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Thank you to Nancy Mitford for giving me the phrase “the usual male reaction of guilty annoyance”

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the bridgerton series promoting diversity, the female gaze, feminism and the importance of (historical) romance nowadays and getting five stars reviews by numerous popular media as it should be— the victory

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everytime yeom mijeong does her little heartwrenching monologues about how she feels fundamentally disconnected from society and how nothing brings her joy and how existence is a burden. i feel a little too seen i feel a little too peeled like a fruit

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in so many ways, my liberation notes is the anti-ghibli-movie. both mln and ghibli locate themes of collectivism, identity and family within countryside landscapes, and while ghibli infuses a sense of optimism and community-building into these landscapes, mln explores its desolation and loneliness. everytime theyre in sanpo, theres this stifling of identity, originality, creativity. there is a sense of stagnancy. mijeong and gu find comfort in each other to attempt to drown out this sense of stagnancy, but even that comfort is fleeting.

summer, which often symbolises a season of growth, joy, vibrance in the ghibli universe (and in the larger context of korean media), is associated with a deep-rooted weariness in mln. it symbolises back-breaking labour. it symbolises suffocation and disillusionment. it symbolises loneliness and alienation.

the show's subversions are just so goddamned beautiful and so goddamned heartwrenching.

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"Coughlan, Newton, and new showrunner Brownell have a group chat filled with musical options for Penelope and Colin. Newton’s frontrunner is “Yellow” by Coldplay — “Because of Penelope’s dresses,” he explains. Choosing songs based on the object of your desire’s wardrobe? Someone is ready to be a romantic hero. " - Netflix

Oh my god Luke Newton really is our hero I can't even. What did we do to deserve them????!

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THE HATING GAME lucy hutton & outfits part two of two (part one)

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wardrobe appreciation » Lucy Hutton ☆ The Hating Game (2021)

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like yes things suck but at least ur not 15 again

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Upon my second watch of Bridgerton season 2, I've come to the realization that everything Colin does after the scene where Colin and pen talk at Anthony's wedding and he realizes pen has big aspirations and wants a purpose and that pen likes him, he does because he likes her.

HOW DID I MISS THIS THE FIRST TIME? he's practically pursuing her! Making an investment into her family, defending her honor and family's reputation to Will, letting his eyes slip to gaze at her first (the family promenade scene, which is the first time we have a pining shot of him initiating it and not penelope), asking to be walked out of her house with her, saying that he doesn't consort with people he doesn't hold in high regard, then saying "our relationship has taken shape so naturally that some may take it for granted". Then!!! He takes her hand, he actually grabs her hand to take her out of the ballroom which was. completely. unnecessary. oh my god I missed all of the clues the first time. Their relationship was progressing.

The question is, does Colin know? In the books, every time he wants to kiss her or dance with her in the square, or go over to her house first thing in the morning, he simply pushes the thought out of his head and doesn't ever dwell on the "why" of all of his actions. He just sits happily and stares out his carriage window and doesn't even think about what he feels until nearly the end of the book, and he realizes he liked her all this time. But in the tv show, Colin seems to be...compartmentalizing? He swears off women but categorizes Pen as something different so he doesn't have to give up her friendship. He categorizes himself in the role of protector because she's fatherless. Then he puts her into another category he simply labels as "special to me" because he can't face what he truly feels yet.

...So then we land on "that" scene at the end of the season and penelope hears how he feels. He wouldn't dream of courting Pen. I think he means it because ego projections and compartmentalizations are strong. He really doesn't know how he feels yet. But by god HE ALREADY LIKES HER.

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I sort of feel like the people saying Colin sucked this season missed the point of his arc?

So at the end of season one, Colin left London for his trips completely embarrassed. He had proposed to a woman he believed that he loved, gotten publicly engaged, only to be made the fool of the ton when Lady Whistledown revealed Marina's pregnancy. Everyone knew he had been taken advantage of, that is the only reason that he and their family were able to avoid ruin from the whole situation. Colin left London to flee the situation he found himself in, specifically the social blow back.

But he still comes back early? He ran away, and he didn't find the relief, the freedom, or the happiness he was seeking. He went on a grand tour of Europe and saw amazing things and met amazing people, and he comes back resigned to stay away from women and still thinking about Marina Thompson and the life he had imagined with her. At the end of the dinner he shared with Marina in episode 4, he reveals that he spent his travels thinking of her, thinking of how they ended things, thinking of how their lives could be different if they had just said or done different things. He is still entirely caught up in their relationship, he was never able to get away from it, no matter how far he ran.

Lady Featherington brings up the broken engagement in episode 7 and Colin still visibly recoils and becomes uncomfortable. He is still hurt by it, and he knows it is still a subject of gossip and you can tell that bothers him significantly. He goes to visit Marina, and it's clear he hopes it will provide him with some level of clarity but instead he just gets told that he's acting like a child, and needs to grow up. He is still in the shadow of those choices, and of his elder brothers, and he doesn't know how to fix it or change it.

