adventure for me. After school, I went ahead and drove myself to a psychiatrist’s office for an appointment. I’ve been doing research for weeks to prepare myself for the visit, but nothing really compares to experiencing a visit in person. Anyways, today was intake day. We did a quick rundown of my current life, childhood issues, and things like that. Surprisingly, the questions weren’t quite as intrusive as ones a therapist would ask, but then again those are two different departments. So after the appointment I got a prescription filled and now I am officially trying out an antidepressant.

It’s really interesting.. For years I’ve avoided seeing a psychiatrist because I was afraid of being rushed through an intake then thrown on pills, but today I faced the fear and everything was okay. The doctor seemed interested in what I had to say and even worked with me in terms of reaching a reasonable payment for our visits (because I’m about to lose my insurance due to job changes). I guess this just proves that it’s good to face fears every once in awhile, because who knows? You might end up seeing that things aren’t quite as scary as you once thought.

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I just finished this image of important life lessons from things I grew up with, I thought you'd like some of them.

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It’s not shameful to be taking medication.

Hey scouts, it’s Sailor Iron Mouse again. I’m sorry I haven’t been on very much at all, but life has been very busy for me. Anyways, something happened to me today and I felt that a motivation was in order.

Today, my therapist and I decided that it would be a good idea if I went to see a psychiatrist. At first when we decided this, I felt a lot of relief but a twinge of defeat as well. I thought that by choosing a psychiatrist, that meant that I wasn’t strong enough or that I was ‘officially crazy’. But you know what? As the day went on, my feelings of disappointment have been melting away, and though I still feel a little crummy and embarrassed about this, I realize that this is a really big step on my road to recovery. Today I made the decision to do what was right for me, despite my initial fears of the unknown. So it may take time to get used to, but in the end, I am proud of myself and my decision to heal.

And to any of our followers who may also be struggling with such feelings, know that you are 100% not alone and that there is absolutely no shame in taking medication. You are strong for making that decision every time to take your medicine, and you are rising above any stigma associated with taking medicine, which has gotta be one of the bravest things that a person can do. You guys inspire me to proceed with my decision to see a psychiatrist, so thank you and I hope you all have a wonderful day/night.

– Mod Sailor Iron Mouse

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Incredible illustrator @thelatestkate has never been afraid to talk about difficult topics; in the past, she’s shared her personal experiences with depression and leaving her religion, and her courage and candidness are always inspirational to us.

Today, she deals with another serious issue: how to cope if your parents are bullies. Bullying may seem like something that just happens in high school hallways, but it can happen at home, too—and if it’s happening to you, please know that the SparkLife community is always here for you, and that there are places you can turn to for help. 

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I got a shirt with pretty much everyone on it! I was so happy! -Miss Usagi

I’m in love with my shirt.

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of course you can beat this, you are so precious... and even if you can't right now it's okay, just don't doubt yourself, you've overcome many things before, even if you're still struggling with them... don't doubt that progress, you will be fine... hold on just a little bit, we're all rooting for you. you are the ideal person to run this blog precisely because you care enough to share your troubles with us... we are very proud of you, just hold on a little bit longer. you can do anything

I.......thank you...

-Miss Usagi

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I hope everyone on this blog has an amazing day you all seem amazing

Thank you! :) I hope they do too!

I’ve been very lucky to work with so many amazing people on here and to have so many amazing followers as well!

-Miss Usagi