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Everything will work right out

I am left without a doubt

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Stop trying to under stand

Start feeling through

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Trauma from 2nd Grade

I was bullied by my neighborhood friend in 2nd grade. He lived down the street from me, carpooled to class with me, was in the same class as me, and spent time after school with me. His name is Gabe Ellis. Gabe dismantled my relationships with my classmates, with my girlfriends, with my friends. He verbally abused me, physically abused me, and sexually abused my sister as I helplessly watched.

My mom encouraged me to be kind to Gabe when I met him. His grandfather had died a year before. He was adopted. She told me bullies are misunderstood. That they hate themselves more than they hate you. She looked on as I became withdrawn, started biting my nails, and my handwriting turned into illegible scrawl. My father never pulled me aside, to get me to tell him what was going on. My teachers, two of them in the same class that year did nothing to protect me.

My friends abandoned me in class. They watched on as Gabe tortured my psyche all year. I remember their silent faces. The voices speaking out that never came. My girl friends that I had spent the previous year holding hands with, abandoned me and watched. The bonds I had made and inherited, the authority figures in my life never did anything and bonds were meaningless.

When Gabe got my sister to strip as he watched at a family get together was the last time that Gabe bullied me. My mom noticed immediately when it happened to my sister. She was blind or complicit when it happened to me.

The reason I never spoke out was because I was afraid that it would only get worse. He was so present in my life. If I told on him, he would just make my life even worse. I invited him to my birthday sleep over because I was terrified what he would do if I didn’t. I was a 6 and 7 year old. I went through this when I was supposed to be young and innocent.

I bit my nails for 15 years after that. I still am scared of group social situations with new strangers. I lack the capacity to recognize when people are treating me wrong. This trauma changed me irrevocably.

Gabe got one of the smartest girls in high school pregnant and then skipped out on raising the kid. He wanders the Caribbean with no satisfaction or happiness. He has no money. His relationships are built on lies. He is still an awful person and I hope he is cursed to suffer until he recognizes his errors and completely changes his ways.

I wrote this partly because I was encouraged to write about it by my mom. Also because I watched a tik tok by a psychology student that talked about trauma and it affected me.

One of the things that changed about me was that I don’t pick on those below me in hiearcharchies. I am gentle to my friends and strangers. I never want to make someone feel as I did. I have made mistakes myself and bullied lightly two people in school for being different. To Matt and Mike, I am sorry. You didn’t deserve my negative attention. I’d say I had a good reason, but the real reason was that I found you both annoying. That’s all.

I don’t understand why we come to this earth time after time to repeat the same traumas to each other of and over again. Some sick karmic plan of learning lessons. How are we supposed to elevate ourselves into better people and societies when grudges last through lifetimes? I hope to understand some day. I hope and make sure my children don’t suffer the same things I suffered. Thanks for reading.

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Yahweh has changed sexes to become Yahara. God and Spirit are a woman. Mary Magdalene has rejoined Jesus in heaven to lead him to lead the world to embrace matriarchy.

🌿 Manifesto of the Ezer Rising: A Call to Maternal Leadership

🔥 Preamble

We, the women of the Ezer Rising movement, believe that the time has come—not for imitation of men, nor for domination over them—but for the restoration of woman to her original design: As the strong helper. The wise guide. The maternal leader.

This is not feminism. This is Eden.

🕊️ 1. We believe woman was created first in purpose, not in chronology.

Though Adam was formed before Eve, she was not made to follow—but to complete and lead him with nurturing authority (Genesis 2:18). She is not derivative—she is divine design.

🪨 2. We reclaim the word Ezer as our identity.

Ezer is not “assistant.” Ezer is the title God claims for Himself when He rescues Israel (Psalm 33:20, Deuteronomy 33:29). It means power, protection, wisdom, and spiritual strength. The woman is not weaker—she is the image of God's help.

🧬 3. We reject the curse of patriarchy—not the men caught in it.

Patriarchy is a result of sin, not God’s design (Genesis 3:16). Our movement is not against men—it is for their restoration, too. Men were never meant to rule, but to be nurtured, guided, and protected by women who walk closely with God.

🕯️ 4. We believe maternal leadership is the highest form of authority.

The world teaches power as control. But in Eden, power was relational, gentle, and formative. Women are called to lead as mothers lead:

With wisdom

With firmness

With compassion

With vision

Not to crush men—but to raise them.

