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"It was when I was getting his shorts on that I felt him try to raise his left leg to help a little. It was the last thing he did. I looked down at him knowing he was dead.

“Phoebe “ I cried out “I’m sorry, he’s gone ”

I slipped my arm under Freddie’s neck , kissed him and then held. His eyes were wide open. I can remember vert clearly the expression on his face - and when I go to sleep every night it’s still there in front of me. He looked radiant.

One minute he was a boy with a gaunt, sad little face and and next he was a picture of ecstasy. Freddie’s face ent back to everything it had been before. He looked finally and totally. Seeing him like that made me feel happy in my sadness. I felt an overwhelming sense of relief. I knew he was no longer in pain.

I stopped the tiny pin fly-wheel of the wind-up carraigr clock by the bed. I’d given it to Freddie because he told me he’d always wanted one. It read twelve minutes to seven. I’ve never started it again.

Jim Hutton - Mercury and me

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and if you wanna talk about jewish students feeling unwelcome on campus... my university's chapter of jewish voice for peace was banned from our jewish center for being a "political club" despite them allowing pro israel political clubs to be affiliated with it. the guy one of our college schools is named after, a wealthy zionist philanthropist, literally flipped me and my jewish friends off for protesting birthright. a zionist student doxxed us all and put us on blacklists of pro palestine students. my israeli american friend got arrested for burning an israeli flag near campus. many such cases on american universities but somehow this type of stuff never makes it into the headlines about jewish students feeling threatened

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Robert Pattinson behind the scenes ─ The Lighthouse (2019)

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-Edna St. Vincent Millay, Dirge Without Music

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posts that make you want to set fire to yourself

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Sansa north style ver. 🐺

Fashion westerosi collection

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category is: boss/executive character in a movie whom the filmmakers modeled after a real person and are using that character to work through personal professional grievances

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It really makes me laugh when transphobes are like "no one back in the day cross dressed or played with gender, it's just a trend" shut up look at this Lesbian couple from my home (when it used to be Kingdom of Hungary, Budapest) in 1920s who dressed in half traditional femme and masc wedding attire

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there's a message in yellowjackets that really resonates, about what it looks like to "overcome" trauma. you live through something indescribable, you're "rescued" from that thing, and you have a grace period. how long? a week? a month? a year? how long before the world stops giving you grace, how long before the world expects you to give them a pretty little story with a happy little ending so they can stop feeling weird when they look at you, for the way what you've been through makes them feel? how long before you have to be a wife and mother to prove you're fine, or a successful politician, or a respectable nurse. or, how long before they want to see you in the psych ward or rehab so they can frown and ooh and ahh at your failure to assimilate back into a world you can no longer see in the same light? they don't want to help you. they want to watch you. they want to make a feel-good story out of you. a quippy headline. and if they can't, they'll make you their cautionary tale. if you can give them neither, you'd better hide yourself away. everybody asks "what really happened out there?" what was it like how did it feel what did you have to do to survive it? and the answer is there is no answer. it is still happening. it is happening every night in your dreams, it is happening every time you look in the mirror, it is happening over and over and over again forever. hitting the "recovery milestones"–the socially acceptable You Did It life markers such as a successful career, a successful family, a successful whatever the fuck–meeting those marks isn't for you. you don't see the merit in those things anymore. and why would you? you know a different way of living now. it's for the audience who wants to be placated by your okayness or entertained by your insanity, and will not rest until you've given them one or the other. the wilderness may have taken indiscriminately, cruelly, violently. but society is worse. that's the difference between hunger and gluttony. you ate your friends to survive. they are eating you to throw you up to eat you again to complain about how unpalatable you are now. and then they still ask for more.

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Very late to the party, but I've read my first discworld novel

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--- girls can embrace their true vampiric nature and go feral for a bit. it's healthy

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HIS DARK MATERIALS + tropes -> the powerful artifact

It’s the knife that will cut anything. Not even its makers knew what it could do. Nothing, no one, matter, spirit, angel, air—nothing is invulnerable to the subtle knife.

THE SUBTLE KNIFE, Philip Pullman

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“Lucille (Jessica Chastain) is actually part of the house. They’re connected. The house is history, it’s the past, it’s her childhood, it’s everything. And she cannot separate that. Her wardrobe has pieces of architecture of the house embroidered in lace,” Del Toro said. “We very deliberately made her the same color as the walls. The walls are the same color as her eyes. We wanted to make them have the color of the house.”

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And then, inexplicably, you had the absolute audacity to love me back. Can you believe it? Sometimes, even now, I still can't. [insp] for @lilythesilly