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Once, my sister was taking off her hoodie and her (very expensive) earphones fell out. She gasped and visibility stopped breathing.

Me (without missing a beat): Once I forgot my earbuds in a bag and washed that bag in the washing machine.

Me: But that's okay because they still worked.

Me: Until a car ran over them.

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When am I most productive?

When I finish all my work? When I clean my desk or closet? When I workout? When I read all the books on my TBR?

No.

When I wake my before my sibling does?

Yes.

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POV: When you have exams, but are obsessed with K-Dramas...

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When I first came across bullet journaling, with all its many aesthetics and monthly themes and a new notebook for every year or different ones for reading and gardening and organizing, I was simply overwhelmed. I have never been good at art or drawing and buying multiple stationery for something like that isn't possible.

Then I came across this video and found out how (for lack of a better word) distorted this practice had become. I don't need a bulleted journal, I don't need 50 sketch-pens or brush-pens or paints. Nor do I need to create multiple pages or covers or trackers for each month/week/day.

With just any notebook I found suitable and a pen I like (and sometimes a scale/ruler), I started with the simplest things and experimented. I don't create blocks or boxes for my monthly view, I don't make weekly spreads, I don't even have a key. It's low maintenance and it works for me.

I should also mention how my sister does her journaling. She has a bulleted journal and one of those 4-in-1 pens. After a future log (or yearly view?) she knows what all she wants to track for each month and how much space and pages that will take. She then divides her journal (roughly with a pencil) into the months until she reaches the end of the monthly logs. At the end, she'll track things that take more than a single month or that she wants to keep separate from everything else.

The things that my sister tracks and the things that I do differ vastly. The point is that, obviously, one thing will not work for all, so don't pressure yourself into doing things that somebody is doing if it does not do the job that it is supposed to. Experiment. Don't be afraid to mess up because mistakes make us human.

Still reeling from the realization that bullet journaling was essentially created to be a disability aid and got legit fuckin gentrified

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The fun thing about having a Tumblr is that I don't have to go through the very taxing exercise of choosing the perfect series to hyperfixate on. Tumblr will just continuously show me gifset of two gays like it's a sign from God saying "here, these are your new support gays, cherish them" and that's that yk. It really saves me a lot of trouble

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So... I'm watching a show and the "good" guy pulls a gun on the definitely bad guy; the gun right under his chin, both of them staring into each other's eyes and my reaction is (SMH), "Kiss." I need help.

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Why am I left alone with my thoughts!? Who let this happen?

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Not sleeping 'cause once I put down my phone, I'll have to think about how uncertain my life is.

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I am 18 years old and I am not happy. I am stuck in this dreadful cycle of hating every moment of my day. No matter what I wake up thinking, I will inevitably end up hating my life and myself. I find myself on the verge of tears all day long. I'm just a kid. Why am I not happy? Why can't I find even a single reason to smile? Why does everything weigh me down? Why can't anybody see there's something wrong? Why do I not want to stay awake during the day? Why does nothing matter? Not exams, not my future; nothing scares me or excites me. What do I do?