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And id never charge for it baby cuz we deserve to have good content for free!

Fanfiction writers be like:

"here's the immensely time consuming 100K word novel-length passion project I'm working on between my real life job and family! It eats up hundreds of hours of my one and only life, causes me emotional harm, and I gain basically nothing from it! Also I put it on the internet for free so anyone can read if they want. Hope you love it!" :)

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collection of posts for a very specific dynamic

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They're having a 2 for 1 Who gives a Fuck special at the Shove It up your Ass store

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MILLIONS of Voices; A psychosis ZINE.

It's done! I know I took a lot of time making this zine, for the short length it is, but... I went through some personal problems. either way, I made it! I wanna thank you again, to everyone who shared their stories, to everyone waiting for this zine, to every person on the schizospectrum out there.

Trigger warnings: -References to many types of DELUSIONS.

-References to HALLUCINATIONS. of course.

I don't wanna make anyone fall into a psychotic episode from this, so please be careful as it obviously portrays psychosis in an artistic way, with poems, and drawings.

Let me know if there's any problem with downloading it.

For that one person who wanted me to tag them: @allisterrible

IF you can't read the letters. Here's the alternative :]

''MILLIONS of Voices

a ZINE about psychosis

''MADE by DISAPUNK''

''SOMETIMES I BELIEVE I AM GOD

and as i lay in the grass, not completely alone, there's someone, something, everyone is here, everyone i haven't met, everyone i did met, they're watching every move of my own.

i am their god, i am a god, i am god, i am everything and nothing, i am the sun that goes through your windows, and the pray, that, goes to me, the holy cries and pleasing god.

SOMETHING I BELIEVE I'M DEAD

so cloudy days where I think of death, not necessarily because it's the ultimate goal, the objective, for in spite of everything, i, i am already dead, my body decays and rots, slowly and painlessly, for in spite of everything, i, i already live dead in a dream, perhaps this is what comes after death, endless daydreaming.

STORY BY @disapunk''

''and yet i still felt my skin stay just as cold and lifeless as before, and i still felt my limbs rot away and my muscles atrophy, and i limped when my legs went into rigor mortis, i still spent nights completely still in my lifeless catatonia.

STORY BY @/rotmanlovesyou''

(I can't find the user.)

''THOUGHTS

thoughts of suicide?

no.

thoughts of starving?

yes.

thoughts of rotting in bed?

yes.

thoughts of suicide?

no.

thoughts of a late night walk?

yes.

thoughts of driving too fast in the snow?

yes.

thoughts of suicide?

no.

thoughts of bashing your head into a wall?

yes.

thoughts of drowning in a bottle?

yes.

thoughts of suicide?

no.

thoughts of jumping?

yes.

thoughts of purging?

yes.

thoughts of suicide?

POEM BY @wizardlizardtravels''

''withered petals overflow through the debts of my chest, as my delusions devored what's left of my flesh.

familiar whispers waltz between my ears,

the reaper's kiss, the final touch, i'll hold dear,

what's the value of truth, if it never remains?

it never changes, but was it ever the same? as if submerged by countless paranoid lies, forcing reality to softly mumble goodbye.

POETRY BY @cindelsclouds''

''i'm surrounded by the color yellow, many eyes look from it straight at me. i try my best to stay calm and mellow, while I notice what the others cannot see. a thousand hands reaching out to touch me, mirrors surround me, my reflections grin, i try my best to see what's around me, while I feel my armor's made of tin. "you're in danger!" everything is screaming. i'm observing myself, the strangest fellow. as the moon in the sky is gleaming, i'm surrounded by the color yellow.

STORY BY VINCENT''

''fuck OFF voices.

always bite the hand that feeds you.

ORIGINAL BY @bendersfolkpunkutopia''

''Hello, this is @/Disapunk. First of all, I wanna thank everyone who shared their most personal experiences, their deep stories, their art, maybe you, or they, were afraid of showing them, but believe me, many of us appreciate what you do.

To anyone trying to recover, I believe in you, you'll find a way out, you can do this, you will do this, every small step is process and I'm very proud of you.

To anyone who's seeking a diagnosis, may you be heard, from the bottom of my heart, I hope you get the help that you need.

To anyone psychotic, you are not alone in this, be patient with yourself, be gentle, take it one day at a time. Take care. You're trying your best and I'm proud of it.

To non-psychotic people, I hope you learn from this, I really, really hope you get to ''know'', (while not first-hand) how it feels for some of us.

To anyone reading this zine, thank you.''

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got my new boyfriend from Ikea. Unfortunately he’s made of particle board and with a single thrust of my hips I broke him into five pieces

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Pandora by John William Waterhouse (1896)

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deer on headlights:

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“Appeal to a wider audience” is corporate lingo for “strip more themes from a piece of media so it’s safer and more sanitized for investors”

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Oh, uh. I guess I should mention that I’ve made this thing. Three months after release sounds like a perfect time. Untitled Tile Painter is a quirky little drawing tool that lets you lay down funky geometric Bauhaus-inspired patterns. It’s 50% a useful thing for actual people and 50% me wanting to stretch my UMG muscles on something. It’s also a little bit like a control panel of an alien spaceship, as far as UX goes. Give it a go, if it looks like your kind of thing! It’s entirely free and all generated images are yours to keep and use as you see fit.

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Elf cups

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spare doodles

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with due respect business insider I think that millennial fandom moms have been this site's strongest warriors for the past 15+ years

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Nymphen und Irrlicht by Georg Janny (1922)

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your dark fantasy novel doesn't need a logic-based magic system it needs a bear with a human face

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Am I annoying? YES! And YOU probably are too! And that’s OKAY!! We can FORGIVE EACH OTHER!!!