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Had my first bad day in a while I drank and went tour for lunch and instead of making a healthy meal I ordered food 😒

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Averaging about 1000 cal a day working out consistently eating more protein, less carbs tracking on my food drinking less alcohol

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Been 2 weeks and my patients gave asked if I started a diet 😃 one of them said I’m loosing weight I can’t see it yet but if they notice then i must be on the right track

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me when the weight loss that i knew wasn’t gonna be sustainable actually wasn’t sustainable

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Read please

This is my safe space to blog about the heavy things in my life. ed and my struggles is what I am blogging about if you read you read but please don’t if you don’t want to read about my ed and my struggles

I don’t want to trigger anyone so please block if you must but this is my place to vent and feel my complicated feelings

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I started taking a medication for adhd a few days ago…… I am fat I always have been and gained so much weight this last year from depression and just doing all the wrong things and I really had lost hope that’s I was gonna get back on track and fix my life (and body) I was 170 maybe 165 at my lowest I had never been so happy with myself

And not even because of how I thought, I looked to other people. It was just how I felt about myself I’ve always been the fat kid and the fat friend. I dreamed about being skinny since I was 5. Hoping and praying by the time I was graduated I’d be thin and that day didn’t start coming until I hyperfixated on trying to be skinny. And it worked but it wasn’t something I was able to keep doing when I moved out on my own. My dad was a super gym rat and is always trying to loose weight and “be healthy” he was so proud of me when I was loosing so much weight. I was throwing up in the shower after every meal and on the cusp of trying to end my life but he was so proud of me.

Even today when I told him I couldn’t eat he said maybe that isn’t such a bad thing

I can’t eat. No food noise no cravings food that I normally like just turns me off. I feel motivated to go to the gym and I feel like I’m getting back on track but I also don’t wanna fall back into full ed again cuz that was a really tough time for me mentally even tho I felt so good and happy I was struggling so much. I’ve been going to the gym 2+ hours a day and walking to and from work (about 2.5km) I’m also a waitress Im moving for 8hours a day. One of my best friends who way better looking then I am started taking this medication too also for adhd but now I feel self conscious and that she’s always gonnna be better then me. I have this secret completion. I am jealous of her. But whatever

I can’t help but feel relieved that I don’t want to eat, I’ve consistently consumed under 500 cals a day. Today it was 350c

I cant wait till people will be proud of me again when they will say wow you look so good. When im not embarrassed to go out with my skinnier friends when I stop looking for someone in the room who is bigger then me I don’t feel so terrible about myself.

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I probably weight 290 by now with how far I’ve fallen if track

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Help me kms

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I need a someone please help me

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Think I wanna off myself

I’m so fat and uglt

Not even being an snow accxtc is enough to make me skinny

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Rant!!

My two friends have been so shit to me lately. My final straw was today I hope.

My one friend asked me to hang out after work and I was super down very excited to see her. And then she said she might not be home when I get off work. I said that ok we can figure it out. I asked our other friend what she was doing hoping she’d wanna hang out too.

They both stopped replying to me and then next thing you know they both turn off there location and are now hanging out together and ignoring me. And idk what to do or feel I’m just so sad and I hate that I’m letting other people make me feel this way but I’m just not ready to let them go cuz I loved them so much but more often then not they leave me in the dark or just ghost me.

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Slowly getting back on track I know that if decrease my cals/fat/card intake I won’t be tempted as much to binge its been going good

Need to weigh in soon hopefully it won’t make me sad

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7 ways to lose weight with out dieting

Eliminating processed foods is a healthy step, but there is no evidence to suggest a gluten-free diet will help you lose weight. Many popular diets, such as intermittent fasting, juice cleanses, keto, paleo, and gluten-free diets, may promise quick, easy weight loss. People who do not have celiac disease or gluten sensitivity might try gluten-free diets hoping to lose weight.

Proponents of intermittent fasting claim intermittent fasting helps lose weight and body fat, as well as improving health in other ways. Instead of cutting back on food intake and dealing with the mental struggles that come with dieting, you can shed pounds by increasing your activity, changing when you eat, and even using specific tricks to increase metabolism. While the fastest, most effective way to lose weight is by pairing a healthy diet with a good workout routine, you may want to try these effective options that do not involve going on diet.

Providing many health benefits, exercise helps to burn excess calories you cannot lose with a diet alone. Dieting is a fast way to shed any excess body fat. Once you lose all of the excess weight that you are trying to shed, you can cut back on your cardio days and add in some weight-training days. Once you begin getting the sleep that your body needs, you should lose one to two pounds per month with no other work.

Interestingly, you can consume lots of calories every day and still be able to lose weight as long as you eat only one daily meal in a small window. You need a certain amount of calories in order to keep up with your current weight and perform your daily activities. Eating more helps you keep a lower caloric intake, resulting in weight loss. Eat foods high in lean protein, healthy fats, and fiber, and you will feel full all day long, rarely getting any cravings.

Consider including several servings of high-protein foods in your daily meals. Adding fresh vegetables to your diet is a great way to substitute for caloric, high-fat foods. In addition to including fresh vegetables, whole grains, lean meats, and good fats in your diet, you should have 4-6 meals a day, smaller portions on smaller plates, and eat slowly. A high-protein diet may help you maintain lean muscle mass, reduce your appetite, and reduce calorie consumption.

Eat foods that are rich in fiber Foods that are rich in fiber may help you stay full, perfect for losing weight. Unsweetened drinks, such as water and black coffee, have been shown to help lower your caloric intake, which may result in weight loss over time. Unsweetened beverages are lower in calories and carbohydrates, making them a good option for people who are following the ketogenic diet or trying to lose weight. Research shows that a plant-based diet can not only help with weight loss, it is easier to stick with than low-calorie diets.

If you are looking for ways to cut your fat and keep your desired bodyweight off over an extended period, then choosing a more sustainable method for losing weight is a must.

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Fell off the wagon for a long time gotta get back to where I was I miss feeling not being hungry

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I lost weight which is rlly cool

Cw 195

Sw 246

Gw 170

Ugw 150