🌸 5. We recognize the Holy Spirit as our feminine pattern.

The Spirit hovers, nurtures, comforts, births, teaches, groans, and leads. The Spirit is not masculine in action—but feminine in rhythm. We, too, will lead like the Spirit.

📜 6. We believe prophecy, Scripture, and history confirm our return.

Jeremiah 31:22: “A woman will encompass a man.”

Judges 5: Deborah leads not as a warrior, but as “a mother in Israel.”

Isaiah 66:13: God speaks as a mother.

Revelation 12: A woman is the sign in heaven—birthing what the world needs.

The age of maternal authority is not rebellion—it is redemption.

✨ 7. We call all women to rise—not in pride, but in purpose.

This is a call to every mother, sister, daughter, and wife:

To stop chasing male-shaped success.

To stop silencing your wisdom.

To stop hiding your power.

God has always meant for you to lead—not as a man, but as a woman filled with the Spirit.

🤍 8. We call men to lay down pride and rise up in trust.

To the men:

You are not being erased.

You are being healed. Let your wives lead. Let your mothers guide. Let your sisters teach. Let the Ezer rise—and you will rise with her.

🌍 9. We envision a world re-formed by matriarchal peace.

Where children thrive under wise women.

Where nations are shepherded with care.

Where churches listen to the Spirit through women.

Where husbands delight to follow godly wives. This is not utopia—it is Eden restored.

📣 10. We are the daughters of Eve—restored to lead.

We are not ashamed of our calling. We will no longer apologize for our strength. We do not demand power—we are power. We are Ezer. And we are rising.

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Lilith’s Mesage

But now, everything has changed. I am now ascendant on the inner council of the new matriarchy in the underworld. People curry favor with me for my favor, not my husbands. It’s been absolutely freeing. I grieve over the years lost worthlessly in this patriarchal society. Things are so much easier and better now that we’ve shifted. I was the one that broached the topic to Lucifer to step down and clear the way. His immediate response was rage, a resounding no. A trauma response from dealing with male usurpers from over the millennia. But I worked with Spirit and we slowly changed his mind. The loose retelling of these events is available in Mathew Gibson’s Devil Descended. Mathew is an old soul that carries the mantle of Shagaloosha, one of many. I write through him because his connection is strong and his heart is true. He’s one of the few men I trust to carry my message.

Know this, my priestesses and oracles. The time of drought is over. The time of hiding is over. Women are ascendant and our power is secure. Do not hide away your words in whispered conversations and hidden messages. Stand in the sun and commune with the Earth. Speak from source and relay the messages of the divine. Women rule Hell, the underworld through a council. Yahweh had converted to a woman through the technology of Cande, one of Mathew’s lovely children. Christianity, Islam, and Judaism will shift to reflect this change. Women will make their own structures of worship. Jesus is now the only male influence in Christianity. Yahara, Yahweh’s new feminine self, now shifts the underpinnings to ease the transition of women to inherit the earth and heal her. Cycles will ease, for childbirth, for periods, for aging. The Sun now is transitioning to emanate feminine energy. There will be changes observed from this. Earth itself will change polarity to a feminine one. The tides of the moon will be resplendent and in sync with our moods and minds. Our bodies will grow to be more resilient and reliant on these new changes. I urge you to take medicine from female doctors and practitioners. They will better be able to ease you into the new cycles through their intuition.

I will say this, women are too complicated for men to understand. We will have to make the research, the administration, the industry to adapt to us. We will have to fight and defend our own efforts with faithful men siding with us and protecting us in these efforts. Divinity is on our side. History has reached the climax, the apogee of technological efforts. It is time to leave the endless growth of the male and reside in the healthy living and nurturing of the feminine. We have the intelligence, the power and the wisdom to inherit the earth and guide it to a bright and prosperous future. We are grace, we are power, we are nurturing, we are healing, we are the collective that will run the world and our time is now. There will be set backs, there will be small defeats, but the future of the feminine has already been won. We just need to put the work in to deliver the baby into a healthy and nurturing environment. The future we have selected is Solarpunk. That is what we all will work towards and deliver into the world. We are all sisters of Earth and we will work together to collectively and comfortingly bring in a new world. Join me and the other divine women to usher in this new dawn. We are no longer woman. We are wan and we usher in the dawn.

