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just started lexapro y’all!!! maybe now i’ll finally be able to leave my house & get a job!!!! what i definitely really need is something for my adhd because everyone i know agrees i have it but im too afraid to ask the doctor! felt like too much to say “hey so ive been struggling with depression, social anxiety, AND adhd or maybe autism who knows!”

quite literally my kindergarten teacher told my parents to get me checked out for autism or something and they said no so i’m suffering because of them!! WHATS GOING ON IN MY BRAIN?!?!?!?

but also i just exercised! ENDORPHINS YO! I FEEL GREAT!

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wanna watch the buccaneers but it’s gonna be really hard for me to ship her with a guy named Guy. it’s like in magnolia parks…bitch why tf is his name BJ? cus you know what im thinking of everytime i hear it.

ima be reading an emotional scene and it’s like “Bj….” and now i’m laughing cus i have the sense of humor of a middle schooler. embarrassing fucking name.

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me when i see a supernatural edit with an ethel cain song so of course i hit repost, but then i see #wincest….lemme retract that real quick.

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people bag on reddit but i love going on there for advice. i always see people being so nice and genuine and helpful.

it also really helps put things into perspective when i look up a problem that feels so specific to me only to see that someone else was going through the same exact thing.

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just got the worst news of my life & on top of that lost pieces of my writing. short stores and diary entries never to be seen again….. lost art fr

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if you don’t like misty quigley then i don’t like you. and don’t bring up the black box because genuinely i don’t give a fuck. also she’s literally me so what now?

i cant find it in me to dislike any of the girls idc.

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back again to talk about the rory “you took my sitting tree situation” because like…she so me.

i wouldn’t do what she did (tell the person to move because that IS entitled, but i get her sentiment) but it’s like when there’s no assigned seats in class so i scope out the room and find the seat that makes me the least anxious and then i get there one day and someone steals my fucking seat, as if i haven’t been sat there all semester. it’s like, i am mentally murdering you while i sit silently in this random seat, probably feeling overwhelmingly anxious, on top of that anger. now my whole day is ruined and i can’t even focus on class because im so anxious.

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me personally i think the oc, veronica mars, and buffy all take place in the same universe because they’re all in California just different parts. also teen wolf.

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me and van plamer are so in love we even have the same name. like we complete each other, she goes by van, i go by nessa— what’s that make? VANESSA!!! can’t have one without the other 🩷

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finished ‘demon copperhead’! i love that book, i love demon, i love appalachia!!!

truly the only piece of media i knew of as a child that featured west virginia was ‘wrong turn’ which i loved cus i was a crazy child, but didn’t realize till i got older that they were being mean!!! man fuck you 🙄 so basically reading about Appalachia and ‘rednecks’ in such a positive light was so nice!

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sometimes i think about how much better veronica mars would be if instead of a love triangle between veronica, duncan, and logan it was between veronica, LILY, and logan (lily & veronca being in love duh). and of course duncan would be #dead.

the only problem would be that both ships would be so perfect i wouldn’t be able to choose. #throuple

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seeing shauna shipman kiss a girl has just confirmed to me that i’m never wrong about a character being gay. nothings impossible guys 🙏 i saw imogen in heartstop coming too the MOMENT i saw her.

so jen lindley is a LESBIAN! people call me crazy…they say she was boy crazy…she had a baby….she was a #thot. and i say she had comphet and thought her worth was based on the approval of men because of her dad and trauma. there was literally a whole plot line of her being confused as to why she didn’t like cj when he was the perfect guy….🤨🏳️‍🌈

lizzie saltzman is also a lesbian, simon & xavier are gay af, liam & theo are in love (liam’s bi, theos gay), stiles is also bi, nini salazar roberts BIG fat lesbian, audrey hope also a lesbian. gawd do i love head-cannoning someone as a lesbian! veronica mars is bi and was in love with lily and lily was also bi #rest in peace my queen, you go on haunting the narrative with jackie taylor 🩷

if i like a character odds are i think they’re gay, but that’s because i only like gay people so if i like you that means you’re gay 🫶

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travis lowkey my pookie i wanna carry him around in my pocket. and he’s better than me fr if my dad and then SISTER died…oh there would be hell to fucking pay.

need to give him a hug asap.

