nevernotphased

[nevernotphased]

Promises Of Forever

You stayed by my side,

Through turbulent times,

In a world of illusion and lies,

In your arms is my quiet place in a world of noise,

What is this existence if you are not the prize?

I can't quite explain why,

Beaches were always beautiful,

But us meeting at one, the first time,

Made them feel even more even more alive.

Your heart is my safe place,

I've never been more sure about anything,

But the fact that you're the one in this lifetime,

And in every new beginning.

You know, my love,

This life is short,

And I can't imagine it

Without being yours,

For even just a minute.

How can I not cherish our silly back and forths?

Do you know that when I make those dumb jokes,

That glint in your eyes when you laugh at them

Is everything I've ever lived for?

Only my eyes can do you the justice that you deserve,

When I look at you smile,

Every inch of my being

echoes with I love you's,

Words that only make sense to me

When the one saying them is you.

The best thing about those streets of Italy,

Was that you were there with me.

I value the thrill as much as I do our silent times,

You don't know how grateful I am that you are mine.

It starts with intertwining fingers,

Ends at promises of forever,

I love how the kitchen is always alive

With the sizzling of the dinner we cook together.

You're not boastful about it,

But there's slivers of kindness in everything you do,

I can never be thankful enough,

For a man who's as perfect as you.

-M

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The One Left Asking Why

You changed your number,

You made new socials,

Tried to wash away your dirty past.

Moved somewhere else,

Because the weight of your sins will always last.

If you think that your wounds are deep,

I hope you never end up seeing mine,

The person who left hurts less,

Than the one left asking why.

You can tiptoe around the facts,

Make up a new reality,

But the truth will always remain,

You never deserved me.

You tried to clean your slate but,

You should accept your fate,

Some things linger long,

Especially the things one does wrong.

-M

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Be My Distraction

I look in your eyes and I only see him,

But then you say you love me, and I don't see a reason,

To change my actions,

Be my distraction.

I know that it's selfish,

I know it's not fair,

But no matter what I do,

I feel him everywhere,

And you want the satisfaction,

So be my distraction.

And I'll see your pain,

Ignore it like I'm blind,

If it helps me get through this just fine,

And I fear your reaction,

But be my distraction.

I'll give you this choice, to stay or to go,

But your mind's not made up, you want both,

This might cause some traction,

But be my distraction.

-M

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Coffee Shop

You treat everyone that way,

With a warm smile on your face,

I always wonder what you're thinking about.

The green apron doesn't suit you much,

But that humour sure does,

Your manager gets annoyed when we laugh too loud.

Caramel frappes and unspoken words,

Sometimes a latte and talks about the universe,

Every morning we talk like we've been friends forever.

The touch of our fingers when you handed me my drink,

Said my name in a way I've never heard before, a unique kadence,

I can never confess, I can only hope,

I'll spend my last dime at your coffee shop.

You said you grew up with fireflies at night,

Your mom's lullaby under the moonlight,

And I told you I'd like to travel the world on a ship like a pirate

Or throw hands and overthrow some tyrants.

Maybe for you it's just routine, just a job,

But I'd spend my last dime at your coffee shop.

-M

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Loud

Without you ,

Silence turns into sound,

It gets real fucking loud.

Without you,

home's just a house,

It gets real fucking loud.

Sometimes, my cries,

They're deafening.

And the screams in my head

They protest against

Everything I've ever known.

Without you,

The pool is a place where I drown

Even though my head's always above the water

It gets real fucking loud.

Without you,

Laughter sounds like lightning strikes.

It gets real loud,

It gets real loud sometimes.

Without you,

Winds sound like vengeful ghosts,

Trying to tell me to redeem myself before it's too late,

They don't want me to make the same mistakes.

Even the thunder can't wake me up from this nightmare

It's not loud enough to match the wavelength of your stare.

My mind, it always fills in

Silence with sounds so shrill.

Could you stop it?

Don't think you will.

-M

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Carved In Stone

Whispers of your name,

I hear them clearer

Than anything I've ever heard before.

Your silhouette, your face,

I see them clearer

Than anything I've laid these unknowing eyes on.

Beginning of fall,

You were all I ever needed.

I thought maybe you might

have the same feeling?

It's carved in stone,

Written on my epitaph,

When I go down I know,

You'd have the last laugh.

And if I'm being honest,

If I'm in a silly mood,

I might just consider

Laughing along with you.

They told me you would break me, I was never with them.

You can't break something that's already broken.

I swear that all the love songs that I listen to,

Seem to be about you,

there's no difference.

Is everyone who writes songs in love with you?

