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some fucking resources for all ur writing fuckin needs

body language masterlist

a translator that doesn’t eat ass like google translate does

a reverse dictionary for when ur brain freezes

550 words to say instead of fuckin said

638 character traits for when ur brain freezes again

some more body language help 

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The Silent 'B' in LGBTQ

The Silent ‘B’ in LGBTQ

Bisexuality. What comes to your mind when you think of it? Is it two girls kissing in a bar to get free drinks from guys? Is it a threesome? A girl that’s curious during college? A guy that’s not ready to come out as gay? If so then you may be (even subconsciously) participating in bi-erasure and maybe even bi-phobia.

Let’s dive into what those words mean. We’ll start with bi-phobia.Bi-phobia is…

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What ADHD is REALLY Like

What ADHD is REALLY Like

Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder, better known as ADHD. A disorder that causes the mind to go in thousands of different directions all at once or to become so hyperfocused on a project that the world around you falls silent. Living with ADHD is challenging. How do I know? Well, I have ADHD and sometimes it makes life incredibly difficult and infinitely frustrating for me.

Sometimes my…

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Ambient sounds for writers

Find the right place to write your novel… 

Nature

Arctic ocean

Blizzard in village

Blizzard in pine forest

Blizzard from cave

Blizzard in road

Beach

Cave

Ocean storm

Ocean rocks with rain

River campfire

Forest in the morning

Forest at night

Forest creek

Rainforest creek

Rain on roof window

Rain on tarp tent

Rain on metal roof

Rain on window

Rain on pool

Rain on car at night

Seaside storm

Swamp at night

Sandstorm

Thunderstorm

Underwater

Wasteland

Winter creek

Winter wind

Winter wind in forest

Howling wind

Places

Barn with rain

Coffee shop

Restaurant with costumers

Restaurant with few costumers

Factory

Highway

Garden

Garden with pond and waterfall

Fireplace in log living room

Office 

Call center

Street market

Study room from victorian house with rain

Trailer with rain

Tent with rain

Jacuzzi with rain

Temple

Temple in afternoon

Server room

Fishing dock

Windmill

War

Fictional places

Chloe’s room (Life is Strange)

Blackwell dorm (Life is Strange)

Two Whales Diner (Life is Strange)

Star Wars apartment (Star Wars)

Star Wars penthouse (Star Wars)

Tatooine (Star Wars)

Coruscant with rain (Star Wars)

Yoda’s hut with rain ( Star Wars)

Luke’s home (Star Wars)

Death Star hangar (Star wars)

Blade Runner city (Blade Runner)

Askaban prison (Harry Potter)

Hogwarts library with rain (Harry Potter)

Ravenclaw tower (Harry Potter)

Hufflepuff common room (Harry Potter)

Slytherin common room (Harry Potter)

Gryffindor common room (Harry Potter)

Hagrid’s hut (Harry Potter)

Hobbit-hole house (The Hobbit)

Diamond City (Fallout 4)

Cloud City beach (Bioshock)

Founding Fathers Garden (Bioshock)

Things

Dishwasher

Washing machine

Fireplace

Transportation

Boat engine room

Cruising boat

Train ride

Train ride in the rain

Train station

Plane trip

Private jet cabin

Airplane cabin

Airport lobby

First class jet

Sailboat

Submarine

Historical

Fireplace in medieval tavern

Medieval town

Medieval docks

Medieval city

Pirate ship in tropical port

Ship on rough sea

Ship cabin

Ship sleeping quarter

Titanic first class dining room

Old west saloon

Sci-fi

Spaceship bedroom

Space station

Cyberpunk tearoom

Cyberpunk street with rain

Futuristic server room

Futuristic apartment with typing

Futuristic rooftop garden 

Steampunk balcony rain

Post-apocalyptic

Harbor with rain

City with rain

City ruins turned swamp

Rusty sewers

Train station

Lighthouse

Horror

Haunted mansion

Haunted road to tavern

Halloween

Stormy night

Asylum

Creepy forest

Cornfield

World

New York

Paris

Paris bistro

Tokyo street

Chinese hotel lobby

Asian street at nightfall

Asian night market

Cantonese restaurant

Coffee shop in Japan

Coffee shop in Paris

Coffee shop in Korea

British library

Trips, rides and walkings

Trondheim - Bodø

Amsterdam - Brussels

Glasgow - Edinburgh

Oxford - Marylebone

Seoul - Busan

Gangneung - Yeongju

Hiroshima

Tokyo metro

Osaka - Kyoto

Osaka - Kobe

London

São Paulo

Seoul

Tokyo

Bangkok

Ho Chi Minh (Saigon)

