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You didn't care

You didn’t care

You didn’t care when you saw me crying that time, crying over the thoughts running through my head that I didn’t understand. You didn’t care when people noticed those marks on my arms, “you’re fine“, you said. “You’re Jasmine“. You didn’t care when my weight began to drop, you didn’t even utter a word. You didn’t care when my mood began to change, I became more and more distant and you just let…

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NEDAW - My eating disorder destroyed more than just my body!

NEDAW – My eating disorder destroyed more than just my body!

This National Eating Disorder Awareness Week I’d like to focus on the damage my eating disorder has done to my entire life – rather than just the physical affects.  Although the damage I have done to my body I will have to live with forever, for me that wasn’t the worst thing about this illness. My eating disorder took control of more than just my eating – it controlled my entire life! Every…

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Eating Disorder Awareness Week - please keep your underweight photos to yourself

Eating Disorder Awareness Week – please keep your underweight photos to yourself

Today marks the beginning of Eating Disorder Awareness Week 2016, and this week is very important in raising awareness for each eating disorder and the devastating effects that it has on people’s lives. However, every year, in an attempt to raise awareness, some of those who have recovered (or are in recovery) post photos of themselves at low weights, in comparison to a photograph of them at the…

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Here's to 2016!!!

Here’s to 2016!!!

I’m a little late to the New Years resolution party (stupid work) but this year I’ve decided not to really make one.  Last year I decided that 2015 would be the year of recovery. I was no longer going to be a slave to my anorexia and so I made the changes necessary; I may not be completely recovered but I’m so much closer than I’ve ever been before. 2015 was definitely the year of my recovery! …

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SHUT UP ABOUT DIETS; Learning to love your lumps and bumps

SHUT UP ABOUT DIETS; Learning to love your lumps and bumps

As someone who likes to actively promote body positivity, I find it incredibly tedious, and irritating, how often I am told about diets, whether it be directly or in passing. I cannot watch the television or read a magazine any more without being told about the newest diet and how much weight it can help me to lose. And this dieting culture has found a way to promote itself every month of the…

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Birthday inspiration

Tomorrow is my 19th birthday and I keep being disappointed with myself because I’m going to be 19 years old and yet I still let this disorder dictate my life. 19 years old and yet I still have to be checked on to make sure I’ve eaten. 19 years old and still not a whole lot better than I was last year. But when I stopped thinking about all that’s still wrong with me, I began to realise all that I…

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Feeling unwanted sucks.

One of the biggest problems I face in my life is feeling unwanted. I feel unwanted so often that it’s gotten to a point where I don’t actually bother talking to anybody any more because I just assume that they hate me and don’t want to talk to me. It has ruined so many friendships for me, and will probably ruin my current relationship at some point – it is already something which causes…

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I've been in recovery for a year so why aren't I fixed yet?

I’ve been in recovery for a year so why aren’t I fixed yet?

My timehop this morning reminded me how it was exactly a year ago today that I asked my mum if I could see someone about my eating disorder. I had come clean to her a few weeks before about how much I was struggling, but I was still in complete denial that I needed help. So if this marks one year of recovery, then why aren’t I fixed yet? As I’ve said in a previous post, it did take a while for me…

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Why are periods so scary?

Why are periods so scary?

Periods. Menstruation. The curse. Whatever you want to call it, it’s the same pain in the backside (or front side I suppose?) that the female gender complain about each month. Learning about it in sex education in junior school, and hearing the complaints of other girls, I thought that the worst thing about it would be the dreaded cramps or that I’d literally be bleeding out of my vagina but when…

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My anorexia ruined my life at school, and yet my teachers didn't help me

My anorexia ruined my life at school, and yet my teachers didn’t help me

(I’m placing a potential trigger warning on this post due to some of the subjects that are mentioned) Whilst doing a presentation during my tutorial at college about why mental illnesses aren’t adjectives (it was similar to a previous blog post of mine) I got into a debate with a teaching assistant who was present about the lack of support for mental illness at school, and it got me thinking…

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Why weight is a symptom, NOT an illness and why BMI is a load of rubbish

Why weight is a symptom, NOT an illness and why BMI is a load of rubbish

After the recent fashion shows still consisting of some severely underweight looking girls on the catwalk, it has recently been a hot topic in the news about whether a minimum BMI should be introduced for cat walk shows. This raises another issue; is BMI really that important? Is BMI really the ultimate measurement to determine how ill somebody is? For my GCSE biology coursework we had to pick a…

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The problem with mental health communities (that I've found)

The problem with mental health communities (that I’ve found)

Recently there have been many news reports reporting the suicides of young people as a result of the cyber bullying they have faced online. This in itself is an absolute abomination and should not be stood for, but imagine if this was occuring in a community which you thought was there to help you? My problems with my mental health can only be described as like a roller coaster ride; there have…

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I’ve recently started a blog if anybody is interested!!!!!

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How come y o u ’ r e  still  a l i v e?

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