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the sisyphus delusion. . . drop the boulder and shift realities.

sisyphus had one job. one brutal, mindless, soul-crunching job. roll the rock up the hill, watch it roll back down, repeat. camus, bless his french-algerian heart, tells us sisyphus is happy because he chooses to be. because he winks at the abyss and says, fine, let’s dance. because the struggle itself is a kind of victory.

alas, sisyphus is not free. he is a hamster in a particularly wheel, finding comfort in his own entrapment. and that is where he and the modern shifter shake hands. the great cosmic irony is that shifters, these darlings of self-willed escape, have turned themselves into their own myth. they are sisyphus reborn, but instead of a rock, they roll their mindset uphill, over and over again. every affirmation, every subliminal, every night spent whispering to the void. an endless exertion, a labour of self-convincing.

it’s not shifting. it’s straining. the difference between them and sisyphus is that at least he had the decency to stop pretending the rock wasn’t real.

shifting should be the rejection of struggle, not its rebranding. but somewhere along the way, it became another mountain, another test, another something-to-be-earned. people talk about shifting like it’s a boss battle, like they have to do enough reality checks, clear enough mental debris, align their subconscious like the planets in some great celestial waiting room. they believe in the rock. they believe in the climb. they are hypnotised by the effort.

but effort is resistance, and resistance is friction, and friction keeps things exactly where they are. loa already taught us this, what you fight, you feed. what you chase, you place ahead of you, always out of reach. shifting is not a process, it’s a decision. it is not a matter of if, it is a matter of when. and 'when' is only ever waiting on you.

so step aside. let the rock roll where it may. stop thinking of shifting as a mountain to scale and start thinking of it as a room you already own. there is no application form. no cosmic bureaucracy keeping you from your desires. no checklist, no gods, no gatekeepers. only you, making your own mythology out of something as simple as stepping through a door.

so, dear sisyphus-in-disguise, put down your affirmations, your desperate notes to the universe, your battle against the self. don’t just push the rock. drop it. and walk into the world that was already waiting for you.

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Demonstration of how to shut your brain up

Brain: hey so you can't actually shift realities

You: yes I can

Brain: no idiot you can't, that's just stupid

You: maybe you are just stupid because I already shifted

Brain: (side eye) no you didn't

You: yes I did

Brain: prove it

You: I'm in my dr right now

Brain: no you are no-

You: (slaps brain) yes I am, open your eyes

Brain: I can't open my eyes I don't have any

You: that the whole point, IM IN MY DRR. I already shifted

I shifted I shifted I shifted I shifted I shifted I shifted I shifted

Brain: OKAY OKAYY you are in your dr

You:I'm literally a master shifter I can do whatever I want because it so easy for me 🤭

Notice one consistent thing through the whole thing? Persistence. The only reason why your brain doesn't wanna believe you can shift is because you almost engraved it in by your own thoughts.

You don't need to be constantly fighting with your brain, but do hype yourself up. You are not some helpless and powerless loser who can't shift. Please give yourself some credit you shift everyday, every second.

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Fuck it why not

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

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Paris: would you still love me if I was a worm

Rory: of course I would. I'd even make you your own little worm cage and everything you need

....

Rory: Do you finally love me more than your cats?

Paris: OK LETS NOT GE CRAZY HERE OK!!! If this house was on fire I'm saving the cats first!

Rory: I figured that

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Update! Potentially non-sinister explanation for Luigi's fake ID

Luigi Mangione's loved ones mention that while Luigi was a missing person, they believed he changed his identity and moved away to get away from his family and start a new life. They "didn't believe he wanted to be found."

Former classmates and associates of Luigi Mangione at Gilman explain that, as children at the all boys school, Luigi and other kids in his circle had to wear suits that they had to keep unwrinkled, and were not allowed to behave like children, but as miniature adults. He appears to have hated both the mansions, and forced etiquette, of his family. Others described his upbringing as "overbearing" and that none of the people close to him were convinced anything bad had happened to him, but that he likely just cut all contact.

Is it possible Luigi was living under a new identity and had a fake ID. Then, when arrested with that fake ID, police blew it out of proportion into accusing him of being the CEO killer? Luigi could actually be a case of just a person with bushy eyebrows being in the wrong place at wrong time, who happened to have a fake ID for a completely different problem he was facing: avoiding his very wealthy family that was searching for him and that he no longer wanted contact with.

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Additionally: at his pretrial hearing in PA back in December, Luigi told the judge that police were missrepresenting the actual contents of his bag at the time of arrest, and vastly exaggerated the bag to sound like some kind of hitman kit. Luigi claried it's just a regular waterproof camping bag. He also clarifies he can't confirm if anything was planted on him, but that he knows police keep alleging he had things in his possession that he did not.

We will likely hear more about this in once his trial begins sometime late February, or later.

