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Nightfall

Folks, writing this damn near ended me. But I did it. 😭

CW: Character death, grieving a loved one, depression, allusions to suicidal ideation

“Darling?” Wyll reaches out, his grasp feeble, aimless. “I’m here, Schatzi,” I say, my voice low and rough, trying my best not to betray the tears lurking under the surface. “I have you.” Wyll takes a shallow breath. “You’re always… here.” “Of course I am. You’re mine.” I push down the slash of grief trying to tear me apart. Not yet. Can’t let go yet. I slip my arm under his neck, cuddle as close to him as I can, holding the hand that was reaching for me. For a while, I’ve had to be careful how I hold him, lest I make it difficult for him to breathe or accidentally fracture a bone. I don’t need to worry about that anymore. We can be as close as I want.

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Wyll: Fortune willing, as the seasons of life pass into winter and my hair goes to grey, you'll still be within my quivering arm's reach.

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in 2020 people were protesting with signs that said "432" . that was the number of Aboriginal deaths in custody since 1991. from 1991 to 2020, 432 Aboriginal people died in police custody.

today that number is 597.

from 432 in 30 years, to 165 in less than 5. thats fucking disgusting.

and of course nothing is being done about it. the police force has done an investigation into the police force and found that the police force did nothing wrong. wow!

i dont have a call to action. i dont have a way to fix this. im just pissed off.

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i dont want this post to be like one of those "if you arent talking about this then you're evil" moral ocd posts but. i gotta talk about this.

i only just today heard about Kumanjayi White, a 24 year old disabled Warlpiri man who was killed by northern territory police on May 27th. He was handcuffed and forced to the ground, face down, with an officers knee on his neck. He was walking around a grocery store, by himself. A worker at the grocery store described him, saying, "One look and you can tell he's got special needs".

A poor and disabled Aboriginal man was killed in the northern territory and i can't help but notice the similarities to George Floyd. Murdered in a public place, knee on the back of his neck. Only difference is i havent heard a word about this anywhere, in the news or otherwise, since it occured 2 and a half fucking weeks ago. where's the anger? i dont like making political posts, i hope this doesnt break containment its just. god its fucking pissing me off right now.

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Daily Wyll!

Wyll: I see the good in you, Karlach. I promise not to lose sight of it, even when the Hells burn hottest.

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Daily Wyll!

Wyll: Consider this: 'To Wyrmway 'neath prison's deepest level.' That must mean Wyrm's Rock prison - that's where we'll find the entrance to this 'Wyrmway'.

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Daily Wyll!

Ornate Mirror: ...if you could see an-ything in me, what w-ould it be?

1. I would see my father - his arms extended in forgiveness.

2. I'd see Mizora, cowering before me and begging my mercy.

3. I'd see droves of admirers, gathered to hail the Blade of Frontiers.

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Daily Wyll!

Wyll: A possibility that's kept me awake countless nights.

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Daily Wyll!

Wyll: He reckoned I'd follow in his footsteps - first as a Fist Marshal, then as a duke. Vanquish evil, maintain order, save the world.

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Daily Wyll!

Wyll: Kagha's a piece of work. Let's see if your wit surpasses your might.

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Daily Wyll!

(Trawling through my immense backlog of screencaps)

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Daily Wyll!

(damn, that *Daily* description is a little off 🤣)

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Daily Wyll

WyIl: Dammit all. I vowed to hunt vicious monsters, not join their ranks.

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Daily Wyll!

Wyll: Ravengard? He's here?

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Daily Wyll birthday - belated

OMG y'all.

A year ago I started posting my Daily Wyll screenshots on my new Tumblr blog.

A year and a bit now. Daily Wyll's birthday was on 25th May and I forgot about it.

Wyll: Take a moment, savour our victory. Long may the coastwinds carry our names.

In all seriousness, I started the Daily Wyll posts to add a bit of silliness and intrigue to the wyll tags here. Lines you only get in very specific scenarios, with specific Tavs, or crowd favourites.

And mostly, because I think we all need a bit more Wyll in our lives.

Give your Wyll an extra smooch for me today 💙

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Daily Wyll!

Wyll: But one day, the flames will be doused and Karlach's heart will be cured. I'm certain of it.

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(disclaimer that i haven’t actually play ea, my impression of it is only based on what i’ve read/seen online) but i actually don’t think ea wyll would have been a more compelling character. we frankly did not need another brash character, or one that’s treading the line of power hungry. wyll did not need to be darker or more morally gray to be more interesting.

it may be because i actually find his kindness to be the most compelling aspect about him. he is a man that’s been stripped of his home, of his name, of his appearance and he’s clinging to that kindness and goodness as the last aspects of himself. he wants people to see him as the blade, because wyll is a memory of a memory (his lines). good or kind doesn’t mean easy and we see first hand what kind of punishments he faces for choosing to do the right thing but he’ll do it to keep his soul with whatever he has left. the very same soul that’s been given to a devil.

and he’s not above violence quite the opposite. he approves of going after the duergars when he hears they murdered the myconoid’s children. he says they should bathe girish in his own blood. he has no mercy for vile individuals but he forgives like it’s breathing.

that’s not to say his writing wouldn’t have benefitted from care and attention that frankly was not given. or a few additional scenes that allow you see behind the high charisma, the memory of a memory that’s struggling to carry it all.

but i don’t know i think, that wyll how might’ve once been naive but he hasn’t been for many many years. who saw the injustice of the world and got angry at everyone (mortal and gods) who wouldn’t help. who chooses to be kind exactly because the world isn’t. who keeps that choice, the only agency he has with a bloodied grip, and that’s something no one could take from him. it is that conscious choice to act despite the terrible situation he found himself in at only 17, that is the beating heart of his character.

good and moral or honourable is not necessarily boring. you may personally not wish to engage with it or find yourself gravitating towards, but it doesn’t make it less compelling by default.

i think one of the lines in the beginning about how he doesn’t remember much of the battle, but he remember drying that boy’s tears, is the essence of all that above, and the kind of man wyll wishes to be (& actually is)

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Here's a thought that's been haunting me lately, so uhhh... I need to share.

What if vampires can smell problems with someone's blood.

What if all Astarion's comments about Wyll tasting sweet are because Wyll has type 1 diabetes.

How do they even treat that in Faerun.