-M

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Fade Away

I miss you at random times of day,

Running out of things to say

About you in my songs, as your memory fades away.

I'm afraid I'll forget you,

Like all the pretty dreams

I've forgotten in my whole life,

Good things don't hold on to me.

I wonder if you feel anything,

When someone says my name,

Or did your memory of me

Just fade away?

-M

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Vendetta

The universe will pit us against each other,

Trust me we'll meet again,

Just so you can see how far I got,

Since we last spoke.

Your vendetta of ruining me,

You tried but you couldn't succeed,

We'll meet again but I'll never be sixteen again.

I'll never be sixteen again,

And look at you with eyes filled with love,

All I'll remember is the pain,

And how smoothly I got over it.

-M

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I'll Pass On That

I think I'll pass on that,

I don't think I'm ready yet

To be welcomed by flashing lights,

And the busy roads.

They won't take me home anymore.

I don't want to get wrapped up in our sheets again,

I don't want to walk the same streets again,

I don't want to know the sound of my heartbeat again,

When I see you.

I don't want to watch those TV shows,

I don't think that I'll like them anymore,

I don't want to do anything I did before,

With you.

-M

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In My Dreams

I wish I could at least,

See you in my dreams.

As now that we don't meet,

You've forgotten me.

I was all that you could see,

For what felt like a century.

How much to let go before you can hold on tight?

And it feels right.

How much to love and lose,

Before I lose my mind?

-M

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Lucidly

I know we haven't talked since the time I called you accidentally,

Still don't understand why you picked up

And stayed on the line till I cut it frantically,

And I never got the courage to follow up.

Months of avoidance till the last time we see each other,

It'll probably be when you're walking her home,

And I happen to pass you both on my way to therapy

If you really love her then why'd you tell me you were just for show?

Unresolved history,

Feelings I keep buried.

Woke up and realised

I had been dreaming

About things being okay again.

Dreaming so lucidly.

I don't wanna see your face

Never, oh never again.

I know my unwanted dreams will never be reality.

I don't wanna hear your name

Never, oh never again.

Too much happened for us to make peace.

-M

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Rid Of It

Smoking with your friends,

So high you can't feel anything,

With that tattoo of an eye

Of someone I can recognise.

How are you gonna get rid of it?

How are you gonna get rid of the memories?

You wanna seem strong,

But fall through every time you're alone.

In a cab or in your room at night,

Places where nobody knows your life,

How are you gonna get rid of her stuff?

How are you gonna get rid of her love?

-M

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Lost In Translation

When he asks me about you,

I say that we're friends.

But he asks me, "Why haven't you

Talked in ages then?"

He doesn't know a thing of what went down,

I missed you then like you miss me now.

But maybe the timing was wrong or we weren't moved on?

At the end of the day, I still wrote you a song.

I know it was short, maybe nothing at all,

But it felt real, like something I was born to feel.

But maybe we got lost in translation,

Or just weren't healed.

-M

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Coffee's Cold

I think we should end this conversation,

Got to the point that it may be our last.

Your coffee's cold, this has got all your attention,

If it did before, we wouldn't be each other's past.

Arguments just test our patience,

Talking it out would make it even worse.

Got to the point that it's all just pointless.

We were built to fall, it's a curse.

But don't you wanna give it just one more try,

And prove all our conspiracies wrong?

Don't you wanna fight for just one more night,

We might make it against all odds.

-M

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Melancholy

Some folks aren't melancholy,

Melancholy is them.

It makes up their soul and affections,

It's their beginning and end.

It is nothing, but their nature,

Be there a reason or not.

Melancholy's forever the lover

To the cursed of the lot.

-M

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Who's On Your Mind

You don't look into my eyes when we're dancing slow,

Tell me who's on your mind because I never know

What you're thinking about when you space out on dates,

And why you're so excited about going away.

The mere thought of her can make you happier than I do,

When I'm not just a fantasy, I'm right here with you.

It could've been me against the world and I still wouldn't let you go

So tell me who's on your mind, or just let me go.

-M

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Abberbroth

Abberbroth's an old vintage town,

So many pieces of history embedded.

I don't think I'll come back around,

But in the story of my life it was needed.

If you take the name,

I'll still smile

Beause the memories they'll always be intertwined

With my blood and my veins

So it pains me to say,

That I'm never coming back again.

Abberbroth's an old vintage town,

First love and the lesson it teaches.

All we knew was how to run around,

But it didn't have the skyscrapers or beaches.

As I grew up,

The smoke and the dust

Clouded all the pretty starry nights.

So there's not much to live for anymore

Had to move on from abberbroth

But I'm still in pieces.

-M