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If you are in any online spaces that discuss the morality of fiction or its censorship, please keep the following in mind:

CSAM refers to Child Sexual Abuse Material. This is a term that was created for use by US federal law enforcement. As such, it is important to remember that this is a term used specifically to describe illegal sexual content that is produced involving real children. the term CSAM was specifically constructed to highlight the trauma these victims experience because of this abuse, and therefore their humanity.

if you come across CSAM online, you should immediately report it to a tip line. Some websites that host their servers in the US are subject to US federal law even if the person who posted it does not currently reside in the US, so keep that in mind when reporting. again, this is involving CSAM - it is illegal sexual content involving real children.

CSEM refers to Child Sexual Exploitation Material. This is material that involves a real child in a sexualized situation, but either 1- the material itself is not illegal to possess, or 2- the material is not sexualized, but is included in a series or other content that does contain CSAM. Think along the lines or a parent with a few too many photos of their child in the bath. These images are not explicitly sexual, and are not illegal in and of themselves, but they can be used exploitatively.

If you come across CSEM online, it's still a good idea to send in a tip as well as alerting the website it was posted on. Even if the content itself isn't technically illegal, some websites do have strict rules regarding nudity and the sexualization of minors, which can help stop the spread of such materials and reduce the impact on the affected child.

CSAM and CSEM are words used to describe the assault, abuse, sexualization, and exploitation of real children. CSAM, specifically, is used as a way to identify and remove these materials.

CSAM and CSEM do not apply to fiction. They don't apply to any fictionalized or simulated child abuse or sexualized children. They only refer to real children.

Do not send in tips about fictionalized child abuse or sexualized children to tip lines meant to be used for CSAM.

Do not use the words CSAM and CSEM when discussing fictionalized child abuse or sexualized children. In a worst case scenario, it leads to people misusing tip lines due to a conflation of CSAM with fictionalized depictions.

In a more likely scenario, using CSAM to refer to fiction minimizes what CSAM was created to do - which was highlight the trauma experienced by survivors, and therefore draw attention to their humanity. By continuing to use these terms in situations that do not involve real people, it reduces that impact.

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I work for a private health insurance company in their Medicare advantage department. Here’s a fun fact:

We are not allowed to ever tell somebody to call 1-800-Medicare. We always tell them if they need to update their Medicare info, they need to contact their local social security office? Why? Two reasons: 1.) it’s true, if you need to make any updates to Medicare; eg name change, got accidentally termed, etc, social security actually handles all that. But 2.) Because it directly counts against us.

See, Medicare has this really stupid practice. If a Medicare member contacts 1-800-Medicare and gives their insurance company’s name, it automatically is a ding against them. The member could be praising us about how fantastic we were and it wouldn’t matter, if we are mentioned, we are penalized. And those penalties can affect our Star rating. That Star rating is important because that determines how much money Medicare pays us, and if we can even offer MA plans at all. If a plan has 5 stars, then people can enroll in that plan at any point in the year, Medicare will send potential members our way, and they pay us more. But if we get 3 stars, then Medicare starts sending out paperwork to all of our members telling them our plan sucks balls and they should consider finding new coverage. And if we get 1 star, Medicare revokes our right to sell Medicare Advantage products.

See, for profit insurance companies really only care about making money and one of the biggest money streams is what comes in from the federal government. So if enough people called 1-800-MEDICARE and complained about a certain health insurance company, the people could tank their star rating and actually lose them a massive revenue stream.

Let me be clear, it has to be the SPECIFIC subsidy, not just BlueCrossBlueShield, you need to pick the subsidiary, but, if you call about all of the subsidiaries BCBS owns, then you can knock out pretty much their entire MA market.

You know, food for thought.

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I have like two weeks to live I think. I know it sucks but this is my time to go. Thank God I will be free and I have no desire to fight... I'm ready to go into the light and be at peace. Leukemia has finally given me a way out of this pain and suffering. I no longer have to suffer anymore thank God. I'm really sick.. fuck

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just kind of throwing this at your wall, sorry in advance. saw the post about "kill all men" and got really upset

im a trans guy. my boyfriend is cis, and im the first guy hes dated before. (sees me fully as whatever i want to be, does not care about my gender expression and loves me for me. great guy). he doesnt have many friends from being asocial as a teenager, so most of his friends are my trans friends!

of course. like every trans group seems to fall prey to, theres always the "all [CIS] men are bad" conversation that comes up somehow. and i never really thought much of it, because in my head itd be "ah yeah all men Except My Boyfriend"

but he and i were talking after some drinks, and he made a point that really struck me. about how he doesn't like being The Exception to the point, that he's still a man and has no interest in being anything But a man. so when people say stuff like that, he gets uncomfortable; not because He IS The Problem (like everyone who gives the "if youre saying not all men, youre the men" argument) but because it makes him feel ostracized from everyone. and idk, it really struck me.

we say stuff like that way too often in an attempt to exclude certain groups of people; and i feel like we end up excluding people close to us by proxy.

thanks for listening

i really appreciate you for taking the time to send this. i've been meaning to talk about this and have been forgetting. the following is of course not directed at you, anon, it is directed at people who behave like this

you're not feminist, progressive, cool, pro-queer rights or funny for saying "kill all men". you are exposing that you are a violent and dangerous person for believing that people should be profiled and literally killed for their gender or PERCEIVED gender.

