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I had an interesting night last night

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Just finished up with my neurology appointment that my awesome cardiologist set me up with.

All I can say is what the fuck. I don’t know what I was expecting, but it definitely wasn’t that.

Really glad it was a one time visit because I never wanna see that neurologist again 

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l've been cleaning empty veterinary medicine vaccine vials, and turning them into tiny little trinket potions. They also come in keychain form. I can make almost any color.

They make great fidget toys and my entire team at work loves them.

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Just POTS things.

Adding the LMNT make your own to my morning smoothy so I can get to work with out feeling yuk.

Granted so far the beta blockers do seem to be helping, and that’s without the prescribed PT. That was a happy surprised. We had assumed I was going to feel awful on beta blockers as it would drop everything to low, but with my job, I think what I do helped train my blood vessels close to what PT would have.

I still plan to do the prescribed PT because it’s only going to help in the long run.

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The other day I was reading about how the colourpointing in Siamese cats is temperature based, with the darker fur being colder areas and paler being warmer. It was only a brief post so idk how accurate it is but it got me thinking because my cats are Tonkinese and one of them has a very pale spot in the middle of her forehead. She’s… not the brightest of beasts, so I like to think that little white spot is from all the heat generated by her singular brain cell working as hard as it possibly can to create one whole thought lmao

that's so special and beautiful

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Dude I really like this cardiologist.

So many good things just came from that appointment. I really like this guy.

And he signed my placard paper work. So now it’s up to the state on if they approve it or not. And he made it a life long one.

He’s got me some beta blockers that may or may not help.

If they don’t help; I need to do some PT to help my blood vessels work correctly, then once that’s done the beta blockers would help

And and he got me a SHIT ton of reading material, and is trying to get neurology to see me to see if there’s dysautonomia going on to or not

There’s a Dr who’s dedicated his life to pots patients, and apparently has a blog that has what he’s been doing and what’s been working for his patients.

So my Dr gave me that, and all the home PT I’ll need to get my blood vessels doing their jobs correctly.

So much reading.

Plus an echo, something that got over looked, it’s needed now since I have POTS and ehlers danlos hypermobility. Gotta make sure I don’t have a weak or leaky valve.

He had me do an EKG today too!

He was even talking about a patient who’s in her 60 who has it, and how she’s had it most of her life and how drs brushed her off and told her it’s in her head.

And how that’s not true. And it’s an invisible illness and it’s not in our heads. And we may look fine but really on the inside we are not, and that we need a team of drs who listen and understand. And he strives to be that Dr for his patients.

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Just vet med things.

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@dawnsiren no…sweetie no that’s not normal at all!

Try using the free version of this app for a few days, then take the data to your Dr and get them to do a NASA test.

Your poor heart.

Side note I was able to get into the cardiologist next week. 

Guess who has POTS officially on her chart today.

10 min of laying down, then a BP and heart rate taken. Heart rate was in the low 80s

Then I stood up and did the wall lean followed by BP and heart rate ever min for 10 min.

My heart rate skyrocketed. The nurse after the third one asked me if I wanted her to keep being told my heart rate. I told her no, cause I know exactly what range it’s gonna fall in, and that a heart rate of 132 is just another Tuesday for me 😂😂 the poor nurse was so shocked at what my heart rate did. She thanked me for coming in and being her guinea pig for this test as it’s not something she gets to do often and wants to learn more about it. She was also SHOCKED when I told her that 110-140 was my normal, and showed her what my heart rate does on just a nice walk around.

Since this test showed strogly of a positive POTS test it’s on my chart and my Dr. is sending email to the cardiologist for a referral to come in and get meds to help control it better. Cause oh boy is electrolyte at home not cutting it anymore.

It feels so damn good to finally have this on my chart, and to know it’s not all in my head. So so thankful I have a primary who listens.

In the end the highest my hear hit while doing the NASA 10 Minute Lean Test was 145

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Tell me you’re a potsie without telling me you’re a potsie. I’ll go first. This is my lunch for today (actual food is at work already in the freezer)

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Guess who has POTS officially on her chart today.

10 min of laying down, then a BP and heart rate taken. Heart rate was in the low 80s

Then I stood up and did the wall lean followed by BP and heart rate ever min for 10 min.

