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okay let's be real neil probably got his vaccines during his sophomore year of college because neither mary nor nathan would vaccinate him as a child (for different reasons) and during his freshman year he lied to abby about being fully vaccinated but sophomore year he's a changed man and the moment andrew finds out he's not vaccinated he drags him to abby to fix this horrible situation

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nicky and andrew

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hear me out hear me out aftg blacklist au

the foxes work in the fbi and nathaniel wesninski is a most wanted killer, com man, thief, etc etc, and one day he just walks in as neil josten and says he's willing to work with the fbi with one andrew minyard and the foxes to deal with subject from a blacklist of his making :)

the people from the blacklist are from the moriyamas, nathan's people, and coincidentally some people from the foxes past

why the foxes? why andrew minyard? they're in their 30s, but neil spent a few months in juvie in oakland and he was roommates with andrew back then and they loved each other but neil was under a different name and once andrew got out he ran away so they never saw each other again, and he kept tabs on andrew all those years and he knew when he got into the foxes' team and knew he was safe (things are different in this au and the foxes like andrew significantly more) so he also kept tabs on them

why doesn't andrew recognize him? because of scars idk maybe he does recognize him but can't place why because he knows that face but it never had that name, so he can't be sure (eventually he figures it out and is mad at neil at first but then they get together :))

i know this is a mess but my point still stands and if could write long committed fics i would write this myself but i cannot make myself finish long aus and stories lmao

also like many things would be different from blacklist but you get the idea (like tom and liz, neil wouldn't send someone into andrew's life like that, and in the long run having andrew have another partner he loves unconditionally would not work out)

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there's plenty of the foxes being protective of neil but i want the foxes being protective of the twins

like i want an interviewer asking dan about how they're going to work out having a backliner less in case aaron goes to jail after the trial and she just ends him for going after aaron like that and assures everyone that aaron did nothing wrong

i want someone in allison's class talking shit about andrew and saying vulgar stuff regarding his sexual abuse history and allison just reaping him to shreds and exposing him for being a piece of trash and threatening to sue him and look into his history of charges to see if any of his ex has someone to say about him

i want someone talking about how aaron is only in pre med to get free drugs and matt just punching him straight in the face and kindly asking him to shut the fuck up

i want someone talking about how they're scared of andrew because he's a psychopath with knives in the cafeteria one day and renee just serenely smiling at them and saying "oh they're my knives i taught him how to use them, he's the harmless one of us really" and just leaving them gaping at her

give me the upperclassmen loving their messed up twins so much they're willing to fight for them <3

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for being so out of touch to what love and caring gestures mean, neil josten is so fucking gay

"i want to see you lose control" this, "not if it means losing you then no" that, like my god, that's some gay ass senteces my guy

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my favorite thing is that neil, upon finding out that andrew is gay, first thought that he and kevin "its easier to be straight" day were hooking up, like he thought of them and said, yeah gay enough, and immediately concluded they were together

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leigh bardugo nora sakavic

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creating tragic character backstories for every fucking character jfc can you give anyone a break I'm sobbing on the floor

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what i love about the aftg fandom is that whether you ship kevaaron or kandreil or kandrew, most of us agree at least one of the twinyards will love kevin day, as he deserves <3

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constantly thinking about how neil doesn't smile more than a couple of times in the first two books but then andrew's blank-faced i-love-you-but-im-gonna-pretend-i-hate-you's make neil smile like nothing else in this fucking world (also thinking about how some day, andrew will smile again and it's probably going to be because of neil too)

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you ever think of wymack scared out of his fucking mind at the thought of having the two most volatile kids on his team alone in vulnerable places that they were lowkey afraid of, probably fearing they wouldn't come back and if they did they would be hurt, like his kids were in a) rehab with strangers and recovering from the physical and emotional tolls of rape and b) with the supposed parents whose abuse had pushed neil to sleep in the locker rooms and get out of millport as fast as possible and be his paranoide and tragic self like,,,

wymack probably spent those whole two weeks drinking himself to sleep (at least the days abby wasn't there to stop him) thinking about how he'd have to put the pieces of andrew and neil back together somehow, and the worst part, is that while andrew dealt with proust's abuse fueled by revenge but was otherwise physically fine and emotionally ehh could be worse ig, neil came back a fucking mess, in every sense of the word, bruised, battered, traumatized and hurt

imagine being wymack, and seeing the skittish kid who looks ready to bolt and who was afraid of older men including wymack, almost dead on the curb at the airport and assuming his biological family had done that, imagine his fucking pain

(actually the worst part would be him thinking the worst was over, perhaps relieved neil's bio fam wouldn't beat him half to death, only for baltimore to happen, and realizing that nathan would not only beat him, but torture him and try to kill him alright i gotta stop)

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in another universe instead of being a math major neil josten is a theater/acting major, and that just makes all the sense in the world considering how quickly he can think of convenient and convincing lies, and come up with fake stories in a millisecond and just completely change the way he acts in the same time, like if my man was not into exy he could totally be a hollywood star with those skills (actually he could totally be an actor after retiring, he's just so talented in the art of make believe)

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there's just something about the way neil and andrew grew up without being able to want anything and just surviving from day to day, but they get to fall in love and build a future they both want and find happiness that makes me believe that maybe things can turn out good after all

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andrew minyard and neil josten AND jesper fahey and wylan van eck ARE "be gay do crime" and i love them for it

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i still can't believe alina spent 3 books hung over mal when nikolai was right fucking there, rip to her but i would have been wiser

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okay but what did wylan even do during the months he was with the dregs?? apart from making bombs and being decent at demo i mean, did he actually enjoy being part of a gang?? did he have friends?? you can easily tell kaz, inej and jesper think very lowly of him and i doubt nina even interacted with him, what the fuck did wylan do those months before the ice court heist??

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Fandom: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic Relationships: Neil Josten/Andrew Minyard, Aaron Minyard & Andrew Minyard   Summary:

Andrew never learned how to love, never quite learned what loving someone or something means or requires, never knew how loving felt like. After so many fucking years with Neil fucking Josten and their not-nothing, he has no idea if he loves him.

aka i can’t stop myself from writing aftg fanfiction and here’s another one

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"Renison makes no sense, Renee and Allison never act as a couple in canon-"

WRONG, Renison is canon because I say so