Alps

New York

Hong Kong

Taipei

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The story starts on a Tuesday evening in August. My girlfriend and I receive a text message from my dad asking if we want to go out drinking with him, my cousin, and some friends (don’t worry, it’s not weird. It happens all the time. Drinking with my dad is how we bond). We go out and we’re having a good time, hop a few bars and when everything was closed because it’s Tuesday and everything closes early on Tuesday’s, we call a cab to go back to my dad’s house (don’t drink and drive, kids).

First off, we stop in a liquor store and for some unknown reason send in my already drunk idiot of a cousin, Bob. Who took far too long on too hot of a day to pick out the beer he always gets and some hard cider for us. I ended up having to hunt him and our liquor down and drag him out of there (after he paid of course)

So once that fiasco gets done with and we end up at my dad’s neighbor’s house. Also not weird, his neighbor is like an uncle to me and a brother to my dad.

The night started off like any other drunk time with Dad and friends. We’re happily drinking and chatting and all around having a good time when a cat comes running up. She’s cute and friendly but skinny, looks sick, and possibly pregnant. Then I see that her tail is crooked… and that’s when I realize that I know this cat. This is my ex’s cat, Gizmo. Her tail has been like that since I first met her. She’s only a few years old and last I knew, my ex still had her. So how did she get so, well sickly?

Curious, and a little upset, I ask why she was outside. Turns out my dickhead of an ex-boyfriend moved and left her behind to starve and die. I was furious at him but I knew I had to do something to right his wrongs.

My girlfriend and I talked about it for a while. We lived in an apartment and already had one (or two) animals over the limit that the apartment set. But we couldn’t just let her die. So we took her home for the night and made an appointment the next day with a low-cost clinic in the neighborhood with what little money we had left. We were worried that she wasn’t eating or drinking much especially since she looked to be pregnant.

Well, we took her to the vet and the vet that said she thinks she has something called Feline Infectious Peritonitis, or FIP, which is (as she told us) a highly contagious and deadly disease and she is sure that she is not pregnant and far too sick to be pregnant.

On the off chance that she may not have FIP, we were sent away with antibiotics and special food for her.

It was difficult getting her to take the antibiotics but we managed and she seemed to be getting better! We were happy but didn’t dare expose her to our cats until she got a clean bill of health.

Well during this time we received a letter from our apartment’s new managers stating that only 2 pets were allowed per apartment and that the fine for having another animal in the apartment – even for a short period of time – was 1,000 dollars. Yup. 1,000 dollars.

We had 5 pets. My dog and Maine-coon mix that was already on the lease. My roommate’s emotional support animal, which was another cat. A different cat that we had found on the side of the road as a kitten and taken in. And the possibly pregnant cat that we now have to take care of.

3,000 dollars was a lot. Even more, if she ended up being pregnant.

We hated what we had to do, but we decided to take her to a no-kill shelter because we couldn’t financially take care of her. So we went around to different shelters to see which one had an opening.  Keep in mind we had already grown rather attached to our drunken rescue and renamed her Zira, because she looked like the rough and tough lioness from Lion King II and had lived in an awful situation after being ostracized.

The only one that said they had an opening took one look at her and told us the same thing that vet did – she’s too sick to be pregnant, she’s going to die.

We were both devastated. We took her home because the shelter wouldn’t touch her and locked her in our bathroom safely away from our other cats. We called the vet back, thinking that we would be taking her in to be put down.