So he fakes it.

That's the whole point. His endless, exhausting stories about his travels are his mask, you can tell because we, the audience, never actually hear any of the stories in full. We hear snippets, and hear how everyone around him is fed up listening to him. This is by design, by both the show and by Colin as a character. Everyone will ignore the fact that he is, in fact, quite miserable, if he is so irritating about his trips that nobody wants to talk to him anymore. If he answers every question with a statement about some flower he saw, or the stars over some city, he will be able to fool everyone into thinking he's happy with his life, instead of still lovesick over a girl who made a fool of him and resigned to missing her and being miserable instead. You see it throughout the season, in his interactions with a myriad of characters.

"It sounds like a remarkable journey." "Remarkable, yes. In that I seem to have many remarks about it."

His comments with Marina really highlight this. He's not actively excited or thrilled about getting to share these stories, it is just something to say, to pass awkward moments and to maintain conversation. He doesn't feel like anything he did was actually all that interesting, but he was a man who went on many travels, so he must speak about them, right? And then she calls him a boy, and tells him that he's lost in fantasy and unable to truly be a man and make choices for himself. She basically reaffirms exactly what he has been feeling about himself. He is visibly upset the next day when he talks to Pen, still wondering and blaming others for the disappointments, but resigning himself to look forward, but with no real fervor.

You see it in moments with Benedict. When they're playing Pall Mall, Benedict mentions his application and says "well its no grand tour" and Colin doesn't preen or make any comments about his travels, he just looks sad and a little uncomfortable. Benedict believes Colin has "distinguished" himself, but it's obvious by his reaction that Colin doesn't feel that way at all, and he spends the back half of the season showing it.

You also see it when he's with Penelope, because he doesn't talk about his travels with her at all. He talks about how he is feeling, and to some extent he is still masking how he feels, but at the wedding he talks about how everyone needs to find a purpose, and when Pen finds him later in the episode it is clear he is still miserable. He asks her if shes found her purpose, and he engages with her about it, and he is really taken with the way she talks about how her purpose will not be about who she is but who she is meant to be. He likes this idea that he can still find out who he is meant to be.

This is also why he first takes up interest in the gemstone mines as an investment. He hopes he can make a name for himself and benefit his family in some way, he is trying to find purpose and find his footing, and he's grasping at straws. When he discovers the falsehood, he sets out to make it right and he does, and in a way, at the end of the season, he seems a little lighter because he was able to help people. He helped the Featherington's by exposing their cousin's scheme and he ends up helping Will Mondrich by bringing a group of his friend Will's new club. Its the first actual moment of lightness we see in Colin all season, when he finally exposes Jack and when he arrives at the club. A slight shift has been made, Colin has found himself useful and made a difference and I think that helps him feel a little less lost.

Colin in this season is entirely lost, and he's hiding it from everyone around him. He wants his family and his friends to think he's happy and thriving after his travels, but in fact, he left his trips early to come home and mope about with his family. Benedict gets into art school, Eloise is attending scandalous political events, Daphne is a Duchess, Anthony is finally getting married and has long been established as the Viscount, and Colin is just... floating. He speaks only of Greece because he has nothing else to say, because he has nothing else happening in his life that he finds worthy of talking about. Because, on the inside, he still sees himself as just a sad boy who was publicly embarrassed when had his heart broken by a girl and now can't get over it.

Colin is in a super dark place all throughout s2, and his insufferable attitude about his travels is how he is masking that from everyone around him. His arc in s2 was a layered emotional arc about hiding how he really felt and trying desperately to prove to everyone, including himself, that Colin Bridgerton was someone worth caring about.

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Reasons to be hopeful:

for the times you thought it wouldn’t get better, it always did

you’ve always gotten back up from rock bottom on your own, it just took time

some days are simply lovelier than others for no particular reason, so please don’t imagine the future as completely bleak

achieving your dreams is a possibility

it takes time to mend your heart, love yourself and grow into the person you hope to become

it’s possible to create a comforting life for yourself with what you have, and it’s possible to have a meaningful life

the future holds possibilities and good things that you think would never happen to you at the moment. feeling hopeless doesn’t mean things are truly hopeless.

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Some of you were never fortunate enough to receive the patronage and condescension of Lady Catherine de Bourgh and it shows

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it's 2076. you spit out ur dentures in excitement: the 31st adaptation of Boys Over Flowers just dropped

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These two... :)

Thyme being shooketh Gorya loves him back and giddy because he is finally her boy

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yes hes my comfort character, and yes he does beat the shit out of people. he multitasks idk

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Listen, I'm not making excuses for Anthony's behaviour in Season 1. But imagine trying to run a household, and one day you come home to all this.