this doesn't make people like you more. it outs you as a danger. how do we know you won't turn that hatred toward women whenever you feel like changing the goalposts? i can't trust someone like that to not turn that hatred toward other genders, either. YOU are the dangerous person you are profiling men as. you can't use men as a scapegoat for everything. sometimes YOU are the violent person who needs help.

your boyfriend shouldn't have to feel like that. like people have never really cared about gay men but people just straight up gave up all pretenses that they do and i hate it. cis men are not inherently evil. cis men can still be queer. cis men can still be good people. your boyfriend shouldn't have to feel isolated because he's cis. that's profiling. he belongs. why do people assume that everyone with a partner who is a man hates them? not everyone is choosing to be in a relationship with someone they hate. i understand that some people will date someone no matter who just to have a partner so they're not lonely, but not everyone does this. some people genuinely love their boyfriends

i'm sorry you both have dealt with this. i hope things can improve because men don't deserve to feel like this. this is why toxic masculinity exists in the first place. we have to stop reinforcing that men are evil monsters. they won't stop believing that if we keep telling them that forever. stay safe. your boyfriend is not a bad person & deserves to have a wonderful life.

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Executive orders do not change the Constitution or laws passed in Congress.

Push back. Use your voice. Stay engaged.

DO NOT SUBMIT IN ADVANCE.

There are more of us than them.

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Actually crazy cuz the audacity of going into another countries social media and trying to force your Western norms on them is so fucking annoying fr!!!

in sorrow of tiktok going dark on sunday (if it still is), allow me to share this

i’m just. obsessed at the way they migrate to another country’s platform with wildly different ideals and then try to change the way THEY do things, instead of leaving the app. “GET OUTTTT” they were there first you colonizer /hj

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One day I wanna be rich enough that I can just like. Give away hundreds of thousands of dollars every year in like scholarships or grants or whatever. That when I see someone make a post like “hey can I get $50 for groceries” I can just donate $1000. Or tip my server their rent money. Like that’s the dream

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This is one of those things where the discourse is just completely broken. Both of these takes are shit and no one is concerned about the actual problem.

Republicans want to bring back incandescents because they just want to trigger the libs and have decided light bulbs are woke.

And the "LEDs are fine" crowd are throwing people with flicker sensitivities under the bus. And, no, you don't have to be "pretty far on the spectrum" to notice a difference. And even if you did... why in the world is this person so dismissive of the millions of autistic folks?

LEDs, for the most part, are superior to incandescent bulbs. Collectively they save people billions of dollars in energy costs and greatly reduce fossil fuel use. You have more options for color and brightness. You can control them with your phone. LEDs are fantastic.

Unfortunately there is a design flaw that makes LEDs hard to use for certain people. Due to AC power, most LEDs have a 60hz refresh rate. Meaning they turn off and on 60 times per second. With incandescents this didn't matter because the filament didn't have time to lose its glow between cycles.

Most people cannot see this flicker in LEDs. But there are millions of people who are sensitive to it and it can cause migraines and discomfort.

The solution is definitely not to go back to incandescents. There are flicker free LEDs and I think with some regulation we could make sure all LEDs are flicker free or at least make sure flicker free bulbs are easy to find and not priced at a premium.

Thankfully there is a group testing bulbs to find the ones that will most likely cause no discomfort. They call themselves the Flicker Alliance and their website has a pretty decent selection of tested and approved bulbs.

So if you feel like your LED bulbs might be causing you distress, that is a good resource to try. I think there is also something you can do to make sure the LED drivers are using DC power, but I haven't really looked into that.

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author’s notes today: hey guys so just a warning there isn’t 100% explicit verbal consent even though they’re both really into it so remember this is FICTION, also they don’t use a condom :((( but in real life safe sex is important!!! please be safe out there everyone

a/n back in the day: kept thinking about ____ stabbing knives through both of _____’s hands to pin him in place while they fucked so here you go lol =P

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I think a lot about how we as a culture have turned “forever” into the only acceptable definition of success.

Like… if you open a coffee shop and run it for a while and it makes you happy but then stuff gets too expensive and stressful and you want to do something else so you close it, it’s a “failed” business. If you write a book or two, then decide that you don’t actually want to keep doing that, you’re a “failed” writer. If you marry someone, and that marriage is good for a while, and then stops working and you get divorced, it’s a “failed” marriage.

The only acceptable “win condition” is “you keep doing that thing forever”. A friendship that lasts for a few years but then its time is done and you move on is considered less valuable or not a “real” friendship. A hobby that you do for a while and then are done with is a “phase” - or, alternatively, a “pity” that you don’t do that thing any more. A fandom is “dying” because people have had a lot of fun with it but are now moving on to other things.

I just think that something can be good, and also end, and that thing was still good. And it’s okay to be sad that it ended, too. But the idea that anything that ends is automatically less than this hypothetical eternal state of success… I don’t think that’s doing us any good at all.

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queer is a gender, sexuality, romantic orientation, political alignment, and mission statement, babey