The day came and we took her down to the car, I was keeping it together but my girlfriend was not. Krystal had gotten far too attached to this little cat, but I knew in the back of my mind that she might not make it and kept that barrier there. Normally to make her smile I would gently “boop” her nose. Well, this time, I booped her nose in hope of a smile and I got a lip quiver then full on tears. Looking back is kind of funny but at the time I felt awful and just pulled her in close.

We arrive at the vet’s office, Krystal is still crying her eyes out and now I’m starting to tear up, too. We go back and we see a different vet this time. We explain everything to her and she doesn’t look too sure.

“She seems too active to be that sick,” she said – the first one to say anything positive about this experience at all. “I’m going to do that test for you to make sure,” she said, telling us not to worry about the cost of it as her vet tech took Zira out of the crate and into a back room.

We sat there for about 10 minutes, but it felt like 10 hours. Holding our breath, trying to keep it together.  We had a glimmer of hope but didn’t want to get our hopes too high.

Then, in comes our vet and her vet tech, both grinning.

“She’s perfectly healthy! Just skinny and very pregnant,” they told us.

That’s when I started crying – tears of relief as Krystal and I hugged and cheered. Until we realized that we still couldn’t keep her and that she was going to have babies very soon. As in the vet told us we had maybe a week if not sooner before babies. We panicked a bit but the happiness that this little kitty and her babies stood a chance outshined any worry we had. So off we went contacting shelters to see if any could help.

Well, some miracle work happened as we called around and found Heaven Can Wait – A foster group. They said that if we could house her, they would pay for all her and the babies’ medical expenses, food, litter, everything. And Krystal’s parents offered to house her for us until we moved in (the new manager’s at the apartment were jacking the prices up WAY too high for us to live there anymore).  So 3 days later we rushed to move into Krystal’s parents with our fur babies and a very pregnant Zira.

It was late in August when she had 7 tiny little baby kittens. 2 of them needed some help at first but all of them turned out to be healthy and are all now in homes of their own…

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So yeah, that’s how on a hot August night, we accidentally, drunkenly, saved 8 lives.

  Of course, we ended up keeping one of them (her name is Sarabi, if you were wondering). And Krystal’s parents kept Zira.

  How I Drunkenly Saved 8 Lives The story starts on a Tuesday evening in August. My girlfriend and I receive a text message from my dad asking if we want to go out drinking with him, my cousin, and some friends (don't worry, it's not weird.

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Everyone go check out my new blog post about my personal #mentalhealth struggles and #suicideawareness

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I Used to Think People who Attempted Suicide were Cowards (Until I Became One of Them)

I can remember times in my youth when family members of mine had attempted suicide and I remember just being angry and hurt by it. I thought that they were selfish and what about me? What about their kids? What about everyone else in the family that cared about them?

Well, obviously I was a young, naive, and inexperienced teenager. I was headstrong and truly believed that if I could withstand all…

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You know what? Part of what makes Lord of the Rings so great is that Tolkien knows how to end a story. You’ve been on this massive 1,200-page adventure and it has been sometimes joyous and funny and sometimes dark and hopeless, but crucially the story doesn’t end with everything just going back to the way things were before–because the world can’t come through a story like that unscathed and neither can the people who took part in it. It’s a good ending because it’s not a completely happy one. Momentous events should have consequences, and if you don’t let the reader have those along with the happiness and hope you’ve done them a sort of injustice. So take that lesson on storytelling from Tolkien. Write good endings. Write whole endings. Write real endings. Happiness is only part of that.

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I Used to Think People who Attempted Suicide were Cowards (Until I Became One of Them)

I can remember times in my youth when family members of mine had attempted suicide and I remember just being angry and hurt by it. I thought that they were selfish and what about me? What about their kids? What about everyone else in the family that cared about them?

Well, obviously I was a young, naive, and inexperienced teenager. I was headstrong and truly believed that if I could withstand all…

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Gravatar Verify email addition

Gravatar Verify email addition

So you’d like to add to your Gravatar account? To do so, simply click on the link below or paste it into the url field on your favorite browser: https://en.gravatar.com/verify/add-identity/f99a29b179/zasi465jali%40post.wordpress.com When you visit the above page, you’ll be able to set a gravatar for your new email address! If you didn’t ask for this email, you can safely ignore it. If you have…

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