prettyfukinalone

[prettyfukinalone]

I had a dream about you.. I thought I went to hell.

[prettyfukinalone]

I’ve sat in my pain for decades and I’ve realized that staying here isn’t my justice, happiness is.

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I hope it leaves a bitter taste in your mouth watching me smile.

[prettyfukinalone]

I hope you felt like an idiot when you realized that you failed. When you realized you were only convincing yourself you were okay but the truth hurts doesn’t it? To think that nobody would ever let you down the way you did yourself. That you ruined something good because you are nothing but rotten, decomposing, worthless garbage.

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If the shoe fits, wear it.

[prettyfukinalone]

This entire blog I’ve created is a reminder to never

love someone like you again

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You didn’t deserve it

[prettyfukinalone]

I got to experience something pretty special

I can’t tell you when it happened or where

But I blinked and realized that I don’t miss you anymore

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What a beautiful thing to be free from you

[prettyfukinalone]

“It’s okay! Tomorrow’s a new day!”

But I’m tired ..

[prettyfukinalone]

And the lies fell off her lips like honey

How could something bitter taste so sweet..

- Manipulation

[prettyfukinalone]

The death of who I used to be

Every turn I take reveals the same

A flickering light that disappears

When I’m gone ignite the flame

Remember me happy before the tears

Beyond the skies

The trumpets sing

A glimmer leaves my eyes

Consumed by pain

I’m finally free

Just on the other side

This world has broken me

Now I leave it all behind

Voices scream beneath the sea

As I regain my peace of mind

My future was my past

I lived in the pain

Let me go, I’m free at last

And soon we’ll meet again

[prettyfukinalone]

7 years of SA

I think I hate you.

I know that’s a strong thing to say

but how did you stomach watching my soul fade away

not a care in the world, not one tear was caught from my eyes

I think you all knew the entire time

because how could you not see that your little girl was crying in pain

a broken heart, a twisted mind and a heart full of blame

eyes glued to the door until in sleep I’d fade

I trusted you all to save me but not a soul came

did you hear him unlock my door

and enter with no shame

because of you I’ll never be the same

I think I hate you.

[prettyfukinalone]

“I love you more”

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I loved you most..

[prettyfukinalone]

Months went by.. it was August

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But I’m still holding onto June

[prettyfukinalone]

I can’t die. I can’t live. I don’t know where to go.

[prettyfukinalone]

So I can't give you half, I'm all in.

I don't release, I resist.

My hands are bleeding raw and

I can't loosen up my grip.

But it's not hard holding on when

I never learned how to quit.

So all that I've loved and lost has

Claw marks running deep through it.

Clawmarks by Britton

[prettyfukinalone]

You made your mark

Without lifting a finger

I wish all of you had left me

But your presence still lingers

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I can’t do this anymore. Please just make it stop.

[prettyfukinalone]

I cried myself to sleep last night

Is this really what I’ve become?

[prettyfukinalone]

I tried to love you back to life but you hated me to death

[prettyfukinalone]

When I lose someone

I usually tend to torture myself

by listening to the same songs on repeat

but not this time

this time all I can take is your silence..