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⚠️CONTAINS MAJOR LAST OF PART 2 AND POTENTIALLY PART ONE SPOILERS⚠️

Emma, your not allowed to read this post because you have not played the games all the way through, I know you are looking at this post

Okay so, I fucking ADORE the last of us, I've been hyperfixating on this shit since late 2018 or early 2019, and the games are absolutely well done and I am in love with the show. Now, since season 2 of the last of us will be of the second game there are so many scenes that I expect to be done well or if they change it for it to be at least interesting and catch my attention. Now what I'm most curious about is what they will do for Joel's death scene, and how will it be played out? Because I have quite the feeling it won't be done the same way as it was in the game which is honestly fine, I just hope it will be done well. I also hope they do the dance scene well.

Anyhow, thanks for coming to my autistic ramble

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People ask me what it's like living with my disorders and the only way I can describe it is madhouse and fuxking mental asylum but thoes really fucked up ones

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I love how my mental health has gotten to the point where I feel like I'm insane.

"Hey V how are you today?"

"They won't get out of my head"

"Who?"

"The voices"

"The voices?"

"The voices."

"As in the people in your head, because you're a system?"

"No, the voices, different voices"

"Uhhhhhh okay"

(I do experience this quite a lot I just put in comedy to help me feel better)

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What do I want from you? Everything. I desire every aspect of you, every facet of the gem that you are. I want to know you intimately, your silliest daydreams to your darkest desires. I want all of you.

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as a child, i had this really interesting way of dealing with executive dysfunction:

when i needed to do something but did not get the impulse to actually start, i counted to 20.

and at 20, i did the thing.

i started this in order to get me out of bed in the morning, and after a few weeks it was a reliable source of starting impulses. every time i hit 20, i got started. 

somewhere along the way i stopped doing it, because it was weird and nobody else needed to count in order to do stuff.

it makes me wonder, how many brilliant coping skills do we loose or never develop because we live in a neurotypical world and nobody teaches us these things? because we think they’re weird, because we don’t have words for what we’re doing, because they seem to have no place in this world?

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can we shed some light on the amnesia in DID that literally doesn't matter? the amnesia that isn't about anything important or anything it's just really fucking annoying to forget! examples:

"oh that reminds me of my favorite movie! ...which now, i conveniently cannot remember the name to"

[introducing yourself to someone] "oh shit what are my hobbies? what do i like to do?? fuck i can't remember!!"

"oh my god im literally obsessed with this thing!! its always on my mind... AND I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT IT'S CALLED RN!!!!"

like it's the type of amnesia that doesn't necessarily negatively impact every daily life but you know it's really fucking bothersome to not be able to remember! i literally forgot that i liked movies, or the fact that i liked movies so much i went to film school I FORGOT I WENT TO FILM SCHOOL???

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I love that thing when people get a little bit tongue-tied and garble what they’re trying to say so they make a little “blegh” 👅 noise and start over. verbal reset button. hitting the top of the tv to unscramble the signal

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Sappy post incoming

Sometimes I have to remind myself That when you fall so deeply for someone not every moment that you have in the relationship is going to be happy and joyous. Sometimes there will be sad and sappy moments between one or both partners, sometimes there will be anger and small fights, and sometimes it means saving the other's life and staying up all night on a call to make sure their doing okay. But what I do know is that when you are in love with someone it's real. And what I do know is no matter what I will always sit and save another person's life, because that is what matters to us most. I would catch every star, search every milkyway, and swim through the deepest of oceans to make sure I save another person's life, and I mean that, because that's what part of loving someone is to me. But it's not only that, it's also the little check ins and notes. It's making breakfast in the morning or simply helping put together an outfit or just having a simple conversation about eachothers interests. To me it's also putting in the work for the care that they need aswell as healing their inner child. That's some of what love means to me, falling in love to be exact, and everyday I fall more in love giving more of a reason to stay. And there are so many other reasons why I love as hard as I do and so many other reasons of what falling in love means to me.

"Don't let this darkness fool you, all lights turned off can be turned on"

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⚠️SLIGHT "orange is the new black" SPOILERS❗️❗️❗️⚠️

I feel like if I was put in the same prison with my ex girlfriend I too would probably go a bit insane, but I feel as though what would make me LOOK more insane is the fact that I find a chicken in the yard and chase it down for people to not see the chicken because it's on the other side of the fucking fence, I feel like people would just view me as a psycho

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Bigman

I beg pardon?

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So I never thought I would have to write fanfiction about Alexander Hamilton for school but here we are

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KENDRICKS PROFORMANCE. KENDRICKS. PROFORMANCE.

1. When he went silent for the word pedophile he looked at trump which caused Trump to leave the stadium

2. One of his people came on stage and waved a palestine and Sudan flag and ran across the field well being chased by security

3. The people wearing red white and blue formed the us flag and then moved around at the end to turn into the trans flag

4. He talked abt how the superbowl is rigged

5. When booking him the NFL asked why there weren't any white ppl on stage and his manager said "I thought we didn't do DEI hires anymore"

6. He brought up SERENA WILLIAMS. Her blackness has been fucking dogged on and she crip walked.

+TONS more stuff. He knows he's not fucking coming back and he doesn't want to.

FUCK FOOTBALL. FUCK THE NFL. ART WILL ALWAYS SHOW THE HEART OF THE PEOPLE.

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“did you bring protection?” “don’t worry babe” *pours salt in a circle around bed*

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“Headmates need to be miserable all the time 24/7!!!” actually headmates need delicious homemade Mac-n-cheese

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I feel like BDSM was made because a bunch of neurodivergent people got together and agreed that vanilla sex is boring and so they were like "okay guys so since we all agree that vanilla sex is boring what if we like...hear me out here. Tie one of us from ropes hanging from the ceiling and rail eachother?!?! OH OH EVEN BETTERR while we are BLINDFOLDED uh huh uh huh and let's make silly machine gadgets that do things for uss!!" I feel like that's how that conversation went, so typically the council but the council of bdsm

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Hello.

We have noticed that quite a few people have been reblogging or otherwise interacting with our userbox posts that also interact with Pro Endo posts.

“Why is this important?”

As per our blogs name, our userboxes do not support Endogenic, or otherwise Non Traumagenic “systems”.

“But Endos aren’t hurting anyone.”

The owner of this blog, Hope, and even our own system have been personally hurt by the actions of Endogenic “systems” and their supporters. To prevent any further harm being done by these individuals, we wish that Endos, and their supporters do not interact with our blog in any way, shape, or form.

“You’re being an ableist by excluding Endos from your blog.”

I’d like to point out that to be ableist is to discriminate those with a disability. Endogenic “systems” and Non Traumagenics claim to be a system despite the fact that trauma is needed to develop a CDD. Those that claim to be non disordered are exempt from ableism because ableism is discrimination to those who are disabled. Non disordered “systems” claim their plurality is non disordered, therefore, their plurality is non disabling, and ableism cannot apply that way.

“Stop being a sysmed”

You cannot medicalise something that was already medical to begin with. Also stop using the term as it has origins related to “transmed” which is a term that is actually applicable to the medical system. Transmeds claim you need dysphoria to be Transgender. This has been proven false. “Sysmeds” claim that you need trauma to be a system. This HASN’T been disproven because unlike being Transgender. Being a system is inherently disordered.

Endogenic and Non disordered “systems” never have, and never will be valid or welcomed here.

If you interact or support these people. Get off of our blog

Thank you for reading

(Mod Victor 🌙🩸)