My heart rate skyrocketed. The nurse after the third one asked me if I wanted her to keep being told my heart rate. I told her no, cause I know exactly what range it’s gonna fall in, and that a heart rate of 132 is just another Tuesday for me 😂😂 the poor nurse was so shocked at what my heart rate did. She thanked me for coming in and being her guinea pig for this test as it’s not something she gets to do often and wants to learn more about it. She was also SHOCKED when I told her that 110-140 was my normal, and showed her what my heart rate does on just a nice walk around.

Since this test showed strogly of a positive POTS test it’s on my chart and my Dr. is sending email to the cardiologist for a referral to come in and get meds to help control it better. Cause oh boy is electrolyte at home not cutting it anymore.

It feels so damn good to finally have this on my chart, and to know it’s not all in my head. So so thankful I have a primary who listens.

In the end the highest my hear hit while doing the NASA 10 Minute Lean Test was 145

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You know what? I'm gonna say it.

I think Endeavor in My Hero Academia has the best redemption arc I've personally ever seen in media. Yes, better than Zuko. Yes, even though nobody ever forgives him. Yes, even though what he's done can never be made up for.

Why? Because he *knows* all this. And you know what? He takes on that infinite endeavor of doing better anyway. Because he doesn't WANT forgiveness, and he definitely doesn't need it. He recognizes exactly how much he fucked up his family and has no delusions of them ever forgiving him, or ever being happy with him there.

His stated dream by the end of the series is very specifically to make it so that his family can smile and be happy without him there. He's not doing this for anybody's approval, or forgiveness, or favor, he's not doing this expecting a single thing in return, he's doing it because it's the right thing to do. Because he became the villain and he hates who he saw in the mirror and the broken family *he* created.

He gave up his image, his dignity, his body, his career, all in an effort to atone for what he did to his entire family, and he's willing to keep giving more. But it will never be enough. And even though he knows that, he keeps going anyway.

He was a violent, abusive man who traumatized everyone around him and created one of the worst monsters Japan had ever seen in Dabi, his own son, who was immolated by Endeavor's own ambition. No matter how saintly he becomes, the harm he inflicted and scars he's created will never go away.

But he keeps trying to atone anyway.

His death wouldn't heal the scars any better than atonement, and he's offered up his death on multiple occasions only to keep surviving by the skin of his teeth, ultimately being saved by the very family he destroyed. But even though they save him, they still don't forgive him - and that's okay. He's okay with that.

Because redemption and atonement are *not* about forgiveness. That is a very Catholic view of life and morality, that without somebody else's approval, you can never be absolved, and you must suffer for eternity. But if you're only doing better in hopes of gaining something from someone else, are you *really* doing better?

It's the inherent selflessness of knowing it will never be enough but doing more anyway that makes his arc so beautiful and poignant to me. We, as the audience, are also not expected to ever forgive him. But he doesn't care. He's spent his entire life burning everyone around him, and he hates what he's become and what it's left in his wake, so he's going to do and be better and whatever little he can to fix it, or at the very least, never let it happen again.

And that, I think, is an incredibly powerful story.

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Shout out to my boss who I texted this am to tell her I tripped out my front door and screwed up my ankle and that I am staying home to stay off it. 🙃 so much for getting to do all the fun apts we had today. I was really excited about the ultrasounds we had scheduled.

She pulled the mom card and told me to elevate it, ice it and take anti-inflammatories every 6 hours.

Seriously. I’ve got some of the kindest and most understanding bosses in the vet field.

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A more concise post this time for my big etsy shop update! Already sent some orders out today, thank you everyone SO MUCH! Still a whole bunch of charms, stickers, and original paintings. ♥

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Sometimes, you’ve just got to squeeze the hamster until he has bilateral cheek pouch infections.

This is what happens when you have adult money and a store that’s a five min walk from the clinic you work at that has fidget and stress toys.

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I need to fix the label since it’s wearing off. I think this matches DOCP pretty closely. Sadly I don’t get my hands on this kind of vial often.

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btw… important PSA: cutting off the mold on the surface of food does nothing. you can only see the spores on the surface, but mold itself has spread and grown roots into the food. by the time you can actually *see* the spores, that piece of food is completely full of it. youre still eating mold. 

many of which are poisonous and have been shown to cause cancer. youre not even supposed to sniff it, because that can get spores into your lungs. like if you look up the health and safety guidelines for mold they barely stop short of telling you to put on a hazmat suit. 

like produce is okay as long as you cut around it at least an inch, but cooked foods? you gonna die. stop eating mold people