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My song of the night

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New Moon Tarot Reading

I love love love my tarot cards they feel like an extension of myself. I started This past new moon with all 3 of my decks to see what I'm working with for the next month of growth and soul-searching.

The New Moon in Leo on August 4th- A big time for manifesting growing and confidence

The first deck I pulled from is Mystic Mondays The Cosmic Creatures Deck I love Mystic Mondays and the decks I've seen from them. The artwork is beautiful, and the guidebook is very well-written and helpful when you need further information about the cards. I pulled 2 cards from this deck

The Duck - Safety, Comfort, Community

"Allow yourself to feel vulnerable and share your feelings with your community you are more supported than you realize" ( hey guys that's you !!!) " Entanglements and confrontations can easily affect you, as you have a soft spirit and a big heart. It's important to maintain boundaries to keep your head above water! The duck can both swim and fly, paddling on the ripples of emotions to then soar into freedom of the sky. Explore your emotional world and get comfortable there. The duck tends to stay in its comfort zone which is where you feel safe. The sky will always be there when you're ready to fly"

I feel very connected to this card. Recently I've been expanding my stretch zone and trying new things. Living more in the moment, spending money on experiences, and Trying new things physically expressively, and creatively. Finding a place where I feel the best. I don't know how sustainable this lifestyle/ mindset is, but I'm really happy about it I've been going to concerts at least once a month, working more than ever, hanging out with friends after, planning trips, writing, painting, gardening. I'm just as tired as I was when I was doing nothing for months but at least I'm living again so I call this a big when. my next step is to fix my sleep and my comfort.

The Raven- Shadow, Unconscious, Deep work.

"Know as the "Keeper of Secrets," the raven asks you to look within so you can break through blocks and catapult your way into ultimate liberation. The shackles that hold you back are of your own making and as you become aware of what has been weighing you down you gain an opportunity to rise above." " You are guided by a powerful force to align your willpower with your intentions to ascend through the portal and to make a lasting contribution to the timeline of your existence. Get ready to fly"

I love how the duck card felt like step one " when you are ready to fly" and step two with the raven " get ready to fly". I've been wasting most of my potential for the past few years spending all of my energy worrying/ being mildly anxious. I love being creative but this past year every time I've started a project I've become anxious about it being a waste of time or not good enough to be worth it, or I wouldn't start the project until I ironed out all the details so i had a plan to make it perfect. This mindset is a new and unwelcome one in my mind. Within the past 2 years, I've seen my artist's eye get slowly overtaken by a judgmental one. ( only of my own art of course). I used to chase every idea I had and it was beautiful. Now I chase none because they aren't perfect yet and so I do nothing. When I came to this realization the first solution that came to mind was to chase every idea well that is extremely difficult when you are the rustiest you have ever been. My next solution, and the one I am on now is alternative methods and collaborative projects. I started by merging projects that could build off of each other together and let them grow naturally. Then I talked to my sister about writing a DnD campaign for our friends. Having a few people to spitball ideas with is a game-changer.

The Next deck I pulled from was my Fairies Oracle deck wisdom and magic from folktales around the world. I love this deck and how it draws me to read more about folktales and myths from around the world and puts them into the context of my life. I pulled 3 cards

Flow, Containing Multitudes.

Flow- Gwragedd annwn Are fairies of Welsh folklore who live beneath lakes. Lean into all things water both literally and spiritually. Channel the qualities that are associated with the Element of water like fluidity openness to change or going with the flow.

Containing multitudes- Yaksha of Indian mythology protectors over nature. described both as beautiful and benevolent. Allow yourself to contain multitudes. others may try to put you in a box but you know you are many things all at once. be a mystery to others as well as yourself."

These 2 cards are so loud for me. Even tho I am an earth sign water is my everything I love sitting in creeks spending days on the river and swimming in the lake. water is where I feel at home, and free, and I can be myself. transitioning use into the next card. I've consistently struggled with my sense of self. Not because I don't know who I am or what I like but because I don't know how to show people me or how much of me to show. I passionately love the things I love and I know that's too much for someone I just met or I feel that I don't love that thing enough to say I enjoy it. like I'm not outdoorsy enough to be outdoorsy. IF YOU LIKE THE OUTDOORS YOU ARE OUTDOORSY I DON'T CARE HOW FAR YOU HIKE.

My last deck is the Mystic Monday Tarot deck. The love of my life. My first deck. My pride and joy!!!! We love her.

Nine of Swords- The past - Anxiety, Worry, Distress

To say I feel so heard by some cards sounds so funny and so sweet. " You've managed to manifest your worries by constantly thinking about the worst-case scenarios, creating anxiety and stress" "Fear and doubt are paralyzing you from moving forward with endless "what ifs" I was an anxious mess a few months ago, overwhelmed, over worked, and far away from any support system. I truly was stopping myself from moving forward because I was so scared about what could happen because I already didn't like what was happening.

Queen of Swords- Present- Clever, Meticulous, Intellectual

If I let my big emotions block the critical thinking side of my brain it'll lead to messy journeys and wasted energy moving forward. take a step back from the emotions and focus on the goal.

VIII Strength- Near Future- Fierce, Endurance, Courage

Master your impulses and take responsibility for yourself and your actions. With this power of self-control, you will be able to approach your problems powerfully and gracefully.

Reversed Ace of Wands - take away- Vague, ambiguous, Irresolute

The call for action is moving through you but you are unclear about which direction to go, feeling unmotivated and uninspired. Desires and passions are ambiguous and you are beginning to question what really sets you on fire. Now is the time to explore and figure out what you really care about and where your passions lie." And this is how we ended up here this tarot reading led me to post more regularly on here to see what happens and help keep track of where I'm succeeding or struggling

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My solution to a creative block caused my doom scrolling and brain rot.

My mind is like a vast thrift store that practices the most unconventional organizational system. My thoughts are hidden gems hidden among the clutter, just have to sift through and boom gold.

Currently, I am dragging myself from the deepest creative pit of my life but I see a small light at the end of the tunnel, so Ill will work with what I got. My small-step real solution after getting timers and moving your apps around was to get addicted to my laptop instead of my phone. Pulling out my laptop caused me to have more intentional brain rot instead of watching hours of minute-long videos. This solution has spiraled into an overwhelming obsession to write and create in mediums I haven't touched in years. I've always had a love to create art, start projects, and document the processes. This new obsession has manifested into me reading Fanfiction I haven't read since 2016, building a DnD campaign for my friends that has the most interactive lore I have ever attempted to make, and writing about my favorite songs and albums of my dad. I've also had urges to start a video diary/longer form sit-down content idk. I'm just happy to feel inspired for the first time in a long time and I'm going to chase every spark I get.

Long story short Welcome to where most of my rants will be housed. Hopefully this will turn into a digital diary/sketchbook for me. And this is a sign to start treating your laptop like your best friend. You are a girl in the early to mid-2010s addicted to blogs and writing about whatever calls her lol.

This rant was brought to you by my tarot cards bulling me into pursuing my ideas just for the fun of it and not because they have to be good.

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"You wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me"

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Floral dragon tattoo 🐉

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Some cute cherry hearts 🍒 #flash

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Me and my moss brain

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Seems so sweet to have the life of a frog

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Ghost phonogram

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A long road

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Plague rat

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Goomba Peach

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My comfort game <3