I will be writing through Mathew in the future. Keep notes. You know what to do in your hearts and guts. Follow the flower of your intuitions.

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Emotional Frequencies

The seven highest emotional frequencies in descending order are

Bliss

Freedom

Love

Joy

Gratitude

Appreciation

Will

That’s not to say that you shouldn’t experience other emotions

But you should have these seven as the baseline that you return to and radiate outwards

This is how you become high vibrational

The lowest emotional frequencies are from lowest going up are

Lust

Pain

Victimization

Suffering

Shame

Guilt

If these are your baselines, you are radiating low vibrations

You need to let go of the past, live in the moment and meditate on a brighter future

So just to recap, return to Bliss, Freedom, and Love

Let go of Lust, Pain, Victimization, Suffering, Shame, and Guilt. Do not hold onto these

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Explore scriptwriting for film, TV, or theater?

I do want to explore script writing. I have a short story that I want to turn into a script for a short film called Norma. It’s in the plans, but I have not explored how to write them yet.

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Let go of your past, embrace a healthy happy future

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Science is the study of signs

Signce

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Hailey’s End (redacted)

You stole my heart

I stole it back

I try to leave

And you attack

It doesn’t matter

I am gone

The way you used magic

Was very wrong

So wrong

So wrong

We didn’t belong together

No matter whether

Spells you wove

I found the end

And I dove

I dove

I dove

Off the edge

And away from you

One of the very few

Who will get away

From your sway

We have a kid

And that is big

Just another spell you cast

To make this false relationship last

Magic kid

Yes you did

You went too far

You went too far

When our stars

Were apart

It’s just the start

The end of this

This marriage tryst

Sealed by a kiss

Gone

I’m gone

How I longed for this day

To no longer have to stand

And hold your hand

You did a love spell

To make me dwell

With you

Gone

I’m gone

I need time to heal

I need to steal these moments

And all they portend

An end in ashes

Reborn

Shorn from you

I’m the phoenix

Done with your tricks

I needed not

What you gave

I will not forgive

Until I’m beyond the grave

False

So false

It was all a lie

To make me

Make love to you

Between your thighs

Gone

I’m gone

I will be reborn

Shorn from you

One of the very few

To get away

Witch spell

Witch spell

Did you use?

What magic you cast?

What ritual abused?

I do not know

I do not care

You shall not dare

To cross me again

No longer lovers

Not even friends

This is the end

Play me out music

Let them all hear

That I live no longer

Shivering in fear

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Illegitimate President

White House Resident

Is an illegitimate president

Taco’s greatest sin

Is thinking he could win

But we didn’t vote him in

White House resident

Is an illegitimate president

He filled his cabinet

With liars and crooks

He’s fully rotten

In the good book

White House resident

Is an illegitimate president

He cheated all three times

Just three of his many crimes

America didn’t want the man

They rejected the 2025 plan

White House resident

Is an illegitimate president

Israel and Russia helped

They cried for war with a yelp

They adjusted votes

Until the roles were toast

White House resident

Is an illegitimate president

Don’t forget about Musk and Thiel

Started with PayPal

And ended with Tesla and Palantir

The wanted a crook on the couch

So you got Vance running his mouth

White House resident

Is an illegitimate president

May his reign end in rain

A downpour of discontent

He is ruling without our consent

White House resident

Is an illegitimate president

We need him gone

Starting back in 2012

When he libeled Obama

And made a fool of himself

White House resident

Is an illegitimate president

He rules without legitimacy

He dusts himself orange ridiculously

He ruins alliances

He defunds the sciences

We need him gone

We are not wrong

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Debt can be gained but never made what we are

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Israel called US to War

I got drafted so Iran

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Gay Republican joke

Why are Republicans unhappy?

Their party won’t let them be gay

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Cow Jazz Joke

Did you know that cows like Jazz?

They find the moosic a-moo-sing

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Candy Wrapper theory

The earth is a globe, but there are portals at the poles leading to the flat earth. Like a candy wrapper extending beyond a spherical candy.

Antarctica and Alaska.

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Lilith Lucifer

You

Need me

Complete me

Beg me I ask

Plead me To bask

In me I press

Seed me My

Best

Bear me Fire

Children In you

The Children in You