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me texting my sister (who only watched the first two episodes) that shauna shipman is now officially #gay so like she (my sister) may have a a boyfriend to celebrate Valentine’s day with, but i’m really the one who’s winning.

truly she does not gaf but even she, a woman straight as they come, thought shauna & jackie were in love so i had to give her an update.

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i already side eye people who use the terms ‘redneck’ and ‘hillbilly’ to make fun of people but now after reading demon copperhead (only 360 pages in don’t spoil nothin) I’m gonna start fighting bitches.

like lowkey that’s my family you’re talking about and the south may have it’s problems but you will not be the one to point them out you freak bitch.

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fuck all you bitches i’m gonna defend rory gilmore till the day i die!!! she is overhated!! yall just don’t understand her!!! i’m not saying she doesn’t have flaws & there aren’t valid reasons to dislike her, but half the time people be doing too much and literally misunderstand her character.

and yes i do hate logan!!! i like logan & rory as a couple, and he has cute moments, but as a PERSON logan is an arrogant, classist, asshole!!!! the fact is, rory made logan a better person, while he made her a worse one!!!! she brought out his best traits & he brought out her worst ones.

like who meets someone and starts trying to debate with them. like i can get down with rivals to lovers and bickering as flirting, but he did not KNOW her!! he was just starting a fight with a random girl because he thought it was fun, because it entertained him and that’s all other people are to him. entertainment. maybe that’s too far, but idc he didn’t even remember marty’s name! he probably treats service workers like shirt & doesn’t tip. and when he got mad at rory for criticizing his rich friends— valid criticism might i add— just because HE felt attacked. like yeah, you’re rich & an asshole & out of touch, sorry to tell you! and yeah, rory had no right to talk because she is also rich and privileged in the same ways, especially at that time, but that doesn’t negate the fact she was right!

they work because, yes, rory did get annoying in the later seasons, but high school rory would HATE logan. like y’all hate on yale rory as if logan isn’t the main version of her, except WORSE yet y’all love him 🙄

and i NEVER see anyone criticize logan for cheating on his fiancé, yet everyone’s up rory’s ass for cheating with dean. and yeah, that was horrible and lindsay deserved better, and while cheating can not be excused iit’s clear that dean manipulated rory while she was going through a tough time. she was transitioning into a new environment, where suddenly she wasn’t the smartest person and people didn’t dote on her and tell her how amazing she was 24/7, she missed the safety and familiarity of Stars Hollow and her childhood and dean gave a little bit of that back to her. was it horrible for her to do that? yes, but also he told her him and lindsay were getting a divorce— A LIE— and then slept with her!!! her first time was founded on a lie!!!!

i could & WILL defend her to the moon and back. and ya know what, idc about the tree thing. was it a crazy and entitled thing to do, hell yeah, but it was funny and real as fuck. like i wouldn’t say it out loud, but i would be annoyed if someone took my tree even though id know its not logical. it’s like how i hate when people are in the kitchen when im cooking as if they don’t also live in this house.

and i would ALSO say no to logan’s proposal, like godforbid i don’t want to get engaged right after i graduated!!! like damn bitch wait a fucking minute! and why must it be all or nothing?? you think you’re gonna go out & find the love of your life because she said no? well guess what, years later you’re still pinning after her— yall coulda been married by now but you decided to break up.

and unrelated but i’m the BIGGEST max medina hater. that man is my worst enemy. i don’t even wanna explain my hatred for him because it’s seems so obvious. i mean he proposed to her to stop a FIGHT, he is so immature and toxic but because he’s attractive and reads books and is charming somehow that means he’s not an asshole and overall shitty person. he is a male manipulator!!! you can’t tell me he didn’t think lorelai was below him, he definitely thought he was smarter than her. paris was right when she said he was probably dating someone dumb, not because lorelai is dumb, but because he thinks she is. like him correcting her in the middle of a fight???? BITCH KILL YOURSELF! I HATE HIM AND IT PISSES ME OFF THAT EVERYONE PRAISES HIM!!!

and yeah i do like tristian even though he’s basically a younger version of logan. but in my defense he’s hotter & pretty privilege is #real 🩷

i could say more but no one cares so i’ll shut the fuck up for once, you’re welcome ✌️

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seeing all the videos of people getting the raven cycle graphic novel box on my fyp is actually making me homicidal. THAT SHOULD BE ME!!!!

PLLSSS I WILL GIVE YOU MY FIRST BORN CHILD!!!!